|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|17 Aug 2002||me||somebody please send me an e-mail. im so f*ing bored out of my mind, last time i got an email (other than junk) was like 2 weeks ago. that's bad. and i have no friends. things arent well with me when im bored, i start to think about other things that i am not supposed to think about. ah, i dont want to write a bunch of junk on how i feel, i think u might be able to guess how i feel. anyway, you are welcome to write whatever to me.|
|27 Jul 2002||Shonice||i'm 13 and ive tried committing suicide since i was around 10. i'm depressed and everytime im awake my stomach aches. i feel there is no reasons to live. my mom never listens to me, i've already written a 7 page suicide letter. my grandapa tried to molest me, my grandama is an alcoholic who won't even believe he tried to do it. my mom doesn't love me anymore and the only reason that i'm not dead right now is because of my friend lisa. but now i've had enough i want to die, no one cares if i'm dead no one. i want to tell my mom how i feel but she'll never understand.... o well i have a gun i think i'm gonna blow my brains out... look for me on the news|
|13 Jul 2002||_meth||firstly, at 13, live in a overprotective family, cultivate childish irrational phobias over irrelevant things, like swallowing, or standing still; subsequently develop panic attacks over the most insignificant of things, and underperform grossly for your scholastic ability in national exams and get posted to an obscure school where everyone finds you incomprehensible; become a careless freak and break some bones leaving you incapacitated for months on crutches and unable to go anywhere; intentionally break up with the one who meant something to you, for no real reason just so you won't disappoint him - but you already have; lose contact with your old friends; realise there's nothing in this fucking world to keep you tethered down; no joy in anything; can't find anything to believe in; can't even believe i still exist; read too much fucking psychology; read too much fucking literature that i can identify with, hang out with people who are equally screwed up; parents scream at me when i say i want to kill myself yeah i'm such a fucking ingrate; try to become a human pincushion; i don't want to be just another fucking depressive there are already too many of them out there but i can't seem to get out of the rut; just walk the streets aimlessly, just another anonymous face; play with graphic cutters and razors at night; too many scars and i can't wear sleeveless anymore i've been saying I WANT TO KILL MYSELF for now long, no one believes me and they find me such a pain; i make jokes like i'm not serious but i am i just can't find the right way, i can't seem to do it, just a few more half-hearted scratches down the wrist; blinding anger futile compulsion, to punch through the window, to break the glass and slash my wrists, 4 years now and i can't even do anything about it; why. why. why. how. HOW. PLEASE. HELP. ME.
(this apparently is not the best way;
i can vouch for the longdrawn out agony
but no quick promise of death_
|13 Jul 2002||Angie||I have wanted to kill myself numerous times. its bcuz of my stupid dumb friend who is yes a boy. sometimes i will try to scare him and say that im gonna kill myself and he gets so scared. i say that cuz i wanna see if he actually cares about me. and from the times i did it he does care about me. but,the problem is i have said it so many times that he dont believe me anymore. so, one night i called him and i said that i was gonna kill myself. he didnt believe me. so, i got a rope and tied it around my neck and hung it to my door, stood on a chair and squeezed it. then i called him back and i didnt know it was him on the phone i thought it was someone else. then, i fell off the chair and hung up. i was gonna hang myself with him on the phone. sometimes i really really wanna kill myself. other days i dont cuz i think it will be better. but, i mean the tragedy that this kid puts me through would make anyone kill themselves. and anyone would say why not just stop talking to him? well i dont wanna. i like him that much. also im so alone. and i hardly have any friends. i have a really complicated life. if anyone wants to talk to me e-mail me .|
|11 Jul 2002||annette||billy it's just soo hard to try and keep myself alive. everyday is different. one day i am fine, the next day i wanna blow my brains out cause of something, i got into a fight with my friend or something... i think it'd make the world a MUCH better place w/o me. there would be much less problems. but i really apprieciate you trying to help me. thanx:)|
|10 Jul 2002||Annette||billy it's seriously the ONLY way out of all my problems. it's not fair that i'm 14 and have to live a life of miseries. and i think by killing myself it will show other people how important it is to treat people equally and with respect b/c i know i wasn't.|
|10 Jul 2002||Annette||I've tried EVERYTHING!!!! i already have all my suicide letters ready and everything but i'm just not dying !!PLEEEEASE tell me what to do! i need a reeeally good way that's easy. i already lost track on how many times i OD and slit my writs! HELP!|
