|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|17 Dec 2005||john||Kelly, Millie and others out there.
I do think of my family,relatives and friends, I am beyond caring for myself.
I am a farther of two children and they were taken from me by my wife who had visions of starting a new life with another man, my children are below 8 years old and have no idea who i am now.
My wife has left me in so much debt that i cannot keep the roof over my head and now i have resorted to rooting in bins for food! you my think what am i doing on the internet with all these problems? i set up a contract with a internet company to able me to keep in touch with my children but my wife has stopped them from getting my emails and i cannot afford to phone them being in another county.
sometimes it is the only way to go! and that is my way ahead, i cannot go on and nobody can bail me out of this.
dont tell me that there's someone who can help because there is'nt.
their's no god and no more fish in the sea and nothing new around the corner for me, sorry there is just one thing new for me!
|17 Dec 2005||Dana||I'm a fifteen year old, and a freshman in highschool. My family is wealthy and i have many very good friends. I do well in school and play many sports and am a very talented pianist. There has still always been something wrong. There isn't a name for it and I feel like a selfish bratt for hating life like i do, because there are many people who have had much worse lives and still continued to live, and to love life, and fought for something better. But after thinking about this for my entire life (i became suicidal in 1st grade) I have realized that the only thing wrong with me is me. I am bisexual and scared that everyone will hate me if i tell them so i've had to deal with it all myself and i've only told my best friend and my brother. I still barely feel like i can talk about it though. My parents don't understand me, and my sexuality frustrates me and that i can't tell them, so i can't explain. I don't know how long i can handle any of this any more. I've long ago lost my will to live and i'm just barely hanging on now. Even when times are good, and my friends are great theres still the screaming in the back of my mind telling me that it will all slip away again. I don't think that i can do this anymore and i hate life. The only thing that has ever kept me from killing myself is that i want to be famous, but everyday i wake up and that dream becomes less and less of a possibility, which was a slim one to begin with. I don't feel like there is anything left to live for and i'm begging for someone who's dealt with this to tell me that there is.|
|17 Dec 2005||Miranda||hi, my name is Miranda and i'm 11. ever since i left home, i've been depressed. i've been wanting to kill myself for a long time...im so twisted....i feel so lost|
|16 Dec 2005||Daniel||I'm back again. I've cut my arm a few times with a razor blade. It hurt, and I don't want to feel anymore pain, but I did it anyway. I've had three glasses of neat brandy, so I'm a bit dizzy. I want to start smoking again - I'll buy a pack tomorrow. I'm sort of indirectly trying to kill myself by smoking. The thing that hurts most is the fact that I haven't been hugged by any immediate family/friends for like 10 years. I'm from the UK and I have a family that thinks hugging is not appropriate for a boy, but i feel so unloved. I just want someone to hold me and say that they love me for the unique person that I am. I've thought about suicide several times but my parents are divorced and i live with my mum, and she would be heartbroken because she has no-one else. I don't want to live and yet I "can't" die. I'm just so fucked up :(|
|16 Dec 2005||Daniel||I am sick to death of life. I get up everyday and hate every minute of it. My parents divorced when I was five, I was bullied at school, I'm gay and don't have a boyfriend. I'm 18 now and the last time someone hugged me was about 10 years ago. No one loves me. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. Just think how wonderful it would be never to feel pain or sadness again.|
|16 Dec 2005||joe||im 27, i asked 100 churches to help me, they all ignored me, so does that mean im supposed to die? did god just spit in my face? ive been a christian for years and ya know what....who cares|
|16 Dec 2005||ALPHONSE||well i do not think i will rgret when i die next week.i have made up my mind to kill myself on the 24th of decmber 2005.when i die i will ruin my the day for my dad and his wife.since mom died life has been hell out here so,why should i live when i have been stoped from going to school.my wicked dad says he has no money.so onthe 24th of december i will kill myself
stay well in this world of pain
|16 Dec 2005||THOMAS SZWEDSKA||as i press down on the soft paper i feel the toxic dump smear off my bum.
as i press down on the soft paper i feel the doo doo butter remenants smear off my bum and on to the tissue slightly tearing and polluting my finger with the great stench.
my curiousioty growing stong. i must know what it tastes like.
