|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Sep 2006||Fucking slit my throat and fucking bleed||Why do I even commence 2 live? I am 13 years old my mom is going 2 prison for 5 years my life is falling apart. I have people who want 2 have sex with me and i dont want that shit happening and im really fucking scared i tryed cutting my wrists and i fucking tryed more shit but it doesnt work i try 2 smoke my problems away!|
|17 Sep 2006||Alex||To tell you the truth i've attepmted suicide more times then i can count. No one even noticed. I still attempt it time to time, but everytime I cut, it never seems to go deep enough, or break the vain. I'm bi-polar or ADHD or something like that, i've got pills, that when i'm planning on cutting, i don't take my meds for about 4 days, then i take all of my meds, tylenol/advil/IBprofin, cold medicine, and my asthma meds, all at once so that maybe, they'll take me away for the beatings, the threats, all the hate this world holds, this country, this state, this city, my school, my family.... maybe it'll open their eyes and realize what they do to innocent people. I attemt suicide so that i can control the pain, no one else hurts me... no. I lay there, wrists bleeding for hours on end, in my bed, without not a fucking soul noticing that i'm bleeding, i'm slowly killing myself everyday. NO ONE FUCKING CARES.... and that causes more pain then any other damned thing in this world could. I'm not even fucking 15 yet, and i've got these problems, there is no so called god there to help me. There is no heaven that i'll go to once i finally succeed this. No. Of course not. Cause if there was i, and other kids wouldn't have to deal with mental and physical pain that their fathers cause to them... they wouldn't have to be scared if someone, andyone would understand what the fuck we were talking about. All we have is each other, and that isn't going to save anyone if you put a bunch of suicidal "freaks" together... it's going to help them succeed in their fucking deaths.... don't you understand that? Somebody has to understand..... THe only reason i'm so damn artistic is becuase that and cutting, and drugging are what keeps me from murdering the people who cause me pain... but i know i'd never be able to kill them anyway.... i love them too god-damn much... it's my fault they hate me, hit me, look down on me. that's what i've been taught. That's what i believe. My broken heart is screaming for a release form this hell. I want to answer it. And maybe someday i will.|
|16 Sep 2006||marie||this is the only place that came to mind wer i cud come and say stuf since no one knows me. i ve always been a quiet and reserved person and tend to keep my problems bottled up inside nd try somehow to solve them myself and go through alot of pain which tears me up and make me see like a cold and evil person whereas Im a sensitive persons and I feel too much for ppl. lately i ve been feeling like pratically dirt and i cant take it anymore, i just dont want to live anymore and i know it sounds mediocre but its my truth and nobody elses. im a selfish person and I make people suffer and hurt just so I can just feel that bit of happiness that wears after a bit and im back to my old self. its so hard to explain how I feel.
Thers this guy who has been talking to me and he seems he wants to get to know me and more.. hes the only guy that I have ever liked but when he wants to meet I make up an excuse or somtin so that I dnt face him coz im shy and scared that things wot go well or that he wnt like me. I dont feel normal but I really just wanna fit in and be really hpy for the first time in my life. Its as if I dont want to love someone coz im scared of being heart broken or ridiculed . The latter has made me self conscious all my life. When I was sent to a new class I didnt knw the ppl in it nd I went through hell all year round trying to get a friend but no one realy took any notice of me. So I just hung out by myself. I love my family with all my heart. They have no idea wot im going through and even if they knew they wud tell me that it will pass, thats grls my age dont have serious problems, that I ll feel better and its nt a big deal. My friends are not like extremely hapy wit their life (no one is) but I seem to be the worst one out of them. Im so depressed and death seems like the only solution : a) when I try I always get scared b) I love my family and I dont want to see them hurt because of me.
