|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|15 Jul 2006||doctorevil007||I've been investigating ways to kill myself for sometime and it's a bitch. I was maimed by a black gang on Christmas Day in 1999 when I went out for a walk. I am a white male and I was mugged by three black males. One came up to me and pretended to know me. As I turned to leave he tackled me from behind and two of his buddies grinded my face into the pavement with their feet while they demanded money so they could go buy some crack. I gave them $20. Another black punk across the street who watched it happen followed me into a restaurant where I went to get help and he snuck up behind me and broke my jaw just for kicks. I have had three surgeries on my face and I can't eat, talk, or breathe properly anymore. I am in constant pain every second of my life. I have a pain specialist but no medication works. I want a quick painless death. I'm thinking of putting my neck on a train track. It sounds gruesome but actually it is the most humane way to die as consciousness is lost instantly.|
|15 Jul 2006||anonymous||I am 14 years old. i tried to commit suicide a year ago. i got my moms car keys and went in the garage. i started the car and waited. i was found passed out. my mom rushed me strait to the hospital. and you want to know the funniest part. i still want to commit suicide. i have nothing to live for. my mom died 2 months ago. my dad left when he found out about me. my brother blamed me for my mom dying. he killed himself exactly 15 days after my mom died. i have to stay with my uncle now. hes a jerk. hes never here though so it doesn't matter. i want someone to give me one good reason why i should live. just one. i have been cutting my self. i also have been in a deep depression since i was 10. my uncle said that he is gonna get rid of me because i cost to much money. he told me that i can go live on the street for all he cares. i am not happy and i don't think that i ever will be. so i am open to suggestions. i don't want to go through with it yet but if i don't get some help i will.|
|15 Jul 2006||Dead More Than Three Times||Hey Guyz, i know u r all upset and been abused in all wayz or mayb just cuz of ur parentz. But life is bound to get better and although i came here to see how i can kill myself, i realised that ppl out there r feeling worse than me and that life WILL definately get better for u sooner or later. i actually wanted to die, came so close to death but gave up cuz i didn't have the gutz. i dream about how peaceful it would be.... and the sorrow of the ppl i leave behind... and the happiness i'll feel when i'm there, but all those ppl who make u so angry into killing urself, they'll get something coming for them when they die.... and trust me.... u can laugh at there funeral.... and if u hate them so BLOODY much... u might as well dance on their coffin. So GUYZ, just relax, don't kill urself yet, and, plz just take it easy untill the ppl that hurtz u DIE!! don't be sad... but be happy at the fact that they r gonna go to help.... i'd be glad to help anyone who needs it so if u do need my help... email me at.... firstname.lastname@example.org my hopez r with u.... believe in urself.... trust in ur heart.... Farewell....|
|14 Jul 2006||kirsten BBB||uggh......
im fuckin fed up rite now.......im sick of this fuckin bull shit its fuckin over.....
if i had a fuckin gun.....id fuckin shoot myself....my life is so gay i cant stand it......i hate ppl feeling srry for me....cuz it makes me seem so pathetic and i hate it.......i dnt feel srry for other ppl.....so yea.....get over that/....i have realized that i am compltetly lost in this wrold and have no clue which way to turn or who to ask for help......i hate it wen ppl ask how r u and u ay not so good and there like wats wrng.......and ur like o nuthin....and then they keep fuckin botherin ya......obviously i dont want to talk about it or else i would have said something....
i dot like to talk about my life to ppl.....i have...adn only to the pne person in my life that i love dearly and trust....Karla.......god how i miss her......my life has been even more fucked up ever since i moved....
so yea.......but hey wat am i gonna do about it.....after all im only a kid u cud say.....but then again kids make a difference........
i am suicidal but i figure the only way i will kill myself is with a gun....yea i cut...so wat....i do it for control....and i like to watch it bleed.....it amuses me.......i like ro control my pain...jus tlike i like to control my eating.......yea.......i wouldnt say im anorexic.......but i kinda am.....im still fuckin fat.....but since about 4 months ago i lost like 40lbs frm not eating....so yea....rite now im jus so fuckin bored and depressed i c food but it sickens me........
