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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|28 Apr 2004||depressed and suicidal||I am 26 and I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is email@example.com . Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|27 Apr 2004||Rachel||my story is dramatic ive seen people cry over them. And ive seen people trying to calm me down while crying. So this is a quik warning.
my story begins when I was 5 years old I didnt have eny friendz yet but a small toy ( bunny ^_^) I carried it evrywhere. At that trime my parents were in a big fight they hated each other so much,They would argue evry single night. And I couldent sleep so I alwayz hid behind the corner and watched, I hoped they wouldent see me.
but on my 5th b-day it got way out of controll. My mom got so mad she threw this galss cup right at my dad. he was bleeding and I saw the look he gae her. He gave her a look if betrayel, Like he couldent balieve she would do such a thing. I closed my eyes shut hoping it would be over, suddenlly for the first time in my life I was crying from pain, Knowing that my parents were in pain. My mom smirked. Then the cops came and otulk my dad to the hospital, He had 2 get stitches. But after that brief moment, My life changed so did my parents, Not in a good way. My mom continued to yell But this time my dad was quiet he didnt say anything and he always gave me a mean look, One he never gave me before. But then it happened Again, My mom threw another huge glass cup at him. And this time they saw me watching. There eyes glazed with evil. I dont know wut happened. Its like the saw the devil. The charged at me. And locked me in a room. And I would cry and they would lough.Years went bye As they continued my suffering. Thye got me hampsters when I was 10 but only to kill them and make me ry in torture and pain. I guess my parents were sick of yelling at each other and wanted to take all there anger out on me. I never had eny friendz because I was allwayz quiet and sat in the corner. Evryone thought I was weird and retarded and sooner or later started hatin on me. I grew up all alone with nothing to look forward. But then something terrible happened I still had that toy bunny, Thyre grabbed it from me and toor it up into pieces. Thye toor up my only friend. And then she ran after me with a knife. She got me, Right in the arm. It hurt I had to be strong, Strong enuf to put the weighed of the world on my shoulderz, I had to try my best not to stumble, I couldent stop my suffering. Tears of mine were worthless. I started being a bad person now, I started smoking, drinking and lots of other shit but it helps me 4get about the pain, But now I might be taken Away into dss (lke jail) cause my mom put me there saying im a bad child, sheze roght. But I dont know when Im going, I recently got some new friendz and I fello inlvoe wif this guy and were going out. And I luv my friendz so fuckin much its not even funny. But then people have bin telling them to stay away from me and they listened, Its the worst feeling inda world having to loos a friend. And I go threw that evry single day. I cry myself to sleep
But It doesnt work I cant fall asleep because I cant stop thinking of my life. And then my guy .dear Adam, dont u understand? I luved u because U reached out ur hand .
But u left me for wut the otherz say.
Im sorry it hasto be that way..
I honostlly dont know why I keep posting this sotry on this websight a11 the time
I guess im bored and lonely but I toulk 50 pillz (sleepin pi11z) and I was out cold 4 a week , I dont remember anything that happened but the nursez told me they had to take me fast cause I was rely sick I mean extremlly sick and they asked me where I got da drugs I said lil kim and started singin her song, then I started speakin in Spanish and I dont eavin kno Spanish. Enyways I woke up and a day later the sent me to a menta1 hospital cause they thought I was sphyco. Ugh but im fucking not. Enyway I was there 4 bout 3 weekz and now I got out and on this day im posting this 4 the people who think im dead. But I am rely mad dat I didnt die
|12 Apr 2004||Banks||Hello ,
I am in my mid-thirties and I am looking for a painless way to commit suicide. I think I have enough of this world. Please help me.
|06 Apr 2004||Personal||You know, I wish I never existed, I wish I didn't ever have to live here on Earth. I am forced to live, I don't like that at all!! Why do I have to live? No one asked me if I wanted to live or not. Man do I wish I didn't exist. I don't have the guts to kill myself yet, or any good ideas that are painless, clean, and effective. It's just a shame this many people have to go through with it. Having a nice life and good friends and family doesn't seem to help. I refuse to see a doctor about these thoughts and pains, I don't want to take a "happy" pill. I don't like taking drugs, I shouldn't have to!!. Oh and if you are christian, please email me and tell me if suicide victims can go to heaven. (hopefully I am alive)|
|05 Apr 2004||D||I really don't have time to go in to detail as i think my dad is waking up. I've tried slitting my wrists, i've tried hanging myself before - (might try it again in the near future) i was gonna stab myself quite a few times before but every time i chickened out at last minute.
