|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Dec 2003||Neil_y2n||First of all, I'm just 16 years old.. I'ts really hard living for me. I really ask God lots of questions. I just get too depressed when things aren't going my way. I know I should just think of myself but sometimes I just don't accept the things happening. Specially when I am in love or "LOVESICK" in that matter. I just think about this girl so much. Like she's the only reason I'm alive right now. Dec. 3 2003, I told her my feelings for her. But she said we were just too young to fall in love.. That really broke my heart that day. I couldn't help but wonder that I'm still alive up to today. I already planned to kill myself that night. It's maybe God who doesn't want me to die yet. And even I wanted to kill myself, I just couldn't lift my arms to stab myself with a knife. I'm just really scared of getting hurt. I wish I could cry for all the things I feel. But if you look at me, I'm a really a tough guy and wasn't really built to cry. That's what I hate cause if I feel depressed, it all goes to my heart. I just can't cry to let it all out. It's really hard.. Don't forget me people when I'm gone... Cause I WON'T forget you! Peace out..|
|19 Dec 2003||Dan||Well I'm not 13 or under I am actually 17 no job and have until january to get a job or get back in school or be kicked out of my mother's house. I screwed up big time by missing a lot of school and falling behind on many things and don't really know what to do now. If I get kicked out it's pretty much over I have nowhere to go and nothing to own. I have been dependent on others so much of my life and it really sux. Living with my mother has been great and I got a great computer and lots of games which I spend most my time playing. I have no problem at all going to sleep and saying I'll worry about it later but now it's piled up so bad I can't do that anymore. I used to consider suicide a few months ago when I started getting picked on in school but never actually did it, I guess I used it as an excuse not to really do anything with my life, thinking well who cares I can just kill myself. At times I thought it was funny and at times I couldn't think of a good way to do it. I hate pain and didn't want to hurt the ones that actually loved me and cared for me. I feel as though I owe my mother so much but don't have anything to offer. I'm confused and look down on myself a lot trying not to look to others even though I know I am. I did it to myself and can accept that. I know my problems aren't near as serious as others but I don't know what to do anymore.
I'll make another post later on more of the things I feel and am thinking but right now I just can't focus on them enough. I'm not sure what I'm looking to gain by posting this, if it's attention or what I really don't know, I don't even know the point but I figure I'd post and see what others say.
Thx for reading if ya did
|16 Dec 2003||confused||I am 15 years old and i just recently found out i was depressed. I've been feeling this way for a while but kind of just thought it was normal i guess. I've had my ups and very low downs for the past couple of months. I've cut my wrists a couple of times. A week ago my friend saw my cuts and made me get help. I thought maybe it would help but all it has done is make it worse. I'm so confused and so lost. I hate seeing other people happy. I want to be happy but i'm just not. i don't even have a hard life, it's just how i feel and i can't help it. It's so frustrating. Now more than ever I'm considering suicide, but if i tried i wouldn't want to come back.|
|10 Dec 2003||RUBBER BAND MAN||The thought of suicide has been mind candy to me for a long time. Before I never had the conviction, I thought too much of those in my life, mainly my parents. It would destroy them and in a way I feel my life belongs to them. Things were never that bad and I put some faith that in the future things would magically improve.
I know life is a gift and a precious and delicate thing, but I cannot get around the fact that I can't make life work, I should enjoy it, I know, but it always feels like an endurance and I am so very tired. I feel like I am in hell and that some kind of curse follows me letting me appreciate how others enjoy life but not being able to emulate this myself.
I have read worse scenarios on this site which are humbling, but don't change the way I feel. I keep falling down getting back up and feeling positive, making a new start and then falling down again and falling further. Recently my few friends are strange around me. I think they feel awkward around me for some reason I can't wholly fathom. This latest development has made things unbearable, as I can't get any relief for my bad mind-set form them.
I have always felt this way though. If at some point in my life I was once happy I know I could get back to that, but I never have and so have no faith I can ever do so.
I guess I just want to hear from people in a similar situation, I can't talk to anyone about this I know for various reasons.
Best way to kill your self under 13?
You don't know enough about life until you have been around the sun at least 20 times to make an informed decision to end it. Teenage years are tough and for many outcasts, life after their teens is their making and best times.
