|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Nov 2005||Kris||Listen I'm Twelve years old I just lost my Daddy From Bone Cancer, My Kitten has some kind of a blockage and cannot urinate, my mom is sad all the time, My boyfriend pratically hates me. Some say I'm too young to have4 a boyfriend Iwish I never met him.
I wish I was never born, I have Bipolar
I've seen therapists they cannot help eliminate the pain i'm in
I want to take my mom's heart pills
I think that would be better than sitting here listening to my cat cry in agony, he is going to die soon, he's been like this for 4 days
can't take much more help asap
|23 Nov 2005||octavia||hey everybody my name is octavia and i want to kill myself.i want to die so bad i just need to know how. i don't want it to be painfull cuz i'm already in enough pain. i want something quit and fast.well let me tell u why i want to die. my life is not worth living for anymore. my mom is an asshole. she wants to controll everything i do. she wants to pick and choose everything i do. and if it don't goes her way she gets mad!!!! and my dad don't give a fuck about me. everybody i love is even a liar or a cheater or both. noone will understand tha pain i'm goin through. i one friend and sometimes i think that she don't like me. i'm ugly peolpe disagree but they just don't want to hurt my feelings. there is so much goin on in my life right now and i need to get out. so please help me|
|23 Nov 2005||Tibor||I'm not under thirteen but at the end of my rope. It's too much to discuss in this short letter but I want some secunal or tuinal and finish it. I am past depression and despair and need to rest. Please help me. I'm much more serious than a thirteen year old. Completely gone.|
|18 Nov 2005||Mery||This is my fourth attempt thru out my life. Killing urself wen your 13 is understandable sooo much that u go thru BUT DAT DOES NOT MEAN TO TAKE U OUT OF HEA B'COZ its not the way to go....Ive been dere and thought of dat! If it was for wen i was 13 and was willing to attempt this. I would not of met my 2 brothers sons, would never met the many friends I have today, shared these special more years with my bootiful parents AND BE THE PERSON I AM TODAY! Everything has been the best eva AND I LOVE LIFE TO DA FULLEST! Untill just yesturday something happened from a little situation that has gone big! The way i see it.....ma siblings just basicaly my family hate me and cant stand me so RIGHT NOW I JUST WONA DIE COZ NOW EVERYFING HAS GONE ALL WRONG! PLEZ DONT KILL URSELF BUT LET ME DO IT FOR U......ID RATHER DIE DAN HAVE SOMEONE ELSE DIE IN THIS CRAZY WORLD! WEN U FINK ABOUT IT THE ONLY WAY OUT IS THRU GOD!!! no matter if u know lil or know much about him just one lil prayer would be answered even if ur in trouble or not!!! SOOO TO MY CONCLUSION ITS BEEN 5 HRS NOW TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DO THIS BUT .....now 5 min gone and now im realsing how meaningful life is and ur family most of all! I LOVE THEM TO DEATH AND NEVA WONA MAKE THEIR LIFE MESIRABLE JST THINKING ABOUT ME!! Ma folks and 3 BROTHERS mean the world to me and im the only gurl in da family......and the youngest! PRAY THAT YA'LL COME TO UR SENSES AND TRY AND TURN UR LIFE AROUND FOR THE BETTER! AND ALWAYS CARRY GOD BY UR SIDE COZ HES THE ONLY TRUE THING WHO CAN HELP EITHER BIG OR SMALL MATTERS HES THERE FOR U!!|
|17 Nov 2005||Valentina||Im 15 years old now.. it seems yesterday that i was 13-14.. my dad was put in jail.. i remeber the night..the time.. the date.. perfectly.. 