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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|28 Jan 2006||Leokekoa||Well, I'm 13, going on 14 pretty soon, and life is shit for me already. It's those typical reasons, my parents are all ignorant, they are never satisfied in what I do, never proud, don't even care. All they want from me is perfection. Even my good grades aren't enough. I remember several years ago when I was younger, my dad told me that I can die if I want. I can run away if I want. They wouldn't give a damn about it. They might not have known, but I was too shocked after. I didn't love them as much I did before. Although I guess they were trying to make it up to me afterwards but the pain was too big to cover.
Now, my mom always says she has no reason to live. She says she wouldn't give a damn if she died right here, right now. Plus, her eyesight is getting bad and is going blind. Surgery costs too much for us since we're poor. and my dad....My stupid, fucked up dad also is worthless to be in this world. He just sits around the computer all day, doing nothing at all.
I really pity my sister. She's only 10 now and even if she says she's old, she has a soul of a 7 year old. Believe me, she's that childish. This life I have is too fucked up for her, and these days I really am getting tired of living. I pray everynight that instead of having a better day tomorrow, I want to die. Die while sleeping, isn't THAT the most perfect ting anyone could ask for?
I don't have much friends. Even the ones I have aren't that friendly anymore. Since ages ago, I desperatly wanted at least one person I can always count on, to cry on, and babble on about my life and that person will listen to every word of mind. For awhile, I thought that person would be my mom. My dad. Even God. But as I got older I found out that after all, all you can count on is yourself. I don't believe in God. If He was real, I wouldn't be miserable like this. Friends are only interested in what they are interested in. Your sibling wouldn't care much, and perents are always busy minding their own business. If you rant on other sites, other netusers always say, "Oh, things will gt better." or "stop being such a whiner" and all those crap that I don't need to hear.
I tried slithing my wrist, and just found out that it wouldn't get me anywhere. So I'm looking for other painless death. Can anyone PLEASE tell me? I'll repay trhe debt if you tell me how I can get myself killed slow and painlessly. I beg of you.
|22 Jan 2006||mel h 14||sometimes iwake up in the morning and fell as if im going to burst into tears because i of past days i go to the kitchen and whish to god to get a knife and stab myself in the juggler vain. this goes on and on throughout eachday. i need a knife. aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhgggg|
|22 Jan 2006||dianna||i don't have anybody...there is only one person that talks to me..i don't have family or friends... and all i hear him tell me is how much he hates me..how much he wasn't me to die..whenever i am in a room with him and somebody else is there..he makes me feel invisable..he doesn't even look at me or even try to make converstaion with me...he spits on me ...yells at me..hits me...i don't ahve anybody else...he tells me all the time in front of people how worthless i am ...i am scared of people so i can't even go out and ask for help..i don't want nobody else to hurt me....I had enough strength to reach out to one more person...but he keeps yelling at me and hitting me...lying to me ..i don't want to live anymore..i am going to go and take some sleeping pills and then when i feel groggy enough ia m going to put a bag over my head..i don't want to wake up ever again...no more people hurting me..goodbye worlds...sorry i wasn't good enough for anybody to love me|
|20 Jan 2006||coral keenan||Hiya i am coral i am 12 years of age and i am going frew a really ruf time wid my friend and everythink an di wana kill my self but i iant got the bottle but i am goer do it but i need soem help bnu t i just crnt stop my email is firstname.lastname@example.org|
|19 Jan 2006||alan||hello people! my names alan, im 16 n im frm belfast ( Northern Ireland ) iv tried to kill myself 3 times now. last time i tried it was 2 months ago but between then and now iv nearly tempted to do it agen. just anything i do no1 cares. my mum dad r split up which makes it reli alot harder. my dad always says im selfish and have no respect bt hes just a fukin wanker i h8 him! im not selfish and i do have respect theres just sumtimes im not reli in the mood 4 anything whic every1 can be like that.. anyways... i duno weather i shud kill myself or nat, if i knew wat it was like after uv dun it, that wud make my dicission rite and quick bt thats the question!!! What it is like???|
|19 Jan 2006||Confusion with a K||Well, one way to try to make everything better. lie. lie about it all, to everyone even the people closest to you that actually trust you. but fuck them, no one understands, no one gets you. thats right, my life is a joke. everything ive been through, any type of pain its all a fucking joke right? well i hope that youre having fun with this and i hope it makes u feel good knowing that all that fucking kept me here was you. well not nemore, not after this. you dont mean what you say, its bullshit, just like everyone else. yeah im here for you i understand. yeah right fuck you. theyre all the same. i cant fucking wait for the day i get out of this hell and just leave you behind, leave everything i ever loved behind and move on.|
