|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|04 May 2006||hejebas||hey- im 12 years old and soon turning 13 in a couple of days. i've tryed once before to kill myself but failed. im addicted to hycodan tablets and get sick all the time from it. yesterday i was rushed to the hospital and had like 100 tests. i was there for 12 hours and found out i have a low heart rate. now i have to go back tomorrow for more tests! my mom and dad are seperated and have been for only about 2 years. i left with my dad when he got kicked out and we had no money. we lived in his truck for about a day then spent quite a while in a dirty motel. finally when my dad some money we moved into an okay house. it was douxplex and a young dirty couple that never cleaned lived in our basement. one day i ate his cheese cake out of the fridge after school and he kicked me out. thats wen i moved back with my mom. by then i was a pretty anger kid. i would swere and hit my mom. i smashed two fans and theres a ton of holes in my wall. pretty soon i was hanging around the wrong croud. a bunch of high school kids that did tons of crack. i never did any weed but i did get addicted to hycodan[cough syrup/tablets] i tryed to cut myself one night wen my mom kicked me out onto the street. [she used to be really abusive] she used to hit me all the time and once she even threw me into a christmas tree wen i was 7 or 8. well i have to go now. bye|
|04 May 2006||Ro||I just cant do it, I want to so much, but I need something easier, I need something i know is painless, like just falling asleep and never wakening, i want to die, someone help me|
|03 May 2006||Horror||If you've read my stuff before. My life is screwed. But, I just wanna say..sorry for the most part...and give a bit of advice..to..some people.
Fist person I wanna say sorry for, is all the foster families out there, who tryed to help me, but couldn't because they either died, was killed, or could simply not understand me and my fucked up ways.
And I want to say sorry for my boyfriend. I know I was stupid for cutting myself, thinking that for punishment, but it wasn't. I love you, and me being suicidal, and killing myself, isn't going to help our furture at all.
And to my mom. I'm sorry for murdering you...but it was either that...or getting raped, and killed myself. I'm so sorry.
And for my dad. That fucked up crazy, addicted to drugs, fag. Sorry that you got hit by a car three days ago. May your body burn in hell.
And I'm sorry about what I did to you, Michael...but it was either shoot you in the leg, or me. I shot us both. But at least you died five days afterwards.
It seems...unfair, that we hurt people's lives by being suicidal, cutting, bruising, or whatever the hell me and you do. And yet...look at what they did to us.
I for one, have to go to this fucking physco warp, and guess what? Everyone is fine...everyone doesn't have to have the fucked up rubber room. You wanna know something? That rubber room is mine! I stay in there, they give me food, I don't eat. I don't care. They can kiss my ass! All they do, is give me a knife(which I'm thankful for), let me tear up my arm, then three ARMED police officers go in, take me to the next room, stick my arm through a hole in the wall, and hold on to it as tight as they can. Guess what's on the other side of that wall? A guy. I guy with rubber gloves on, flicking your bruises, your cuts, your gashes. He makes the pain get worse and worse. To tell you the truth, I don't even know if I have an arm! But guess what? I'm happy. Happy, that I don't have to hurt myself, when they can do it for me! I've lost...tons of weight...tons! Who cares? Not my foster parents. they said I needed it. I AM 12! I AM STILL GROWING! You don't just...water a person, and watch them grow! they have to have food. Once, they tryed shoving a tube down my throat, when I was in the rubber room. I was in a corner, biting my arm, chewing on it, hoping something food wise would come out of it. Some guy walked in, with a one of those police sticks, and tryed to shove a tube down my throat! How fucked up is that?! And when I stood up, and put both hands over my mouth, he took the stick, pushed me to the ground, and started hitting my back with it! Then, they tied me up to a chair, called me the Physco girl, and four counslers where talking to me, asking me questions, listening, then doing it all over again! When I wouldn't speak, you wanna know what they did? DO YOU?!
I'll tell you what they did...they took, my one...and only sister...that had stayed alive for all these years, and starting beating her with that fucked up police stick thing. What did I do? I talked. I told them everything. I told them my ideas for death, my ideas about everything. then, when I was finally allowed to go home, they told my parents not to believe anything I said, also, they told my foster parents, that we were Self-injurying, that's why we were all bruised up. If you've read my other life story. Add this son of a bitch too it. I have...a..screwed up life.
