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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|08 Apr 2007||joe||I too am thinking of ending it all. I have lived 45 years on this earth and I have had enough of it. i am tired of the struggles with money ,relationships and just society in general.I developed acne during my teen years and it left some scarring on my back and face ...the emontional pain is far worse. say what u want about personality it does not matter all anyone can see are the scars. when u are 45, short, bald and overweight, broke,with a scarred face the choices are downright none. it affects jobs(which i have had too many to count although none at the moment)i see people talkin about me in public, no one makes eye contact if they do they quickly look away. no dates, nothin tired of borrowing money from my parents now they too have turned their back on me. my best friend is my dog and he is aging 15 years and getting crippled so when he dies i am going out with him. life sucks i can only think of 3 or 4 good moments in my life in 45 years. no one will give me a good paying job b/c i dont have that college ed. my parents could not afford for me to go to college but i am as smart as any those types just never given the chance. in 45 years i have never heard my parents say one good thing about me. my dad once said the biggest mistake he made was bringing 2 kids into the world. i want ed to get some help but i realize when u do u lose certain rights(gun ownership) so thats not an option.i dont want to die but i have no choice i am at the end of the rope so to speak when my pet dies so do i!!!!|
|05 Apr 2007||Kelli D||Hey guys its me again Kitty. Ive decided to change the name i write under cos so many people are using it. Anyway I guess good things dont always last. Me and the guy i met of her broke up but we are still realy good friends. My mates are always there for me and I got a new boyfriend. It looks perfect doesnt it. Well its not. All I've had since I started dating my boyfried is "He's going to cheat on you" or "He's watching other girls do dirty things on thier webcams." Its been said so many times that I've began to believe it. I dont trust him anymore because other people who dont know him or me are saying things. Ive started accusing him of doing stuff I no in my heart he hasnt but my head wont believe him. We argue all the time and hardly see each other. Its hell. I jsut want it all to end. As soon as I find my little bit of happiness something fucks it up. Is this how God wants us to be unhappy. Why cant I be happy? I see couples walking down the street and just wish it was me. I'm not allowed to be happy while I'm alive I know that now. Maybe I should end it all tonight. Maybe I will be happier in death. I no that suicide is a sin and I will go to hell for it, but can hell be anyworse then wat I'm going through now? I cant trust him. You cant have a relationship without trust. I dont wanna lose him I love him but how can I when theres doubts in my head.
If anyone can help me please please contact me. I hope your stronger then I am.
Love you all
Kelli x x
|04 Apr 2007||Aegnor Sérégon||IF you are under 13 I really don't know. I tried to kill myself the first time in the sumer of 05. I was 30 then. I am 32 now. I have 2 back injuries, have to take massive amounts of pills to be able to get out of bed. I still hurt. I have been divorced twice. I was molested and tortured for several years starting at age 6. I recently met someone who fell in love with me. I wasn't looking for someone, but I finally let myself open up to her. We had the best times just hangin' out together and talking. I thought maybe things had started to turn around, and then she became more distant. I think she is having an affair. That is pretty much last thread to snap. I told myself if this happened I would kill my self. My parents are dead, I am in constant pain, and I have been hurt for the last time.|
|01 Apr 2007||its tearing up my heart...||I'm not sure why i am writing this. jeez i hope my mom doesnt come in. well..basically it all started 8 weeks ago. i had a really close group of friends who i did everything with. i was the one everyone invited over all the time, but then...everything went down hill. i dont know why, and i didnt ask more than once. my "best friend" has serious family issues, and took them out on me. so looooong story short, i am excluded, not talked to, exlcuded, excluded, excluded. this isnt typical high school girl bitchiness stuff. this is mean, calculated, and cruel stuff. my parents are missing my sister already who is going to college right now. her vs. me: she holes up in her room and doesnt interact, i always want hugs. my parents get sick of it and rather hug my sister. they're sick of me talking about my issues and are telling me not to be the victim and to be strong. but it isnt that easy, i just cant do it anymore. i lost all of my friends and strength in a total of 3 hours. i dont have a gun, so i cant end my life easily and slowly. i ahve pills but who knows what to take and how much? what works and what will just ruin some part of your body but let you live? i dont want to die painfully and slowly. so basically...i dont know how to die. i get my liscense in november, and by then i can just crash my car purposely into a tree or something. but i cant wait until then, what do i do?|
