|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|29 Apr 2006||something wrong with me||I'm a failure at life. I am incapable of making a serious relationship last, I lose more friends than I keep, I'm fat and stupid and ugly to boot. I look around and I don't see any reason to stay alive. My death would not affect anyone, no one's life would be ruined, and since I do nothing as it is, no one would notice my passing. Everything I have tried to do to improve my life has failed. I'm sick and tired of being alone and of not having anything I can believe in. Nothing in my life, not even religion has been able to be there and never fail me. I have one oneline friend, but if I ever opened up tot her I'd be called a drama queen and get shunned. All I want is an end to the pain and something I can look on and be proud of, and it be worthy of others' admiration. I just want the same life those around me have. What is so wrong with me that I can't even accomplish the same things in life as anyone else? I feel like I'm running out of time to make my life anything worth while. I don't even know what I would do now since I've failed at everything else I've tried to do. Even when I find a group to fit in with, I never fit in enough. I always am wrong in some way. My entire life has been spent on the outside looking in, and I don't know how to be needed or to belong. I see no reason to continue living...|
|27 Apr 2006||Sa rah||I wish i knew....i almost have the perfect live...my mom's a doctor my dad is a stay at home...and i seem perfetly happy..in fact most times i am perfectly happy...but i cant control my emotions i cant deal with pain...and i feel like sometimes i hate my parents and no matter how good they are to me im still mean to them...i wish i could just slice my wrist but i dont think i could take it and pills just seem like the wrong way to go...i loose everything..but yet i am still spoiled... no one even suspects me to do a thing like t his but whenever i sit down and think i hate where i am...but i cant tell my parents..cause they will think im just exagerating...im scared of what killing myself would do to other people and how i know that this is only thw easy way out of my problems...i wish i just new what to do or how i should control my emotions|
|27 Apr 2006||Gemma||I am fifteen and have been suffering from depression & self-esteem issues for years now. I've missed so much of my life already over this shit. Crying, contemplating suicide, and just being plain fucking selfish and feeling sorry for myself. Talking to my parents get me nowhere because they think that I am totally full of shit and need to "suck it up" and get on with life. These days I try really hard to get up out of bed and go on with life despite the feeling of not wanting to.
All I need is someone to talk to. Someone who can make me see some hope in this miserable fucking world. I try asking help from my parents, but they don't take me seriously. I don't have friends that I can trust, and I have never been one to go share my personal problems with guidance counsellors.
I just pray every night that I will get over this and will start to feel better about myself and get over this trivial shit. I am so sick of wasting my time and my life crying over it all and feeling like there is no hope. I don't know how to do it. I don't know who to go to to give me guidance on how to carry on.
|27 Apr 2006||vicky lavery||hey my names vicky lavery and i'm 17 years old. i've had a really hard tiem the past few months and i can't help think that suicide is the only way out. i've cut myself before and i've tried to overdose with paracetamol and having alcohol aswell. but it doesn't work. it's really hard trying to put on a face at school so that everyone thinks you're ok so that i don't have to explain why i feel the way i do. i had a steady boyfriedn for two years and 3 months and i loved him sooo much i still do. i found texts on his phone not long ago from a girl called honor and i didnt know what to do at first.he denied it and i went on like always and forgave him anyway.then two years down the line he dumped me for her and i felt like my whole world had fallen in. he was my world. i've never loved or cared about anyone as much. not event ill this day. but he chooses to ignore me and go on hating me when all i ever did was care about him.hes the one who makes me feel like i wanna die hes teh biggest reason and i just can't find the best way to do it.to end it all!! i've tried everything.i still love him.but now he doesn't know i exist! anyone got an ideas on how to end it all for me???