|18 Jan 2006||Jay||hi guys, i feel like commiting suicide cuz of my ex gf im 16 and ive been with her for 3 months, i fell inlove with her so much, at school and home i get abused by everyone being racist and i got beat up alot at school , ive never had anyone to talk to and i dont know what to do.when i found my ex gf i was so happy with her she made me feel really wanted and loved, she left me andwent with someone she met 1 day before, she then left him 4 days after and of me begging her to be with me and she went bk out with me, i had been with her for 1 month after that and she got pregnant, i was so happy, i know i was young but i was thinkin i do have a life. she had to move to her dads for a while and i got upset and we argued alotso she left me again, she now says she loves me but doesnt wana be with me, i went to see her tonight for the first time in 10 days and she was talkin to me and she said i had to go cuz that guy was coming to her house , the guy she left me for to begin with, it is now 11 o clock and she said that an hour ago, everytime i try to talk to her now she doesnt listen she argues with me i dont know what i should do, everyone is sayin forget her but i cnt cuz im so inlove with the girl, i was wondering if someone could give me some advice to either get her bk or help me move on and forget bout wanting to commit suicide, thx for listenin, jay|
|18 Jan 2006||tabby||hi im 19 and ive been suicidal for a number of years im a cutter along with the type of person to do TOO many drugs in an attempt to take my life....ive tried to be happier and it doesnt work...i have many reasons to want to die and none of them is greater than the other...i want to kill myself right now because i feel like a complete loser i feel like anthing i do is wrong and all i do is bring people pain...which has be reenforced to me by my room mate who unknowingly makes me feel like im the reason for all of his problems...all i have to say to anyone who thinks about suicide is look for help if that doesnt work find a friend to talk to and when that doesnt work think about me....ive made it to nineteen and as much as i hate it i prolly wont live to see 20 BUT if you are gonna kill yourself make sure you had your fun first|
|17 Jan 2006||Jessie||HI Im am 13 and i havent tried to kill myself yet but i will. I have a plan and everyting is ready. The best way to kill yourself is to overdose on anti-depressants or a bottle of asprine. Do it at kleast 1 hour before you go to bed. That way no one will suspect anything. If you talk suicide or if you hear someone talk suicide you should take it seriously because it is an unvolentary effluiction. YOu cant help. So if you are going to committe suicide do it it my way!. Its easy to get the pills and painless. There your life will be over the only thing that might stop you is the fact that you weill your loved ones. They do care but like always they will get over it.|
|16 Jan 2006||anonymous||Hi. Im twenty three years old. After reading majority of the forums on here. I've decided to include something from myself. I'm the only girl in my family, also the oldest girl in my extended family. Im basically considered the "black sheep, rebel, outkast".etc. Through out majority of my life, I've always done what was wrong. Hanging late out with friends, talking on the phone with people whom were no good for me, talking back to my parents, and not caring what anyone thought of me. That was when I started my teen years. Two of my "uncles" touched me in the wrong way. Ive never told my parents. Why? I dont know.I barely graduated high school, starting dating all kinds of men and spending nights out without even telling my parents where I am. Ive made mistakes where Ive gotten pregnant from a one night stand and keep many secret and lies from family and friends. Today. I still have my parents to stand by me. But how do i tell him Im suffering from depression. I keep debating If i should talk to my doctor or no. I dont want to. I been in a roll coaster relationship for more than a year. (i know what your thinking) That I have a guy whos here for me. But Ive kept many things about my past from him also, only becuase Im not proud of what ive done. what ive went through. I just want it to remain in the past. Unfortuntely, i couldnt.We argue about everything and anything literally everyday. Nothing seems right in my life anymore.Til this day, everything still haunts me. I really think about killing myself. I dont think anyone would even care if i did do it. I sit alone in the dark in my room night after night crying and praying for some light. I dont know what to do anymore. All I ever wanted is a family who loved me, not neglected me and treated me differently than my brothers. I wanted to get married and have a wonderful family. Now that, thats not gunna happen. I just dont wanna life anymore.|
|15 Jan 2006||SJ||add me 2 msn, i have had a hard time when i was 13, i tried suicide 15 times snot worth it, im 16 now and life rules - whoever/whatever is givin u probs, smack them ffs, dont let dem get to ya - stay safe - peice pplz.|
|15 Jan 2006||Samantha||Hey...im not under 13, i am 13, and my life sux ASS. i wanna end it, but i dont know how..cuz its just hard, theres so much i havent experienced, and i want to. but my life sux and should end, my mom hates me "U DUMB USELESS TWIT!" she sez, my dad thinks im absolutly stupid, and my parents fight about me 24/7. my friends know me, but they dont, they think iim a good kid and i dont wanna die and i love life, its just that i dont know how to reach out, how could i, its impossible, here, if pplz knew, they would call me emo and tease me, rather then help me. My friends wouldnt know what to do, they dont have any experience of a shit home.they think my house is great and im really rich, but really...my cloths show it..IM FUCKING POOR!, but my parents dont care, if they had a real choice, they would make me go around naked, there soooo consumed in there own life and want there own happiness, they dont care about mine.