well i g2g before my mom gets home and bitches at me and shit that im on the computer......wat else is new......BYE
|13 Jul 2006||dave||i am 20 but i still want to die the love of my life tracey leaft me on are wedding day so evreything is over for me anyone any tips tried to slit me wrists hang meself but was stopped by me mum twice i so wanna die please help me having counsling but it dont sodding work|
|11 Jul 2006||Ella||i tried to kill my self at the age of 11,i am now 12 and still keeping it up. My sister died when i was 11.she killed her self, gassed her self in a car. After that I tried to hold the tears in, put my self out of the family, lost contact with the world. I had no resin to live anymore. what is life but a waist of time? Then finally one day, my old boyfriend brought a pocket knife to school, I forgot the resin. I then knew i had to get it and comet suicide. I got it,i tryed, didnt work.i cut my wrist's so deep that the pain was nothing and the sight of blood with the thing that sickened me.made my tummy turn.everynight before I go to bed I do it.cut my wrists.and even though I know it wont work,it helps.somehow.now im 12 years old and most people in the school know about it.im not an outsider anymore,but still feel like one.i grew popular over that year,moving school and all,but I never grew out of the habbit of letting the blood bleed from my wrists.everyone at northcross (school) thinks Ive stopped. and I have covered them up well.And only do it deep in the weekends so I have time to heel.i have told no one that I still do it,why would I, they only say im stupid,but they dont know what pain I go through. I hate my mom and dad. My mom and dad hate me. I have no friends. Only the fake ones who you know back stab you when your not around. I have no point in living. That is why I need a easy,pain free way of killing my self.please help as you would of done nothing wrong,only helping a tired soul battle through life.|
|11 Jul 2006||Jesse||I'm 14 right now. And I have been depressed ever since the age of 10. I have tried to commit suicide various times. My parents never cared which made things so much easier for me to be able to get things and try new ways and to experiment.
I've slit my wrists and cut myself all up and down my arms, legs, stomach, throat and even face. Nothing too serious tho, after cutting for such a long time the blood flow wasn't very much in the areas and I stopped bleeding which annoyed me. I also used my fathers cigarettes to burn my hands and arms. The scabs and wounds can stay there for months and when you think its done it re-opens and bleeds again.
I've also tried overdosing. I thought it was perfect, that way I couldn't back out or anything. I took about twenty tylenol and fifteen motrin, ten midol, and a few muscle relaxers for the first time. It did nothing to me. Thats when I experimented with more fast release tylenol, sleeping pills, muscle relaxers, and cough medicine. Still nothing extreme.
Then I tried chocking myself, I only got to the point at which I passed out, I would wake up a few hours later tho with a head ache.
I am so suicidal, I think about it every day, almost every second and the new plan for me is to hand myself with an extension cord at a bridge thats a few feet away from my house. I believe that that will be the only way I can possibly die. I mean I have been run over by a car twice and that didn't do very much to me. Its actually really hard for me to die. Wish me luck!
|11 Jul 2006||Just me||Why cant i just die :(
i look like a monster with embarrassing acne scars, i havent seen my friends in months, i've tried everything but nothin' works, im just gonna wait a couple of months, and see what happens...
|11 Jul 2006||Polly||I have been visiting this site for over a year and this is the first time I am writing here. My life has been a mess since the day I was born. My parents dont care about me. Or I live with my mother but my father is still alive it is just that he dont give a shit about me and my brother. Sometimes he meets us and the only thig he does is buying some gifts. Like that is gonna make us love him. My mother have had a hard time since my father dont care and just talk a lot of bullshit about here. By the time I got 12 my mom started to beat me at home. Everyday. I got beaten when I was younger but that was like once a week. Times when I gpt to the hospital I had to lie all the time. I really hate to lie but I am use to it since my life is a lie. Well the thing is I still have very good grades and everybody in school thinks I am happy and so on. My mother is very strict and she is decides everything. What I should wear and so on. I am not either aloud to have a boyfriend and I am turnin 16 soon. For a long time I have been takin some "anti deppressiv" pills. But I quit a month ago. My mother always complaines about me. She is sick seriously. I remember my prom night where I got a rose from a guy. The minute I got home she wanted to know who he was and everything and when he saw he's picture she was like "he is so ugly" well, what do u care. First u dont allow me what to do and so on... gosh I cant take it anymore. I have to lie too all my friends and therefore I've lost all my friends. Everybody has their lifes.
