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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|22 May 2004||HELP ME!!!!||I just turned 13 today and i dont really give a fuk. Ever since I was 6 I wanted to commit suicide. Ive tried 5 times now but none have worked. Ive tried to slash my wrists, jump off a bridge, jump in front of a moving car on my way home from school, tried an overdose of medicine and tried to hang myself. I have tried to cut my throat but have been too scared to. Please e-mail me and tell me an easy way to commit suicide...|
|21 May 2004||405||I have no idea, I'm currently 17 and to be honest, I have been, almost casually looking, since I was 13. I'm kind of cowardly and I don't wanna risk it with overdosing on pills, so I imagine I'd hang myself if it came up, at the moment I just need a trigger :(|
|20 May 2004||Tyleah||I'm 20 as well like "alreadydead", and I am in the same situation like that. Only thing my dad does not drink. He is so abusive. He calls me his daughter "FAT BITCH and LAZY BITCH BASTARD". He does not work either my mom does a 8-4pm job and when she comes home he curses at her, and she gets mad at me. I think I am a good kid. I never smoked, drunk, had sex, I don't disobey neither of them. I mean it's so much that I am scared to live life because of this. My grandma died and I miss her sooo much. I would just love to be with her. My parents say "why don't you get out?" I dont want to die but it's like no one cares for me, only person who did was my Grandma, which I should be going to heaven with her. Right now tears are streaming from my eyes. i can't breathe my nose is clogged up. I can't do it, I dont know imma try tonight and keep trying, nothing is going good for myself. I distanced myself away from my friends. I dont want them to see the "happy Tyleah" sad. OMG i dont know what to do. And lately i have been sick I have SIckle Cell, I dont have it bad but I been feeling horrible and never told anyone nor have they noticed. I dont want to die but dammit I gotta shit is getting worse being here.|
|20 May 2004||Becca||I am 13 possibly pregnant and my boyfriend just broke up with me.. i have been suicidal before. but it all passed when i got with him. i loved him i thought he loved me now i want 2 kill myself somebody help me please..|
|16 May 2004||brbashr||i've been suicidal before, i'm not suicidal now. i survived but i think about death all the time. i smoke a lot of pot and drink sometimes but i'm not alcoholic yet.
the things i've been through changed my way of thinking definitly. i feel like i missed my suicide, i feel like i should be dead. i feel like my home is the VOID, the NULL, i want to COME BACK TO NOTHING just like it was before. because NOW I REMEMBER when i was nothing, before being born and it was good.
So life is a bore, going to nowhere,
i've got nothing to hang on, nothing makes me appreciate life, no-one, i've abandonned the idea of ever finding someone, because there is no one for me. i'm all alone all the time, i hate my friends, i hate everyone, just cause they're too dumb. i'm jealous because i can't be happy and it seems it's only a matter of perception, intelligence whatever..
i don't know from where this neurasthenic tendancy comes from, but i've been like this since i'm 13 and it's always been that way since (im 21 now)
last year i was so down i could have killed myself plenty of times but i didn't because it was my love that i hated so much i didn't want to die with her thinking she was the cause, because i hated her so much
most people have no heart
most people will like to put you down if it's easy
most people are mean for no particular reason (because they're too silly to have a decent reason)
SO I'M PISSED OFF. I'M PISSED OFF AGAINST EVERYONE, I HATE ALL OF YOU BECAUSE ALL YOU CAN DO IS HATE AND BE MORE STUPID THAN ANIMALS
there is the work also. the SOCIETY.
when you get born you're fed and do nothing. then there's the preschool, first socialization attempt.. from the age of 3 to the end -EVERYTHING- IS MADE to -TAME- YOU, everything is made to finally get you to work
so let's continue. you arrive to school, you have to learn lessons, you're beginning to work, it's not hard, but you're working, you still have a lot of free time, because NO ONE WOULD ACCEPT TO WORK LIKE AN ADULT DOES because -IT's NOT HUMAN- .so they have to slightly and slowly put you to work
WHEN you have finish you studies or whatever and you are working. you have been perfectly fooled, perfectly integrated to the society= YOU'RE WORKING SO HARD IT DESTROYS YOUR MIND
you're getting slow, numb, stupid
you're an adult, the worst human being on earth. ADULTS ARE CRAZY
look at any adult, and tell me all these years have not destroyed their head.
look simply at your parents or whoever is an adult. and dare tell me these persons are not insane.