I have so many aims in life, but everything else is stopping me from getting there.
i would really like to get hold of a gun but i don't know how.
any help much appreciated.
|03 Apr 2004||Rachel||plz help me, Evrytime I try and grasp 4 air. evry time I take a step farward it leads to a mistake, If u look me up I wrotrwe soemthign on here and ,
but my tiem is short, The wallz are caving in...plz help me Im not gonna be abled to stop myself from wat im about to do
|31 Mar 2004||MARIA||a tragic moment i lived in the same house since i was born at the age of 14 i moved rite on my birthday i was so depressed and im still am then months l8r 2 aunts and 2 uncles hae died my neighbors they were like grandparents to me becuz my actual ones died well it so happened that these ones died to my cuzin is really bad i moved into a town were most ppl hate me or i have no friends i hardly get out of my room no one understands me i feel so trapped i just need a friend to talk to my parents dont pay attention to me my brother is in the marines he got a restrict form to go to war my 19 yr sister seems like shes takin over my life the only person i have int he world is my oldest sister shes about 27 shes been like a mother to me and everything else even though i cant tell her my problems cuz i noe wut she would say she would say how stupid i am tryin to commit suicide I DRINK ONE DAY A WEEK 10 MOTRIN, 5 ADVIL, 11 TYLENOL, 22 RECIPTION FROM THE DR. AND I TRY HOLDING MY BREATHE FOR AN HR BUT I ONLY GET UP TO 20 MINS AND IT DOESNT SEEM TO HELP I ALSO TRIED FOOD POISONING, CUTTING MY VIENS BUT IT SEEMS AS NOTHIN HELPS I AM SO DEPRESSED ALL IM WAITIN FOR NOW IS THE DEATH I DONT EAT I HARDLY SLEEP IM WAITIN TO DIE I LEFT ALL MY FRIENDS BEHIND WHEN I MOVED AND I CANT MAKE NEW FRIENDS MAYBE BECUZ I DONT WANT TO ITS JUST NOT THE SAME IM IN A GANG AND IM TRYIN TO GET MY SELF INTO LOTS OF TROUBLE W/ PPL TO SEE IF THEY WOULD KILL ME BUT IT JUST SO HAPPENEDS OUT OF NO WERE MY HOMEBOYS GO AFTER THEM BEHIND MY BAK NEXT THING U NOE IM FORGIVEN I GUESS I DO HAVE FRIENDS BUT THERE GANG MEMBERS BUT STILL IF U GUYS HAVE ANY IDEAS OF HOW TO DIE PLEASE!!!!! I MEAN IT PLEASE EMAIL ME @ LACHICKA0003@WMCONNECT.COM PLEASE!!! THX.|
|26 Mar 2004||Amara||hey i am 11 and i have thought about killing my slef plenty of times i just dont want it to hurt but i really want the pain i mean i have tried cutting my self but my mom thought i was using to many blades on my razor so she wants to make me let her watch me as i shave and it just makes me so mad and u r prolly thinkin y is this %n wanting to kill herslef? well when i was 3 i started getting molested and from 3 to well now i have still been getting touched and almost raped and i hate it it and its all my fault and i could tel som1 when ever i wanted to but for some reason its like they(the molsters) let me me take pills to take my life and well do stuff and not no i am doin it like i could kill my self and not even no it. and u would think i would stop letin them do this to me but i hate my life so the worse it is i think ill be able to end it so if any of u want to tell me somethin do it soon i want to no wat ya think and soon|
|22 Mar 2004||mickey b||hey. im not actaually 13. im 14 but i thought that might as well count. ive been depressed for 4yrs now. and i hav cum 2 a decision. ive contemplated suicide. i hav decided to do it. probably something messy like a gun or somethin. gets the job done quickly. or a knife. i sorta did this 2 get advice. email me at firstname.lastname@example.org|
|18 Mar 2004||Rachel||hello Ive posted my thoughts on this be4
I tried killing myself yesterday, I toulk 40 pillz and and I woke up, Now Im just in hell Ive locked myself in my room Im not coming out I wanto DIE and Im not coming out till I do. I still have 100 pillz left should I take them???
Im in my room right now wtf should I do.
Im only 12. I cant take living enymore.
