|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|08 Aug 2007||colette||light a gasheater, turn it up and block all the openings to the door. get in a nice, warm bath and just drift away. thats what i would have done if we had gasheaters here. im not really sure what i would do otherwise. maybe douse myself in fuel and just light a match. i dont know. im basically too scared of the pain to do it that way. im such a pathetic excuse of a human being i'd probably even fail at killing myself|
|08 Aug 2007||colette||i suffer from bipolar mood disorder and borderline personality disorder. you dont have a clue how much i want to die. life just isnt worth it to me at all. im poor. i cant even afford the most basic stuff. i have tonsilitis right now and i cant even have my tonsils removed. i fucking hate myself|
|07 Aug 2007||zoe||im 16 yr old n i have written on this site b4 i feel so ashamed becoz im so depressed all the timen i jus want to end it all! thing is i do feel guilty coz ive never been abused or anything lyk that i jus feel usless n as if its my timeb to go! my dad dont talk to me my family dont care about me i jus feel lonely fat n ugly all the time! ALL i want is just 1 reply which will help me find a good way to kill myself i tried n overdose b4 n it didnt work so anything else that may work plz help me go"|
|05 Aug 2007||jessica||Im so sick of life im planning on killing myself tonight i get bullyed every freaken day my freinds arnt talking to me my mom started doing drugs my dad left us life is so depressing i live in foster care thiss is so hard my step family treat me like shit. i close my eye's every night and wish i could sleep forever im only 14 im sick of seeking for help im just writing this to say goodbye to those who give a crap (nobody) :( i cant stop crying anyways i would love to see my foster familys face when i die LOL bye everyone this is the last you hear from me.|
|04 Aug 2007||who cares anyways||im 14 and no joke i have anti depressents by my side now thats how im going to kill myself its not so much for attention i just really want out but what i need more than anything is help there is non my councler cant talk me out of it my friends cant you know people ask me why do you want to kill your slef well they dont understand....why do they want to live when your born into a family that abuses you when yo have like no friends your bullied why would omeone be so crule as to help you thats like keeping someone on life support when you know they are never going to live and all they are doing is suffering maybe some people think this is selfish the easy way out but you have to remember critisizing someone about the way they deal with problems isnt going to help them maybe i dont know anyone here so i can safly say im not interested in your problems i have my own but i deffinatly understand anyways i figure 3 ad should be enough but i kinda have this feeling like....i dont really want to die i just want to be saved but like thats gonna happen right i guess its too late.....
eventually we realize
forever isnt as long as we once thought it was
a friend who said would be there forever will leave you
ove is basicially the same thing as hate
we learn that promises can be broken as quickly as they are made
|04 Aug 2007||Daniel||Could you please help me. I am a Christian and I was saved last September. I am thinking about taking my own life because my whole life is messed-up. Just today, I was talking to a youth pastor about that and he reffered me to a counselor. I don't know what to do now. Could you please help me. I am 16 years old. thanks|
|04 Aug 2007||Justin||I want to die,as life ismt wnhat I thought it would be.I have been patient but it has got to end.I grew up up in a bad country,I couldnt study coz I couldnt afford it.I fianlly met someone who loved me but she changed her mind and told me to return to the same place I hate.1 broken marriage,no education,no money,ano help,im only 26.This has got to stop.KILL ME.|
|04 Aug 2007||SHERMINE(:||Ì`m 13 going 14 this dec yr 2oo7 . Im currently thinking of committing suicide , i dont know wat had got into me , i think im just too stressed . im worrying about my friend's relationship , i dont want her to suffer like i did , im also afraid of something currently , im being so called molested in class , the malay guys in my class used to touch me on my face , put their hand around me , grab my hand , & somehow harassed me , but this stoppes for awhile after my boyfriend went to confront one of the malay guy asking him to stop harassing me , the malay guy is now being suspend for some other case . I'm now afraid as i & my boyfriend had broken up , i dont know wht the malay guys will do to me whn he comes back for lesson & finds out tht i & my bf had broken up . i have no one to protect me now , im really scared . i dont want to tell the teacher about this as i dont want to make things big & get thm into trouble . Another thing im stressed about is about relationship . yah , i still love my EX boyfriend which we just broke up a few days ago . we broke up on the 3rd wk of our relationship , but i