|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Oct 2004||Alice||hiya, my name is Alice.. and im 13 and considering suicide. i found 3 packets of sleeping pills in my parents room. and i was wondering whether u have to take them with alchohol? or just with water. and how many do i have to have? im not sure whether i want to die, i just want to almost die, so that all the people who hurt me will be guilty. yes, i know im attention seeking and vicious, but i need to do this. PLEASE HELP!|
|24 Oct 2004||smgd||OK. my boyfriend commited suicide.. 2 weeks ago.. I miss him so much.. and i think it was my fault.. people are telling me to go seek help and I dont want to bc i know it was me.. i told him i would be there for him forever and i wasnt.. i wasnt there.. how am i supposed 2 move on.. when am i going to be able to hug the love of my life again.. now hes not here for me.. maybe i should be dead.. i have no purpose here.. anymore.. dont kill yourself.. please.. i am evidence.. of the effects.. me and my boyfriend were in a fight.. and now.. i can never tell him i dont want to fight anymore.. i never realized how much i was ready to spend the rest of my life with him.. he proposed 2 me a few weeks before.. and i said i wasnt ready.. well i am ready now. and i cant have it.. i cant have the only person in my life who i love.. fuck..|
|22 Oct 2004||Jessica||I'm only 14, and for more than half my life, I have wanted to end it. I've been raped, beaten, and then been told that I'm a "good girl". Every person I talk to tells me to trust in God. Screw him. If he cared, I wouldn't have had all this happen. He doesn't care. I'm reallt two people-one who is happy and carefree, emotionally stable, and the other is inside, screaming to be let out, to not care about anything, to just kill myself and be done with it. Nobody knows the other person, only me. I've talked to professionals, and they think I'm a normal person. I have to be perfect, because that's who my one personality is like. She's fun to be around, everyone likes her, while I'm dark and depressed. I want to die, but I don't. After my father killed himself after raping me and my sister, I know that I want to live. But there's so much pain. I can't live with it, so I don't know what I should do. Nobody is here to help me.|
|19 Oct 2004||andrew||iv been thinking about killing myself forsome time now and im real starting to disider it now if it wasent for my freands id proboly already be dead i need to talk to some 1.|
|19 Oct 2004||andrew||i realy carnt live whith life any more iv been thinking about it for yearsand iv finaly desided im going to kill myself tomorowim sorry every 1 but i carnt live whith this life any more|
|17 Oct 2004||Yee Leng||hey i donno , i need a method who will definitely die for sure , without wanting to live anymore , i know this will sadden many people, my family, my frens, but i do wanna die, i cant get it, what is so interesting about life? i don like it. i don wan it.. any one out there has a painless way of killing ?|
|16 Oct 2004||Genie||Hi i'm 21 years old and i hate my life so much i just want to die and no one would even care or miss me as i have no friends my family hate me and men use me and walk all over me, my father walked out on me when i was 4 years old and didn't want to know me anymore then my mum got in a violent relationship with a wanker who abused me told me i was dirt and a nobody which he was right im nothing just a waste of space.
i hate life ive got a shit job on the railway i got pregnant at 19 years old my daughter's father said he'd stick by me but then he turned nasty and turned all my m8s against me, plus i work with his dad and they just shun my daughter like she's nothing their own flesh and blood everybody has let me down, so just wanna end it all ive been on anti-depressants but they only work 4 a while all i want to do is die can anyone tell me a pain free easy way to kill myself as im a bit of a wimp.
|11 Oct 2004||im4dogs||i need help PLEASE!!! i want to commit suicide and i need help but i just cant get myself to tell anyone. im afraid of what they will think of me. HELP PLEASE!|
|06 Oct 2004||MeLissa||actually, WTF? i actually thought this site would help me fuckin find a way to kill myself. my mom is a real bitch and critizes everything about me. My skewl grades are down. i dont play volleyball anymore. my only friends are all pot head. I NEED A FUCKIN NEW LIFE. why the fuck did give me such a fucked up one? im so serious. i wanna just down a bottle of sleeping pills but what if that shyt doesnt work? n e suggestions? im so fuckin serious. i wana end this shyt. IM SYCK OF IT|
|13 Sep 2004||gva1116||Let me tell you my story!
I´ve always been an outsider, I don´t belong anywhere. When I was little, everybody teased me. Everyday was pure hell for me. This continued all the wey to the seventh grade. I met some friends wich a really got along with. We had the blast together!
My parents separated when i was nine, and ever since that day, I hate them! I hate them both! Not because they separated, but because they can´t understand me! Noone does...
Me and my sister fights every day and I don´t know how long it´s been since i´ve got my monthly money!