(I love you, Mouchette, your so cool!)
|03 May 2006||Manda2009||Hi im 15 and ive been want to kill myself for the past 6 years. i dont understand why doctors put us in hospitals to get help i mean if we want to die just let us! i mean they would save soooo much money if they didn't have all those hospitals and therapists and such!|
|02 May 2006||kali angel of death||I'm 15 & @ the moment i h8 myself. I have a gr8 life! A beautiful mother, a wonderful Brother, an amazing Father and a funny step dad. I've never been beaten, raped or been cruely treated. So y? God i feel so selfish writing this, i feel so fucking UGH! I jst want 2 end it all. I've never had a b/f wot dus tht say about me? Thats not normal is it? I'm so lonely. All my friends r there & my families always there 2 talk but yet i feel so terrible. I'm short, skinny & bulemic. & i supposse a n attention seeker. I don't wonna b but i can't help it. I think i need help. Anyway wot i was gonna say was even tho i contemplate suicide, i cud never do it. I now no that ther is sum1 who wants 2 b wiv me & i shud liv 4 ME. I do h8 myself but i can get over my depression jst plz DON'T kill urself. I cry 4 the people who have been through hell & i hepe they can rebuild there lives.
|30 Apr 2006||Felicity||does anyone know what its like to feel numb, like you cant cry, you cant be happy, and if you look it, its only someything fake for everyone else to see?
whenever i cry, its when im alone. when i really cry, the pain is still a dull numbness, and it just gets worse cos i get enveloped in this cycle and i still cut deeper everynite. and i still cry, and one day it will totally consume and destroy my life
|30 Apr 2006||Ro||Well, Ive been to this site twice now, and it makes me even more sad, which i seem to enjoy, Ive thought about commiting suicide when i was about 12, I thought about running in front of cars all the time, I even wrote a suicide note, i always do.
The reason for suicidal thoughts, I was and still am over weight, I am now 16 and weigh almost 110 kg. I remember seeing photos of when i was a little kid, i was skinny, likee every one else. I always here how there are like 50% over weight ppl, i know 3 ppl in my grade of 160 that are fat like me, 4!! I use to get teased everyday, still do, everyday id be afraid to go to skl, my mum used to get beaten by my dad, then he found jesus and my mum got ok, shes always been depressed, shes an alcho i think, and I know her depression is bascially all my fault, she works like 5 jobs and she is 50, she cleans for a living, I know that if i leave, it would make her life easier, she is never around anymore, always at her new bf, she doesnt need me, my sisters i know dont like me, theyd rather a brother whos kool and popular, who girls would actually like to kiss, I am stupid aswell, which makes thigns worse, almost all of my "frends" have teased me, bullied me, ganged up on me, i used to get called pork crackle by everyone, teachers looked at me like a freak, still do, i cant escape looking like this, i have nothing, i know there are ppl worse off, but i dont see whats the point in living, why??? my dad teases me, he doesnt live with me and my mum tho, my mum once sed to me "youve got bigger tits than me" imagine hearing that from ur mum, i went to my room quietly and cried, eveer since then i thought maybe i didnt hear it, maybe i made it up, i wish i was skinny and cool like ppl i know, i wish girls looked at me like they do ppl i know, ive tried about 5 times to commi suicide, im too pussy to actually do it tho, so i smoke weed, which seems to help, well makes me feel good, i felt like talking here, coz i like to talk about it, but not to anyone i actually know, bye bye
|30 Apr 2006||Felicity||FUCK life is SO FUNNY!!
the other night i was HAVING AN "EPISODE" with Tony over the phone right, and then i tell the bastard im bleeding and then he hangs up. (i wouldnt think no less cos he is a faggot) then he breaks into my house (cos it was like midnite and dad was out) he tried to talk to me but acted like i was a total freak, BUT when he went to hug me i slashed his arm by accident
FUCK i had no idea it was that bad, and i totally regret it. but as much as i do regret it, i felt like sayin told you so, cos when i get like that i DONT WANT HELP. i am in that state becos of ME and i hate the help, cos it demeans me
so be warned, cos sum of us tend to sLASH OUT XxX luv flick!! ^-^
you can mssg me if u want, but still "meh" ill die one day!!
|30 Apr 2006||just call me snoopy||hi im one of the young ones who wnt 2 kill my self im only 13 the date 2day is april 30, 2006 my b-day is on may 2 so few days left im turning 14,,i wanted 2 commit sucide because of problems like selfishness my mom wont let me go bck 2 my country for just 1 yr she said u can go back but for only 1 month but i said how about my sisters my cousin my dad
. im so lonely here in london all my friends are al useless i can even talk 2 them about my problems and im telling u i h8 london i wnt 2 go bck 2 my country because its just me and my mom who lives 2gether the rest of my family in philippines and im just so sick of w8ting for almost a year before i can see them im just tired of everything,, an also one of my problems is my school,, my school is surrounded of 9yr old people even though theyre 13 yr old people keep on hurting my feelings and im just so fed up w/ it and my mom keep on saying dnt say ting slike that sh even said that its a good oppurtunity that im here in london because loads of people in my country desprately wnt 2 go here in london but they cant cause some of them dont have enough money but my poins is im just tired of everything makes me feel suicidle
|29 Apr 2006||something wrong with me||I'm a failure at life. I am incapable of making a serious relationship last, I lose more friends than I keep, I'm fat and stupid and ugly to boot. I look around and I don't see any reason to stay alive. My death would not affect anyone, no one's life would be ruined, and since I do nothing as it is, no one would notice my passing. Everything I have tried to do to improve my life has failed. I'm sick and tired of being alone and of not having anything I can believe in. Nothing in my life, not even religion has been able to be there and never fail me. I have one oneline friend, but if I ever opened up tot her I'd be called a drama queen and get shunned. All I want is an end to the pain and something I can look on and be proud of, and it be worthy of others' admiration. I just want the same life those around me have. What is so wrong with me that I can't even accomplish the same things in life as anyone else? I feel like I'm running out of time to make my life anything worth while. I don't even know what I would do now since I've failed at everything else I've tried to do. Even when I find a group to fit in with, I never fit in enough. I always am wrong in some way. My entire life has been spent on the outside looking in, and I don't know how to be needed or to belong. I see no reason to continue living...|
|27 Apr 2006||Sa rah||I wish i knew....i almost have the perfect live...my mom's a doctor my dad is a stay at home...and i seem perfetly happy..in fact most times i am perfectly happy...but i cant control my emotions i cant deal with pain...and i feel like sometimes i hate my parents and no matter how good they are to me im still mean to them...i wish i could just slice my wrist but i dont think i could take it and pills just seem like the wrong way to go...i loose everything..but yet i am still spoiled... no one even suspects me to do a thing like t his but whenever i sit down and think i hate where i am...but i cant tell my parents..cause they will think im just exagerating...im scared of what killing myself would do to other people and how i know that this is only thw easy way out of my problems...i wish i just new what to do or how i should control my emotions|
|27 Apr 2006||Gemma||I am fifteen and have been suffering from depression & self-esteem issues for years now. I've missed so much of my life already over this shit. Crying, contemplating suicide, and just being plain fucking selfish and feeling sorry for myself. Talking to my parents get me nowhere because they think that I am totally full of shit and need to "suck it up" and get on with life. These days I try really hard to get up out of bed and go on with life despite the feeling of not wanting to.
All I need is someone to talk to. Someone who can make me see some hope in this miserable fucking world. I try asking help from my parents, but they don't take me seriously. I don't have friends that I can trust, and I have never been one to go share my personal problems with guidance counsellors.
I just pray every night that I will get over this and will start to feel better about myself and get over this trivial shit. I am so sick of wasting my time and my life crying over it all and feeling like there is no hope. I don't know how to do it. I don't know who to go to to give me guidance on how to carry on.
|27 Apr 2006||vicky lavery||hey my names vicky lavery and i'm 17 years old. i've had a really hard tiem the past few months and i can't help think that suicide is the only way out. i've cut myself before and i've tried to overdose with paracetamol and having alcohol aswell. but it doesn't work. it's really hard trying to put on a face at school so that everyone thinks you're ok so that i don't have to explain why i feel the way i do. i had a steady boyfriedn for two years and 3 months and i loved him sooo much i still do. i found texts on his phone not long ago from a girl called honor and i didnt know what to do at first.he denied it and i went on like always and forgave him anyway.then two years down the line he dumped me for her and i felt like my whole world had fallen in. he was my world. i've never loved or cared about anyone as much. not event ill this day. but he chooses to ignore me and go on hating me when all i ever did was care about him.hes the one who makes me feel like i wanna die hes teh biggest reason and i just can't find the best way to do it.to end it all!! i've tried everything.i still love him.but now he doesn't know i exist! anyone got an ideas on how to end it all for me???
feel free to e-mail me aswell...
|26 Apr 2006||hannah||hi its hannah again i'd just like to say i made it to my 13th birthday but recently i have been havin panic attacks about scholl and personal reasons i used to think the only way out of things was to commit suicide but i can promise everyone who felt like me there is a happeir way that will let youl ive your life how you want it i'm not sayin that there wont be little troubles on the way but i think you should all give it a try and see if it's changd the way you think even just a little. as i said recently i have been havin several panic attakc when evrythin seems to hit me all my troubles and worries are thrown at me all at once. my mum realised that i had , had a panic atak at school and got in touch with the school and arranged for me to be taken out of some classes within reson may i add and if every wednesday for the next few years if i could see the edjucational physicoligist and also she aranged for me to get my own physicoligist up at the hospital. this means i can discuss my worries and cry and scream and tell someone who will keep all my secrets all i want wihtout worrying about her/him telling anybody else its there job to help people like us who don't see a positive way top life i have realised that i need help quick because as every day goes by my life just seems to get more stressfull and harder i am suffering from hair loss which we have been told it's probably alapeshia but i have an opointment up at the hospital on the 16th of may! I;m finaly getting things sorted and i'm feeling a bit better hopefully soon i will get most of my confidence back and be the girl i used to be bright and bubble hyper hannah :)|
|26 Apr 2006||Paige||ive tried to kill myself 2ce. and im 17 years old. my parents are divorved, my sisters hate me, my boyfriend scares me sometimes, and i hate everything. ive given up on all hope. ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years and seriously hass been a long 2 years. all we do is fight. i sit up till 5am every night. i cant sleep i havnt eaten in a week.. im slowly killing myself. ive taken pills and ended up in the hospital bcuz i said goodbye to the wrong person who called an ambulance to my house. i just wanna say goodbye to everyone. and i hope that everyone thinks 2ce before killing themselves. depression is hard to go through . and dont take anti-depressants. they fuck with ur head.. so goodbye everyone.. good bye life. i hate myself and i cant wait to be gone.|
|25 Apr 2006||Sokputhychhorvywin||the best way to kill yourself is either to drown yourself or have an over dose. ive tried having an od but it didnt work i just became restless and colapsed.no one ever knew about this only my closest friends. i also tried to drink toxic liquids, i drank a lid full of nail polish remover and it stung like hell and i coughed alot. that day i was angry because my mum was bribing me about my birthday. she said that if i had the party i couldnt go to Cambodia this was around the middle of february. Now we are going to Cambodia on the 14th of May and i want to go sleep over at my closest friends house for the second time ever and she said that if i go sleep over i cant go to Cambodia and she isnt my mother anymore. Although i have waited for this day since the begginning of school so i didnt sleep over at anyone elses house this year and now i cant go sleep over at anyones house ever again just becaused i asked to sleep over at my closest friends house for the first time this year. I have no choice but to go to Cambodia because if i dont i wont have any food until they come back and i will eventually die because they were going for about 6 weeks. Whenever i am going somewhere special like the city or overseasor to a birthday party or a wedding etc. a special occassion and it was a few days away or a day before the occasion she would bribe me. if you do this you cant go to this or if you dont do this you cant go to this so thats y i always try to kill myself at times and at school there is a girl who is my friend but she acts more like a bully and she gets credit that i want from lying and i am behind and dont lie i try my best and i get ahead so she gets the credit and she can like tease me for fun but when i do it she gets pissed off and just isnt your friend for the day and ive told her to stop and if she doesnt ill do something that she cant stop, she stopped doing these things for ONE day and started again the next day.when i talk to her about this stuff in the morning she says "but i didn't do anything to you" and i say im not just talking about now she gets angry says that she only does because i do it to her and i was just wondering how am i strong enough to push her onto the road and when do i tease her. when do i hit her. when do i trash her room, when do i offend her, when do i go up to teachers and tell them how annoying i am and try to sound like her in a squeaky vioce like im so weak and stupid. she gets praised for lying. when there is a test and i study and get one of the lowest marks but when it comes to my friend she doesnt pay attention in class and doesnt study for a test and she gets one of the highest marks. she acts childish and jokes around and annoys everyone and im mature helping people when they need help and trying to get along with everyone but it just seems that everyone likes her more and im happy for her but i dont annoy and poke people and jump around like a 5 yr old and yet they dislike me. i try so hard to fit in but i never do except once this was when i changed and everyone liked me until high school and now i cant change back to the way i was. i only changed so i could fit in and now i dont fit in with anyone im so different from everyone i cant do anything right anymore and when i try it never works because im short and i try to fit in but i never can and everyone looks at me like im a weirdo and deserves to be in the lowest class ever.|
|25 Apr 2006||I AM READY TO DIE...BUT ARE YOU?||I dont know what is the best way. I have my way - tablets - amitriptyline (ELAVIL) an lots of them, but dont know for certain if they will work. have tried seriously once and another 2 times were crys for help. the next time wont be a cry for help, but a real serious try at self destruction. I AM NOT JOKING PEOPLE I CANNOT TAKE IT NOMORE!! I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE I DO, LIKE LIFE HAS JUST GONE BEYOND A JOKE AND LIFE IS NOW JUST SOMETHING TO EITHER ENDURE OR GET RID OFF. I HAVE CHOSEN TO GET RID OF MY LIFE, I WANT NOMORE HOPES AN NOMORE TEARS, NOMORE MUSIC NOMORE FIGHTS NOMORE STRIFF NOMORE WOUNDERING NOMORE BADLUCK NOMORE LET DOWNS AND NOMORE FAILURES AND ALSO NOMORE HEARTACHE AND PRAYING. PRAYING HAS GOT ME NOWHERE. it is all crap.
I DO SERIOUSLY WANT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE THE FEELINGS OF LIFE AND CONCIOUSNESS DISAPPEAR. I WANT IT ALL GONE, I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING THIS - MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SCARED OF WHAT WILL BECOME OF MYSELF ONCE I SWALLOW THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD PILLS. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL REAL DESPAIR LIKE ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.
OK EVERYDAY ISENT THAT HARD I CAN COPE......BUT.........I CANT.......I DONT WANT TO TRY ANYMORE.....I DONT WANT TO PUT UP WITH THIS LIFE SENTENCE NOMORE.........DONT WANT TO STRUGGLE NOMORE....OK I USED TO WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I USED TO WANT TO LIVE BEFORE....ON AND OFF.
BUT I DONT WANT TO NOW. I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE NOW, WE ALL MUST & I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU WANT? TO DIE OR TO LIVE? TO HAVE PAIN OR BE AT PEACE? YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKE PAIN....BUT I DONT...........I HATE PAIN VERY MUCH SO....SO MUCH THAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO OPT OUT OF LIFE AND EXCUSE MYSELF FROM THE FEELING OF PAIN AND ALSO OF PLEASURE........I AM NOT A CHILD NOR AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER I AM JUST TELLING PEOPLE HOW I HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION AND END OF LIFE..........FOR WE WILL ALL COME TO THE END OF OUR LIVES.
AND OK IM ONLY 19 AND MAYBE I AM TO YOUNG TO BE TALKING IN THIS WAY.........BUT......I AM!!! I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WOUNDERING IF LIFE IS WORTH IT.....IS IT WORTH THE STRIFF AND THE PAIN AND THE ARGUMENTS AND ALSO THE PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WOUNDERING............IS IT??? TO ME TAKING MY OWN LIFE IS WORTH IT, BUT TO YOU IT MAY NOT BE. I HAVE MADE MY MIND UP BUT HAVE YOU? ARE YOU CERTAIN YOU REALLY WANT OUT? PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO BE GONE SOON, BUT WHY SHOULD YOU? IM NOT TRYING TO TALK ANYONE OUT OF IT, BUT IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE SLIGHTEST GLIMMER OF HOPE THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU SHOULD HOLD ONTO LIFE.
