|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|16 Apr 2005||???????????||im 14 and a few minutes ago i tried to commit suicide i over dosed on parecetamal and came online to c how long it will take me 2die. It turns out i have a small chance of dying in 5 days but tonite wen my parents goo to bed im going to find different medicines and mix them i have a larger chance of dying. Hopfully goodbye ill get back to ye if i dont die|
|12 Apr 2005||Megan||Everytime me and my mom get in a fight i want to kill myself.i have thought and looked for ways to do it.i just havent yet.i hate myself so much.im fat and i cant run in my school sport.i hate it.my mom yells at me till she crys or a vesel pops in her neck.so i thought i would ease up her pain and yelling a little.she usally yells at me for something i did to my brother.i told her it was stupid and then she lost it.she yelled at me for rolling my eyes(i didnt).everything on my body hurts.i can never picture my life when im older.maybe the farthest its gone is when im out of high school.so maybe i can solve everything.my best friend alawys tells me that if i ever died she wouldnt know what to do.i hav never told her that i wanted to kill myself.i hate myself so much.i cry my self to sleep.well my moms home.by.|
|12 Apr 2005||Jesper||Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they make your character and your character makes your destiny. My destiny is fated and your's too.
My three attempts, as you see, failed.
Sleeping pills (6 of em) Came away with not even an headache.
Throwing myself off the house (20 metres drop) Survive with only one scrath on my leg.
And the most important one: Poison. (Ratpoison) Goggled down a whole bottle and Im still here. God protects me and I don't like that. I didn't want to live anymore. Especially now. Since my girlfriend cheats on me. I want to kill myself and her with me. I thought about the people who I hurt with my next attempt, but I figured, IF they really care, why wont they anything about it???
|11 Apr 2005||becky||I was sexually abused when i was younger, and my father never wanted a child. I dont fit in anywhere, im always the outsider. I know this is nothing compared to what other people have gone through, but I feel so messed up in my mind and I hate the person that i am. I also hate the people who think that i must be happy because of the way i look.... direct quote "how can u be sad, your so pretty?" Since when did that have anything to do with it? I know my mum loves me and thats the only reason im still here - i cant bear to hurt her, or my two little brothers. (adam h and adam w) If one day i cant put up with it anymore, even for them, im either going to slit my wrists or hang myself off the balcony at school. For those of you under 13 who need to escape from this shithole, i recommend a long drop off a tall building, but only if your sure that you can't deal with life anymore.... Thank you to the people who've written on this site, after reading some of this i dont feel so alone.|
|10 Apr 2005||Mary||CONTACT ME PLEASE!!
Mouchette, I have to say, first of all, that it is sick and wrong to encourage people to kill themselves, especially younger children. However, I am a cutter, and I have burned myself, and I often bang my head against a wall until I'm dizzy, so I really have no place to talk. But then, I'm also 14.
Anyway, my point is, I badly want to die, but I don't have the guts to kill myself. I would feel guilty about my family and friends. I would drink my pain away or get high, but I do not have access to drugs or alochol. I have tried smoking cigarrettes, but they don't help me at all.
So, how can I feel better!? Please, please, I beg you to help me. I don't have the guts for suicide, and I don't have drugs or alocohol. Contact me!!
AIM - bleeding psycho6
E-MAIL - firstname.lastname@example.org
YAHOO - mirror_girl14
|07 Apr 2005||April||Hi Im april and I have been trying to commit suicide since i was about 11... I am no 15 turning 16 in a month and Im not really sure what to do...I mean I dont like getting help thats just not for me and Im fine with the way I am....I have a good life and all...I mean I got great parents, a big family, plenty of pets, a huge house and everythin....I mean yea sure I love my life but only parts of it...since I was thirteen so many things have happend to me...Ive lost one of my best friends b/c she thinks i need help and that im taken her downa bad path b/c of all the wrong choices i make, My grandmother has died and she was like a best friend to me, Ive been in an out of a relation ship with my boyfriend, my father almost died, my one sister drinks to much, my other sister is mental and trys to overdose on pills all the time, and the fact that i have a diseas that might not affect me now but soon will and I dont want that to happen....so the only thing i could think of that could stop all these pains is suicide...It hasnt helped though b/c i have never succeeded yet...I will soon though b/c I just can't take it anymore....from what I told you before isnt even half of my problems....I kno theres alot of people out there like me and are much worse but I don't kno....And now b/c i have reminded myself of all this I feel like i should attempts again....Please someone tell me what I should do...?!?!?!|
|06 Apr 2005||I will find That Place||There is no best way to kill yourself. Killing yourself not only will destroy your life, but those who've known and loved you as well. I'm a 19 yr old college student and I've been battling thoughts of suicide every hour of my life. I came onto this site by accident. ( I was finding simple ways to hang myself) After reading some of these stories, I realized how bad some people have it. I've always been an outcast. Very little friends in school and a VERY small family. My sister ran away when she was 13, my mom, left my dad when I was 2. My dad is my family and he's all I have and I'm all he has. The one thing that has made me Not Kill myself was knowing it would leave my dad to struggle with the pain I'd leave behind..