Id really appreciate if you guys help me .. pls I need it
p.s dont bother making fun of me coz i dont really give a shit right now
|15 Sep 2006||selina||that's a hard one, guess pills are da best way. my life sucks really, i'm my sister's shadow. she's perfect. beatiful, smart, she does ballet,has an amazing voice. everybody loves her at school. me? I'm just da "dumb blond", the village bike everybody had a ride on.i won't deny the fact thatt i am pretty, but brain wise. my mom hits me all the time.sometimes my dad joins in. i don't know why dey do it,i don't understand what i have done. my sister? she doesn't care, she told me to "forget about it", how can i forget? i'm sick of lying to my friends and teachers everytime they see me coming wt a black eye or a gash.i am tired of being picked on all the time, being called "brain dead" or "whore". i know i am a big disapointment to all my family. and i know i have made so many mistakes. but what is done cannot be undone. i'm christian, but deep inside i doubt there is a god. if there really was, why does it hurt so much? why can't he help me? all of us? why make a 13 year old like urself want to kill herself? but truth is i'm scared of dying. scared of what's in the "other side". I will follow some of the advices and wait a little. but it's getting harder as years go by. i am know grounded, havebeen for 2 years. i haven't gon out with my friends for years. just studied, when i finally got the grades, my mom told me to work harder. what's higher than an A? when pleaded to go ou, just one miserable night, she beat me up pretty bad, my dad even arrived at the wrong momment. i will never forget what happened. i know my english teacher suspects something, i wonder if i should tell her. i've neverbeen close to teachers, unless i had a detention that is. ( not in that sense). infact i've never been close to anyone. but please, if someone is reading this, please say something, anything. i figured i might as well talk to someone that doesn't know me, it's better for all of us.|
|12 Sep 2006||Never Free||My Point:
Vengeance. Is the only thing I think about. Words. The words I cant speak. The words I didn't speak that I pay for now. I look in the mirror at me. No it's not me it's her. She killed me and recreated me. She played God to many times.
Cut 0ne: Oxygen. It jerks out of my body as I fall to the floor.
Cut two: I scream. No it never leaves me.
Cut three: Blood. Red and milky.
Cut four: They never cared they never asked.
Cut five: I know inside it's the only way.
Cut Six: I lay there motinless nothing left. All the blood drained from my body. It's over from here.
|12 Sep 2006||nouveau||i've been to this site some years ago and i think it's very pretty. i'm surprised at the lack of change and the continued input from stupid people. i first began thinking of suicide when i was young as well. when i was ten years old i ate a bottle of pills but then i vomited them. i had a family then and it wasn't happy. i was only happy for a few months in 2003 and i think that was probably enough for me. i lost my job last week because i won't speak anymore and i haven't left my apartment since then. it's very dirty here. it's reflective of me. i've got some money left and i think tomorrow i might go to the ave and buy a lot of heroin. i don't know much about heroin but i'm scared to jump from the overpass. i want to see beauty, i want to feel like a child again and dream forever.|
|10 Sep 2006||ME!!||OKAY WELL I NEED HELP MY MOM IS AN ALCHOHALIC N SHE TELLLS ME ALL THESE THINGZ BOUT MY DAD I GUESS TRYIN TO MAKE ME HATE HIM SHE TELLS ME HE DOES DRUGS HE CHEATED ON HER HE ABUSED MY CUZIN BUT IF HE DID Y DOES SHE KEEP ON COMIN SHE TELLS ME SOM MUCH THINGS TODAY I TOLD HER IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO DIE CUZ SHE WAS TELLING ME MORE STUFF N I SCREAMED IT OUT N SHE SAID GOOD!!! SO I GUESS SHE DOSENT KARE WELL I WAS GOOD 1 TO 7TH GRADE NOW IM 13 IN 8TH GRADE N M FINDING A WAY TO KILL MYSELF SO ANY SUGGESTIONS JUST SEND ME AN EMAIL I DONT THINK SHE MEANS IT BUT IM TIRED OF THIS LIFE I AINT SURE IF IT IS LIFE WELL I NEVER TOUGHT BOUGHT COMITTING SUICIDE TILL NOW N IM LEAVIN A TEMPEROLY HELL TO ENTER A PERMANENT ONE BUT I CANT LIVE LIKE DIS N I WANT TO SHOW OR TEACH THEM A LESSON WELL AT SCHOOL I HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS N DATS KOOL BUT I DONT WANNA LEAVE SCHOOL CUZ MY HOME AINT A HOME ANYMORE MY MOM AND DAD NEVER STOP ARGUING SO PLEAZE HELP!! IM THINKIN BOUT DOIN IT TONIGHT SO PLEAZE HELP!!!!|
|10 Sep 2006||dave||the best way is to get hold of a gun BANG u pull that trigger n your dead.personally id find that the easiest.tryin to get sum cash 2geva at mo there expensive in the uk.once i do tho im gonna shoot my brains out rite in my mothers face show her that this is wat its cum 2.|
|10 Sep 2006||Sunboy||Is there an easy way to kill yourself? I don't know. Like the perfect muder, the perfect suicide is a an enigma. Help.|
|09 Sep 2006||vergessen93||i am committing suicide tonight, and i'm 13, the best way i would say is jump off your roof, head first.... not like anyone cares but that's what i think|
|08 Sep 2006||Michelle||I NEED HELP NOW...BEFORE I MAKE MY MOVE! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!
