|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|04 Jan 2005||donnie||the best way to kill yourself would be with any of these: Gun,knife,rope,jump off a building,purposely wreck a car,or cut your throat. I've been thinking about cuttin my throat because im a failure in school my parents think im a failure and most realtives. Im discrimminated at school all the time. Im a very quite person and people are always very sterotypical about me in negative ways. I attend a school of 2,700 students. I am always treated. I don't see any reason for me to be here today.|
|03 Jan 2005||adele||i need some help some one help me plz iam on my last legs i need some help i want to die
|03 Jan 2005||Jason||I've thought about killing myself for about 3 years. Now at the age of 17, i have realized i have nothing to live for. I have done some things that i don't think i can ever fix ( i don't do drugs, or smoke or shit like that ), but just things in general. I know some of my friends and family could care but not me.
I know some of these people at school that torment me everyday, sometimes i wish i could go to school and take them out, before taking mine. I know it seems harsh. But does anybody remember Columbine? Eric and Dylan did that because they were made fun of, day in and day out without any remorse, they were teased, made fun of. Because society, couldn't accept them for who they are.
So guess what, society can't accept me, then fuck you. We'll see what happens sooner or later ;)
i can promise you that.
|03 Jan 2005||drgiggles||this site is cool....i would love to be able to commit suicide...my family is in bad condition...if i died..the rest of there lives would be crap,no one deserves that..i guessmy life is ok...im just depressed...tired alot...the day feels like a blur..im a dork..im ugly,i cant even look in the mirror or ill be to embarassed to goto the store or anything...i cant hold a job..im soon to be homeless..i see no future...i feel a faint bit of hope in my stomache that maybe god will lead the way,but i look at everyone who wants or has commited suicide and know that im no diff. i will have no help..im incapable of living let alone starting alife...if i had a job in a dark closest..no interaction with more then 1person thru the day id be fine..but theres not...conversations wear me out,im exhausted just to try and respond to you,its exhausting,some how people take me as a jerk,i have no idea,im a dumass to,i cant even hold a job in a factory,im 18..im stupid and i got fired because they didnt like...everyone in this world ive met reacted the same so theres jusrt absolutely no way..my family doesnt want to see me homeless and humiliate them with drug abuse laziness ...i just cant make it|
|03 Jan 2005||Veronika||I dunno, life seems so unfair to me. You know.......i don't know what kind of person you have to be to survive, but i know that i can't.
Every coment and every word stabs me in the heart and i always want to cry, if i only had more courage i would've comitte suicide a long time ago, but every time i take a nife i pray that someday i will be able to do it. There is no sence in living in this world if thereis no one that loves you and when you love nobody,
iti is true that none give a damn but i just wanted to see the good in this worl and somehow i can't i am only 16 but i already given up on life. :) life can be a beautiful thing for some people but for some it is a prison with only one way to get out.
|01 Jan 2005||deewouldbeme||i have been thinking about death since i can remember, i have been beaten and the whole nine yards... all i want to do is die every morning i wake up and wish i didnt. i feel so alone all the time, i can be in a group of people and still feel so alone. i have talked to my so called friends about this and they say im crazy.... im 17 years old and i have been through so much, i hate life, i hate myself... oding doesnt work... slitting your wrist doesnt work... ive tried them both... i want a gun but i have no clue how to get one.. i wish i had someone there for me... ive been reading this site for years... i wish someone could say they feel the same and im not alone... maybe dying isnt the answer but i cant find any other solution to end my pain...|
|31 Dec 2004||Chris||im Chris and im 15, i really want to kill myself or have someone kill me for me(use a gun to my head plz...for the past 8 months my bestfriend and I hooked up and she became my gf. for the first 5 months she starting acting like if she was a different person...she was like psychic...there was a spirit that was threatening to kill her as it told me...and i did all i could to save her...and for those 5 months it went on and on...i thought it wasnt real...but then i said to myself my god this was real because i started to get weird scratches on my arm with messages...and idk how...but then i started up with it and i thought they came into me now...she kept it going and she started to "save" me...and then the 6th month she said she broke up with her bf Ryan...so im okay finally we can be 2gether...then everyday in school i saw her near him all the time...by the 8th month i fucking forced her to tell me the truth and she goes saying that she is still with him...and she says the spirits were fake...and now because of this i never concentrated on school and my life...i was always focused on her...and i used to be an A+ student...now im a fucking failure and im starting to lose a lot of friends...and now she broke up with me and is with the other kid ryan...and im telling her im going to kill myself now...and she is getting really upset...i hope she fucking deserves what she gets for brainwashing me, lying to me and cheating on me i want to kill myself now... here is my email... firstname.lastname@example.org|
|27 Dec 2004||caitlyn||i'm 15 and and both my parents died when i was only nine. you see my dad was mad at my mom for seperating with him and moving to augusta. and so one morning he showed up at the door, i had no idea what was going on i was only nine. but i went to the bus stop that is only across the road, and when i tried to go back into the house the door was locked so i just went to school.(it was my second day there, we were only in agusta for 3 days) well near the end of the school day i was called down to the office only to find out my parents were dead. my dad brought a gun to the appartment and brought my mom up to her room shot her twice, in the chest and in the head, and then my dad shot himself in the head. you see if i went back in the house i too would of died. but some times i wish i went to the back door, like i almost did. i blame it on myself sometimes. there were three gun shots that were never heard, and that was because when me and my friends were at the bus stop and those big dump trucks were honking at us when we would wave to them, and sometimes i wonder if i could of saved them if the shots were heard, if i could of got to them in time. unless they died intantly and hopfully painless, and thats how i plan on dieing unless i deserve the pain for not being able to save my parents. i dont know any more i don't want to hurt anyboy else. i don't know if i should stay alive for other people, or if i should just give up.|
|19 Dec 2004||Depressed And Very Suicidal||I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is email@example.com Please don't tell me not to commit suicide as i have already made my decision, (the right decision). Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|18 Dec 2004||xaloneforeverx||Hey..its me again the loner...On december 13 i did the most horrible thing i could ever imagin.. it all started like this...
