|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Apr 2006||Sokputhychhorvywin||the best way to kill yourself is either to drown yourself or have an over dose. ive tried having an od but it didnt work i just became restless and colapsed.no one ever knew about this only my closest friends. i also tried to drink toxic liquids, i drank a lid full of nail polish remover and it stung like hell and i coughed alot. that day i was angry because my mum was bribing me about my birthday. she said that if i had the party i couldnt go to Cambodia this was around the middle of february. Now we are going to Cambodia on the 14th of May and i want to go sleep over at my closest friends house for the second time ever and she said that if i go sleep over i cant go to Cambodia and she isnt my mother anymore. Although i have waited for this day since the begginning of school so i didnt sleep over at anyone elses house this year and now i cant go sleep over at anyones house ever again just becaused i asked to sleep over at my closest friends house for the first time this year. I have no choice but to go to Cambodia because if i dont i wont have any food until they come back and i will eventually die because they were going for about 6 weeks. Whenever i am going somewhere special like the city or overseasor to a birthday party or a wedding etc. a special occassion and it was a few days away or a day before the occasion she would bribe me. if you do this you cant go to this or if you dont do this you cant go to this so thats y i always try to kill myself at times and at school there is a girl who is my friend but she acts more like a bully and she gets credit that i want from lying and i am behind and dont lie i try my best and i get ahead so she gets the credit and she can like tease me for fun but when i do it she gets pissed off and just isnt your friend for the day and ive told her to stop and if she doesnt ill do something that she cant stop, she stopped doing these things for ONE day and started again the next day.when i talk to her about this stuff in the morning she says "but i didn't do anything to you" and i say im not just talking about now she gets angry says that she only does because i do it to her and i was just wondering how am i strong enough to push her onto the road and when do i tease her. when do i hit her. when do i trash her room, when do i offend her, when do i go up to teachers and tell them how annoying i am and try to sound like her in a squeaky vioce like im so weak and stupid. she gets praised for lying. when there is a test and i study and get one of the lowest marks but when it comes to my friend she doesnt pay attention in class and doesnt study for a test and she gets one of the highest marks. she acts childish and jokes around and annoys everyone and im mature helping people when they need help and trying to get along with everyone but it just seems that everyone likes her more and im happy for her but i dont annoy and poke people and jump around like a 5 yr old and yet they dislike me. i try so hard to fit in but i never do except once this was when i changed and everyone liked me until high school and now i cant change back to the way i was. i only changed so i could fit in and now i dont fit in with anyone im so different from everyone i cant do anything right anymore and when i try it never works because im short and i try to fit in but i never can and everyone looks at me like im a weirdo and deserves to be in the lowest class ever.|
|25 Apr 2006||I AM READY TO DIE...BUT ARE YOU?||I dont know what is the best way. I have my way - tablets - amitriptyline (ELAVIL) an lots of them, but dont know for certain if they will work. have tried seriously once and another 2 times were crys for help. the next time wont be a cry for help, but a real serious try at self destruction. I AM NOT JOKING PEOPLE I CANNOT TAKE IT NOMORE!! I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE I DO, LIKE LIFE HAS JUST GONE BEYOND A JOKE AND LIFE IS NOW JUST SOMETHING TO EITHER ENDURE OR GET RID OFF. I HAVE CHOSEN TO GET RID OF MY LIFE, I WANT NOMORE HOPES AN NOMORE TEARS, NOMORE MUSIC NOMORE FIGHTS NOMORE STRIFF NOMORE WOUNDERING NOMORE BADLUCK NOMORE LET DOWNS AND NOMORE FAILURES AND ALSO NOMORE HEARTACHE AND PRAYING. PRAYING HAS GOT ME NOWHERE. it is all crap.
I DO SERIOUSLY WANT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE THE FEELINGS OF LIFE AND CONCIOUSNESS DISAPPEAR. I WANT IT ALL GONE, I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING THIS - MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SCARED OF WHAT WILL BECOME OF MYSELF ONCE I SWALLOW THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD PILLS. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL REAL DESPAIR LIKE ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.
OK EVERYDAY ISENT THAT HARD I CAN COPE......BUT.........I CANT.......I DONT WANT TO TRY ANYMORE.....I DONT WANT TO PUT UP WITH THIS LIFE SENTENCE NOMORE.........DONT WANT TO STRUGGLE NOMORE....OK I USED TO WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I USED TO WANT TO LIVE BEFORE....ON AND OFF.