I continue looking in the mirror at this young man staring straight at me. What is his future? Why is he here? I know I have a reason but I'm still searching...Even last year, when I tied myself to a pole in my closet... so ready to leave...something in my head stopped me but why?
I don't want my dad to find my lifeless body but....I am tired of feeling lifeless.. I feel like such a stranger in my own skin...not knowing who I am. I often cry before I fall asleep at night begging God to take me.
If I didn't find this site, I dunno what I would've done. Its good to know that somewhere on this cold, silent earth, there's people that share my pain. Maybe we Will all meet again someday face to face...happy...the way we should be.
no one told me life would be this hard.
If I can survive this night, I will fight another... maybe tomorrow will come...
Everyone needs support: email me @ email@example.com
|03 Apr 2005||stacey||Yesterday me and my lil foster bro sat up till 5am in the morning (by the way im FROM LONDON ) he told me these things that he wonted to die end his life his life is not worth living im not sure wat to do if n e 1 has any way i could help e mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org thank you all people|
|03 Apr 2005||PAULIE||I REALLY WANT TO DIE...3RD POST...NO HELP FROM ANYONE....MY GIRLFRIEND CHEATED ON ME WITH MY BEST FRIEND...PRITTY SOON GUYS...NO MORE PAULIE ON MOUCHETTE ANYMORE....
|01 Apr 2005||Hannah||I am desperate for someone to e-mail me with well known methods of commiting suicide. I am very interested in commiting sucide by carbon dioxide (I think this is correct). It is the chemical you can inhale lots of and it's very fatal. Please if anybody is an expert on suicide methods please e-mail me. I need to plan for my death. I am not sure if I am even going to do it but if I do I need to be planned.
Please contact me at email@example.com
|31 Mar 2005||paulie||i think im gonna go slit my wrist some more...and when asked..."the cat did it"... my damn girlfriend dont like me anymore...my parents are never home....i raised my self from the age of 5...i just hate being around.... i love being alone|
|31 Mar 2005||FiFi||Believe me I can relate to most of you.. let see to begin, my childhood was pretty good until my once kind and nice uncle began molesting me at 8 or 9
I knew It was wrong so I went to my parents after the first time of him sickly smiling while groping me. My mom believed me, being a victim of rape herself, although my dad found this concept too hard to grasp considering it was his brother. So after having a long bitching lecture about how I shouldn't lie for attention, nothing was resolved. So my uncle was back at it again. I am now 14 and the horrific occurrences just stopped. I had been dieing inside and I was attempting to tell anyone who would listen...somehow I worked up the nerve to tell my brother. My brother is two years older than me so as you can imagine, he was pissed.....so onward the story flows as my brother tells my parents, and they miraculously believe him. Ironic huh?
So they send me to a psychologist to try to work through my "problems" and child services is called, police interviews, the whole bit, but I still felt terrible.
Now I have half of my family who despises the ground I walk on, and half who actually care. Great huh?
When I was 12 I tried killing my self
the well-known, grab a knife and slice your wrists while crying in the bath tub. Only success from that is a pair of scars to add to my collection.
*****attempt # 2******
pills, pills, pills.
Grab a couple handfuls, shove them down your throat and hope for the best. The end result is a massive stomach pain.
******attempt # 3**********
drowning....could never get that one accomplished...always was to chicken and needed to breath.
(just so you know you cannot choke your self to death....you will end up passing out in which you let go of your throat, or whatever you are attempting to choke to death with such as...belt, string, electrical cord, etc.)
So here I am, still attempting and totally hating life.... So I don't know how to end this life I have learned to so passionately hate, but if you have any answers please let me know.
|30 Mar 2005||wickedcutter||im 15 now but everyone still treats me like im 5. i cut everyday and the pain just gets less and less. i contemplate suicide everyday and have since everyting in my life went wrong which was like when i was 5. my parents divorced then but neither of them really wnted me insted they fought over my sister and brother, i was 5 for chrits sake. when i turned 6 i was put in a foster home so the judge and my "family" could figure out who would take me.at the age of 8 i liked with my mom and some cousins where i became sexually active i was so used to pain that i didnt know that sex was a bad thing or maybe i did but i didnt care. at that time i began to cut to "tell" my story to my wrists the blood listned and it cared for me. at 9 i was mved again to live with my grandparents this time who really hated me by then i was getting like straight fails and tried to kill myself by swallowing a whole bottle of vicoden it didnt do anything now im just immune to it for the past like 6 years lve tried to kill my self ive gotten into a million fights with everyone from my best friend to my sister from my "father" to my teachers i take on anyone who is going to talk shit about me and make me fell worse. i hope sumday that i will achieve my dream of killing myself till then i live in my broken world standing on the side lines watching everyone pass me by|
|30 Mar 2005||Josh||I've been suicidal back before I can remember. Events in my life have built up and are killing me inside. Right now im in university, my grades are slipping and things are getting worse and worse. I like to write poetry and stuff, guess its a way to vent some of the anger and stuff that happens to me. Never been in a relationship where the person liked me for who i am. No one knows what is going on in my head. I guess the reason im still round today is i would feel guilty, if only my family knew who i really was and how i fealt.|
|29 Mar 2005||amanda lynn||people email me at firstname.lastname@example.org i need advice badly|
|29 Mar 2005||amanda||hey i have been suicidal for such a long time. i am now 13 and i still think about it. my dad is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. all he wants in life is 2 make mine worse. he called the cops on my 18 year old boyfriend so now me and him cant ever talk. nic now hates me more than enything becuz of the things he is now going threw. i have been cutting for a very very long time. i feel that if u realy want to hurt the people that luv u then cut ur wrists soooo bad that u die. my reasons r becuz if u hang urself u will have a ring around ur neck and u dont look very good. if u shoot ur head u will look the worst... trust me on this ive seen pictures u have a big huge hole in ur head. if u cut ur nick u will have a ring on ur neck again and last if u drown urself u will have water everywhere and i dont no how 2 explain it but u look grose. so if u want 2 cummitt suicide then cut ur wrists. if u new my life and how its all fucked up u would c y i do the things i do. some of the time i will addmit my life is 2 kill 4 but then the worst things happen. im spoiled rotton. i have now gotton raped over 3 times now and luckily i have not gotton pregnant. so i wouldnt kill urself just quite yet becuz like me life things get better and everyone goes threw bad times so its not only u. so dont think it is.people like u think of the same things some people have it worse off. so keep living and try hard. i have found that not hanging out with nic is a little better 4 me. i have a lot more trust and am able 2 do a lot more things. and thats wat i think|
|27 Mar 2005||Dae||There is no good way to commit suicide under 13. But In a way there is, since i was 12 I've cut myself, i have so many scars i wear nothing but long sleeved shirts or i wear dones of my goth bracelets. Right now I want to go hang myself from a tree in my backyard. Ever since i moved in with my dad when i was 12 i've wanted to die. Im tired of being here now as well. Right now I am 17 and when i was away on vacation when i was 14 my dads girlfriends daughter killed my cat, i had that cat since i was about 10 i watched him being born. But she killed him, then another pet came around named josie, that dog went everywhere with me, he was my best friend. One day as i went out with a friend i forgot to bring him in the house and he killed himself by smashing his head through a metal post and a brick wall. It was intierally my fault. But since then i was raped once and loved and betaled by almost everyone i know. My dad is always gone, my friends no longer call me, and my fiance seems so distante and never wanting to talk to me. For the last 2 weeks i've been alone almost everynight. I feel like no one loves me, but if i died there are so many people that would hate me and i would hate myself if i killed myself. Its now a fantisy to die. I want to, i cut, and nothingever gets any better, and i have lost 3 children. I have had 1 miscarrage 2 abortions. I need help to fill in the emptyness, or i shall perish.|
|26 Mar 2005||Robyn||Hey Everyone.....I've Signed this thing before with my problem and if you want to read it then you can search up Robyn..Anyways, yes im still cutting but now i am cutting my ankles...just so my friends at school don't notice...Anyways the reason that im writing again is i noticed that in here everyone is writing why and what there doing to kill themselves but no one is offering to help.... I am.... If you actually take the time to read this, i would like to help..I'm not cured yet so we can help each other please email me if anyone has any problems they would like to share with me? my email adress is email@example.com.|
|23 Mar 2005||Em||hi i'm back again. i've reading some of these statements and they are pretty sad. i hope all of you have a better life. you all have it worse then me. i'm very depressed and i often have thoughts of suicide or just death. I have manic depression but nobody wants to do anything about it. and nobody cares because they don't believe me. i dont need a doctor to diagnos me with anything because i know how i feel and i know that i have it; unless i'm just retarded. but i'm not. I'm losing my friends rather slowly. i've got a lot of friends but 3 best friends. 2 of them are disgusted with me and my behavior. they don't want to talk to me, but i honestly don't care and i'm not just saying that. i really do not care. nothing could ever make me care. i don't care about anything anymore, not even myself. sometimes i don't even take care of myself. I don't go to school for days at a time. i've attempted suicide many many times. i'm going to try carbon monoxide. all i want to do is just go to sleep and never wake up. i could live in a dream world forever. one of my guy friends that i was friends with before he met his now girlfriend which was my best friend is pissed at me because i told his girlfriends sister that we were secretly friends. the sister said to open up and i needed to talk about my problems or just open up with anything so i did..she said i could trust her..i believed her and then she betrays me. the one friend, for about 10 years now, that has always betrayed me some way some how, has been her. i do not know what makes me keep thinking she will change, but she won't. i told him that friendships are not meant to be kept a secret and i can't live my life being a secret and everybody has a breaking point. i'm shattered. one day i will just flip out, i know it. i will just go beserk one day and i will do something really fucking stupid. anybody have any suggestions for ways to kill yourself? pills can kiss my ass they don't work. i remember a time, where me and my friend ashley were going to kill ourselves together over the internet. she moved away and everything was going wrong in both of our lives..so we took pills 1 by 1 and we said our goodbyes but without letting everybody know what we were doing just letting them know that we loved them. but the pills..had NO effect i just woke up the next morning like it was a regular day. its like i've become immune to it or something. ashley was fine also. today i was sitting in class, and i got a txt message that said fuck you go to hell and die. that right there, just struck a nerve. i wanted to die at the moment. people obviously want me to die, who will actually miss me. my used to be friends? the fake ass friends? my dysfunctional family? the teachers that pretend to care? they just want me to come to school and get their work done so they don't get in trouble for not doing their job. we have some weird new policy..i'm not going to go into that. off topic. it seems like you people on the internet care more about me then the people i've known throughout my life. you care about me, more then i care about me! and thanks for that. everytime i get into a car, i hope that we get in an accident, but i die..and everyone else survives. i don't want anybody else to die, just me. when i'm driving..i could control it all..i could kill myself like that..but i don't want to be the reason somebody else gets hurt..i can't be the driver..hell i'm crazy enough to do that. i've stolen a car before. gone up to only about 90mph, but of course i wasn't lucky for a deer to come running out or something. i never wear my seatbelt on purpose. nobody tells me to put it on anyway. except my dad but i won't be hearing that for a while since hes in jail. i piss everybody around me off. i'm rude to everybody about everything. well actually, scratch that, i'm like that to people i know really well, or people that i don't know. like my friends. everybody else that i have gone to school with over the years, that are just associates, i talk to every day and i'm nice to them they are nice back we have a good ol time. but its my friends..the best friends (they are really fake though) that i'm sooo soo mean to and i just don't give a damn about. something crazy is brewing up in my head. well i'm bored so i'm leaving this site. feel free to email me. but if you tell me suicide isn't the answer fuck off your email will be terminated and your address blocked. i might make a few exceptions depending on what it says.|
|23 Mar 2005||Jenn||To tell you the truth ....i dont know the BEST way to commit suiside....my life has been crappy from the start...and i never let out my anger....i dont know why..i just dont want people feeling sad for me....but now its getting worse...the thought of suiside runs through my head every single day....i just dont have the guts to acctually do it.i have tryed to strangle myself,cut myself,and shoot myself.....and they wont work..i just cant do it......but i want out of this world soo bad.....i dont want anything to do with this world or the people in it....the only person i respect is my boyfriend....he's why im still here...ironically he was gonna commit suiside the SAME day i was and i just happened to find his e-mail...he lives where i live and we're goin out and things r goin good...but i find im only really trully happy only when im with him which makes it worse....i need my family........i lost my grmps lastyear ...he had a flight school and he took a student up and the plane crashed....this is y suiside is on my mind too.......wehen my gramps was taken i lost all my faith.....ALL OF IT...and i cant get it back cause without my gramps here i have nothing....he was the only one i acctually wanted to spent time with in my family....i live with my gramms...but shes such a bitch...shes mrs.perfect and she tells me im usless everyday.....when she tells me that i feel i have no reason to be here..i just want to leave...i dont want to commit suiside i just want out.......i dont want to live anymore and suiside is the only way out..if i do commit suiside i want a way that is COMPLETLY painless.....thats the only way i'll do it...i dont want to get help cuz like i said i dont like people feeling sorry for me..im not this way just cuz if my gramps being gone ..i have been suisidal since i was 11.....i just cant go on with acctually doing it..but i know very soon ill do it...its just a matter of time...if someone that reads this can help me...e-mail me