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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Jul 2004||Melissa||Hello. my name is melissa and ever since the first day of 8th grade ive been trying to end my horrible nightmare, called **life**. What made me suicidal you ask? Well my mother is a loser. She is constantly yelling at my siblings and i, and thats not a very fun thing to listen to all day. Her voice is piercing it hurts to think that some people are so happy while i rot in my room all day. My brother always is with his friends and he barely knows that i exist. i hate it i wish i had more people who cared about me.
My father is an okay guy i guess. he just is prettty annoying. but that i can deal with. Im failing school almost and that really bothers me beacuse everyone i know is becoming a doctor getting scholorships and etc.. im not stupid its just that im not smart either. i wish i was. my parents are constant;ly reminding me of all that bad things ive done. and about my grades how they wish i got straight A's.
i have tried to kill myself several times by taking overdoses since both my parents are doctors they have buckets full of pills. Nothing ever works! instead of cutting my wrist i scratch.......ive got long nails when people ask i just say my neighbor scratched the heck out of me
My name is Melissa Brawn and i want to die.
please help me for i am also afraid of pain such as knives remember im 14 so i cant have a gun '''''''sigh'''''''
"I never thought id die alone i laughed the loudest who've known"
Blink 182 (adams song)
^^^that line is so me.^^^
|17 Jul 2004||Kat||Hello out there its me again Kat ,
I am having a really hard time right now , my b/f in last month has beat me up several times , this time I think he fracured my skull, I have had a major head ache for almost a week now , my forhead has a huge lump on it and it hurts to even touch my head , The time before this be punched me on my right eye causeing it to bleed for days , I think I should have gotten stiches , The night he fracured my skull , he had hit me a hour prior right in the cheek, I have begged him to stop hitting me , and just kill me , he could so easiely do it , he strangled me till i was passed out , he is talking about getting a gun , I do not want that , He has a bunch of knives now , I know I will be killed soon , At least I will not need to suffer any more . I watch my children change everyday , more and more depressed , my daughter and son both dye there hair black, my son smokes , has a tattoo,he told me has done" Pot" . and he will only be 15 , I feel I am the reason they are like this , They have been through so much in the past two years , We went from living in a large house to being homeless for 6 months, to being in this shitty little house with little money or food, to seeing there mother being abused by a man they fell in love with and trusted, I do not have a place to go or even family to talk too, I have tryed to go , but no where to go, He has gone but just comes back, Everything about him he keeps as a secret, I do not know what is truthful or not, I found out yesterday he stole my wedding set from my jewlery box , the rings i was going to give to my son and daughter , Now I do not have them , the set cost 3500 and he got 80 at a damn pawn shop. He is making sure everything I have worked so hard for , I will loose, he has broken everything I have ever bought him , or he has given me , he has torn up pictue that can never be replaced of my children, and he has a away of getting into my comp , and he fucks it up almost every other day so i need to reinstall everthing, he keeps logs on me , and we do not have a phone in our house he only has a cell phone, that he has 24 /7
I do not know what to do or say any more, I have called the police they just let him go. So now what ???
|12 Jul 2004||heather woodhouse||i dont know the answer to the question but i do know that my brother has tried commiting suicide 3 times and i cant beare it!! i dont want him to die, i care so much for him! but i dont think he can see how much he is upsetting the people who care about him the most!! he has 3 kids and has tried to commiting it in front of his 4 year old girls 2 times and i cant see how he can still try. i dont know what to do!! i dont wanna talk to him in case he feels i'm interfering in his life, but i want to help but i dont wanna do something that will push him to do it for real this time!! i just dont know what to do!! can someone please help me!! e-mail me or something my e-mail add is email@example.com|
|12 Jul 2004||shayna||im 14 now but ive been cuttin since i waz 10. ive had numerous attemptz of suicide by drugz and cuttin veinz and have found that itz not worth it. i still cut myself coz itz easier to handle the physikal pain then the emotional pain but i dnt attempt suicide nemore. life will get better. at the moment im a chain smoker, alcoholik and drug addict and seein 2 psychologists so im goin downhill abit but i no dat soon life will improve. i broke up wiv my boy friend yestaday and had been goin out wiv him 4 3 monthz but suicide wont fix dat. suicide is a permenent way out of a temperary problem. if u needa talk thn my emailz firstname.lastname@example.org or add me ta msn. lifez 2 precious 2 leave it.|
|29 Jun 2004||Mauvais||CHRIS, yes famous chris, the chris everyone knows and hears about. I know you've seen what i've put and i honestly need you to e-mail me. I need you back. Everytime i was suicidal, cut, i had you to talk to. Tonight i cut, tried to kill myself again. I have 3 bottles of my pain meds right now, If you can just e-mail me, i miss u|
|28 Jun 2004||jem||someone please email me tell me how many ib profine it takes.... i really need your help, from those who have experimented in the past......
