|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|18 Jan 2007||matt||dude im bout to blow my brains out in like 2 days..nobody knows it but i hope it tears there hearts up.i dont care bout them. all it is jus lies and nuttin else. no emotions or ne thing jus lies.wtf is there to live for|
|17 Jan 2007||Shalena||Hey, someting we have in common. Everyone tells me I"m beautiful, but I'm not alllowed to date, sleep over anyones house. My mom, I haven't seen her in 3 years or more, my dad, don't live with him, my step-grandma sucks...She said I need above a c to satisfy her basically, and the only thing I enjoy doing is playing guitar and singing, other wise, I could just DIE!!!! In 8th grade, I took a bunch of tylenol in the p.m. , and I lost my sight and was gonna die, but my dad called 911, and they put me in some mental hospital I felt awkward in, but now i'm depressed again and wanna die again, and I'd rather be in that mental institution than to be herre!!! I hope that helps... (When you take pills, you can feel your body slowing down, and you get really sleep!_)|
|16 Jan 2007||Ugh!||Oh boy... This is probly like the 4th time I posted here... well, I have a history (within the last 3 months) of suicide and cutting, first time, I swallowed 300mg of muscle relaxors, that really didnt do much at all, but it was all that was in the bottle... 2nd time I swalloed 1.3 grams (1320mg)of oxycotton, im suprised that didnt really fuck me up, the third time I slashed my wrist, but it wasn't deep enough because the knife I was using sucked.
well I doubt there will be another suicide attempt, but knowing how my moods change easy, I guess I have some mood swing problem... something like that, well the reason why I was trying to kill myself was out of boredom, and I thought I loved this one guy (im gay) but I was just attracted to him, and I still am, but I will probly always be, because hes soooooo hot. But anyway, I dont really know why I was trying to kill myself about it, but really its just the rejection (no I didn't ask him out, I know hes straight) and I felt ugly, because even if he was gay, I bet he still wouldn't wanna go out with a fat ass like me... but I do know, im not ugly, just fat =p anyhoo... fat changes, so its not a big deal, too bad I didn't think like that before, but anyway, I got back from the store, and my dad started drinking again, I fucking hate it when he drinks, he said he would kill me, over something stupid, I know its just his drunk side talking, but if he says that, you know he thinks about it alot, and that didn't put me in too much of a good mood. Oh well, I still didn't cut myself over it... (amazing, right?) if it were me about 1 1/2 months ago, I probly would have put on about another 100 cuts on my arm again. Or tried something, like swallowing pills, but its such a drag when u gotta drink charcol... I rarely have time to myself to attempt anything nowadays, but I am starting to just dislike dad... Hes so idiotic when hes drunk too, like he was telling me how lucky I must be to have a dad like him, because he was driving 80mph down a 35mph road and blasting this totaly fucking hideous song (something about rollin' on a river) and it was so horrible... Anyway, thanks for paying attention to my story.
|16 Jan 2007||just a guy||I tried to commit suicide 2 times before. The first time I only took 20 tablets so I was ok. The second time I took 140 different painkillers because I really didn't want to be ok. But I didn't die and I was sick and I had to stay in hospital for 2 days on a machine. Please someone email me I just want to be friends.|
|15 Jan 2007||kyu||everyone always talks about how they were abused and hurt and that is why they want to commit suicide. i dont have that defence. I'm trapped within myself, i have a world that i cant dissapear from, it wont leave me alone. no matter what i do i find myself in my world. this is perfectly normal for any young child, but if it still happens when you are 15 there is something wrong with you. i have been forced to move around the country 9 imes and everytime i start to like the place i live im forced to leave again. i was suicidal when i was 6-8, when i was 9 i started cutting and when i was 11 i became suical again. every attempt has failed. my sister is in treatment, so if i get caught ill end up with her. i have no purpose and i want it to end. the whole "my own world" thing sounds like crap but you have to trust me. imagine every time you try to get anything done, fall asleep, listen to someone, talk to some one (by the way ive also become anti-social and anti-trend) or even watch tv you cant. PLEASE HELP ME!!!|
|15 Jan 2007||Tia Russell||well i think im about 2 go bac 2 olf habbits i need a friend not just sum1 2 talk 2 a real friend plzzzzz help this may be my last cry 4 help add me Greendayluver00@msn.com.....Juggalette4life@comcast.et....Bornwithanaxeicp4eva@yahoo.com ....Emoangel0069@aol.com pllllllllzzzzz contact me|
|15 Jan 2007||Jon||I would like some help from any one can give me advice, im not under 13, but still in my teens. I feel like running away from everythink i want to commit suicide but im scared. i am stuck on life. i fill so lonely in life it fills like i got nothink, still liveing at home with my mum and dad who are alcoholics and dont take an interest in me. and im scared of asking them if they are my real parents because i think im adopted and i dont know how or if i should ask them. I dont know what to do please help.|