About a week ago I went to the doctor. I got some very weird marks on my body so I went to see if there were something wrong. As I was there she told me that my skin had started to burst. She told me this was a "spirituall" thing. She asked If I had problems and I said "no". Then a professional doctor came in and said that this was seious. If I didnt dealt with my problems (dunno why he said that) I could get some kinda dangerous skin disaese. My mother doesnt no I dont want her to know either. I dont know what to do. I have been praying a lot of times about help for commiting suicide. I know how stupid it sounds. No, after all praying I am not sure If I want to die. Is life worth living??? if there is somebody feeling the same or somethin send a e-mail on HaappySuicide@hotmail.com
|10 Jul 2006||Kirsten||u kno there are those ppl that come on this website adn al they do is bitch about the stories posted...sayin shit like ur fuckin dumb...and stuff....well they need to shut the fuck up.....ppl dont jus come on here to write about their lives..they come to read about others lives....they come to see how much better their life is than some ppls....it gives them self confidence and sumtimes helps them.....well since im here ill tell about my life....
heres how the story goes....
there have bin countless times where i have bin abused...mentaly physically sexually emotionally.....
yea.....the whole deal.....ill b 15 in 10 days and for those 15 yrs ivebin alive im abused still....not sexually anymore.....thank god....
the sexual abuse started wen i was 4......by my babysitter...then it lasted from age 7-9......and wen it finally got around to my mom.....all she sed was...how come u dint tell me....she dint bother to comfort me or anythin.....
now these days i find myself bein with a guy....not bcuz i like them...but only to have him for a lil while.....i have never had a long term realtionship....and i get that regret after doin sumthin with a guy....i have bin sexually active since i was 12.......and i find myself doin w/e to plz the guy and i hate myself for it.....
i live with mom and see my dad every other weekend.....so im torn btween 2 places...
my mom is many of the reasons i am the way i am.....
but yea...i think everyone balmes everything on everyone else every now an then....uggh....
i jus feel like ripping my heart outa my chest.......hoping that that wud stop all the pain i feel inside....but who knos......but i guess thats all i can write right now....so ill continue later.......
|08 Jul 2006||nameless||i just wanted to say that i read most of the stories and things people have to say about suicide and ive been very suicidal for a while now and if i had access to anything at all that i knew for a factwould work i know i would do it in a heartbeat and everyone thats out there saying that suicide isnt the answer and that we shold try to rise above everyone else and find someone who cares man thats all nothing but bull man what if there isnt anyone that cares what if your life just totally sucks and reading all these stories just make you even more suicidal and depressed thinking of those people im not one to give advice and im not looking for anyone to email me or anything im just saying my friend gave me the link to this website and told me to read them and to tell you what i really dont care i still want to die every day it gets worse and worse and its all i can think about and theres nothing that can stop them i cut my wrists all the time just to watxh myself bleed the scars are so bad on my wrist and my arms that i go no where without a jacket and i keep going because theres nothing in life better that infinite ending and total darkness bliss and thats what i want and right now i dont have a high place to jump off of and i dont have access to a gun or anything i could really use to kill myself so until i do i hurt mself as much as i can and keep looking to the perfect way to get me out of this stupid world with all the stupid people that i cant stand people always trying to say if you need to talk im here or i know how you feel but the truth is no one knows how someone else feels not exactly and some people just need to get it out of their systems that the world is nothing but a bunch of happy friendly people and start realizing how much life sucks|
|08 Jul 2006||Emily||cutting your self isnt suicdial...its a pain reducer. It actually releases natural self depressants. Hence why you want it more and more; So if you are doing it to get attention stop it, cause you have no fucking clue the pain one can feel and the only way to realease the pain is from cutting cause all yopur attempts hagve failed|
|08 Jul 2006||Jemma||Ok...I ain't here to say to u all..oh no dont kill yourself...by all means go right ahead...but no1 on this site is serious..because people who are depressed dont like to talk about it...they dont go on about how much they want to kill themselves...ther out ther actually doing it...so just all wake up to yourselves and realise that you dont even have problems...try being raped when your 7...then almost stabbed to death by your own mother than come back and tell me how depressed you are...
