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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|29 Sep 2006||I am nothing||As I sit in my dark room I think about what is to come. Tommorow I have a test at school. I will not pass. and then I will get beaten by my mom. I didnt study because I was sad about her beating me. I feel trapped. I have told my teacher at school and she told me that it wasnt as bad as I was making it out to be. What the fuck does she know? She hasnt ever even met my mom. I hate my life. I go to school to relax from my mom beating me and pulling my hair. Slapping me and calling me a stupid girl. No one loves me. No one cares about how I feel or how much I am sad. I dont care about anything anymore. I want to kill myself. I am going to.|
|29 Sep 2006||chris||hey
i now some answers maybe...
ill try some out now if you want see which is most effective becuase if you were in my posistion you would want to.
the only reason i havent is because of one friend but tonight that friend left me even though i never mentioned anyhting about it.
they just turned round and insulted me the only friend i have had in about 3 years who actually cares is gone,
i want to try suicde again i have no family i havent had one in 10 years and i struggly to make friends becuase i dont trust new people i meet becuase of my childhood and never will.
and my only friend i could tlak to when i needed someone isnt there.
i have nothing left.
i have no family
and no one who cares.
i just want to go die now...
but im scared of what ill meet after death so i just curl up and sleep hoping to never wake up.
my grades have been slipping at school now.
i wont get any passes at college.
that wa shard enough anyhow being that my friend is 2 years below me in school.
in college no one talks to me.
i just sit there.
my life licks balls
i juust want to go hang myself or fall when i go bouldering next.
im hated by everyone now becuase i dont have any friends it wasnt my fault i kept moving place to place and fouind it harder to make friends each time.
i stayed here becuase of my one best friend and only friend but i dont have them now.
i want to go to a place where no one has to see, hear, smell or touch me.
i know one way to get there and ill try again.
yes ive tried before i spent 3 months in hospital after stabbing myself and cutting my wrist.
i didnt fidn it hard the ... i wont find it hard now.
|29 Sep 2006||i want to pass on because life is shit for me, this is my story..noone likes me
I was only told i was ugly a few times alot of the other times i was looked at like i am really ugly!! so i get the best of both worlds, i have spoken to people they ignore me like there is something wrong with me, or maybe i am a ghost already!!! people take the piss out of me because i am aloner, they make fun of that, i am a joke...!! I have had people burp in my face an start there car up on me like i am gross! i have had people just not like me, i have tried to fit in a help other people to fit in an no one wants to know me. I just am giving up on my self because i feel life is not worth anything no more.
people in my family call me ugly as well, its pointless for me, people talk about me in a nasty way an they take the piss out of me whisle an call me a freak, that is why i am gonna give up trying to make any friends there is no point if no one wants to know me!! i even had someone stick there finger up at me an try to tip me off a table once, also i have had people laugh at me with out calling me ugly aswell!!!
i have never felt right with people after the treatment i have had of people i have had bullying because of my face,but that is anothe story,
I'm at the tail end of trying to convince myself that maybe I am not ugly. I give up. All my efforts at taking pictures and whatnot have failed. I am ugly and I have no hope. I don't think I should even leave the house. I tried doing things, but people do not like me. They reject me -- I believe it's because of my face. There's no hope, is there? Forget about it? Well, people remind me of it by the way they treat me...
I will look for a great way to pass on!!
|29 Sep 2006||x B3(KY x||hiya , i am feeling really crap my life is crap . i c a nurse and i am on anti-depresants. i have overdosed loads of times but it dosnt work . i really dont want to be alive . bibi xxx|
|29 Sep 2006||Lawrence||I don't know why i'm doing this to myself.. my life was a shit until now i think.
My mother don't like me so much and i don't like her.
My life was a horror time when i was a small child, it felt like no one cared about me.
but now when i am 16 years old i still think of suicide, i don't want to but my thoughts controle over me and i don't know what to do.
I often think of jumping down a high building or run infront of a fast car or something, i am not afraid to die.
