|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Dec 2004||caitlyn||i'm 15 and and both my parents died when i was only nine. you see my dad was mad at my mom for seperating with him and moving to augusta. and so one morning he showed up at the door, i had no idea what was going on i was only nine. but i went to the bus stop that is only across the road, and when i tried to go back into the house the door was locked so i just went to school.(it was my second day there, we were only in agusta for 3 days) well near the end of the school day i was called down to the office only to find out my parents were dead. my dad brought a gun to the appartment and brought my mom up to her room shot her twice, in the chest and in the head, and then my dad shot himself in the head. you see if i went back in the house i too would of died. but some times i wish i went to the back door, like i almost did. i blame it on myself sometimes. there were three gun shots that were never heard, and that was because when me and my friends were at the bus stop and those big dump trucks were honking at us when we would wave to them, and sometimes i wonder if i could of saved them if the shots were heard, if i could of got to them in time. unless they died intantly and hopfully painless, and thats how i plan on dieing unless i deserve the pain for not being able to save my parents. i dont know any more i don't want to hurt anyboy else. i don't know if i should stay alive for other people, or if i should just give up.|
|19 Dec 2004||Depressed And Very Suicidal||I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org Please don't tell me not to commit suicide as i have already made my decision, (the right decision). Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|18 Dec 2004||xaloneforeverx||Hey..its me again the loner...On december 13 i did the most horrible thing i could ever imagin.. it all started like this...
my dad took all my razor blades away.. so i beged my freidn too give me one and this one was huge... but it was so perfect..it felt good to hold a blade in my hands againn.. so me and my friends spilt what we think was speed and ex. together... at night when i was alone i smoked up and the pill kicked in...i felt so dead andalive.. i took the blade in my hand and started too cut..at first i didnt wanna cutr my arms becuase everyone would see... so i cut my legs... and then im like fuck it i wana die this the end for me... i took the blade and started slitting my wrists like crazy.... i went up with the razor up the my "main vien" i stoped..asked my self what i was doing..and i to kthe blade and fucken slached my hand..(my vien) it was there..my main bien bleeding like it was a water fall... i couldnt belive it i was ganna die.. but something then happend...deep deep deep deep.... inside me there was this force...it didn want me too die yet..so i had the biggest panic attach ever then i couldnt breath...and all that shit... i was numb and my arm was getting green...i told my dad i dont rememeber y... and he brought me too the hospital but we waiting so long that my dad told me too calm down and my heart stoped beating soo fast...
i no my story is really boring.. but imsorry i donno what too do next i promessed my self no too cut n e more... but i no thats not ganan happen and i told my self i wasent ganna take n e pills and drugs n e more... i was stoned liek crazy all week...i donno what too do n e more sometone plz help me.. email me at( email@example.com)<--- i got msn messengetr too... plz i need help im a looner... and shit but wtv... buh bye....
|17 Dec 2004||Kayla||i think the best thing to do is kill yourself. i dont no about u but i hate life everything iz falling apart n i am goin to kill my self i hate life so much why did god ever let me cum in thyss world?|
|15 Dec 2004||Philip||I felt really depressed and thought of killing myself.. Then i found this site... I read through almost all the articles and now i feel really stupid!I broke up with my girlfriend like a month ago.. She was(and unfortunately she is)everything to me. I've never been so much in love before in my life.Now everyday i see her flirting with a fucker. I gave a promise that i would kick the shit out of him if he would dare to go out with her. It's my senior year and i'm really anxious and stressed about my future because of the pressure i get from my parents (they are not that strict but they really make me feel bad..) Tomorrow i start exams and i'm still thinking of commiting suicide but i really think i'm stupid because i can see that people that have really big problems just face it and still live.But i feel so much depressed and useless... Wish i was with my girlfriend (she doesn't give a fuck about me though.. and we'll never be together again..). if i'm with the person i love, i forget about everything.. but now.. she dumped me for no actual reason and i am really depressed about it and about the whole think with my future and my parents.. I think that i shouldn't commit suicide and guys.. just think of how people that just know you would feel.. a good friend of mine commited suicide because of his girlfriend and now she's depressed and feels guilty... i don't want to do this to her.. (although some times i feel i want revenge for the pain she caused me..)|
|14 Dec 2004||fiona||hey its me again i need a good way to commit suicide coz my family have turned their back on me now and ive decided the old cutting isnt doing it for me anymore.|
|14 Dec 2004||karina||hey,
im 14. everyone thinks my life is so damn perfect cuz im gogeous and i my parents spoil the chit out of me, but do they have time for me no they dont they dont know at all. they give me money when ever i want but have they ever sat down and talk to me of how im feeling,no. i have friends their all most guys but my best friend is just like me but she is perfect and she always makes herself sound better than me when were exactly the same. i dont goto school cuz some fat bitches want to beat me up. my grades suck. my boyfriend whom i love has just left to another state he expects everything to still stay the same, he needs to come to reaaality. my brother is married and having a baby he dont give a fuck about me anymore. the worls sucks it stabs you in the back everytime it cans there is no reason why to still be here i want to die but im too much of a little a bitch i know a lot of people love me i just want attention or someone to help me. so please if u know some easy way to kill myself feel free to write to me or if u know someway in how to help or just want to be my friend please write. mi aim is (princess619k) my cell phone email is (firstname.lastname@example.org) or call me at that number.