... i feelthe gooey substance slide into a thinner coat of butt cheese. however, the consistancy is that of penut butter and baby oil. the warmth of the sticky coating...
as i c the mooshy substance i have the urge to grasp in my hand and squeeze
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???
SOMEONE HELP BEFORE I GO INSAINE AND KILL MYSELF. THOMAS_SZWEDSKA@HOTMAIL.COM
|16 Dec 2005||GEMZ||OK MA DAD HITZ ME BUT I JUS HIT THE CUNT BAK HES A WANKA SO IF THAT HAPPENS 2 U AND U WANNA COMIT SUICIDE GO JUMP OFF THE BALTIC TOWER OR DROWNED UR SEL TAKE AN OVA DOSE CHOKE URSEL SOMETIMES IF U GO 2 SLEEP WITH DA BLANKET OVA YA HEAD U SUFFACATE IF DAT DOSENT WORK JUMP IN FRONT OFA TRAIN|
|15 Dec 2005||cat||I am yet not an adult nor a child...I am a young adult. I have many thoughts of suicide. I hate letting people getting close to me. I dont want to leave this world in case something better might come along. I don't have anyone to talk to and i dont like any of my "so called" friends. I have a bf that i am afraid to fall in love with. He is the most this world has given me. I dont live with my parents and i am a very stress-related, angry, depressed kinda person. I used to smoke a little marijuana so relieve my issues. Now, i have left the weed to other people to use. I feel it doesnt work. I have thought about suicide. Tried it a couple times. But then wasnt sure what he best way do it was.. i have never started to cut myself. i have said good bye to everyone in a secret yet obvious way...jsut to see if ne one would notice and try to stop me. at this moment no one has tried to do ne thing. i told my bf we should go on a break so that he doesnt think that when i do commit suicide that it's his fault. i have made it clear to myself when i find the most mentally successful way for myself, that i am gonna do it b4 December 31, 2005. so if ne one out there has ne ideas on how to make it the simplest for me i wouldnt mind your piece of advice...i think hanging myself in my basement is the perfect way for me. one two people live in my house. so when the other person goes away for the night, i am gonna do it. i have two dates to pick from. so i have even written the letter, telling people whats going on. and that this decision was no ones fault...i did it for myself. to make me feel good. instead of running to everyone's feet like a slave.|
|15 Dec 2005||jenni||either slit ur wrists, hang yourself, drown yourself, or shoot a bullet in to ur head or ur lungs if u want to suffer or slit ur throat- one of them has to work except for me the wrists and throat didnt work- i was helped when i was about a minute away from dying and of course my so called parents had to bring me to the hospital and save me the same thing happened when i tried to drown myself, and i dont have a gun in my possesion- i dont have a reason for living- my first bf was put in juvie for drug abuse and then hung himself and the second one od'd and shot himself in the lungs while he was od-ing-i currently have a bf who said he would help me if i wanted to go but i woulld have to help him kill himself at the same time-i love him and am crazy enough to do that for him- my stepdad hates me and i hate him- i love my dad and my brother and my bf most of the time i love my mom and my stepmom cant keep her fuckin mouth shut and drives me mad i just want to end it i dont want to go on in this life everynight i pray to god and the devil to kill me painfully during the night so no one can stop me and i could just not wake up in the morning- i ask god why he's punnishing me with life and a life that i dont deserve all my friends are pretty much gone or are going to be gone very soon to suicide but the ones who r left and have possesion of a gun wont let me use it i dont deserve such a horrible life if any life at all, the hatrid needs to spill over the side of my heart and make it drive me insane so i have no choice but to kill myself or let the pain and hatrid kill me- maybe i should starve myself- thats a good idea- w.e. if im still alive then u can email me at email@example.com|
|14 Dec 2005||dieguita||i've tried to kill myself many times and i will sound stupid but everything started when i met this guy hector and i fell in love so much that he was my whole world....after 5 years that we broke up im still crying for him, now in college i have lost my all classes my parents are getting divorce my brother wants to kill himself and im trying to tell him not to but it seems that noone cares about what i feel, my friends think im crazy cause im complaning all day about my fucking life. ijust cant be happy for one time, i really dont know what happienes is. I love so much this guy that he is the only thing that make me wake up in the mornings now..he went away 4 months ago to italy......and my life just went down to hell, i didnt wanna eat, sleep, talk, study, i was the most sad person in the world cause nobody can understand me !! why everybody says you dont have strees or real problems when you are your age!!! im 19 years old and i think i can get depress or i can have stress that makes me mad so much that i just want to die!!!!i dont have anything everybody looks so smart and i dont feel smart enough to be in college! and i lodt the love of my life! ......................................after these 4 months he is comming back just for vacations and the little light came back to my heart i dont care anything but him ..but i know in the back of my mind he is not gonna call me or look for me when he gets here, and i dont thing i will cause i tolf him so many things before and i did so many things for him that i dont have a backup plan now...............................|
