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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|23 Jun 2003||leanne||in the past 8 days my body has digested: 31 paracetamol 13 ibuprofen 10 aspirin 37 laxatives and 23 diet pills.. achievement: fuk all. last of my 4 most important ppl 2 me has jus exited 2day: best m8 (3yrs) jus moved 2 the other side of england. we were bulimics 2getha all throughout highskool, she kno's virtually my lifestory; recently made the mistake of tellin her of my suicide attempt (jus the 1) she cried 4 a wile, told me it was a big cop out & it wasnt the answer.. rite.. 'so wot, my dear friend, is the answer? told her i was ova it so she can move away feelin guilt-free & worry-less.t he biggest lie ive eva told! we1st met wen i noticed her sittin in the cafeteria wiv no tray. i approached her &found common ground. 2nd person.. nxt door neighbour who i really fell 4 & stil hav not gotton ova. we met wen i moved house a yr ago. sittin outside in my garden@1am, came&spoke 2 me. startd pissin down wiv rain. we stayd there drenched chattin nonstop. howeva, i made anotha mistake; opend up 2 him & poured my tales of woes. l8r he sed he cant b wiv me coz my mind is 'in a messd up place' & i 'need 2 sort myself out' .u c, poor old him couldnt cope wiv my probs! neva spoke 2 me again. he moved away 2 university.
3)my 3 big bros...1 moved 2 australia, otha 2 moved away & we hav v. lil contact.
4)my father. he neva wantd me as a daughter, wantd me 2 b sumfin else 2 him. visit him once a wile in his flat. hadnt seen me in ages (few months ago) & he made comments; how much ive grown in2 a 'sexy' young woman & i had a gorgeous body. jus bout 2 go bed wen he makes an offer 'leanne,wanna sleep wiv me 2nite?' dnt 4get i was alone wiv him & an 1hr's train journey from home. ofcourse i refused, lockd the door & went 2 bed-nite seemd 2 last 4 days. no longer speak 2 him. he tried 2 justify himself, using the excuse of lovin me 2 much. told me not 2 tel mum. wen she found out, he calld me a liar.
ur all probly wonderin y i seem upset bout no.4.well, the truth, i feel nothin but pure rejection. not only from the guy i liked whom i poured out my heart 2 & gave me nothin in return, but also that im not good enuff 2 b a daughter. feel cheap, dirty & no amount of showers will scrub it off.. worst part is a month ago, afta i'd lost contact wiv him & my bros were 1st 2 kno, my fav bro calls me up & nite, tells me all 3 hav been sexually abused by him yrs ago&.. so was i, wen i was 2 young 2 remember. mum knew xactly wot a sik bastard he was, yet she married &stayd wiv him 4 more yrs. she knew wot he dun 2 my bros, they knew wot he did 2 me, yet they wotched me go 2 his house alone 4 yrs wen i had no idea. it cld hav bin prevented, nun of them protected me & told me 2 stay away from him. howeva, mum has no idea i kno i was sexually abused by him: bro sed not 2 tel her. so im livin in anger 2wards mum & i cant even argue it out.
sory 4 typing 2 much. jus wana say 2 all ppl out there wiv abusiv ppl in their lives.. dont fall 4 their petty xcuses or u'l bcum a victim &a sucker 4 bullshit. nothin can justify wot they did & im sory it happend 2 u. keep tlkin through it ere wiv every1..so much eazier tlkin 2 a bunch of strangers.. we r the least likely group of ppl 2 past judgement & disgust unlike the rest of bastard society who r all livin in this fuckin fantasy world. love u. xx
|21 Jun 2003||leanne||GOD, those bastards still aint visited.. not even a fone call-thats the last time i eva invite those invisible friends round. dont u jus h8 it wen ur non-existent friends neva show!! havent stepped out of my house 4 a record of..13 days now. the only contact i've had wiv the outside world so far, was last nite wen i sat out in my garden @ 3am, marvelling @ the clear sky, feelin the cool air kiss my skin so gently, listening 2 nothing but the silence stirring wiv lite breeze. i look a state, legs still unshaven, eyebrows unplucked, hair unwashed, stil wearing the same dirty pj's and dark circles remain so stubborn under my tired eyes, despite doin nothin but sleepin during the day and emerging from my bed @ nite 2 log on.apart from that, time is spent swallowing pills (ibuprofen, paracetamol, nytol etc), while my eyez remain fixed 2 the glow of my tv. wots the point.. ive nothin 2 do, nothin 2 say and no1 2 c. i swear...
