|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|03 Jun 2004||leeanne||I've read some of the stories here and I'm gonna add my own. I'm 15 and have been suicidal for 3 years. I used to live in a small and extremely poor town. At school, I had a lot of friends and I made very good grades. I was so happy. When I was 12, my dad found a job about 4 hours south that payed a lot more so we moved down there. The city's about 5 times bigger than my hometown and a lot richer. I haven't made any friends since we moved to this hell hole disguised as a nice, southern town. I have never had a boyfriend, either. I'm not fat and unattractive, but I'm not skinny and beautiful, either. I'm just ordinarry and in-between. I plan to commit suicide during my sophmore year in high school. I'm going to slit my wrists with one of my parent's butcher knives. If any of you want to talk to me, you can email me at email@example.com
|02 Jun 2004||Jordyn||Its jordyn again. I just want to say i think someone talking to me will help me out. It may not save my life but i unno. I dont see how people think commiting suicide is selfish. How could it be its saving yourself from suffering? Please add me i need to talk to someone. What everyone says make me really sad and i dont no what necessarily to say but i need to no if there is people out there feeling the pain i feel. Thanks, I sapose .. ALyssajordyn@hotmail.com|
|02 Jun 2004||Foxy||Hey im not under 13 but i really though i would like to die! A year ago i held down a good job lived with my girlfriend and had friends. When my girlfriend left me it hurt and i started drinking abused the few friends i have and lost my job! not bad for 8 months work!!!! my entire life destroyed and no one cared! I still dont know if i'll see my next birthday but tomorrow im gonna seek some help! I'm not a bad person pretty thoughtful and caring for the most part but life has thrown me a curve ball to say the least. hope i live long enough for my next love!!!! hold on you guys and gals. Change comes when you least expect it!!!!! If anyone wants a friend firstname.lastname@example.org|
|30 May 2004||Jordyn||Hey im not going to say my age because to many people will judge me for it.. Same with my name... I just want to talk to someone who is living like this. I no it sounds a little weird saying this. I just want to try and understand. anyways my address is email@example.com...|
|27 May 2004||Just fuckin kill me||Hi everyone. my name is ana. i am 14. i am one of u who also DESPISE LIFE WITH A BIG PASSION. every since i was 9 when my brother died, i wanted 2 commit suicide. this saturday, 1 of my friends commited suicide on the same day that my brother died 5 years ago. I smoke (weed and ciggs), and drink. i slice myself and i overdose myself with pills. if anyone who reads this wants to contact me please do! i want some1 2 talk 2!! my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org. also if any1 has easy fast ways 2 die, e-mail me please please please! i am suffering from depression, and i just found out i hav ADD (attention deficit disorder) I hate school and i suck at it. i fail at everything that i do. i just lost the one guy i was ever really really in love with deeply, and things just seem 2 find its way 2 get worse. i cry myself 2 sleep every single night. i beat my self up!!!! i really hate life, i am so fucking depressed words cannot describe. i am crying right now, and i have a head ache, and my back is killing me, i also have a stomache ache from crying so much! someone please help me or e-mail me!|
|27 May 2004||Ana||my name is Ana, i am 14 yrs old. life is a fuckin pile of rotting SHIT!! i really wana die. i have been thinking of commiting suicide since i was 9 after my brother died. 1 of my friends just commited suicide on saturday which is the same day my brother died. i have made 2 attempts by slitting my wrists and overdosing myself. i cry myself 2 sleep every single night. i beat up myself and i injure myself. i HATE life with a passion! i hate it sooo much! i never succeed in anything and now i am smoking, drinking, my grades r falling (i hate school), i've lost some friends, people in school only wana talk shit bout me. i hate life, no one understands me or even seems to care. i really really want to die! u have no idea!!! if anybody has any ideas to share with me, or just wants to contact me, cus i am looking 4 some1 2 talk 2, my e-mail is email@example.com. i feel so lonely and i am suffering from depression and i just found out i have ADD. everything hates me, and i cant ever succeed! Please someone help me! I BEG OF U SOOOOO BADLY! please, please. i wana die quickly!!!|
|24 May 2004||not-necessary||well i dont know the best way to commit suicide because i've never tried, but i've thought about it ever since i was 12 and now i'm 19. i hate my life so much, and many people may wonder why. i get everything i could possibly need, free car, free phone, dont pay no bills, dont even do much around the house, live with my grandparents, i look good, could get and probably had any guy i wanted. i'm a good student, grades come easy. but really i've never really been into school like so many believe. i've hated school ever since the 7th grade, and now i just completed my first yr in college. my grades slipped last semester, i'm not caring about anything, i just found out i'm pregnant for a guy i believe i love, but have only known for 5 months. ever since i told him, he's basically abandoned me, and it really hurts. i feel alone, i had a abortion 2 years back, and cant do it again, but both the baby's father and my father suggest it this time around. the only support i have is my best friend, but that doesnt seem to be enough. i cry every night and been doing that for the past three years really, ever since my brother died (was killed rather). yup, i'm feeling quite lonely and i really just dont feel to go on anymore, i'm sure as hell not ready to have a child, and i doubt i could survive another abortion, so why not take my unborn along with me?
