|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|07 Dec 2007||raven||i have been suicidal for four years. little things set me off - i dont want to live. i dont want to breathe. i love so many but they dont care about me. no one cares. no one wants to know. i feel so stupid and alone, because i am suicidal over a boy. a fucking boy. why am i so stupid? im fourteen and i am already pathetic, worthless. a shell that takes up space that could be used for something useful. i have nothing. i am nothing. im a burden. a parasite on everything that is good. no one wants to see me alive...
i was going to take any pill i could find, wash it down with alcohal. all at night so no one would know until morning. i really hope that i dont hurt anyone - to be honest i am too useless, pathetic, and idiotic to be listened to.
i am selfish for writing this.
|06 Dec 2007||I hate u||i wish i was pretty
i wish i was skinny
i wish i was popular
i wish i ppl wouldnt hate me
i wish my parents wouldnt hate me
parents wanting me to change wanting me to be perfect lyke my sister,wanting to change my wieght ,wanting to change my apperence
saying u hate me, rumors at skool, calling me names ,ny last wish iz for everybody to leave me alone,i am a disaponment to my parents if i die than i want them to be happy because they have a perfect child 'my sister'
IM JUST SORRY IM NOT PERFECT
|06 Dec 2007||Amber||Well this is my second time here the first time I talked about how I've tried on a couple of occasions and I failed at it because someone was always there to find me. I'm not doing any better if anything I'm worse now then I was then I come from a family with problems my mother offed herself when I was 16 and I was blamed for it she did it a little after I got out of the nut house selfish bitch anyway the older I get the more my emotional problems become worse I dont want to seek help my help is alochol and drugs I am rarely ever sober I do everything I can to make the world go away my bf does'nt help me either in fact I was doing ok till I met him he's put me down in so many ways I hate myself but I keep going and I dont know why I feel terrible evry single day I cry when no one else is around my nerves are shot to hell and I really dont think that I will ever get better even with treatment I dont know what to do please help me!!!|
|05 Dec 2007||fucked up||I tried to hang myself today. I fell off the stool before i meant to and i struggled to pull a chair over to stand on so i didn't die. I think i need help, I don't know what to do. I can't tell anyone because then people will think im crazy and bad things come from letting people know you are suicidal, i've seen it happen to other people. No one knew i was planning on doing it, I cant tell anyone that i think i need help. I dont know what the fuck to do.......|
|05 Dec 2007||Tina||haiya. ma nymz Tina..m 15 n lyk u guyz, m a sykopath..so ma parents say.. it startd wen ma parents gt a dvorc. twaz ol ma mumz folt. she a bitch n a goldign ho n yea..i hate her. n ma dad..cnt do nuthn ryt. m a screwup 2 him? a mistake. i was raped a fw months ago n its worsnd.ths filn ov unworthines n id rather b ded than liv lyk ths. i dnt wana bt m constantly thnkn abt kiln maslf n hv tried a fw tymz bt nufnz hapnd 4 real. i fl lyk da failur dat i am.|
|05 Dec 2007||Tina||Haiya guyz. my names Tina.. m 15 nd suicidal js lyk da rest ov u guys.. it feels kinda relievn 2 finaly b wit ppl whu undastand hw I feel. it all startd wen ma parents gt a dvorc wen i was 13. its ol ma mumz folt..yea, i hate da bitch. shes a fckn ho n a goldiga. i luv ma dady bt 2 him im a dsapointment..i cnt do nuthn ryt.. bt mor dan ol dat, i was rapd nd i fl so worthles nd m swimn in a sea ov 'if onlyz'. i realy h8 maslf nd hv tried it ol. landed in hospital a cupla tymz.. any suggestionz?|
|05 Dec 2007||Jacob||im crying as i write this message so i dont care if its sloppy.
hello again people i dumped my GF because she cheated on me :( it broke my heart into pieces and now i dunno what to do i love her so much and i want her but she keeps seeing this guy.
We talk and we say how we still like each other but she wants to fight but i dont wanna. Cause i wanna go back out with her so she dont get with any other guys.
Im ripped into pieces and its breaking my hurt i want to die but i dont got my gun yet :(
I got really no one to talk to and its all building up inside me so when i get angry i go crazy.
I hate my life i hate it so much all i think about is suicide and what cool ways i can get shot.
I really wanna have a Suicide By Cop and when my heat comes in im gonna cause i fucking hate people now i had yars of bullying and that has made me insecure thats why i hold things cause im afraid to talk to people cause im afraid they will turn on me.
Im allways been bullied and teased at school and years of bullying can really make someone not ok inside. People dont know how bad bullying is.
My parents dont help at all i wanna start cutting again and they go through my computer like they own it so now ive gotta install some security to keep the bastards out yes i hate my parents as a matter of fact.