if we cried blood, i'd already b dead........ 4 i lose about a pint a day.
my mother along wiv the rest of them remain knowledgeless of my ed.. how could she understand.. that woman called mum merely flirts & dabbles wiv the latest diets, whereas i have a full on long-term relationship wiv mine. slite distinction there, wouldnt u all agree?? i've been killing myself slowly wiv ED's whilst trying 2 end it quickly with OD's. oh my life is fulfilled with excitement!!! anyway, just a girl, it seriously worries me wen u stay quiet 4 this long. oh and molli.. sorry 4 spellin ur name wrong earlier. peace&love all round.. xx
|21 Jun 2003||Jackie||Nothing is going right. My life is soooo shitty i tried 2 audition 4 sratz in therir eyes kidz got a call back but my mam stoppes me then called me tarty. I am bullimic and still v.fat I got carp exam results and need sum 1 2 talk 2|
|20 Jun 2003||molli||okay this is the third one I have written in one nigth and I don't care bout that but ya I have said alot tonigth and everything is unorganized...
but ya where to begin how about age 5..
at age 5 I had a best friend and her and I would play all the time. well one day she was playing a game that we both knwo how to play, it was where u tied a rope to the top of a slide and then to your waist. well on friday when we were riding the bus my friend (Kelly) decided to tell my not to tie the rope to loose because when u slip u could die. well that weekend we were both playing outside but she was at her house and I was at mine when an ambulance came down the roade and kelly was in it, she had died... she slipped, her rope was too loose and she hung herself. most say it was an accident but I never heard her scream or anything and how would she know that a rope to loose would kill u, I think she killed herself and she was 6 years old.... after that I was traumatized and it was what caused and triggered my deep depression.... I spent year in counselling after that .... in between the ages 6-8 I had half of my family die and also my mom lost everything. she became sick and she also lost both her parents in a matter of 2 years and also had a baby on the way (my sister which we adopted her name is alexis) she lost it and stopped being the mom when my sister came we lost track of who played the role of mom, me or her..... if that was not bad enough at age 8 I was also raped by another girl... all of this only made my depression worse. I was so little and scared and I never told my counsellers so they never knew. by 9 I started drinking and also started cutting my wrist and arms at and I became an addict to both.... with this I had earned an eating disorder I became blemic (sorry can't spell this things too well) and anerexic... plus I was trying to raise my sister because my mom was too stressed and sick.... my dad was always working since my mom didn't work he had to support the family... So now I am living with guilt 2 addictions, 2 eating disorders, damage from a rape, I am trying to raise a kid and also trying to find parents besides going to school and I am only 9 at this time!
By the age of 10 I gave up I was done with and I didn't want to live any more so for the next three years I was going to try to kill myself. during this time my mom had another kid and it was my brother his name is joshua, he is now the second child I have to raise. Life was rough and now at the age of 14 and living throught that hell everyday for 5 years I am finally getting help and finding my way out but this will take years and so that is my life story though I am still thinking about suicide sometimes and cutting and drinking and I still have a few eating problems and I still send out my cry for help along with trying to answer others cries too.... I hope u listened and learned and yes I am only 14
|20 Jun 2003||molli||once again sorry for all that shit I am just so scared my life just keeps getting fucked up and shit and no one knows the secrets of my life I don't know if I will keep living because of all the damage I have done to my body already I mean I keep fainting and stuff and my parents don't believe me any more when I say I think I migth be really sick and that first nigth on here I was upset scared and the last thing I wanted was to find a site with blood dripping down it and a site that asked me the question of what is the best way to suicide and that nigth I wanted to cut cut cut and cut some more so bad but I couldn't and after all of this I am still shaking and crying and I wish some one would understand me love me hold me and believe me. why do I have to be so alone?