It's like i wait for the time too come but it never happens.
But i still wait.
Believe me, i talk about my problems and i know what's right and wrong.
(I still wait)
|29 Sep 2006||krissy||my good friend thalia anthony commited suicide on the 12th of september and this is how she did it:
1)broke into her dads shed and stoll some rope
2)wrote a suicide note
3)said a prayer to god
4)tied the rope to the automatic garage door opener
5)stood on a chair
6)waited for her dad to come home
7)he came home and opened the door and hung thalia
i miss her so much i wish she never did it but now im going to kill myself aswell
my plans r locking myself in the drama room and tie the stage rope around my neak and get on a chair and tighten the rpe and jump off
oh to all those pplz that go to browns plains high dont go in the drama room on tuesday morning
|25 Sep 2006||winny||hi my name is winny and i am 20 years old i am sick of my life i am 20 years old in new jersey i wanna know that on one hand god says earth is heaven on the other hand he send devils in human flesh so that we should not live peacefully why i wanna die and ask many questions to god which i know only god can answr me but i couldnt find the gun this is the big problem|
|25 Sep firstname.lastname@example.org please help me. I do't knowwhat I am doing anymore. Nothing is wrong...but I still feel this way...any help is appreciated...
|24 Sep 2006||Fucked Up||I like suicide. I like the thought of suicide. It's like this.... way way back in the 1990's, I used to be suicidal. I felt very anxious, and depressed and shit. So I turned to suicidal thoughts, and self destructive thoughts and behaviour. I felt really crappy about it. Eventually though, the suicidal days passed and I haven't been suicidal for about 5 years....until now.
Now, I am even more depressed... so depressed that nothing in the world even gets me excited anymore. NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING!! I used to feel so guilty and confused about being suicidal, but now I don't care anymore. It's like, "yeah, I'm suicidal. I dont' give a shit". I am so numb to everything that I actually started LONGING for the exciting suicidal days of the past. I think back, and I enjoy that confused terror of thoughts of self destruction. So, I now indulge myself in terrible depressing thoughts, and bloody horrible things just so I can feel at least some excitement. I like death.
If I were ever to be confined to one of those mental insitutions, I would kill myself for sure. I cannot imagine being in one of those places, having all these fuckin people trying to convince me to live, and how life is valuable and shit. I would be like, "are you fucking serious? You have no idea how I am so far beyond caring." It would be ridiculous.
|24 Sep 2006||Nicole||um my life has been very hard and i understand whatever pain u guys r goin through and i think people should listen. my dad is verbally abusive, my mom doesnt care, my friends are fake, and everyone ive loved has made fun of me. im socially challenged and cut myself every day. email me at email@example.com.|
|21 Sep 2006||NiNi||well,i just came 2 see some teqniques because i feel that im unappreciated in this world. when i do my best in school and get a B+ my momma says i can do better and plus my whole life is going down da drain at the age of 13..so thats y i want to kill my self and i figure some one will soon do the job 4 me anyway so y give somebody else the pleasure?...|
|20 Sep 2006||Fucking slit my throat and fucking bleed||Why do I even commence 2 live? I am 13 years old my mom is going 2 prison for 5 years my life is falling apart. I have people who want 2 have sex with me and i dont want that shit happening and im really fucking scared i tryed cutting my wrists and i fucking tryed more shit but it doesnt work i try 2 smoke my problems away!|
|17 Sep 2006||Alex||To tell you the truth i've attepmted suicide more times then i can count. No one even noticed. I still attempt it time to time, but everytime I cut, it never seems to go deep enough, or break the vain. I'm bi-polar or ADHD or something like that, i've got pills, that when i'm planning on cutting, i don't take my meds for about 4 days, then i take all of my meds, tylenol/advil/IBprofin, cold medicine, and my asthma meds, all at once so that maybe, they'll take me away for the beatings, the threats, all the hate this world holds, this country, this state, this city, my school, my family.... maybe it'll open their eyes and realize what they do to innocent people. I attemt suicide so that i can control the pain, no one else hurts me... no. I lay there, wrists bleeding for hours on end, in my bed, without not a fucking soul noticing that i'm bleeding, i'm slowly killing myself everyday. NO ONE FUCKING CARES.... and that causes more pain then any other damned thing in this world could. I'm not even fucking 15 yet, and i've got these problems, there is no so called god there to help me. There is no heaven that i'll go to once i finally succeed this. No. Of course not. Cause if there was i, and other kids wouldn't