desperatly seeking for help or friends, heart-broken-gurl. karina
|14 Dec 2004||Briley||I lost everything and ended up in jail at 19 due to a heroin addiction. I was sent directly from jail to a rehab. Once I finished there I had to go to a halfway house since I had nowhere else to go. Once my time was up there I had to go to a 3/4 house where I stayed for about a month. I then left there and went to a school for 16-25 year old rejects. I was able to get myself into a good computer program and met a girl while living on campus. I graduated first in my class and earned an internship with AT&T. With the money we were able to put a car on the road and rent an apartment. I was lucky enough to find a great job and started to put together a good life. WE had a healthy baby boy, and I was quickly promoted at work. After 2 1/2 years I slowly fell back into my heroin addiction and took the woman I had fallen in love right along with me. We eventually ended up having our child taken from us, and she left me. I lost my job, car and sold everything I had. I am now sitting alone in an empty house (no furnature, nothing)and foreclosuer will began within the next couple of weeks. I lost everything to heroin again, and also have charges hangin over my head. I will never get the woman I was to marry back again, and I'll be lucky if I ever have my son again. I want to kill myself and end it so badly and it seems that no one cares. The only thing that keeps me alive is knowing that I have a 2 year old out there who needs me...any thoughts? My email is email@example.com|
|12 Dec 2004||depressed and very suicidal||I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org. Please don't tell me not to commit suicide as i have already made my decision, the right decision. Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|12 Dec 2004||Fallen Angel||dear samaritan
I am 21 yrs old. I dont need advice, i dont want it. i just need someone to listen. i have been married for 2 yrs now...and 4 days ago my husband left me, he told his parents to tell me he'd be back on tuesday to tell me if he wanted to work things out or leave me for good. if this were the only pain i couldve coped. but its not, my mother in law called to tell me that its all my fault, that every problem in my marriage is my fault. my father in law told me i was selfish for asking if my husband was leaving me. they said i need to give him space. if i go away forever it'll give him all the space he wants. i love this man more than my own life. but the pain is too much. i'm abuse victim as well...i was raped at 4yrs old till i was 10, at 8yrs old i was molested by another guy. at 16 a boy at school tried to rape me and at 17 i was date raped. no one understand the demons i'm fighting. no one understands why i'm so angry...they all want me to change. so i wear a mask, i hide from world as long as i can...until someone beats me down again...then i pick myself up and i put on my mask again and i keep going...i keep hiding and i keep fighting. i'm too tired to fight the darkness anymore. i dont want to. i dont need advice i've heard it all and i've even given it. I just need somene to listen....everyone tells me its all my fault...i ruined my life...but i didnt ask for this happen..i didnt ask for the demons ... i didnt ask for the darkness. i didnt ask for him to leave me, i didnt ask for them to hate me. i'm tired of pretending i've been pretending my whole life. i dont want to do it anymore. to anyone who reads this...i just need someone to listen. but there is noone to listen...
|11 Dec 2004||candice||HI ITS CANDICE AGAIN IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME FROM WAT THEY SAW IN MY LAST ENTRY PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!! email@example.com|
|10 Dec 2004||Alyssa||I am 17 yrs old and I'm thinking about suicide. I cut my wrists in numerous places and I also have aids from fucking so many people and i'm afraid my unborn child will have aids too. I'm going to die anyway so i just want it to be sooner. What should I do?|
|09 Dec 2004||Nina||I tried to kill myself twice when I was about 11 but my mom kept catching me. I was using just a rag and tieing it so tight around my neck till I would go blue and would hope I'd pass out and just stop breathing. It gave me the worst coughs I sounded like an old smoker. I did this because both my parents were having affairs and it made me sick that while i was crying waiting for them to come home they were out not even thinking about me. I also cut my arms to shreds and have atiny scar on my wrist where I could'nt go through with it. At 16 I develpoed my eating disorder but my mom just thinks im a joke and have no problems. I know im depressed and its not right to miss periods and never stop thinking about food. My dad is also a diabetic and I have to deal with him when he's hyper and I can't deal with it when im only 17. Ive hardly ever had n e friends and I hate the one i do have. Im also being used at my local stabls for no pay 9 to 5 doing everything but I can't stand up for myself and im so tired nowadays. I want people to realise I need help and its no joke.|