Hmm if anyone wants to talk ad me on msn or email me at: BILLABONG_360_@hotmail.com
|04 Dec 2007||Oxlena||I love how all the posters under 'blame' and 'sadistic' don't have depression and/or don't know how it is to be suicidal. It actually makes me giggle a little. Yeah, I'm Bipolar. No, it isn't my fault. I know that...It doesn't change the fact that I hate myself and wish I'd fall over and stop breathing. Go ahead and say that I do it for attention, but you'll be wrong. If I wanted [negative] attention I'd get into drugs and drinking and fuck everything that walked. It's ass backwards to try to get attention from pretending you're suicidal. You're just going to get into a whole bunch of shit and then REALLY wish you were dead. The last thing I want is attention; I just want to feel better. Some days I feel like being happier would make me lose a sentimental part of myself; other days I resent myself for the simple fact that I haven't committed suicide yet. I'm seventeen years old and I have a record of self-harm, but not many serious enough to be called suicide attempts. I cut my wrists, but I wear long sleeves all the time so people don't see the cuts. My mom - who is the only person who can really help - doesn't believe me. She thinks that you have to have a REASON to be depressed. I guess she doesn't realize that all the negligence over the years has fucked me up pretty severely. She's never cared about me, and she isn't easy to talk to. I asked her, just once, to help me. I reached out for help. She told me to "Go take a walk." She said nothing more and ignored all else I said. There was nothing more to say. I've said, "I'm just going to go kill myself, nobody would notice anyway." And she just laughs and mocks me and tells me I'm probably right. All my friends think my parents are nice, and they can be, but not especially often to me. They get generous enough every once in awhile, but that's no substitute for love. They think that throwing materialistic items my way is going to make everything all better, but they don't realize that I'd give all of that up for just someone in my family that I can call and TALK to, that cares, and that will keep my secrets and not run off and tell all of the rest of my family. I just don't know what to do. I don't think my friends believe how shitty my parents are to me [behind closed doors], and it makes me feel absolutely worthless. Some days I feel so helpless it's all I can do just to get out of bed and do things for myself. I'm home-schooled because I refused to go back to highschool. I couldn't handle it. I wasn't learning anything, and I couldn't handle the people because I went from a tiny Catholic school to a [seemingly, to me] huge highschool. (A lot of good Catholic school did for me, by the way; I'm an atheist now. I felt like God had forsaken me...Before I realized that the world is too fucked up to have a 'loving' God. If there is a god, He's a hypocrite bastard and I loathe him, or her or it or whatever the fuck it is, with every fiber in my body.) I have no trouble doing my schoolwork on my own, but it's about the only thing I don't lack motivation for. I'm also anorexic because I feel that I don't deserve to eat, and I'm hoping that eventually my body will just follow suit and shut down like the rest of me. I have a boyfriend, but I don't think my friends approve, even though we've been together for nearly three years. I feel like such a waste of space. I can't even believe I'm going to bother posting, actually. I don't feel worthy of being represented on this site. I'm afraid my friends are eventually going to realize that they can't help me and give up on me. They act like they'll always care for me and help me as best they can, but I think the time is going to come when they'll give up on me like everyone else. They aren't the type of people to do such a thing to someone they love, but face it, I'm beyond help. The only people who can truly, permanently help me aren't what I would consider allies. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live miserably and I think that those are my only options.|
|03 Dec 2007||kat||I despetly need to talk to sum1 . I have unrecoginized bipolar and I dont want to be on medication 4 the rest of my life and I rufuse to take it now. I dont know how long I can keep fighting !!!!:(|
|02 Dec 2007||James_90||Yea, well im ready to do it. I need a practical yet humorous way to commit suicide right now. I live in a 2 story house, so i have been considering jumping off the roof for the past few hours. got around 2 hours to my parents back. so gimme some answers fast please. I wanna be squishy for mom and dad gettin home. Those cunts.|
|02 Dec 2007||Jacob||Hello.
Im jacob my life is bad and good. Ive got a GF that has had sex over 15 times and she is only 15 and i have not had sex once and im 15 to. Its depressing today we just laid in her bed kissing and then it started to get hotter i laid on her and she opened her legs but then her mum got home :(.And she has this close friend and they have had se more then 5 times and to make things worse she is a bisexual.
I cut my self now and when my parents found it my dad starting punching me while my mum slapped me and they startd screaming at me. For the past 8 months ive been in my room only time i go out now is to see my gf and every now and then to see some mates. I keep my self locked away from the world and i allways have thoughts of Suicide By Cop. Ive got a friend who can get me anything and i was gonna buy a gun and walk down to the police station and just shoot random people :(. I have dreams of me at school with a gun and having a stand off with the police and them shooting me to death.
My grades are falling and teachers give me lots of attitude. Ive actualy got 4 people i wanna kill my deputy principal and my principal and the head of english and just some other teacher who allso gives me crap.
