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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|30 Aug 2007||Ashleigh||i'm 15 i have bulimia i have severe to extreme depression i stress out really easily. i recently got ditched from my group coz i'm fat ugly and annoying... i weigh 55kg. i have recently thought about suicide. any quick, easy, painless ways. plz email them to me.|
|30 Aug 2007||Asleigh||Since before I was born my dad has had MS (multiple Sclerosis) when I was 11 my dad was full time in a wheel chair. Soon enough Don came into the picture first as a handy man but then turned into my dads carer. Being Christian I used to go to a kids club on Friday nights, well one night we came back to find dad on the floor
he had fallen over. All I remember is mum and dad talking then dad saying that he cant live here and then mum telling me to call an ambulance. Dad was hospitalized and put on a waiting list for the local rest home. I know what ur thinking right old folks home. Well they were the only ppl who can keep 24 hour care. Well about a month after dad was put in the rest home mum cheated on dad with don yes don his carer. I only know this coz I found some things I probably shouldnt of. I resorted in cutting myself. I needed 6 stitches.
About ya know 2 months later don says he is moving over to Port Lincoln on the Eyre Peninsula. We as in mum kept in contact then announces that we are moving over there to at first I was excited then mum dropped the bombshell .dad wasnt coming with. I cut again but not as bad.
2 months later we moved. I admit I love it here or so I did till about a week ago. All my friends have turned against me. But anyway. Don well he hits me and threatens me with knives and says if I tell the police or anything he will kill me first and I know there is protection but I dont want to risk it. He is one of the 2 sided ppl he can be really nice like I mean we get $100 a month pocket money and just things like that but when he turns on ya thats when it is time to be scared. I mean I dont cry much it takes a lot to make me cry but wen he is inches from ur face yelling at u swearing at u; u just break down and cry. And just like you my mum wouldnt believe me anyway.
I still travel 700km to see my dad every school holidays. But Its not enough. My dad has gotten worse he cant walk or feel himself or even talk every time I go and see him I feel like I cant even look at him in case I start to cry.
Over the last few months I have developed bulimia and severe to extreme depression. I know I need to stop but I feel it impossible. My friends are trying to get me to go see a councilor because one of em used to do the same I do and she collapsed in the middle of the road and was in hospital for 3 months but that somehow doesnt scare me off to stop.
|30 Aug 2007||Abby||well....i have wanted to commit suicide for awhile now....and am also trying to find the easiest way.
im sorry i cant tell you a easy way,for i do not know.i know taht none will be easy...but maybe a less painless 1? I just miss my dad so much....and i want some one to love me...not like my family like a boyfriend would be nice.
i go to church and all....but i feel that im missing something.
Sorry i couldnt help.
|29 Aug 2007||Vinny||I found this site when i was 13, now i'm 20 and i still wanna commit suicide, now more than ever. When i was 13 i wanted to kill myself for having a shitty life, and it was, time went by, things got better, but they went down again, i should have known... Now i have to face a huge problem, i think my life will only get worse and i don't think i can do this to my mom or my girlfriend. There are actually so many people i would have let down if i do this, but these are the most important ones, these are the ones that will have their lives ended too if i do this... So i have to continue suffering if i ever want them to be happy. Sometimes i think i should just get away, like disappear and do it. But i just can't... Not to them, i love them too much... I think i'll brake up with my gf. It will be better for her. My life will only get worse, and she's got such a bright future in front of her... Just waiting... I had one too you know, but i threw it away. And now i have to live with it... I have to live a shitty life because i chose to and there's no turning back, or an exit. My dad... I loved him a lot, but unfortunately it faded away. he let it fade away, and now he got tired of the burden i've become. He's right... He's got that right... If he only knew now i would really change... If he only knew how much was i disposed to try. Now i have to face it. Live a mediocre life, ruining the life of a girl i love, and ruining all the expectations my mom had.