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|26 Apr 2006||hannah||hi its hannah again i'd just like to say i made it to my 13th birthday but recently i have been havin panic attacks about scholl and personal reasons i used to think the only way out of things was to commit suicide but i can promise everyone who felt like me there is a happeir way that will let youl ive your life how you want it i'm not sayin that there wont be little troubles on the way but i think you should all give it a try and see if it's changd the way you think even just a little. as i said recently i have been havin several panic attakc when evrythin seems to hit me all my troubles and worries are thrown at me all at once. my mum realised that i had , had a panic atak at school and got in touch with the school and arranged for me to be taken out of some classes within reson may i add and if every wednesday for the next few years if i could see the edjucational physicoligist and also she aranged for me to get my own physicoligist up at the hospital. this means i can discuss my worries and cry and scream and tell someone who will keep all my secrets all i want wihtout worrying about her/him telling anybody else its there job to help people like us who don't see a positive way top life i have realised that i need help quick because as every day goes by my life just seems to get more stressfull and harder i am suffering from hair loss which we have been told it's probably alapeshia but i have an opointment up at the hospital on the 16th of may! I;m finaly getting things sorted and i'm feeling a bit better hopefully soon i will get most of my confidence back and be the girl i used to be bright and bubble hyper hannah :)|
|26 Apr 2006||Paige||ive tried to kill myself 2ce. and im 17 years old. my parents are divorved, my sisters hate me, my boyfriend scares me sometimes, and i hate everything. ive given up on all hope. ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years and seriously hass been a long 2 years. all we do is fight. i sit up till 5am every night. i cant sleep i havnt eaten in a week.. im slowly killing myself. ive taken pills and ended up in the hospital bcuz i said goodbye to the wrong person who called an ambulance to my house. i just wanna say goodbye to everyone. and i hope that everyone thinks 2ce before killing themselves. depression is hard to go through . and dont take anti-depressants. they fuck with ur head.. so goodbye everyone.. good bye life. i hate myself and i cant wait to be gone.|
|25 Apr 2006||Sokputhychhorvywin||the best way to kill yourself is either to drown yourself or have an over dose. ive tried having an od but it didnt work i just became restless and colapsed.no one ever knew about this only my closest friends. i also tried to drink toxic liquids, i drank a lid full of nail polish remover and it stung like hell and i coughed alot. that day i was angry because my mum was bribing me about my birthday. she said that if i had the party i couldnt go to Cambodia this was around the middle of february. Now we are going to Cambodia on the 14th of May and i want to go sleep over at my closest friends house for the second time ever and she said that if i go sleep over i cant go to Cambodia and she isnt my mother anymore. Although i have waited for this day since the begginning of school so i didnt sleep over at anyone elses house this year and now i cant go sleep over at anyones house ever again just becaused i asked to sleep over at my closest friends house for the first time this year. I have no choice but to go to Cambodia because if i dont i wont have any food until they come back and i will eventually die because they were going for about 6 weeks. Whenever i am going somewhere special like the city or overseasor to a birthday party or a wedding etc. a special occassion and it was a few days away or a day before the occasion she would bribe me. if you do this you cant go to this or if you dont do this you cant go to this so thats y i always try to kill myself at times and at school there is a girl who is my friend but she acts more like a bully and she gets credit that i want from lying and i am behind and dont lie i try my best and i get ahead so she gets the credit and she can like tease me for fun but when i do it she gets pissed off and just isnt your friend for the day and ive told her to stop and if she doesnt ill do something that she cant stop, she stopped doing these things for ONE day and started again the next day.when i talk to her about this stuff in the morning she says "but i didn't do anything to you" and i say im not just talking about now she gets angry says that she only does because i do it to her and i was just wondering how am i strong enough to push her onto the road and when do i tease her. when do i hit her. when do i trash her room, when do i offend her, when do i go up to teachers and tell them how annoying i am and try to sound like her in a squeaky vioce like im so weak and stupid. she gets praised for lying. when there is a test and i study and get one of the lowest marks but when it comes to my friend she doesnt pay attention in class and doesnt study for a test and she gets one of the highest marks. she acts childish and jokes around and annoys everyone and im mature helping people when they need help and trying to get along with everyone but it just seems that everyone likes her more and im happy for her but i dont annoy and poke people and jump around like a 5 yr old and yet they dislike me. i try so hard to fit in but i never do except once this was when i changed and everyone liked me until high school and now i cant change back to the way i was. i only changed so i could fit in and now i dont fit in with anyone im so different from everyone i cant do anything right anymore and when i try it never works because im short and i try to fit in but i never can and everyone looks at me like im a weirdo and deserves to be in the lowest class ever.|
|25 Apr 2006||I AM READY TO DIE...BUT ARE YOU?||I dont know what is the best way. I have my way - tablets - amitriptyline (ELAVIL) an lots of them, but dont know for certain if they will work. have tried seriously once and another 2 times were crys for help. the next time wont be a cry for help, but a real serious try at self destruction. I AM NOT JOKING PEOPLE I CANNOT TAKE IT NOMORE!! I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE I DO, LIKE LIFE HAS JUST GONE BEYOND A JOKE AND LIFE IS NOW JUST SOMETHING TO EITHER ENDURE OR GET RID OFF. I HAVE CHOSEN TO GET RID OF MY LIFE, I WANT NOMORE HOPES AN NOMORE TEARS, NOMORE MUSIC NOMORE FIGHTS NOMORE STRIFF NOMORE WOUNDERING NOMORE BADLUCK NOMORE LET DOWNS AND NOMORE FAILURES AND ALSO NOMORE HEARTACHE AND PRAYING. PRAYING HAS GOT ME NOWHERE. it is all crap.
