|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|04 Nov 2001||Gloria||I almost want to die but I feel like I can't. I'm 18 now, I've been addicted to heroin for a little over 2 years (and no, I don't live in the projects) and wish I could quit. I've tried to o.d. on it but all that happened (all 3 times) was I went out and woke up in the hospital. I'm sick of living like this!! I hate getting high, I hate the things I do to get drugs, I hate waking up sick every fucking day, my nose running, my legs twitching, my fucking eyeballs throbbing. It seriously has fucked up my entire life. I got kicked out of school, can't keep a job and have 2 warrants for my arrest plus 1 pending. I fucking hate my life. The worst part is when I wake up in the morning, because I open my eyes and think "shit, here it goes again". I feel so hopeless, I don't wanna be a junky but I can't stop! If anybody can help me please email me. I feel like the only way out is to kill myself but I don't wanna be dead. I just don't wanna live like this. I don't know who to talk to or where to go or what to do. Is there any hope or should I just kill myself?|
|03 Nov 2001||Brittni Jones||I have written on this site before. I'm Brittni. If anyone would be willing to talk to me and is a self-mutilator, I would appreciate it. I just want to find someone like me before I die. Thankyou.|
|24 Oct 2001||Jo||i can't get out. pain is my sanity. all i think about is death and that's all i want. i cut myself i like it and scares me. i haven't attempted anything yet, i'm too weak but that doesn't mean i won't. i don't cry, i dont grieve i seem normal. suicide seems a pleasant way out|
|23 Oct 2001||Consummate Cutter||For all you out there that are "so disgusted by this website" well FUCK YOU! You can maybe in a small way understand, but it doesn't go away, no pills or anything makes it go away, it will always be there. And besides, most of the time it isn't just the mind, it's the fucking bastards that jeer at us, and that we can not escape. WELL GUESS WHAT FUCKERS: YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE WORLD! I DON'T CARE WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAY. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THOSE LOOKS, THOSE REMARKS, THOSE FUCKING CUNTS THAT ARE ONLY IN THIS WORLD TO GET UNDER YOUR SKIN AND RIP AT YOUR SOUL. So fuck you fuck you fuck you. Everybody has their own story, and you can't just step in and expect there to always be a way out, because most of the time there isn't. NO MATTER WHAT FUCKING HAPPENS THE FEELING IS THERE, AND THOSE PEOPLE ARE THERE. IT IS WHAT GOD HAS BURDENED US WITH SO THAT IN THE END, WHO EVER IS LEFT STANDING GETS THE REWARD. WELL SORRY TO DISAPPOINT YOU BUT WE'RE A LOT WEAKER THAN YOU COULD EVER COMPREHEND. SO JUST GET ON WITH YOUR PETITIONS AND CRUSADES, BUT YOU NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE WAY. You can't change the world, you can't make them care, you just can't and leave us the fuck alone, just go away.|
|20 Oct 2001||I cry looking at all of you, because I'm the same, and I thought i was the only one in this world that cries all the time, and has no friends, and boys reject me, i don't know why... I can't take it any more, i don't want anymore prozac, take it away, take me away from this place, please i want to be with all of you, i want to run away with you and hug you, and be with people who will look at my scars and tell me it's alright and quit bitching at me. I need to be with all of you, I can't take this life I'm living. help me. Find me and we'll run away from this fucked up shit, and show the world who we are, and that we don't want to be treated this way anymore, go to war with all those fucking bastards that keep kicking me in the head while they force me to lick there boots. They think that they're so smart and wonderful. Just kill them. goodbye.|
|14 Oct 2001||Ashley||I WANNA DIE!!! WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO GO? HOW MANY PILLS DO YOU HAVE TO TAKE TO DO THE JOB, AND WHAT KIND? PLEASE HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS LIVING HELL. PLEASE.|
|28 Sep 2001||I Got Shit||i wish someone would tell me the answer to that. Actually i am 18, and i'm not sure of the best way to do it. No access to a gun, no guts to jump, and i don't wanna do it slowly and painfully. I'm looking at possibly 10 years in the slammer because of a girl who was the only thing that ever meant anything to me and now is gone. I've dropped out of school and have absolutely nothing to look forward to. So i really wanna get this over with. I guess the pills and alcohol sounds like the best way.|
|26 Sep 2001||peter||I hope that what i am about to say about myself will influence both me and others. For a few months now i have contemplated ending my life. One root cause of my feelings probably goes back 4 years ago or so. I am 18 now, and at the age of 13 or so I can remember being quite popular and happy but things certainly changed. I was cursed with a very spotty face shortly afterwards and what started as a few jokes turned into torment from my whole year that devastated my life. I lost my friends... and i mean all my friends, partly because my reactions to these comments always provoked further insult. I made two new friends with whom i spent the rest of my school years with... but never saw them out of school. They were as geeky as hell and I only hid myslef away with them at school to avoid the bullying. I finally got the spot situation sorted through many visits to the dermatologist. But I still left my school without any friends. When my complexion improved I began to notice that i started attracting some girls but hardly ever had the confidence to talk to them. In a strange kinda way I then got really self obsessed. In a recent car accident i became facially deformed and all hope that I had of finally becoming a popular person seemed completely gone... in fact there still remains no hope for me.
My parents do care for me and I have a loving family though. I can't bring myself to leave the house and reveal myself in public and if i could just switch myself off painlessly I wouldn't need a second to hesitate.