still love him alot . i dont know why , i kept telling myself tht im letting go & i dont like him anymore , but i just cant . i dont know wht had got into me , i feel like dying , i just cant face reality . i started to take panadol , trying to overdose myself . i started eating 4 in a day , as thts all i have at home . nothing happen to me , the next day , i ask my friends if thy have panadols at home , my friends gave me 3 each , which was 6 . i eat it all in a day , nothing happened to me , i only felt a little dizzy & almost vomited during lesson . i had a friend who was stressed about family problems once , & she took 16 panadols , she went into hospital . i was glad nothing happened to her , she is now perfectly fine . i thinking of trying it , but maybe im afraid to leave my friends & family in the world , but i have now bought a box of panadols which contains 2o tablets & i dont know wht im gonna do with it . when ever my friends ask me why i want panadols , i would tell thm i'm having a headache , some of thm know tht i would do silly stuffs , so thy wont bring panadols for me , but now i have 2o tablets all for myself , my mummy ask me why i need to buy panadol , i told her tht i was having a headache & our house had no more panadols & she gave me the money . i only slit myself but i nvr thought of killing myself tht way , i just have some cuts on my hand . i seriously dont know wht the hell is wrong with me , i've read some other ppls stories & they were all more saddening & more worth killing thmselves . but i just cant take the stress . i just think tht i dont belong to this world . but i love all the wonderful people around me , my family , i love thm alot , i know thy care alot for me , thy are the best family i can ever have . my friends , many of thm cared for me , but i neglected most of thm , FRIENDS , im sorry . you all are the best , im really sorry for wht i've done to you guys , if you guys ever get a chance to read this , im sorry for making you guys worry for me . i dont know whts gonna happen to me , as long as im sad & feeling down , i would consume panadols . if anything ever happen to me , takecares . people writing here , do takecare of yourself , i know many ppl feel down &upset , things will get better , i know im stupid , i can tell you people tht things will get better , but i cant convince myself to believe tht . im stupid . If Anyone can help me stop the habit of consuming panadols whenever im sad , please tell me okays . thanks .|
|02 Aug 2007||sio||being num and
letting everything go
is what i might have to do
it's to hard..
maybe i'm just not up for it..
don't take it personal
i've never been strong
i need to start fresh
without a trace of the old me
forget the memories
forget the life
end the life!
thats how i feel
the only thing is.
im selfish and
gonna go num soon
i havent coem to ask how to do it..
ive come to say goodbye and sorry
jordan i really did love you baby( my 2 year old broter)
i know what life is about
the world is
i dont want to be a part of the cruelness
|01 Aug 2007||the lion||People come and go but others have a nice time and go very well.Why am i not having a nice time?Why Must I be the only sad boy In the world?I just have to kill myself and let the lucky ones be|
|31 Jul 2007||anon||i have been suicidal for some time now,nothing is goin right in my life,i lost my family in a house fire,and hen things strtd 2 get bak on track i met a girl i was mad about,we woz together for a yr,i woz thinkin o proposin 2 her wen she decided to have an affair,i am in massive debt tht i cnt seem to get out of,i have no1 2 talk to and im just sik of life,i wil b ded soon|
|29 Jul 2007||jenn F||I am going on 34!!I have had a hard life!!When my mom concieved me she was told for sake of her health to abort me!!Obviously she did not!!growing up her family use to say"you little bastard you deserve to be shot and pissed on!!" Never knew why until 5 years ago when my dad expalined she was suggested to have an abortion!!This was explained to me just after my mom died 5years ago!!My life with her was not easy she was mentally and emoyionally abusive!!See she was abused in sme manner by her mom so she didnt know different either!!Her brother sexually abused when I was 4!!I told her but she decided her family was more important than my safty!!his sexual abuse didnt end until i was 14years old!!In school i had no friends!!No guys liked me cuz Im a dog!!I have ADD so i struggled with school but was just told I was stupid!!Wasnt diagnosed with ADD until I was 27!!My mom had a spinal disease that I have as well and have pain everyday,every moment!!My spine will fuse together at 60 or 65!!When it does physical pain will end but maybe disformed back!!I had to look after my mom when I was in high school and hardly ever made it there!i got married to a man that is from a christian family but he is mentally,and financially and emotionally abusive!!I have been stuck for 13 years and cant escape!!Everyone just says leave but not that easy!I can go but without money and my two sons!!he uses my past growing up against me!!My name is on the deed