BUT I DONT WANT TO NOW. I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE NOW, WE ALL MUST & I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU WANT? TO DIE OR TO LIVE? TO HAVE PAIN OR BE AT PEACE? YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKE PAIN....BUT I DONT...........I HATE PAIN VERY MUCH SO....SO MUCH THAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO OPT OUT OF LIFE AND EXCUSE MYSELF FROM THE FEELING OF PAIN AND ALSO OF PLEASURE........I AM NOT A CHILD NOR AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER I AM JUST TELLING PEOPLE HOW I HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION AND END OF LIFE..........FOR WE WILL ALL COME TO THE END OF OUR LIVES.
AND OK IM ONLY 19 AND MAYBE I AM TO YOUNG TO BE TALKING IN THIS WAY.........BUT......I AM!!! I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WOUNDERING IF LIFE IS WORTH IT.....IS IT WORTH THE STRIFF AND THE PAIN AND THE ARGUMENTS AND ALSO THE PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WOUNDERING............IS IT??? TO ME TAKING MY OWN LIFE IS WORTH IT, BUT TO YOU IT MAY NOT BE. I HAVE MADE MY MIND UP BUT HAVE YOU? ARE YOU CERTAIN YOU REALLY WANT OUT? PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO BE GONE SOON, BUT WHY SHOULD YOU? IM NOT TRYING TO TALK ANYONE OUT OF IT, BUT IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE SLIGHTEST GLIMMER OF HOPE THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU SHOULD HOLD ONTO LIFE.
IF NOT THEN PLEASE JOIN ME IN HELL OR HEAVEN OR NOWHERE ATOL, JUST IN YOUR DREAMS....BUT PLEASE, I BEG YOU BE SURE.....IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE AND HAPPINESS PLEASE GRAB ONTO IT, IF NOT THEN COME WITH ME TO THE PLACES WE DONT KNOW ABOUT AT THE MOMENT, AND REST WITH ME IN ETERNAL PEACE AND ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS (thats if you are not religious, which i am not, i dont believe in any god) BUT IF YOU ARE RELIGIOUS THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD'NT DIE, ITS UP TO YOU THOUGH, I WOULD HATE TO SWAY ANYONE WHICH WAY BUT.....IF YOU TRUELY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE THEN PLEASE GRAB ONTO THIS HAND......GRAB IT AND TAKE THE GREATEST LEAP OF YOUR LIFE AND JUMP AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU WILL SEE ME IN HEAVEN........OR HELL......OR MAYBE YOU WONT SEE ME ATOL BUT IF YOU WANT TO, LETS ESCAPE THIS EMPTY WORLD TOGETHER AND ENTER ANOTHER PLACE, A PLACE WHICH IS PEACEFUL BUT EMPTY ALSO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SCREAM BUT YOU WONT WAKE UP ANOTHER SOUL.
DO YOU ACCEPT MY HAND OR NOT? DO YOU WANT TO END IT OR NOT? MAKE YOUR MIND UP NOW OR LATER. I DO NOT MIND WHICH WAY YOU DECIDE TO GO.................BUT MAYBE YOU SHOULD DECIDE PROPERLY AND IF YOU DECIDE TO COME WITH ME NOW, THEN MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU SOON IN HELL OR HEAVEN...BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN EITHER,,,,,,,,,OR MAYBE I WONT SEE YOU ATOL, MAYBE I WILL HEAR YOUR SCREAMS AND YOUR MIND PONDERING, OR MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU AND SAY HELLO WELCOME TO PEACE? WHICH IS ALL I WANT I JUST WANT PEACE..........DO YOU? OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE PEACE ALIVE? ALL IS UP TO YOU THO. I GUESS I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE.....YOUR CHOICE IS NOW! HOPEFULLY YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT ONE. (MY OWN WORDS AND REALLY HOW I FELT)
|25 Apr 2006||Nolan||Hi.My name is Nolan and I am 25.I have wanted to commit suicide for years.I have tried pills and one day I sat down in my room for an hour with a gun pointing to my head just hoping I could get the courage to pull the trigger.My mom didnt want me nor my dad.When I tried to find love outside of my house I was emotionally destroyed.There are six girls I have became lovesick over in my lifetime that I hoped would give me a reason to live.The 5th one sent me an email last night saying if I didnt leave her alone that she would have the law involved.I had no idea that she was married.The 6th girl works with me but what is the use in going after her? It will be the same old story.Guy likes girl,guy tries to get close to girl,girl has guy fired.Soon I may try the old carbon monoxide trick.I am not sure how painful that is but it would be living after a gunshot.|
|25 Apr 2006||polo||i am 15 ,im in love with a girl who dosent feel the same way ,i dont hav any frends that i can trust ,i suck in school ,my mum an dad dont understand me ,no one knows that i am alive and the guy i hate most is myself ,im depresed all the time i hav insomnia (i cant sleep)and the only thing i think about is ending my misribul life.
