|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|30 Apr 2007||nyasha lindiwe||I have had suicidal thoughts eversince i was a chil, i was raped several times and i have always been quiet. I have tried it once and i failed, i drank poison but my parents rushed me to the hospital, the secong time my cousin stopped me. I feel like she was the only person who understood me, she died od pneumonia i wish that i could have traded places with her. My life sucks, i have tried changing for my boyfriend of 4 years and he dumped me cause i tried to change for him, he doesnt notice the change. I feel like shit everyday, i am always in my room i cant even gather up the strength to go to school cause i feel sooo numb, i am in university. I don't feel worthy to live here, everything just doesnt work out. I called my boyfriend cause i feel closer to him and i wanted to talk to him cause i ahve been having suicidal thoughts, he doesnt care he told me to shut up and he said that he didnt want anything to do with me. My father cheats on my mum and that hurts me alot, There are sooo many reasons to it, and id love to be with my cousin again cause she made me feel like i was worth it. I don't feel loved, i am going to kill myself and the best way is to shoot yourself right in the heart cause thats where it all lays. If my family is reading this, you didn't help me when i asked for help, allen hwengwere you told me to shut up when i wanted to talk about my depression and you ignored me...you shall feel the pain i went through soon.|
|28 Apr 2007||emily||FUCKING KILL ME SOMEONE I DONT WANT TO GO ON ANY MORE!!!!
im a failure
i cantr do anything right
i juts wonna die
help me please
|27 Apr 2007||alex N||dear god
please help me
im begging you
ive fallen down
can you help me up?
i just feel like i cant go on living this life anymore
everyday just seems like an uphill struggle
im so worthless
lord, i feel so alone, i feel like i have nobody.
i am crying out to you to pick me up out of this hole i have fallen down
at the moment, i dont even have a reason to get out of bed in the morning
i just lie there and think, wots the point
im such a looser
im such a big dissapointment
lord, please help heal this heart of mine,
it feels like its being pulled down by the most heavy weight
and i dont know how much more i can take
im holding on, by a thread
i just wanna go, take all this pain away
i just wanna leave this place
i feel so worthless
i feel so down
lord, please help me, please! help me stop feeling this pain
i just cant take it
i want to die
so y shoudnt i
i mean, people say they will miss me, but they will get over it
it may take time but they will.
lord, i never cry, but i just did, for the first time this year.
so why when i need to cry i cant?
i feel like all the happiness in my life has gone
i force a smile, but deep down, im bleeding
and hurting, my heart id really hurting
and for the best part, i dont even know why?
i hate myself, lord, why cant you just kill me
just make me die in my sleep, go on, 2night, just do it
i cant take living anymore
i cant take this pain
i cant take the way im feeling
i know you are there lord
i know that you can hear me
i know you havent abandoned me
although sometimes it feels like you have
lord, i get this lump in my throught for the first time this year
and i have to hold it in, untill my mum goes upstairs
but then i just let it all out, it feels good to cry, so y dont i?
everything is lost, my whole life feels like it is crashing down all around me
i mean, lets face it, im not gonna b ok,
things are only gonna get worse
i feel so alone
so fragile, like i am just gonna break at any second
people, my friends, think im happy, im not! i have never been so low
i am hitting new lows every day!!
and no, its not getting better, its getting worse and worse
why am i feeling this way?
oh, here comes that feeling again
hopelessness, worthlessness, DEPRESSION!!
Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And Im on my way back down,
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
i loose my hunger for food
as my heart sinks lower and lower into the ground
why dont i just collapse here on the floor and die
will anyone notice when im gone?
will i go to a better place?
love, i so desperatly need, sometimes, just a long hug
but it never happens
i just go home and i have my mum shouting at me, oh yes, thats very comforting
thankyou lord, for giving me a mum, who hates depressed people, she doesnt know the first thing about how im feeling
and yet i have to hide it all from her
i book an appointment to see my doctor
does she know? NO
i love you jesus
i just want someone to say that they love me
i hate having to hide the way im feeling, and pretending that everything is ok
last month i tried to top myself
i am saying to everyone that this month is much better
but, its actually, much worse
i just want to go, dissapear, vanish, be gone from this world
i really dont want to be me anymore
so if i do die, please help me lord, please say there is something better than this?
theres got to be?
i wish i could make sense of all these thoughts going round my head
my heart is empty, i feel like i am going into a black hole
despair??? lord please tell me why i am feeling this way
please tell me why i am feeling so alone
please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its not going to be ok
im on my way back down
and i will never be able to turn my frown upside down
i will never be ok
i will never be anything
im just one big fuck up!!!