Sometimes i think im an accident and my parents dont care becuz my siblings 21 and older..my oldest is my sister, she is 30..shes old enough to be my mom for christ sakes!!! then, when my brothers and sisters were little, they got evrything, my parents would do anything to keep there teeth straight, keep them up to date with the lastest fasions...etc.
Yesterday, i tried to kill my self by cutting really deep...i almost hit the vien until i realized all the things i would miss out on and i stopped...
Im Lost.So Lost.Im Lost Without You.
Hear the Gun Shots Fired.My Life Expired.My Death Is A Living Lie...
|14 Jan 2006||Nicola|| My name is Nicola, and i have been suicidal for nearly three years now. Yes, i cut every night, i used to do it on my wrists but the amount of pity i recieved made me feel sick to my stomache so now i do not do it there. I cut to get rid of stress and pain, but i would advise everybody out there who thinks they want to cut for the 'fun of it' not to. Once you start, it's hard to stop. Believe me. My parents found out i was suicidal and they're so pathetic they wont even let me get serious help when i know i really need it. I'm only fifteen, i should be out and having fun, yet i feel so depressed and ugly, and i wonder why people like me and want to be close to me..?
Everyday is so bad, i just want all this pain to end, just to start a new life and be free. But then i think that maybe i could just give it one more day and see if anything changes, see if i have anything to live for.
My friends are so fake, People backstab about me, iv'e grown accustomed to the feeling. I feel so dirty, so ill, cureless. I really need to talk to someone.. Please help me.
|11 Jan 2006||JaniNe||I wanted to overdose on sleeping pills. I love when I'm asleep I don't have to think of anything! It's kind of like watching a movie... and it made since with how long I've been praying to not wake up the next day, lol.
You guys ever see the movie saw? Well you remind me of that... I'm not happy with my life but I appreciate it. It was a pleasant gift from my mother! Suicide is the receipt
I hate my mom
But try for twenty hours try to stop thinking about how you hate your life, or how you hate yourself or how you're unhappy and instead... just live.
That's all I want. I want everyone to see this and for twenty hours just live!
Then we can all die, knowing we tried, I know I have. But there isnt anything I can do to stop this pain, so I quit but not now. Give maybe just one hour everyone Smile just for me.
PS the easiest way is with a gun to your head. Just pull the trigger and you wont have any more problems! I promise.
If you wont smile for me now then smile right before you pull that trigger!
|11 Jan 2006||Dee||Im not going to sit here and spill my guts about my childhood, im 18 yrs old... im very depressed and have been for a very long time, i first came across this website maybe 5 yrs ago, honestly looking for ways to kill myself and honestly im still looking, im done with the the pain life brings you, done with all the abuse, i need a way out... can some body help me?|
|10 Jan 2006||kyle||i started feeling depressed when i was 13 i had a bone cancer it got pretty bad i was in a hospital every3 weeks and stayed there for 5 days, then i would be at home for another 5 days.
