What is the best way to commit suicide when you're under 13?

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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?

Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?

28 Feb 2008 jack ballerstein jump of a bridge

28 Feb 2008 jl A reply to your question:

Have you ever considered doing some kind of volunteer work, like maybe tutoring, or some kind of mission, ...anything that may have sparked an interest [and that is safe, of coarse] Focusing on other people and how you can help them can be really therapeutic.
And find your creative self, whatever that may be (painter, mathematician, dancer, collector of oddly-shaped rocks, photographer of Elvis wedding chapels...whatever it may be) find it and do it

Of more eternal importance, and in all seriousness, pray continuously. If you haven't done so, or if you haven't an answer yet, pray to God to let you know that He is there.

I think that only God can truly, truly change a person. The same God who created the universe, that same God knows even every hair on our head.

Also, remember that we were not made to live this life totally alone or apart from other people, so don't expect yourself to be able to. It's just not how we work, you know. We are made to help one another, and to need help as well. Know that there are so many things in the future that we can't know yet, that you would miss out on if you were not on this earth. Please know this - suicide is not a success. It’s heartbreaking. Know that you are not alone in having the desire, and I pray that you will soon find or remeber that in life which makes it worth living.

ps- I heard this recently, and it stuck with me. I think it says a lot
"If you refuse to love me, you can be sure that I will hurt, and the reason I will hurt is because I have lost something. When God loves you and you refuse to love God, God hurts too, but not because He has lost something. God hurts because you have lost something
Quote from “Ichabod, Where is the Glory” Ravi Zacharias

Oh, and check out this video when you can http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30vSr2qXzis (i think it's good), And this song (ditto) http://www.gofishguys.com/gofishvcd.html PICK SONG 5. Tell me (us, actually) if you like
You may like this one too http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0rpHTynsws&feature=related
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"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"
John8:32 http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%208:32;&version=31;
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One last item for this kit, I heard this recently, I'd recommend as I'm glad someone did to me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYsClDclvf0

28 Feb 2008 on that note alas, i am here, again.
so i might as well hang around and make a few rude remarks while acting like i didn't say that i would stop posting here.

first things first i would like to address the issue of my tobacco addiction. I've realized that the reason I've stopped my daily routines of mock suicide and a death wishes is because i am currently in the process of killing myself. smoking is a fun hobby that helps you make friends and get rid of stress while at the same time making you look super cool(I kid you not), it also happens to kill you and everyone you smoke around faster then natural causes of death do. So I've been living out my life- and strangely, enjoying it. While at the same time I'm committing suicide, I'm living a great life and killing my self, AT THE SAME TIME! I think it's rather neat, but very very very confusing. :)

And the second part of this post is simply a response to what
"x-ray cat" said this January,
I applaud you good sir, your simple plan is effective and intact made me laugh reeding how your post and possibly your life ended,
I think I'm going to remember that for the rest of MY life. :]

Well then goodnight,

-spookypenguin

;]

28 Feb 2008 The Great And Almighty Bob Dylan Have you ever noticed that there isn't any use in sitting and wonder why, It doesn't matter anyhow.
And that there really isn't any use in sitting and wondering why,
if you don't know by now.
and if the rooster crows at the break of dawn,
they'll probably look out there window and you'll be gone.
And they're all probably the reason you're traveling on.
so just
Don't think twice, it's all right.

25 Feb 2008 I got an email trying to intimidate me. I talked about how I felt. I told no one to do anything or recomend it.This is supposed to be ananamous. don't threaten me.You know my name,Ya,what's your fucken point

25 Feb 2008 Rod Nordland I'm a journalist for Newsweek and would like to talk to whoever is responsible for this website.

19 Feb 2008 Barbara L. Newman if you truly do not want your life JESUS WILL TAKE IT and use it in his works! I CAN KINDA BE YOUR LIFE COACH ?

18 Feb 2008 victoria i have found that cutting your wirst is one of the slowest processes ever and people just make fun of you for it sooo i have found to just over dosse yourself and maybe within a couple days you'll die from oding

16 Feb 2008 For those of you who know me, my name could be kelly, but thats i would say that the best way to commit suicide really depends on who you are. as a semi-suicidal 13 year old, i would over dose on drugs of some sort. I suppose my friends would all say, Why do you want to kill yourself? you're awesome and funny and we love you and your life is great. But is it if you cant even trust the one person you've sworn to trust at all costs? i find myself trying to escape my self and lie to myself, the person i swore to my friend i would trust at all costs. there are only two solutions that i know of (one of which isn't fool proof) 1. suicide 2. insanity. to be able to loose your real self in madness could work but you cant really ever escape yourself. You my say that on the outside people look suicidal or not suicidal, but i've gotta say that those who are suicidal may be the last one you would expect to be

15 Feb 2008 Claire Reily wait a week or a month see how you feel then better still if ya gonna go take out some innocent bystanders and have your 15 minutes of fame on route !
Seriously talk to somebody about what is making you feel like you do it always sounds less serious when talked out . Things always do get better belive me . Stay posotive and take care.