|25 Apr 2007||LK||today was another fuked up day. im thirteen my lifes slowly falling apart and im trying to find some reasons to live. I'm to scared to cut myself and im not much of a fan of the hanging. but jumping off of a building seems the easiest way. My parents are the worst. They dont talk to me. They dont know whats going on in my life and they dont seem to care. They love my baby brother way more than me and they spoil him like crazy. and im guessing deep down inside they wish i was never born. Well im not an outcast and i have a lot of friends. i dress normal and im self concious way too much. i never have time to sit and think to myself about things and its tearing me apart. im always busy and sometimes i wish i had someone who was here to make my life easier. i think the main reason i want to die is because i cant handle all the pain and stress and i dont think anyone understands me.
i wish someone did. i know there are people who will act like they do but truly no one ever really does understand.
i know people will be sad if i killed myself. but i just want to make them realize how much they hurt me. and i want them to hurt as much. then maybe they would understand how it really feels to be in so much pain.
|23 Apr 2007||takethislifeandshoveit||I am a mormon and I have always fought suicidal thoughts and they put me on anti depressants when i was 9 which i recently went off of but am thinking i should go back on because if i dont then i know i will take my life. I am just tired of being treated like shit and wish i could take my own life, but i have no supplies that would really work and i have in the past tried overdose and hanging, but that just landed me in a hospital and i would jump off the golden gate but i have no way to get there as i dont even have a license because i have NO desire to drive right now. So right now as my life turns to shit i sit here wondering what i should or could do to make it even better than it is. i tried to get another job but out here where i live is impossible, so i am stuck with one job and one volunteer position. i was going to college but havent gone in a year cuz i dot like the classes they offer because there is nothing that would get me through life so i am going to try and apply for admission to byu, and see what i can get thru them. id like to get an AA in english but maybe im too stupid to even do that. well thats whats been up with me feel free to write back if it doesnt waste your time.|
|23 Apr 2007||Anonymous||how do i kill myself? im 15. seeing a therapist..but it doesnt help...i still wanna kill myself...wut do i do? how do i kill myself...i really wanna shoot myself but i hav no gun...sum1 email me please n tell me how.|
|22 Apr 2007||kelli||my brother screwd my life my mom did too. i remember coming home and just starting to cry alone in my room. my brother would threaten me with steak knives. my mom would take her anger towards him out on me. her words hurt more than anything. they still do. my father beat me. i was crying one night and he came in and started hitting me really hard. it bruised me good. i suffer from severe depression now. i try to kill my self every night. it never works. i used to stab my arms. a couple hours ago i slit my wrist. but im still alive. only one person know about this. she is my friend. i tell her everything. i talk to her every night. i dont talk to my parents anymore. they scare me. im 14. i wish my life would end soon. i pray every night it would. but no. she said God wants me here with her. so i listen to her. she told me about a website that could help. of course she read it first.she gave me numbers and places to contact. but i dont. im afraid of wat they would think. thats just the way i am. and i dont think it will change.|
|21 Apr 2007||paru||i dunno y...wen i take the fucking blade in ma hand...my hand shivers...it juss doesnt go into my flesh...wht to do mouchette?
help me pls?
|19 Apr 2007||Pamela||I need help my name is Pam and I been wanting to kill myself every since I was 13 now I'm 20, and I still want to do it. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and its killing me inside. My life has been difficult and I can't talk to my family cause they want understand and they will say that I want attention I don't want attention. I'm trying to get help and no one will help me I hate this world and this earth and I can't take it anymore will someone please give me advice.|
|18 Apr 2007||thatkidovethere||so i tried when i was 15, i think. With sleeping pills and some pain killer. Didn't work, probably because i left a note and my parents already suspected i was depressed. Seeing as how i had to see a damn therapist who knows crap about me so why should i tell him anything? So, i passed out when i got to the hospital, then came back out of it i think like couple hours earlier. Then had to drink charcoal to throw up the toxins. Missed 4 days of school, and no one knows but my immediate family and maybe grandma. So things got better sorta then stayed constant better than worse, better, then worse, basically a roller coaster ride. And today for some reason it has hit a low point. I just feel very depressed and i don't know how to become undepressed...nothing really works, its always temporary, and when you die its a permanent solution...so i mean why not die?|
|18 Apr 2007||PARU||sometimes i wonder whether god really exists...am i a fool believing in god?
it hurts me so much to noe tht i am literally crying in depression....i noe i need help but i aint gonna go for help...i wanna die...i wanna feel the blood trickling down ma hands......and then show the world...tht i hav achieved something i wanted long bck..............
