|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|13 May 2007||locha||Ok so I'm not 13 but I am 15 and the best way to kill yourself is pray to god and tell him to take your life away I tried killing myself 2times but it didn't work I needed some1 to kill me I needed a gun its the easiest way my life SUCKS at this point in time and it CAN get worse I'm failing school and everyone is fucking being assholes to me I need help but can't afford it I pretend that everything is ok when its not I hate my life and want to die
Anyone wanna talk aim me at itsmelocha
|11 May 2007||John||Life can be extremely beautiful. I have experienced very beautiful periods, but also lots of and very long depressing periods. The last years things were getting better for me. Until a few months ago I got a serious set-back. I was on the very edge of suicide. When I would have had an instant way out like a potassium cyanide pil there was a 99% chance I wouldn't be writing this anymore. And actually that would be a shame because I know how much I can enjoy life. But a major problem keeps me from being happy today. I cried out for help. My family an girlfriend offer me help as much as they can. A person I have met on this site helps me too, which I very much appreciate. With the help of my friends and God I'm trying now to get my major problem solved. Sometimes I get little signs, that I will find a way out. But it remains very uncertain today, and that scares me. I need a lot of courage, perseverance, luck and the help of God.
All help is welcome to get me through, because I want to live, but it's damn hard
|05 May 2007||Irie||Hi
It always takes me by surprise when I realise how similar we are to each other in terms of fears, aspirations, ideas of happiness and still we do feel so lonely and unloved. There is something that obviously does not click. Are we overly introvert? I am sure even those bullies in schools have to face the pain on a day-to-day level.
My story is similar to that of Dead Inside I have been crying constantly for the last 6 months for what I call betrayal of love. It is just he no longer shares our dreams, and no longer wants to be with me We cant be together for many, many reasons, and he is saying he is just realistic. But these obstacles did not prevent him earlier from having very strong feelings towards me, from sharing common goals and dreams, from making me one of the most happiest women in the world, when I wasnt walking I was flying above the earth nd now he says I am being overly fantastic and unrealistic, that I am a love freakie and that I invented that in my own head. When I think how happy we were in love together and that is never ever going to happen though I have been fighting so hard to preserve this precious feeling, and to win him back, I feel suicidal. It feels like I am losing him with every breath I make, and I feel very bitter that all his words which I remember - all of them in detail did not stand the test of time. I wasnt afraid of death as I knew we would be together always, we had our eternity! He was the reason I lived!!! And now instead of eternity I have a black ugly whole in my life of loneliness, hopelessness and the depreciated meaning of love.
|05 May 2007||Mercury||I would not know the best way to end it all. Actually, about a year or two ago I sat here, on this very chair and typed a comment for everyone to see about how it would get better. And I know for sure, it hasn't! I haven't visited the site since. Actually, I have not even thought about it.
And now, I've cried so many times and I am in so much pain...I just want to die. I want it to end now and I really just want someone to tell me the beast way. I have cut so many times and now I cut so deep but it no longer hurts. I burn now. That hurts but really in the end, I feel nothing. I really just need someone's help to end it the right way.
I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to survive another attemp. I am begging you, help me.