|15 Jan 2007||taylor||I'm exactly 13, and I know sooo many ways I could do it. I just want it to be painless though. Painless and peaceful, so I think that maybe takign pills would work, but are pills painless? And if so, do you know what kind are the best? I want to do it this May. I'm goign to lay under a tree, take the pills, and start reading my favourite book while listening to my favourite songs...do pills kill you that fast? Gosh, could someone help me figure something out please? Thanks, you're all so awesome. =]|
|14 Jan 2007||Brandon||Hi my name is Brandon! I feel very depressed! I agree with "Runescape101" people over the age of 18 really dont know how I feel or in his case how he feels! We all feel different! I am 12 years old! I cut myself and do marijuana and drink alcohol! My mother died when i was 6 years old! My father left when I was 3! My father used to rape me and my sister! (My sister has not commited suicide) I am very depressed! My father also abused us physically and sexually! He is an alcoholic and a drug-addict! I need help! I am going to hang myself tonight! Please pray for me
~Brandon~ Soberebos@yahoo.com! also check out www.myspace.com/imtherealthing! Brandon
Brandon Michael Morgan ~~~~~~~
|13 Jan 2007||Villevissen||To begin with... My father is a religious maniac. When i was really small, like 4 years old he had made my whole family crazy. he had even brainwashed me so badly that i thought i saw demons on the walls and the sealing. My parents started to argue very badly and it all ended in a devorce. Later on my mom met a new dude. At first he seemed to be a great guy and then he started threatening me whenever i did somthing with his giant fist and said he was going to beat me up if i ever did anything more and shit like that. And then he started treating my mom really badly, caling her a whore and stuff and they separated a while after. My whole childhood has been somewhat turbulent and i've had suicide thoughts since i was about 6 or 7 years old. When i was about 8 i started smacking my head agaist the wall and said that i wanted to die. so my mom took the whole family to a shrink and nothing got better by that.
I've got 3 sisters and 1 brother. 2 older sisters and 1 older brother and a little sister with down's syndrom. All my family members got out from my first father rater sane axcept for me. they could all process the whole shit, My sisess talked to eachother and my brother made my life into a living hell.
i've had thoughts about killing my brother since i was about 12 or 13. All this have resulted in me getting a splited personality. 1 Really dark side that hates my whole family so deeply, And he wants strange things tho he does not wish to die. He is the side of me that have kept me from killing my self instead coz he turns my sadness to hatred and anger.
In my young childhood we lived out on the country side. Since i was so badly alergic to fur animals i couldnt meet any of the other kids near our house. So
it left me with a social disabilety. First day in school i was so happy to see other kids so i littarly grabbed the first kid i saw (Since i didnt know how to make friends that was the first thing that flew in my mind) and after that all the kids where afraide of me.
The rest of my school path have been much more wierd. I if i didnt team up with the worst kid in class i beat him down. And i've always bullied other kids in school and never litsend to the teachers and always did as i wanted.
then i hit the age of 13 and found some really nice friends. We skipped school everyday and started going out on town to start fights with other things and bust houses and stuff. And thats when i first found alcohol. i hit the age of 14 and still skipps school and is out with my friends, but after i while i go to school to meet other people. Thats when i started drinkin, Every morning for like 3 months. It was the sweetest time of my life! I really loved that time! It was the only time of my life that i didnt want to die. I was really happy. Then 1 day i realized that i wanted to go home and drink so i tought "Omg im going alcoholic" so then i almost stopped drinkin. then i hit 15 kept doing what i was doing and lived more and more towards the "Egde". Me and my friends was just about to pass that "Edge" when i thought that i didnt want to be a part of it. my life was fucked up as it was. So i didnt be with my friends as much and didnt follow them to parties and stuff. By now half 9th grade had passed. thats when my friends started drifting apart because one of my friends was going to a foster home and all of us was on the edge on also beeing put in a foster home. So i started to meet new people but i never really got to know them or thier friends. then i started in high school or whats it called in enlish ^^ By that time my old friends had either disapeared or was in jail or in a foster home far far away so i couldnt be with them and since i didnt really know my new friends friends i couldnt be with em without it feeling really wierd.