14 Feb 2008 la tua cantante. lies make it better
lies are forever
lies to go home to
lies to wake up to
lies from the alter
lies make you falter
lies keep your mouth fed
lies till your death bed

14 Feb 2008 la tua cantante. Do I have to spell it out for you or scream it in your face.
Oh the chemistry between us could destroy this place.
Do I have to spell it out for you or whisper in your ear.
Oh just stop right there I think that we've got something here.

05 Feb 2008 Niki Don't. If you are 13 or younger the only reason you feel alone is because everyone else is conforming to social norms and you are smart enough to realize there is more to life. Don't conform and look beyond your circle of friends, there is more out there.

05 Feb 2008 i have no sympathy this makes me laugh. the title said "what is the best way to kill youreself when youre under 13" look guys, im 16 ok. yeah life is shitty at times, and sometimes i just want to end it all, but there is always soemthing thats pulling me back. and you have it too. the reason you havent pull the damn trigger is cause there's something behind your back thats gnawing on you. yeah i complain about my life soemtimes, i talk it out and you know what, it made me feel a shit load better. even it doesnt take away all of my hurtful feelings, it took away some. life is always changing guys, so dont be stupid. i have to say that im blessed. i have friends that cares for me and my mom whose always been there for me. but that doesnt mean that i dont have an abusive dad. so in short. i'll answer the question. whats the best way to kill yourself, is to torture yourself to death by depression. i mean, if you kick depression off of your mind, you wouldnt be depress. but you know what, if you think that life is that worthless, dont blow yourself up. thats too quick. let that damn depression eat you alive. let it gnaw on you until one day, you fall down dead cause your body and mind cant take it anymore. best way to die, i garentee it. besides, youre under 13 anyway right? what does it matter? right? i mean if you want to die as a virgin, go ahead. if you want to die without experiencing anything, go ahead. because you know what, if you die under the age of 13, ppl wont rmr you as, "oh that boy did...." nah fool, they'll rmr you as this. "that boy was a loser ass, thats y he killed himsefl cause he cant be a man." you might be a girl, but w/e the case may be, only losers and quitters give up. if you do, thats your prob. dont ask ppl stupid shit about suicide. im suicidal and im dealing with it and never in my life i asked ppl for help cause of it. so man up and just tell yourself. the world will pay one day, its just not today and walk it off! its not hard, you just got to be cruel and black hearted, like me. life is so much easier that way, trust me. if not then die the way i explained it, from depression. best way man, best way.

03 Feb 2008 dead inside. I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And i'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

[ its just me -- blue october ]

03 Feb 2008 dead inside. I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We're both flying away.

So we talked about mom's and dad's
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me

And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking
That's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me...

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

And I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
'til I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my... dreams

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we're not going to sleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony... we're both..
Flying away

02 Feb 2008 fuck u all if it is still raining tomorrow i will be going on another hike 2morw night and be taking a couple bottle corona beer, pills, and a rope (asprin, vocidin, and peret) with me and gunna kill myself while staring at the fucked up world around me while hanging.....

02 Feb 2008 suffocating under words of sorrow. Dear Lover,

For all the times I hurt you, I'm sorry. For all the times that I'm not there, I'm sorry. For all the distance between us, I'm sorry. For all the times I didn't say the right thing, I'm sorry. For all the times I made you cry, I'm sorry. For all the times I confused you, I'm sorry. For all the times you thought I was hurting you on purpose, I'm sorry. For all the times I said things I shouldn't have, I'm sorry. For all times I caused you pain, I'm sorry. For all the times your got hurt, I'm sorry.

I love you. Please understand that. I love you. I love you with every inch of my body, with every atom of my being, with every breath that I take, with every hearbeat, with every thought, I love you I love you I love you. From the depths of my soul, I love you. From the top of my head to the tip of my toes, I love you. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my being; I love you.

I won't leave you. I have never thought of leaving you. I won't hurt you. I have never had any intention to hurt you ever. I won't turn my back to you. I won't use you. I won't belittle you. I won't make you feel bad. Please believe me. Please. I need you so bad. I know life is hard. I know its always been hard. I know that the pain is never gone. I know that your hurting. Let me be there for you please. When your feeling down and nothing makes sense, let me suffer with you. When your good and things are ok, let me enjoy it with you. I won't leave you. Please believe that. Please. I love so much. I love you. I love you.