My life is 10 timez worse then eny1 elsez
I can promise U. This is my story
when I was 5 years old my mom thrue a glass cup at my dad until he started running away as he started bleeding and he saw me watching and so did my mom , I dunt kno wut exactlly happend but they went mad they started chasing me with a knife. and they got me , they got me rite inda arm. my mom was puton restraing order but only 4 a year. at that time I was put into a home and it was really bad ther I would cry myself evry night to bed and I had nothing to rely on I had nobody to love or nobody who loved me. then when I got bak I went bak wif my mom and dad but then they got a devorce evry night my mom said I was an accident and that it is all y fault they devorced. I wouldent stop crying. unitl I got this diary I wrote out my heart and wut it felt and it was my only friend. but then more shit started happening. My mom was getting madder and madder evry day. she started chasing me alot wif a knife and I have all these bruises. My dad callz me some timez to tell me how much he hatez me and how much he wantz to kill me.
and when I started getting some friendz at skool my mom went and put a restraining order on dem and its the worst feeling inda world having no friendz or your friend ahte u and I just cant take it enymore I feel like this world is leening on my and my back is about to break, I just cant lift it enymore. Having to know taht if u die and have no1 care hurts me alot.
I started cutting myself last moth and I liked watching the blud drip down, it made me feel better. I think its gonna make me feel better when I die.
BUT I NEED SOME1 TO TELL ME HOW ICANT TAKE THIS ENYMORE.
|13 Mar 2004||brian||hy, my name is brian and I'm looking for a painless way to commit suicide. please send me an e-mail if you can help me.
|11 Mar 2004||HEATHER||HEY
WELL... I CUT MY SELF. NOT TO DRAW BLOOD OR WHATEVER JUST TO HAVE THAT EASE U GET WHEN U SEE IT! IT LIKE THIS GREAT HIGH U GET. AND AFTER BEING DEPRESSED SO LONG I'LL TAKE WHAT I CAN GET! IT'S ALSO THE SAME WITH MY EATING. I EAT AND FOR LIKE PERIODS OF TIME I WONT AT ALL! IT'S THIS CONTROL AND PRIDE THING. I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR AN IDEA OF A FAST GOOD WAY TO DIE! (EVEN THOUGH IM 14) SEE MY AND MY SO CALLED BEST FRIEND WERE PLANING ON RUNNING AWAY! BUT WHEN I ASKED HER IF SHE STILL WANTED TO GO SHE SAID NO CUZ" MY LIFE IS OK RIGHT NOW" (WE HAVE BEEN PLANING THIS THING 4EVER!) THEN I GOT ALL MOODY AND YELLED AT HER SAYING SHE CAN KEEP PRETENDING WITH HER PERFECT LIFE AND BIBLE FUCKING FAMILY! AND NOW SHE WONT TALK TO ME! (THAT BRING MY FRIENDS LEVEL TO 0!) I DONT THINK I CRIED SO MUCH EVER! NOT EVEN WHEN M FAMILY WAS SICK! WOW I FEEL SO SELFISH AND EMO! BUT WHAT CAN U DO! I REALLLY JUST WANNA GO, LEAVE BREATH AND GET AWAY AND BE ME! WELL DOESNT SEEM LIKE THAT IS GONNA HAPPEN SO IM GONNA GO EAT (GET FATTER) AND TRY TO CALL LINDZ!
LOVE HEATHER BYE
O YEA IM ME IF U WANNA TALK TO A MOODY BITCH WHO HAS NO LIFE FRIENDS OR ANYTHING BUT WANTS TO RUNAWAY
|03 Mar 2004||Rachel||well I have a few really good wayz
1. In my opinion the best way to commit suicide (I tried it several times) is to swallow those nice small white or red sleeping pills. Go in two different dispensaries and buy two small parcels of tablets.
Then go home, drink a pint of Palm (note: Palm is one of the best Belgium beers), so they'll go faster down. Then carry a few glasses of water to your bed and begin to swallow until all the pills are hidden in your stomach. Then lay down and wait till you fall asleep. When your eyes close, you know that everything is over and that you rest in peace if nobody brings you to the hospital the next hours! it doesn't hurt 1 bit!
2.U know how Cleopatra died? she killed herself with a poisonous snake wich only took a few moments to kill her so if u can get your hands on a poisonous snake get 1.