Well ill write back soon people my email is BILLABONG_360_@hotmail.com if u wanna talk and i dont want no cops trying to trace me either.
|01 Dec 2007||jacob||i hate my life. my girlfriend is bisexual and i cant handle it my parents hate me and hit me and when they see the cuts on my harm they hit the cuts to cause alot of pain i hate my life and the way its going i just wanna fucking die|
|30 Nov 2007||Winny||hi there people
i wrote couple of months back that i am sick of my life and some of u tried to help me out thx for that it worked i felt better after u guys prayed for me the suicidal thought was gone but now its again coming and this time this suicidal thought is coming with somethin about killing someone too anyone anybody for no apparent reason i dont want that i want to stop this but i am unable to do so basically i am again getting sick of my life i feel worthless i am worthless can u guys do me a favor shoot me shoot me in the head pleeeeeeeeezz its a request from a person who is already dead from inside only the body is living i am a living deadbody bye
|30 Nov 2007||rana||It's me again with my words and thoughts. I feel such helplessness and despair coming through alot of what you guys have to say. I feel for every single one of you people suffering because it is such an awful feeling to be having. If it helps anyone, you are not alone. And once again let me just say to all the people criticising or not able to understand the feelings of the suiciders. The awful feeling in the pit of my stomach I've had for the last week is not to be criticised or belittled guys. It's real and it's crap and basically using this site as a place to vent or release your feelings is not a bad thing. How much more can a person take before it's over. I recently read something that said a person wanting to commit suicide was tormented up until the moment they decide they want to take their own lives. Then they are at peace because they don't have to deal with the torment anymore. Their mind is made up. At the moment I am looking at photos of some people I love and I want to be there for them for as long as I can. But on the other hand I want to be at peace and my mind to be made up. I want this awful feeling inside to disappear and I wish I could help alot of you guys feel better too. What is depression and why do we feel the stigma or inability to get help. HELP, such a simple word but full of so much meaning. But once again this is just what I think and words are just words. We make words have feeling. We make them have meaning.|
|30 Nov 2007||Rachel aka veggie||Everyday i fight a war against myself I don't understand why he would do this to me I love him so0o much and he goes and treats me like im worth nothing baby you were my life but now it feels like my like is worthless I never thought you would do this to me I really don't understand why I am slowely dying inside and you don't seem to make it any eaiser I really think its time I let you go and moved on before I end my like just to stop this pain and misery I loved you soo much xox Rach|
|28 Nov 2007||depressed english girl||me nd my friend never went out:(
everythings just falling to pieces, i don't talk anymore, i dnt smile anymore, i used to be known as the girl who always smiled now, i feel my minds deteriorating and im slowing becoming someone else, someone i dont like......Help :'(
|27 Nov 2007||alice||iv rely needd 2 find a place 2 talk abot my problems 4 a wile im 14yrs old nd iv bn badly bulyd sins i was abot 8 i always usd 2 fink abot endin it but i cud stop myself by thinkin abot starvin african kids nd that eventaly wen i was 11 the bulyin stopd wen i movd scols nd i was fine 4 a few yrs but abot 6 months ago i startd havin a bunch mor problems agen nd the starvin kids in africa thing didnt work anymor afta that i atemptd suicide bt faild nd was ultra depresd a month l8a my dad was diagnosd with cancer wich wirdly stopd my depresoin/ suicide atempts cos i couldnt let 2 pepl die in my family it didnt seem fair now im depresd nd suicidl agen cos dads got the al clear nd iv got loads of problems im so glad i found this website cos b4 i cudnt say a word as my m8s r al self harmers, suicidl thinkin abot self harmin or just wud h8 me 4 it soz 2 warfl on thanx|
|26 Nov 2007||Depressed english girl||Im only 16, iv been feeling down for the last few months, deteriorating day by day.
It started with my best friend, who is a boy, he meant the world to me, and we would meet up, but he always had feeling for my best mate, but one day we kissed, i got the butterflies in my stomach, iv liked him ever since then and that was two years ago!
I thought things were getting better after he stopped liking my friend, we started to meet up more, getting physically closer, then one night a year later, we lost our virginitys to each other, and it meant the world to me, i thought he liked me, until the day came where he told me he dint want to meet up anymore, my heart sank, and iv never been able to properly cry it all out to someone, coz no1 understands how i feel, he says his sorry that i got the wrong impression, yet he heard the three words i always told him, i love you, and he saw how much he meant to me in person, i even LOST MY VIRGINITY TO HIM! and it all meant nothing, now im in 6th form, and i hate it, im soo stressed out, i cnt cope, im suffering from psychosis, majoy paranoia, and this girl who claims to be my friend, is all over him in my face, things couldnt b much worse, his the only person i can talk to bout anything, if i dnt have him i mayas well have no1 :(
iv tried ending it once with overdosing, but im scared of the thought of death, yet i cnt cope living anymore,
what do i do!? :'(
please help me
|26 Nov 2007||Lil Veg aka rachel||everything happend so long ago and i stopped the suicide life i was leading but then i met him and i love him so much that i would take my own life to know he could never leave or cheat. I really dont know why i feel this way because i know he proberly wont do anything to hurt me but i always think he will and its hard coz im in melbourne and he lives in bendigo i really dunno why im so fuked up|
|25 Nov 2007||combat barbie||i came back from iraq so fucked up that i cant sleep or eat! the only thing that i want to do is just end my life. i wish that i would have died over there, that would have been great, then my daughter would think that her mother died a hero instead of a coward. i have had enough with the lies and the games. im going to kill myself tonight im going to start by drinking then take the pills(that the army gave me) and one by one im going to take them till the bottle is gone, then im going to start on the other bottle until i am gone. i served my country and look what it did to me|