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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|11 Jul 2006||Polly||I have been visiting this site for over a year and this is the first time I am writing here. My life has been a mess since the day I was born. My parents dont care about me. Or I live with my mother but my father is still alive it is just that he dont give a shit about me and my brother. Sometimes he meets us and the only thig he does is buying some gifts. Like that is gonna make us love him. My mother have had a hard time since my father dont care and just talk a lot of bullshit about here. By the time I got 12 my mom started to beat me at home. Everyday. I got beaten when I was younger but that was like once a week. Times when I gpt to the hospital I had to lie all the time. I really hate to lie but I am use to it since my life is a lie. Well the thing is I still have very good grades and everybody in school thinks I am happy and so on. My mother is very strict and she is decides everything. What I should wear and so on. I am not either aloud to have a boyfriend and I am turnin 16 soon. For a long time I have been takin some "anti deppressiv" pills. But I quit a month ago. My mother always complaines about me. She is sick seriously. I remember my prom night where I got a rose from a guy. The minute I got home she wanted to know who he was and everything and when he saw he's picture she was like "he is so ugly" well, what do u care. First u dont allow me what to do and so on... gosh I cant take it anymore. I have to lie too all my friends and therefore I've lost all my friends. Everybody has their lifes.
About a week ago I went to the doctor. I got some very weird marks on my body so I went to see if there were something wrong. As I was there she told me that my skin had started to burst. She told me this was a "spirituall" thing. She asked If I had problems and I said "no". Then a professional doctor came in and said that this was seious. If I didnt dealt with my problems (dunno why he said that) I could get some kinda dangerous skin disaese. My mother doesnt no I dont want her to know either. I dont know what to do. I have been praying a lot of times about help for commiting suicide. I know how stupid it sounds. No, after all praying I am not sure If I want to die. Is life worth living??? if there is somebody feeling the same or somethin send a e-mail on HaappySuicide@hotmail.com
|10 Jul 2006||Kirsten||u kno there are those ppl that come on this website adn al they do is bitch about the stories posted...sayin shit like ur fuckin dumb...and stuff....well they need to shut the fuck up.....ppl dont jus come on here to write about their lives..they come to read about others lives....they come to see how much better their life is than some ppls....it gives them self confidence and sumtimes helps them.....well since im here ill tell about my life....
heres how the story goes....
there have bin countless times where i have bin abused...mentaly physically sexually emotionally.....
yea.....the whole deal.....ill b 15 in 10 days and for those 15 yrs ivebin alive im abused still....not sexually anymore.....thank god....
the sexual abuse started wen i was 4......by my babysitter...then it lasted from age 7-9......and wen it finally got around to my mom.....all she sed was...how come u dint tell me....she dint bother to comfort me or anythin.....
now these days i find myself bein with a guy....not bcuz i like them...but only to have him for a lil while.....i have never had a long term realtionship....and i get that regret after doin sumthin with a guy....i have bin sexually active since i was 12.......and i find myself doin w/e to plz the guy and i hate myself for it.....
i live with mom and see my dad every other weekend.....so im torn btween 2 places...
my mom is many of the reasons i am the way i am.....
but yea...i think everyone balmes everything on everyone else every now an then....uggh....
i jus feel like ripping my heart outa my chest.......hoping that that wud stop all the pain i feel inside....but who knos......but i guess thats all i can write right now....so ill continue later.......