|29 Mar 2007||someone please help me||im almost 13...my step dads in jail forever my mom lives far away in floridia and hates my guts i have absolutely no friends whatsoever everyone makes fun of me and the only person i have is my dad and he always yells and screams at me. i cry about 4 times a day and i dont even know why, i might be under a disease and not even know it..someone please tell me whats wrong with me|
|27 Mar 2007||well.||Well its been 5 year since i first considered suicide and i am still alive and my life is more fucked up than ever.|
|25 Mar 2007||Nobody||Why would you want to kill yourself when your only 13 and have lived so little of a life? I'd wait and see if things get better. Right now I am 22. I have never experienced these feelings of suicide until now. I feel so weak, so unloved, so ignored and I feel like practically nobody cares about it. I feel like everything I say or do is wrong. I feel like I'm stupud half the time. I'm only 22. Some people probably think this wouldn't be so much of a problem...but I have held a bunch of sleeping pills in my hand and just looked at them and wish I could swallow them all. I couldn't do it though. I've this once or twice while I was home alone. I just got to thinking about everybody in my life and wondering where would I go after this? It just scared me. So I put them back and decided against it. I don't want my parents finding out or any of my friends...well I don't even have any friends right now. I am too scared to tell my mom that I feel like killing myself because I don't want to scare her or anything. I do have so many feelings bottled up inside me though and I think those are tearing me apart. I feel like I'm just struggling to get through...but I have looked up suicide and I am surprised at how many people want to do this. I also found some of the stories on here inspiring and helpful. I will try...try...try to move forward as best as I can and try to believe that God is wanting me to survive and remain in this life.|
|24 Mar 2007||Joelius||dont... I Just lost one of my good friends to suicide 4 days and I have not stopped crying. she thought she had to die to make the pain stop but she caused so much pain for all the people that love her.. and there are alot more than she thought. she hung herself, and her mother had to walk in and see her daughter hanging there. I cannot sleep properly It hurts everytime i breath. think about the people you are leaving behind, the words they may fire at u are not how they feel inside. prove that you are stronger by living... choose life and if any of you need help I am here... my name is Joel and I am 19 I live in australia and I miss my good friend Jenna one of the beautifulest nicest caring people in the world... My heart died on tuesday the 20th of march 2007 when at just 16 Jenna decided to take her life... I will never be the same I will never recover. I will always love her and always miss her... ALWAYS... my email is email@example.com if u need to talk... I am here... <3 RIP JENNA|
|20 Mar 2007||lonely lonely emo luke||my gf and i wer goin out 4 a month but we had ben friends 4 life anyway i wanted 2 kill myself but she stoped me over and over and over den i asked her 2 die wit me but she said no and i dumped her so she wouldent feel bad wen i died so den i was in my room wit a knife in my stomach wen she came in she called to my dad and i was brought to the hospital and 2 days l8er she came to viset me and i got up out of bed and beat her now its her turn in hospital but she was put in the same room as me and im gonna kill my self 2night any way...how???|
|20 Mar 2007||the menace||Hey everyone! If you ever need someone to talk to whether to kill yourself and what is there that's actually worth living, email @ firstname.lastname@example.org or AIM @ somnifere777 (aol messenger), ironical isn't it somnifere means sleeping pill in French, and I know a lot of you would LOVE to have that magical pill right now, to be able to drift into your own ideal world where your abusive past can be magically erased and that nothing and no one can and will ever be able to hurt you again. Well, unfortunately that place doesn't axist, but a simple communication between 2 ppl can sometime bridge that gap. I'm not a psychiatric so I can't recommand any meds to kill or make ur life better, just my