|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|08 Jan 2007||Desires Death||I want to die young, no matter how hard I try, im not able to kill myself, I tried pills, 2 times, and slashing my wrists, maybe its just because im a whimp, but I also don't want to leave my family a disfigured corpse... I love to cut myself, I love to see blood, "I'm only happy when it rains" (if you know that song by garbage) I get a satisfaction from hurting myself, and I don't know why. I know im partially insane, or fully, I see pictures and stuff in my head of me hurting people, stabbing them, or making them bleed, something like that, and I see me enjoying it, but I dont enjoy it, Sometimes I feel really happy, while other times I feel like I should cut or just kill myself, most of the time just for no reason, right now im 15 years old, and I want to die before 17 years old, I guess im just waiting for a moment, waiting for a plan of how to die, my plan right now is to light about 100 insense and just fall asleep in a closed space, but I rarely have enough time to do this stuff, maybe someone can tell me a good way to die? And I dont see why my family (my dad and sis) care so much, they'll die someday, but I also just dont get the point of life, death seems so much more... better, i mean if i was dead, i could possibly be with my mom b/c she died when i was 12, and she was my favorite person. I also wanted to be with this guy alex (yes im gay) and i dont know shit about him, except that hes just like no one, hes just attractive, but i hate everything else about him,anyway... I just want to die! well the reason i dont do anything is because i never want to end up in a mental hospital again, oh my fucking god! i was in a long term one, i was supposed to be in there for 6 months, but i was there for about 1 month because my dad got me out, i just dont know what to do anymore... should I just live everyday and suffer? I dont know why im suffering, i dont know... I have no reason to suffer, even though life just plain sucks, and im insane.|
|08 Jan 2007||Michael||I'm 16 Need help i dont want to die..yet i feel its the only way out... 3 and a half weeks ago i've never think this way..you migth think its stupid the way all of us thinks... but its just so many problems all at the same time... i thought my life was ok...but it all came out 3 weeks ago when the only person that cared for me (My GF) or at least i thought it cared for me told me that the real reason she was with me was 'pity' and so i've began to think..and think...and she was right my life = shit..she just was with beacuse of pity...made me so sad.. because im ugly as hell she was right no need to blame her... i still haven't forgot about her...but she's only the person that i actually care for and the person that made me see how shitty my life was and i had never realized that before..not in the 2 hole years she and i have been thogether...
i have absolutely no friends whatsoever
no even a person to talk to...yeah i haver family but they dont care at all..
if you think you can help me by either telling me how to do it painlessly or how to get out of this hellhole.. i would appreciate it...bye
|07 Jan 2007||EmMa||hi im emma (age 13) i cant take it any more pleaz help every 1 hates me i have no friens when i come home from sleepin all day at skool where every one teases e for bein different and willin 2 speak up i get straight on da pc or i go do drugs and shyt i hate it i dont give a flyin FUCK about life noone will go out wit i asked 1 guy out and he almost fuckin peed his pants 4 laughin god I WANT TO FUCKIN DIE (AND I HATE GOD DAMN THERIPISTS) HELP MEEEEEEE T__T email me wit help pleazzzzz and no god damn docters pleazzzzz (firstname.lastname@example.org) ps im fuckin adicted wit myspace >_< damn it my life suxxxxxxxx|
|05 Jan 2007||suicide||hi.....well u noe wat im soooooooo deppressed today.......im so upset and m feeling so faithless....i dun noe 4m where should i start my story......u noe wat iam a sucidal too but wanna honestly tell u one thing that I REALLY DUN WANNA DIE cox i also want to live ma life n also wanna enjoy......but enjoy....HUH......can sum budy tell me that how could a person enjoy while living in a poor family.......who has a heart patient mother a veryyy self fish father who only care about him self and earn alot of money just to spent on things he like.......well i think i should tell u about me not about ma fukin father u noe wat the only thought i have always in ma mind is that NO ONE LOVES ME i have two brothers both of them are elder 4m me and ma parents speacially my father only love them and hates me he really dun care about me and my brothers hates me too cox well i dun noe the reason but this really hurts me......i have no life no one who cares about me no one who loves me....but iam still alive with this hope that one day every thing will get better........dis world is so selfish the people in this world dun care about any one.....they only cares about them self......but still i have a best frnd who always makes me happy when ever i am sad and.....ma best frnd is ma BLADE...i have so many scares on ma body which ma best frnd has given me.....well i still dun noe y m doing all dis but n this all is getting worse and worse..I HATE DIS WORLD.....BUT M STILL ALIVE ON THIS HOPE THAT SOON THIS ALL WILL BE OVER AND I WOULD HAVE A GUD LIFE LIKE MA FRNDS HAVE.......|