|08 Sep 2006||kaykay||I came across this site last nite.... Whn I typed into yahoo.... The fastest way to commit suicide. I'm not 13.... I'm 18. Just entering college. I feel like my life is upside down. Most of my life I've felt alone.... No one understands me.... At times I don't even know who I am. I used to always think about killing myself but thought I love myself too much.... Thts not true. I put up a front and become the person people think I am.... Wht can I say my dad is a pedophile and a cheater and my mother is too far up his a** to notice. She worships the ground he walks on. She even shows jelousy of her kids relationship with him because he doesn't give her affection that she craves. Well I'm the middle child.... Its been said we have it the worst.... I'm strtin 2 think that its true. I used to be daddy's little girl.... Thought my dad was the greatest until I found out who he really was. I hate my father and my mother. My parents don't care about me. They just want me out of there house so that I don't corrupt my younger siblings. I been with my boyfriend for 8 months..... I love him so much. He makes life so much better and worth living..... I feel in me that he is my soulmate. I can say that he is my comfort.... The only one that cares but when we have our bad times I just want to die.... I feel I have nothing to live for. I've cutt my wrist 2 time but I'm still here.... I guess God has greater plans for me. I learned a lot from this site..... I think the next time I'm at the hieght of my depression and want to kill myself I probably will.
This is my cry my desprate cry for help....
I feel that no one cares about me....all I want is for someone to care.
My parents don't care. They are kickin me out there house.... My mother told me I have till next week to leave. She thinks I'm pregnant.... And I might be. I have no where to go.... Don't know how my life is going to be..... I don't know how to del with my problems so I usually put them to the back of my head and let it build up... I kno that's not healthy but I just don't kno wht else to do. I have a pain in me and it seems like it will never go away..... Thts why I wish I could just lay down and die because I know suicide is a sin.
|07 Sep 2006||Mandy||To Anyone Who Cares( Nobody)
i have been depressive and suicidal since i was in year 7. Now i'm in year9. All my life every single day something has to go wrong. For example i might have a good day at skool but get bashed by my brother. My whole life has been fuked up. My parents divorced, my grandfather died, i have no friends at skool, got bullied everyday at my old skool, best friend died of suicide, got expelled and i have never seen my dad in my whole entire life.He abused my mum and left to god knows where. What is there left to live for anymore? Nobody even knows i exist!! Also my suicide attempts are unknown becoz i have tried so much i can't count how many.I wagg skool just so i can escape reality by sleeping in. I think suicide is the only answer for me. I might as well run away from home where things are bad. The only thing i live for is for my mum. If u are going to commit suicide think carefully. Do u have any loving parents that are still together? Its the only reason i'm alive rite now. When she passes away i might as well join her in paradise. And a message for all my friends *cough cough* and my brother u can all just burn in hell whilst i watch and laugh!!!!x Mandy x
|04 Sep 2006||Never free||My point
I walked out of the bathroom and out of the door. My mind was playing tricks on me. The pain was unbareable. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I cried for her the girl I use to be the one with the kodak smile. I walked out into the street. I layed there my head on the cement. When I herd a loud scream. As my blood stained the street and the words carved in my wrist read never free.
I'm sorry if this story scares you a bit but thats how I feel. I now search for a person I dont need any attention I just need one person who cares. If you feel that you care e-mail me. Cry_till_i_die@hotmail.com
|03 Sep 2006||....||I have been suicidal for about 1 month now. I am realizing i'm depressed, bipolar, and have an extrememly low self esteem.
no one notices it. i lack real friends. the only person im staying alive for it my sister.
my brother abuses me constantly. hes the main reason why i want to die.
i smoke everyday (not cigarettes). i drink when im in so much pain that i cant taste it. i take pills when i have nothing else to get me away from being sober. i take 4 benedryls everynighht to get my asleep because my rasing thoughts keep me awake,.
my parnets dont know this. my sister doesnt know this. no one knows the real me. NO one.