|29 Jun 2002||Alex||I'm 14 and i hate my life. It's no one's fault but mine. It's funny though, I come from a moderately wealthy family, I'm very smart (a year ahead of my age in math and all honors courses) and not all that unpopular. I just hate my life. The only thing that keeps me from killing myself: I'm too fucking sensitive. Though my parents piss me off so fucking much, I know their lives would be over if I were dead. But that's it. I have no real friends. No one who would cry for me over my death. I hate all you shits that say suicide is for pussies or that we're just looking for attention. You've never been down this fucking road. There is no end to this tunnel. It just gets longer and longer. You try being unpopular, bad at sports and not being able to talk to a girl, much less ask her out. What's the point of life? The point of life is to die. It's inevitable. Everybody is going to die. Me, you, every Fucking person in this goddam world. We're all going to die. Why delay it.|
|28 Jun 2002||Do Re Mi||Hey you out there!!!! I'm very sick with my life!! I have a mama who doesn't love me!! I have a papa who is a freak!! My sisters hate me. I have to marry a man that i dun love. I have no reason to live this world. No one cares about me. U all dun understand being treated like shit. I ain't give a fuck what u r saying here. U may call me nuts, sick, insane, or whatever!! I ain't gonna change my mind to commit suicide!!! Fuck u all!! U all damn have a good life!!! N stop giving any bloody advices if u dun understand being treated like shit here, even worse than an animal!!!!|
|28 Jun 2002||Denice||Hmmm... you all dun understand why people decide to kill them themselves. I am so depressed, and i have no one to talk to. Nobody likes me, and they all treat me as i'm invisible. I dun give a heck what u say here, i'm not gonna change my mind to kill myself. That's the best way to get rid of the problems that i have being treated like shit in this world!!!!!|
|26 Jun 2002||Jenna||i've tried slitting my wrists, overdosing on asrpin and anti-depressants, ejecting air into my veins and lots more.. no matter what you will have some degree of pain. I'm 15 and very suicidal. I want to die so badly!|
|25 Jun 2002||Ingrid mendoza.... tha lovely maria i love you||I'm 15, and my life is so fucked up i wanna die. but i don't want to die hurt, i just want it to be painless...
like my cousin killed herself bout 6 months ago, i didn't get over it.. i cried i wanted her back. but then i reallized.. i don't think she wants to be back here living w/ her fucked up family .. life.. i guess i wanted to go w/ her.. just kill myself too...
all these ppl here thinking ohh why do want ppl to think that ur worthless.. blah blah blah... but ya know what .. all u bitches who have them good life.. if ur not going through all this bullshit... don't say shit at all, shut the fuck up.. my bad..
I don't think my life can get better ..it never did and it never will..
My cousin wanted to die cuz her dad (my uncle) raped her, beated her, her mom tried to kill herself so many times.. but maria (my cousin) stopped her. why?..cuz she needed a mom at that moment.. well her mom also beat the shit out of her.. living in such a fucked up life and place.. compton south central...
maria then got tired of it.. and just want to disappear.. she called me 2 days before she did it...said she loves me she wishes she could stay with me. but her dad fucked her again... he broked her nose, arm, ripped off her cunt.... what else can i say... it probably more but she didn't tell me..
then maria took 20 or more barbiturates... sumthin like phenos,red devils, rainbows, and that shit.....
before that happened she was on E didn't feel no pain only felt nummm..
she wasn't no gangsta or drug dealer back then.. she was 16 at a time she died.. w/ barbiturates.. she was already addicted to it... why not take 20 more of them ha.. so that's it she died.. in her kitchen.. just came back from the street.. dealing w/ tha crack heads.. getting sum pills to commit a suicide..... all her homegirls didn't give a fuck they cried for a day and leave.. all that motherfuckin hoodrats betrayed maria .. will die.. guess they didn't want her anyways.. .they can still be banging there in comp... getting shoot at.. fuck ya .... go to hell..... all u cunt hoodrat..w/ stds and shit...
so was there a good reason for my cousin to kill herself?..... what about her dad?......he's locked up in prison ..for beatin rapin... her.. nobody knew back then till maria died
As 4 me i miss her really much ..... my life is not as much fucked as hers but it will be gettin too... both my parents beat the shit out of me..... and i have a chance to have cancer... so like it might be a good idea to die... like maria.. to be w/ her.. maybe she dun want me to die.. but i'll go for good.. to get the fuck out of my hell.... family issues bitch ass cunt is gonna kill me anyways..... too much enemies.....
been throught lots.... mental hos.. jail.. ya.. got a bottle sticked up my puss ...... yeah yeah i think i like jail better than home don't have to face any of the bullshit of life.....