to house but I have no say!He knows I have no education so I cant support the boys and not forget my health!He has ay opver everything!!Im known as stupid bitch!!I had to ask for a dollar for a coffee and he decide if I was worth it!!I have to watch what he wants even though I pay the cable!I work at a grocery store getting minimum wage!!He sits home when Im at work and does nothing!!granted he works and his work day ends at 1:30pm but he will sit in his recliner from the time he comes in the door to 11pm!!Boys are lucky if they get supper!!he leaves dishes for me,laundry-all house hold chores mine cuz it is womans work!!He handles the money and paying of bills but things dont get paid!!he will hand $20 over to feed t4 people for groceries for two weeks!!I have ran my credit up just to buy foood,clothing for boys,and heat house in winter!!I end up sleeping on the couch,getting up every hour and half to put wood on the woodstove for warmth!!He wont carry wood in so I have too!!Everything I seem to touch goes wrong!!Even having children diddidnt go to well!I was soo sick with both kids and strict bed rest!!Oldest chil almost died as baby due to a stomache problem youngest followed with samething!!I just wish somewhere along the line id find happiness!!I cant leave him,I have no where to go!Yeah shelters but I cant care for the boys with my health!!I am truly a loser!!I remember a sign in grade 7,it read....I KNOW IM SOMEBODY CUZ GOD DONT MAKE JUNK!!"Id stare at it and go yes hes does im living proof!!I swear my im alive to prove that if there is a good he has me as a joke!!I want happiness!!I wouldlove financial freedom(not to be rich just to have bills paid and know my boys can have some experiences)I want to be loved!!I attempted suicide many times in high school!!Shows you how much of a loser I am cuz I couldnt even kill myself right!!Tried to over dose but just ended up puking and sick!!I have thought many times of just speeding my car up on way home and nailing a pole!!I dont because I worry about my boys!!My pain is becoming so strong I dont know how much longer I can go!!Lately my emotional pain is stronger!!I try to talk to my dad but he trows out how well my brother is doing!!I asked my mom if my brother was her favourite!!She replied of course he holds a dear spot to my heart he is my first born!!Why didnt they just stop at him!!They would have had it all,her perfect child,and her health and life!!when will I dont dream anymore!!I dont pray because I have lost a belief in god!!heaven and hell!!My life has been hell canit really be worsewhen im dead!!????|
|28 Jul 2007||Sam||I'm not gonna say don't do it, im 13, im heartbroke, and i feel like shit, i wanna commit suicide, because i feel its the best way to go, God hates me i think, he has given me a life of shit, so i fucking hate the cunt for it. My closest uncle commited suicide, and so did my idol, Kurt Cobain, this makes me go fourth and think "yeah, i wanna do it" i dont care what others think, my gf told me we were taking a break, and then later signed my website "im sorry to say we are not going out", how does that make me feel, some people may think "you sad cunt, my mom has died, or my dad killed himself" but that's you, this is how i feel, at the moment, i have my plans of hanging myself from my bannister, the same way my uncle did. Or overdosing on drugs, either way, i fucking hope i will die soon.|
|28 Jul 2007||anonymous||i am 13 and i am one tear away from suicide i hate this word, my parents, sisster (only 10 but a real bitch) and frankly myself. i looked up how to tie a nooce, COMPLICATED!!!!!!!!!!! i am sorry anyone that has do deal with everday life and not get through one day without crying.|
|26 Jul 2007||baby slick||i have a shitty life...im involved in gangbang and shit...and to much shit starts between ma homiez and seeing them die infront of me....all ma homiez iz comin after me blamin me for that shit and im sick of life...aint no1 care about me so sum1 tell me an easy way ta erase maself|
|23 Jul 2007||Carmen||Im 13 and I have tried to kill myself many,many times. Without my parents knowledge.No one knows the pain, horror and depression, so dont say how you feel about it if you have never tried it and dont know what its like to hate yourself so much that you would want to end it. So dont say its selfish, because honestly you dont know what suicidal kids are going through. But I do, I hate myself and i have been beatin up, bullied, cyber-bullied etc. I have no friends, no one talks to me, people start ridiculous rumors about me. My teachers hate me, i get mostly C's, my father is a Pediphile and rapes and beats me and my sister everyday. Yes, I lost my virginity to my father. My mother took her life away(in front of me)! Some life!! Is it worth living? NO!! So dont tell me it is, I am going to kill myself and no one will care, and i wont be missed. What im trying to tell you, if you have a good life, with decent parents, get good grades, popular you have no reason to do what i am going to do. If you've only been bullied tell someone who cares about you! Your parents who love you.