thoughts and opinions. I won;t tell you that suicide is BAD and that it's not a reasonable excuse for you to escape when it comes to facing reality. I won't judge. I've read some of your heart retching stories and I have to say if I were in ur situation suicide does sounds like a paradise. I don't condone or support suicide. So what do I stand for then, right? IDK. I just don't know. I'm as confused about the world as u r. I a second year undergraduate, majoring in neuroscience. I want to understand about the brain. I want to know y a yr ago I felt like crap and constantly contemplating about ending my life. I haven't found the answer. My PSYCHO tells me it's the inbalance in my chemicals. Screw these ppl. They're just part of the government puppets to extort you for there "legal" drugs. The brain is amazing! It can heal itself. It doesn't need shitty pills to heal itself. It doesn't foreign agents to make it feel better. If you want to feel better, your brain can do that for you. A neurotransmitter known as endorphin can do that. Endorphin is opioid-related, like morphin. The quest that you have to do is to TELL you brain to release. YOu can do this by encouraging your brain not degrade it or feed it with government drugs. Message me or better yet AIM me, I'm use AIM more than email. Talk with, maybe you can help me too. I need help as much as you do. Since when do u hear a psychiatric (PSYCHO) tell you that. I'm only helping you b/c I think you can help me too. Despite all my reading on the brain I still feel so worthless. I nee your support as much as you're asking for one.|
|19 Mar 2007||Nancy||im so sick of life i dont even know why its this feeling that deep inside of me im always so tired and sad and i was never like this i was that girl that made everyone happy well why the fuck i am here i kno why im here for my girlfriend i love her soo much ive cut myself just bcuz she was ignoring me on the phone im a pussy i love her and im gay gah email me or something if wanna talk ok email@example.com|
|18 Mar 2007||Christina||right noww i dont wanna kill myself i just wanna cut my wrist because i like this kid ryan but i think he is using me soo i just wanna cut my wrist to get the pain out because i love him soo muchh!!|
|17 Mar 2007||kiana||I'm 55; since the age of 2, I've been beaten by adults & kids, molested at 3 by some old man in my first foster home, by dad when I was in 4, 6 & 8, step-dad when in first grade, boys in my foster homes, raped by a foster brother at 13, a date and his buds at 17, a gang of about 25-30 dudes when I was 17, my psychiatrist and his brother in my 20's, as well as another date later in my 20's, my 1st husband, when I was 17, took me 1,000's of miles away from my family and via physical violence, forced me into prostitution and pornography and sold my first born child, a daughter, for $1,000 to an adoptive family. HE wanted to kill me, the first time, by strangulation, the second time, he wanted to cut my heart out and screw it in front of me before I died; I've been imprisoned by another man for years, the (ex)husband of my 22 y/o son turned out to be a rapist and went to prison, having slept w/ my friends, other men, etc. Married 3 times, currently w/ my 4th fiance who hates my beloved son, Luke, who has MULTIPLE mental/emotional disabilities, will probably need a caretaker for the rest of HIS life, and Luke will NOT listen to me or learn from me regarding HOW to make his life BETTER than mine, Luke makes very bad decisions regarding the decisions that he makes, still doesn't have his HS diploma, hates my fiance, they got into a big fight last week, punching, etc. which caused me to have a flashback, my F tells me how he dislikes Luke (when L isn't around) and L complains about my F when HE isn't around, I've already had one heart attack, one stroke and my body, at 55, is already breaking down, I have uncontrollable, violent rages, cut myself, bang my head, hit myself, bruise myself, HATE MYSELF because I believe that I'm weak, worthless, taking up oxygen that OTHER ppl need MORE, if I could get my hands on "my self", I would KILL HER because I BELIEVE that "she"(my "self")IS weak and worthless, a pussy, and I'm probably boring youall with this garbage, so if you want to continue to "scroll" down the page past this post, I really DO understand....|
|16 Mar 2007||sara||my life sucks i hate my life i want to die i'm sick of being ignored and beaten emotionally i have no life no friends my mom favors everyone but me i am unloved ugly an... oh shit here comes the tears but yea i feel worthess and i am dying to get back at my parents for giving me the worst life i could ever have i am going to rip there souls apart (emotionally) but i would suggest doing it quick and easy if there is anyone who bothers to save a life e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org HELP!!!