|14 Dec 2005||Allone in agony||OK, im only 15, and yet iv tried to kill myself too many times to count, and with no availl. im tired of this world treating me the way it does, i was beaten and abused for 7 years by my own schoolmates, it got so bad that i changed schools and moved, ive also had serous depression since ii was about 8 years old. sometimes i cut myself to see just how much it bleeds, that pain helps to make me forget all my other problems. im tired of living, its really over rated, people only focus on the good things, and not on the bad thhings, which usually greatly outweigh the good. no one really relizes what true pain really is till they loose all that makes them happy, so that all they have to focus on is the bad. try never having anything good to block out the bad. the only thing that ever made me happe was my girlfriend, but we broke up. and now theres nothing, nothing to keep me sane. people dont ever really relize how they affect you with there hate, not till ur gone, and they have to think back on what they did to you, and how they affecte you, and visa-versa. ive become acostome to keeping my emotions all bottled up inside, and never letting them out till i finally just snap, which has happend on more than one occasion. no one ever really takes me serously, or understands my problems, not till they get slapped in the face by the real truth. the truth is never pretty, but in any case people deserve to know.|
|14 Dec 2005||natz||i feel as if i need to comit suicide i hate my life try hanging yourself thanks 4 reading|
|14 Dec 2005||gemz||slit ur wrists take an over dose i wanna kill myself coz i get picked on at school and i get blamed 4 fuckin every thin i hate my life 1 morning am gonna wake up and only be dreaming im alive|
|13 Dec 2005||speedy||Hi I am 21 years old and I feel like there is nothing left to give. I am in college but not doint to well since this is my 4th year and I still have 2 semesters left but they are progressivly getting worse. My grades are slowly going down hill and life if really starting to crap on me. I broke up with my girlfriend for another girl who I love very much but I still think about my ex. I feel bad because this summer I got an apartment with her even after we broke up. This was a pretty big mistake. Things didnt work out we she hated me to no end because the girl that I fell in love with was one of her friends. The other day I had to ask my ex for a CD that I needed to fix one of my computers and I had felt bad talking to her because I know that she hates me for everything that I have done to her. Her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer this summer and she needed a friend to talk to and she doesnt really open up to many people and the only people that were there to talk to that she ever did talk to were me and the girl I am seeing and her best friend. I felt bad talking to my ex because during the summer she needed some one to talk to because she was far from home and her mother might have died and still might. So I began to talk to my ex feeling so horrible because I was not a friend when she needed one. So I wanted to appologze to her for everything I had done. I had all the thoughts in my head of what I wanted to say to my ex but when it came time to tell her I couldnt tell her. I called her and all I got out was I am sorry but there was so much that I wanted to say. I tried to write it down and I still could not get what I wanted out on paper on in an email. I had an email started that I left open at my present girl friedns house that saw my letter to my ex telling her that I was sorry for what I had done to her and that I miss her as a friend because we use to talk about everything. I have/had friends as school but now I dont because they were her friends too so we grew apart through the summer so when things get hard I dont have anyone to talk to becuase if I am having problem with my current girlfrind I have no to talk to ask seek advise from. I sometimes talk to my brother but he lives in boston and I live in buffalo. my mom lives in TX and I dont really talk to her like that. I have never had a real good relationship with my father just because i think its becuase of a father son thing you know. So right now my current girl friend is mad at me for writing to my ex because I thin that she thinks that I want her back but I realy dont I jsut wanted to tell her that I was sorry for everything that happened. school is not goign well either because I had to find a new place to stay in the middle of the semester and I had to miss a number of classes in order to meet with people and find a place because we were all moving out of my old house and everyone left as soon as we talked about it. so I was left in my