3 in the morning they took him away for a crime he dident commit.. put him away for 6 months.. he came out and just wasent the same.. he beat my mother, my sister, me and even my baby brother!.. i kept the family together but all of a sudden i felt somthing.. i couldent smile.. i couldent laugh i couldent have a good time.. i was totaly broken.. i was 13 and i felt 80 years old.. i was tired all the time.. and one night i came home and saw my dad choking my mom.. i yelled at him some stuff i hardly remeber and he walked out the door.. the cops came about 4 hours later saying that he was charged of murder.. he had killed the guy that put him in jail.. i went over to his house (this man WAS a family friend) and he had been apparently beaten to death with a bat.. my brothers base ball bat.. my dad was arrested and is still in jail.. iv never visted him once.. i got letters.. most of them i havent read.. well back to the point.. shortly after my mom commited suicide.. my BABY brother found her.. my older sister went over to the next door neighbors house and they called help.. and i live in dubai okay? there is no foster homes.. or help lines here.. we were alone in an appartment.. i have no family nothing.. my sister is 19 now and barly supporting us.. i used to be the hardworking good gurl.. i go out everynight to score some cash to find any drugs i can to get rid of this shit i have.. but u know wut.. iv never tried kiling myself once.. i agree with those people that say there is light at the end of every tunnel.. i belive that.. and suicide isent goin to help take the pain away.. its a replacement for the pain you do have.. your swaping one for the other.. but the only thing is your inflicting that pain on every one who loves and cares about you.. deal with your problems.. get help anyway you can.. tlkin about it is a start.. but do you really want to hurt everyone you've ever loved? just so you can be happy.. and god only knows there may not b a heaven and a hell... you could end up in eternal pain ( i dont belive that heaven and hell shit btw im just settin it out there... i know you feel alone and scared.. i know first hand i feel that now.. but i belive life has something great for all of us.. and if ANYONE i mean anyone needs to tlk my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org.. please add me.. i know i may not make sence and i may not b professional at this shit.. but im a good person to tlk to.. and i love helping people.. so just add me if you need to talk..|
|16 Nov 2005||HOTBiTCH||HEY EVERYONE.. i'M NOT 13.. i'M 14 BUT LOOK LiKE i'M 16 OR SUMTHiN.. BUT i HAVE ALOTA PROBLEMS.. i HAVE ANXiETY SO i DON'T LEAVE THE HOUSE, i WANT TOO GET BETTER BUT NOTHiN HELPS.. && iT SEEMS LiKE MY PARENTS DON'T GiVE A SHiT ABOUT ME EVEN THO i KNOW THEY DO.. i CAN'T DO SHiT WiTH MY LiFE BECAUSE OF MY FUCKiN ANXiETY, i CAN'T EVEN SEE FAMiLY OR FRiENDS.. THEN MY DAD THiNKS i'M ANEREXiC.. BUT iM NOT, HE CALLS ME CRAZY BECAUSE i HAVE A MENTAL iSSUE.. && LiFE jUST FUCKiN SUCKS ASS CRACK.. i WANT TO DiE!!!!! BUT i DON'T KNOW HOW i SHOULD KiLL MYSELF.. WHAT ARE SUM GOOD && EASY WAYS?!? BESiDES THESE STUPiD ASS ONES YOU GUYS ARE SAYiNG.. && PERSON NEEDS TO SEND ME MAiL SAYiN DON'T DO iT. SO SEND ME MESSAGES AT: ToO fAbBuLoUs@aol.com|
|12 Nov 2005||wendy||planning on ODing in 900mg of aspirin. u think this will enough? thats 48 tablets btw. im shit scared that it wont be enough though....email me if u can at email@example.com
|12 Nov 2005||Lea||well lets see... i just stumbled oppon this website and im pretty much clueless on how to get my emotions out. i have a story similar to the others and i really need help. im in love with the guy my sister slept with and she wont stop acting lie a slut around him. ive tried to kill myself 3 times and i ended up just passing out. i think this website rox and id like to be here more. my stepdad hits me and cussess. my sister lies and is a slut. my little brother gets anything he wants. my older brother is "the perfect christian" my mom is clueless about me and i need help. im 13 rite now and in 8th grade. i cut myself on the sides cause i dont want anyone to notice. if someone is out there please help!|
|12 Nov 2005||Fuck you||pills, drugs, slit wrists, blow your brains out, hang your self... been their done that.... self harming.. well i live and breathe it... suicidal and a fucked up paranoia..... hey welcome to my life... if you do really want to die go for it fuck ill join you! slit wrists AND OD is the best way... could tell you all my fucked life story but fuckit you dont wanna know bout being raped as a child and growing up being raped constantly.... do you?|
|11 Nov 2005||Clary||The best way is a gun in the mouth, pointed up.