THEY ARE INSANE
problem; THEY RE RULING THE WORLD
well. too much blah already. the point is; i hate everyone, i hate everything, such incoherence, such stupidity EVERY DAY
i can't handle this. i can't bear anymore to be constantly annoyed by the stupid, i don't want to make stupid things just because everybody does it
(just because everybody does it doesn't mean it's not stupid)
i'll never find someone
this is the difference, that's why this time i'm gonna die for sure, i have no HOPE
if you're suicidal it's not because you're sad, it's because you don't see any hope of being happy one day
things can just get worse. i haven't got hope for a long time now. nothing is going to be better.
the funny thing is that it makes a little story. i knew when i was young that i would die in my 20's
so i'm going to jump off the roof of my house (because i hate my parents too)
if anyone thinks he can stop me. mail email@example.com
|15 May 2004||jouya||dear all
i'm jouya student of university of tehran(iran), 20 year, single ,male,
i 'm not smoking, not drink, homosexual ,etc
BUT IM SAD, DISAPPOINTED, AND
i want to die
in other words i dont know HOW TO LIVE (while everyone considers me a good right and successful boy
WHAT A PAINFUL PARADOX!!!)
I DONT NEED ANY ADVICE ,
ONLY tell me HOW TO KILL MYSELF.
|11 May 2004||Reggie||Hey, I am 12 and I am speaking to you from my room... I have pretty much lived in my room for the past 1 yr, 2months.. I forget what the outside world looks like... I have no friends.. my only friend is a computer. (this one) The only social noise I make is crying.. i won't say anything.. I'm completely withdrawn... I hate myself... And if you met me you would hate me too.. My mom tries to help but like I said.. I don't talk anymore..|
|30 Apr 2004||cindy||you know I am way over 13 but I feel so much pain that never goes away. sleep is my only comfort. I have tried to kill myself through starvation and was so close before the parents "helped" thanks parents NOT i can only think of what might have been. cutting to bleed, bruising to the point of fever and infections - not an easy way to go . . . advice would be nice! i really just want to sleep forever!|
|28 Apr 2004||depressed and suicidal||I am 26 and I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org . Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|27 Apr 2004||Rachel||my story is dramatic ive seen people cry over them. And ive seen people trying to calm me down while crying. So this is a quik warning.
my story begins when I was 5 years old I didnt have eny friendz yet but a small toy ( bunny ^_^) I carried it evrywhere. At that trime my parents were in a big fight they hated each other so much,They would argue evry single night. And I couldent sleep so I alwayz hid behind the corner and watched, I hoped they wouldent see me.
but on my 5th b-day it got way out of controll. My mom got so mad she threw this galss cup right at my dad. he was bleeding and I saw the look he gae her. He gave her a look if betrayel, Like he couldent balieve she would do such a thing. I closed my eyes shut hoping it would be over, suddenlly for the first time in my life I was crying from pain, Knowing that my parents were in pain. My mom smirked. Then the cops came and otulk my dad to the hospital, He had 2 get stitches. But after that brief moment, My life changed so did my parents, Not in a good way. My mom continued to yell But this time my dad was quiet he didnt say anything and he always gave me a mean look, One he never gave me before. But then it happened Again, My mom threw another huge glass cup at him. And this time they saw me watching. There eyes glazed with evil. I dont know wut happened. Its like the saw the devil. The charged at me. And locked me in a room. And I would cry and they would lough.Years went bye As they continued my suffering. Thye got me hampsters when I was 10 but only to kill them and make me ry in torture and pain. I guess my parents were sick of yelling at each other and wanted to take all there anger out on me. I never had eny friendz because I was allwayz quiet and sat in the corner. Evryone thought I was weird and retarded and sooner or later started hatin on me. I grew up all alone with nothing to look forward. But then something terrible happened I still had that toy bunny, Thyre grabbed it from me and toor it up into pieces. Thye toor up my only friend. And then she ran after me with a knife. She got me, Right in the arm. It hurt I had to be strong, Strong enuf to put the weighed of the world on my shoulderz, I had to try my best not to stumble, I couldent stop my suffering. Tears of mine were worthless. I started being a bad person now, I started smoking, drinking and lots of other shit but it helps me 4get about the pain, But now I might be taken Away into dss (lke jail) cause my mom put me there saying im a bad child, sheze roght. But I dont know when Im going, I recently got some new friendz and I fello inlvoe wif this guy and were going out. And I luv my friendz so fuckin much its not even funny. But then people have bin telling them to stay away from me and they listened, Its the worst feeling inda world having to loos a friend. And I go threw that evry single day. I cry myself to sleep
But It doesnt work I cant fall asleep because I cant stop thinking of my life. And then my guy .dear Adam, dont u understand? I luved u because U reached out ur hand .
But u left me for wut the otherz say.
Im sorry it hasto be that way..
I honostlly dont know why I keep posting this sotry on this websight a11 the time
I guess im bored and lonely but I toulk 50 pillz (sleepin pi11z) and I was out cold 4 a week , I dont remember anything that happened but the nursez told me they had to take me fast cause I was rely sick I mean extremlly sick and they asked me where I got da drugs I said lil kim and started singin her song, then I started speakin in Spanish and I dont eavin kno Spanish. Enyways I woke up and a day later the sent me to a menta1 hospital cause they thought I was sphyco. Ugh but im fucking not. Enyway I was there 4 bout 3 weekz and now I got out and on this day im posting this 4 the people who think im dead. But I am rely mad dat I didnt die
|12 Apr 2004||Banks||Hello ,
I am in my mid-thirties and I am looking for a painless way to commit suicide. I think I have enough of this world. Please help me.
|06 Apr 2004||Personal||You know, I wish I never existed, I wish I didn't ever have to live here on Earth. I am forced to live, I don't like that at all!! Why do I have to live? No one asked me if I wanted to live or not. Man do I wish I didn't exist. I don't have the guts to kill myself yet, or any good ideas that are painless, clean, and effective. It's just a shame this many people have to go through with it. Having a nice life and good friends and family doesn't seem to help. I refuse to see a doctor about these thoughts and pains, I don't want to take a "happy" pill. I don't like taking drugs, I shouldn't have to!!. Oh and if you are christian, please email me and tell me if suicide victims can go to heaven. (hopefully I am alive)|
|05 Apr 2004||D||I really don't have time to go in to detail as i think my dad is waking up. I've tried slitting my wrists, i've tried hanging myself before - (might try it again in the near future) i was gonna stab myself quite a few times before but every time i chickened out at last minute.
I have so many aims in life, but everything else is stopping me from getting there.
i would really like to get hold of a gun but i don't know how.
any help much appreciated.
|03 Apr 2004||Rachel||plz help me, Evrytime I try and grasp 4 air. evry time I take a step farward it leads to a mistake, If u look me up I wrotrwe soemthign on here and ,
but my tiem is short, The wallz are caving in...plz help me Im not gonna be abled to stop myself from wat im about to do
|31 Mar 2004||MARIA||a tragic moment i lived in the same house since i was born at the age of 14 i moved rite on my birthday i was so depressed and im still am then months l8r 2 aunts and 2 uncles hae died my neighbors they were like grandparents to me becuz my actual ones died well it so happened that these ones died to my cuzin is really bad i moved into a town were most ppl hate me or i have no friends i hardly get out of my room no one understands me i feel so trapped i just need a friend to talk to my parents dont pay attention to me my brother is in the marines he got a restrict form to go to war my 19 yr sister seems like shes takin over my life the only person i have int he world is my oldest sister shes about 27 shes been like a mother to me and everything else even though i cant tell her my problems cuz i noe wut she would say she would say how stupid i am tryin to commit suicide I DRINK ONE DAY A WEEK 10 MOTRIN, 5 ADVIL, 11 TYLENOL, 22 RECIPTION FROM THE DR. AND I TRY HOLDING MY BREATHE FOR AN HR BUT I ONLY GET UP TO 20 MINS AND IT DOESNT SEEM TO HELP I ALSO TRIED FOOD POISONING, CUTTING MY VIENS BUT IT SEEMS AS NOTHIN HELPS I AM SO DEPRESSED ALL IM WAITIN FOR NOW IS THE DEATH I DONT EAT I HARDLY SLEEP IM WAITIN TO DIE I LEFT ALL MY FRIENDS BEHIND WHEN I MOVED AND I CANT MAKE NEW FRIENDS MAYBE BECUZ I DONT WANT TO ITS JUST NOT THE SAME IM IN A GANG AND IM TRYIN TO GET MY SELF INTO LOTS OF TROUBLE W/ PPL TO SEE IF THEY WOULD KILL ME BUT IT JUST SO HAPPENEDS OUT OF NO WERE MY HOMEBOYS GO AFTER THEM BEHIND MY BAK NEXT THING U NOE IM FORGIVEN I GUESS I DO HAVE FRIENDS BUT THERE GANG MEMBERS BUT STILL IF U GUYS HAVE ANY IDEAS OF HOW TO DIE PLEASE!!!!! I MEAN IT PLEASE EMAIL ME @ LACHICKA0003@WMCONNECT.COM PLEASE!!! THX.|
|26 Mar 2004||Amara||hey i am 11 and i have thought about killing my slef plenty of times i just dont want it to hurt but i really want the pain i mean i have tried cutting my self but my mom thought i was using to many blades on my razor so she wants to make me let her watch me as i shave and it just makes me so mad and u r prolly thinkin y is this %n wanting to kill herslef? well when i was 3 i started getting molested and from 3 to well now i have still been getting touched and almost raped and i hate it it and its all my fault and i could tel som1 when ever i wanted to but for some reason its like they(the molsters) let me me take pills to take my life and well do stuff and not no i am doin it like i could kill my self and not even no it. and u would think i would stop letin them do this to me but i hate my life so the worse it is i think ill be able to end it so if any of u want to tell me somethin do it soon i want to no wat ya think and soon|
|22 Mar 2004||mickey b||hey. im not actaually 13. im 14 but i thought that might as well count. ive been depressed for 4yrs now. and i hav cum 2 a decision. ive contemplated suicide. i hav decided to do it. probably something messy like a gun or somethin. gets the job done quickly. or a knife. i sorta did this 2 get advice. email me at email@example.com|
|18 Mar 2004||Rachel||hello Ive posted my thoughts on this be4
I tried killing myself yesterday, I toulk 40 pillz and and I woke up, Now Im just in hell Ive locked myself in my room Im not coming out I wanto DIE and Im not coming out till I do. I still have 100 pillz left should I take them???