And all the dudes in my class is really fucked up and geeky and i hate em so bad so im very short on friends atm. And that really gets to me... So teh last 2 years i've almost spent alone at home. really hates it. really suckes hard! The only light in my life atm is my drawing and my guitar <3!
Just add me on Msn or somthing if you feel like talking or hearing more of my life. Theres so much more to tell and this version i just wrote is rather censured :)
|10 Jan 2007||lou||strangely i am quite experienced in this already..... even though i've failed so many times and know it's not worth it i still want to try again.
The best way is deffinatly alcohol poisoning, if you can find enough, after that it's hallucinagents and then any kind of medication/drug you can get.
from there it's whatever you want to try, cutting a main artery, hanging yourself, anything. it's wierd that i've just realised how much i've already tried to doeven though i'm only 15. councelling only helps for a couple of days and it's so easy to just pull the wool over everybodies eyes. maybe if it was harder to do i wouldn't know about this kind of thing but oh well, i still look forward for to the next attempt :)
|10 Jan 2007||suicide||well hi again....i hav never seen ma parents tawking wid each other.......one ov ma brother(now in usa) hates me sooo muxch that he never even ask abt me 4m ma mom whenever he call n even not on net......ma second bro....well i noe he would never trust me in his whole life i noe he hates me but just bcox of ma mom he never show that he hates me then cum ma father well he love his sons.....u noe wat m the only daughter of ma father but still he like ma two bros....N HATES ME......not only ma father but whole of his family his sisters his brothers like ma brothers n always underestimates me....they thinks that as iam a gurl thats y i should be treated badly n they never giv any importance to me u noe wat guys i cant even go out of ma house as iam living in suxch a suciety that dose not a gurl to go out 4m her home alone....but honestly tell me when ever u r upset u dun even wanna hav ur self wid u so how can u hav sumone 4m ur family....n from suxch an fukin family.....well iam not even allowed to go to ma frnd's house n even can not call ma frnds to ma home cox ma status....HUH....they r so rich n hav fantastic homes n they think that i must be having suxch an home like them but how can i tell them that iam notatall rich....i think i should leave now but still wanna tell u that i really dun wanna die but iam still doing all this cox i want to gain attentions of ma family member n wanna make them realise that all that they r doing is wrong....but is this the right way iam not at all seeking 4 help but iam thinking that what ever iam doing.....is wrong but.......:(|
|10 Jan 2007||suicide||well......i didnt write to this site so that sumone could help me but i wrote bcox i was quiet upset that day n had no one to tell suxch things cox ma frnds think that iam very rich and i have a wonderfull life....HUH......well but really wanna tell u one thing that thinking of committing suicide is very easy but when u attempt it and when u see the face of death u really realise that u hav done sumthing wrong.........i hav tried it but still m unhappy wid ma life n always thinking abt how to gain attention of ma parents.......|
|09 Jan 2007||They call me Jr. but im phil||my names phil i went to shepperd prat for slitting my wrists, hanging myself, popin pills, smokin weed, hitting my parents and they hit me back, breaking and entering, cutting myself, drinking, driving underaged. when i was a baby my birth mom did drugs and my birth dad hit my mom and pushed her down the stair. no im not retarded from that and im not retarded at all. iv been suffering from anorexia and belimia. i waight 96 pounds my god brother is gay and i have a great gf hus makin me stop this all i drilled a hole in my knee and yes i am the same person a little bit down. i no its hypocritical but its nopt kool to try to commit suicide. i am also depressed alot.
my family hasnt gotten better im adopted cuz my birth family wasnt good enough to become parents my mom and dad( birth parents) are in jail. people can call me to talk cuz i want to help people stop ill give u the # later.......
iv died ya its not good. since the last time i wrote to this place i died 2 more times.
and what are people gonna say a bout all of u
wow u guys are weird or u have problems cuz u wanna die....