If only there was a way for them not to suffer....
|26 Aug 2007||karma||im 13 and i want to commit suicide Sooo bad im sick of ym fucking life i got raped when i was 12 by my step dad my mom doesnt beleive me and he does it to my older sister as well my mom doesnt beleive any shit that comes out of our mouths shes on his side when i get back from school my sister is always crying her eyes out she left home like a week ago now im just wanna die end my life and go to a better place soo the world can just get fucked i hate you all no one even cares if i tell police they will just give him a fine or something he also cheats on my mom i saw a women walking out of the house with cash in her hand fucking slut he does it all the time he comes home drunk my moms a slut everyone i know is a slut... im so depressed im gonna hut my fucking hand off|
|26 Aug 2007||marshall fisher||hey its me again (the one tear away kid) is final, life sucks but not for long cuz im breaking my window consume al the mother f¤¤king meds in the house cut my wrists with the broken glass and jump. i want to die so bad please talk me out of it.|
|25 Aug 2007||Dylan||well suicide attempt 1 didn't work instead i ended up getting completely smashed i know the pain will never stop hurting but i wish letting it all go is as easy as turning of a lightbulb i want to end it.|
|23 Aug 2007||deepster||No easy way to say this. I'm suicidal. My life totally blows. When I was a little girl my aunt molested me. I have so many issues. I am looking for an easy way at least not to painful.|
|23 Aug 2007||samrita||Overdose on paracetamol. I'm gonna do it myself in about 2 hours. I've got 80 (they're easily available!) but the more, the better. Also drink lots of alcohol, maybe steal some from your parents cupboard. It'll work. God bless you, I don't know why you want to kill yourself...but I feel your pain...I'm a total failure =(|
|23 Aug 2007||Dylan||im 13 and i need help how do i commit suicide qick and and painlessly. i suck at school i think i have no life so ni do what ever i want to do. 2 dyas ago i called my english teacher a bitch. i just ant to end it so if some one could give me a few i dears about it thanx|
|22 Aug 2007||conroy||hey im only 12 and i wanna kill myself. my girlfriend is always mad at me 4 no reason nd i wanna just slit my throat nd die . i just dont kno wat to do anymore im trying to think of good things tht coold happen nd the 1 friend thinks it wooldnt be worth it to do it but i dont kno.|
|22 Aug 2007||dave||Well i am only 14 and i have tried to kill myself many many times. all failed because sum1 has got in the way. But if youi really would like to die (like me) then go ahead. just take some advice f you want to hang yourself dont use a scarf (it tears easy). so i say the best way to kill yourself would be a knife to the neck or jump off a very tall building. just done cut yourself that shit aint good for you. make it quick. thats all i have to say.|
|22 Aug 2007||unknown!||i dunno but i wanna die!!! i cant live no more!
no iam not under 13!
|22 Aug 2007||Jodie||I'm 12, 13 next february, and ever since I was 9, i've been cutting myself. Before i first cut myself, I was beaten up in school and my friends, who i'd been with for years, either moved to a different place, or didn't seem interested in me anymore. I started hiding razors from my mum, and cut my ankle, because no one could see there. A year later, me and my brother moved to a different school because the bullying got worse every month. When we moved school, straight away, people started swearing at me, throwing sharp stuff at me, and chasing me with chairs. My mum told the school about this, but they did nothing at all about it. I made only 2 friends during the 2 years at my new school, but 1 of them, Chloe, moved to Oxford, and thats when suicide came into my head. SUICIDE, SUICIDE, SUICIDE. Rebecca, she was unpopular as well, and because we were bullied, it ruined our friendship. Last year, I went to high school. All the girls there hated me, and spreaded rumors that i was lesbian and lots of other hurtful stuff. Then i started cutting my wrists with the razor. The girls still hate me, and i'm starting to take pills from my mums medicine cabinet. I wish the kids did kill me in primary school. My life is never gonna get any better.|
|21 Aug 2007||MOB||Someone please reply. I'm 15 and I have a life. Mom and dad are seperated but that's no big deal. I got people who care for me and popular at school. A and B student and football runningback. The problem is that I suffer from mental illness. Borderline schizophrenia and minor dementia which I should be in a mental clinic for. I also believe I might be pyschopathic which troubles me. I have all the symptoms such as high I.Q., extrovertiness, persuasive and barely feel emotions. Never happiness or sadness. I hallucinate about everything just turning gray and distorted for hours. I rarely sleep and when I do I have reoccuring nightmares. My only intrests are women and seeing death(for lack of a better word.) I'm a strong agnostic so religion does nothing for me. I sometimes think about killing others and how to do it. I'd want to mutilate them just so I can be known for something. I'd rather feel sadness then nothing at all in my humble opinion. Life doesn't mean much to me. I've had close friends shot and close family members die and it doesn't affect me. I'm unsure if I should kill myself just to protect others. None of my friends or family know about my problems except my pyschiatrist(Who has not told my family for he knows if he did I might become worse.) These kids who have family issues and other petty problems; try and remember that there is no problem that lasts forever. I understand I'm being a hynocrite by saying that. I believe when you die that you just die. Nothing but black, no dreams, no heaven, no hell, reincarnation or anything like that. Be happy that you have the ability to be feel whether it's happy or sad. Because too me right now there is no difference if I live or die.If my family knew what I knew they would hopefully understand how I feel. What should I do?|
|20 Aug 2007||Waiting||Ever since middle school I've thought of killing myself. I was always part of the picked on group. The small group to the side not many people wanted to hang out with. I think my suicide thoughts back then were more of a way to show people how much hate was built up inside. I always thought of walking out in the courtyard in front of everyone and shooting myself in the head.