The only thing holding me back however is the fear of a painlful death and the fact that my family would not be able to cope for years. I still have no friends and have abondonned all hope of finding any. Of course anyone will look at you from the outside and think that suicide is the worst possible solution but their ignorance is shown by the fact that they feel they are in a position to judge. They clearly don't know how I feel. I smoke a lot of dope... about 3 or 4 joints a day but that doesn't add to my depression, neither does it make me happy. If it weren't for my family, who would be absolutely devasted if i committed suicide, I would go through with it. Damn... I am so undecided...why should I continue to suffer for their sake??
|25 Sep 2001||Angela||please, anyone, if u are like me (HATE school, have no life, no friends, future, and just really wanna talk to someone like me) please email me at: firstname.lastname@example.org cuz i would like to talk 2 some like me. THANX a bunch--- :)|
|25 Sep 2001||Angela||hi every1 who wants to kill themselves. i want to die, i would like to. does any1 out there feel just like me, really hates school, and just wants to talk to some one who thinks alike? if u r like me, and have no friends, has no life, and wants to talk 2 me then please do so, i would appreciate it. my email is: email@example.com THANX alot!|
|23 Sep 2001||John||I want to die. I can't take this world anymore. I want to escape. The only places I can go are Japan, or death. Should I take a whole lotta asprin? Should I jump off a building? I'm only 14, I don't have acces to guns. And I don't want to die painfully. I love Japan, I want to flea to Japan and kill myself there, in the quiet Nara countryside. Or maybe atop Tokyo Tower. Please, someone help me, I don't know what to do. Everything makes me cry, and I don't want to cry anymore. Fuck, the tears are rolling again. What should I do? Where do I get sleeping pills? oh god help me please. I don't want to go back to school. I want to kill myself before then. Or get away to Japan before Monday. HELP ME PLEASE. Please talk to me. please
Yahoo: firstname.lastname@example.org -or- email@example.com
|19 Sep 2001||Jamie||I've been thinking about it on & off for about 6 yrs now and have decided to go ahead with it. If anybody out there wants a suicide companion then please give me an E-mail and we can go ahead with it together.|
|18 Sep 2001||Cez||I have tried suicide 2wce in the last week. The 1st time i tried 2 slash my wrists but i lost my decent blade a long time ago so i used my bluntish 1 which i draggd down a wall when i was angry. The 2nd time was a few days l8r i took 10 paracetamol cos sum1 told me that's all it took but nothing happened. i got drowsy felt sik and had stomach pains. it nearly worked i guess. i recommend taking 15. if any1 wants 2 reply 2 me which i doubt, put an entry on this site cos my email account is bust xxxxxxx ;-)|
|09 Sep 2001||Josh||I am thinkiing about killing my self, this past month my gf has left me, my friends have left me, and i can't talk to my family about it. please email me with any suggestions or ideas to help me through my situation. i don't wanna do it, but i feel it's the only way out. i hope to hear from sombody soon before it's too late. thanks for your time. firstname.lastname@example.org|
|07 Sep 2001||Josh||I am 18, i never really had a proper girlfriend till now, well she just dumped me because i lost her trust because she would see me so i asked her brother to try and get her to see me, we were good together and lasted nearly 2 months. i am thinking about connecting a hose to my exhaust and running it into the car, i heard it was quick and painless, is that true and does anybody have any other sugestions?|
|04 Sep 2001||Heidi aka Spike||you should o.d. on any kind of drug. i would be dead but i'm trying to figure out if i want to or not. anyone wants to help me e-mail me. but anyone who wants to die should if they feel like no one wants them around like me.|
|29 Aug 2001||dvve||help me|
|12 Aug 2001||12yr old english whore||I am depressed and have been 4 the last year. I'm a prostitute. i hate my self i am anorexic but i cant stop. I have had 1 pregnancy scare already. My x boyfriend is threatening me he says he will hurt people soon and i might b 1 of them. He is on pills. I am so scared of wat he might do. My mom is out 2nite at a gig with her band and i have 2 look after my sister, i cannot cope mom is never in. 4 yrs ago my dad ran off with mom's drummer's wife. i miss him which is stupid cos he is a wanker. he doesn't want me, we haven't spoken since october. My mom suffered from depression 4 a while and i had 2 look after her. i was so scared i was only 8, it's so unfair. I have a good singing voice which people like, so they dont think i could be depressed. No1 understands. I smoke a lot, drink a lot, and i am addicted 2 paracetamol and solvents. I don't think i'm worth a lot 2 boys cos something happened 2yrs ago over a period of about a year i think it was sexual abuse with my music teacher. I feel damaged and used. I get so tired of living. I can never let emotion out like by crying cos my face just goes blank and everything stays squashed up inside so i cut my arms partly just because i deserve it. Some people say i need help but i tell them 2 fuck off so should u if they tell u that. A while ago i started trying 2 find ways 2 kill myself on the Web. The best 1 so far is 2 write a huge suicide note 2 all the mother fuckerz who have pushed u over the edge (parents, teachers, other scumbags) and then get pissed off ure face and swallow as many pills as possible. Just make sure no1 finds u b4 u hav died. xxx|
|11 Aug 2001||The name's help2000ag||This site is not helping.
My whole life I had maximum of 1, 2, 3 friends and every year I lost them all but this year is the worst one of all and If I kill myself I will be happy to go to hell because in hell I don't have to worry about anyone being hurt by my actions and besides by the way people are describing hell I would say I am in a fucking hell already.
But if I don't kill myself and It doesn't get better remember the 1st chance I get to hijack, build or buy a nuclear weapon then I will blow this planet out of orbit.
Anyone who wishes to help in hijacking or building a nuclear weapon when I or anyone else has a chance to then e-mail me at email@example.com
soon I'll be making a website and a club and believe me I will bring this world to an end if I don't kill myself first.
|11 Aug 2001||sean||I would like to know a way to end my life, without pain. I'm a male of 31, and tired of my life. I'm going through to much shit and I would like it to end|