I am so sorry for making you feel that way. I am so sorry. I will never forgive myself for this, but please I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you so much. The only pain that is unbearable is the one I feel when I know that it is my actions that hurt you...because I said something, or because I can't be there for you right now when you need me. It's unbearable. I will make it up to you, I promise. I love you.

I love you so much. Please don't ever doubt that. Please don't ever forget that. Please don't ever think otherwise. I love you so much. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm not using you. I still need you, I will always need you. I don't take delight in your misery.....it's misery that takes delight in us. I'm sorry that you thought that I was doing that. I'm sorry that my actions made you feel like I was doing that. I'm sorry that I caused you pain. I'm sorry that hurt you so bad. I'm so sorry.

I love you so much. I love you. I'm giving you all the I can give you considering the circumstance we are in. Please let it be enough for now. I promise I will make up for all the lost time. I love you so much. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you isf. I love you.

01 Feb 2008 Tay hay lucy i dont under stand i tryed teice to kill my self when i was 12 myy life with mystep dad was hell im now 18 i feel a lot better but the thoughts are coming back even now no one noteses me no one will remember me

31 Jan 2008 dead inside. When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my....my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay
woah, stay, woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

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Date	Name/email Nom/email	What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
28 Feb 2008	jack ballerstein	jump of a bridge
28 Feb 2008	jl	A reply to your question: Have you ever considered doing some kind of volunteer work, like maybe tutoring, or some kind of mission, ...anything that may have sparked an interest [and that is safe, of coarse] Focusing on other people and how you can help them can be really therapeutic. And find your creative self, whatever that may be (painter, mathematician, dancer, collector of oddly-shaped rocks, photographer of Elvis wedding chapels...whatever it may be) find it and do it Of more eternal importance, and in all seriousness, pray continuously. If you haven't done so, or if you haven't an answer yet, pray to God to let you know that He is there. I think that only God can truly, truly change a person. The same God who created the universe, that same God knows even every hair on our head. Also, remember that we were not made to live this life totally alone or apart from other people, so don't expect yourself to be able to. It's just not how we work, you know. We are made to help one another, and to need help as well. Know that there are so many things in the future that we can't know yet, that you would miss out on if you were not on this earth. Please know this - suicide is not a success. It’s heartbreaking. Know that you are not alone in having the desire, and I pray that you will soon find or remeber that in life which makes it worth living. ps- I heard this recently, and it stuck with me. I think it says a lot "If you refuse to love me, you can be sure that I will hurt, and the reason I will hurt is because I have lost something. When God loves you and you refuse to love God, God hurts too, but not because He has lost something. God hurts because you have lost something Quote from “Ichabod, Where is the Glory” Ravi Zacharias Oh, and check out this video when you can http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30vSr2qXzis (i think it's good), And this song (ditto) http://www.gofishguys.com/gofishvcd.html PICK SONG 5. Tell me (us, actually) if you like You may like this one too http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0rpHTynsws&feature=related **************** "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" John8:32 http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%208:32;&version=31; ***************** One last item for this kit, I heard this recently, I'd recommend as I'm glad someone did to me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYsClDclvf0
28 Feb 2008	on that note	alas, i am here, again. so i might as well hang around and make a few rude remarks while acting like i didn't say that i would stop posting here. first things first i would like to address the issue of my tobacco addiction. I've realized that the reason I've stopped my daily routines of mock suicide and a death wishes is because i am currently in the process of killing myself. smoking is a fun hobby that helps you make friends and get rid of stress while at the same time making you look super cool(I kid you not), it also happens to kill you and everyone you smoke around faster then natural causes of death do. So I've been living out my life- and strangely, enjoying it. While at the same time I'm committing suicide, I'm living a great life and killing my self, AT THE SAME TIME! I think it's rather neat, but very very very confusing. :) And the second part of this post is simply a response to what "x-ray cat" said this January, I applaud you good sir, your simple plan is effective and intact made me laugh reeding how your post and possibly your life ended, I think I'm going to remember that for the rest of MY life. :] Well then goodnight, -spookypenguin ;]
28 Feb 2008	The Great And Almighty Bob Dylan	Have you ever noticed that there isn't any use in sitting and wonder why, It doesn't matter anyhow. And that there really isn't any use in sitting and wondering why, if you don't know by now. and if the rooster crows at the break of dawn, they'll probably look out there window and you'll be gone. And they're all probably the reason you're traveling on. so just Don't think twice, it's all right.