|24 Jun 2004||Plz help me||Ive totally fukked up, all my pals h8 me, all over a stupid boy, its pathetic really, but it hurts wen people call u a slappa n a slut n a bike!ive slit my rists a few times but i always end up with a stupid bandage! i hate life and and a certain big mouth i just want to die but i know that some people will miss me.please help me i dnt no what to do!!!!:(|
|24 Jun 2004||Ive totally fukked up, all my pals h8 me, all over a stupid boy, its pathetic really, but it hurts wen people call u a slappa n a slut n a bike!ive slit my rists a few times but i always end up with a stupid bandage! i hate life and and a certain big mouth i just want to die but i know that some people will miss me.please help me i dnt no what to do!!!!:(|
|24 Jun 2004||LEE PITTS||i'm not 13 I'm 28 but the feeling sare till the same. I am losing the love of my life, like so many other blokes of my age for years I pretended that i wnated to be one of the lads and that footbal was importrant and that i was more interesting that i actually am. I missed what was the ONLY really important things in my life and that was my fiance. I pussed her away, and now that it is coming to the crunch and I am starting to be honest with myself about my feelings I know that I love her more than life itself. I want to spend every wking moment with her, but becaus eof my own selfishness she now now longer wants to work at the relationship. we have been truyng but I can't help her get thpse feelongs back again. This is more that just a short relationship we have been together for 8 years. I am having to strat again and I cannot face it, when i sleep 'eventually' all i do is dream about being with her or losing her then I wake and it all starts again. I can't stop crying, and no matter what I tell my freinds I don't feel any better. I feel more than just loss, I feel dead inside, I can't eat properly and hate myslef more than I could ever imagine. I feel the loneliest person in the world and its sending me insane, although i put a front on at work.|
|10 Jun 2004||soundless_one||I've been reading this for a while now and I've finally decided it's time for me too, to post. Like just about everyone else I'm looking for a way to commit suicide. Just like everyone else, I've been trying to kill myself or else SI my whole life. Just like everyone else, I've been in psyc. wards before. Just like everyone else, I've been on meds. Just like everyone else. But I'm not just like everyone else. Right now I WANT to live. Yeah, crazy huh. You're probably saying to yourself right now "Wait, she just said she needed a way to die." I do. See, life loves irony and I guess I've come to appreciate it too. All my life I've been trying to die. Been hopeless. Hated myself. Hated life. Then I met a friend who cared enough to make a difference. And although I never thought it was possible, I found myself wanting to live. I was actually looking forward to tomorrow. I smiled once and wasn't using my "smile" to lie. I never thought any of that was possible. I never thought I could be happy with life. And I wasn't happy with life. I had just found a reason worth living for. Someone had taken the time to tell me that they cared and that I was important and loved and needed and wasn't worthless and shouldn't hate myself. That they cared. Well, I still hated myself but I felt...special. Amazing really. The only problem is, now that I WANT to live, I realize I HAVE to die. All I ever do is hurt the people I care about and love. All I ever do is bring them down. Just recently a friend tried cutting because of me. That was what convinced me, although there are so many other factors. (She shouldn't read this but on the odd chance that she does, it's not her fault and I want her to live life and to enjoy it. She deserves to be happy. Most of all, it's NOT, absolutely NOT her fault..it's my choice. The better of two evils.) But I always hurt people and bring them down so I MUST die. I've already tried numerous things...cutting my wrists, pills galore, etc. None have worked. Through cutting my wrists, I found a new friend...the razor. The pills made me sick as hell and I thought I was going to die but I never did. Another friend claims it was because she was praying for me. I don't know. So nothing has worked. I just need some advice on what really DOES work. PLEASE, someone help me. And by helping me, you'll be helping so many other people whom I hurt and bring down every day. I know that people say it will hurt them so much if I kill myself. And I know it will. But it would hurt them even more if I remain alive. "No greater love has a man than this...that he would lay his life down for his friend" I would do anything for the people I care about. ANYTHING. And it has finally come down to this. So if anyone could help, it would be greatly appreciated.