also try to jump down the highest bridge there is cauze i heard it wont hurt cauze ur going so fast u practically die inda air*
ive been suicidal 4 a long time as soon as i turn 13 ( im 12 rite now) im gonna take the pillz and write a note be4. i die of how much i hate ma parents and how every1 who ever made ma life so miserable as it is now can be happy about it cauze i wont be on this earth anymore. evry1 hates me ever since i was 5 peepz bin seriously trying to kill me becauze i never really said much and i was always crying cauze I had no friends and evry single day ma parents tell me how much of a bitch i am and she callz the cops on me every night and now there putting me thru juvi cauze they think im so bad there putting me in a hospital but im not crazy. ma mom just hatez me and nobody understands what im going thrue rite now if only some1 understood of how much dramatic shit ive bin thrue how it feelz to loose your friends all of them and watching your parents fight every night, never having any friends... and when u like some1 and become friends with them evry1 tellz them to stay i away and again evry1 hates me, ever since i was fuckin 5 yearz old i saw ma mom trying to murder ma dad and after that she was crying she got a restraining order 4 a month but then after that they formed together against me and tried to kill me ever since and preventing me from having friend or any1 who even loves me , i was inda dark alwayz i lost hope i dont even smile anymore... so im gonna try killing myself with sleeping pillz cauze it doesnt hurt im gonna get dressed up and go to bed with a note and drink the pillz and die. I dont know wuts gonna happen to me after but if any1 can help me in anyway any advice or something , email me at Starprincess441@aol.com
|01 Mar 2004||Rachel||Me im only 12 and ive bin thrue so much shit in ma life its not even funnie enymore when ur parents start fighting when ur only 5 trying to kill each other yelling evry single night and u cry yourself to sleap evry single day of your life hoping it would end. then your parents turn on u and chase u around trying ti kill u. then becauze of that you start trying to act older becauze u have no friends to turn to cauze your to young. when u burn yourself really bad and ur there in tears screaming and yelling 4 somebody to help but your parents just laugh at u. and when u act older you start being really bad you start doing illegal things and not care and when u get friends you get them in trouble and they hate u and once u realized how it feelz to not have any friends to be all alone your whole intire fucking life you would want to commit suicide. im only 12 and I really cant bare living in a life of darkness anymore I want to know a good way to commit suicide without making it hurt...
plz email me if you can help me.
|29 Feb 2004||Paul Byrne||I'm not under 13, i'm 15. i've been feeling suicidal for too long and im starting to think of killing myself. my reasons are i can never get a good job because of the exam papers are lower tier, i'm unattractive and i'm picked on. thinking about it i hear the world after school is tougher and if i can't cope with now how can i cope in the working world. i've been put under pressure over many thing except suicide. i've never actually tried to kill myself just yet but i'm thinking of overdose but that's a slow death because it rots your liver and sometimes your kidneys. my problem with death is i cannot stand any type of pain except short pains. i would like to tell readers if i do not comment in 5 days i am dead|
|27 Feb 2004||Heartless||i need to know the best way to kill myself without it being messy, I want to be heard, i need to be heard, I want my husband to know that he hurt me dearly and now i want to hurt myself to show him what it felt like, if anyone can help email me please.......... I WANT TO DIEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!|
|24 Feb 2004||Heather||Hi my name is Heather and i'm 14 years old... i started thinking about suicide when i was about 12... i didn't really know too much about suicide but i quickly learned more and more ways... the first time i slit my wrist i jabbed a thumbtack in me and pulled it down my wrist... but i found out that this way doesn't work all too well... i have over 100 scars on my arms fromt he past 2 years of slitting my wrist... i have also had to go to the ER several times because i was caught o.d. I really can't stand living anymore tho... i'm really getting sick of every1's crying out for attention and childish bullshit... this world is just to full of drama and people pretending to be sum1 they aren't... i would really like to talk to other ppl that feel the same way i do... so if you do please e-mail me or add me on MSN Messenger!|
|20 Feb 2004||Bogdan||Look, this night I`ve had a tentative to kill myself ... really ... what`s it worth? If we could only talk it would be just fine as long as I go on and you go on ... write me!|
|20 Feb 2004||U dont wanna know||Umm... if this is a thing for help then i could use it. I'm really tired of all my friends trying to use me to be the guy they can confide in when they want to kill themselves when really it's just for attention and then they fill their heads will bullshit lies, but the thing is i'm suicidal but none of the lil shit heads know it, they're too damn busy thinking of how to get people to like them. I was just wondering what would be the best way to kill myself, i think i got my g/f pregnant today (came in her twice without a condom) and if she is, we can't tell her dad cuz he'll beat her and she'll run away, if we keep it a secret we'll have a kid and i'll have to drop outa school and no matter what our relationship is over (it's been 3 years in one month) and i can't stand the thought of ruining her life, and even though i always thought of suicide as being a selfish act of the weak, i just want to relieve my stress and pain and thoughts, and if i died then it would answer all my questions of death, though i would regret the answer more than likely, anyway please e-mail me if you have a good idea or maybe some insight about avoiding this, either would be appreciated thanx...... oh and i'm not 13 i'm older, peace|
|17 Feb 2004||Pumpkin||I am 12 years old and I have the thought of I wanna commit suicide cause people mess with me all day. I can't deal with it anymore I have told my closest friends that I wanna commit suicide and after I told the 3 I was gonna tell only one tried to convince me not to do it. But the others said "yea right" But I think that I might end up doing it cause I can't deal with life anymore weather I go to hell or not.|