|08 Jul 2006||nameless||i just wanted to say that i read most of the stories and things people have to say about suicide and ive been very suicidal for a while now and if i had access to anything at all that i knew for a factwould work i know i would do it in a heartbeat and everyone thats out there saying that suicide isnt the answer and that we shold try to rise above everyone else and find someone who cares man thats all nothing but bull man what if there isnt anyone that cares what if your life just totally sucks and reading all these stories just make you even more suicidal and depressed thinking of those people im not one to give advice and im not looking for anyone to email me or anything im just saying my friend gave me the link to this website and told me to read them and to tell you what i really dont care i still want to die every day it gets worse and worse and its all i can think about and theres nothing that can stop them i cut my wrists all the time just to watxh myself bleed the scars are so bad on my wrist and my arms that i go no where without a jacket and i keep going because theres nothing in life better that infinite ending and total darkness bliss and thats what i want and right now i dont have a high place to jump off of and i dont have access to a gun or anything i could really use to kill myself so until i do i hurt mself as much as i can and keep looking to the perfect way to get me out of this stupid world with all the stupid people that i cant stand people always trying to say if you need to talk im here or i know how you feel but the truth is no one knows how someone else feels not exactly and some people just need to get it out of their systems that the world is nothing but a bunch of happy friendly people and start realizing how much life sucks|
|08 Jul 2006||Emily||cutting your self isnt suicdial...its a pain reducer. It actually releases natural self depressants. Hence why you want it more and more; So if you are doing it to get attention stop it, cause you have no fucking clue the pain one can feel and the only way to realease the pain is from cutting cause all yopur attempts hagve failed|
|08 Jul 2006||Jemma||Ok...I ain't here to say to u all..oh no dont kill yourself...by all means go right ahead...but no1 on this site is serious..because people who are depressed dont like to talk about it...they dont go on about how much they want to kill themselves...ther out ther actually doing it...so just all wake up to yourselves and realise that you dont even have problems...try being raped when your 7...then almost stabbed to death by your own mother than come back and tell me how depressed you are...
|04 Jul 2006||Stupid||Well my boyfriend that I was with for two years and 6 months just left me for a friench slutty bitch. I hate this, no one understands my hole life iv had to deal with my mom telling me im nothing and only to have one person in the world that made me feel like something up and leaves me out of no ware. WTF should i do. The only thing that helps the emotional pain is cutting myself and drinking constantly. Im so fucking stupid. I want to fucking kill myself but i tryed takeing pills and slitting my rist but there my mom was everytime to stop me and tell me ONCE AGAIN how retarded and stupid and worthless i was. Keeping me alive seems to be her way of sick torture i hate it.|
|01 Jul 2006||cook||please let me knwo if I get someone to adopt me or I will kill mysel.my step mother beats me up everyday
please do help
|01 Jul 2006||paul||please tell me why i should not kill myself.I have been in pains for more than 22years.Dad and mom abandoned me when I was 2.I have been living in the streets for too long.
recently someone gave me accomodation.BUt he is asking me to sleep with him.I do not want to be gay.I hate it.it stinks.He is the one giving me access to the internet.i want to run away but to where?
live is sad for me.I feel i should die.will heavens be sad if U kill myself?
|28 Jun 2006||paul||i am a boy and have suffering from advances from a man who offerd to give me accomodation because my parents have died.i do not want to become gay.but i do not have where to run to
i feel like dying.after all we are meanrt to die
there is no hope for me.life is pain
|25 Jun 2006||Rene||I really dont know what am I living for... I have been choosing and walking the wrong path. Nothing seems to be right for me.I left college when I could actually graduate in less than 6 mths time. Then I went to work and I found out that work life sux.Everything in this world sux. I hate my life. I hate myself 4 being so fat, ugly and worthless. I hate to be tease by ppl and hate the feeling of being plump. I eat when ever I am sad and no1 can help me.
|22 Jun 2006||Sydney||When i was 7,my fucked up dad killed my mother rite in front of my eyes,it was fucking dreadful to see my mother covered it blood.He stabbed her with a knife 10 times in the heart.Before i knew it she was dead.den he fucking came up to me and said i was next.i screamed and ran up to my room but he broke the fucking door down and stabbed me at the stomach.He thought i was dead but i only passed out.i woke up bleeding and lying beside my dead mother.By then he was alredi gone.I called 911 and told them everything.i was very scared at that time,i was shaking and in pain.But i heard my dad coming inside the house so i slammed the phone down and hid in the kitchen cabinet.By then,the police came and took my dad away,he was sent behind bars after that.I was brought to the hospital to get bandaged and checked up.After that incident,i stayed with my grandmother.She treats me reali fucking cruely everytime.She molest me every day at night in my room. i dindn't noe wad to do.i'm lost without my mother.And i think tonite is my last nite alive.my late grandpa has a gun and i think i might use it to kill myself ny tonite.soon i'll be wit my mother. Gudbye cruel world.|
|22 Jun 2006||just-do-it||I'm 13 years old and i have been trying to kill myself since i was 12. I haven't been able to follow through with it but i have tried i cut my wrist and i tried to drown myself but my mom caught me. And people out there who think they can help go fuck yourself cuz u can't no matter how hard u try we have obviously made up our minds we want to die so there for just leave us alone y should u care cuz no one else does so just leave us alone... the only reason i found this site is cuz i was trying to find tips on how to kill myself and well i think i
ve found some so bye.