have to deal with mental and physical pain that their fathers cause to them... they wouldn't have to be scared if someone, andyone would understand what the fuck we were talking about. All we have is each other, and that isn't going to save anyone if you put a bunch of suicidal "freaks" together... it's going to help them succeed in their fucking deaths.... don't you understand that? Somebody has to understand..... THe only reason i'm so damn artistic is becuase that and cutting, and drugging are what keeps me from murdering the people who cause me pain... but i know i'd never be able to kill them anyway.... i love them too god-damn much... it's my fault they hate me, hit me, look down on me. that's what i've been taught. That's what i believe. My broken heart is screaming for a release form this hell. I want to answer it. And maybe someday i will.|
|16 Sep 2006||marie||this is the only place that came to mind wer i cud come and say stuf since no one knows me. i ve always been a quiet and reserved person and tend to keep my problems bottled up inside nd try somehow to solve them myself and go through alot of pain which tears me up and make me see like a cold and evil person whereas Im a sensitive persons and I feel too much for ppl. lately i ve been feeling like pratically dirt and i cant take it anymore, i just dont want to live anymore and i know it sounds mediocre but its my truth and nobody elses. im a selfish person and I make people suffer and hurt just so I can just feel that bit of happiness that wears after a bit and im back to my old self. its so hard to explain how I feel.
Thers this guy who has been talking to me and he seems he wants to get to know me and more.. hes the only guy that I have ever liked but when he wants to meet I make up an excuse or somtin so that I dnt face him coz im shy and scared that things wot go well or that he wnt like me. I dont feel normal but I really just wanna fit in and be really hpy for the first time in my life. Its as if I dont want to love someone coz im scared of being heart broken or ridiculed . The latter has made me self conscious all my life. When I was sent to a new class I didnt knw the ppl in it nd I went through hell all year round trying to get a friend but no one realy took any notice of me. So I just hung out by myself. I love my family with all my heart. They have no idea wot im going through and even if they knew they wud tell me that it will pass, thats grls my age dont have serious problems, that I ll feel better and its nt a big deal. My friends are not like extremely hapy wit their life (no one is) but I seem to be the worst one out of them. Im so depressed and death seems like the only solution : a) when I try I always get scared b) I love my family and I dont want to see them hurt because of me.
Id really appreciate if you guys help me .. pls I need it
p.s dont bother making fun of me coz i dont really give a shit right now
|15 Sep 2006||selina||that's a hard one, guess pills are da best way. my life sucks really, i'm my sister's shadow. she's perfect. beatiful, smart, she does ballet,has an amazing voice. everybody loves her at school. me? I'm just da "dumb blond", the village bike everybody had a ride on.i won't deny the fact thatt i am pretty, but brain wise. my mom hits me all the time.sometimes my dad joins in. i don't know why dey do it,i don't understand what i have done. my sister? she doesn't care, she told me to "forget about it", how can i forget? i'm sick of lying to my friends and teachers everytime they see me coming wt a black eye or a gash.i am tired of being picked on all the time, being called "brain dead" or "whore". i know i am a big disapointment to all my family. and i know i have made so many mistakes. but what is done cannot be undone. i'm christian, but deep inside i doubt there is a god. if there really was, why does it hurt so much? why can't he help me? all of us? why make a 13 year old like urself want to kill herself? but truth is i'm scared of dying. scared of what's in the "other side". I will follow some of the advices and wait a little. but it's getting harder as years go by. i am know grounded, havebeen for 2 years. i haven't gon out with my friends for years. just studied, when i finally got the grades, my mom told me to work harder. what's higher than an A? when pleaded to go ou, just one miserable night, she beat me up pretty bad, my dad even arrived at the wrong momment. i will never forget what happened. i know my english teacher suspects something, i wonder if i should tell her. i've neverbeen close to teachers, unless i had a detention that is. ( not in that sense). infact i've never been close to anyone. but please, if someone is reading this, please say something, anything. i figured i might as well talk to someone that doesn't know me, it's better for all of us.|
|12 Sep 2006||Never Free||My Point:
Vengeance. Is the only thing I think about. Words. The words I cant speak. The words I didn't speak that I pay for now. I look in the mirror at me. No it's not me it's her. She killed me and recreated me. She played God to many times.