loosing ma 2 best frends and ma grand dad...was more than enugh for me.......
now...i live to die..............
i h8 god............
he created me so ugly n shitty and doesnt even listen to ma prayers..........
i gave up on ye or did u give up on me?huh
i am juss 15...but i noe wht life has in store for me..........
so i noe...i aint worth living.so i am fucking off
|15 Apr 2007||LILY||Im 13 my parents verbally abuse me and my step dads like the biggest bitch in the world. He needs to get a new life and i wish he would leave my family. my mom never defendz me when my step dad picks on me, she only joins in...and my parents act like they dont care about me. they treat my siblings better than me like im not even their child. I could be having sex doing drugs and cutting myself because they would never fuking notice but im to smart for that and i wont do that dumb shit. Sometimes i think of commiting suicide but i like living. I think about drowning myself when im taking a bath but i think about all the things i love and it makes me want to stick around. I love my dogs, drawings, movies, friendz anddd EATING. o yea and sleeping.......i dont think im strong enough to kill myself but i have always thought about poisoning my step father in which im not gonna do...i dont wanna end up in jail. but i might like make him get sick like make him pooop a lot or something. I JUST WANT REVENGE. i dont want to become a bad person because of the way my parents treat me because i care about myself. nothings fukd up with my school life except i get in trouble for cussing and funny stuff. im not an outcast or some shit because i have friends. andddddd yea. i wish i could just take some people out of my life. like my PARENTs. if they dont care about me then i wish they would stop trying to hurt me. its just a waste of their time. i have calld the cops on my mom one time but then i didnt have the guts to say anything. all i want is for them to learn their lesson. and i guess if im not capable of living happy then i might just find an easier way out of this hell hole.|
|13 Apr 2007||Kate||Hey ppl I'm 16 years old and I live in Israel. But even when Israel had that war with the Hizbollah and the Katyusha rockets were falling all over the north, and crashing the houses on my friends and nearly my own home, my situation was a lot, much better, than now.
I have moved to another city in this little, fucked up country to a city where I thought is the best place to live in, in Israel. I have a lot of caring friends, I have my family right behind my back and am studying in a good high school in an "excellent students' " class. I can't even say that I have problems with my self-confidence or over weight, not at all - I really love my appearance.
My life seems "perfect"?
For my opinion it isn't.
I can't say that my life is the worst life ever, because I have read few stories here and I can't compare my life to these horrifying stories.
I have these infinite disputes with my parents, my father forces me to work all day at home-help him. My dad always takes away the cabel of the monitor, so I won't be sitting here for too much. Doesn't allow me to go out when it's too late. etc.
I also have this shit, that I fell in love few times but never had a relationship, never had a boyfriend-I'm willing to have a boyfriend for so many years. Despite the fact that boys say I'm sexy, beautiful, etc I hadn't boyfriend yet.
A boy I'm in love with, for quite long time, rejected me twice, although he says that I'm pretty girl and all that stuff, he isn't ready for this responsability-being in a relationship.
It's so painful for me, to live like that-as my parents force me to do too many things, when I'm in love for too much time and when my grades in school suck-because of those reasons.
I know I can sound really pathetic-but these are my for thinking of commiting a suicide.
Please, talk to me people. Please.
|11 Apr 2007||skyla||I need help.
I hate life more than anything right now. i need a way to commit suicide. I'm thinking about overdosing on anti depressants but idk if it will work.
someone please talk to me.
|11 Apr 2007||Brandon Morgan||I have been here before, I am Brandon Morgan... I now live with my grandmother... She is going through chemo-therapy, she has shingles, she has has over 3 surgeries in the past 4-5 months! My sister lives with her, and hse hates me and she hates my grandmother! I am 12 going on 13 in May. My Myspace URL is; www.myspace.com/imtherealthing and my screename for AIM is soberebos! I need help! I am about to kill myslef! Please talk to me ASAP!|
|11 Apr 2007||Tom||I wish I knew.
I'm 17 and I'm in a fairly serious relationship with a girl. We've been going out for nearly two years and about six months ago we had sex. I wasn't really sure if i wanted to but I did it cos i knew she wanted it, and because i love her.
The problem is, I think i might be gay. I'm so confused, when i'm with her everything is perfect but when we're apart I find that i'm not attracted to her and my mind drifts to guys at my school.
Before we started going out i told my best friend i was gay, but she blabbed to everybody and i suppose i only started going out with her to prove i'm not. i was happy for a while but now it kills me to think of what all ths is gonna do to her. I just need to find out who i really am.