|02 Sep 2006||skie||Ok seriously, its september 3rd, 2006, and im really thinking about giving it all up. i am 15 years old....and i was looking through here, and i noticed alot of shit. this wouldnt be the first time that i've tried, just in june i downed 142 pills of asprin, i got rushed to the hospital, where they pumped me...i had tubes in my arm and going in my mouth, i had stuff helping me breeth, and than now i feel completly worse, i show people that it looks like im getting better, but im seriously not.. im hiding it from everyone, and i know that its truelly my time to leave my life behind... i just told all my friends my plan and they called me crazy, they told me i wasnt going to do it. that they know me too well...but seriously...this is the last thing ill say to anyone....life is shit, it sucks, you never had people by your side to help you when you need the help, all your friends leave you, and its nothing...
|30 Aug 2006||Gab||As I sit here in my room I reflect on how I have been raised. I live in a wealthy town during the summer (and where I was raised) and I go to a very expensive ski academy. My parents are still together. My family loves me. So you must ask "why the hell are you bothering us with your stupid complaints?" I wish I knew...I can't stand this life anymore. I'm beyond miserable. I'm about to go back to school in a few days and everytime I think about it I cry. I hate school, everything about it makes me sick. I've been depressed since I was probably 12 of 13. I'm 15 almost 16 now. I hate my life. I know the answer is not killing myself, but it feels necessary to me. I feel as if I have no other option. But going about suicide is the tough part. Early this year I took several sleep pills after I got a concussion earlier in the day...nothing happened...probably because by the time I got the 6th pill in my mouth I threw myself against the bathroom door and cried myself to sleep. If you have an advice...please email me @ email@example.com|
|29 Aug 2006||the things that go through my head||i dreem about killin myself all the time. wenever something big or small gose wrong thats the thought that souths me and when i go to bed at night i fall asleep thinking about cuttind or killing myself and about onece a week i do cut myself but if it were up to me witch it is id shout myself in the head but my question to you is how do i get my hands on a loaded gun? if u have an answer email me on GRR_ander_GRR@hotmail.com|
|28 Aug 2006||raquel||hi my name is raquel and im 10 . i want to kill myself eveyday cuz my dumb sister , abusing mom , stepdad,and auntie hate me (i think cuz they torture me) and i always cry . i hate them but rite at this moment i would love to die.but im afraid . i know its not rite. i saw my friend put a knife almost through her heart . i hhate my self. i fell no one likes me . i think im dumb sometimes.people make me feel useless and im always sad. my mom cuses at me and yells at me sayin"BITCH I HOPE YOU DIE I WANNA KILL YOU MOTHERFUCKER" and i wanna cry so bad .but i guess i will go and think about this.|
|27 Aug 2006||Rene||I am feeling so helpless and lost. I suffer from Anorexic 2 years ago and I was at only 30kg standing at 160cm which is seriously underweight. Many people was then concern about me, they force me to eat and I did. But the problem is I didnt eat normally. Instead of eating, I binge everyday non-stop. And yes, I gain weight. When I reach my acceptable weight, I couldnt stop the habit of bingeing and I binged even more. Sometimes I will behave like bulimic, I will try to purge out the food I ate, but I cannot do that for long as my thoart hurts. I gain more than 20kgs after all the bingeing and I am still bingeing.I knew from my pyschologist that this is a vicious cycle. Anorexic people will start to binge after the long period of starving. I hate it. I see myself as fat and ugly and I lost all confidence in myself. I am scare of places that has a lot of people. I would juz lower my head and walk as fast as I could. I am afraid people would laugh at my size. I am so paranoid that I even quit school and although I am working now, I keep finding excuses to be abesent from work and I know my parents would scold me and I became so depress that I became suicidal. I thought if I leave the world things would be so much easier but I find out that I cannot bear to leave my family. I am really sad as I was the top student of my secondary school and my dream is to get into University but now that I have left my Junior College, I really feel I have no more aims, goals and motivation. I hate myself for being so fat, even my sisters are mocking at my size and the way I eat... My parents are asking me to see my pyschologist but I dont even dare to tell my pyschologist how I really feel. I dont want to use the word FAT. I am afraid she will mock at me too. I dont really want to die but I am seriously at a loss. Now that I am aimless, I juz want to stay at home forever and never go out.But my heart bleeds whenever I see ,y parents working so hard to keep the family going and how can I juz idle around at home. I am really lost. I am determine now to kill myself so as to lessen their burden.|