25 Feb 2008		I got an email trying to intimidate me. I talked about how I felt. I told no one to do anything or recomend it.This is supposed to be ananamous. don't threaten me.You know my name,Ya,what's your fucken point
25 Feb 2008	Rod Nordland	I'm a journalist for Newsweek and would like to talk to whoever is responsible for this website.
19 Feb 2008	Barbara L. Newman	if you truly do not want your life JESUS WILL TAKE IT and use it in his works! I CAN KINDA BE YOUR LIFE COACH ?
18 Feb 2008	victoria	i have found that cutting your wirst is one of the slowest processes ever and people just make fun of you for it sooo i have found to just over dosse yourself and maybe within a couple days you'll die from oding
16 Feb 2008	For those of you who know me, my name could be kelly, but thats	i would say that the best way to commit suicide really depends on who you are. as a semi-suicidal 13 year old, i would over dose on drugs of some sort. I suppose my friends would all say, Why do you want to kill yourself? you're awesome and funny and we love you and your life is great. But is it if you cant even trust the one person you've sworn to trust at all costs? i find myself trying to escape my self and lie to myself, the person i swore to my friend i would trust at all costs. there are only two solutions that i know of (one of which isn't fool proof) 1. suicide 2. insanity. to be able to loose your real self in madness could work but you cant really ever escape yourself. You my say that on the outside people look suicidal or not suicidal, but i've gotta say that those who are suicidal may be the last one you would expect to be
15 Feb 2008	Claire Reily	wait a week or a month see how you feel then better still if ya gonna go take out some innocent bystanders and have your 15 minutes of fame on route ! Seriously talk to somebody about what is making you feel like you do it always sounds less serious when talked out . Things always do get better belive me . Stay posotive and take care.
14 Feb 2008	la tua cantante.	lies make it better lies are forever lies to go home to lies to wake up to lies from the alter lies make you falter lies keep your mouth fed lies till your death bed
14 Feb 2008	la tua cantante.	Do I have to spell it out for you or scream it in your face. Oh the chemistry between us could destroy this place. Do I have to spell it out for you or whisper in your ear. Oh just stop right there I think that we've got something here.
05 Feb 2008	Niki	Don't. If you are 13 or younger the only reason you feel alone is because everyone else is conforming to social norms and you are smart enough to realize there is more to life. Don't conform and look beyond your circle of friends, there is more out there.
05 Feb 2008	i have no sympathy	this makes me laugh. the title said "what is the best way to kill youreself when youre under 13" look guys, im 16 ok. yeah life is shitty at times, and sometimes i just want to end it all, but there is always soemthing thats pulling me back. and you have it too. the reason you havent pull the damn trigger is cause there's something behind your back thats gnawing on you. yeah i complain about my life soemtimes, i talk it out and you know what, it made me feel a shit load better. even it doesnt take away all of my hurtful feelings, it took away some. life is always changing guys, so dont be stupid. i have to say that im blessed. i have friends that cares for me and my mom whose always been there for me. but that doesnt mean that i dont have an abusive dad. so in short. i'll answer the question. whats the best way to kill yourself, is to torture yourself to death by depression. i mean, if you kick depression off of your mind, you wouldnt be depress. but you know what, if you think that life is that worthless, dont blow yourself up. thats too quick. let that damn depression eat you alive. let it gnaw on you until one day, you fall down dead cause your body and mind cant take it anymore. best way to die, i garentee it. besides, youre under 13 anyway right? what does it matter? right? i mean if you want to die as a virgin, go ahead. if you want to die without experiencing anything, go ahead. because you know what, if you die under the age of 13, ppl wont rmr you as, "oh that boy did...." nah fool, they'll rmr you as this. "that boy was a loser ass, thats y he killed himsefl cause he cant be a man." you might be a girl, but w/e the case may be, only losers and quitters give up. if you do, thats your prob. dont ask ppl stupid shit about suicide. im suicidal and im dealing with it and never in my life i asked ppl for help cause of it. so man up and just tell yourself. the world will pay one day, its just not today and walk it off! its not hard, you just got to be cruel and black hearted, like me. life is so much easier that way, trust me. if not then die the way i explained it, from depression. best way man, best way.
03 Feb 2008	dead inside.	I lost a piece of me in you; I think I left it in your arms. I forget the reasons I got scared, But remember that I cared quite a lot. You see but lately I've been on my own. Yeah one, but one by choice. You see, thats a first for me, There's only me, yeah theres only me, And now I realize for once, It's just me. It's just me. It's just me, And I'll find a way to make it, There's noone left to stop me. Here I go. Can we take it from the top? So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take this from me. I'm already spent living half my life undone So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take this from me. I've already spent my life living half undone. I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again. I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends. I've tried to push them all away, They push me back and wanna stay And that's one good thing I have. I'm gonna feel a peace in me, I'm gonna feel at home. I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone. I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor. I don't wanna hurt no more. Yeah it's just me. It's just me And i'll find a way to make it. There's noone left to stop me. Here i go, can we take it from the top? So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take her from me. I've already spent my life living half undone. So why so long? So sad, i wanna be strong. Don't try to take her from me. I've already spent my life living half undone. I used to be the one who won before. I used to smile but dont no more. I'm living just to watch it all go by. [ its just me -- blue october ]