u nmo they cant accept us and that makes us worse
i got suspended and expelled from my last skul for fightin
im rich if u wanna put it like that but it sucks beiun rich
my parents think there so cool and they think they can get away with hitting me
my dad had to hold me back from hitting my mom.
well i have to go back to writing depressin stuff and idn i might go lay in a corner in my room all dark cu im depressed as hell
my screen name for AIM is candyshopper94
IM me like anytime
my # is 443-955-8504
well off i go i gotta go grab a knife to keep my mom away
call or IM
|09 Jan 2007||Yasmin||I am 16 I have had a really good childhood, everything has gone right to me. I mean I am not living on the street I am not poor, I haven't really had any physical abuse or anything like that. Yet for some reason I try almost everyday to kill myself, so it isn't always bad things that spur you to do it, for I just have it in my mind constantly, something involuntary for me like breathing. No-one will believe me, because I am always smiling and I am always happy. But sometimes I just snap, grab things and just try and kill myself basically. I will tell you now pills definitely does not work, I have tried countless times with them, neither does jumping off stairs. I have also tried stabbing myself, but paracetamol does not ease the pain, not one bit. And whilst doing all of this my mother hasn't noticed my stab wounds or me trying to cut my arm off or anything, that's how discreet I am and how unlikely it is for a happy girl like me to do it, but I do.|
|08 Jan 2007||Desires Death||I want to die young, no matter how hard I try, im not able to kill myself, I tried pills, 2 times, and slashing my wrists, maybe its just because im a whimp, but I also don't want to leave my family a disfigured corpse... I love to cut myself, I love to see blood, "I'm only happy when it rains" (if you know that song by garbage) I get a satisfaction from hurting myself, and I don't know why. I know im partially insane, or fully, I see pictures and stuff in my head of me hurting people, stabbing them, or making them bleed, something like that, and I see me enjoying it, but I dont enjoy it, Sometimes I feel really happy, while other times I feel like I should cut or just kill myself, most of the time just for no reason, right now im 15 years old, and I want to die before 17 years old, I guess im just waiting for a moment, waiting for a plan of how to die, my plan right now is to light about 100 insense and just fall asleep in a closed space, but I rarely have enough time to do this stuff, maybe someone can tell me a good way to die? And I dont see why my family (my dad and sis) care so much, they'll die someday, but I also just dont get the point of life, death seems so much more... better, i mean if i was dead, i could possibly be with my mom b/c she died when i was 12, and she was my favorite person. I also wanted to be with this guy alex (yes im gay) and i dont know shit about him, except that hes just like no one, hes just attractive, but i hate everything else about him,anyway... I just want to die! well the reason i dont do anything is because i never want to end up in a mental hospital again, oh my fucking god! i was in a long term one, i was supposed to be in there for 6 months, but i was there for about 1 month because my dad got me out, i just dont know what to do anymore... should I just live everyday and suffer? I dont know why im suffering, i dont know... I have no reason to suffer, even though life just plain sucks, and im insane.|
|08 Jan 2007||Michael||I'm 16 Need help i dont want to die..yet i feel its the only way out... 3 and a half weeks ago i've never think this way..you migth think its stupid the way all of us thinks... but its just so many problems all at the same time... i thought my life was ok...but it all came out 3 weeks ago when the only person that cared for me (My GF) or at least i thought it cared for me told me that the real reason she was with me was 'pity' and so i've began to think..and think...and she was right my life = shit..she just was with beacuse of pity...made me so sad.. because im ugly as hell she was right no need to blame her... i still haven't forgot about her...but she's only the person that i actually care for and the person that made me see how shitty my life was and i had never realized that before..not in the 2 hole years she and i have been thogether...
i have absolutely no friends whatsoever
no even a person to talk to...yeah i haver family but they dont care at all..