I can't sleep right anymore and i'm a recovering anorexic. and i'm beginning to get feelings for this guy who's a really close friend of my girlfriend.
i just want to die and leave it all behind. i don't want to have to worry about who i am anymore
|11 Apr 2007||alex n||dear god,
today i stopped beliving in you
i stopped because i just thought that how can you be real,
i have prayed and prayed asking you to heal my pain
and i have never got a responce, my heart is still broken as it ever was
so what will it take, i want to be in a relationship with you,
but i dont know what i am worshiping is real
i cry out to you almost every night in one way or another
how i long for us to be together
are you ignoring every word i said?
where are you now, as i am writing this with my heavy heart
where where you last month when i tried to kill myself?
why do you just sit back and watch me go though this emotional pain
when will it end?
because i need to feel happy again
and it feels like it will never happen
i cant see the light
all i can see i darkness
why are you ignoring me god
it feels like i am fighting everyday by myself
and i need somebody, maybe that somebody is you?
what happens after death
cuz i came close the other week
where were you, why wernt you there, helping me along though this shitty life?
pain, pain, pain, thats all i ever feel, and you are supposed to help heal this pain
but you never do, i pray and pray, so why are you ignoring me?
i have even prayed to you saying that i want to die tonight, in my sleep,
and wake up in the kindom, or limbo
why should i worship something that isnt real,
why am i loosing my faith
i was starting to believe in you,
but not anymore
i give up on you god!!!!
you dont want to know me
whats the problem, arnt i good enougth for you, is that it?
you do not bring me happiness,
you do not heal my broken heart
you just ignor ever word that i say to you
so god,whats the deal, i want to know you, i want to let you into my heart
so why are you ignoring me
i have tried, i pray, i go to church, i tell people how awsome you are
but not any more,
i am giving up on you, like you seem to be giving up on me
are you there now?
are you listning now.
i give up
i hate you
has that got your attention!!!!!
you need to make me feel like ive got somebody
you need to make me feel like i am somebody
not just a nobody
because that is what i feel like all the time
ANSWER ME GOD!!!!!!
you seem to answer other people
so why not me?
why dont you heal my broken heart
why cant you end my pain?
oh, i know, next time, i'll pray to get ran over by a trian
fuck u god
i hate you
i dont want to know you
i dont want to be with you
i suddenly feel happy when i rebel against you
whats up with that
im better off without you god!!!!!
i dont need you
i dont want to know you anymore
goodbye god, its been shit knowing you
now that i am giving up on you my life should get better
so ye, goodbye god, goodbye chirstianity
i was never good enougth to get into there anyway
fuck u god, i h8 you and i always will do, from now on,
I GIVE UP ON U GOD!!!!
|09 Apr 2007||kitten||hello i know i aint 13 i am 19 last year in summer when i was 18 i took about 42 paracetamol and went out for the night with my friend i was taking more while out with alchol and i collasped on the floor at the nightclub. I was being picked on because i was clever and people were jealous so mum said, also i was sexual attacked when i was a little younger, At the hospital when i woke my friend mum and dad was their it was awful to see their face i felt awful. However my life changed for the better and i was ok after that i regreted doing such a thing. Now again my life as got worse i had a good job and this lad who i was good friends with me suppose to have been really liked me and he got me in trouble at work because he worked their to and i might end up getting sack now because of him this is the job i always wanted to do aswell all my life and because he picked me up one night when i was downtown and i was drunk he tried to have sex with me while i was asleep and i wouldnt let him and i told him to take me home so he got me in trouble. so basically because of his lies and he couldnt get what he wouldnt the job i always wanted to do might end, the job i have evolved my life round so my life as got worse again and i want to die once again but i just do not want to hurt my mum again like before. theres other reasons to but do not want to say|
|09 Apr 2007||Svante||I dont feel anything anymore. Its like somebody ripped the part that feels happiness right out of my body. My life is meaningless. School is fucking up. I cant see why i should struggle so hard to live if life isnt worthwhile? Is there any reason that i should not commit suicide?|
|08 Apr 2007||im tired of life||i've always been like the happiest girl in the world and even when i was sad no one could tell b/c i'd put on a fake smile and act like er thing was ok, that was until i got into high skool. I've had to deal wit er body sayin im bi and then my grandparents both died then after that my dad died then my best friend started doin drugs and pretty much stopped talkin to me, a few months after that the boi i love broke up wit me and lately i jus wanna die.I used to think those ppl who cut themeselve and talk about suicide were crazi but now i am that person. I started cutting jus recently and I've already wrote the letter to leave 4 my friends and family i'm jus so tired of all the dissapointment and hurt in my life and im soo ready 4 it to jus be over...|