Oh yeah, and here's a crazy poem thing that I heard once and like...maybe someone else will like it too...
Razor pain you
Acids stain you
Drug cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Gas mask awful
You might as well live.
That just amused me. And by the way, slitting ones wrists and drugs like tylonel and all do NOT work. I've tried. Believe me I've tried. So don't bother around with those. If ANYONE has any suggests of another way to commit suicide or knows of some drugs that WILL kill you, PLEASE, for heaven's sake, pass the information on...before I hurt anyone else. (by hurt, I do not mean physically, just that I bring them down and mess everything up and never get anything right...I HAVE to get this right.) My e-mail is email@example.com if anyone has any info they'd be inclined to share. Thanks. And good luck with whatever anyone else decides to do...be it live life or die. It's your life, it's your right.
|09 Jun 2004||Jodie||Hmmm... you know, I am thinking that the subject should be renamed. I am not 13 (as most people who post), but I have been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I would love to have the lifestyle that some of these people have, they have friends, my best friend was a guy well I guess you could call him a boyfriend and I really rapped my heart up in gift wrap and gave it to him, which is uncommon for me because I have no trust in the people around me. When he moved it floored me and I feel completely abondoned, all my friends have either moved away or I have lost connection with them some way or another. I am fat (obese) not necassarily ugly, but I have never had a date and called it a date nor have I ever been asked to sleep over at a friend's house. My heart feels like a rock in my chest and I cry constantly. I would like to talk to anyone about what has happened to me, because no one wants to read these really long posts. But all you people who have someone (friends especially) don't commit suicide, but all I have here are my parents. My grandma's a pillhead and my g-pa works away from home. My other g-ma is a bitch and the only family member I loved as much as my best friend my grandfather passed away the same weekend my only 2 friends told me they were moving.|
|03 Jun 2004||leeanne||I've read some of the stories here and I'm gonna add my own. I'm 15 and have been suicidal for 3 years. I used to live in a small and extremely poor town. At school, I had a lot of friends and I made very good grades. I was so happy. When I was 12, my dad found a job about 4 hours south that payed a lot more so we moved down there. The city's about 5 times bigger than my hometown and a lot richer. I haven't made any friends since we moved to this hell hole disguised as a nice, southern town. I have never had a boyfriend, either. I'm not fat and unattractive, but I'm not skinny and beautiful, either. I'm just ordinarry and in-between. I plan to commit suicide during my sophmore year in high school. I'm going to slit my wrists with one of my parent's butcher knives. If any of you want to talk to me, you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
|02 Jun 2004||Jordyn||Its jordyn again. I just want to say i think someone talking to me will help me out. It may not save my life but i unno. I dont see how people think commiting suicide is selfish. How could it be its saving yourself from suffering? Please add me i need to talk to someone. What everyone says make me really sad and i dont no what necessarily to say but i need to no if there is people out there feeling the pain i feel. Thanks, I sapose .. ALyssajordyn@hotmail.com|
|02 Jun 2004||Foxy||Hey im not under 13 but i really though i would like to die! A year ago i held down a good job lived with my girlfriend and had friends. When my girlfriend left me it hurt and i started drinking abused the few friends i have and lost my job! not bad for 8 months work!!!! my entire life destroyed and no one cared! I still dont know if i'll see my next birthday but tomorrow im gonna seek some help! I'm not a bad person pretty thoughtful and caring for the most part but life has thrown me a curve ball to say the least. hope i live long enough for my next love!!!! hold on you guys and gals. Change comes when you least expect it!!!!! If anyone wants a friend email@example.com|
|30 May 2004||Jordyn||Hey im not going to say my age because to many people will judge me for it.. Same with my name... I just want to talk to someone who is living like this. I no it sounds a little weird saying this. I just want to try and understand. anyways my address is firstname.lastname@example.org...|