But I'm a different person now. I think of suicide for different reasons now. Perhaps as equally selfish or stupid, but I can't help it.
While I used to be picked on a part of the nerdy type group, I've always been the guy who everyone likes. I've had friends from all different groups of people, though I have still felt pressure. In my second year of high school, all my friends had left for other schools and the only friend left was a loner just like me who ended up leaving the school because he punched a bastard who probably deserved it anyways. It seemed his goal in school was to torment those as much as they tormented him. Unfortunately it left me in the dust.
Even though I've had friends, I've been a loner every since 7th grade. I hated going over to friend's houses. I don't know what in me changed because I use to be a normal kid, despite being picked on.
I was also raised in a middle class home, despite going to a fairly upper class private school paid for in part by my grandparents and a grant. I always felt slight pressure from that. But even moreso are the dreams my parents have for me. My dad doesn't want me to have his life. He didn't go to college because his father didn't want him to. My grandfather owns a bowling alley and my dad has been working in the back of the bowling alley in a screenprinting shop his whole life. He figured he was working his way to eventually own the bowling alley. My grandfather recently passed away and left the bowling alley to his wife.
I've lived primarily with my mom for my whole life. She's been overprotective, to the point where I never had much contact with girls even though I had the chance. I've had chances with girls but never took them or was held back. I'm 20 and I've never touched a girl in any way.
I've always quit before I ever excelled in anything. Piano lessons...quit, even though I play the keyboard to let my emotions out quite frequently. I can't dedicate myself to anything. I've always considered myself fairly well balanced. I'm good at many things. I've never had to strive for good grades. I'm always complimented on my artistic abilities, even though I know I could be ten times better if I devoted myself.
But I can't. And there I was in college trying to figure out what I want to do. Computer science...I quit. Graphic design...I quit college altogether. I took a break from school over the summer. Figured I'd get a job. Took a job from my step-dad but ended up doing a screen printing job because the other job was too hard and I was interested in screen printing. I disliked the people. I hated feeling like, even after months, like I'm this new guy and every thing I do is wrong or they have to make some comment on it.
So I quit because I have anger management issues and I shoved my mom and yelled in her face and had the cops called on me. Betrayed because she was scared. As if I'd do something to harm her. I spend my time harming myself. When I fuck up, I hurt myself. I bash my hand. I bash my chest. I don't cut. I don't take too many pills. I just like the feeling of blunt pain.
So now I'm stuck. Should I go back to college? If I don't, I have loans and other issues to pay for. Should I work? For what? My own survival? I don't even want to live, so how can I be motivated to do anything.
I've never felt apart of this world. I have no desire to grow up and make money and live, no matter how successful I may be. I have great potential, it's not like I'm some waste of blood. Perhaps my ego is too big. I consider myself greater than many people. I have a hard time creating bonds with people because I see through bullshit. I see through stupidity. I see too many carbon copies of people walking around.
So here I am. I think to myself, if I had a gun right now, I would most likely try. I don't know why a gun. It just seems right. I can't stand the though of self strangulation. Poisoning myself. Bleeding myself. Something about a loud noise and and explosion of blood just seems right.
But now you see the other side of me. I quit because I'm lazy. I quit because I have no motivation. Where am I going to get a gun? Even if I knew where, I'd have to go out and get it. A young looking guy who's never used a gun and would look green in some gunshop buying a gun. Too much pressure just to get the thing I need. So maybe I'm not ready. I'm not ready for life and I'm not ready to die. What am I supposed to do. Sooner or later my parents will kick me out. I will feel constant pressure from them to get a job before that. I can't just be lazy. But if I go to college it would be for them, not me.
I left college to figure out who I was. But I haven't. I haven't even tried. I can't. How am I supposed to tell my family that I just want to go away where no one knows me. I don't want to be in contact with you. How do I tell them that? I'm too strapped in here where I am. I need to start anew.
