|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|01 Nov 2005||Dolocia||i'm desperate. i feel like my mind is shreding i wanta die so bad. my parents are always fucking watching me so i gotta do this right the first time. tell me what to do, please.|
|31 Oct 2005||looking for answers||im 17 and i dont know why im here.
and at the moment i wish i was dead.
im not as lucky as some people in that i dont and wont ever believe in god or a purpose to my life. he's let me down 2 much before.... i dont see how neone as powerful as that wud put someone in my place. make me as twisted and as wrong a person as i am.
i swear..... i look around me and the only thing i want in my whole entire life is to be happy. i dont care where or with who. i dont need a fancy car or designer clothes. i dont want the latest comupters and i dont crave some highly paid job.
i just want somebody to hold me at night....... or tell me everything will b alright whilst they hold me close. someone who knows me and understands how i think. someone to be with when u feel like u cant trust urself. someone who trusts you at all. someone who'll believe you when you tell them you love them. and someone you will believe when they say they love you in return.
and yet..... i have the computers, the money being splashed and the holidays to far off places. but they're right. when they tell you money doesnt buy it. it doesnt. so i can sit and look around me and feel so empty and so alone. feel invisible.
i love my parents... really i do. im not sure why. my mum is insane. she'll scream at me for nething.... ive been hit once or twice but its more the things she says. "you make me want to kill myself.... when i look at you i wish i were dead.... you see this knife? why dont i end it right now?.... i hate you... i dont care if you love me i hate you.... the moment u were born u ruined my life"
my dad left home when i was 8 and ive never really got over it. im terrified now that people will leave it. sadly my mum n dad see this and tend to use it as emotional blackmail. "if you tell you dad what i did then ill leave..... if u tell ur friends about or fight ill b gone." sometimes i wish i cud call their bluff. but id never b able to handle being alone. my dad's still around but he has a new gf and she's got 3 kids. i feel replaced. when he gets a new woman he can sometimes not c us for weeks...... but as soon as she's gone he uses us to fill the time. he claims he originally left cos my mum was having an affair with my now stepdad. she however says he was cheatin on her with another woman. im too young to remember and too scared to ask.
my stepdad is ok....... but recently he scares me. he encouraged my mum to have me followed so they could punish me with the evidence. and i also found he had been spying on my at school and at work for over a year. i cant trust him but ive sometimes got nowhere else to go.
i have a little sister but we're different.....she's perfect. sporty, hard working, pretty witty and sweet. she knows how to play the parents. when she does something wrong she merely pulls on the baby face. im not so lucky...... often i find i am crucified for the tiniest things. forgettin something.... saying the wrong thing. im always so sorry. but ive said it so much it means nothing nemore. now im just sorry im still breathing.
im begging and pleading for a way out...... staring at the door wishing i had the strength to leave or end it. but i love them. if i hurt them id b a worse person than i am now. and right now im probably the most horrible and selfish and cruel unkind person you could meet. i hate who i am. but have no other way to be. somehow being this way has always allowd 4 me to survive.
just wish i could die........