bout 20 minits ago i got the guts up to do it. i tryed to hang my self just as i got light headed and started to slip away i could feel my self die it was great but then the knot came loose it was so heartbraking finding my self alive. i couldnt get the guts to try again i cept thinking of my lil sis seeing me hangin i juct couldent do that 2 her. any way i'll try agian after i tell this girl that im in love with her. i your gowing to slit your wrists you cant be afrade of blood and wot ever you do dont tell any one. i tryed that (lots of blood) ond i told my now ex-freind now i get called suicide boy. also a frend told me if you drink lighter fluid youll die it just made me pass out and have a shit taste in my mouth. iv never tryed o.d.in but i might so dont try them
a buv if your goin to hang your self tie a proper nuce plz dont emale me but your well cum to add me on msn
|23 Apr 2006||Danyelle||im 11 and i hate my life its a living hell and i have tried cutting so many times and it dont work if u look at my arms all u will see is scars and cuts.|
|23 Apr 2006||Danyelle parent||u kno wut im only 11 and iv tried so many times 2 kill my slef and if u look at my arms all u will see is sacrs and cuts with stiches and my life sucks so u ppl who r sayin all that stuff fuck off its our life not urs so y would u care|
|23 Apr 2006||Toby||Well, i dunno
Everyday i wake, and feel like shit
i dunt want to talk to anyone bout it
no one would care
they would take it either stupidly and say im a dum twat (again)
or too seriously, and try and stop me, like call sum1, like my parentss,
ohh yer, i dont want them to kno either
im 12 nearly 13, in a few days,
all my so called "friends" have managed to either turn back on me and hate me for who i am, never listen to what i say, my girlfriend is most probably lying to me, and in all, i hate everyone.
if i told any1 about this
then they wuld
i feel it
i wanna go, i hate life,
everyday s the same.
just wish that i culd just, fall asleep one night, and never wake up
FUCK YOU PEOPLE who say that we are all stupid because we feel or are suicidal. like you would kno
besides, at the end of the day, its YOUR life, NOT theirs. and also, They let you to this point. so they cant rele try nd hlp you can they?
i wanna opinion, cuz everythings going wrong, i remember the days when i felt like i had it all, good friends, go home to a loving family, my parents, always with a smile on there faces...
now loook at it, we hav to move away form my dad, my parents dont tlk, my friends leave me...
suicide is my light at the end of the tunnel, i think..
|22 Apr 2006||_xsarahx_||hey, i'm 15, and just like most of you, am depressed big time. i lost everyone around me, all becasue of one person. i had a friend kill himself becasue of his own reason, and knew the world would be better off with-out me. i cut myself all the time, and on multipul times, tried to kill myself but obevesily havent been successful. tonight i am thinking wil be my last night alive, it all going to be over, no more tears, no more bleeding, no more heartache|
|21 Apr 2006||Trace||You know what..we are all not alone because now you know that there are people out there that feel the way you do. No one really likes life, its pointless and there isn't really any reason to go on and continue playing the game of life. One life doesn't make a difference in this world. And so my point is life sucks but hey theres a plus to being depressed and insane....we get good drugs, so just keep on getting free drugs(if you live in canada) and get fucked out of your mind so you can't think about anythng any more. Or take all the pills you can reach and chase it with a bottle of rum, and just hope you don't wake up..and if you do wake up then your just back in the same shit hole you started out in. Good luck I guess, and hope whatever comes after life is a little better. TraycieS@hotmail.com if you need someone to talk to|
|21 Apr 2006||brian||even though i'm only 12 years old..i have thought about suicide cuz my life is miserable. I mean my dad walked out on me when i was barely 1 year old but i have to get over it....no matter how bad shit gets...life is important and you have to live it...even though you might be in a tight struggle like i am...i always thought bout why my dad left and everything but i will never know the reason..i have done so many things even cutting myself but not to deep to where the vain is but it's hard....shit happenes,it's life...deal with is motherfucker...i have to deal with it but without the people that care for me i would commit suicide...dont do it..it's not worth it...apreciate life...you only get one chance to live it out|
|21 Apr 2006||cheyenne||ok so im 13 and i have been trying to kill myself since i was 10 well my parents kinda drink alot and my race isn't exactly what you call perfect well my parents were never abusave i have never been abused but i love some one so much and i had to change schools and now if im lucky ill see him once a month. anyways my parents never did anything to me but i always felt as if they always blame me. well sometimes i am very depressed and some times i feel too too happy but only when im with my friend telly.well i have attempted and failed 50 times and im only 13.well i tried to drown myself 10 times, hanging 3 times, i've cut myself 17 times 10 on wrist 7 on leg, 5 times pulling out my hair, 4 times o.d., 2 times beating myself, 10 times suffocating myself, and 1 time trying to give myself pneumonia by running out in the snow. and also im bulimic. well i do have my own suicide kit but so far it SUX well i haven't thought about suicide for an hour so hey thats a start. SUICIDE IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME SANE. i want to doit but then i think about my friends well most of them. chantel, chalissa,and the rest of you its not your fault if you get a phone call|