|05 Jun 2006||KEZO||i think that if you get blamed for EVERYTHING then you should turn to suicide, nothing will ever get better. I had had the blame for everything for roughly 14 years. My M other practicly wishes i'd never been born as i have "wreaked" her life and would rather talk to my father than me, this means i get pushed aside even though my mother gets treated like shit by him. My Mother brain washes my family into thinking that i have ruined her life and that she is lonely, but in realitly she is just a depressed old woman who always feels sorry for herself and has been for the last 40 odd years, this has ultimatly want to make me move out but as i'm only 15 i cant i dont think i could live much longer in an environment where i'm obviously not wanted. My sister says i cant move in with her as she is working a lot and basicaly has no time for me. Mt Brother and my granparents just side with my mother as, like i sed i get the blame for everything!
i have great friends but they never want to hang out after school plus one friend is getting a job soon and also spend alot of time with her father, my other friend has now got a boyfriend and has no time for friends anymore. my ONLY other option is to Kill my self as i wish my mother had never given birth to me although she makes it feel like it was my fault. I just really feel like there is nothing left for me to live for aside from my little cousins, which will hopefully forget me after i kill myself....
|04 Jun 2006||Soon-To-Die||Go in your cabnet with all medicane find good medicine.. Drink it with alchihol and see what happens. Im going to try that later tonight.|
|04 Jun 2006||Jessica||Life seems so hard for me now. My father doesn't accept my calls, my mother is so busy with her new boyfriend she forgets about me, and everyone else just uses me. I wanna die so bad to just end this pain and torment. I've tried to turn to God but it seems like he is no where to here me. I've tried killing myself twice and each time it doesn't work I feel even more depressed. I hide my depression from everyone because I don't want them to try to talk to me about it. They just don't understand what I'm going through. I've never loved myself...I've only hated myself for the 16 1/2 years I've been on this earth. I don't know what else to do but to jump off somewhere really high and end it that way because the pills don't work. I don't feel like I have a reason to live anymore because I don't have a purpose in life. I hate myself and I want it all to end.|
|03 Jun 2006||a person||well, im 19 years old. i've been very suicidal as of lately. i had a bf who was just such an asshole to me. he couldn't go a day without insultin me or treatin me like shit. previous to meeting him, i had gotten very depressed, and i tried overdosing, cuttin my wrists, not eating and so forth, nothing worked. now becuz i've done all those things, im practically malnorished. (ihope i spelled that right) atleast i feel like i am. it has really taken a toll on me. i've lost soo much weight. i weigh about 80 lbs now. my self esteem is wayyy below sea level. my parents dont talk to me. im not very social. i try to be though. im just not a people's person. no one takes the time to get to know me. i truly just feel like a loner. as if i don't even belong on this planet. everything is just soo wrong in my life. no one knows how empty i feel inside. these past couple of days tho, i've been more suicidal than ever becuz i've been considering hanging myself and im actually not afraid as i used to be when i thought of suicidal stuff. i wish i had sum1 there for me to make it better. but i dont. im just a loner. im gonna die that way too. i hope that my family dont worry too much when im gone th0.|
|01 Jun 2006||cassie adams - australia||i am 14 & 9 months on the 3rd.
besides that point.
ever since yr 7 i started getting teased because i did not have frends from primary school that went to the same highschool as myself. i did have nice caring friends who turned out to be backstabbing and untrustworthy friends. DONT TRUST ANY1 UNLESS ITS FAMILY!!!
i started slitting my wrists around mid 2004 but my friends told a teacher which was a good thing! he told me that if i didnt stop.. he would tell my parents. i stopped.. then couple of weeks later.. i was stressed so much i started it again. then i stopped. the rest of the yeah was blah blah bitchyness. then year 8 came. i was fine but occasionally depressed or stressed i cut my wrist. but not often. ALOT of bitchyness happened because of a good/bad friend jessica. by the end of the year... things were terrible. i did however say goodbye to jess as she left the country. on those holidays (the xmas holidays just passed) i had the worst holiday ever. i started slitting my wrists.. and even overdosing on panadol and ibuprofen for no reason.. then i started to get headaches and feeling dizzy (also the periods didnt help) and i ran out of the packet so i stopped. i felt better not overdosing on painkillers. i didnt really stp with the wrist slitting though. i started to use razors from the shaver i had once.. instead of scissors. they just sliced thru it.. but if i pressed on it a fair bit.. it would of deffinitly torn it open deeper. i wasnt into drinking much.. but when my parents were away i would take some of theirs like jim beam straight. in yr 7 i wuld say i wuld kill myself.. i guess i wanted attention. but yr 8 i was better. on the hollidays.. as i was saying i did end up taking a knife to my room and sat on the floor and cried... i couldnt do it. not to my family no way!. so i didnt. (i remember b4 my cousins wedding, dad got drunk and yelled at me because a peice of paper wasnt positioned right in the printer?! and that was my problem, not his so i rang mum at work because i had a skitzo fit. she came home quickly and then i showed her my scars on my wrist <left>)
since the start of this year... i became more of a bitch and i dont let anything bother me. withing the last 2 weeks i have been depressed and i cried in my class for no reason.. i realised only yesterday why i was depressed.. because of my dad.. he yells at me for no reason.
any way.. i slit my wrist today.. but i havnt since dec-jan maybe feb? i am quite suprised that i am still suicidal. my frend wanted to slit her wrist... and she asked me wat to use.. i gave her some ideas and she did it.. she wanted help.. i wasnt going to say no... i gave her what she wanted.. i dont like it when people try to help me... because it is my choice.. and i figure out things on my own... but if u ever do have trouble... and want advice.. because it seems i give great advice but it doesnt help myself... if u ever need help contact me firstname.lastname@example.org or if u just want to chat about stuff.. im free
cass <3 xoxo
the question is "what is the best way to kill urself when ur under 13?"
well.. bullet to the brain.. hanging.. knife in the chest.. hot bath and then slit ur wrists up ur arm reeli deep... overdose on metho.. overdose on heavy drugs... alchahol overdose... it is however impossible to drown urself unless u concrete ur feet to the bottom of a pool... um..jump off a cliff.. off a bridge.. stand in the middle of a freeway...jump infront of a bus/truck... jump into heavy machinery that chops u up... i dunno wat else...
i did think about killing myself quite seriously
|31 May 2006||Chantelle||Seriously, I am under 13. I'm actually 12 turning 13 in October. I've already tried to kill myself 3 times. The first time, i was 9 years old i think. My mother grabbed me by the neck trying to pull me inside of a burning house,a nd was choking me. I ran outside and jumped in front of an 18-wheeler, but a cop that showed up pulled me out of the way. The second time, I was 11 and a half. I was talking on the phone with my mother, since I moved away, and she was talking about bringing my dad to couart because he was threatening her. She is bi-polar, and she lies her teeth out. So I didn't beelive her. my dad got onto the other line on the phone and listened the whole time. What a good father he is, right? ( not) and When my mom started talking about things he didnt like, he kept hitting the phone buttons so i couldnt hear her. I ran away than night and my dads girlfriend finally went out looking for me at 3:00 AM and found me. She dug her finger nails into my rist so I couldnt move, and i had a knife with me. More cops showed up, and so did an ambulance. The third time, I sat in a burning house, laughing histaricly while rescuers tried to rescue me. I've still thought about suicide, but I can never suceed. You don't know what you will miss, if you're dead.|
|31 May 2006||nikki||I tried killing myself about 1 month ago. I still want to die and I was going to try and kill myself Friday but I diddn't. I also cut and do other things to hurt myself. How can I stop feeling this way?|
|31 May 2006||plz understand||u no the pple who say that its all stupid, u no suicide and everything? well for them it is. some pple cant manage it and some pple can. we're all different. i've been thro it twice. i've tried slitting my rist, crossing the road on purpose in front of a truck, and both times i failed. so dont start judging pple if they think or mention suicide. sometimes it cant be helped. by the way, im 12.|