|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|22 May 2005||Starved of Death||I am 14 and I have severe anxiety and depression. I am female and I want to meet others who also want to die. I'm not ready just yet to commit suicide, but I get closer each day. I am a cutter, I also burn myself occasionally and sometimes I bang my head on walls. I have been cutting for about four months. My worst cut was one that needed two stitches, but I never went to a hospital, I just kept it bandaged with antibiotic cream, and now it's fine.
I do NOT want any of you Christian fucks emailing me, telling me to go the way of God to make my life livable. There is no such thing as God, and if there is, then he must think he's one funny guy, making all of us suffer like this.
I am in a lot of emotional pain. Every day I wish to die, and the pain gets so great sometimes that I lose the ability to think straight and I feel like I don't understand anything.
I also smoke when I can get a hold of cigarrettes, I drink when I can get liquor or beer, and if I ever get weed or crystal meth, I will try it.
The human race disgusts me, and I hate all sports except hockey, which is something I'm actually good at. I like writing demented poetry that no one gets.
I want to meet other people like me, people who actually know what I am talking about. I am NOT looking for help. Only understanding. Do not email me if you want to try and talk me out of my misery. It won't work.
|22 May 2005||com la dewane it dosh glot||laveic measho ne wane i love her and she loves me. i dream but never get .... so i try to kill ...and they know .............. why thew fuck dose this happen to me ??????????????? some one shoot me PLEASE|
|22 May 2005||Aimee||hi, my name is aimee and i'm 16 today.
i've done some research when i was in the psych ward (for attempting suicide) and looked around on the net. Now your only 13, but i remember being depressed at 13 and after all i'm only 3 years older so i can't really get up you. alright heres my plan, overdose on over 100 sleeping pills and slit your wrists. some ppl think er slitting my wrists that will hurt, well i've slit my wrist needed 12 stiches altogether, but i shouldn't done it harder, although there was a lot of blood i don't know if i hit a vein. but cut down the road and not across. i don't know why u wanna kill urself, but i don't kno why i want to kill myself. they call it deppression. i was on anti-depressants untill i ODed on them twice. but one thing that did help me was this wikid self help book. (maybe i should borrow it from the libary?)well i'm babling and my sugguestions for you are overdosing on 100 tablets (make sure its over 100!) perferable sleeping pills. DON"T DO PANADOL nellie said its really painful. or if ur chicken shit to slit your wrists, get into a hot/real warm bath and cut your self all over your body lil scaches. the warm water will encourage it to bleed more and then ur'll bleed to death. or jump off a really high buiolding. MAKE SURE ITS THE HIGHEST BUILDING U CAN GET IN! bacause u don't wanna end up impeded. i hope this has made a bit of sence or scared u off into being a normal person.
|22 May 2005||scors b hater||"When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad that they have to get better."
I think this has to be the most true thing I have ever read. Take another look. This pretty much sums up why I'm still alive, and maybe it also does for you. No matter how bad things are, there is always hope. Hope is the most important thing in the world. Without it we would all be doomed - hope is what makes you study at school, take a job interview, try out for a team. Hope can make you get up in the morning and I suppose it can also keep you living a life that you really wish you never had.
For me, it feels like just whenever I'm maybe about to find the one thing that would make it all worthwhile, it just fucks up. It fucks up so much that I wish i was more than dead... because right now i can't even explain the pain and frustration. It's maddening, like a beautiful summers day.. but then the thick black clouds come rushing in from all four corners of the sky and fill the chest with deadening pressure. Uncontrollable, like something eating away at you from the inside. I just don't fucking like it. Get it out, before it eats my soul.
I just wanna be me and feel like thats ok. I just wish I could get to know 'me' before I keep trying to get to know 'you'. I just wish god would stop fucking around and just let me out. I wanna be free. So stop the fear and the pain and unlock me so i can get out. Let me out, i wanna get out.
Maybe if there was one thing i have learnt, it is that you have to look after yourself. Because no-ones really there looking out for you.
"No-one except yourself that is,
No-one except you"
So be kind with yourself (but not unforgiving) and remember that there is always one thing that can keep you alive- hope. Pretty shit I guess but then if you can accept this and forget everything else that you are living for life should be a damn sight easier.
If you've read this far and can see any sense in this post, email me
|21 May 2005||nobody likes me||hello fucking everybody its me again i wish everybody on this planet fucking dies there are so many fucking cruel people everywhere. i hope everybody burns and twists in to the fucking depths of hell. my family hits me everyday, they bug me ive tried every possible way to commit sucide so please if anybody knows some easy ways i could kill myself PLEASE write me a response|
|20 May 2005||molly||i don't know what this site it. I came across it in a google search and I was wondering if anybody could help me? I used to self harm and I'm suicidal at the moment and I can't talk to anyone because no one will listen, email email@example.com if you can help as I probably wont come on this site again. please.|
|16 May 2005||nobody likes me||dont u fucking just hate everyone i have never tried sucide but im gonna tommarow i already planned it. nobody even treats me good, for fuck sakes my family calls me names and calls me mental, i always try preying to god that never really works either.... i am so depressed i have no freinds and i hope everybody in this world fucking burns. i dont understand why god doesnt even care i wish i had some freinds i cant handle this fucking crap anymore hopefully someday ill be in a better place plz somebody write a response to my note i need somebody who fucking cares|
|11 May 2005||stef||ive tried to kill myself plenty of times and nothing seems to work. i need some help, im so depressed and i cant cope no more. Give me some tips on suicide. email me at firstname.lastname@example.org|
|10 May 2005||stan||so n e way Im bored...and Im still alive,curse you Mr blody razor that was suposed to kill me but was found by my parents who stopped me.So kids the moral of da story is use a sharp razor if u r going to slit your wrists and if you chicken out dont let your parents find out u tried to kill yourself so that they dont think you are possessed because now my motha forces me to pray whith her every day so I can get the devil out of me(as if he really exists).and anotha thing getting really drunk doesnt make killing yourself easier it just makes your suicide letter incomprehensible.|
|09 May 2005||Seb||hey, im 14 and im having a tough time in my life. My father hates me...my friends are starting to turn on me...my mom just called me an asshole. I cant take this anymore. The past 5 years have been hell. I could make u cry with some of the shit i could tell you.. i could even make you sick to your stomach. I try to be understod my people. But nobody listens to me. Nobody understands me. im on edge. i have no1 to talk to...i just feel like my life is falling apart around me. i feel like i cant do anything about it. i have no1 to turn to. i dont know weather to laugh or cry. i fail to see the point in puttin sum1 through pain...i also fail to see the point in this website and the sick fuck that created it. but in a twisted way i can understand it. i almost got myself killed on friday night. I do motorsport and i built my own car..capeable of almost 200MPH...i was going down the road and the throttle got stuck and i almost hit a fucking wall. this was a huge wake up call. im so lost...i dont know what to do...im afraid of myself even...i try to avoid hurting myself and others around me...its amaxing how much people suddenly care when u try and kil yourself...its also amazing how fast they begin to terrorize you about it..taunting you into trying to do it again! SOUND FAMILIAR LEE MARTIN YOU CUNT! I hope you die a painfull death you asshole! you have caused me nothing but pain and i wish you nothing but the same. i hope sum1 i know reads this and realises what i am going through...and dosent geve me shit for my mistakes...and insted trys to pretend to be your friend. dont you ever fucking pretend....pretending to be sum1s friend just so the dont take there life is just as bad as hating them and causing it..for those of you that think this is a joke. i need help before i fucking lose controll|
|08 May 2005||Margaret Warmington||what happends when u dont have anyfriends... u used to be really popular. you friend isnt your freind anymore. i want to commit suicide.. but i want to live. i am 12 years old. i dont want to miss out.. but i want to be with god.. what do i do???|
|08 May 2005||charlotte||i'm 14 n just lost my mum 7 weeks ago n i can't take it. my friends keep saying its ok 2 cry when i cant i have slit mi wrists ever since she died n keep it covered. no one nos what goes on inside my head its just so confussing. i have been raped by my brother and been kicked out of my house i try to keep smiling but things like that just dont happen i am always depressed and no one can help me if anyone can relate plz e-mail me at email@example.com|
|08 May 2005||shannon||k hey people i will tell u what my pastyear has been like for me! its not as bad as what people are sayin on the site! any ways i had this best friend since about grade 3 or 4 but when we started middle school she changed but i still hung in there for her and now im in grade 8 and she has made my life a living hell ok she started hanging around with druggies and wrote shit about me on the internet and one night she came over for a sleepover and stole my diary!!! i mean come on! and she started rumers about me to other people! so one day at school i got really pissed off at her and beat the living shit out of her! (she is really skinny and sucks at fighting) and i became really depressed and starting cutting really bad! and no one knew! and then she started more shit about me and this guy made an msn accunt pretending to be me over winter break and got a whole shit load of people mad at me so i went back to school and i got jumped and it was pretty bad i had a black eye and almost a broken nose! i hated it so i started cutting more and more and it almost became addictive kind of and i tryed to commit sucide cuz i thought this shit would never end also i dont have friends in school im the loner who sits in the back of the room and listens to my disman. that is what people say about me! i get made fun of cuz of my looks(i have short hair and im a girl so they cal me a boy)i hate it! then during spring break this guy wrote shit on this girls website predending to be me and got shit load of people mad at me and so when i got back to school 2 people beat me up really badly! so i said fuck it theres nothing left to live y bother so again i tryed to commit sucide with a razor blade and a knife! see my home life was alright even thou my brother is a big stoner and doesnt stop yelling at my dad and my dad is a pot head and a drunk and my mom she is the sweetest person never i love her!!!!!!!!!!! then school got a little bit better but i still had no friends and still got picked on for my looks! i go to this church called bethel mennoite church it is a really good church (im the only one that goes from my family) theres a thing called youth there and i go there with some really cool people that dont judge u by ur looks or any thing like that and i felt a whole lot better! so please before sucide try goin to a church or a community thing with kids that arnt mean or something like that! now im 14 in grade 8 my name is shannon and im still cutting im workin to stop! free feel to e-mail me or add me on msn my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org (i know i made it up in grade 4) or email@example.com i hope things go better for u people mine is kind of
love u all,
|08 May 2005||confused||Im 13 and my life has been reli horrible ive tried to commit suiside but everytime i try there is always somthing stopping me i have a younger sister who always gets the attention from my mom and dad and my parents are always on her side my mom tells me she loves me i dont believe her because when she says she does i feel she doesn't she doesnt treat me like she loves me im totally invisible to her my friends hate me and im all alone ive thought of running away but i just feel that maybe one day if i killed myself i would not have to go thhrough all the bad things and i can start my life all over again but there's always a dicision u either keep ur life and have all those memery's or start all over again i dunt know what to do :(|
|07 May 2005||Melissa||Hello, I am 23 years old,am married and have 1 baby boy. My relationship is near to ending. My husband is Russian and I have faught for him to stay in this country, had to go througha deportaition order and spent 4 months without him while I was pregnant,without a job or anything,had to use all my credit cards to pay 10's of thousands of dollars for him to stay here.Now he's been released to me for over a year now. Our marriage is over but we're still married. We live together with our son. I love my son more than anything and everything. But the problem is that my whole life I've felt used,abused and disresepted.With my immediate family as well as my new family. My husband doesn't understand me or respect me in any way. All he wants from me is to suck his dick every single day,sorry for my language.I am a virgo by horoscope,I don't really beleive in horoscopes,but virgo's are not very sexual beings,it's true with me. I hate doing this,I've tried to be a good wife,it doesn't make any sense anyway. All we do is fight, and when I cry in front of him which is not very often,he tells me I make myself stressed out from nothing. I have no one close to me to talk to or anyone who will care and listen. With my baby,he cried 22 hours a day and I am completely at the end of the rest of my nerves. I live in Canada, a very money stressful country. I owe $20,000 in bills and nothing to show for it.I feel stuck and rejected by my family. I feel suicide,but don't know how to go about it. I have had more than enough bad things to happen to me in my life, and am depressed. I can't tak to anyone about it,just hide it. Hide the cries and pain I so much feel. If you have listened and read all this letter,I respect you for doing so. You are the first that listened. I have so many problems in my life,I can't even try to tell you what I really feel,I can;t explain in words.I'm tired of canada, I'm tired of my son crying for nothing and I'm tired of feeling helpless and invisible. I know I'm not the only one. But why can't people listen or care,especially the ones who are supposed to love you the most. I'm friendless and loveless. I wish death on myself. But that's not doing anything for me. At this point, nothing is repairable.Thanks for listening folks!|
|06 May 2005||Tracie|| Hi, My name is Tracie im 13 At skool i dont seem so sad im the lil happy chick with every thing but if u look back in my past u can see its not all that good. My moms bf fucked it up for me i wish my mom would have never meet him.they dont tell me any thing. I've been dippressied for about 7 years. I've tried every thing to cutting my wrists and over dossing and shoting my self but it seems nothing works i dont have any friends i DID tell a year ago when my mom started seeing this guy and my dad died so my mom has had 2 other kids so why bother she never has any time for me. so why bother bein he she dont care and nobody likes me but also i regret trying to kill my self b/c it gets worse every time but u kno its all good right now im in really deep depressoin so any way tnxs for letting me write i feel a lil better tonight!!!!!
I just dont feel i need to live
|05 May 2005||Stormie||Hey, My name is stormie im 14,Iv been depressed since i was 9,and things got so much worse is the past 2 years my sister was raped by my grandfather and i was feeling so low, I cutt myself at lease everyday, at school in the bathroom,Anywhere, i still do it i just keep it hid, everyone keeps telling me things are going to get better but i just feel like there not. Things just seem to keep getting worse. My dad cant pay the bills, our lights got cutt off my mom and dad are doing drugs i cant take any of this stuff anymore. Im tired of people saying that its going to be okay WHEN ITS NOT! im not going to be okay. Every night i go to bed hopeing that i wont wake up, but every morning when i do .. i just wanna crawl in the bed and i just wanna make everything go away. I cant stop the thoughts that are going throu my head. I cant stop thinking about dieing.
Im not sure why im writting this i just stumbled acrossed it and im not sure if im suposed to say something to make people not wanna kill themselfs i just had so much that i wanted to say, and i still have more but,its not like anyone is listing, Im not going to tell you that death is the awnser cuz i know there are alot of otherways that i chould handle this but i cant just think of any.
|05 May 2005||Caroline||I'm not under 13, I'm fourteen. I go to private school, I'm a pretty good student, don't have any friends, am not socialable, and I've been wanting to commit suicide for 6 years or so. And I've been depressed since about 9 years ago or so. I like this senior at school, because i'm going to a college preparatory, it's 8-12. He's a nice guy, really caring, understanding, and he made me promise not to hurt myself. I've written a letter for him so that I can apologize. Because I'm planning to commit suicide tommorrow at school. In the library upstairs. I think I'll skip my afternoon classes and just take some medicine i have which are not over the counter, they're prescriptions. So hopefully, by tommorrow evening, I won't be living in this stupid world anymore. Or maybe I'll just use a large plastic bad over my head. Life sucks. Just in case I don't succeed in my attempt, or I have to abort the attempt, you can try to email me. I don't know a lot, but I think I've experience quite a bit. You have no idea. Hating my dad with suck powerful hatrid, having been hit repeatedly on the head, physical abuse, I've had a lot more than I want. Emotional abuse, much greater. Well, if I'm lucky, today's my last day in life. Adios amigos.|
|05 May 2005||. . . . . .||I HATE MY LIFE!!!!! I am almost 14 and i would do anything to be dead! I came on here trying to find a fast and painless way to commit suicide but i still havn't found a good one. I have tried before but it didn't work. I have been thinking about it everyday for the past 5 years. My dad and step mom HATE me. They yell and swear all the time. At school I try to show a happy face but I still feel crapy inside. If anyone knows of a good way to commit suicide msg me. >>> firstname.lastname@example.org <<<|
|04 May 2005||Sarah||I'm 14 tomorrow and it should be really like a great day and stuff and i know my friends have got me great presents and I've been going on about it for ages but I really wasn't supposed to be here for this birthday. Four days before Christmas I took a massive overdose with alcohol. I had planned it for months. My mum found me and I was in hospital for ten days and them moved to a physciatric unit. I will succeed eventually and I already know when I will try again. Loads of people were really shocked when they found out cos I come across as this really bubbly, happy person but I'm not. I wanna cry every minute of every day. I keep a razor blade in the back of my mobile which kind of comforts me. I have cut myself for about 3 years now. I have noticed that the cuts are getting deeper and deeper every time. I know to a lot of people have a great life but I just can't see the point in it. It's hard and painful, you get so hurt. I don't think how I feel will ever go completely away I will always live with it. I want to die. I wish there was a switch. The one thing I want is the last thing I will ever get.|