|31 Oct 2005||umair||i just hate my life i want to die because i am depressed all the time|
|28 Oct 2005||ali||hey:) im 14 nd mi life is pretty fucked up, n in the past ive been depressed, and tried to kill myself a lot of times.. because of what people have done to mi. my dad is sexually abusive. ive been raped countless times, once by mi ex- boyfriend and the other times by mi dad and his friends. it makes me feel sick and dirty and ashamed and i hate them for it..and wenever they come round i no whats going to happen later and im so scared all the time. im all twisted inside and im scared of.. men (sounds silly) i have friends- im not a goth or nething, but i hate going out, i bunk school and no one really cares.. its fucked up..no one understands because im too scared to tell anyone about whats happening to me.. i'd love someone to talk to.. im nice! jus wanna tell some1.. this sites handy for that:P thanks for reading! ali|
|25 Oct 2005||justin dutcher||My name is justin. im fuckin sick of doctors telling me whats wrong with me. i tried overdoses,stabbings, cut my throat with a razor. freakin doctors don't understand, whats its like to go threw with this shit there all freakin lyers. THere only after money. Parents don't understand either. I just want people to talk to that really understand not fuckin doctors who lye please im really gonna end if i can't take it anymore. i just want someone to talk to. Somone who really understands im jjtmisty if you can help me|
|25 Oct 2005||A Poet and a Mad Man||I've contemplated terminating my own life for a while now, but everything is coming to a head. All my past mistakes and faults are climaxing right now. I'm 18, and Have no job, no license, I barely made it out of high school. My parents and sister think i'm a lazy failure stuck in human flesh. I have one "friend" who constantly puts me down, and I'm too much of a coward to look at girl in the eyes. I have had no sense of touch from a girl any girl. I'm short for my age, and I suppose unattrative. I have no condidence and life has dealt me a miss deal. I've caught snake eyes on Fates two dice, and I want to end it. and I shall. I'm good at nothing basically, my own father's words betrayed me. He himself loves hardwork and confidence, which I have nothing of. I'm a completely failure to him only that I'm not into drugs. My life is at home behind the pale screen light of a computer monitor, dreaming of escapism, where I am somebody. Drowning out the harrowing tales of real life. I just wished that I could have proven myself to be a bit more useful, and actually been able to have kissed someone, been hugged, and touched. Come home from a hard days work, knowing that I earned money. Such as my desire will not be felt by me.|
|24 Oct 2005||emma brown||hi am emma am really finding things hard at school i alaways get called sexual names which i have enough of it but there is only one way i will not comit suicide is if i dont have to go to school at all i know i need to go to school but i just cant handle it any more break times and lunch times seem to last forever when u get bullied and then i cum home and my mum gets on at me i wasnt that long out from hospital for takin an overdose i took 25 paracetamol tablets and the next morning i was all shakey and i couldnt move and i was sick all day i was so fuckin pissed off because it never worked so please get back to me and tell me wat i should do please i need your help befour its to let|
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|23 Oct 2005||Chelsea 0421 931 450||I want to die, im sick and tired of crap stupid head fucks that shouldnt happen is people were honest. im successful at 19 im in real estate but its too stressful and my love of my life thinks im nothing im scum the lowest form of life even though he has treated me like shit. i think i get wat i deserve because im a loser. i have no people who i would consider friends, im drinking right now and popping pills too, i live in Australia but i cant cope any more all i want it love aND apprication thats it but nobody wants to give it to me i cant handle life anymore because i think bout all the crap thats happened over the last 19 years i dont wan2 see wat the next 19 years will be like. i dont trust anyone and no one trusts me im a fucking hore who deserves to die but im too gutless to kill myself e.g slit my wrists or hang myself, if i was gonna do it, i would shoot myself (but cant get a gun) or overdose on sleeping pills so i never wake up, sleeping pills i want and drink too, im tired and dont see a point, i dont want to fight anymore, i jus want 2 disappear either go overseas or kill myself.......... wats eaiser the last one i think. i wish i had a man to love me and appricarte me i would do anything for that anything!. thank you every one who reads this im impressed you have bothered to take the time to read my pathetic dribble, or a best friend that would be nice aleast i would have sumone to trust and enjoy life with. life is shit by your self!|