|03 Jan 2007||Kekoa||Hi, I'm a 16 year old girl and I've wanted to commit suicide since I was very young. At first when I was in elementary I was never really liked by any of the kids at school. So I developed an attitude to where everyone, including the very few friends I had, was afraid of me. That didnt make me feel any better at all. What made it even worse was that my brother hated me. Im not exaggerating and Im not only thinking he hated me cause hes a mean big brother. He told it to me everyday. He told me he hated me and told me I was a worthless little shit. I was 4 years old the first time he said that to me and all my parents did was send him to his room and tell me to suck it up and get over it. He tripped, socked, bothered, hit, chocked, held me under a blanket (Im claustrophobic), I even had to get stitches in my head because of him. He still till this day says Im a little bitch that needs to die. Well anyway, so when I entered Middle school I made friends with almost the entire school. I knew almost everyone. Then in 8th grade I met a boy who hated life like I used to and hated humanity and he still does till this day. I started to feel everything I used to when I was young and then I started getting in trouble with the law and with my parents. I started developing more and more enemies as I started going out with him. My parents began hating including my mother, which she still says I'm an embarrassment to my family. My father well there was really no hope for him to love me, as he should anyway. He has never gone to any school function in my entire life. He refuses to take me to school or pick me up and if he has to he complains like no other. He yells at me almost everyday calling me a lazy bitch and such and he has never said, I am so proud of you or I love you or even the simplest how was your day without being pushed by my mother or my cousin who lives with us. He yells at my mother for being such a bad parent and telling her that what I had become was all her fault. So she comes to me and starts yelling at me. Telling me that I need to be perfect so that daddy doesnt get mad at her telling me its all my fault for not being the perfect daughter. Anyways I fell in-love with the boy and we started helping each other. For me seeing him everyday made me so much happier. I stopped cutting, seriously cut down on drinking, and I was an overall happier person. He told me he loved me everyday. But then we started fighting a year later and he said he didnt love me that he never did and he broke up with me. I went right back to where I started except now I had a broken heart, a broken home, and friends who treat me like shit. So now I've been hooking up with guys all the time sneaking out at night and everything. I thought it would make me feel better about myself (I dont have a very high opinion of the way I look) but it only makes me happy for the amount of time Im with them. Afterwards I feel like shit and I just want the man I love back and loving me how he used to. I've been in counseling every since he broke up with me (My mother's idea) it hasnt been helping. All it does is give me someone to talk to about shit I cant tell anyone else. The advice she gives is good but it doesnt make me feel better about myself all it does is make me feel stupid. For any other person it would be ok for but for me its a little different for some reason. Please I'm trying to stay here on earth and just try to live through these 2 years until I can legally move out and get away from this place. But nothing I seem to do works it just makes me worse. Please help me get through this living hell.|
|03 Jan 2007||tricktrick||i should die.... i have basicly no friends, my mom is an alchaholic on drugs, my commited sucide and i have nothing to live for. my life sux. i hate myself. i deserve 2 die. i bet if i died my mom or any of my back stabbing so called friends wouldnt even care. my mom would just b mad cause she would have 2 pay 4 the funeral bills-even though i have no real freinds that would even come... so i think dat one day next week mabey i will take my gmas cancer drugs till i die. im sure me not living would make the world a much better place.|
|03 Jan 2007||Jeff||Well, this is my life. I got kicked out of both my dads house and my moms house about 5 times each. At a point i was living in the streets with no money or food, sleeping in alleys. My parents both have alot of money, but they just dont bother with me. My step mom awlays wants me out of the house. And my mom who i just seen after 13 years kicks me out of the house whenever shes mad. My dad tried puttin me in jail for ntohing and making up stuff on the phone just to get me arrested. I ran away from the cops for like a cupole days. Then my first love. The only person i cared bout in my whole life and the only person who was always there for me. Left me. My friends cant be trusted. And i feel like i hav eno body. My parents dont even take me as their son. I just dont no wat to do because i been goign through thi sstuff since i was 12 and now im 16 and i just cant take it.|