I DO SERIOUSLY WANT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE THE FEELINGS OF LIFE AND CONCIOUSNESS DISAPPEAR. I WANT IT ALL GONE, I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING THIS - MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SCARED OF WHAT WILL BECOME OF MYSELF ONCE I SWALLOW THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD PILLS. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL REAL DESPAIR LIKE ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.
OK EVERYDAY ISENT THAT HARD I CAN COPE......BUT.........I CANT.......I DONT WANT TO TRY ANYMORE.....I DONT WANT TO PUT UP WITH THIS LIFE SENTENCE NOMORE.........DONT WANT TO STRUGGLE NOMORE....OK I USED TO WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I USED TO WANT TO LIVE BEFORE....ON AND OFF.
BUT I DONT WANT TO NOW. I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE NOW, WE ALL MUST & I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU WANT? TO DIE OR TO LIVE? TO HAVE PAIN OR BE AT PEACE? YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKE PAIN....BUT I DONT...........I HATE PAIN VERY MUCH SO....SO MUCH THAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO OPT OUT OF LIFE AND EXCUSE MYSELF FROM THE FEELING OF PAIN AND ALSO OF PLEASURE........I AM NOT A CHILD NOR AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER I AM JUST TELLING PEOPLE HOW I HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION AND END OF LIFE..........FOR WE WILL ALL COME TO THE END OF OUR LIVES.
AND OK IM ONLY 19 AND MAYBE I AM TO YOUNG TO BE TALKING IN THIS WAY.........BUT......I AM!!! I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WOUNDERING IF LIFE IS WORTH IT.....IS IT WORTH THE STRIFF AND THE PAIN AND THE ARGUMENTS AND ALSO THE PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WOUNDERING............IS IT??? TO ME TAKING MY OWN LIFE IS WORTH IT, BUT TO YOU IT MAY NOT BE. I HAVE MADE MY MIND UP BUT HAVE YOU? ARE YOU CERTAIN YOU REALLY WANT OUT? PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO BE GONE SOON, BUT WHY SHOULD YOU? IM NOT TRYING TO TALK ANYONE OUT OF IT, BUT IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE SLIGHTEST GLIMMER OF HOPE THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU SHOULD HOLD ONTO LIFE.
IF NOT THEN PLEASE JOIN ME IN HELL OR HEAVEN OR NOWHERE ATOL, JUST IN YOUR DREAMS....BUT PLEASE, I BEG YOU BE SURE.....IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE AND HAPPINESS PLEASE GRAB ONTO IT, IF NOT THEN COME WITH ME TO THE PLACES WE DONT KNOW ABOUT AT THE MOMENT, AND REST WITH ME IN ETERNAL PEACE AND ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS (thats if you are not religious, which i am not, i dont believe in any god) BUT IF YOU ARE RELIGIOUS THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD'NT DIE, ITS UP TO YOU THOUGH, I WOULD HATE TO SWAY ANYONE WHICH WAY BUT.....IF YOU TRUELY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE THEN PLEASE GRAB ONTO THIS HAND......GRAB IT AND TAKE THE GREATEST LEAP OF YOUR LIFE AND JUMP AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU WILL SEE ME IN HEAVEN........OR HELL......OR MAYBE YOU WONT SEE ME ATOL BUT IF YOU WANT TO, LETS ESCAPE THIS EMPTY WORLD TOGETHER AND ENTER ANOTHER PLACE, A PLACE WHICH IS PEACEFUL BUT EMPTY ALSO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SCREAM BUT YOU WONT WAKE UP ANOTHER SOUL.