|20 Apr 2006||Sarah||I'm 13 years old. I'm really confused about suicide.I've been cutting myself for a long time. I just got out the mental hospital. I reaaly want all the pain to stop and I want to die but, I don't at the same time. Mostly I don't want to go to hell. I don't think that people who commit suicide should go to hell though. I mean they killed themselves to escape the pain and now God wants to give them even more by sending them to hell? Does the pain ever end? Yea the world is pretty fucked up. I wish i could start everything over again. I hate being a horrible person. I wish I had a gun... If anybody needs to talk my email is : firstname.lastname@example.org|
|19 Apr 2006||hannah||i dnt know wat the best way is thats wat i want to know i hate my life nd would much rather be dead than live another day of my life ive tried to kill myself lots of times attenmted to jump overdose ive slit my wrists b4 and evrytime im ill i hope that it will bcomin serious so i die! i need help but dnt know who to turn to ! im 12 nd dnt see my self even livin to 13 nd my birthdays 4 days away|
|18 Apr 2006||shykid97||I am a 13 year old girl and my life is horrible. Some of my classmates treat me horribly. This one boy says that everyone hates me and that I should go back to England.He also talks about my family ,knocks things off my desk,and make me so upset that i will start crying. I have already broken down crying 4 times this year in class.He sometimes makes me wish i was dead.But then there are the other kids that make fun of me and trip me in the hallway comeing back from lunch.But I never tell the teachers what some of my class mates do to me.But now I am starting to belive that my classmates really do hate me and want me dead If its this bad for me in middle school then I dont want to go to go to high school.I would rather die than put up with the same stuff in high school.|
|17 Apr 2006||J.Twaits||alright im 17. and thought about it for lets say around 10-12 years firstly i started thinkin bout it because both my parents were shit my mom is a depressive person that makes me do everrything since i was able to reach the cooker, my dad went to prison and when he came out told me i was nothing a piece of shit this was when i was about 6-7 i think i didnt even know the word suicide then but i wanted it to end by the time i was 10 i had attempted suicide twice but failed as you can see 1 by pills the other by hanging but my brother found me cos it didnt snap my neck i was jus getting strangled. by the age of 14 i felt good i had a gf that i loved and cherished and spent every hour with her that i could until one day i was walking her home ended getting mugged on the way by some gang (i think) but they wanted more than just money they started to rape her in front of my eyes. i loved her so much i tried my dambdest to stop them i eventually broke free got the bastard off her and told her to run and she did. afer about a hundered yards she got on the road and gott mauled by a bus. i thought it was all my fault because i got her to stay out longer than she wanted just so i didnt have to go home. then came my next few suicied escapades i tried many times to find the bastards that raped her but never did so i saw it a fitting end to die the same way my love did so every chance i had i ran infront a car bus bike anything to end it but i never did all i got were broken bones puntured lungs loss of kidney. by the time i was 15 i hadnt told anyone bout my life i was dead inside everyone thought i was fine (mainly becaue i was in a different city now so no one knew me really) i was able to pretend i was fine. i put a face on. i never tried becoming someone popular because it would just be harder to look fine. eventually i broke down in class an my loves anniversary. so i ended up having to tell my best of friends now only 3 people truely know what shadows lurk in my past. and when i was almost 17 i got raped i was humiliated some women who i didnt even know got her mates to hold me down tie me up undress me and then all 7 of them fucked me but no they werent done with that they pissed on me afterwoods this no one know except u guys i mean im a man getting raped by women i felt like shit. so i started to cut myself trying to find out if i could feel anything anymore i never showed them to people but when i had to get changed and people saw all the cuts and scars i jus said i got into fights i dont think they believe me i think they think im seeking attention but im not i asked for help off my 3 best friends but not one of them did anything so i dont bother asking anymore and now after finding out the course in college im doing all my work has "dissapeared" and a deadline of hmm 9 hours my future has ended because its impossible to do it all by then. so right know i was seaching for a painful but effective way of killing myself. i have often saut after "The Anarchists Cook Book" just so i can blow up everything and one that has screwed up my life (my fucking god i sound as if the world revolves around me fuck it i dont care because they screwed up many other peoples life too) anyway. eventualy i got round to dating again but i never felt the same i used sex and women to seek comfort but i never could feel happy and now i feel as if sex is just like having a beer. to this day i have tried getting into fights that will kill me but i havnt lost i run infront of cars but it doesnt work i try to get STD's but im clean i try drugs but am always brought to hospital by sum bystander. and now every woman i try to get to know and try to feel some emotion with just decides to hurt me they tell me they love me but i find them either sleeping with someone else or saying "i dont think this is going to work out"
i have no idea why im typing this and you know what i dont care the few ppl that know of this 2 dont believe me and still to this day my "father" still thinks im a piece of shit my "mother" still makes me do everything just because i live under her roof and i am alone.