get revenge pay consiquences later
|16 Mar 2007||falling angel||i have everything in my life. or at least i had up untill now. i never knew how to loose and ive lost now. ive lost my dreams and ive lost huy tran. the worst of all is that ive lost myself.i wanna die but i have no balls to do it. at night im walking dark lanes hoping somebody will jump at me and take away the pain but nothings happening.any serial killers here?plz let me know|
|16 Mar 2007||KEN||hi some may remember me and some may not to me it does make a differnece i have posted alot on here looking for help but it seems like no one cares so now i have made my desion tonight will be my last night alive i cant take it anymore my mother hates me my father does wanna even pretend i exist the only one that really gives a shit is my girlfriend to everyone i am just another loser that wonders this earth so by the time you read this i will be gone good bye (KEN)|
|16 Mar 2007||Andy||This is sick....but i guess if it helps people...I'm 22 almost 23, and i'm going to Kill myself, my life is absolute shit and since the new government stuff about benifits in the U.K i have no money and thousands of pounds in debt, my music career is non existant and i've fell in love with a very suicidal and destructive person that wants to die...i just wanted to ....well i dunno really....i love you all....all the nice folk in the world...it is a nice place and full of good people but i'm just cursed...i love you all Bye Bye|
|13 Mar 2007||ME||I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW MANY PILLS AND WHAT KIND OF PILLS I HAVE TO TAKE TO KILL MYSELF, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE. NOT ONE THING IN MY LIFE IS GOING RIGHT AND I'M SO TIRED OF HURTING. CAN SOMEONE HELP ME OR TELL WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DO IT?|
|13 Mar 2007||noone||well my thrill is gone in life, I'm 22 and life has sucked since forever, so, I'm gonna put a plastic garbage bag over my head and tie a belt tight around it so, I won't be able to breath this shit life anymore. I plan to do it really soon, like anyone really gives a fuck that reads this.|
|12 Mar 2007||FLO||i'm not under 13 (i'm 23, in fact), but I am seriously considering suicide right now b/c of the state my life is in right now... General overview: i have 2 kids, am NOT married (or ever will be, probably), been through several jobs (14 in 5 or 6 years) and lost all of them, lost my apartment (which means i live at home now between my both of my parents' homes), lost my license (b/c i couldn't afford to pay my tickets), lost my car (repo'd b/c i couldn't pay the note), completely fucked up my credit and my dads (he co-signed for my car), my kids hate me (would rather be with their dad, either of their grandmas, ANYONE other than me), i can't get any assistance for my children or myself through the state (meaning no food, no insurance, no cash, NOTHING), can't find another damn job to save my life (i've been searching for at least 6 months), i am in this continuous state of aloneness, and i can HONESTLY say everyone in my life would really be better off without me around... no one can tell me better than myself how worthless i am.... I stole one of my mother's old prescriptions for Xanax (from 2005, but it's definitely still good).... i'm just waiting to get away to a room somewhere where no one knows me and no one will try and stop me... I have 124 pills right now and i'm ready to take them.... it would be ABSOLUTELY and TOTALLY painless... i could get a couple of beers to wash 'em down.... pills are the way to go, b/c they hurt the least and do the most.... i would hate for a 13 year old to do this, but why wait fo your life to turn up like mine? Good luck with whatever u all do|