DO YOU ACCEPT MY HAND OR NOT? DO YOU WANT TO END IT OR NOT? MAKE YOUR MIND UP NOW OR LATER. I DO NOT MIND WHICH WAY YOU DECIDE TO GO.................BUT MAYBE YOU SHOULD DECIDE PROPERLY AND IF YOU DECIDE TO COME WITH ME NOW, THEN MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU SOON IN HELL OR HEAVEN...BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN EITHER,,,,,,,,,OR MAYBE I WONT SEE YOU ATOL, MAYBE I WILL HEAR YOUR SCREAMS AND YOUR MIND PONDERING, OR MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU AND SAY HELLO WELCOME TO PEACE? WHICH IS ALL I WANT I JUST WANT PEACE..........DO YOU? OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE PEACE ALIVE? ALL IS UP TO YOU THO. I GUESS I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE.....YOUR CHOICE IS NOW! HOPEFULLY YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT ONE. (MY OWN WORDS AND REALLY HOW I FELT)
|25 Apr 2006||Nolan||Hi.My name is Nolan and I am 25.I have wanted to commit suicide for years.I have tried pills and one day I sat down in my room for an hour with a gun pointing to my head just hoping I could get the courage to pull the trigger.My mom didnt want me nor my dad.When I tried to find love outside of my house I was emotionally destroyed.There are six girls I have became lovesick over in my lifetime that I hoped would give me a reason to live.The 5th one sent me an email last night saying if I didnt leave her alone that she would have the law involved.I had no idea that she was married.The 6th girl works with me but what is the use in going after her? It will be the same old story.Guy likes girl,guy tries to get close to girl,girl has guy fired.Soon I may try the old carbon monoxide trick.I am not sure how painful that is but it would be living after a gunshot.|
|25 Apr 2006||polo||i am 15 ,im in love with a girl who dosent feel the same way ,i dont hav any frends that i can trust ,i suck in school ,my mum an dad dont understand me ,no one knows that i am alive and the guy i hate most is myself ,im depresed all the time i hav insomnia (i cant sleep)and the only thing i think about is ending my misribul life.
bout 20 minits ago i got the guts up to do it. i tryed to hang my self just as i got light headed and started to slip away i could feel my self die it was great but then the knot came loose it was so heartbraking finding my self alive. i couldnt get the guts to try again i cept thinking of my lil sis seeing me hangin i juct couldent do that 2 her. any way i'll try agian after i tell this girl that im in love with her. i your gowing to slit your wrists you cant be afrade of blood and wot ever you do dont tell any one. i tryed that (lots of blood) ond i told my now ex-freind now i get called suicide boy. also a frend told me if you drink lighter fluid youll die it just made me pass out and have a shit taste in my mouth. iv never tryed o.d.in but i might so dont try them
a buv if your goin to hang your self tie a proper nuce plz dont emale me but your well cum to add me on msn
|23 Apr 2006||Danyelle||im 11 and i hate my life its a living hell and i have tried cutting so many times and it dont work if u look at my arms all u will see is scars and cuts.|
|23 Apr 2006||Danyelle parent||u kno wut im only 11 and iv tried so many times 2 kill my slef and if u look at my arms all u will see is sacrs and cuts with stiches and my life sucks so u ppl who r sayin all that stuff fuck off its our life not urs so y would u care|
|23 Apr 2006||Toby||Well, i dunno
Everyday i wake, and feel like shit
i dunt want to talk to anyone bout it
no one would care
they would take it either stupidly and say im a dum twat (again)
or too seriously, and try and stop me, like call sum1, like my parentss,
ohh yer, i dont want them to kno either
im 12 nearly 13, in a few days,
all my so called "friends" have managed to either turn back on me and hate me for who i am, never listen to what i say, my girlfriend is most probably lying to me, and in all, i hate everyone.
if i told any1 about this
then they wuld
i feel it
i wanna go, i hate life,
everyday s the same.
just wish that i culd just, fall asleep one night, and never wake up
FUCK YOU PEOPLE who say that we are all stupid because we feel or are suicidal. like you would kno
besides, at the end of the day, its YOUR life, NOT theirs. and also, They let you to this point. so they cant rele try nd hlp you can they?
i wanna opinion, cuz everythings going wrong, i remember the days when i felt like i had it all, good friends, go home to a loving family, my parents, always with a smile on there faces...
now loook at it, we hav to move away form my dad, my parents dont tlk, my friends leave me...