|27 May 2004||Just fuckin kill me||Hi everyone. my name is ana. i am 14. i am one of u who also DESPISE LIFE WITH A BIG PASSION. every since i was 9 when my brother died, i wanted 2 commit suicide. this saturday, 1 of my friends commited suicide on the same day that my brother died 5 years ago. I smoke (weed and ciggs), and drink. i slice myself and i overdose myself with pills. if anyone who reads this wants to contact me please do! i want some1 2 talk 2!! my e-mail is email@example.com. also if any1 has easy fast ways 2 die, e-mail me please please please! i am suffering from depression, and i just found out i hav ADD (attention deficit disorder) I hate school and i suck at it. i fail at everything that i do. i just lost the one guy i was ever really really in love with deeply, and things just seem 2 find its way 2 get worse. i cry myself 2 sleep every single night. i beat my self up!!!! i really hate life, i am so fucking depressed words cannot describe. i am crying right now, and i have a head ache, and my back is killing me, i also have a stomache ache from crying so much! someone please help me or e-mail me!|
|27 May 2004||Ana||my name is Ana, i am 14 yrs old. life is a fuckin pile of rotting SHIT!! i really wana die. i have been thinking of commiting suicide since i was 9 after my brother died. 1 of my friends just commited suicide on saturday which is the same day my brother died. i have made 2 attempts by slitting my wrists and overdosing myself. i cry myself 2 sleep every single night. i beat up myself and i injure myself. i HATE life with a passion! i hate it sooo much! i never succeed in anything and now i am smoking, drinking, my grades r falling (i hate school), i've lost some friends, people in school only wana talk shit bout me. i hate life, no one understands me or even seems to care. i really really want to die! u have no idea!!! if anybody has any ideas to share with me, or just wants to contact me, cus i am looking 4 some1 2 talk 2, my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org. i feel so lonely and i am suffering from depression and i just found out i have ADD. everything hates me, and i cant ever succeed! Please someone help me! I BEG OF U SOOOOO BADLY! please, please. i wana die quickly!!!|
|24 May 2004||not-necessary||well i dont know the best way to commit suicide because i've never tried, but i've thought about it ever since i was 12 and now i'm 19. i hate my life so much, and many people may wonder why. i get everything i could possibly need, free car, free phone, dont pay no bills, dont even do much around the house, live with my grandparents, i look good, could get and probably had any guy i wanted. i'm a good student, grades come easy. but really i've never really been into school like so many believe. i've hated school ever since the 7th grade, and now i just completed my first yr in college. my grades slipped last semester, i'm not caring about anything, i just found out i'm pregnant for a guy i believe i love, but have only known for 5 months. ever since i told him, he's basically abandoned me, and it really hurts. i feel alone, i had a abortion 2 years back, and cant do it again, but both the baby's father and my father suggest it this time around. the only support i have is my best friend, but that doesnt seem to be enough. i cry every night and been doing that for the past three years really, ever since my brother died (was killed rather). yup, i'm feeling quite lonely and i really just dont feel to go on anymore, i'm sure as hell not ready to have a child, and i doubt i could survive another abortion, so why not take my unborn along with me?
everyday i wish a car would knock me down, someone would shoot me, anything so i wouldnt have to do it myself. a reason i stick around is because i dont want to hurt my loved ones, especially since i'm all they got after my brother. but i just dont want to live anymore. i was thinking bout poppin pills, but reading all these stories proves the shit does not work, and i definitely need something effective the first time round, cause God only knows how i'll handle everyone knowing the way i feel. i was just searching for ways to commit suicide when i stumbled across this site, but what i need is the strength to do it. i think about it all the time, and am just sick of thinking. i'm depressed, but not seeking help, no one really knows how i feel, so everyone talks to me as if my life is just fantastic. i do put on quite the show i must say, got everyone fooled, but myself. i want out!!!!!
|22 May 2004||Kate||i'm 18 and my life was always hell. i have nobody, and i have lost so damn fucking much through out my life. i curl up in a ball and cry all night in despair, and i suck it up to see the next day, but for what? why should i live if i'm not happy, not happy at all.... and those of you who say commiting suicide is selfish cuz ppl around u might get upset... FUCK U, is any1 here to help me when i'm going hysterical all by myself cutting myself, with this pain inside making me wanna rip my heart out? NO, NOBODY'S HERE. NOR DO THEY CARE that i'm suffering. why should i care that they might spill few tears at my funeral?? or think about me for few days. everyone will just go on and i will free myself from all this shit i feel and go through|
|22 May 2004||HELP ME!!!!||I just turned 13 today and i dont really give a fuk. Ever since I was 6 I wanted to commit suicide. Ive tried 5 times now but none have worked. Ive tried to slash my wrists, jump off a bridge, jump in front of a moving car on my way home from school, tried an overdose of medicine and tried to hang myself. I have tried to cut my throat but have been too scared to. Please e-mail me and tell me an easy way to commit suicide...|