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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|11 Jun 2003||Karla||Please guys- this really makes me sick when i think of my family and suicide and reading some of these stories out here on this site makes me sick too. Hey i wanna commit suicide but i dont know how to because my family goes crazy if i say i want to be dead. I dont want them to be devastated and never go on with their life thinking about f*ckin me.|
|10 Jun 2003||Brigitte||im sixteen and i dont know what to do. this life is so useless to me. sure i have plans for the future but how can i go through with them when i already made one big mistake. i slept with some guy and now everyday i fear i might have something bad. i regret it so bad and the worst part is that i thought i loved him and he loved me. i hate this life. i have been thinking of ways of comitting suicide since i was ten. please i need to know. i want a gun so it can all just be over. actually i was thinking of falling off a tall cliff and fly before i die. i feel so dirty and useless. everyone thinks im so good and that i would never do anything like that but i did and that caused me my life. i want to die now!!!!!!!!!!!!!|
|09 Jun 2003||Elizabeth||Hey I am not sure the best way to kill urself, i have tried so many things... i have to see some shrink, and i have anti depressant pills! My life sux i am ugly n fat! My friends ya dey nice, but once i aint in there sight they like 2 talk shyt! I'm 14 and i know i have a "long" life to live, but wats da point in livin a hard, fucked up life when no one gives a fuck about u, when ya can just end it... i know im goin ta hell for sinnin so much so commiting suicide wont change gods choice he already has 1 for me! 1 word of advice though, dont tell anyone anything, not even your closest friends, my closest friends took my secret and told a teacher, the nurse, the principal, and a counselor! When they saw my arms they sent me to a doctor because i had so many scars, and many of them very deep... Not only do i cut myself but i am bulimic... I know its hard, and i know dat no one really understands, even people going through many of the same things, no one can ever understand the pain sum1 is going through, i know no one understands my pain...|
|08 Jun 2003||Nicki||I am 15... but tonite i am in a great need to talk to someone... it's too late to call anyone, like they'd care. I'm alone in my room... there's so much crap going thru my head. I don't know what to do. I don't want to commit suicide, but at the same time I do. It's selfish and stupid, but my mom's a drunk. right now she's in the kitchen, drunk off her ass with some millionaire... She came into my room about a half an hour ago, after her new boyfriend came over and tried to buy me and my little sister off with a new CD player. I told him to go to hell, that we didn't need his money. My mom came in and told me what an ungrateful little brat I was... She told me I should just go away, and never come back. That she wouldn't miss me... I know she's drunk. But she's done this when she's sober. It only makes her more aggresive. I can't stand seeing her when she's drunk... I just can't take it. I mean, I'm suppose to be looking up to her right? But all my life all I've done i look down on her. I've raised myself, and my sister. All that cheap slut has done is gotten us in a tiny apartment... with barely any food. She uses guys for money, abuses me and my sister. I don't have friends because everyone thinks i'm some poor little twit with no life. I pray to God, I've gotten saved... I pray all the time for a better light. But there's nothing but more pain. I know that Suicide is a sin, but now I'm wondering if life is worth it. I've tried... i've really tried to improve my life. But I'm at the end of my rope... I need help...|
|06 Jun 2003||Emily||People don't understand that this isn't something people can just get rid of. It takes a lot of will power just to talk to someone. I'm glad this site is up- it helps people vent and listen. It's delayed my plans by at least a few days. Thank you Mouchette.|
|06 Jun 2003||Nicole||I do not know the best way to kill yourself when you under 13. I am 13 and I want to die. I can't take it anymore. People are so cruel at school they always make fun of the way I dress or look. My friends always talk about themselves and their problems and no one really listens to my problems. I don't think any of them really think I want to kill myself. I've od so many times, but I've never taken enough. When I cut myself I fear my mom will see because last time she just yelled at me. She didn't understand why I did it. They are all so oblivious. I can't take it anymore. I just want to die. Any suggestions? I just want it to be quick so that I don't change my mind....|
|31 May 2003||Samantha||I'm now 14 years and my life is a living hell. i cut myself like crazy intil i bleed soo much i cant take the pain. soo i cut myself to help me feel better. i get made fun of bc of the way i dress. people are cruel and unkind. i dont see the point of it. people would be like: then dont dress that way, and im like: i like it but i dont see the point of scream FREAK at my face soo what im gothic... ever since 11 years old i wanted to die bc of what my dad did to me and my mom i was beatin and i felt soo hopeless i always feel betrayed and i.. people look at me and say my life is so much worse and u have it easy its not easy im very depressed i feel theres no reason to go on and whats the point when u die anyways soo why cant i save myself from the pain some of have different probs some the same but it doesnt matter its like all the same when u wake up and just and wanted to sleep forever. my whole family treats me like fuckin shit i dont think its fair that i have to or others have to live this. i feel soo lonely even when some people do care it feels like nothing i just want death and i want it now it feels like there is no other way out of this im soo hopeless on life anymore i look down on everything ....|
|31 May 2003||Sabriel||I'm 13 and I really just want to end my life... but something stops me everytime... like I'll miss someone or I won't have ever done this or just whatever... I want it to be painless and quick... what is the best way? Oh and how to I get over stopping myself?|
|29 May 2003||Barbie||hey everyone im 12 i dont have a way to kill yourself. i have tried cutting Oding. i dont want something painful i want to OD but how many advils would u have to take? i dont want to live my dad hates me and worships my brother. i just moved to a place where i dont fit in and everyone hates me from a place where i was the most popular. i cant take it anymore i just wanna die, rub it in my dad's face that this is all his fault.|
|24 May 2003||kat||i don't know what the best way is... all i know is that it hurts when no one cares... i've been cutting for two months and my closest friends are aware of it and what have they said... nothing... they don't give a fuck.. it's bad enough that i feel completely worthless my friends showing that they don't give a fuck about me doesn't really help... why won't someone just care? that's all i want... for somebody anybody to just care|
|23 May 2003||hopeless||im so depressed i OD'd and got alcohol poisoning, ive cut myself but nothing seems to work. i just end up back in the hospital whenever i hear the word rape or slut or anything like that i cry. i hate my life. someone tell me another way to kill myself please. im only 14 i had a chance with life but fuckers keep ruining that chance for me they keep tellin me to press charges on the guy who raped me but it would bring back to many memories so fuck it all i just wanna leave this fucked up world|
|16 May 2003||martin||please im 16 and i think i want to end it|
|16 May 2003||just a girl||without a voice, without a thought, without a soul.. dont let me die here.. there must be something more.. bring me to life...
i dont know how much longer i can do this.. please give me something to live for.. please help me..
|11 May 2003||shannon||I think most thirteen year olds probaly don't consider suicide. Actually when I was 13 I never thought about it because I used to be religious. But now I'm not and I'm 16 and considering suicide. My pain is too unbearable. People shouldn't talk about things they don't understand. Every morning I wake up and wish I didn't so today, May 10, 2003 I won't have to wake up ever again. I am a hopeless case, others should seek help.|
|08 May 2003||Syndee||well i was searching for an answer to this question. im not 13 im 16 and i have had a miserable life and i just wanna end it, im not fond of pain at all, i have tried to od on tylenol but it didnt work, i view life as one giant disappointment with moments of happiness, well with me its just disappointment. i really wanna end my life i have been thinking about it since i was like 10. i cant take it anymore, i find no point to life i have no one who would even care if i die. i have heard ppl say that anyone considering suicide is selfish well then i guess im selfish but u try to live 1 day in my life and then tell me how selfish i am if anyone knows an easy painless way to commit suide do me a favor and email me so i can just get my life over with...|
|05 May 2003||REJ||hi everyone. My name is ross and I have a serious problem. I got dumped about 7 months from today (today is 5/5/03) and I am having troubles. My ex-g/f can care less about me even though we hang out and claims to be my friend. My friends think im annoying. My parents think I am a mistake. I am a dork. I play and talk about videogames a lot, watch T.V. a lot, and play no sports. I like science-fiction stuff and I like comic books. Not a lot of people like me. People pick on me for being short and a wuss. I don't deserve to live. I would love to kill myself, just to see what people would do. I would be better off dead. No one would even change or even cry. In fact, everyone would be better off. My Mom once told me on my 15th birthday that I ruined her life. I wish I was never born. Everyday, something happens and I plot in my head "I am going to kill myself when I get home". I have tried hanging myself but I am too afraid to pull it off. One time I took some pills but I didn't die. Everytime I am about to kill myself, I think that I have something to live for. Then it ends up that I don't. Any good ways to kill myself immediately?|
|03 May 2003||seth||there's no tablets left
there's no reason 2 live
i want out
and i want it asap
i've done it so many times
but the tablets just don't work
i ca'nt strangle coz it's 2 slow
i dont want help
i just want out
this ain't a joke
this i just can't cope
the cuts just aren't deep enough
i don't want hassle
i don't want 2 talk
i just want out
and i want it asap
this isn't meant 2 be a poem or song
it's just the way it came out
if u know how...
when where or why
if u want 2 pull the trigger
or be there when it happens
just do and don't hesitate
|02 May 2003||Liz||i am 13, and i really wanna die right now. the only thing holding me back is the memories that i will miss with my friends, and some of my family. how many pills will it take 2 kill yourself so i dont mess up? i dont wanna go 2 hell but i dont wanna be here either! email me with answers|
|30 Apr 2003||Depressed24/7||Well I recently found out that I may have slept with someone who was infected and that i may too be indeed infected and it's scary to think that I might die from a sickness which is painful suffering and of course other will look at me as if i have cooties.