Then, I found out that I´m bisexual. I told a guy that was gay, he told a friend of his and my best friend found out about it, they live 30 miles from eachother. To this day, I still don´t know how he met the guy. Anyway, he found out about it. So, of course, he told HIS friend. They promised me that they weren´t gona tell a soul, so they left me emptyhanded, completely without friends just because I´m bisexual. When school started, I thought it was going pretty well. They left me alone and i was glad for that. But then, the rumors was spreading: "Is he gay? Oh, man! I knew it!"
Now, the whole school knows about it and I have no friends. My family knows about it, but they accept it. I can´t stand a day without having suicide thoughts in my head.
I´ve been wanting to do it ever since the 4th grade, but i´m afraid of the pain... /From a lonely teenager
|13 Sep 2004||Tim||I'm 17, i have tried to kill myself. Life is fucking horrible. I just get blown everyday and hope it gets better. I am depressed as hell though. I hope every night i wont wake up in the mornin.|
|09 Sep 2004||trinh||i just want it to go away, the feeling of abandonment, it's taking too much of me, it's like i can't breathe. my heart beats fast. i hate it, it's like it hurts. but i can't die from it. worse ever.
depression is the worst, i wish someone could just take this all away from me. i can't help this feeling, it just lingers. i'm desperate for someone just to take it away. even if it means killing myself.. i'm too scared to, i just hope to get killed. somewhere somehow. i hate myself.
|08 Sep 2004||Michael||hi well i've lost the will to live in a home of an angry mother who thinks i'm not good enough for anything and a father who is never home..... i thought about it and i realized it would be easier to just end it of course people would be sad but they would get over it and live the best life they could possibly leave. i've never done drugs or drank booze or anything i'm in the clean frame of mind i just give up i can never be good enough for my mother who threatens me by saying she'll hit me or kick me out i'm tired of my father never being around i'm tired of living in the god damn place i'm sick of living, period.
i dont think anyone can help me now
|07 Sep 2004||WHY R GIRLS SO EVIL TO ME||IM 28 AND LIFE IS SHIT ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO SETTLE DOWN HAVE A FAMILY AND B HAPPY WELL WHEN I WAS 16 I MEET THIS GIRL FELL IN LOVE WITH HER SHE GOT PREGNANT I WATCHED THE BABY BORN AND EVERYTHIING THEN ON MY 21ST SHE TELLS ME HE AINT MINE, I WAS WORKING AWAY ALOT TO GIVE HER ALL SHE WANTED AND WHEN I WAS SHE WAS SHAGGING MY BEST MATE AND THAT WHO D BABY TURNED OUT TO B, IT WRECKED MY LIFE FROM HAVING ALL I EVER WANTED TO HAVING NOTHING I TRYED TO KILL MYSELF I TOOK 90 DG.S AND AFTER A WHILE I FELT THEM NOT WORKING SO I SLASHED MY WRISTS OPEN VERY DEEP AND MANY TIMES. MY MUM WHO WAS MENT TO B OUT ALL NIGHT AND SHE STILL DONT KNOW Y SHE CAME BACK, BUT SHE FOUND ME IN A BIG POOL OF BLOOD. I GOT RUSHED TO HOSPITAL WHERE I HAD TO BE BROUGHT BACK 3 TIMES. I HATED HER FOR SAVING ME STILL DO FOR D FIRST TIME I HAD NO PAIN OR HURT. I STARTED SELF HARMING QUITE BAD. ANYWAY WE MOVED AWAY FROM THE AREA TO GET ME AWAY. AFTER GETTING MY HEAD BACK TOGETHER I STARTED A NEW LIFE WELL I FOUND ANOTHER GIRL WE GOT ON GREAT. THEN I LOST MOST OF MY EYE SIGHT THROUGH NO FAULT OF MY OWN WELL SHE LEFT ME BECAUSE OF THAT. IM A REALLY LOVING KIND LAD NUT NOW IM SO LONELY I DONT WANT TO GO ON IM JUST LIVING TO DIE. I WASNT THE PRETTIEST OF LADS TO START WITH NOW IM REGISTERED BLIND NOBODY WILL WANT ME SO I JUST CANT SEE D POINT. ITS SO LONELY AND SCARY WITH MY EYES I LIVE ON MY OWN AND DONT SEE ANYONE, IVE ALWAYS TREATED FEMALES WITH RESPECT NEVER GONE TO HIT OR HURT THEM BUT YET THEY DESTROYED ME, SO WHAT IS THE POINT IM NEVER GOING TO B IN LOVE AGAIN AND THATS ALL IVE EVER WANTED, I CANT EVEN GET KILLING MYSELF RIGHT SO IF ANYONE AS GOT ANY GOOD IDEAS TO GET ME OUT OF THIS FUCKED UP WORLD PLZ TELL ME
|06 Sep 2004||kay||hey well my life is soo fucked and has always been fucked and im only 16! ive tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrist untill the blood started clotting and i passed out...the next thing i know im in a fucking mental ward....i want to die so bad but i want the attempt to fucking work i was thinking about stabbing myself with a kitchen knife...does anyone know where i have to stab in order for death to be effective??? please help thanx.....feel free to email me to read my morbid thoughts and poetry|
|04 Sep 2004||Laura||Hello everyone, I really do fucking need help. I'm 13 and ever since January this year I've been trying to kill myself in many various ways. Earlier this year I lost my baby, I'm not a slut or anything, my ex raped me. I've been so down. This morning, I have cut myself so many times. I have loads of cuts on my wrists and all the way up my arms. I don't really have no one to go to for help. My so called besy friend always thinks I'm making stuff up and just says to me "Things will get better, you'll see" But they haven't at all. The other day I had a large kitchen knife up to my throat. Now everyday I'm either crying my heart out, cutting myself or anything else that's suicidal. Please help me. If you have any advice for me please e-mail me or add me to your buddy list, if you have any problems yourself maybe we can talk about our problems together.|
|29 Aug 2004||Li Dao||Today I finally realized how trivial of creatures were individually are here on Earth and can so easily be unnoticed. I went to the Minnesota state fair today. There were almost 200,000 others there today, Absolutely no one recognized me, not one. No one cared if i was there or not including my own mother. For a person with terminal depression and has suffered metal abuse for 14 years like me, that what I experienced today, brings my own finality to that much more of a resonable cure for this tormenting illness. No one will miss me or even notice that I am gone. For one minute do you think this same day next year anyone at the fair will notice that I am not there? yeah right. I have no other family, no real friends, I am just a speck on this earth. I will die on october 15th. I have 2 ambien pills I got from someone. They are prescription sleeping pills that help you sleep in about 15-20 minutes. I will take them, go to bed and peacefully pull the drawstring bag over my head and take my last earthly breaths and die in peace. I will wakeup in the comforting arms of Angels and those that have gone before me in death. That is the only cure for this terrible disease for me. It is not tragic, no no, it is humane, same as if I had a incurable cancer or something. I will talk to anyone from now until then about how you feel in your own situations. I do not advocate death, by no means, but it can and is a cure sometimes for those who will never despite all good intentions of everyone, be freed from the inner hell that major depression has on them.
My e-mail is Li_dao04@yahoo.com
May all of you who battle every day in despair take care of yourselves and your loved ones. Li
|28 Aug 2004||Lauren||i need someone to help me i dont know what to do with myself my mental illness is killing me breaking me to the point of a knife how do i do this without killling my family ?????????|
|24 Aug 2004||becka lariviere||hey ,
i still havnt been helped ima 15 and it is driving me crazy!!
i say being a teen is alot of work i try to be as good of a friend as i can be but i guess no matter wat i do i cant suceed. and some of the people that are mad at me right this minute really matter to me and like no matter wat i say or i do she wont change her mind. and that is the painful part!
also my home life is tearing me apart no matter wat i do i dunt get any attention or love from either parents and like right now in my life i want my parents and wat really sucks is i wont ever get it! i juss got off all the drugs have been clean off crack and coccaine, special k, extocy. it took me soo long and yet i tought i would be better off but yet i aint and soo now i dunt know wat to do pull suicide or stay on da drugs and da drugs will end up taking me out aneways soo i dunt know please if anyone reads dis please help me give me sum advise i really am asking for it. i hope it izt too late wen i finally get an ancerw back!!
|12 Aug 2004||Kat||Hi its me again ,
Not much going on here, the same ole thing just a different day, Still have a lump on my head from him, Will it ever go away? I have alot of headaches. He hit me the other day . I know i should leave, but no where to go, I tryed asking my father of all people for money to help me, but he never got back to me, tomorrow is my sons birthday and he will not get a birthday present , I feel worthless that I can not even get my kid a birthday present, He want a guitar , it only cost 200. I asked my b/f to get it for him, but he always says no money , i do not understand, i live without a telephone so i have no way to contact anyone, he has it so i can hardly go on the internet, its like i am a prisoner in my own home. i hate living like this and i think more and more of just sending my kids with their dad and just ending my life, they do not need to live like this, they are great kids and deserve much more than this, i am looking for a job and hopefully i get one, but hard to get one with no phone number to put on your application.
I have been so depressed i sleep all day, i am suprised i am up now . maybe i will go back to bed, i do not want to think of my son's birthday, he will be 15 , well sorry for eveything i do not need to bring everyone down with me,