suicide is my light at the end of the tunnel, i think..
|22 Apr 2006||_xsarahx_||hey, i'm 15, and just like most of you, am depressed big time. i lost everyone around me, all becasue of one person. i had a friend kill himself becasue of his own reason, and knew the world would be better off with-out me. i cut myself all the time, and on multipul times, tried to kill myself but obevesily havent been successful. tonight i am thinking wil be my last night alive, it all going to be over, no more tears, no more bleeding, no more heartache|
|21 Apr 2006||Trace||You know what..we are all not alone because now you know that there are people out there that feel the way you do. No one really likes life, its pointless and there isn't really any reason to go on and continue playing the game of life. One life doesn't make a difference in this world. And so my point is life sucks but hey theres a plus to being depressed and insane....we get good drugs, so just keep on getting free drugs(if you live in canada) and get fucked out of your mind so you can't think about anythng any more. Or take all the pills you can reach and chase it with a bottle of rum, and just hope you don't wake up..and if you do wake up then your just back in the same shit hole you started out in. Good luck I guess, and hope whatever comes after life is a little better. TraycieS@hotmail.com if you need someone to talk to|
|21 Apr 2006||brian||even though i'm only 12 years old..i have thought about suicide cuz my life is miserable. I mean my dad walked out on me when i was barely 1 year old but i have to get over it....no matter how bad shit gets...life is important and you have to live it...even though you might be in a tight struggle like i am...i always thought bout why my dad left and everything but i will never know the reason..i have done so many things even cutting myself but not to deep to where the vain is but it's hard....shit happenes,it's life...deal with is motherfucker...i have to deal with it but without the people that care for me i would commit suicide...dont do it..it's not worth it...apreciate life...you only get one chance to live it out|
|21 Apr 2006||cheyenne||ok so im 13 and i have been trying to kill myself since i was 10 well my parents kinda drink alot and my race isn't exactly what you call perfect well my parents were never abusave i have never been abused but i love some one so much and i had to change schools and now if im lucky ill see him once a month. anyways my parents never did anything to me but i always felt as if they always blame me. well sometimes i am very depressed and some times i feel too too happy but only when im with my friend telly.well i have attempted and failed 50 times and im only 13.well i tried to drown myself 10 times, hanging 3 times, i've cut myself 17 times 10 on wrist 7 on leg, 5 times pulling out my hair, 4 times o.d., 2 times beating myself, 10 times suffocating myself, and 1 time trying to give myself pneumonia by running out in the snow. and also im bulimic. well i do have my own suicide kit but so far it SUX well i haven't thought about suicide for an hour so hey thats a start. SUICIDE IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME SANE. i want to doit but then i think about my friends well most of them. chantel, chalissa,and the rest of you its not your fault if you get a phone call|
|20 Apr 2006||Sarah||I'm 13 years old. I'm really confused about suicide.I've been cutting myself for a long time. I just got out the mental hospital. I reaaly want all the pain to stop and I want to die but, I don't at the same time. Mostly I don't want to go to hell. I don't think that people who commit suicide should go to hell though. I mean they killed themselves to escape the pain and now God wants to give them even more by sending them to hell? Does the pain ever end? Yea the world is pretty fucked up. I wish i could start everything over again. I hate being a horrible person. I wish I had a gun... If anybody needs to talk my email is : firstname.lastname@example.org|
|19 Apr 2006||hannah||i dnt know wat the best way is thats wat i want to know i hate my life nd would much rather be dead than live another day of my life ive tried to kill myself lots of times attenmted to jump overdose ive slit my wrists b4 and evrytime im ill i hope that it will bcomin serious so i die! i need help but dnt know who to turn to ! im 12 nd dnt see my self even livin to 13 nd my birthdays 4 days away|
|18 Apr 2006||shykid97||I am a 13 year old girl and my life is horrible. Some of my classmates treat me horribly. This one boy says that everyone hates me and that I should go back to England.He also talks about my family ,knocks things off my desk,and make me so upset that i will start crying. I have already broken down crying 4 times this year in class.He sometimes makes me wish i was dead.But then there are the other kids that make fun of me and trip me in the hallway comeing back from lunch.But I never tell the teachers what some of my class mates do to me.But now I am starting to belive that my classmates really do hate me and want me dead If its this bad for me in middle school then I dont want to go to go to high school.I would rather die than put up with the same stuff in high school.|