everyday i wish a car would knock me down, someone would shoot me, anything so i wouldnt have to do it myself. a reason i stick around is because i dont want to hurt my loved ones, especially since i'm all they got after my brother. but i just dont want to live anymore. i was thinking bout poppin pills, but reading all these stories proves the shit does not work, and i definitely need something effective the first time round, cause God only knows how i'll handle everyone knowing the way i feel. i was just searching for ways to commit suicide when i stumbled across this site, but what i need is the strength to do it. i think about it all the time, and am just sick of thinking. i'm depressed, but not seeking help, no one really knows how i feel, so everyone talks to me as if my life is just fantastic. i do put on quite the show i must say, got everyone fooled, but myself. i want out!!!!!
|22 May 2004||Kate||i'm 18 and my life was always hell. i have nobody, and i have lost so damn fucking much through out my life. i curl up in a ball and cry all night in despair, and i suck it up to see the next day, but for what? why should i live if i'm not happy, not happy at all.... and those of you who say commiting suicide is selfish cuz ppl around u might get upset... FUCK U, is any1 here to help me when i'm going hysterical all by myself cutting myself, with this pain inside making me wanna rip my heart out? NO, NOBODY'S HERE. NOR DO THEY CARE that i'm suffering. why should i care that they might spill few tears at my funeral?? or think about me for few days. everyone will just go on and i will free myself from all this shit i feel and go through|
|22 May 2004||HELP ME!!!!||I just turned 13 today and i dont really give a fuk. Ever since I was 6 I wanted to commit suicide. Ive tried 5 times now but none have worked. Ive tried to slash my wrists, jump off a bridge, jump in front of a moving car on my way home from school, tried an overdose of medicine and tried to hang myself. I have tried to cut my throat but have been too scared to. Please e-mail me and tell me an easy way to commit suicide...|
|21 May 2004||405||I have no idea, I'm currently 17 and to be honest, I have been, almost casually looking, since I was 13. I'm kind of cowardly and I don't wanna risk it with overdosing on pills, so I imagine I'd hang myself if it came up, at the moment I just need a trigger :(|
|20 May 2004||Tyleah||I'm 20 as well like "alreadydead", and I am in the same situation like that. Only thing my dad does not drink. He is so abusive. He calls me his daughter "FAT BITCH and LAZY BITCH BASTARD". He does not work either my mom does a 8-4pm job and when she comes home he curses at her, and she gets mad at me. I think I am a good kid. I never smoked, drunk, had sex, I don't disobey neither of them. I mean it's so much that I am scared to live life because of this. My grandma died and I miss her sooo much. I would just love to be with her. My parents say "why don't you get out?" I dont want to die but it's like no one cares for me, only person who did was my Grandma, which I should be going to heaven with her. Right now tears are streaming from my eyes. i can't breathe my nose is clogged up. I can't do it, I dont know imma try tonight and keep trying, nothing is going good for myself. I distanced myself away from my friends. I dont want them to see the "happy Tyleah" sad. OMG i dont know what to do. And lately i have been sick I have SIckle Cell, I dont have it bad but I been feeling horrible and never told anyone nor have they noticed. I dont want to die but dammit I gotta shit is getting worse being here.|
|20 May 2004||Becca||I am 13 possibly pregnant and my boyfriend just broke up with me.. i have been suicidal before. but it all passed when i got with him. i loved him i thought he loved me now i want 2 kill myself somebody help me please..|
|16 May 2004||brbashr||i've been suicidal before, i'm not suicidal now. i survived but i think about death all the time. i smoke a lot of pot and drink sometimes but i'm not alcoholic yet.
the things i've been through changed my way of thinking definitly. i feel like i missed my suicide, i feel like i should be dead. i feel like my home is the VOID, the NULL, i want to COME BACK TO NOTHING just like it was before. because NOW I REMEMBER when i was nothing, before being born and it was good.
So life is a bore, going to nowhere,
i've got nothing to hang on, nothing makes me appreciate life, no-one, i've abandonned the idea of ever finding someone, because there is no one for me. i'm all alone all the time, i hate my friends, i hate everyone, just cause they're too dumb. i'm jealous because i can't be happy and it seems it's only a matter of perception, intelligence whatever..
i don't know from where this neurasthenic tendancy comes from, but i've been like this since i'm 13 and it's always been that way since (im 21 now)
last year i was so down i could have killed myself plenty of times but i didn't because it was my love that i hated so much i didn't want to die with her thinking she was the cause, because i hated her so much
most people have no heart
most people will like to put you down if it's easy
most people are mean for no particular reason (because they're too silly to have a decent reason)
SO I'M PISSED OFF. I'M PISSED OFF AGAINST EVERYONE, I HATE ALL OF YOU BECAUSE ALL YOU CAN DO IS HATE AND BE MORE STUPID THAN ANIMALS
there is the work also. the SOCIETY.
when you get born you're fed and do nothing. then there's the preschool, first socialization attempt.. from the age of 3 to the end -EVERYTHING- IS MADE to -TAME- YOU, everything is made to finally get you to work
so let's continue. you arrive to school, you have to learn lessons, you're beginning to work, it's not hard, but you're working, you still have a lot of free time, because NO ONE WOULD ACCEPT TO WORK LIKE AN ADULT DOES because -IT's NOT HUMAN- .so they have to slightly and slowly put you to work
WHEN you have finish you studies or whatever and you are working. you have been perfectly fooled, perfectly integrated to the society= YOU'RE WORKING SO HARD IT DESTROYS YOUR MIND
you're getting slow, numb, stupid
you're an adult, the worst human being on earth. ADULTS ARE CRAZY
look at any adult, and tell me all these years have not destroyed their head.
look simply at your parents or whoever is an adult. and dare tell me these persons are not insane.
THEY ARE INSANE
problem; THEY RE RULING THE WORLD
well. too much blah already. the point is; i hate everyone, i hate everything, such incoherence, such stupidity EVERY DAY
i can't handle this. i can't bear anymore to be constantly annoyed by the stupid, i don't want to make stupid things just because everybody does it
(just because everybody does it doesn't mean it's not stupid)
i'll never find someone
this is the difference, that's why this time i'm gonna die for sure, i have no HOPE
if you're suicidal it's not because you're sad, it's because you don't see any hope of being happy one day
things can just get worse. i haven't got hope for a long time now. nothing is going to be better.
the funny thing is that it makes a little story. i knew when i was young that i would die in my 20's
so i'm going to jump off the roof of my house (because i hate my parents too)
if anyone thinks he can stop me. mail firstname.lastname@example.org
|15 May 2004||jouya||dear all
i'm jouya student of university of tehran(iran), 20 year, single ,male,
i 'm not smoking, not drink, homosexual ,etc
BUT IM SAD, DISAPPOINTED, AND
i want to die
in other words i dont know HOW TO LIVE (while everyone considers me a good right and successful boy
WHAT A PAINFUL PARADOX!!!)
I DONT NEED ANY ADVICE ,
ONLY tell me HOW TO KILL MYSELF.
|11 May 2004||Reggie||Hey, I am 12 and I am speaking to you from my room... I have pretty much lived in my room for the past 1 yr, 2months.. I forget what the outside world looks like... I have no friends.. my only friend is a computer. (this one) The only social noise I make is crying.. i won't say anything.. I'm completely withdrawn... I hate myself... And if you met me you would hate me too.. My mom tries to help but like I said.. I don't talk anymore..|
|30 Apr 2004||cindy||you know I am way over 13 but I feel so much pain that never goes away. sleep is my only comfort. I have tried to kill myself through starvation and was so close before the parents "helped" thanks parents NOT i can only think of what might have been. cutting to bleed, bruising to the point of fever and infections - not an easy way to go . . . advice would be nice! i really just want to sleep forever!|
|28 Apr 2004||depressed and suicidal||I am 26 and I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is email@example.com . Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|27 Apr 2004||Rachel||my story is dramatic ive seen people cry over them. And ive seen people trying to calm me down while crying. So this is a quik warning.