|03 May 2007||--V--||Hi! My name is ----- and recently, I've decided on trying suicide. My life is too perfect, and I think I am causing my family trouble. I don't want that! I don't even know if they are having financial problems or what. They hate my grades, too. Most of the time, I get around 78% as an average. My mom wants me to do better. I understand why, but it's getting harder and harder each time we go through this. I bet their life would be better if I dissapeared from the face of earth. But one problem is I can't find a meathod that won't hurt horribly, and if I don't die, I coul become some cripple and suffer for the rest of my life. I really don't deserve this wonderful life, others do. Well... this may be the only thing left of proof that I actually existed... So, Bye! (P.S. I love the simpsons, who doesn't?)|
|01 May 2007||Amber||I too would like to kill myself I am 24 yrs old my mother killed herself when I was 16 sometimes it really seems like there is no body that does care or love me and dont even mention shrinks I've been there and done that I dont trust them you only pay them to hear what you want to here plus you cant trust them for the somple fact that they are being paid no one really listens or cares because when it comes right down to it they only care about their self I've been this way since I was 14 now 10 yrs later I feel the same way and I still hate myself and it will never change I've cried out for help so many times but nobody ever listens not even my bf he pnly makes it worse I cant tell you any reasons why you should'nt but I can say that its not too late for you you have a lot of years to live so do your best to live it up the best way that you can hopefuly later you wont feel that way|
|01 May 2007||jess||i hate life
im pregnant at 12
my boyfriend killed himself
my best friend killed himself
i was sexually abused
i was bullied all trough primary
i hate life
i used to cut
ive tried to kill myself at 13 time
but iv pulled through if i can you i was hard
|01 May 2007||robert||iam in foster care people boss me a round and i hate that if you have any ways to kill me|
|30 Apr 2007||nyasha lindiwe||I have had suicidal thoughts eversince i was a chil, i was raped several times and i have always been quiet. I have tried it once and i failed, i drank poison but my parents rushed me to the hospital, the secong time my cousin stopped me. I feel like she was the only person who understood me, she died od pneumonia i wish that i could have traded places with her. My life sucks, i have tried changing for my boyfriend of 4 years and he dumped me cause i tried to change for him, he doesnt notice the change. I feel like shit everyday, i am always in my room i cant even gather up the strength to go to school cause i feel sooo numb, i am in university. I don't feel worthy to live here, everything just doesnt work out. I called my boyfriend cause i feel closer to him and i wanted to talk to him cause i ahve been having suicidal thoughts, he doesnt care he told me to shut up and he said that he didnt want anything to do with me. My father cheats on my mum and that hurts me alot, There are sooo many reasons to it, and id love to be with my cousin again cause she made me feel like i was worth it. I don't feel loved, i am going to kill myself and the best way is to shoot yourself right in the heart cause thats where it all lays. If my family is reading this, you didn't help me when i asked for help, allen hwengwere you told me to shut up when i wanted to talk about my depression and you ignored me...you shall feel the pain i went through soon.|
|28 Apr 2007||emily||FUCKING KILL ME SOMEONE I DONT WANT TO GO ON ANY MORE!!!!
im a failure
i cantr do anything right
i juts wonna die
help me please
|27 Apr 2007||alex N||dear god
please help me
im begging you
ive fallen down
can you help me up?
i just feel like i cant go on living this life anymore
everyday just seems like an uphill struggle
im so worthless
lord, i feel so alone, i feel like i have nobody.
i am crying out to you to pick me up out of this hole i have fallen down
at the moment, i dont even have a reason to get out of bed in the morning
i just lie there and think, wots the point
im such a looser
im such a big dissapointment
lord, please help heal this heart of mine,
it feels like its being pulled down by the most heavy weight
and i dont know how much more i can take
im holding on, by a thread
i just wanna go, take all this pain away
i just wanna leave this place
i feel so worthless
i feel so down
lord, please help me, please! help me stop feeling this pain
i just cant take it
i want to die
so y shoudnt i
i mean, people say they will miss me, but they will get over it
it may take time but they will.
lord, i never cry, but i just did, for the first time this year.
so why when i need to cry i cant?
i feel like all the happiness in my life has gone
i force a smile, but deep down, im bleeding
and hurting, my heart id really hurting
and for the best part, i dont even know why?
i hate myself, lord, why cant you just kill me
just make me die in my sleep, go on, 2night, just do it
i cant take living anymore
i cant take this pain
i cant take the way im feeling
i know you are there lord
i know that you can hear me
i know you havent abandoned me
although sometimes it feels like you have
lord, i get this lump in my throught for the first time this year
and i have to hold it in, untill my mum goes upstairs
but then i just let it all out, it feels good to cry, so y dont i?
everything is lost, my whole life feels like it is crashing down all around me
i mean, lets face it, im not gonna b ok,
things are only gonna get worse
i feel so alone
so fragile, like i am just gonna break at any second
people, my friends, think im happy, im not! i have never been so low
i am hitting new lows every day!!
and no, its not getting better, its getting worse and worse
why am i feeling this way?
oh, here comes that feeling again
hopelessness, worthlessness, DEPRESSION!!
Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And Im on my way back down,
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
i loose my hunger for food
as my heart sinks lower and lower into the ground
why dont i just collapse here on the floor and die
will anyone notice when im gone?
will i go to a better place?
love, i so desperatly need, sometimes, just a long hug
but it never happens
i just go home and i have my mum shouting at me, oh yes, thats very comforting
thankyou lord, for giving me a mum, who hates depressed people, she doesnt know the first thing about how im feeling
and yet i have to hide it all from her
i book an appointment to see my doctor
does she know? NO
i love you jesus
i just want someone to say that they love me
i hate having to hide the way im feeling, and pretending that everything is ok
last month i tried to top myself
i am saying to everyone that this month is much better
but, its actually, much worse
i just want to go, dissapear, vanish, be gone from this world
i really dont want to be me anymore
so if i do die, please help me lord, please say there is something better than this?
theres got to be?
i wish i could make sense of all these thoughts going round my head
my heart is empty, i feel like i am going into a black hole
despair??? lord please tell me why i am feeling this way
please tell me why i am feeling so alone
please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its not going to be ok
im on my way back down
and i will never be able to turn my frown upside down
i will never be ok
i will never be anything
im just one big fuck up!!!
|25 Apr 2007||LK||today was another fuked up day. im thirteen my lifes slowly falling apart and im trying to find some reasons to live. I'm to scared to cut myself and im not much of a fan of the hanging. but jumping off of a building seems the easiest way. My parents are the worst. They dont talk to me. They dont know whats going on in my life and they dont seem to care. They love my baby brother way more than me and they spoil him like crazy. and im guessing deep down inside they wish i was never born. Well im not an outcast and i have a lot of friends. i dress normal and im self concious way too much. i never have time to sit and think to myself about things and its tearing me apart. im always busy and sometimes i wish i had someone who was here to make my life easier. i think the main reason i want to die is because i cant handle all the pain and stress and i dont think anyone understands me.
i wish someone did. i know there are people who will act like they do but truly no one ever really does understand.
i know people will be sad if i killed myself. but i just want to make them realize how much they hurt me. and i want them to hurt as much. then maybe they would understand how it really feels to be in so much pain.
|23 Apr 2007||takethislifeandshoveit||I am a mormon and I have always fought suicidal thoughts and they put me on anti depressants when i was 9 which i recently went off of but am thinking i should go back on because if i dont then i know i will take my life. I am just tired of being treated like shit and wish i could take my own life, but i have no supplies that would really work and i have in the past tried overdose and hanging, but that just landed me in a hospital and i would jump off the golden gate but i have no way to get there as i dont even have a license because i have NO desire to drive right now. So right now as my life turns to shit i sit here wondering what i should or could do to make it even better than it is. i tried to get another job but out here where i live is impossible, so i am stuck with one job and one volunteer position. i was going to college but havent gone in a year cuz i dot like the classes they offer because there is nothing that would get me through life so i am going to try and apply for admission to byu, and see what i can get thru them. id like to get an AA in english but maybe im too stupid to even do that. well thats whats been up with me feel free to write back if it doesnt waste your time.|
|23 Apr 2007||Anonymous||how do i kill myself? im 15. seeing a therapist..but it doesnt help...i still wanna kill myself...wut do i do? how do i kill myself...i really wanna shoot myself but i hav no gun...sum1 email me please n tell me how.|
|22 Apr 2007||kelli||my brother screwd my life my mom did too. i remember coming home and just starting to cry alone in my room. my brother would threaten me with steak knives. my mom would take her anger towards him out on me. her words hurt more than anything. they still do. my father beat me. i was crying one night and he came in and started hitting me really hard. it bruised me good. i suffer from severe depression now. i try to kill my self every night. it never works. i used to stab my arms. a couple hours ago i slit my wrist. but im still alive. only one person know about this. she is my friend. i tell her everything. i talk to her every night. i dont talk to my parents anymore. they scare me. im 14. i wish my life would end soon. i pray every night it would. but no. she said God wants me here with her. so i listen to her. she told me about a website that could help. of course she read it first.she gave me numbers and places to contact. but i dont. im afraid of wat they would think. thats just the way i am. and i dont think it will change.|
|21 Apr 2007||paru||i dunno y...wen i take the fucking blade in ma hand...my hand shivers...it juss doesnt go into my flesh...wht to do mouchette?