my dad took all my razor blades away.. so i beged my freidn too give me one and this one was huge... but it was so perfect..it felt good to hold a blade in my hands againn.. so me and my friends spilt what we think was speed and ex. together... at night when i was alone i smoked up and the pill kicked in...i felt so dead andalive.. i took the blade in my hand and started too cut..at first i didnt wanna cutr my arms becuase everyone would see... so i cut my legs... and then im like fuck it i wana die this the end for me... i took the blade and started slitting my wrists like crazy.... i went up with the razor up the my "main vien" i stoped..asked my self what i was doing..and i to kthe blade and fucken slached my hand..(my vien) it was there..my main bien bleeding like it was a water fall... i couldnt belive it i was ganna die.. but something then happend...deep deep deep deep.... inside me there was this force...it didn want me too die yet..so i had the biggest panic attach ever then i couldnt breath...and all that shit... i was numb and my arm was getting green...i told my dad i dont rememeber y... and he brought me too the hospital but we waiting so long that my dad told me too calm down and my heart stoped beating soo fast...
i no my story is really boring.. but imsorry i donno what too do next i promessed my self no too cut n e more... but i no thats not ganan happen and i told my self i wasent ganna take n e pills and drugs n e more... i was stoned liek crazy all week...i donno what too do n e more sometone plz help me.. email me at( firstname.lastname@example.org)<--- i got msn messengetr too... plz i need help im a looner... and shit but wtv... buh bye....
|17 Dec 2004||Kayla||i think the best thing to do is kill yourself. i dont no about u but i hate life everything iz falling apart n i am goin to kill my self i hate life so much why did god ever let me cum in thyss world?|
|15 Dec 2004||Philip||I felt really depressed and thought of killing myself.. Then i found this site... I read through almost all the articles and now i feel really stupid!I broke up with my girlfriend like a month ago.. She was(and unfortunately she is)everything to me. I've never been so much in love before in my life.Now everyday i see her flirting with a fucker. I gave a promise that i would kick the shit out of him if he would dare to go out with her. It's my senior year and i'm really anxious and stressed about my future because of the pressure i get from my parents (they are not that strict but they really make me feel bad..) Tomorrow i start exams and i'm still thinking of commiting suicide but i really think i'm stupid because i can see that people that have really big problems just face it and still live.But i feel so much depressed and useless... Wish i was with my girlfriend (she doesn't give a fuck about me though.. and we'll never be together again..). if i'm with the person i love, i forget about everything.. but now.. she dumped me for no actual reason and i am really depressed about it and about the whole think with my future and my parents.. I think that i shouldn't commit suicide and guys.. just think of how people that just know you would feel.. a good friend of mine commited suicide because of his girlfriend and now she's depressed and feels guilty... i don't want to do this to her.. (although some times i feel i want revenge for the pain she caused me..)|
|14 Dec 2004||fiona||hey its me again i need a good way to commit suicide coz my family have turned their back on me now and ive decided the old cutting isnt doing it for me anymore.|
|14 Dec 2004||karina||hey,
im 14. everyone thinks my life is so damn perfect cuz im gogeous and i my parents spoil the chit out of me, but do they have time for me no they dont they dont know at all. they give me money when ever i want but have they ever sat down and talk to me of how im feeling,no. i have friends their all most guys but my best friend is just like me but she is perfect and she always makes herself sound better than me when were exactly the same. i dont goto school cuz some fat bitches want to beat me up. my grades suck. my boyfriend whom i love has just left to another state he expects everything to still stay the same, he needs to come to reaaality. my brother is married and having a baby he dont give a fuck about me anymore. the worls sucks it stabs you in the back everytime it cans there is no reason why to still be here i want to die but im too much of a little a bitch i know a lot of people love me i just want attention or someone to help me. so please if u know some easy way to kill myself feel free to write to me or if u know someway in how to help or just want to be my friend please write. mi aim is (princess619k) my cell phone email is (email@example.com) or call me at that number.