old house for almost a month looking for a place to stay. so i knew I had to be out of my house before the end of the month other wise I would have to pay 600@ in rent plus all the bills witch I ould not afford thats why there was 3 of us living at that house so we could all afford it but I Was left there till I found a new place. I told a ew of my profesors that I was looking for a new place so I would have to miss a few classes and they siad ok but then a bout 2 weeks ago one of my professors walked up to me and said that I am going to ail class because I have to many absecnes. now that I have failed that class I will lose my financial aid and I do not know how I am going to finish shcool wiht out any finacila aid. my bills are starting to pile up and its going to get worse becuase I dotn ahve a job anymore because I was working a work study job during the semster and I dont have it again this comming semster. finding a job is going to be hard because my car is starting to die and I live in a large city and the mas transportation system is fairly unrealiable. so find a job just to pay rent and bills is going to be hard if my car dies on me. and second trying to find a job now its almost christmas who is hiringi permanent jobs in buffalo right now. so right now all I think about is dieing because the pain is so great this is how i foudn this site because I was serching for was to kill myself im thinking of either driving my car as fsat as it can go into something since its wants to die itself or just cuttign my wrists and watching the blood run out I just cut the side o my wrist to see if it woud her it burns a little but not to much I don tthink I really want to die i just really need some help this is why I am writing I will admit it I dont want to die I love my girlfriend to much but she just seems to hate me so much I am going to visit my mom on the 19th till the 29th and it will be the irst hristmas i have spent with her in over 10 years since my parent have been divorce. I feel like when I go see my mom it will be lik esaying goodbye because I really don think I can take all this pressure any more I feel so alone because I am basically I have no one to talk to and no one to hang out with I have myself I have sat in my house for the last to day because this is finals week and I dotn even go to school I had one final yesterday and i have one today at 540 which I think that I will fail any way so I dont see a point in going. I just want some help is all I am askign for I want to know that this pain will stop and that the girl who has my heart will lvoe me again as much as I love her because with out her I feel like I really have nothing left no job no real friends here any way i have one realy good frind but he goes to another school. is there antoher way????|
|13 Dec 2005||will||yeah im not 13 but my real mom left me for crack and my step mom who supposedly said she loved me moved to flordia and my dad treats my sister with the best of manners and kindness but he tells me when i dont want to talk to him because he woulndnt unstand me because i have tried to talk to him countless times and he says hes tired of being my parent i get caught smoking grass and i get punched in the face my sister gets brought home from the POLICE and gets a hug! WTF but yesterday i pressured into doing one line of coke. MY first time and my sister just freaked when i thought she would understand me and try to help me.I was very wrong she just said i was a fucking retard and she smoked my weed with me than later that night she and her freinds said they didnt want me to hit there weed when i let them hit mine. she keeps on trying to black mail me .so im pretty sure i want to drop the hammer and tell my dad befor she does but i would rather just end myself insted of having to keep on keeping on because i feel im underwater and no one wants to save me they all just keep staring at me wacthing me die seeing me gasp for air i cant get there something pulling me down i fell like just giving up and letting my whole body submegre underwater till i cant breath till i cant see till i cant speak.|
|12 Dec 2005||Jordan||ok this is it, life has no point...i dont believe in God cuz everything about him sounds so friken corny...im ugly (pig nose) and have bad habits. Where does it stop? itdoesnt theres no tap to let my pain out! i need to tell sumone but noone will listen...im a smart kid but i cant figure a way outta this and to tell u the truth im scared. I have tons of freinds and im popular at school( im 13 ) but i dont have anything valuable...ive never had a girlfreind or anyone to care about...my parents are fags who dont care about me and all they do is compare me to my straight A perfect sister. IM SICK OF IT!! whys it always me whos shoved under while people laugh at me as i lay dying?|
|12 Dec 2005||mariella - 13/f/scotland||# <3 # i am suicidal and i either wanna die by hanging my self in the girls bathroom in my school or by slitting my wrist and watching the blood slowly drip,out either way its gonna happen on january 15th firstname.lastname@example.org|
|12 Dec 2005||Tamlyn||If i knew that answer I certainly would not be here today. Send me an email when you get the answer.|