|04 Jul 2006||Stupid||Well my boyfriend that I was with for two years and 6 months just left me for a friench slutty bitch. I hate this, no one understands my hole life iv had to deal with my mom telling me im nothing and only to have one person in the world that made me feel like something up and leaves me out of no ware. WTF should i do. The only thing that helps the emotional pain is cutting myself and drinking constantly. Im so fucking stupid. I want to fucking kill myself but i tryed takeing pills and slitting my rist but there my mom was everytime to stop me and tell me ONCE AGAIN how retarded and stupid and worthless i was. Keeping me alive seems to be her way of sick torture i hate it.|
|01 Jul 2006||cook||please let me knwo if I get someone to adopt me or I will kill mysel.my step mother beats me up everyday
please do help
|01 Jul 2006||paul||please tell me why i should not kill myself.I have been in pains for more than 22years.Dad and mom abandoned me when I was 2.I have been living in the streets for too long.
recently someone gave me accomodation.BUt he is asking me to sleep with him.I do not want to be gay.I hate it.it stinks.He is the one giving me access to the internet.i want to run away but to where?
live is sad for me.I feel i should die.will heavens be sad if U kill myself?
|28 Jun 2006||paul||i am a boy and have suffering from advances from a man who offerd to give me accomodation because my parents have died.i do not want to become gay.but i do not have where to run to
i feel like dying.after all we are meanrt to die
there is no hope for me.life is pain
|25 Jun 2006||Rene||I really dont know what am I living for... I have been choosing and walking the wrong path. Nothing seems to be right for me.I left college when I could actually graduate in less than 6 mths time. Then I went to work and I found out that work life sux.Everything in this world sux. I hate my life. I hate myself 4 being so fat, ugly and worthless. I hate to be tease by ppl and hate the feeling of being plump. I eat when ever I am sad and no1 can help me.
|22 Jun 2006||Sydney||When i was 7,my fucked up dad killed my mother rite in front of my eyes,it was fucking dreadful to see my mother covered it blood.He stabbed her with a knife 10 times in the heart.Before i knew it she was dead.den he fucking came up to me and said i was next.i screamed and ran up to my room but he broke the fucking door down and stabbed me at the stomach.He thought i was dead but i only passed out.i woke up bleeding and lying beside my dead mother.By then he was alredi gone.I called 911 and told them everything.i was very scared at that time,i was shaking and in pain.But i heard my dad coming inside the house so i slammed the phone down and hid in the kitchen cabinet.By then,the police came and took my dad away,he was sent behind bars after that.I was brought to the hospital to get bandaged and checked up.After that incident,i stayed with my grandmother.She treats me reali fucking cruely everytime.She molest me every day at night in my room. i dindn't noe wad to do.i'm lost without my mother.And i think tonite is my last nite alive.my late grandpa has a gun and i think i might use it to kill myself ny tonite.soon i'll be wit my mother. Gudbye cruel world.|
|22 Jun 2006||just-do-it||I'm 13 years old and i have been trying to kill myself since i was 12. I haven't been able to follow through with it but i have tried i cut my wrist and i tried to drown myself but my mom caught me. And people out there who think they can help go fuck yourself cuz u can't no matter how hard u try we have obviously made up our minds we want to die so there for just leave us alone y should u care cuz no one else does so just leave us alone... the only reason i found this site is cuz i was trying to find tips on how to kill myself and well i think i
ve found some so bye.