Life dose get better.
You change friends. Move away. Grow up.
The best thing a angry teenager can do is "get over it"
I'm 28 had a great selfcentering sheltered life. Much like you.
cuz lets face it you do own a computer.
I had a huge family and now I am one of three that is left.
I can list the deaths but who cares.
My mom was the breaking point. that was a year ago. Father, I didn't care when he left I was only 4.
The key to life is uncondistional love. Moms give it the best. my siblings are both married.(the other two) execept my brother is dying of cancer. I am single with no kids, not that I wanted them but the next best thing to uncondistional love, I go to college to become an airline pilot. Not a bad life. But my mom never tought me how to take care of myself. I have noone to hug when Im sad. Now one who calls. (saves on the mintues) No job because of depression. I live on pennys and on the scraps of my so called friends,(they are the frist to run to the hills when I start crying)
Yes I do want to kill myself it will happen when my depression lifts and I can do it.
|09 Nov 2005||dal101gal||Hi. I am a mother of a 12 year old boy. I went in this evening to tell him goodnight, when i caught him with a rope around his neck. He was starting to turn bright red when i screamed at him and he took it off. He says nothings wrong.....honestly i don't beleive that. He has been in counseling many times and things seem better for awhile, but i have NEVER experienced this before. I am hopeing somone one out there could maybe help fill me in on how and what 12 year olds go through. Why did he try this? I am also going to seek him help in other ways, but I need to try to understand. I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE MY SON!!|
|09 Nov 2005||Paula - Katie||feeling pretty depressed and just wanna die at the moment what should i do becoz i dont fancy hurtin my family but i dont want to keep living!if u wanna chat or help or anythin feel free to email me firstname.lastname@example.org|
|09 Nov 2005||Paula - Katie||feeling pretty depressed and just wanna die at the moment what should i do becoz i dont fancy hurtin my family but i dont want to keep living!|
|07 Nov 2005||anoynamous||hello im 17 and the last time i was ever happy was when i was a little kid , life was good back then , i have a mom , a brother , and a sister . my dad died when i was a baby so i never met the guy , i have a family but i dont consider them my family , im 17 right now , im the youngest also they all treat me like garbage and gang up on me when we have fights , none of them are ever home , i have had tons of friends in all grade levels but i never really felt like they were my friends , i never have had a best friend the king u hang out with and talk to and see everyday , i started hating life in the 6th grade but never really thought about suicide until i was in 9th grade , i only thought about it like 3 times a week back then , at the start of my 10th grade year , it was a big cowincidence ( cant spell) that ALL my friends went to the new high school they just had built and i didnt , people were randomly chosen and all my friends went and not even one stayed with me at my old school . im really smart but extremely lazy but i still manage to pass but i never go to skool or never wake up for it , so i get good grades but they fail me because of my missed days , im in 11th grade now and im planning on dropping out as soon as i turn 18 and get my GED , but my mom is making me go to skool anywayz , i actually do my work so my mom or teachers dont bitch at me but i dont do any homework cause im lazy , i sit alone at lunch everyday because i have no friends and people stare at me , i make friends in my classes but their not the kinda friends u talk to outside the class just work buddies and only talk to you in class , so thats why i sit alone everyday , i have tryed to commit suicide with a hand gun numerous times but i cant because im scared it might hurt and i might not die right away and have to suffer and feel pain then die , and even if i knew it would kill me in 1 shot i still cant pull the trigger , im an atheist also i dont believe in any religions but i do believe in reincarnation and karma , im one of the nicest people u will ever meet , life sucks if u ask me , i feel that god or whoever gave everyone else better lives and gave me a pile of shit , I WISH SOMEONE WOULD SHOOT ME IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD ONE DAY AS IM WALKING DOWN THE STREET , I WOULD FINALLY BE FREE AND HAPPY . also my parents wont give me a car or license because they hate me so im going to try to get it when i turn 18 on my own and walk to the dmv and when i do im going to hotwire a car and drive far far away .