desperatly seeking for help or friends, heart-broken-gurl. karina
|14 Dec 2004||Briley||I lost everything and ended up in jail at 19 due to a heroin addiction. I was sent directly from jail to a rehab. Once I finished there I had to go to a halfway house since I had nowhere else to go. Once my time was up there I had to go to a 3/4 house where I stayed for about a month. I then left there and went to a school for 16-25 year old rejects. I was able to get myself into a good computer program and met a girl while living on campus. I graduated first in my class and earned an internship with AT&T. With the money we were able to put a car on the road and rent an apartment. I was lucky enough to find a great job and started to put together a good life. WE had a healthy baby boy, and I was quickly promoted at work. After 2 1/2 years I slowly fell back into my heroin addiction and took the woman I had fallen in love right along with me. We eventually ended up having our child taken from us, and she left me. I lost my job, car and sold everything I had. I am now sitting alone in an empty house (no furnature, nothing)and foreclosuer will began within the next couple of weeks. I lost everything to heroin again, and also have charges hangin over my head. I will never get the woman I was to marry back again, and I'll be lucky if I ever have my son again. I want to kill myself and end it so badly and it seems that no one cares. The only thing that keeps me alive is knowing that I have a 2 year old out there who needs me...any thoughts? My email is firstname.lastname@example.org|
|12 Dec 2004||depressed and very suicidal||I have been depressed for a long number of years. I want to kill my self by laying in front of the train tracks so my head will be decapitated. I choose this method because it is quick and effective. Life is shit and it will never get better. Once one problem goes another one comes to take it place. Suicide will solve all your problems forever. The one thing about killing myself in front of a train is I always seem to move away at the last minute so the train misses me. It's happened to me a number of times. Please Email me and give me some advice on how not to be scared so I can finally kill my self. My email is email@example.com. Please don't tell me not to commit suicide as i have already made my decision, the right decision. Do you know how I fucking hate waking up each day and saying not another fucking day. Please help me end my misery.|
|12 Dec 2004||Fallen Angel||dear samaritan
I am 21 yrs old. I dont need advice, i dont want it. i just need someone to listen. i have been married for 2 yrs now...and 4 days ago my husband left me, he told his parents to tell me he'd be back on tuesday to tell me if he wanted to work things out or leave me for good. if this were the only pain i couldve coped. but its not, my mother in law called to tell me that its all my fault, that every problem in my marriage is my fault. my father in law told me i was selfish for asking if my husband was leaving me. they said i need to give him space. if i go away forever it'll give him all the space he wants. i love this man more than my own life. but the pain is too much. i'm abuse victim as well...i was raped at 4yrs old till i was 10, at 8yrs old i was molested by another guy. at 16 a boy at school tried to rape me and at 17 i was date raped. no one understand the demons i'm fighting. no one understands why i'm so angry...they all want me to change. so i wear a mask, i hide from world as long as i can...until someone beats me down again...then i pick myself up and i put on my mask again and i keep going...i keep hiding and i keep fighting. i'm too tired to fight the darkness anymore. i dont want to. i dont need advice i've heard it all and i've even given it. I just need somene to listen....everyone tells me its all my fault...i ruined my life...but i didnt ask for this happen..i didnt ask for the demons ... i didnt ask for the darkness. i didnt ask for him to leave me, i didnt ask for them to hate me. i'm tired of pretending i've been pretending my whole life. i dont want to do it anymore. to anyone who reads this...i just need someone to listen. but there is noone to listen...
|11 Dec 2004||candice||HI ITS CANDICE AGAIN IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME FROM WAT THEY SAW IN MY LAST ENTRY PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!! firstname.lastname@example.org|
|10 Dec 2004||Alyssa||I am 17 yrs old and I'm thinking about suicide. I cut my wrists in numerous places and I also have aids from fucking so many people and i'm afraid my unborn child will have aids too. I'm going to die anyway so i just want it to be sooner. What should I do?|
|09 Dec 2004||Nina||I tried to kill myself twice when I was about 11 but my mom kept catching me. I was using just a rag and tieing it so tight around my neck till I would go blue and would hope I'd pass out and just stop breathing. It gave me the worst coughs I sounded like an old smoker. I did this because both my parents were having affairs and it made me sick that while i was crying waiting for them to come home they were out not even thinking about me. I also cut my arms to shreds and have atiny scar on my wrist where I could'nt go through with it. At 16 I develpoed my eating disorder but my mom just thinks im a joke and have no problems. I know im depressed and its not right to miss periods and never stop thinking about food. My dad is also a diabetic and I have to deal with him when he's hyper and I can't deal with it when im only 17. Ive hardly ever had n e friends and I hate the one i do have. Im also being used at my local stabls for no pay 9 to 5 doing everything but I can't stand up for myself and im so tired nowadays. I want people to realise I need help and its no joke.|