|02 Jan 2007||Emily<3Indian||I just turned 18 in Sept. 06. My boyfriend hung himself in front of me in our house in Temecula, Ca in Sept 06. It made no difference, well in no one else, me... well I think I can't take this world much longer. I tried getting him down, my neighbors wouldn't helped just watched. I hate almost everyone, and love just three people, ones dead and the other person is me, the third? someone who's numb. I don't think this world matters, fuck the rest and love the best.|
|28 Dec 2006||Kirvlas||Ello. My name is Kirvlas. Sometimes, I want to kill myself. Like tonight. Especially tonight. I dont have many friends. Im 15 not 13 so I dont know if that matters or not. My problem is my whole life. Every day i get up and my family is very poor so i have to go milk the goat before we can eat breakfast. All the kids make fun of me. I want to die so bad. My parents are so mean. They make me work all the time and i never get to do anything. My life is awful.|
|27 Dec 2006||kat||i feel like no1 cares about me.I lost the only think keeping me alive so i have no I now. My bf wont talk tom me and i wish i was dead cause i h8 life im sick of been alone .Can u please add me email@example.com|
|27 Dec 2006||fuck my life||a dunno if this site is still runnin, but o well. i just wanna run away from my life. i am poor, but i still have everything i need, i guess. an a fukin hate it. i hurt everyone, im an ugly rek, all a can do is sing an act, but that goes 2 shit without money. ma family r great, but ma dad never stops swearin, i think he hates me, ma mum is a twisted alcoholic, an i cant trust anyone, but i dont giv a shit, i dont need anyone elses luv, a only need maself an a bit of luk. i just wanna get away from my home, from my frends who wouldnt notice or care if i just lay down an died, from the things that make my life just too easy. an it is TOO FUKING EASY!!! a wanna b tested, be a survivor, not sum pampered bitch who knows nothin about life an is too fukin shy...ok am NOT shy! soon, if nothin changes an i continue 2 see nothin but the same dam things every FUKIN DAY OF MY SHITTY LIFE am either gonna kill myself or run away. i came close 2 suicide a couple of times, but always stopped maself - a wondered, wat if tomorrow everything is better? an i always hang on one lasyt day..... but no any more. take me away from t he grey skies of scotland, or take me away from this binding, controlled life, where i feel as though they just put me in a straight jacket an left me in my padded cell for ever, hanging on yto that one last day, that brighter tomorrow that just never comes...|
|27 Dec 2006||treas||my name is treas and im 13 just resently became 13 and non stop all i have got for years now is shit of my brother and sister. we would always get into big fites and then hate eachother for few days but it seems im always getting the blame, when it comes to 2 younger brother and sister who fite more than me wen it come to the 2 of them fiting at you, calling you names it just makes me feel like i cant live anymore in this earth,yet stil scared to end my life. i still love my mum, but i can not take the abuse of beeing called names or beeing hit at, i dont know what to do. and i know yes some people feel after writing somthing on the internet that you show the world you may feel guilty wen ur getting along again with the people who make you feel horrible, like you dont deserve to belong in this world, but......i would like some one to talk to me whos atleast 13, who knows what its like. i have good times with my brother and sister but sometimes the pain will never ease|
|25 Dec 2006||kat||Iv got nothing to live for iv been depressed dor 7 yrs and suicidal for 3 yrs.Iv got no fueture cause iv got a learning problem and ill never grow up. and iv lost all my friends which suck. The only reason im on this dark little planet is cause of my family.I think satan is gowing to kill me and he even talks to me. If any1 can help me be happy email me|
|25 Dec 2006||Kelly Crutcher||I've never heard about a suicide kit before I found your page. I'm not really sure about a permanent way. I was born in 1981; I'm a member of the Latter-Day Saint (mormon) church, I grew up in this faith and I have a strong faith in God and Christ, but there's been times when I've gotten so depressed that I've seriously thought about taking *my* life. I attempted suicide once in 2005 (I locked the bathroom door when I was taking a shower; closed the drain in the bathtub, let the water get deep enough and tried to drown myself; Grandma picked the lock, panicked when she saw me trying to do this and pulled me out)and once in 2006 (took an overdose of my seizure medication and went to bed, praying that I wouldn't wake up)
Recently, I thought about hooking a garden hose to the exhaust of Grandma's car and running the other end through a back window, getting in the car, turning the ignition on and waiting.
I'm afraid to tell anyone I know about this problem because they'll think I'm crazy, stick me in Circles of Care and treat me like a loony. I don't know what to do.
Please don't think I'm crazy; I'm just depressed over a lot of stuff in my life (my grandfather passed away in 2001; my parents got divorced, I suffer from grand-mal seizures and the medicine I'm currently taking for the seizures doesn't seem to be working; every time I have a seizure I chew my mouth and the side of my tongue and get bruised) and I don't know what to do about anything anymore.