its hard to carry on when no one loves you - Tupac Shakur
life sucks and then you die = ME
Life is like a big bowl of shit that everyone has to eat out of - ME
|04 Nov 2005||angry kid||i am always gettin bullied, epseially when my sister 16 brings up unecessary things, and it makes me really angry i do think about myself commiting suicide, i get a buzz from imagining people gettin stabbed.just today in drama the class waz talkin bout a mental illness, i got home and me and my sis were fighting about god knows (i am a christian and no this is wrong)but i wanted to die put myself in a postion where she cud see i waz insecure do you know anybody that can help|
|04 Nov 2005||popularandhappyontheoutside||i know there are ppl out there who love me, and who would miss me if i were gone. i dont no how many but there would be some. however, in my family i really dont feel that. i kinda feel that with out me their lives would be better. i am the problem in our family and i will never amount to anything worthwhile. my future looks so bleak. they dont even want me in their house anymore, whats the point of being alive? how will i know what im missing out on if im dead? ILL B DEAD!!! ppl move on. ive tried it b4 and miserably failed. i get told all the time that i will amount to nothing, and im just not strong enough to prove them wrong. if i didnt have a phobia of knives id cut myself unil i bled to death, but all i have is pills. i just want to die, there is no point of me being here, i dont wanna b a nothing for the rest of my life.|
|03 Nov 2005||sammy||i hate my life and i want to die everyone hates me everythings always my fault and i just cant take this anymore what should i do??|
|03 Nov 2005||Bina||i hate my life everything is goin wrong and it's no joke and i think suicide is the best way out for me plz help|
|02 Nov 2005||FLA||Well, hi, I recently been thinking too much about killing myself, I used to think about it not that much, but it's gotten out of hand..
I'm 15 years old and I attend school, don't really care much about it, just go to it.. Well I stayed back a year in all my classes cause I hated almost everyone in my classes.. Didn't feel like moving on with them, so, I'm a Sophmore in Freshmen classes, I guess some might find that embarassing and, Yeah, I guess it kinda is.. but anyways I've made some new friends this year and they're pretty cool.. This one kids always happy and is cool to hang out with, til I found out more personal things about him and my false sense of happiness drifted away cause I saw his sadness expressed on his face, that alone wanted me to kill myself.. I know suicide is no answer to problems and stuff, but maybe it's not me that's thinking these things, I drink a lot and smoke pot quite a lot too, usually I smoke with friends and drink by myself.(when I drink it really helps me answer problems and when I drink excessively, like yesterday I drank a 1 liter bottle of wine with 20% alcohol in it.. I found myself stumbling accross the bridge in my town.. falling off my skateboard.. then callin my freshmen friend about if he would care if I killed myself.. He got scared and wanted to get me help and I told him to please not cause I won't do it.. It's just crazy how much his answer made me think I fell over onto a college picnic table and was just hoping I would pass out and die and not have to worry about anything anymore.. I almost did til he called me back and talked to me some more and told me how EVERYONE I know would care if I died.. so I thought about that and it made me cry unbelievably.. And knew that if I died right now and their is a heaven in which our souls live on, I would live in TOTAL torment and dealing with the fact that all of my 10 friends would care about me and so would my mom and sister.. I really can't stop thinking about it I want to die but.. I need some kind of selfless suicide to go out.. like saving someones life or something, after all I'm just another loser in this fountain of life, where nothing goes right and is just pointless to think so.. I know I just can't do that to my friends.. I know a lot of people have the same situations as me and can't stop thinking about suicide.. well my AIM is flclsaga855 and I would be willing to talk to any of you if you want and possibly if you live near me we can talk together.
thanks for reading my story.. I felt as if I needed to get this out so I can finally feel a little bit better.. i've been having problems with anger and I think it's cause of all the drinking.. I think i'm gonna cut back just a little. :)
|01 Nov 2005||Me||I don't know what to say,I am in my 30's, I came here to see if anybody has thought of any better way to kill yourself but after reading all these stories it makes me not want to do it, I don't want to die, I have things to live for but so many problems, if anybody thinks they can help,email me|