IF NOT THEN PLEASE JOIN ME IN HELL OR HEAVEN OR NOWHERE ATOL, JUST IN YOUR DREAMS....BUT PLEASE, I BEG YOU BE SURE.....IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE AND HAPPINESS PLEASE GRAB ONTO IT, IF NOT THEN COME WITH ME TO THE PLACES WE DONT KNOW ABOUT AT THE MOMENT, AND REST WITH ME IN ETERNAL PEACE AND ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS (thats if you are not religious, which i am not, i dont believe in any god) BUT IF YOU ARE RELIGIOUS THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD'NT DIE, ITS UP TO YOU THOUGH, I WOULD HATE TO SWAY ANYONE WHICH WAY BUT.....IF YOU TRUELY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE THEN PLEASE GRAB ONTO THIS HAND......GRAB IT AND TAKE THE GREATEST LEAP OF YOUR LIFE AND JUMP AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU WILL SEE ME IN HEAVEN........OR HELL......OR MAYBE YOU WONT SEE ME ATOL BUT IF YOU WANT TO, LETS ESCAPE THIS EMPTY WORLD TOGETHER AND ENTER ANOTHER PLACE, A PLACE WHICH IS PEACEFUL BUT EMPTY ALSO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SCREAM BUT YOU WONT WAKE UP ANOTHER SOUL.
DO YOU ACCEPT MY HAND OR NOT? DO YOU WANT TO END IT OR NOT? MAKE YOUR MIND UP NOW OR LATER. I DO NOT MIND WHICH WAY YOU DECIDE TO GO.................BUT MAYBE YOU SHOULD DECIDE PROPERLY AND IF YOU DECIDE TO COME WITH ME NOW, THEN MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU SOON IN HELL OR HEAVEN...BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN EITHER,,,,,,,,,OR MAYBE I WONT SEE YOU ATOL, MAYBE I WILL HEAR YOUR SCREAMS AND YOUR MIND PONDERING, OR MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU AND SAY HELLO WELCOME TO PEACE? WHICH IS ALL I WANT I JUST WANT PEACE..........DO YOU? OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE PEACE ALIVE? ALL IS UP TO YOU THO. I GUESS I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE.....YOUR CHOICE IS NOW! HOPEFULLY YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT ONE. (MY OWN WORDS AND REALLY HOW I FELT)
|25 Apr 2006||Nolan||Hi.My name is Nolan and I am 25.I have wanted to commit suicide for years.I have tried pills and one day I sat down in my room for an hour with a gun pointing to my head just hoping I could get the courage to pull the trigger.My mom didnt want me nor my dad.When I tried to find love outside of my house I was emotionally destroyed.There are six girls I have became lovesick over in my lifetime that I hoped would give me a reason to live.The 5th one sent me an email last night saying if I didnt leave her alone that she would have the law involved.I had no idea that she was married.The 6th girl works with me but what is the use in going after her? It will be the same old story.Guy likes girl,guy tries to get close to girl,girl has guy fired.Soon I may try the old carbon monoxide trick.I am not sure how painful that is but it would be living after a gunshot.|
|25 Apr 2006||polo||i am 15 ,im in love with a girl who dosent feel the same way ,i dont hav any frends that i can trust ,i suck in school ,my mum an dad dont understand me ,no one knows that i am alive and the guy i hate most is myself ,im depresed all the time i hav insomnia (i cant sleep)and the only thing i think about is ending my misribul life.
bout 20 minits ago i got the guts up to do it. i tryed to hang my self just as i got light headed and started to slip away i could feel my self die it was great but then the knot came loose it was so heartbraking finding my self alive. i couldnt get the guts to try again i cept thinking of my lil sis seeing me hangin i juct couldent do that 2 her. any way i'll try agian after i tell this girl that im in love with her. i your gowing to slit your wrists you cant be afrade of blood and wot ever you do dont tell any one. i tryed that (lots of blood) ond i told my now ex-freind now i get called suicide boy. also a frend told me if you drink lighter fluid youll die it just made me pass out and have a shit taste in my mouth. iv never tryed o.d.in but i might so dont try them
a buv if your goin to hang your self tie a proper nuce plz dont emale me but your well cum to add me on msn
|23 Apr 2006||Danyelle||im 11 and i hate my life its a living hell and i have tried cutting so many times and it dont work if u look at my arms all u will see is scars and cuts.|