I haven't yet been diagnosed with anything but I have heard the rumours about him and what he is supposed to have and I can't ask him anything cause he has been shot and killed and now I'm left with this empty feeling and don't wanna suffer and die. I just would rather die with less suffering like in my sleep somehow or I'd even rather just be shot and die immediatly but I have a son and he is only 2 and I'm 20 and I would hate for him to see me suffer and in pain. I'm a weak person I suppose and I hate pain. I don't know if this would be right cause I don't totally agree with suicide and it's a Big Sin but what am I to do if I'm gonna die anyway of a slow suffering pain........ I'm so scared....... I contemplated on a few ways to take the plundge, overdose on some kinda pill maybe extacy or do something crazy that would make someone revenge on me and shoot and kill me or await my fate of death.... well if any of you have some helpful advise and ways that are painless of killing myself please tell me
|30 Apr 2003||Ender Wiggen||I've read alot of posts on this board of people giving reasons why suicide is stupid, hurtful to loved ones, etc. And what moves me is that so many of you have posted your e-mails and have given warm invitations to talk.
To be honest I've never articulated to anyone why I consider suicide, but one of the posts here offered a word of advice: talk to a stranger. Maybe someone here can offer me some advice.
All my life I've been "different". One reason for this difference I have discovered is an anxiety disorder that I have (the psychiatrist
I saw diagnosed me with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Attention Deficit Disorder, and mild Social Phobia. Whoopee. The psychiactric value meal. Can I have fries with that?).
I'm also a geek. I like science, sci-fi, games, etc. Things that "normal" or "cool" people look upon with contempt.
As for the "disorders" I have, I've tried drugs: Prozac for the OCD, Ritalin for the ADD, he even wanted me to try Paxil for the Social Anxiety disorder but frankly I don't want to gain 100 pounds and lose the ability to maintain an erection. I think I'd get more social anxiety from the cure than the disease.
In short, the drugs don't really work. I know this because the happiest time of my life was the 2 years after college when I got a job and finally realized that I wasn't a complete waste of flesh and could actually succeed in the real world (I had an extremely low self opinion from grade school through the end of college). I was on prozac and ritalin before this time and was in hell, and then once the novelty wore off from this time I came back to hell. Since then I've dropped the meds and have noticed no difference.
When it comes to people, I have a very small group of close knit friends. It takes me a while to feel comfortable around people, which means I don't make friends easily and the ones I do make tend to be very close. A while back, two of my closest friends had an argument and haven't spoken in over a year. Recently, for reasons I have yet to understand, one of them up and stopped talking to me. I tried to call a couple times and talk to him to find out what I did but he didn't return my calls. That was six months ago. I can't describe how hurt I feel because of that. I'm not saying I'm completely innocent, I must have done something, but the least he could do would be to tell me what.
Now recently I have begun to be rated poorly at my job. It might have something to do with the fact that they laid off all the really mediocre people and I'm now left to compete with the Einsteins.
So the truth of the matter is this, I have come full circle. I, once again, feel like a failure career-wise, and the rate at which I seem to lose or lose touch with friends is faster than the rate I gain new ones. I'm doomed to be lonely.
I feel like this is as much as I am capable of growing and it's just not enough. You'd think I'd have made some progress in life emotionally, today I'm 27, tomorrow I'll be 30 and the same person. I could spend years fumbling around emotionally blind trying to find happiness, but somehow I think I'll just keep ending up back here, feeling alone,
depressed, and like a failure.
Where do I go from here? I've laid out two possibilities:
1) I move to another state (I've lived in Arizona all my life) and try my best to find happiness. Perhaps the new surroundings will spark something inside me that Arizona has snuffed.
2) I drive out to the country, play some techno, and take 100 2mg Klonopin tablets.
Is it better to be alive and in fear and loneliness, or to be dead and feel nothing? Sweet nothingness.
I welcome any constructive advice. Thanks and sorry for the length of this post.