|06 Dec 2003||rey||someone kill me
|02 Dec 2003||john g||hey, well right now, im being charged with arson (its as bad as rape) and well IM FUCKED. tomorrow i have court, and well if i dont get out of this, im going to O.D. on tylenol, and sleeping pills, and im going to try, and get wasted too. i mean i would have killed myself already, my parents hate me, i dont feel love, and my life is just gone down the shit hole, but someone's in my life now, her name is arielle, and, i love her with all my heart, and that's what's stopping me from committing suicide, but i think that if i dont get out of this court thing, my life is out of my heads and my soul is now god's. well everyone please try and enjoy ur life, cuz i know i have had a worse one than u. for example, do u feel love? does ur mom have mental problems? does ur sister have adhd? does ur dad have an anger management problem? were u made fun off from grade 1 to grade 8? DO UR PARENTS HATE U? have u fucked up before? were u treated the second best all the time? can u afford things?... i could go on, but i will stop. i hope that made u think on how much better a life u have than me. have a great life!|
|28 Nov 2003||Rey||what the fuck i am soo tired of being ignored.|
|26 Nov 2003||why?||this is just getting stupid. i feel like i'm watching everything through a window. i'm on the outside looking in. but inside i'm crying. i don't understand my ways. i don't understand the living. i don't get why i'm here. I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE|
|19 Nov 2003||cody||hey............... is there anyone who has a bad life? well i do and i know that more people do. But the thing is that i've tried to kill myself many times but i really think i'm gonna do it cause the people at my sckool just make fun of me for everything and i just can't help it. i don't have a clue why but my life is coming to an end soon . when i was like 9 i never thought it would go this far, i didn't think that everyone would be this way to me, even my teachers just blame me for shit i didn't do. why shoudn't do .... there isn't a reason why i shoudn't. i cry myself to sleep just hoping i'll die in my sleep but if it's not going to work out that way i guess i'm just gonna do it myself ................................. no one can help me now, do you wanna know why? cause i'm going no going somewhere, not here. do you know what i'm gonna do after i send this well you know so why should i tell you bye|
|18 Nov 2003||MauvaisSouhait||Thanks Chris, i really hope to read another e-mail from you. as for today its horrible. im ready to end it all. i've been crying my eyes out and its so bad they're swollen and all puffy. I got really upset and hit my wall. i think my knuckle may be broken. my head is pounding immensely. Not a good thing. I know Chris doesn't want me to die. But who knows.. Just write me back. i miss u|
|18 Nov 2003||A.F.||Theres a lot of people on here i can really relate to and its good to come on here and read peoples messages and know im not on my own. im in the self-destructive phase at the moment which a lot of you probably know about, where you couldnt really care less what happens to you and you have the scars down your arms to prove it. i wish i could just end it all but theres something stopping me and i dont know what, maybe i just dont have the balls for it, i just really cant do this for much longer, i know that much... what the hell can i do?|
|11 Nov 2003||rey||I throw up so much maybe i should stop taking 12 sleeping pills a day and look for help.|
|11 Nov 2003||Rey||Hi i am rey i am a girl. I really need someone to talk to that i can relate to, i really dont want to be alone enymore. i am scared to be alive, my mother never stops making fun of me and i find myself talking to no one. i use to live for playing guitar but my mother took everthing i had to live for away . i fantasize about swallowing a cup of razor blades and never waking up.|
|09 Nov 2003||Steve||I'm surprised that I'm not dead yet. I was pretty sure I'd have killed myself by now about a month ago, but I am still here. I don't know how much longer I'll be around though. I'm on Zoloft and though it seems to make me more calm and relaxed, it doesn't prevent me from feeling really low at times and wanting to end my life sometime in the near future. I'd like to speak to some of you, as I'm bored most of the time, so please email me at the address provided if you're interested.|
|06 Nov 2003||nisha||i cant take the pressure no more.
so do you know easy and pain less way to die. im open for any options.
|02 Nov 2003||Claudia||I live in Los Angeles and I want to kill myself. I want to get a gun but I don't know where to get one. I want to shoot myself in the head. Can anyone help please... my back up plan is OD with my dad's diabetes pills. Thanks.|
|01 Nov 2003||Nikki||To me the best way to kill yourself is to take pills and take a lot because if you dont your not going anywhere. I have been trying and thinking about suicide since i was 12 and i'm 15 now. i felt like i was alone in the world and nobody cared if i lived or died. i was in love with a 19 yr. old named Antwan (i was 12 at the time) and one day he asked could he come over and wait for my brother to come home and i said he could. He parked his car down to road at an old house. he came in and sat beside me and started to touch me. i mean i liked him, but, i was still ony 12 and he took my virginity, that night and i have never seen him since and felt broken inside like a play toy.|
|01 Nov 2003||somebody heartbroken forever||hey this is not to anybody inparticular. im 13. ive slit my wrist 5 times since july 2003-august 2003. ive tryied to od but it doesnt seem to work. ive even jumped out in front of a car but the car swerved. FUCKERS, but i havent thought about suicide since august. it just recently came back this month and my life is a tormenting hell everyday is the same. i hate life. i wanna die. but i want it to be in a very easy painless way. other then the 2 ive tryied please anybody with suggestions email them to me at email@example.com. i would greatly appreciate it.
***the very miserable katie***
im not shooting myself or jumping off a bridge
|01 Nov 2003||MauvaisSouhait||oh mouchette, thankyou for being here and giving me a place to put my messages it was sweet, but now might be my end, i cant really feel too much right now, im only going to miss Chris, he was sweet tho i never knew him, and he never e-mailed me.. he was nice... i cared... i think im gonna be sick, i have to go now.
|31 Oct 2003||MauvaisSouhait||I finally did it... i just downed 3 bottles of advil and im home alone for the weekend. noone here to find me or to take me to the hospital. not that they'd care. Chris, i love u, thanks so much for being there, even w/out being here.|