listen to me these are my cries for help!!!! please some one :'(
|19 Jun 2003||Kyle||AHHH...... all I know is I really hate living this life!!.... my life was pretty good until i was in the 6th grade... I finally came back to reality... and i woke up to a depression... i want to die so bad... but whenever somebody finds out they just start crying about how much they care about me and shit... well if they care about me so much how come they can't act like they do around me??... How come they didn't start to care until they realized i wanted to die?..... what's wrong with people... my friends ditch me for this stupid guy... who all he wants to do is get in bed with them... i really just wanna OD..... so please just tell me how much advil or ibeprofen i would have to take to die!!...|
|18 Jun 2003||Genevieve||PPL don't understand how hard it is to kill yourself and everyone wants the easiest way. I don't have a gun to shoot myself, I'm not sure how to hang myself exactly, but I have only one question... does any kind of drug work to commit suicide by a drug overdose? I really need that fact on overdoses and poison because when I do it I want to make sure I don't live to have to try again. Please tell me everything soon! My life totally sucks and nobody cares, if you want to help me, tell me how to die by an overdose... that easiest, fastest way to die. I want it over now. I can't take any more shit.|
|11 Jun 2003||Karla||Please guys- this really makes me sick when i think of my family and suicide and reading some of these stories out here on this site makes me sick too. Hey i wanna commit suicide but i dont know how to because my family goes crazy if i say i want to be dead. I dont want them to be devastated and never go on with their life thinking about f*ckin me.|
|10 Jun 2003||Brigitte||im sixteen and i dont know what to do. this life is so useless to me. sure i have plans for the future but how can i go through with them when i already made one big mistake. i slept with some guy and now everyday i fear i might have something bad. i regret it so bad and the worst part is that i thought i loved him and he loved me. i hate this life. i have been thinking of ways of comitting suicide since i was ten. please i need to know. i want a gun so it can all just be over. actually i was thinking of falling off a tall cliff and fly before i die. i feel so dirty and useless. everyone thinks im so good and that i would never do anything like that but i did and that caused me my life. i want to die now!!!!!!!!!!!!!|
|09 Jun 2003||Elizabeth||Hey I am not sure the best way to kill urself, i have tried so many things... i have to see some shrink, and i have anti depressant pills! My life sux i am ugly n fat! My friends ya dey nice, but once i aint in there sight they like 2 talk shyt! I'm 14 and i know i have a "long" life to live, but wats da point in livin a hard, fucked up life when no one gives a fuck about u, when ya can just end it... i know im goin ta hell for sinnin so much so commiting suicide wont change gods choice he already has 1 for me! 1 word of advice though, dont tell anyone anything, not even your closest friends, my closest friends took my secret and told a teacher, the nurse, the principal, and a counselor! When they saw my arms they sent me to a doctor because i had so many scars, and many of them very deep... Not only do i cut myself but i am bulimic... I know its hard, and i know dat no one really understands, even people going through many of the same things, no one can ever understand the pain sum1 is going through, i know no one understands my pain...|
|08 Jun 2003||Nicki||I am 15... but tonite i am in a great need to talk to someone... it's too late to call anyone, like they'd care. I'm alone in my room... there's so much crap going thru my head. I don't know what to do. I don't want to commit suicide, but at the same time I do. It's selfish and stupid, but my mom's a drunk. right now she's in the kitchen, drunk off her ass with some millionaire... She came into my room about a half an hour ago, after her new boyfriend came over and tried to buy me and my little sister off with a new CD player. I told him to go to hell, that we didn't need his money. My mom came in and told me what an ungrateful little brat I was... She told me I should just go away, and never come back. That she wouldn't miss me... I know she's drunk. But she's done this when she's sober. It only makes her more aggresive. I can't stand seeing her when she's drunk... I just can't take it. I mean, I'm suppose to be looking up to her right? But all my life all I've done i look down on her. I've raised myself, and my sister. All that cheap slut has done is gotten us in a tiny apartment... with barely any food. She uses guys for money, abuses me and my sister. I don't have friends because everyone thinks i'm some poor little twit with no life. I pray to God, I've gotten saved... I pray all the time for a better light. But there's nothing but more pain. I know that Suicide is a sin, but now I'm wondering if life is worth it. I've tried... i've really tried to improve my life. But I'm at the end of my rope... I need help...|