03 Feb 2008	dead inside.	I close my eyes and I smile Knowing that everything is alright To the core So close that door Is this happening? My breath is on your hair I'm unaware That you opened the blinds and let the city in God, you held my hand And we stand Just taking in everything. And I knew it from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep Here we are On this 18th floor balcony. We're both flying away. So we talked about mom's and dad's About family pasts Just getting to know where we came from Our hearts were on display For all to see I can't believe this is happening to me And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours That I was so yours for the taking I'm so yours for the taking That's when I felt the wind pick up I grabbed the rail while choking up These words to say and then you kissed me... I knew it from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep Here we are On this 18th floor balcony... We're both flying away. And I'll try to sleep To keep you in my dreams 'til I can bring you home with me I'll try to sleep And when I do I'll keep you in my... dreams I knew it from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep So here we are On this 18th floor balcony, yeah I knew it from the start My arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach No, we're not going to sleep Here we are On this 18th floor balcony... we're both.. Flying away
02 Feb 2008	fuck u all	if it is still raining tomorrow i will be going on another hike 2morw night and be taking a couple bottle corona beer, pills, and a rope (asprin, vocidin, and peret) with me and gunna kill myself while staring at the fucked up world around me while hanging.....
02 Feb 2008	suffocating under words of sorrow.	Dear Lover, For all the times I hurt you, I'm sorry. For all the times that I'm not there, I'm sorry. For all the distance between us, I'm sorry. For all the times I didn't say the right thing, I'm sorry. For all the times I made you cry, I'm sorry. For all the times I confused you, I'm sorry. For all the times you thought I was hurting you on purpose, I'm sorry. For all the times I said things I shouldn't have, I'm sorry. For all times I caused you pain, I'm sorry. For all the times your got hurt, I'm sorry. I love you. Please understand that. I love you. I love you with every inch of my body, with every atom of my being, with every breath that I take, with every hearbeat, with every thought, I love you I love you I love you. From the depths of my soul, I love you. From the top of my head to the tip of my toes, I love you. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my being; I love you. I won't leave you. I have never thought of leaving you. I won't hurt you. I have never had any intention to hurt you ever. I won't turn my back to you. I won't use you. I won't belittle you. I won't make you feel bad. Please believe me. Please. I need you so bad. I know life is hard. I know its always been hard. I know that the pain is never gone. I know that your hurting. Let me be there for you please. When your feeling down and nothing makes sense, let me suffer with you. When your good and things are ok, let me enjoy it with you. I won't leave you. Please believe that. Please. I love so much. I love you. I love you. I am so sorry for making you feel that way. I am so sorry. I will never forgive myself for this, but please I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you so much. The only pain that is unbearable is the one I feel when I know that it is my actions that hurt you...because I said something, or because I can't be there for you right now when you need me. It's unbearable. I will make it up to you, I promise. I love you. I love you so much. Please don't ever doubt that. Please don't ever forget that. Please don't ever think otherwise. I love you so much. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm not using you. I still need you, I will always need you. I don't take delight in your misery.....it's misery that takes delight in us. I'm sorry that you thought that I was doing that. I'm sorry that my actions made you feel like I was doing that. I'm sorry that I caused you pain. I'm sorry that hurt you so bad. I'm so sorry. I love you so much. I love you. I'm giving you all the I can give you considering the circumstance we are in. Please let it be enough for now. I promise I will make up for all the lost time. I love you so much. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry. I love you isf. I love you.
01 Feb 2008	Tay	hay lucy i dont under stand i tryed teice to kill my self when i was 12 myy life with mystep dad was hell im now 18 i feel a lot better but the thoughts are coming back even now no one noteses me no one will remember me
31 Jan 2008	dead inside.	When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one I will never let you fall (let you fall) I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all (through it all) Even if saving you sends me to heaven Cuz you're my, you're my....my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay, woah Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven