|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Oct 2005||justin dutcher||My name is justin. im fuckin sick of doctors telling me whats wrong with me. i tried overdoses,stabbings, cut my throat with a razor. freakin doctors don't understand, whats its like to go threw with this shit there all freakin lyers. THere only after money. Parents don't understand either. I just want people to talk to that really understand not fuckin doctors who lye please im really gonna end if i can't take it anymore. i just want someone to talk to. Somone who really understands im jjtmisty if you can help me|
|25 Oct 2005||A Poet and a Mad Man||I've contemplated terminating my own life for a while now, but everything is coming to a head. All my past mistakes and faults are climaxing right now. I'm 18, and Have no job, no license, I barely made it out of high school. My parents and sister think i'm a lazy failure stuck in human flesh. I have one "friend" who constantly puts me down, and I'm too much of a coward to look at girl in the eyes. I have had no sense of touch from a girl any girl. I'm short for my age, and I suppose unattrative. I have no condidence and life has dealt me a miss deal. I've caught snake eyes on Fates two dice, and I want to end it. and I shall. I'm good at nothing basically, my own father's words betrayed me. He himself loves hardwork and confidence, which I have nothing of. I'm a completely failure to him only that I'm not into drugs. My life is at home behind the pale screen light of a computer monitor, dreaming of escapism, where I am somebody. Drowning out the harrowing tales of real life. I just wished that I could have proven myself to be a bit more useful, and actually been able to have kissed someone, been hugged, and touched. Come home from a hard days work, knowing that I earned money. Such as my desire will not be felt by me.|
|24 Oct 2005||emma brown||hi am emma am really finding things hard at school i alaways get called sexual names which i have enough of it but there is only one way i will not comit suicide is if i dont have to go to school at all i know i need to go to school but i just cant handle it any more break times and lunch times seem to last forever when u get bullied and then i cum home and my mum gets on at me i wasnt that long out from hospital for takin an overdose i took 25 paracetamol tablets and the next morning i was all shakey and i couldnt move and i was sick all day i was so fuckin pissed off because it never worked so please get back to me and tell me wat i should do please i need your help befour its to let|
|24 Oct 2005||FEEL MY SQUIRRELY WRAITH||$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@$@
What to OD on.... something easy to get...like at a wal-mart or sumthing...
When you cut urslef on wrist do across or down the arm?
*Saint Jimmy Killed Himself*
o.O GrEeN dAy O.o
-_- email me whiile im alive -_-
|23 Oct 2005||Chelsea 0421 931 450||I want to die, im sick and tired of crap stupid head fucks that shouldnt happen is people were honest. im successful at 19 im in real estate but its too stressful and my love of my life thinks im nothing im scum the lowest form of life even though he has treated me like shit. i think i get wat i deserve because im a loser. i have no people who i would consider friends, im drinking right now and popping pills too, i live in Australia but i cant cope any more all i want it love aND apprication thats it but nobody wants to give it to me i cant handle life anymore because i think bout all the crap thats happened over the last 19 years i dont wan2 see wat the next 19 years will be like. i dont trust anyone and no one trusts me im a fucking hore who deserves to die but im too gutless to kill myself e.g slit my wrists or hang myself, if i was gonna do it, i would shoot myself (but cant get a gun) or overdose on sleeping pills so i never wake up, sleeping pills i want and drink too, im tired and dont see a point, i dont want to fight anymore, i jus want 2 disappear either go overseas or kill myself.......... wats eaiser the last one i think. i wish i had a man to love me and appricarte me i would do anything for that anything!. thank you every one who reads this im impressed you have bothered to take the time to read my pathetic dribble, or a best friend that would be nice aleast i would have sumone to trust and enjoy life with. life is shit by your self!|
|21 Oct 2005||.............||ok, i've been really sucidal for about a month now. i cut myself, i tried to hang myself, i put a gun in my mouth but was scared to pull the trigger. idk what else to do. i've went through alot of shit. my dad dosent see me but once a year on my birthday, (if im lucky), my stepdad and my mom argue constanylt, my bestfriend killed himself when i was in 8th grade (now im in tenth). but my biggest problem lately is my girlfriend. we live about an hour away, but we still get to see each other alot on the weekends, right now we've been going out fro three months, and honestly i really love her. after we were going out for like a month i told her and she said she loved me to. and it didnt seem like she was just saying it b/c i said it. cus she said it alot w/ out me saying it. and then about 3 weeks ago i was talking to her on aim. she said that she couldnt go out with me ne more b/c her mom wasnt letting her have ant freedoms b/c she thought she was going places to see other guys and stuff when she really wasnt. and that if she ever broke up w/ me she would be in trouble. so i asked her "did you ever really love me?" and she said "yea i THOUGHT that i did. and then the next day she told me the truth. she broke up w/ me b/c she stops liking people after a while. and a week later she calls me and says "im really sorry i want to try again." so im like ok. and now when were together she shows like no intrest in me and idk why shes going out w/ me it might be just b/c of her mom. but whenever i try to talk about it it never works. idk what to do. if i could get some advice on that it would really help. and i just need to know what i should do. im really thinking about ending all of this. i just dont care anymore, b/c no one really cares about me.|
|20 Oct 2005||andy||i tried to kill myslef, and i regret it didnt work. overdose of paracetamol. i cut myself. the pain feels good until after. the people i want to care, dont. the people i hate, care. well they say they do. i want to die, but i want to live. i think of reasons to live for, but the reasons to die outnumber them. I have been through nothing but pain for 3 years, im 19. i fall in love, then she hates me for the person i really am. i wish i could have someone who understands me, who can just hold me and tell me everyhting is gonna be ok. thats all i want, a shoulder to cry on. someone to love me. i have no friends, i have lost them cos of the person i am.the only reason i havent tried to kill myself again, is the hope that things will get better, but i have waited 3 years.maybe tonight i will try agen, and hopefully suceed. i wil cut myself,physical pain takes away emotional pain. but then i loose people wen i cut myself, whever it be girlfriends or mates, its a circle that i cant get out of, a circle i cant win.i hope i will be happy in heaven.PEOPLE SAY DONT KILL YOURSELF, BUT ITS YOUR LIFE, DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH IT.BUT THE MAIN REASON I STAY, IS COS I KNOW I WOULD HURT TOO MANY PEOPLE IF I WENT, JUST THINK OF THAT, email me if u want to talk about anyhting, i could do wiv a chat, and maybe u could too. email@example.com|
|19 Oct 2005||me||please email me firstname.lastname@example.org. i need someone to talk to and i know there are people on this site that need someone to talk to aswell|
|19 Oct 2005||me||i have wanted t die since i was 11. i have tried killing myself plenty of times. my head is so screwed up. im 15 now and living is getting to hard. if you want to talk to me. or like me need someone to talk to. then email me email@example.com.|
|17 Oct 2005||E||Well I've eventually sorted out a work placement on my apprenticeship in Business Admin and for the first time in ages i thought things were starting to go right. of course my mum had to fuck it all up. She HATES my boyfriend and has been interfering in our relationship blamin my problems on him when actually she's the root of alot of them and all he's ever done is help and support me. She's fucked everything up!! She tried to get my stepdad to beat my boyfriend up and my step dad ended up pinnin my boyfriend up against the wall by his neck so in order to get him off my boyfriend quite understandabley punched him. As a result I've been more or less kicked out (its complicated) and my mum can't actually see that she's done anything wrong?!
My life's a joke every time I think things are gettin sorted summat happens to make it worse!
I hate myself so much and I hate this shit life. I wanna kill myself and end it all because I'm sick of the pain of fightin it and I know my boyfriend woulf be better off without me!
What's worse is my step dad touched me up a few years ago and now I've started thinking perhaps more happened then what I realise. I think he might have actually raped me but I've blocked it out.
The thing that scares me most isn't hurting mysel, it's hurting someone else. Sometimes I self harm because I have an urge to cause pain to someone.
|16 Oct 2005||neli||hi my problem is that i have so many problems with myself, yes iam a constant worrier of my life i have never felt iam capable to grow cause i have always been a failure in what ever i have or even tried to do at times i become so arogant with myself & others. i hate myself, its true to believe i dont know why we live when above all our mind doent want; i have reached a stage defeat i surrender to my life i have had many depression breakdowns even a while ago i did i do not want to live i keep imagining my death scene & life after me but iam disappointed as i have not been able to gain the guts to commit sucide its so frustrating when i see others doing better than me and i cant cope to tell u i have no friends and i have reached a stge where i see people as aliens i cant make a conversation i desparately need answers i want to share my problems with someone who wants to listen its so frustrating that my parents dont communicate with me so much and dont even get along with them my thinks iam to difficult my dad never wanted or i guess he has never liked me our thoughts r generations apart i seriously dont know wht to i dont want live in this either i wish to live a life where iam like everyone or not an abnormal soul in this blessed planet to tell u iam also suffering from a learning disability called 'dysculia'(dylexia)and my mother always cuts me off whenever i want talk about it i cant count numbers give anythng with nos & i get paniky i have problems for even the day to day money dealings like buying & selling now tell how can i ever live in this world if i cant count mentally i believe in being independent and not dependent how will i ever live iam really desparate for answers its only then will i feel confident abt my self and my life and its only then that i will start liking people please give me your sincere advice iam waiting i do not no for how long.|
|15 Oct 2005||shauny||my names shaun and i live in scone, australia. im going to tell all of you people who i am because i know that you cant do anything about it. i have such confidence that i will die that i am willing to do this. three of my best friends have killed themselves in the past 2 months. jamie slit his wrists, bargains slit his wrist and my girlfriend christina od'd on zoloft. i have given up. i dont want to live. the pain is unbearable. i will kill myself. as soon as my sister moves out im gonna do it. i think i might drink a whole lot of metho, or maybe ill just slit my wrists. i couldnt be bothered doing anything that would waste energy. im finished. Goodbye Cruel World
(i fuking know its corny but hey it gets the point across)
|11 Oct 2005||Puppie||I don't want to kill my self, I want some guy I know to get some help. I've tried to talk him out of it, but it just passes through him. I can't just watch him kill himself. & Now his grilfriend broke up with him. Please help him.|
|10 Oct firstname.lastname@example.org||Plez some1 care I am 13 and i just want someone 2 tlk 2, im lonely nd cut mi wrists...I reali need sum1 2 tlk 2|
|10 Oct 2005||anomous||hi im 14 years old and ive been through hell almost my whole life. Ive always thought about suicide and one day soon i will get the courage to get a gun and end it. I guess its the feeling of knowing that all the hell im going through it could all be over in a flash. knowing that this pain can be over. I go to the most crappy school and whats bad is its a christian school. i Hate my life. its so ruined. my own mom thinks om trying to take dad away from her. Im always depressed theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about committing suicide. Ive had to keep this from my friends which is very hard to do. Most times ill get depressed without not knowing why. its weired. everytime i try to tell my parents that i have a problem they say oh theirs nothing wrong with you. i want to go to tharepy to get my problems solved but something tells me its not going to work. Then i cant go to the counsolor at my school because i cant trust her. terrible isnt it? Sometimes i want to ask why am i here?To me there seems like theirs no point to it. Yea i need help. but theirs noone to help me. i litterally have no place to go. Im all alone My parents dont think i will commit suicide, but i guess they'll just wait and see wont they. But i beleive i am bipolor someone in my family is but i not saying. but i think i got it worse than them. once agian its about them not believing me. But honestly i hate my life.|
|10 Oct 2005||TeaRs||Well since i last posted i tryed to kill my self whit a sleeping pills overdose, but like u can see it didnt work, cuz im still here. All it made me do was feel really sick...
Im still depressed and dont know what to do. Noone to talk to, no where to go... What have i done to deserve this???
For a moment a day ago i felt like i had finaly gotten over it, offcourse i was fooling my self...
So i ask what is the best way to kill your self? I cant get my hands on a gun, that would be easyest way out imo. I dont want to make a big mess, but im willing to try almost anything... that doesnt make me feel too much pain.
I wish id have someone to talk to, who would understand. But i dont!! This is so sad....
|08 Oct 2005||J. Piz||Hey. I'm not gonna tell you my name, but I will tell you a bit about me. I am a girl (J. Piz is just kinda a nick name, so if anyone i know happens to read this then maybe someone can help, other nicknames just in case ur not familiar with this one, jacks, jax, jayjay,jackie.)I just recently turned 13. For about a year, I've been feeling extremely depressed, and the weird thing is, sometimes I don't even know why. I guess you can say I'm a bit of a cutter, but it's not too intense. I've got two older twin sisters, who are practicly perfect, and I feel like my parents always want me to be exactly like them, if not better. I don't get why they can't just except me for who I am. I know because of all their expectations and a bit of my own will, I am probably going to either smoke, or be a drug addict or an alchoholic when I grow up... that is if I even do grow up. It is unbelievable how many times I've thought about killing myself, and all the different ways, although I've never actually tried to. But recently, my depression and lack of explaination had gotten so out of hand, that I'm thinking about committing suicide more and more often. I've practically gotten to the point in which I will actually try to kill myself. I agree with the question many of you asked... what will people think when I'm dead, how much will they miss me, will they miss me at all? What would my friends think. If I'm dead I guess I'd be able to see who my true frinds actually are, well i mean were. I wish I could be able to see what it would be like if I died, without actually being dead. (Doesn't almost everybody?) I go to a shrink because of my depresstion and cutting, but I'd never tell her that I might kill myself. Speaking about cutting, here's a story.
Once my parents, my two sisters and I were in the car coming back home ( i forgot where from.) When the topic of cutting came up. At that time , nobody knew I was a cutter. Anyway, my sisters had said that people who cut only do it for the attention. BS! What do they know about cutting anyway? I mean, for example, if a person cuts, and doesn't show anyone, then who the hell are they cutting for attention? I would like to show my sisters that for once, they're wrong! I'd like to die, and when I'm dead, I want them to see my arms and all the scars. Sad or not, regaurdless, they'd think,"Oh so she wanted attention." or something along that line. but then they'd read a note that I wrote before my death the read, You might think I cut for attention. One reason you can be sure that I didn't is bacause no one knew about me cutting, so there was no one to give me the attention you think i wanted. You might think I killed myself because I wanted attention, but here's something for you to think about... How the hell would I be able to get attention if I'm DEAD??? Yeah, that's what I thought.
Anyway, back to the real world, away from my fantasy... I want to die, but yet I don't. I think one of the reasons I don't want to die is because I want to be able to experience everything I'm able to do when I'm older. if someone can answer this question that would be great... is it really worth it to be 21 years old? i mean if i'm waiting to kill myself, as hard as it is, and i have to still suffer all the depression, just to make it to the age of 21 where i can have all the rights and privalages, then i want to make sure all those rights and privaligages are actually worth the taurment and pain I'd have to go through just to make it to 21. Please help me out on this question. There are so many problems in my life that i want to figure out that i'd go on for hours, but i won't. Like many people here, there are many songs that discribe my life and the way i feel. I don't want to list them, but i will put up the lyrics to one of my fav. songs and one of the best songs in the world, called Hide and Seek.
where are we
what the hell is going on
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
spin me round again and rub my eyes
this can't be happening
when busy streets amess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before
the takeover the sweeping insensitivity
of this still life
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
you won't catch me around here
blood and tears
they were here first
hmm, what'd you say
that you only meant well
well, of course you did
hmm what'd you say
that its all for the best
of course it is
hmm what'd you say
that its just what we need
you decided this
hmm what'd you say
what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
newspaper word cut-outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit you don't care a bit
hide and seek.
My mottos are:
1.eat well, stay fit, be healthy, die anyways.
2. Live life to the fullest.
(as in get drunk be on drugs, do whatever floats your boat, even if you wanna be a serial killer, cause you only have one chance to do whatever you want to do. So get it all done before you die.)
I guess i go by these mottos. I mean, it's pretty true, you can be in the tip top shape, healthiest, richest person on earth, but your gonna die any ways. You can be the most boring person and think you're haveing a good life, or the most outgoing, outrageous, most fun person and KNOW you're haveing a good life. Why try to get far in life if you know your just gonna die in the end and lose it all. Your gonna find out you worked your ass off for absolutely nothing. (it's all your choice how u live your life)
I want to kill myself. I'm SO depressed i just can't take it anymore! I know i'm gonna kill myself, but i wish someone could see this and stop me. But it's gotten to the point that nothing can stop me now. I've made up my mind. I think I'll wait a week or so to see how things go. I have a week to try to see if things get better. and if not then i guess this is probably good bye.
( I hope someone is listening and getting this message before it's too late.)
|05 Oct 2005||Monique||I'm 13 And Already Ive done Drugs Drank have sex I fucking hate my self I'm like The Popluar out going girl that all the guys love but its just I only love one person who doesnt know and I wish I could Die I'm a model and shit but I still Wish I would fuckign die I Feel Usefull I slit my wrists ever dayy about 5 times I'm not scared too die I love the Pain I gett use to it and when the Drips of Blood Runn down my Armm it makes me feel Wonderfull I guess it makes me feel good cause I'm one step away from dying when I was 12 I Got hit by a Car and Was in a Hosbital for a week I almost Died but I guess I was Meant to go on (no one knows how I feel and I know I will Die someday I will Fucking Jump off A Bridge I got a bigg pluse I live right by one )
|05 Oct 2005||Melissa||I'm 14, and I've been thinking about suicide a lot lately. I've always thought about it, even as a small child. I still have a bit of a conscience left in me, so I've decided to wait it out for a few years-I can't leave this place without my rabbit.
I'm sorry you, and everyone else wants to kill themselves. I'm sorry for your pain, if you want to talk you can email me at Qtmlissa@yahoo.com I also need someone to talk to, none of my few friends would understand.
I'm considering taking a gun to the heart or brain, or pills. I wouldn't want a mess to horrify my family.
|04 Oct 2005||TeaRs||I feel so alone all the time, i dont have many irl friends, and i dont talk to them much. People just seem to ignore me, so they wouldnt care if i died, right?
I have been thinking about this for some time now, i once tryed to jump out of 8th floor window but couldnt. This time i wont chicken out. I have been depressed all week and i cant find anyone to talk to. Almost anyone, i talked to this girl i met online, shes cool and all. And when i was about to jump she told me not to, but after that she forgot me again.
So i ask, why should i live on if everyone forget me in 5seconds?
I wonder what will happen if i jump, i hope ill black out before i hit the ground, dont want to feel the pain. I just wish id fade away and seese to exsist. Then i would be finaly out of my misery....