|23 Jun 2002||Troy||hi, i am not 19yrs old... i first tried killing myself at 15 by slitting my wrists. i didn't get far just a few rags of blood.. my blade wasn't sharp enough, i did this a few times then i tried painpills all i got was a lot of pain and throwing up, i tried hanging myself but my girlfriend found me.. i need suggestions, i thought everything was going well i had moved over to america to be with my gf but like 2 months ago i was arrested kept in jail for 3 weeks then deported back to newzealand. i got married to her in jail, i can go back in a few months, i promised her i wouldn't try again but it's so hard, everything i do fucks up in time. i always seem to fuck up, i just think i was only born for a certain amount of time, my soul's dead but my body isn't. tomorrow night my mother is going away for the night as i have to live with her again till i leave.. so i am gonna try again tomorrow night, it's the perfect time. i'm just not sure how yet. i have no pills just like 8 panadol and they suck, so any suggestions?|
|20 Jun 2002||Depressed gal||I hate my life. I have problems with my family, i was fired from my job, and now i have a boyfriend who wants to marry me and have baby straight away. I want to pursue my career, but he doesn't allow me to do that. I have no friends, i am so lonely, and everybody is cursing me. I cannot stand my life anymore.|
|14 Jun 2002||Jenna||hey i'm 15 and very suicidal.. how can i kill myself that won't leave a big mess and will be quick? I've tried slitting my wrists and failed. I want to die so bad... will someone help me?!?!|
|10 Jun 2002||shitface ferguson||I don't know of the best way to kill yourself, but I hopefully can stay ignorant of the painless and effective ways easily at hand. I have had nothing in life to bring happiness to me. Everyone else around me has done evil and intentionally hurt people but still get love and attention from others and don't give a fuck about anyone. The truly selfless people I have met are cast out and don't get the love and affection. I have tried to ignore the numerous disadvantages that I have and find only one I can't control. I am truly a very ugly person and can understand why people would have nothing to do with me. I rarely see anyone as hideous as me and realize people that focus attention on me are being sympathetic. I have been alone and scared my whole life, but I still have tried to be selfless. I believe people who know me, at least before a couple months ago, would say that I was a very caring and compassionate person. I have tried to be a good person my whole life and figured that eventually something would come to me. I have been patient, but not only does my life seem to be unfair, it seems to be cruelly unfair to me and others who seem to be good at heart. I can barely look in the mirror and I am under the impression I can never be loved because of my hideous appearance. I ask why my two extremely ugly parents would have kids, and still can't find an appropriate answer. I try and stay positive, but what for? I see most people as very hypocritical. Maybe because I have never accepted God, I have been punished. I have tried to be helpful, and rarely intentionally hurt anyone. Still I see those with all bad characteristics get the love and attention and I have lost faith in everyone including myself. Is this a world in which I want to live in? I have had those I have deeply cared for attack my insecurities for the sake of increasing their ego on my expense. I am so scared to do anything. I just need someone to tell me everything is all right, but I have come to the realization that if I am going to survive, I must be selfish and egotistical. I can't even suppress my tears during the day and putting things in perspective doesn't work for me. I want a hug, or some reassurance. I have tried so hard to be good, but I have been hurt and my wound can not heal. I hate myself for feeling no hope and selfishly thinking of myself, but I feel a selfless act is to kill myself because to survive you must be a selfish individual. I am so scared but I am my only saviour. I have denied God and all the hyprocrites that lie in religion. You fuckers that spend millions of dollars on churches when you could be providing support for the needy and spending numerous hours worshipping a God who must be insecure, when you could be helping those that need it most, instead of wasting time boosting God's ego (whoever he may be). I still cry, and know it may not get better. I just want someone to hold. My loneliness will do for now.|
|23 May 2002||Audrey||Please help me.... I've been thinking of suicide for a while as everything in my life is getting too much, but all the time there is this glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe something will turn right again. But it never appears and that glimmer is fading. I don't want to die but at the same time just living is becoming worse than i'd imagine hell to be. I need help but I don't know where to start looking.|
|21 May 2002||Andy||I am probably more worse off wanting to kill myself because I am 23 going on 24. It started at the age of 14 where I felt like my life was going nowhere but I did not want to kill myself that badly. Now it is a different story since I feel deep down that my life seems like shit not to mention that today the woman I adored in my college told me she was married. From there my feeling have really been taking a downward spiral.... don't know what to say other than I think I am ready to call it quits but don't how to go about it.|
|16 May 2002||Kayla||I'm 13 years old, and i'm anorexic and i hate my body and i hate my life. I feel so alone and unloved. I have tried to kill my self before, and i don't think i would want to do it again. It was painful and frightening. Everyday of my life I feel depressed and angry with myself. I'm looking for some support. So if u feel this way too, please email me or give me some advice.|
|15 May 2002||-kat-||my life so is so fucked up right now... i dunno what to do... i am very suicidal... but i don't want to die with pain... i want a slow and unpainful death if u guys have any ideas PLZ e-mail me at..