if you think you can help me by either telling me how to do it painlessly or how to get out of this hellhole.. i would appreciate it...bye
|07 Jan 2007||EmMa||hi im emma (age 13) i cant take it any more pleaz help every 1 hates me i have no friens when i come home from sleepin all day at skool where every one teases e for bein different and willin 2 speak up i get straight on da pc or i go do drugs and shyt i hate it i dont give a flyin FUCK about life noone will go out wit i asked 1 guy out and he almost fuckin peed his pants 4 laughin god I WANT TO FUCKIN DIE (AND I HATE GOD DAMN THERIPISTS) HELP MEEEEEEE T__T email me wit help pleazzzzz and no god damn docters pleazzzzz (email@example.com) ps im fuckin adicted wit myspace >_< damn it my life suxxxxxxxx|
|05 Jan 2007||suicide||hi.....well u noe wat im soooooooo deppressed today.......im so upset and m feeling so faithless....i dun noe 4m where should i start my story......u noe wat iam a sucidal too but wanna honestly tell u one thing that I REALLY DUN WANNA DIE cox i also want to live ma life n also wanna enjoy......but enjoy....HUH......can sum budy tell me that how could a person enjoy while living in a poor family.......who has a heart patient mother a veryyy self fish father who only care about him self and earn alot of money just to spent on things he like.......well i think i should tell u about me not about ma fukin father u noe wat the only thought i have always in ma mind is that NO ONE LOVES ME i have two brothers both of them are elder 4m me and ma parents speacially my father only love them and hates me he really dun care about me and my brothers hates me too cox well i dun noe the reason but this really hurts me......i have no life no one who cares about me no one who loves me....but iam still alive with this hope that one day every thing will get better........dis world is so selfish the people in this world dun care about any one.....they only cares about them self......but still i have a best frnd who always makes me happy when ever i am sad and.....ma best frnd is ma BLADE...i have so many scares on ma body which ma best frnd has given me.....well i still dun noe y m doing all dis but n this all is getting worse and worse..I HATE DIS WORLD.....BUT M STILL ALIVE ON THIS HOPE THAT SOON THIS ALL WILL BE OVER AND I WOULD HAVE A GUD LIFE LIKE MA FRNDS HAVE.......|
|03 Jan 2007||Kekoa||Hi, I'm a 16 year old girl and I've wanted to commit suicide since I was very young. At first when I was in elementary I was never really liked by any of the kids at school. So I developed an attitude to where everyone, including the very few friends I had, was afraid of me. That didnt make me feel any better at all. What made it even worse was that my brother hated me. Im not exaggerating and Im not only thinking he hated me cause hes a mean big brother. He told it to me everyday. He told me he hated me and told me I was a worthless little shit. I was 4 years old the first time he said that to me and all my parents did was send him to his room and tell me to suck it up and get over it. He tripped, socked, bothered, hit, chocked, held me under a blanket (Im claustrophobic), I even had to get stitches in my head because of him. He still till this day says Im a little bitch that needs to die. Well anyway, so when I entered Middle school I made friends with almost the entire school. I knew almost everyone. Then in 8th grade I met a boy who hated life like I used to and hated humanity and he still does till this day. I started to feel everything I used to when I was young and then I started getting in trouble with the law and with my parents. I started developing more and more enemies as I started going out with him. My parents began hating including my mother, which she still says I'm an embarrassment to my family. My father well there was really no hope for him to love me, as he should anyway. He has never gone to any school function in my entire life. He refuses to take me to school or pick me up and if he has to he complains like no other. He yells at me almost everyday calling me a lazy bitch and such and he has never said, I am so proud of you or I love you or even the simplest how was your day without being pushed by my mother or my cousin who lives with us. He yells at my mother for being such a bad parent and telling her that what I had become was all her fault. So she comes to me and starts yelling at me. Telling me that I need to be perfect so that daddy doesnt get mad at her telling me its all my fault for not being the perfect daughter. Anyways I fell in-love with the boy and we started helping each other. For me seeing him everyday made me so much happier. I stopped cutting, seriously cut down on drinking, and I was an overall happier person. He told me he loved me everyday. But then we started fighting a year later and he said he didnt love me that he never did and he broke up with me. I went right back to where I started except now I had a broken heart, a broken home, and friends who treat me like shit. So now I've been hooking up with guys all the time sneaking out at night and everything. I thought it would make me feel better about myself (I dont have a very high opinion of the way I look) but it only makes me happy for the amount of time Im with them. Afterwards I feel like shit and I just want the man I love back and loving me how he used to. I've been in counseling every since he broke up with me (My mother's idea) it hasnt been helping. All it does is give me someone to talk to about shit I cant tell anyone else. The advice she gives is good but it doesnt make me feel better about myself all it does is make me feel stupid. For any other person it would be ok for but for me its a little different for some reason. Please I'm trying to stay here on earth and just try to live through these 2 years until I can legally move out and get away from this place. But nothing I seem to do works it just makes me worse. Please help me get through this living hell.|