|21 Oct 2005||.............||ok, i've been really sucidal for about a month now. i cut myself, i tried to hang myself, i put a gun in my mouth but was scared to pull the trigger. idk what else to do. i've went through alot of shit. my dad dosent see me but once a year on my birthday, (if im lucky), my stepdad and my mom argue constanylt, my bestfriend killed himself when i was in 8th grade (now im in tenth). but my biggest problem lately is my girlfriend. we live about an hour away, but we still get to see each other alot on the weekends, right now we've been going out fro three months, and honestly i really love her. after we were going out for like a month i told her and she said she loved me to. and it didnt seem like she was just saying it b/c i said it. cus she said it alot w/ out me saying it. and then about 3 weeks ago i was talking to her on aim. she said that she couldnt go out with me ne more b/c her mom wasnt letting her have ant freedoms b/c she thought she was going places to see other guys and stuff when she really wasnt. and that if she ever broke up w/ me she would be in trouble. so i asked her "did you ever really love me?" and she said "yea i THOUGHT that i did. and then the next day she told me the truth. she broke up w/ me b/c she stops liking people after a while. and a week later she calls me and says "im really sorry i want to try again." so im like ok. and now when were together she shows like no intrest in me and idk why shes going out w/ me it might be just b/c of her mom. but whenever i try to talk about it it never works. idk what to do. if i could get some advice on that it would really help. and i just need to know what i should do. im really thinking about ending all of this. i just dont care anymore, b/c no one really cares about me.|
|20 Oct 2005||andy||i tried to kill myslef, and i regret it didnt work. overdose of paracetamol. i cut myself. the pain feels good until after. the people i want to care, dont. the people i hate, care. well they say they do. i want to die, but i want to live. i think of reasons to live for, but the reasons to die outnumber them. I have been through nothing but pain for 3 years, im 19. i fall in love, then she hates me for the person i really am. i wish i could have someone who understands me, who can just hold me and tell me everyhting is gonna be ok. thats all i want, a shoulder to cry on. someone to love me. i have no friends, i have lost them cos of the person i am.the only reason i havent tried to kill myself again, is the hope that things will get better, but i have waited 3 years.maybe tonight i will try agen, and hopefully suceed. i wil cut myself,physical pain takes away emotional pain. but then i loose people wen i cut myself, whever it be girlfriends or mates, its a circle that i cant get out of, a circle i cant win.i hope i will be happy in heaven.PEOPLE SAY DONT KILL YOURSELF, BUT ITS YOUR LIFE, DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH IT.BUT THE MAIN REASON I STAY, IS COS I KNOW I WOULD HURT TOO MANY PEOPLE IF I WENT, JUST THINK OF THAT, email me if u want to talk about anyhting, i could do wiv a chat, and maybe u could too. firstname.lastname@example.org|
|19 Oct 2005||me||please email me email@example.com. i need someone to talk to and i know there are people on this site that need someone to talk to aswell|
|19 Oct 2005||me||i have wanted t die since i was 11. i have tried killing myself plenty of times. my head is so screwed up. im 15 now and living is getting to hard. if you want to talk to me. or like me need someone to talk to. then email me firstname.lastname@example.org.|
|17 Oct 2005||E||Well I've eventually sorted out a work placement on my apprenticeship in Business Admin and for the first time in ages i thought things were starting to go right. of course my mum had to fuck it all up. She HATES my boyfriend and has been interfering in our relationship blamin my problems on him when actually she's the root of alot of them and all he's ever done is help and support me. She's fucked everything up!! She tried to get my stepdad to beat my boyfriend up and my step dad ended up pinnin my boyfriend up against the wall by his neck so in order to get him off my boyfriend quite understandabley punched him. As a result I've been more or less kicked out (its complicated) and my mum can't actually see that she's done anything wrong?!
My life's a joke every time I think things are gettin sorted summat happens to make it worse!
I hate myself so much and I hate this shit life. I wanna kill myself and end it all because I'm sick of the pain of fightin it and I know my boyfriend woulf be better off without me!
What's worse is my step dad touched me up a few years ago and now I've started thinking perhaps more happened then what I realise. I think he might have actually raped me but I've blocked it out.
The thing that scares me most isn't hurting mysel, it's hurting someone else. Sometimes I self harm because I have an urge to cause pain to someone.
|16 Oct 2005||neli||hi my problem is that i have so many problems with myself, yes iam a constant worrier of my life i have never felt iam capable to grow cause i have always been a failure in what ever i have or even tried to do at times i become so arogant with myself & others. i hate myself, its true to believe i dont know why we live when above all our mind doent want; i have reached a stage defeat i surrender to my life i have had many depression breakdowns even a while ago i did i do not want to live i keep imagining my death scene & life after me but iam disappointed as i have not been able to gain the guts to commit sucide its so frustrating when i see others doing better than me and i cant cope to tell u i have no friends and i have reached a stge where i see people as aliens i cant make a conversation i desparately need answers i want to share my problems with someone who wants to listen its so frustrating that my parents dont communicate with me so much and dont even get along with them my thinks iam to difficult my dad never wanted or i guess he has never liked me our thoughts r generations apart i seriously dont know wht to i dont want live in this either i wish to live a life where iam like everyone or not an abnormal soul in this blessed planet to tell u iam also suffering from a learning disability called 'dysculia'(dylexia)and my mother always cuts me off whenever i want talk about it i cant count numbers give anythng with nos & i get paniky i have problems for even the day to day money dealings like buying & selling now tell how can i ever live in this world if i cant count mentally i believe in being independent and not dependent how will i ever live iam really desparate for answers its only then will i feel confident abt my self and my life and its only then that i will start liking people please give me your sincere advice iam waiting i do not no for how long.|
|15 Oct 2005||shauny||my names shaun and i live in scone, australia. im going to tell all of you people who i am because i know that you cant do anything about it. i have such confidence that i will die that i am willing to do this. three of my best friends have killed themselves in the past 2 months. jamie slit his wrists, bargains slit his wrist and my girlfriend christina od'd on zoloft. i have given up. i dont want to live. the pain is unbearable. i will kill myself. as soon as my sister moves out im gonna do it. i think i might drink a whole lot of metho, or maybe ill just slit my wrists. i couldnt be bothered doing anything that would waste energy. im finished. Goodbye Cruel World
(i fuking know its corny but hey it gets the point across)
|11 Oct 2005||Puppie||I don't want to kill my self, I want some guy I know to get some help. I've tried to talk him out of it, but it just passes through him. I can't just watch him kill himself. & Now his grilfriend broke up with him. Please help him.|
|10 Oct email@example.com||Plez some1 care I am 13 and i just want someone 2 tlk 2, im lonely nd cut mi wrists...I reali need sum1 2 tlk 2|
|10 Oct 2005||anomous||hi im 14 years old and ive been through hell almost my whole life. Ive always thought about suicide and one day soon i will get the courage to get a gun and end it. I guess its the feeling of knowing that all the hell im going through it could all be over in a flash. knowing that this pain can be over. I go to the most crappy school and whats bad is its a christian school. i Hate my life. its so ruined. my own mom thinks om trying to take dad away from her. Im always depressed theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about committing suicide. Ive had to keep this from my friends which is very hard to do. Most times ill get depressed without not knowing why. its weired. everytime i try to tell my parents that i have a problem they say oh theirs nothing wrong with you. i want to go to tharepy to get my problems solved but something tells me its not going to work. Then i cant go to the counsolor at my school because i cant trust her. terrible isnt it? Sometimes i want to ask why am i here?To me there seems like theirs no point to it. Yea i need help. but theirs noone to help me. i litterally have no place to go. Im all alone My parents dont think i will commit suicide, but i guess they'll just wait and see wont they. But i beleive i am bipolor someone in my family is but i not saying. but i think i got it worse than them. once agian its about them not believing me. But honestly i hate my life.|
|10 Oct 2005||TeaRs||Well since i last posted i tryed to kill my self whit a sleeping pills overdose, but like u can see it didnt work, cuz im still here. All it made me do was feel really sick...
Im still depressed and dont know what to do. Noone to talk to, no where to go... What have i done to deserve this???
For a moment a day ago i felt like i had finaly gotten over it, offcourse i was fooling my self...
So i ask what is the best way to kill your self? I cant get my hands on a gun, that would be easyest way out imo. I dont want to make a big mess, but im willing to try almost anything... that doesnt make me feel too much pain.
I wish id have someone to talk to, who would understand. But i dont!! This is so sad....