But life is all about pressure. All about what people will think. All about obligation.
I've always had this weird notion that I'm supposed to die in some heroic way. I've thought of joining the military. Throwing my life on the line. Fearless. Forcing myself in bad situations so that I don't have to do the honors of killing myself.
But I'm waiting for something to happen. Something to bring me back. But I doubt it will happen. You have to go out and actively seek things in life but I just have no motivation to do so and I don't know how to change my motivation.
So maybe one day. Maybe one day I'll be gone. Maybe one day I'll build up enough willpower to kill myself. Until then, I'm stuck here feeling pressures that I don't wish to feel because I'm to cowardly and unmotivated to make myself a better person.
|17 Aug 2007||mandy||im so depressed i cant help but think what a failure i am at everything my family call me names like whore brat my dad treats me like shit cause i was "the accidental" child my dad and mom bash me i even got bruses on my arms and legs to prove it i just wanna see her face after i die i got the best suicide plan laid out im gonna cut my throte in front of them and when i drop dead theyll see what i am they probebley wont even do a funeral theyll put me in a cardboard box and throw me away i cant wait to see there faces :( you know what stuff the world no one knows i exsist.|
|17 Aug 2007||keisha||i am 10 my parents r split my aunts twins died n my dad moved to sudbury n my dad has anither fuckin kid with a different woman the kids name is lenny ever stupid name my mom drinks so how is a good way to kill my self???email me.please|
|10 Aug 2007||Sara||I'm 19 now, and as far back as I can remember I have wanted to commit suicide, or at least hated my life. I live in a rich family, but you wouldn't know from my appearance. I have an older brother, who gets all the attention and love. For a good 6 years, my mom's friends didn't even know I existed. I wonder if I was an accident. For the past 7 years, my mom has put me down about my weight (she'll buy a pair of pants that are too small, say I can fit in them and when I can't she shows me she can and then starts telling me I need to lose weight), my intelligence, my height, my art (which I used to be proud of) and various other things. It's constant arguments about nothing at all. Right now, I am grounded because my brother hit me. My dad used to get so angry at me if I didn't understand something, he threw books or other items on the table at me. Once he tried throwing me down the stairs. Freshman year of high school, the school found out and he was forced to stop. Friends take advantage of me. They know I'll do anything for them, so the say jump and I do, but when I ask for favors they turn the other cheek. I just finished my freshman year of college, and had 2 room changes due to shitty roommates. My first roommate told me how fat and dumb I am along with when I can eat, sleep, do homework, turn on the fan, have a friend in the room, or be in the room in general. My second roommate was crazy. She spread rumors that my boyfriend raped me twice (which was false), and then threatened to kill me 5 days before school ended and finals began. I have never had a true best friend. When I think I have someone, I lose them due to something like I won't convert to their religion, in a grade below them when they move to middle school, or moved and decided life is better if they start completely new. Granted, this is not even close to the whole story, but it is unnecessary to write everything.
I know I just ranted, but I think I needed to write something down to help myself. We focus on all the negative things because in life we are told we are suppose to be happy. Society makes us believe life is always happy. It's not. Quote from a movie called 28 Days "No one adult human being is happy! People are born, they have a limited amount of time going around thinking life is dandy but then, inevitably, tragedy strikes and they realize life equals loss! The whole point of the game is to minimize the pain caused by that equation! Now some people do it by having kids, or making money, or taking up coin collecting, and others do it by getting wasted." Instead of suicide, I think we all need to find something that makes us truly at bliss. I haven't found it yet.
|09 Aug 2007||jess||i know i cant exactly say you dont kill yuorself everythign will be fine cus i ent gonna lie, i dnt no weva it will be, but ill just say think about living, give life a chance. i hate life, its shit and mine is completely fucked up- i messed up the only chance i ahd for happiness when i gt moved to a foster family cus of the was my family treated me and i messed that up big time just cus my foster parents had rules. somethign i wasnt used to. i think everythign will be ok now but i messed up big time and i can never change wat i did. iv always felt different, lost unloved. my mum didnt give a fuck aobut me she ahted me cus my stepdad hated me. i love mum cus well shes mum but she dosent love me and i cant tell u how much that hurts me. the pain is unbelievable. one of my bests mates ever is in hospital- she slashed up her face neck and stomch and that reli hurt me. this site helps me everyday- iv met soem reli cool people, made some reli nice mates but helped loads of people. if you want to talk- ill try to help add me or email me email@example.com