Cut 0ne: Oxygen. It jerks out of my body as I fall to the floor.
Cut two: I scream. No it never leaves me.
Cut three: Blood. Red and milky.
Cut four: They never cared they never asked.
Cut five: I know inside it's the only way.
Cut Six: I lay there motinless nothing left. All the blood drained from my body. It's over from here.
|12 Sep 2006||nouveau||i've been to this site some years ago and i think it's very pretty. i'm surprised at the lack of change and the continued input from stupid people. i first began thinking of suicide when i was young as well. when i was ten years old i ate a bottle of pills but then i vomited them. i had a family then and it wasn't happy. i was only happy for a few months in 2003 and i think that was probably enough for me. i lost my job last week because i won't speak anymore and i haven't left my apartment since then. it's very dirty here. it's reflective of me. i've got some money left and i think tomorrow i might go to the ave and buy a lot of heroin. i don't know much about heroin but i'm scared to jump from the overpass. i want to see beauty, i want to feel like a child again and dream forever.|
|10 Sep 2006||ME!!||OKAY WELL I NEED HELP MY MOM IS AN ALCHOHALIC N SHE TELLLS ME ALL THESE THINGZ BOUT MY DAD I GUESS TRYIN TO MAKE ME HATE HIM SHE TELLS ME HE DOES DRUGS HE CHEATED ON HER HE ABUSED MY CUZIN BUT IF HE DID Y DOES SHE KEEP ON COMIN SHE TELLS ME SOM MUCH THINGS TODAY I TOLD HER IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO DIE CUZ SHE WAS TELLING ME MORE STUFF N I SCREAMED IT OUT N SHE SAID GOOD!!! SO I GUESS SHE DOSENT KARE WELL I WAS GOOD 1 TO 7TH GRADE NOW IM 13 IN 8TH GRADE N M FINDING A WAY TO KILL MYSELF SO ANY SUGGESTIONS JUST SEND ME AN EMAIL I DONT THINK SHE MEANS IT BUT IM TIRED OF THIS LIFE I AINT SURE IF IT IS LIFE WELL I NEVER TOUGHT BOUGHT COMITTING SUICIDE TILL NOW N IM LEAVIN A TEMPEROLY HELL TO ENTER A PERMANENT ONE BUT I CANT LIVE LIKE DIS N I WANT TO SHOW OR TEACH THEM A LESSON WELL AT SCHOOL I HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS N DATS KOOL BUT I DONT WANNA LEAVE SCHOOL CUZ MY HOME AINT A HOME ANYMORE MY MOM AND DAD NEVER STOP ARGUING SO PLEAZE HELP!! IM THINKIN BOUT DOIN IT TONIGHT SO PLEAZE HELP!!!!|
|10 Sep 2006||dave||the best way is to get hold of a gun BANG u pull that trigger n your dead.personally id find that the easiest.tryin to get sum cash 2geva at mo there expensive in the uk.once i do tho im gonna shoot my brains out rite in my mothers face show her that this is wat its cum 2.|
|10 Sep 2006||Sunboy||Is there an easy way to kill yourself? I don't know. Like the perfect muder, the perfect suicide is a an enigma. Help.|