|25 Dec 2006||oriana||umm i dont know the best way but if you dont want to hurt anyone else and you dont like pain you could simply drink shots of bleach or other poison mixed with alcohol or soft drink until you start to throw up then hope to god you dont survive cos if you do it will really suck by the way i might actually try this it sounds like sumthing worth doing but not tonight, tonight im going out with friends an getting drunk yay! im 14 and last nite i had sex with shaun then today is christmas and evry1 told me that shaun played me i really loved him this sux anyways if you must kill urself please dont kill sum1 else and then urself cos that is really mean ok luv ya xxx|
|24 Dec 2006||Help Me.||Sometimes I just hate myself so much and I get so angry because almost everything I try to do turns out wrong and I fuck everything up no matter how hard I try and I just get so angry I want to smash my head in against a wall. I don't know who to ask for help, because I don't know what I would say. "Hi, I'm fourteen years old, and I fantisize about diving off a building head-first into the sidewalk, so could you please convince me not to?"|
|23 Dec 2006||Kitty||Hey I've been reading the posts on this site for a while now and just felt the need to talk to you all. Well my names Kitty and I'm 16. In my 16 years of life I've been though a lot but have managed to deal with it until now. I was born to parents who were drug addicts. My dad was violent towards my mum, me and my little brother. When i was 6 my mum moved out. She is now an alcoholic and seems to spend more time worrying about my step brother and sister then she does about me. When i was 7 i was raped by my half brother i didn't tell anyone about it till i was 14. All through my live i was molested by my dads best mate. It is still happening but not to the same extent. I was bullied at school and has carried on in college. Since my mum left I've had to act as a mother to my little bro. My dads always to engrossed in his computer games to even remember he has kids. My brother is now 14 and thinks he can get away with anything. I try to help him but he just throws it back in my face. My friends are all leaving me and i'm too shy to make new ones. Last year i had to deal with my nan and grandad dying. I had no one to talk to which made it really hard for me. This year i fell in love. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. It lasted 2 weeks. He dumped me because I'm insecure and shy. he broke my heart but we were still friends till tonite. I told him all about my life everything I've had to deal with but he didn't care. he just told me to stop being childish and to grow up. that other people can deal with it so i should be able to. Now he never wants to speak to me again. the one man i ever loved and he hates me. A few days ago my best mate Will said he couldn't speak to me anymore. His girlfriend didn't like me and him talking to each other. Ive lost too many people to make my life worth living. All this is nothing compared to what is happening after Christmas. My dad has had enough of me and wants me out of the house after Christmas. I have nowhere to go. no one loves me all my friends have gone off with other people, i have no one to turn to. I know i cant survive by myself i need the comfort that can only be found in a hug. Like all of you the only way out i have is death. I just hope that other people are stronger then i am.
If you ever want to talk about anything please please email me or add me. My msn is Braintree_Babe@hotmail.co.uk
|21 Dec 2006||Becky||I am having a hard time right now. My boyfriend just broke up with me 5 days before christmas because i cought him in a lie so he is angy with me. I loved this man more than anything in the world. I dont know what i am going to do without him. The only way i see to stop the pain that my heart feels and my head is to kill myself. There is no other way, i sit at home and dream about how i want to kill myself. I cant turn to any of my friends because we both have the same friends. I tried telling him we can work it out but he said its something that only He can think about. i can eat and all i want to do is die.
So to be honest with everyone i dont know what the best way of doing it is. I am trying to find out. I just thought about get drunk and driving my car into tree, maybe that way i wont kill myself just put myself in a coma.
All i wanted was to have someone love me for me, i give and give but no one will love me back. So the only way is to stop my brain and just end things...I just dont know how?
|20 Dec 2006||suicidal.hate||well i dont know how the best way to kill your self. but i wish i can kill my self sometimes. but its hard to do it when i have a 2 year old girl. and im only 17. i really dont know what or why im here in life for. i really dont kow if i wan to live any more. i wish i can give up. and some times. i feel realy bad when i do. but yah. well i dont know why you guys cut on your self and all. but this is why i do it to my self. i like to sit in my bathroom . and i will sit there thinking about the times that mad me feel like shit and the times that i was treated like shit. well i will have the razor blad in my habd and i will take it to my wrist and just let it go over my skin. i will watch my blood drip to the floor. well i was raped and molested by my family. and was told that it was my foult that was happin to me . and i was not wanted by any of my family. yah this starting to sound stupid but yah. this is just some of the resons why i do it. if you wan to know more. send me soemthing at firstname.lastname@example.org|
|20 Dec 2006||evolution||reading previous comments on this site makes my issue look nothing...but here goes...
the burden of education whacks me all the time. don't get me wrong, im 24 right now, with a good profession and my life is almost complete....
but my shitty grades all my life have given me the desire to end my life. i cant take this BS anymore. and why i wanna do this, because i can't withstand my parent's pain when they see my bad results and they start abusing me and entirely disown me...i can't see the sorrow in my mom's eyes....
why can't they realize that im just one fucked up child and just a average kid...
neither am i liked in my family...im simply shunned because of this thing they called education...i have a an honours degree and a graduate and God knows how i hve worked hard to achieve this but looks like this master's thing is getting over my head...i keep failing papers by a mere 1 or 2 marks...is this insane or wht????
tell me the best solution which is painless and easy. i think pills will do the job...
if i get no answers, i will go with ahead with the pills in a few days...
shitty life, u have to live it for others but not urself....sad...