you know what i dotn care about my discretion and if you know my last name you'll know my first name and my email so im gonna put both down cos i dont give a shit bout it
|17 Apr 2006||no mouchette im not telling YOU my name||Life can be great at times you feel bad now but who knows whats waiting for you around the corner all your problems that you are having now might change and go away dont make a rash decision that you wont ever be able to take back and change once your dead your dead thats it!!! you cant come back as someone else and have another go at it make the most of what you have got, stand tall, be your own person and dont let others stop you from achieving what you know deep down that you can. Life is worth living you and you can be happy start today by making you life change for the better theres so much more then what you see in your life now the world is a huge place dont waste what you have the chance now to discover and enjoy your time here is precious make it count and dont waste your life worrying about the future to much or what other people think of you etc etc your life is just starting dont be a fool and throw it all away. You dont want to end up in 10 years time still feeling like this and still wanting to end your life constantly in a tug of war with you own brain should i do it should i end it all now and stop the pain? or should i try and should i help myself and should i strive to live how i know i can. And make a go of it make the best of it show people dispite whatever your problems are that you are a fighter and you can hold your head high and say to yourself yes im finding it hard i dont have all the answers but i am surviving every minute every hour every day i am still here alive and fighting and not just giving up and admitting defeat and giving into self pity.|
|17 Apr 2006||april||i am 13 years old and ever since my mom got out of prison from drug (meth)i have hated my life the only thing that make me want to stay is my other mom i call her and my other dad i call him(christy & joe) they are my life if it wasn't for them i would have already been gone yea i use ti think what kind of idiot would kill themself now i know a idiot like me i think so hard about it yea i think aventually i will i am going to try to overdose first then on well if you want to talk and i am still alive hit me ^......... hope you lkive through your experiance :-)'|
|15 Apr 2006||christina||i read threw this all & ive seen everyones problems..but mainly ages.. i see people in this thing who are 12 and say they want to die..some even 10.. i was 11 when i started having suicidal thoughts. everyone,the school,my family,my friends,my doctors they all promised me i'd get better..and happy.. i'm now 14 ..3 years later i'm still in pain. i've tried to be happy..ive went to consuling ive went to physchologists on regular basis's but nothing seems to help. i'm on tons of strong medicine & still nothing..|
|13 Apr 2006||Meh||hey tbh i dont know the best way to kill your self, but i fucking try any way i can fine there is really no reason for me to go on living whats the reason if you have no friends, not one girl would give me a second look and no gcse's cause you where to stupid to do any of them right. i would tell you about my up bringin but whats the point you most proberly heard it befor my dad die when i was 4 from takeing dugs, i was meesed up since then and had to go to this place and talk to some fags about how good life is when they dont know how it feels, how it is to have no friends and get the shit kicked out of you ever time you go out even if it was just up the fucking road, the best way i think thats working for me is to take drugs it's gotta kill me sooner then later if im lucky. i try to talk to my mum but whast the point any more if she is just gonna say "your just being silly" and when you fuck up even in the easys of jobs|
|13 Apr 2006||Lost fairy||There is never a best way to kill yourself, at 13 I am probably depressed, I haven't sought help and I have self harmed, I think of suicide a lot. I come from a good family, i go to a good school, we have enough money, i have great friends, and do well at school. None of it makes any difference, it's an illness, without emotion just hollowness. I'd like to leave some message of hope, so I will tell you, it's not your fault. Maybe I will go away to wherever you go, but everyone has to leave something behind, what would you leave behind, if you killed yourself now? When your depressed suicide is like euthanasia of the mind.|