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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|11 Jun 2005||jeroen||Wel my name is jeroen Im 15 now I have allot of problems at home my mother is depressed to and tries to kill herself often. Im trying to get the strength to kill myself because there are still people that love me but for people for under the 13 think good about it it's a hard decision dont do it if you have any doubts whatsoever Im thinking alot about suicide but Im also waiting to be taken in a specail hospital but it takes to long I will give it a week and if then nothing has happened. I will rip open my vains|
|07 Jun 2005||ryan||i have this female friend who is totaly smothering me. she suffers from deppression. lets just say her name is uh.... elizabeth. thats not her real name.
she suffers from chronic deppression. she takes medication, she sees a counselor, a therapist and on and on...
i have told her countless times i dont like her and want nothing to do with her. however i know she is deppressed and i cant just completly leave her alone. afterall she has attempted suicide 4 times in the past 5 or 6 months. whats wierd is when i talk to her i start to become deppressed. has anyone out there ever been in a similar situation or have any advice for me?
|07 Jun 2005||gloria galloway||i am not sure where to start.
i guess it would have to be my early childhood. my father raped me until i was nine years old. finnaly my mom found out and called the cops. my dad went to prison and now my mom blames me for breaking up her wonderful marrige. so she sent me to live with her parents. she kinda went crazy. now my grandmother makes me take baths and she says i still stink after i get out of the bathtub so she washes me and actually all she does is molest me. i feel so dirty and unwanted. why cant i just have a normal life? why is all this happening to me?
i dont know what to do. i thought about just commiting suicide but that is not the right thing to do. i am scared to tell another grown up whats happening to me because they will laugh at me. or maybe they will molest me to. i am thinking about running away but i dont have anywhere to go. does anyone know what i can do? is there any body that will help me?
|06 Jun 2005||Megan||well 2 years ago i attempted suicide...
this is why: 5 months earlier my father and grandpa died. my friends and sister abandoned me....it may not sound like much but i was so depressed. i failed but i wanna try again. everyday i think about how i can do it and where. everyday tho i think my mom and sis wont recover but rite now im in such a dark place..... so im thinking about commiting suicide.
|06 Jun 2005||lissie||ight i have serious issues..i dunno wats wrong wit me but i feel like life is so empty...i have good parents ! da best mom in da world! wats funny is dat they even supportin me an helpin me by givin me money when i need it since i dun have a job...im almost 20 yr old an i have good friends as well...the thing about me is dat nothing really pleases me..i get bored and tired 2 quikly in wateva situation im in...my mom jus took me to atlantic city an no joke i had 2 practically fake myself of BEING HAPPY in da sitaution. everyday is like me fakin myself as though i care about things when i dun really care about anything....if i stay home i start 2 get sad 2 quik but if i GO OUT i get TIRED OF PEOPLE way 2 quik...no offense dun get me wrong I LOVE PEOPLE...but i jus get tired way 2 quik from any situation an all i wanna do is sleep...now das life lol...i think das my favorite thing 2 do...sometimes im actually shoked at da fact dat i have friends dat care 4 me AN LIKE ME...cuz im SO BORING...I DUN TALK MUCH I JUS DUN HAVE DA SOCIAL SKILLS I GUESS but im da best listener an once some1 starts a convo i can continue....but then i jus gettin annoyed of talkin...so WAS DA PT OF HAVIN ME IN LIFE...I HAVE NO PERSONALITY! my friends tell me otherwise but i have no meaning in life..sometimes i feel as though i was born in2 da wrong family or something! my mom is so OUTSPOKEN..SHES ALWAYS TALKIN MAKIN JOKES...sometimes i look at her an wish i was like dat...anyways i guess wat im tryin 2 say is dat sometimes i think about DISAPPEARING OUT OF THIS WORLD! i jus wish i wasnt born lets put it dat way cuz i no some1 else in my shoes would be happier wit da things i have but i dun really care 2 much 4 things! i wish i had a gun 2 jus shoot myself 2 get rid of my "im never enjoyin life mood" because watever i do im not enjoyin myself...i hate myself an i wish i had charisma an was outspoken ...my parents r way 2 kind an caring 2 c me dead one day if i eva do anythin...they'd probably be very shoked cuz i seem like im fine wit life an not like i say I WISH I WASNT BORN.dude maybe i need medication 2 make me hyper an actually enjoy life ...but its not like im UNHEALTHY OR SOMTHING LOL im not mental but i wish i had da energy for life cuz i seriosuly dont....IF ANY1 CAN PLEASE TALK 2 ME OR IM ME 2 GIVE ME ADVISE OR SUGGESTIONS I WOULD LOVE DAT ...my screen name on aim is lizziebk1985...is u been in my shoes, know wat im goin through, or can jus help me out wit some good advise of wat i should do lemme no cuz i dun wanna suicide but in a way i do...|
|04 Jun 2005||tianna(not a real name)||i am pretty new to this whole suicide thing... i'm 13 and lately i have been feeling that i am unable to do anything right and that life just isn't worth it. i have considered doing many things for example i've tried slitting myself.... after about 2 times i found it didn't work. every night now i try to hang myself... and its always before i pass out that i chicken out. i want to tell people how i feel and what i have been doing but all my friends don't approve of my whole gothic back round so i hardly think that they will understand... i think that if your unhappy then why shouldn't you just end the suffering and pain... please if you think that you can help or if you need someone to talk to e-mail me|
|03 Jun 2005||Rachel*||I am only 16. I have tried to kill my self 2 times. Once, I was only 12, foolish. I didn't even go into act with it. Then again when I was 13. I was really going to kill myself. My brother secretley raped me, he abused me. And every night I would cry myself to sleep. Not knowing what to do, I felt scared and alone. And then my sister ran away, she was my only best friend, and that just made manners worse. I wrote a suicide note. I wrote a paragraph to every person that meant something to me. I suggest this to do before you commit suicide. Then it was 3 AM, and I was planning to kill my self that night, I opened the bottle of pills, and then thought " do I really want to die like this, isnt there a better solution? " And I chikened out. It resulted in not suicide, but me cutting myself. Numerous times I would slash open my wrist's. Then my mom found out on day and sent me to a Mental Institute. I guess things have been a little bit better.
But the answer to the question. What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13 ? Is to not kill your self. But if you really want to, and your serious. 20 sleeping pills. 10 wont do it and 15 will just make you sick. Email me if you need help. Please make true good decidions. God and I love you.
P.S. A different name was used.
|02 Jun 2005||some whore||i live in the bronx. my dad put me on the streets as a hooker and now i have AIDS.
i am afraid to die like that so i want to kill myself. someone please write me and tell me how to do it painless lee.
i am serious. please dont write me and try to talk me out of it or tell me i am a horrible person. i just want to end it painlessly.
|31 May 2005||a person||I have been suicidal for a few months now & I dont know what to do. The first time I looked at this page it made me feel loads better knowing that there were people with worse lives than me and so I dont really have a right to feel suicidal. I think the best solution is to jump out a window. I am 10 and I have 2 living hells: 1 at home where I sometimes feel no one likes me anymore and 1 at school where I get bullied. Sometimes I really want 2 kill myself and sometimes I dont. No clue what to do. I have told my brother but asked him not to tell my parents. Someone, HELP. Should I ask my brother to tell my parents? I have to go now. Someone, tell me what to do!|
|30 May 2005||Jen||um...ok. well im 15 n wana know if you can OD on paracetamol?? if you know then please mail me. im planning to commit suicide in a few days(on thursday) n im not quite sure on how to do it yet. im kinda leaning towards jumping out infront of a train but if the paracetamol will work ill do that. please email me people! asap! email@example.com|
|29 May 2005||my life is over||my life is over. i want to die.
i cannot believe what my parents have done. at night i walk to my parents bedroom door and listen in and crack the door open and spy on them. ussually they are having sex which i like to watch cuz my mom is pretty but the other night i heard them talking about collecting the life insurance money after they kill my grandmother. i was so shocked i gasped for a breath. my dad heard me and swung open the door in a rage snatched me up by the arm and told me if i told anyone they wood take out a life insurance policy on me and kill me too. well, my grandmother was killed three days ago. they made it look like an accident. the cops even think it was an accident. my parents told me today, see we can make it look like an accident so dont tell anyone or we will kill you.
if there is anyone out there who can help me please email me. i am afraid they are going to kill me anyway.
i am only nine years old and am afraid i am going to be killed by my parents.
|29 May 2005||Janet||I really don't know. I've been trying since I was 11 and I'm 14 now. I just got out of the hospital for sucide and being a cutter. I still cut, I don't drink anymore and I hardly ever do drugs anymore. I still am depressed and my parents always wonder why I'm so mad. They kind of put me in the hospital by there actions, but not taking me to a srink, I ended up in the hospital. So I blame them for this. I am in a constant state of depression and if I'm not writting I'm cutting. so I really can't answer your question,but I really don't think it's something you can play with.|
|27 May 2005||P.D||hey everybody... most people will never get a chance to read this ever... expecially the people who matter. ive been scuicidal since my first sexual experience... it was christmas holidays and i never thought of doing anything with a girl, it didnt even cross my mind (i was a 16 yr old virgin). Next thing u kno we were partying with these girls.. and everybody was making out and havin a good time... cept me... eventually a girl noticed that i was kinda down... and without reason started to kiss me... the night dragged on and i found her in my bed... i didnt have sex with her or anything.. we just made out... i was hella afraid of what shed think of my 5.5 inch (thingie). The next day i asked her out.... and she told me she didnt want a boyfriend.... two days later she was dating my friend... i asked her about it and all she was said was "FUCK, I just wanted to get laid man".... i literally flipped out and wrecked everything in our house.. my brother had to hold me down so i wouldnt hurt myself... my parents made me see these docters who gave me pills.. WHAT A FUCKING JOKE... there like uhhh ya... here are sum pills that will make u uhhhh dizzy and ull just want to fucking kill yurself wearing a goddamn smile... thus the walking in on other people haveing intercourse just fucked me right up... what bad luck, 5 occasions of witnessing your friends fuck since they were 16 and your now 18 drives u insane!!!! WHY CANT I BE IN LOVE?! WHY CANT I MAKE LOVE TO A WOMAN!? AM I JUST TOO THIN AND SCRAWNY?!......
than i met a girl.. she asked me to graduation... she had a boyfriend already and i was SOOO in love with her.. we got along like a perfect match! she told me that if her and her boyfriend werent going out or ever broke up that itd b me shed start to date... hahahahaa wow... i fell for it too. She ditched me 4 days b4 my grad... she broke up with her boyfriend the day b4 grad too.... and she instantly started dating another guy... well... ive tryed to kill myself once... i tell myself every other minuit of every day that i will do it... im now currently in love with the most beautiful girl in the world!!! inside and out!! she flirts with me so much and uses me just like any other girl!! she has a boyfriend tho... she just fuckin taunts me... she knows she can have me at anytime but she just toys me around!!! IM SO FUCKING ANGRY AT HER!!! but im so in love..... i dont want to die i really dont.... but i feel like its the only way to releive an unseen tension... i should knock on her door and shoot myself in the face when she opens the door.... PLEASE HELP ME ANYBODY!!! IM FROM ALBERTA CANADA AND I REALLY NEED HELP!! THIS IS A DESPERATION CALL!! I MIGHT HURT MYSELF!!!!!! Dude_wit_no_name@hotmail.com
Please i need real help from someone with experience's similar to mine or dealking with the same mental issues.
|25 May 2005||Kriss||Well, my pregnant fiancee left me this weekend and slept with another man while I was asleep in the same room. I was already seriously depressed, but I've attempted suicide twice this weekend alone. I'm 20 years old and I've now attemped suicide 20 times. As if I wasn't depressed enough, it turns out I'm even a failure at suicide. I have no hope left, no family left and nobody who cares. I just need a way out that definitely can't fail. If I had a gun, I'd use it. I have no life, no fiancee and I'll never get to see my child grow up.
Does anybody have ANY suggestions of how to end it all? I'll do anything.
And before anyone tries suggesting the religion thing, I'm a minister. I've tried it, it hasn't helped.
|25 May 2005||Breyanna Marie||I heard about this website from my friend Amanda. Anyways I've cut my arms before until they were numb, O'D on pills, Tried to starve myself, Which starving myself really didn't work because you just get dizzy and my parents took me to the hospital. Yeah, I have to admit, sometimes I really want to die because I feel like there is no purpose for me here in this world. I'm just scared of Hell. I always ask my parents if there is such thing as God or Jesus or Satin. They always tell me yes. But I always wonder if those people exist then why do we go through so much pain? I always tell everyone that if it wasn't for being scared of hell I would have killed myself allready. Last year my parents made me see a counsler because I would always threaten to kill myself. I want to sooo bad but then when I think about it, I would miss the whole rest of my life ahead of me. Which I care about way to much! I mean c'mon I'm only 13 years old. But yea. Anyone want to talk? Just add me @ firstname.lastname@example.org. L8er!|
|23 May 2005||rocky||hey well im back and not in the best of shape. i dont know wat has happened i have these bad thoughts. guess wat every body is plotting against me. i swear the most close people to me are plotting against me. they are not talking to me the way they used to and then i think that they will try the im so concerned about you joke. i dont understand wats going on in my head things just dont seem right any more. i know other friends who say stuff like this and i tell them that they have so many things to live for because they do. i dont i mean i have found god and thats all good but like we all have a purpose and once we have done our purpose for god we die. i believe that i am just a lession for everybody else. then i kill myself. like suicide must be in some way part of gods plan. one of the prophets did their work for god realised it was bad and prayed to god to take his life and that is a form of suicide. i pray that god takes my life. its not running away from life when god has taken it . if god has planned everything then he has planned all our death and how it happens. so to die is one awesome thing when you believe that you will be with god forever. im so sad but i try not to let it show. im a lession from which learn from and build their character and give them stenghth i wont to help people so much and everytime i try its like hitting a brick wall. pray that god takes my life so that no body else can get hurt from me. i dont wont to hurt people for some reason it just happens and i am sorry. death is my last adventure i live near the train station and well i think thats my way to go. god moved me there and thats where i will stay on the middle of the tracks so bye within the next two weeks i'll be gone. i hope and think.|
|22 May 2005||Starved of Death||I am 14 and I have severe anxiety and depression. I am female and I want to meet others who also want to die. I'm not ready just yet to commit suicide, but I get closer each day. I am a cutter, I also burn myself occasionally and sometimes I bang my head on walls. I have been cutting for about four months. My worst cut was one that needed two stitches, but I never went to a hospital, I just kept it bandaged with antibiotic cream, and now it's fine.
I do NOT want any of you Christian fucks emailing me, telling me to go the way of God to make my life livable. There is no such thing as God, and if there is, then he must think he's one funny guy, making all of us suffer like this.
I am in a lot of emotional pain. Every day I wish to die, and the pain gets so great sometimes that I lose the ability to think straight and I feel like I don't understand anything.
I also smoke when I can get a hold of cigarrettes, I drink when I can get liquor or beer, and if I ever get weed or crystal meth, I will try it.
The human race disgusts me, and I hate all sports except hockey, which is something I'm actually good at. I like writing demented poetry that no one gets.
I want to meet other people like me, people who actually know what I am talking about. I am NOT looking for help. Only understanding. Do not email me if you want to try and talk me out of my misery. It won't work.
|22 May 2005||com la dewane it dosh glot||laveic measho ne wane i love her and she loves me. i dream but never get .... so i try to kill ...and they know .............. why thew fuck dose this happen to me ??????????????? some one shoot me PLEASE|
|22 May 2005||Aimee||hi, my name is aimee and i'm 16 today.
i've done some research when i was in the psych ward (for attempting suicide) and looked around on the net. Now your only 13, but i remember being depressed at 13 and after all i'm only 3 years older so i can't really get up you. alright heres my plan, overdose on over 100 sleeping pills and slit your wrists. some ppl think er slitting my wrists that will hurt, well i've slit my wrist needed 12 stiches altogether, but i shouldn't done it harder, although there was a lot of blood i don't know if i hit a vein. but cut down the road and not across. i don't know why u wanna kill urself, but i don't kno why i want to kill myself. they call it deppression. i was on anti-depressants untill i ODed on them twice. but one thing that did help me was this wikid self help book. (maybe i should borrow it from the libary?)well i'm babling and my sugguestions for you are overdosing on 100 tablets (make sure its over 100!) perferable sleeping pills. DON"T DO PANADOL nellie said its really painful. or if ur chicken shit to slit your wrists, get into a hot/real warm bath and cut your self all over your body lil scaches. the warm water will encourage it to bleed more and then ur'll bleed to death. or jump off a really high buiolding. MAKE SURE ITS THE HIGHEST BUILDING U CAN GET IN! bacause u don't wanna end up impeded. i hope this has made a bit of sence or scared u off into being a normal person.
|22 May 2005||scors b hater||"When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad that they have to get better."
I think this has to be the most true thing I have ever read. Take another look. This pretty much sums up why I'm still alive, and maybe it also does for you. No matter how bad things are, there is always hope. Hope is the most important thing in the world. Without it we would all be doomed - hope is what makes you study at school, take a job interview, try out for a team. Hope can make you get up in the morning and I suppose it can also keep you living a life that you really wish you never had.
For me, it feels like just whenever I'm maybe about to find the one thing that would make it all worthwhile, it just fucks up. It fucks up so much that I wish i was more than dead... because right now i can't even explain the pain and frustration. It's maddening, like a beautiful summers day.. but then the thick black clouds come rushing in from all four corners of the sky and fill the chest with deadening pressure. Uncontrollable, like something eating away at you from the inside. I just don't fucking like it. Get it out, before it eats my soul.
I just wanna be me and feel like thats ok. I just wish I could get to know 'me' before I keep trying to get to know 'you'. I just wish god would stop fucking around and just let me out. I wanna be free. So stop the fear and the pain and unlock me so i can get out. Let me out, i wanna get out.
Maybe if there was one thing i have learnt, it is that you have to look after yourself. Because no-ones really there looking out for you.
"No-one except yourself that is,
No-one except you"
So be kind with yourself (but not unforgiving) and remember that there is always one thing that can keep you alive- hope. Pretty shit I guess but then if you can accept this and forget everything else that you are living for life should be a damn sight easier.
If you've read this far and can see any sense in this post, email me