my story begins when I was 5 years old I didnt have eny friendz yet but a small toy ( bunny ^_^) I carried it evrywhere. At that trime my parents were in a big fight they hated each other so much,They would argue evry single night. And I couldent sleep so I alwayz hid behind the corner and watched, I hoped they wouldent see me.
but on my 5th b-day it got way out of controll. My mom got so mad she threw this galss cup right at my dad. he was bleeding and I saw the look he gae her. He gave her a look if betrayel, Like he couldent balieve she would do such a thing. I closed my eyes shut hoping it would be over, suddenlly for the first time in my life I was crying from pain, Knowing that my parents were in pain. My mom smirked. Then the cops came and otulk my dad to the hospital, He had 2 get stitches. But after that brief moment, My life changed so did my parents, Not in a good way. My mom continued to yell But this time my dad was quiet he didnt say anything and he always gave me a mean look, One he never gave me before. But then it happened Again, My mom threw another huge glass cup at him. And this time they saw me watching. There eyes glazed with evil. I dont know wut happened. Its like the saw the devil. The charged at me. And locked me in a room. And I would cry and they would lough.Years went bye As they continued my suffering. Thye got me hampsters when I was 10 but only to kill them and make me ry in torture and pain. I guess my parents were sick of yelling at each other and wanted to take all there anger out on me. I never had eny friendz because I was allwayz quiet and sat in the corner. Evryone thought I was weird and retarded and sooner or later started hatin on me. I grew up all alone with nothing to look forward. But then something terrible happened I still had that toy bunny, Thyre grabbed it from me and toor it up into pieces. Thye toor up my only friend. And then she ran after me with a knife. She got me, Right in the arm. It hurt I had to be strong, Strong enuf to put the weighed of the world on my shoulderz, I had to try my best not to stumble, I couldent stop my suffering. Tears of mine were worthless. I started being a bad person now, I started smoking, drinking and lots of other shit but it helps me 4get about the pain, But now I might be taken Away into dss (lke jail) cause my mom put me there saying im a bad child, sheze roght. But I dont know when Im going, I recently got some new friendz and I fello inlvoe wif this guy and were going out. And I luv my friendz so fuckin much its not even funny. But then people have bin telling them to stay away from me and they listened, Its the worst feeling inda world having to loos a friend. And I go threw that evry single day. I cry myself to sleep
But It doesnt work I cant fall asleep because I cant stop thinking of my life. And then my guy .dear Adam, dont u understand? I luved u because U reached out ur hand .
But u left me for wut the otherz say.
Im sorry it hasto be that way..
I honostlly dont know why I keep posting this sotry on this websight a11 the time
I guess im bored and lonely but I toulk 50 pillz (sleepin pi11z) and I was out cold 4 a week , I dont remember anything that happened but the nursez told me they had to take me fast cause I was rely sick I mean extremlly sick and they asked me where I got da drugs I said lil kim and started singin her song, then I started speakin in Spanish and I dont eavin kno Spanish. Enyways I woke up and a day later the sent me to a menta1 hospital cause they thought I was sphyco. Ugh but im fucking not. Enyway I was there 4 bout 3 weekz and now I got out and on this day im posting this 4 the people who think im dead. But I am rely mad dat I didnt die
|12 Apr 2004||Banks||Hello ,
I am in my mid-thirties and I am looking for a painless way to commit suicide. I think I have enough of this world. Please help me.
|06 Apr 2004||Personal||You know, I wish I never existed, I wish I didn't ever have to live here on Earth. I am forced to live, I don't like that at all!! Why do I have to live? No one asked me if I wanted to live or not. Man do I wish I didn't exist. I don't have the guts to kill myself yet, or any good ideas that are painless, clean, and effective. It's just a shame this many people have to go through with it. Having a nice life and good friends and family doesn't seem to help. I refuse to see a doctor about these thoughts and pains, I don't want to take a "happy" pill. I don't like taking drugs, I shouldn't have to!!. Oh and if you are christian, please email me and tell me if suicide victims can go to heaven. (hopefully I am alive)|