help me pls?
|19 Apr 2007||Pamela||I need help my name is Pam and I been wanting to kill myself every since I was 13 now I'm 20, and I still want to do it. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and its killing me inside. My life has been difficult and I can't talk to my family cause they want understand and they will say that I want attention I don't want attention. I'm trying to get help and no one will help me I hate this world and this earth and I can't take it anymore will someone please give me advice.|
|18 Apr 2007||thatkidovethere||so i tried when i was 15, i think. With sleeping pills and some pain killer. Didn't work, probably because i left a note and my parents already suspected i was depressed. Seeing as how i had to see a damn therapist who knows crap about me so why should i tell him anything? So, i passed out when i got to the hospital, then came back out of it i think like couple hours earlier. Then had to drink charcoal to throw up the toxins. Missed 4 days of school, and no one knows but my immediate family and maybe grandma. So things got better sorta then stayed constant better than worse, better, then worse, basically a roller coaster ride. And today for some reason it has hit a low point. I just feel very depressed and i don't know how to become undepressed...nothing really works, its always temporary, and when you die its a permanent solution...so i mean why not die?|
|18 Apr 2007||PARU||sometimes i wonder whether god really exists...am i a fool believing in god?
it hurts me so much to noe tht i am literally crying in depression....i noe i need help but i aint gonna go for help...i wanna die...i wanna feel the blood trickling down ma hands......and then show the world...tht i hav achieved something i wanted long bck..............
loosing ma 2 best frends and ma grand dad...was more than enugh for me.......
now...i live to die..............
i h8 god............
he created me so ugly n shitty and doesnt even listen to ma prayers..........
i gave up on ye or did u give up on me?huh
i am juss 15...but i noe wht life has in store for me..........
so i noe...i aint worth living.so i am fucking off
|15 Apr 2007||LILY||Im 13 my parents verbally abuse me and my step dads like the biggest bitch in the world. He needs to get a new life and i wish he would leave my family. my mom never defendz me when my step dad picks on me, she only joins in...and my parents act like they dont care about me. they treat my siblings better than me like im not even their child. I could be having sex doing drugs and cutting myself because they would never fuking notice but im to smart for that and i wont do that dumb shit. Sometimes i think of commiting suicide but i like living. I think about drowning myself when im taking a bath but i think about all the things i love and it makes me want to stick around. I love my dogs, drawings, movies, friendz anddd EATING. o yea and sleeping.......i dont think im strong enough to kill myself but i have always thought about poisoning my step father in which im not gonna do...i dont wanna end up in jail. but i might like make him get sick like make him pooop a lot or something. I JUST WANT REVENGE. i dont want to become a bad person because of the way my parents treat me because i care about myself. nothings fukd up with my school life except i get in trouble for cussing and funny stuff. im not an outcast or some shit because i have friends. andddddd yea. i wish i could just take some people out of my life. like my PARENTs. if they dont care about me then i wish they would stop trying to hurt me. its just a waste of their time. i have calld the cops on my mom one time but then i didnt have the guts to say anything. all i want is for them to learn their lesson. and i guess if im not capable of living happy then i might just find an easier way out of this hell hole.|