|06 Jun 2003||Emily||People don't understand that this isn't something people can just get rid of. It takes a lot of will power just to talk to someone. I'm glad this site is up- it helps people vent and listen. It's delayed my plans by at least a few days. Thank you Mouchette.|
|06 Jun 2003||Nicole||I do not know the best way to kill yourself when you under 13. I am 13 and I want to die. I can't take it anymore. People are so cruel at school they always make fun of the way I dress or look. My friends always talk about themselves and their problems and no one really listens to my problems. I don't think any of them really think I want to kill myself. I've od so many times, but I've never taken enough. When I cut myself I fear my mom will see because last time she just yelled at me. She didn't understand why I did it. They are all so oblivious. I can't take it anymore. I just want to die. Any suggestions? I just want it to be quick so that I don't change my mind....|
|31 May 2003||Samantha||I'm now 14 years and my life is a living hell. i cut myself like crazy intil i bleed soo much i cant take the pain. soo i cut myself to help me feel better. i get made fun of bc of the way i dress. people are cruel and unkind. i dont see the point of it. people would be like: then dont dress that way, and im like: i like it but i dont see the point of scream FREAK at my face soo what im gothic... ever since 11 years old i wanted to die bc of what my dad did to me and my mom i was beatin and i felt soo hopeless i always feel betrayed and i.. people look at me and say my life is so much worse and u have it easy its not easy im very depressed i feel theres no reason to go on and whats the point when u die anyways soo why cant i save myself from the pain some of have different probs some the same but it doesnt matter its like all the same when u wake up and just and wanted to sleep forever. my whole family treats me like fuckin shit i dont think its fair that i have to or others have to live this. i feel soo lonely even when some people do care it feels like nothing i just want death and i want it now it feels like there is no other way out of this im soo hopeless on life anymore i look down on everything ....|
|31 May 2003||Sabriel||I'm 13 and I really just want to end my life... but something stops me everytime... like I'll miss someone or I won't have ever done this or just whatever... I want it to be painless and quick... what is the best way? Oh and how to I get over stopping myself?|
|29 May 2003||Barbie||hey everyone im 12 i dont have a way to kill yourself. i have tried cutting Oding. i dont want something painful i want to OD but how many advils would u have to take? i dont want to live my dad hates me and worships my brother. i just moved to a place where i dont fit in and everyone hates me from a place where i was the most popular. i cant take it anymore i just wanna die, rub it in my dad's face that this is all his fault.|
|24 May 2003||kat||i don't know what the best way is... all i know is that it hurts when no one cares... i've been cutting for two months and my closest friends are aware of it and what have they said... nothing... they don't give a fuck.. it's bad enough that i feel completely worthless my friends showing that they don't give a fuck about me doesn't really help... why won't someone just care? that's all i want... for somebody anybody to just care|
|23 May 2003||hopeless||im so depressed i OD'd and got alcohol poisoning, ive cut myself but nothing seems to work. i just end up back in the hospital whenever i hear the word rape or slut or anything like that i cry. i hate my life. someone tell me another way to kill myself please. im only 14 i had a chance with life but fuckers keep ruining that chance for me they keep tellin me to press charges on the guy who raped me but it would bring back to many memories so fuck it all i just wanna leave this fucked up world|
|16 May 2003||martin||please im 16 and i think i want to end it|
|16 May 2003||just a girl||without a voice, without a thought, without a soul.. dont let me die here.. there must be something more.. bring me to life...
i dont know how much longer i can do this.. please give me something to live for.. please help me..