|09 Dec 2004||venom cutter||I am seriously thinking about killing my mom and then killing myself. That bitch always stops me or walks in on me and its all her fault I am like this any way. My mom used to make me let her boyfriends molest me and then they would pay her money for it. I hate her. I wish she would just die. Maybe I will help her. I need help. I need thearapy and counseling. I dont know what to do the last time they sent me away they gave me alot of drugs that made me feel real bad like I was sick. My mom made a phone call in the other room today and i think she is going to send me back to the hospital. I am sorry all of you have to listen to my problems but this is the only way I will feel better. Please dont hate me because I am gay and suicidal. If any one that reads this lives in Atlanta and would be my friend please email me.|
|09 Dec 2004||josh edmond||today i took a buch of pills and my mom found out and took me to the hospital and they pumped my stomach before the pills could take effect. i dont have any friends locally to talk to. they all hate me and spit in my face and beat me up. i feel on the inside like i am already dead. my mom knows i am gay and hates me. is there anyone out there like me. please if your out there let me know. i feel like its only a matter of time. i stole some razor blades and i am waiting till my mom goes to sleep tonight and i am going to go in my bathroom and lock the door and slit my throat after i take some more pills and drink some wine.|
|09 Dec 2004||Jennifer||Yep, well, im just another person who wants to commit suicide too. Ive thought about it, and you know, im just such a chicken. I just dont wanna hurt anyone if i do it, my sister, my other sister, and my brotehr. But they wouldnt give a shit anyways you know. No one cares im like the failure sister in the family. I just take up space and make everyone suffer. I wish i was dead. But i dont want to hurt my rents. So, yes im too chicken to do it. I just dont want to hurt them. I thought htat you know, what if i just became a nobody, someone that stalked the streets,...a "Bum" (i know not all bums are bums, some are incredibly smart people). My family wouldnt definately not care if i died then,... But then again im not sure. So you know, just live your life, and if you cant do it, i guess the best way is jump off a bridge. Gun is too messy, cutting yourself just wont work.. If you jump off a high bridge, theres no turning back, you cant fly back up! I reallllly wanna just Die, you know that feeling of just nothingness. I want that, i wish i was never born, now tahts the best way to go around it, just wish you were never born you know.|
|08 Dec 2004||Yuri||I dont know the best way to kill yourself, but i wish i did know how so i can stop searching. This life i live is my suicide. The people in it are my cup of poison. What do i want? I want to live my life. So why cant i? Im still trying to figure that out. Why do i feel this way? Because i have tried every other excuse and finally figured out why. But i cant tell you, and i really want to its just hard and you keep yelling. Just let me leave or kick me out. Its hard to be around you, and when its hard with you its hard with everyone else. I cant go to my friends because they would hate you even more i cant go to my family because they would believe your lies. I thought your purpose of bringing me here was to build up a clear life in this world but all i see are the blurry shadows threw my tears. I love you so much that it hurts to say that i hate you. Just give me my cup of poison so i can just leave this life of pain and depression that you had led me into.|
|07 Dec 2004||candice||HEY MY LIFE IS SHIT!!!!!!!! I KNOW EVERYBODY THINKS THIER LIFE SUCKS BUT MINE SUCKS MORE!!!!!!!!!!!! MY SISTER KICKS MY ASS EVERYDAY AND GETS AWAY WITH IT!!!!! SHES 14 SHE PULLS MY HAIR AND ALL THAT SHIT I KNOW SIBBLINGS FIGHT BUT SHE ATTEMPTED TO KILL MY WEN I WAS 2 I WAS IN MY TODDLER BED AND SHE HAD A KNIFE TO MY THROAT SO I SCREAMED FOR MY MOM BUT SHE GOT ONLY "NO TV FOR A DAY"YA RIGHT THATS NOT FAIR AND WEN I SWAER I GET 2 WEEKS GROUNDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BY THE WAY IM ONLY 9 IF I MAKE IT ILL SEND ANOTHER ENTRY
|07 Dec 2004||JOSH EDMOND||HI MY NAME IS JOSH EDMOND. I AM SO SAD BECAUSE I LIKE BOYS AND WHEN I TRY TO KISS THEM THEY BEAT ME UP. I HAVE A FRIEND WHO IS GAY AND HE CAME OVER TO SPEND THE NIGHT AND MY MOM WALKED IN ON US. I AM SO SAD I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF. I DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO. MY MOMMY DOSENT LOVE ME ANY MORE. SHE SAID SHE IS GOING TO SEND ME AWAY TO A MILITARY SCHOOL UNTIL I AM 18 THEN I CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE. SHE DOSENT WANT TO TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME BEFORE I KILL MYSELF.|
|07 Dec 2004||JOSH EDMOND||HI MY NAME NAME IS JOSH EDMOND. I LIVE IN ATLANTA GEORGIA. I AM CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE FOR A FEW DAYS NOW, YOU SEE I AM A HOMOSEXUAL AND I DONT KNOW WHY. I LIKE OTHER BOYS. I DONT HAVE ANY INTEREST IN GIRLS. ALL MY FRIENDS KEEP BEATING ME UP AND CALLING ME NAMES. IS THIS NORMAL? SOME ONE PLEASE TELL ME I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE OUT THERE LIKE THIS.|