These are my final words to the public I am about to go in the bathroom and hang myself on the shower thingy i just got instructions on howe to properly tie that knot! Well bye
|22 Jul 2007||shawna||alright so my dad committed suicide when i was thirteen, i am fifteen now, but i cry every night because im just like him. ive attempted suicide five times in the last six months using pills, cutting and trying to hang myself. i am a manic depressive and i hyperventilate at night and i am in therapy and have pills but nothing works. the first year and a half after he killed himself i pretended i was happy. fact was i wasnt at all. then six months ago i met my best friend, her mom abuses her and i was there for her when she told the child protective services. but she wasnt ready to tell them everything so it still continues. she is as suicidal as me and i can tell her anything except one thing, that my mom abuses me too, because i know if i told it would ruin everything, because she tells me every day that since her mother doesnt love her, my mom is going to be hers and my mom loves her back. but i think she just figured out that my mom does it because i was on the phone with her and she asked if the thing i was keeping from her was about my mom and i didnt say anything and she knew it was true. so i hung up and she called back twelve times already because she knows im going to do something. ive hurt myself in almost every way possible but i dont have enough strength to kill myself because i cant leave my best friend because i know she'll eventually commit suicide. i know there are people that have it way worse then i do thats why i dont tell any of my friends anything anymore because i hate attention. but i just dont know what to do anymore i dont think i can handle it any longer. chances are i wont make it to graduation.
and for all these people on here saying were stupid and that were selfish for even thinking about suicide, shut the fuck up. we dont choose to be depressed and we dont choose the things in life that happens to us. you have no right to say anything until you go through exactly what we do.
|21 Jul 2007||Jayson||If you truly feel that life is worth giving up then do it. its not selfish..its not dumb...its you...but do know that it is very hard to kill yourself...and congradulations to the people that have done it....strength is what it takes ..and most people don'y have enough to do it.... I didnt untill now.....this will be the 8th time that I try to kill myself...but this time its it....I will never see the light of day again..and that makes mne happy.....I have never been happy..but that thought makes me happy...so to anyone who says its dumb and selfish..you can all go fuck yourselves really hard...cause you didn't give a fuck while I was alive....now leave me my death....
we are all gonna end up there one day anyways...why put yourself throught the sufferening of a lifetime....I dont have the answers for everyone..but I found mine...here I go.......
|21 Jul 2007||jackie||im 13 and my mom has a fatal diesease that has no cure shes ben dying since i wuz 1 year old my dad wuz on illegal drugs so he didnt care and he still dusnt and my sis is so caught up with her own probs taht shes 2 busy 4 me i hav sat on the roof and tryed 2 jump off but i wuz 2 chicked i wuld shoot myself but all the guns in my house r in a gun safe slitting my wrists seems like it wuld hurt 2 much i havent tryed pills yet but i mite soon really i think i just want sum1 2 understand my point uf veiw i want attention but i dont no how 2 get it at skool i get great grades and evry1 thinks im perfect i need help i dunno wat 2 du|
|20 Jul 2007||Hi, I dont know but for the last bit there has not been many days where I am too happy anymore, eveything has been coming at me at once... fiance passes away to cancer, dad has stroke, grandfather passes away, loss of my last 2 relationships, school and work have stresed me completely out, my friends want nothing to do with me anymore, most of them never call anymore, i joined a suicide group that I tried to stop going to but cant because it helps take the pain away, i started cutting, been called countless things in the last 2 months,
thats just some of things and reasons why i have been really depressed.. theres more but too much to write... i just wish things would get easier and not harder... so far nothing has been easy... specially the loss of my relationships...