Im in my room right now wtf should I do.
Im only 12. I cant take living enymore.
My life is 10 timez worse then eny1 elsez
I can promise U. This is my story
when I was 5 years old my mom thrue a glass cup at my dad until he started running away as he started bleeding and he saw me watching and so did my mom , I dunt kno wut exactlly happend but they went mad they started chasing me with a knife. and they got me , they got me rite inda arm. my mom was puton restraing order but only 4 a year. at that time I was put into a home and it was really bad ther I would cry myself evry night to bed and I had nothing to rely on I had nobody to love or nobody who loved me. then when I got bak I went bak wif my mom and dad but then they got a devorce evry night my mom said I was an accident and that it is all y fault they devorced. I wouldent stop crying. unitl I got this diary I wrote out my heart and wut it felt and it was my only friend. but then more shit started happening. My mom was getting madder and madder evry day. she started chasing me alot wif a knife and I have all these bruises. My dad callz me some timez to tell me how much he hatez me and how much he wantz to kill me.
and when I started getting some friendz at skool my mom went and put a restraining order on dem and its the worst feeling inda world having no friendz or your friend ahte u and I just cant take it enymore I feel like this world is leening on my and my back is about to break, I just cant lift it enymore. Having to know taht if u die and have no1 care hurts me alot.
I started cutting myself last moth and I liked watching the blud drip down, it made me feel better. I think its gonna make me feel better when I die.
BUT I NEED SOME1 TO TELL ME HOW ICANT TAKE THIS ENYMORE.
|13 Mar 2004||brian||hy, my name is brian and I'm looking for a painless way to commit suicide. please send me an e-mail if you can help me.
|11 Mar 2004||HEATHER||HEY
WELL... I CUT MY SELF. NOT TO DRAW BLOOD OR WHATEVER JUST TO HAVE THAT EASE U GET WHEN U SEE IT! IT LIKE THIS GREAT HIGH U GET. AND AFTER BEING DEPRESSED SO LONG I'LL TAKE WHAT I CAN GET! IT'S ALSO THE SAME WITH MY EATING. I EAT AND FOR LIKE PERIODS OF TIME I WONT AT ALL! IT'S THIS CONTROL AND PRIDE THING. I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR AN IDEA OF A FAST GOOD WAY TO DIE! (EVEN THOUGH IM 14) SEE MY AND MY SO CALLED BEST FRIEND WERE PLANING ON RUNNING AWAY! BUT WHEN I ASKED HER IF SHE STILL WANTED TO GO SHE SAID NO CUZ" MY LIFE IS OK RIGHT NOW" (WE HAVE BEEN PLANING THIS THING 4EVER!) THEN I GOT ALL MOODY AND YELLED AT HER SAYING SHE CAN KEEP PRETENDING WITH HER PERFECT LIFE AND BIBLE FUCKING FAMILY! AND NOW SHE WONT TALK TO ME! (THAT BRING MY FRIENDS LEVEL TO 0!) I DONT THINK I CRIED SO MUCH EVER! NOT EVEN WHEN M FAMILY WAS SICK! WOW I FEEL SO SELFISH AND EMO! BUT WHAT CAN U DO! I REALLLY JUST WANNA GO, LEAVE BREATH AND GET AWAY AND BE ME! WELL DOESNT SEEM LIKE THAT IS GONNA HAPPEN SO IM GONNA GO EAT (GET FATTER) AND TRY TO CALL LINDZ!
LOVE HEATHER BYE
O YEA IM ME IF U WANNA TALK TO A MOODY BITCH WHO HAS NO LIFE FRIENDS OR ANYTHING BUT WANTS TO RUNAWAY