and then shipped to another hospital to recover from the chemotherapy. This was my life for 16 months. it became a routine that i couldnt escape. either my mum or dad would stay with me in hospital to help me cope with it, but i still felt all alone and i still do today im 15 depressed and dont feel like i have any links with my family i just see them as people i live with nothing more
|10 Jan 2006||Just another face in the crowd||I am 17 and married and pregnant. I am trying to finish school. My husband is 19 and we live in our own house. it is unfinished but it is ours. Ive always been suicidal on and off. even pregnant Ive lain in bed every night and thought about blowing my head off with my husbands m-15. Love for my baby hasnt allowed me too. i cam out of poverty and years of physical mental and sexual abuse. I came into this relationship unsure of myself and my partner. I hate life and I find anything hard to enjoy. everything in life......just sucks.|
|09 Jan 2006||real girl||OMG dose anyone else ever feel suicidal whenever they get theyre periods? and then when your periods over you feel ok again weird hu? anyone kno of any good ways to beat pms an stop me doing summit stupid when i feel so bad one week of every month is hell for me i hate being a girl men hav it so easy|
|08 Jan 2006||NiCole||I am 20 now. When I was 6 my brother na dhis friends would come over and get drunk and high and do all sorts of other drugs and one of my brothers friends used to come back to my room after everyone passed out or didn't realize what was going on and he would molest me. When I was 7 my brother was taken away to foster care because of all the trouble he had gotten into and because of my parents lack of parenting. I was a loner and depressed and didn't care about anything growing up. At the age of 12 I was mixed in with the wrong crowd. I had some friends over in my bedroom. My cousin and my friend Rita left the room and the two guys that stayed behind locked the door behind them. I tried to run out the window but the older guy grabbed me and threw me on the bed. He started to feel me up and rip off my clothes. The other guy just stood there and watched. I was screaming and fighting and my cousin and friend were trying to break down the door to get back in. They finally picked the lock and came back in. When I was 15 I was dating a guy who was 17 and he raped me one night on a date. A few months later he went to jail for the rape of another girl. I became severely depressed and started cutting. I had already been anorexic for years. I left home a few months after the rape and tried to start a new life. he guy that molested me as a child is now in prison for raping a friend of mine and she had a baby by it. I have moved around from state to state living with people I meet. I managed to graduate high school at 19 after dropping out twice. I'm 20 now. My brother died 8 months ago from a motorcycle accident. I went to his funeral. 1 of the pallbearers was the guy who raped me at 15, I saw my parents who never cared if I existed, and all those memories just came flying back into my mind. I tried to move on and forget about it. I'm now even more depressed than before. I'm not thinking about suicide like I used to all the time before. I thought about i all the time before because I felt trapped and I felt like I was never going to get out and be free. I don't know how many times I attempted to cut my wrists and carved the word death in my arm. I have tons of scars from all the cutting. I don't want to die now, I just want amnesia.|
|08 Jan 2006||GIRL ON THE BRINK||I am on the brink of collapsing in a heap on the floor and never getting up. All i have 2 look forward 2 these days is when ill next get some draw & go 2 the pub an drink myself stupid and get kicked out for flashing or crying or fighting!!! My ex best friend was admittied to a mental unit afew months back far away from me. But I went to see her i loved her like a little sister. But when I visited her in Ticehurst where she was being detained I saw her for only half an hour and she seemeed fine then I went outside 2 hav a fag. Ten minutes l8r when I went back in to see her again an just do normal stuff like chat an play games etc...I was told I cudnt see her as she had taken an OD they didnt say what but I think it was salt. Only thing she told me she could get 2 hurt herself in there. She didnt die luckily.
Anyway the staff members thought id given her drugs or something but I hadn't I couldent believe this was happening. L8r her mum phoned me and told me 2 stay away from her and even my ill friend Id been 2 see told her mum Id given her the so called *tablets* what a load of bull!!!! I was her bestfriend now i know she was very Ill and deluded an all but I cudnt believe what she was saying. Why woud she say that? Anyway havent seen her 4 ages dont even know where she is or if shes still alive. And I miss her so much its horrible. I cant keep relationships going for long as I am said by doctors to have a *personality disorder* which I wish theyd never told me as im now constantly thinking I stand out and look weird 2 others. I cant leave the house without having a drink as Im scared of what will happen anxious & self-concious. Doctors put me on anti-depressants 2 try an help but have been on them for like over a year now and they havent done fuck. Why cant i be happy? Why cant I live like other people do and forgodsakes stop whining like a hissy bitch. I dont want 2 die but i have no other plan 2 sort myself out as i think iv tried everything there is out there in the way of help.
BUT THEY'RE HELP DOSEN'T HELP ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !