|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|07 Mar 2008||anthony betancourt||i am 14 years old my mom died when i was 2 its weird noin that i nvr rlly meet her. my dad left me when i was 7 or so. he left befor my b day n said he had a great present 4 me the next day he was gone. i now live with my aunt n she hates me. she blames me 4 killin my mom she treats her kids bttr n then me my uncle hates me wont even look at me. if something is missin its my fault i cant sleep or eat till i find it i have no reason to keep on livin death may be my escape from madnes. =/|
|06 Mar 2008||zach||im 17 i hate my fuckin life i want to end it im not scared of dieing. i cut my wridt everyday i have had a gun ponited at my head parents walked in on me i lost my girlfriend on my birthday my grandpa on my birthday i cant do anything i just want out and it seems like this is the only way i want a girlfriend that can actully understand me|
|02 Mar 2008||AAIZZ||im thinking of putting end to my life too . im not scared of dying and there is noone that would get hurt . i feel worthless i feel empty and scared im in pain and every body so far away .no body understand wot i say i think no body cares ,now i dont care my self . i know when ppl say that u shouldnt commit a suicide that they dont get it , i had enough i dont wanna live anymore i get hurt every day , im 22 yrs old but i feel like im 70 , i tired all kinda of drugs but im still depressed , and it hurts so much , im just preparing my self to it , i dont want it to be painful and i dont wanna fail , and i wanna be 100% convinced. ppl think u r cowards or crazy but they dont know how much brave u should be to take ur own life and to put end to it . im tired of all ppl who keep talking of things they dont know about thing about and give u false hopes of this life . its just a painful waste of time|
|01 Mar 2008||philimeneski||God I'm such a waste. My whole life is nothing. I dont thin I'll ever be able to sort out the screwed up mess that I ma, I just get worse and worse. Getting drunk in my room on vodka, like that's going to help me. I feel like nothing, less than that. Since I can remember I've prayed to god, asking him to kill me but my prayers are never answered.|
|27 Feb 2008||tone||i have felt really down lately. my aunt just had a baby and i dnt wna be prt of it and my nans doin my head in about it and i really wana just go for other reasons other than that. :(|
|24 Feb 2008||ayad||hi .. i don`t really know why am writing to u ? but seems i have no one to talk with about my weird problem ... i jast want to suicide and ending my desperate life.. because no one can help me !!
and no one know nothing about my suffering all this shit time ? ! maybe u ask why your life a disaster ? the answer is so simple .... since i was 17 years old i been diseased with some unknow
illness ! turn my life to shit and my life became a disaster since that day and still until now ?
doctors do nothing ? they told me that is weird disease and don`t know way to help me !
every day blood comes out from my mouth .. every day pain undescribeable ... every fuckin day i cry ! and i now became a freak... all time in my room since 10 years ? ! do u believe that ? because
am now 25 years old .. 10 years of pain and alone with jast my self in my fuckin room ? u maybe ask .. why jast kill your self ?
believe me i tried many times to kill my self but i failed because don`t have courage to do it !
tell me please what to do ? is there easy way to suicide without pain ? or what u thing i should do ? because i don`t know what to do anymore ? i wish i jast die soon that is my hope .. to rest and kill the pain !
|22 Feb 2008||who cares||i am 14 and i have tried to comit suicide before....i have tryed to drown my self in my friends pool,i have attempted to slit my own throat and overdosed on painkillers...the only thing that is keeping me from suicide at the moment is my girlfriend...i love her so much....most people commit suicide when there depressed....i just wanted to end somthing that should not have started in the first place...suicide is not a good awnser though try to get through your depression...find somthing that gives you a reason to stay alive...my girlfriend is what is keeping me from it.....|
|22 Feb 2008||stacy||I'm not under 13, but I am 19 and I am thiking about leaving this world. I am all alone, depressed, overwhemled with bills and tutions fees. My mother disowned, my fsther does not talk to me, my family ignores me. I have no friends, no one to talk to. Some days I wake up and I am angry at god, angry that he put me on this earth, angry that I have to live here. I sometimes wonder if anybody would miss, me i sometimes imagine how I will go....Sleeping pills, hanging myself, shoting myself, how will I die? There
is no more help for me....No more love, I am going to die, I want to die, I want to leave this world and never come back....
|20 Feb 2008||Kristina||well right now im 14 and my life is a living hell. i try my best for my mom and it doesn't seem to work. i don't fit in at school and it seems that the knife to my heart is only getting closer. my mom even thrested to kill me. i hate life and i don't want to live it anymore. it was 14 years too many for me. my mom even said if she died i wouldn't get a single thing of hers and i be banned from her funeral. I fuckin hate my mom and this world. all i want is for my life to end. I would say the easiest way to do a drug overdose by taking too many pills. I've tried t and i was very close but someone found me just in time. suicide seems to be the only way that i will end up happy|
|20 Feb 2008||nel||i dont no. i am 16 and want to exit. i tried to od a few yrs back but no final release. i'm older now and no its the only way but how? I think hanging is the best option, no?|
|18 Feb 2008||DUGLOUS||I was looking for methods of painless suicide and came across this web site.
a lot of what I read were bull -shit jokes about it.I am beyond depressed.Living is hell.Theres no escape!! I've tried for so long.And everything is getting past hopeless. My depression,my anger and resentments.I'm am so fucking depressed.I don't want to live.I'm reading and reading but no way out seems like a sure bet.Then I think of "heaven" and "hell" and all that bull
shit makes it harder.I just have to keep telling myself there is no such thing as eternity,fuck that!This his hell!!!!
I have no one that loves me.I have no one I can love. I have no fiends at all.NO one knows i exist.I have no family.I've lived in my own mind and world for over 13 years now.My ex deliberately broke my heart.First "girlfriend ever" Told me she was sleeping with another man.County doctors mental health profile me.I'm not human to them.They wont physically treat me and I am suffering to no end everday. So I'm starting to think FUCK IT.!!!!
FUCK IT!!! IF AND WHEN I GO I JUST WISH I COULD OF MET SOMEONE FIRST OR DID SOMETHING I NEVER DID.MY STORY WOULD BLOW YOUR FUCKEN MIND.BUT THERES TOO MUCH TO SAY.I'M SO FUCKEN LONELY!!!
I'M SO DEPRESSED.IM SO FUCKEN HURT!!!
NO ONE KNOWS.
|15 Feb 2008||stephanie||well ive realy neva tried 2 kill myself so i realy dont kno but i tried 4 da 1st time about a week ago i stood there while a big truck wuz cumin at me cuz i mean im ready 2 die cuz if i try 2 understand wats goin on wit my live i dont kno i juz burst in2 tears cuz i mean ive lost every thang we didnt do christmas cuz a boi ran away broke in my house and my mom got put in jail 4 it my mom got out the next day and as of rite now she still cant work and withen 3weeks of my mom getin bailed out my grandma died from cancer most ppl dont relize wat they got til its gone and that wuz exacly wat happen 2 me and and aii i could do iz cry while i wuz standin next 2 her as she past cuz its so hard 2 watch sum 1 u love go but then withen a month my otha grandma got the plug pulled on her cuz she went brain dead afta brain surgery and that wuz january 12 so yea itz a lot 2 handle specialy wen all ur friends hve turned on you and da 1 u trusted da most got ur mom put in jail and the otha day i found out my best friend has a brain tumor i cant seee my neice when she turns 4 cuz my brotha sista and neice all are wit welfair cuz my mom went 2 jail and ive also neva met my dad and hiz family i mean i talked 2 him 1 day and he sed he loved me and i juz cried cuz how can you love sum 1 you dont kno and i mean ive turned 2 many thangs such as (sex ect ) juz 2 get the feelin that sum 1 loves me and cares wat im gotin through cuz i mean i cant sleep ,i cry all nite ,i dontt hardle eat as much as i use 2 ,ive had a stomic olser ,stay wit head akes ,and my grades have droped sence every thang happen cuz i sleep all day at school and ive got cronic depression ive had it sence i wuz 6 cuz when i wuz 6 i told the doctor i wuz gone kill myself the and wen my mom went 2 jail they put all my pets 2 sleep and abut 3 mths ago i lost my best friend cuz her dad wuz rapein her and the welfair took her i havent seen or herd from her in so long i mizz her|
|15 Feb 2008||Irrelevant||I'm 17, a mere month from 18. I'm entirely indifferent about it; I don't care, regardless. All it signifies to me is how much of a loser I really am. I'm socially deprived, although I must say that recently it's gotten better (Not fearing people is a good thing). But I'm still the fuck up I'll always be.
I never leave this damn house, I have no friends, I practically live through a computer. I have no job, I'm afraid of socializing, etc. This is probably the most quintessential moment to add that I suspect myself to be bipolar. In fact, just earlier today, I felt, and even noted, how irrationally energetic and hyper and well-mooded I was; and despite that optimism, I find myself horribly depressed and hating life just as much, as is my norm, in just 12 hours time. The good moods never last.
I've come to terms with myself, in an odd sort of way. I realize that I'm not going to be anything... I'll probably work at some bullshit store until I'm crippled with age, yet it doesn't bother me at all. I'm a mid-school dropout at just fucking 5th grade, I got fucked out of a lot of shit because of some cunt teacher who was a fraud... and yeah, whatever. Suicide is always a present thought in my mind; and sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to just let myself go through with it.
Despite the pain... the torturous life I'm plagued to endure for the rest of my pathetic and insignificant years on this planet, I've stubbornly abided by the promise I made to myself years ago while first battling this sickness. I won't commit suicide; - ever. Not while I know it would cause another person pain, I am not a selfish person... possibly the only attribute I could ever fathom to possess. I've countlessly wished to be unknown; some hobo on the street, just for the excuse to final end my pitiful excuse of a life. Then, and only then, would I ultimately consider suicide.
And this does NOTHING to help me. In fact, it only makes things harder. I only fear what is to come in my life, the disappointments, the loved ones I'll lose, the even more pain I'm sure to have in later years. I - don't - enjoy - life. All I want from life is to be alone... isolated, un-bothered and entirely unknown. Hah...
I've lived in depression for so long, it's as if I couldn't imagine myself without it... which in itself is depressing. But if anyone is honestly contemplating whether or not to end your life, I strongly suggest you mark the following words, as they are to live by: Even if you are to live in a foggy hell of anguish and selfpity, being alive with emotion, even if only pain, is better than not existing at all.
E-mail me if you need someone to talk to.
|09 Feb 2008||nadia||let me say one thing...
im 13 and i cut myself, i wanna die and theres not one reason to live.
i have abusive parents, and an even worse life. my mom starves me and beats me. butt my family dosent give a crap.
i dont deserve to live. . . at all.
the best way that id most likely end up doing is drinking that carbon crap with tap water.. easy huh?
|08 Feb 2008||ally||I wish I knew the best or easiest way to kill yourself. I am 41 and struggling with it everyday. I have 2 young dughters who need me but I have nothing left to give anyone. My husband has beendeployed overseas for the next year and I am constantly in a state of terror for his safety. I have tried to get help but the military threatened to take my children away if I make any waves or have any problems and my husband has been threatened with loss of a stripe ( which would impact us severly money wise) if I cause any problems where he might have to come home. I have NO ONE to turn to. No family or friends and now I can't even depend on the doctors on base for help as I have beenwarned and made to sign a paper saying I will not do anything or cause problems on the risk of losing my children. I am in constant pain. I drink constantly for relief and think about suicide as a measns to end my pain, I want it to be easy.|
|08 Feb 2008||Sara||I just went through and read all these and i guess theres a lot more people that think that way i do, and thats sort of comforting. since about 13 i'd say is when i started wanting to kill myself. and ever since then it has just gotten worse. i finally broke down last year and told my mom i really need some help. I've been to a phsychiatrist, they gave me meds. did nothing but make me tired. I've tried over dosing on over the counter pills, actually just about 20 minutes ago. yeah nothing i'm still mother fucking alive. i can't cut my self, i don't even have my ears pierced. my best friend and i plan on killing ourselves in september. because we just want one more summer. all i want is to get a fucking job but i cant because michigan's economy is so bad right now, but anyway, get a job and buy some hardcore fucking drugs. put my bathing suit on lay on the beach and bake and slowly die, but i'm not so sure i can wait till september. thats my dream. i'm so tired of crying and clenching my fists everynight, takes hours for me to fall asleep. i'm nothing anymore, i am numb. sure i put a smile on :) i'm so fabulous at that. but everythings going wrong, and i know i know compared to the kids in africa i have a beautiful life. i live in a beautiful house, i'm pretty, i have great friends, i love my boyfriend, ha but can't tell him that because then it would just even be harder to leave. plus i don't know how to be open anyway and it fucking kills me. and theres another problem not only can i not find a way to kill myself yet but he's the only reason stoping me from doing it right now, i couldn't do that to him, and ha listen to me i don't even know if he loves me hahaha i'm a fucking fool i've only been with him for a little over 2 months but i new right away when i saw him he was it, he probably doesn't even know me fuck i don't even know me. so whatever my phones getting shut off tonight, we have to move, i can't find a job, i need to take a drug test to work at kmart but NOPE can't do that because i will not pass, and my mom will know i do drugs. so whatever my life doesn't sound that great, but i mean i know compared to other people i should not be complaining, i fully understand that. but its not about what you have and what you don't. its what your mind tells you, how you think, how you can't stop thinking, and all you want is for it to go away. and it won't stop it keeps going and going that it starts to cause you physical pain. and you lay at the bottom of the shower and don't move. i used to cry there but now i'm finding i don't even have the strength to cry anymore. i'm just emotionless. my mom's home. i had a nice episode earlier and thought about telling her to take me to the hospital tonight before i did something stupid. but i say i'm going to man up and tell her every night and try to get some help. but i never do, i can't. what will she think, i'd feel so weird. so i'm going to go out tonight and party. i don't eve know if anyone reads these anymore. i guess i'll just wait till september. oh haha funny story i got pulled over today by a cop because i was cryin in my car, he asked if i was okay. fuck you. goodbye|
|06 Feb 2008||asdhjkl; [secrative]||I am only 14 but my life is a horrid mess. My parents tell me they love me but the only reason they tell me they love me is for more excuses to torment me and try and hurt me. My mom often tells me she doesnt want to see my face and tht she wishes she never had me. You dont know how hard it is whenever you mom tells you things like that. Ive considered moving to my grandmas but i would still see her and i would just get so much pain. I cant even tell my best best friend the relationship i share with my mom because it is just so sad. I love her but im trying to stop because its really hard to love someone that doesnt love me. And I know for a fact that the only reason she treats me the way I do is because she knows I dont complain to anyone about it. it hurts so so much so im pretty much 75% sure that im going to commit suicide holding 2 guns. One up the side of my head and 1 twards my heart. My dad has 2 guns to I know it wont be hard for me to get them. I will shoot them off at the same time. I will also take some of my moms pills before so I know i will die right away. I dont want to experience any pain & i know this is the best way to kill myself. For any encouring tips for me please say something! Its really nice to find a site where people understand.|
|01 Feb 2008||sadallmylife||i am older than most of you but feel the same way i havent been happy for years i am 24 and hate life according to my mom i should just wake up one day with a smile on my face and everything would be better well as u guys know it doesent work that way. I have tryed talking to people and tryed the meds it doesent work its a faluse scence of happiness and i dont want that. i get sick and tiared of people telling me to just get over it when your in the kind of pain that i am in when it hurts to breath and wake up everyday you dont just get over it. I have been this way for 12 years if i could just get over it i would have along time ago.i have tried many things pills drinking then i feel worse cause it doesent work and then i really want to die. I cut myself for the first time last night an it felt so good what i could feel of it my body has gotten to point that its just numb to any kind of physical pain because the emotional pain is so strong.i have 3 beautiful boys that i know need me but that doesent seem to be enough to keep me alive my pain is to deep and has been there for to long. Nobody seems to understand they say stay busy and dont think about being sad but that doesent work if you dont feel like we do then theres no way for you to understand why we cant just get over it or let it go. If we could we would but its just not that easy.Why cant i just be happy or atleast content with life. I just want the pain to go away.|
|30 Jan 2008||Ella Hall||8th attempt on saturday, next time i'll shoot maself in the head!!|
|29 Jan 2008||Kenia||IM 13 AND I AM SUICIDAL AS MUCH AS I HATE SO SAY IT. BUT IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET OVER EVERYTHING. MY FRIENDS HAVE ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT ME.. AND THEY ARE PART OF THE REASON TO WHY I HAVE TRIED MY BEST TO STOP DOING THE WHOLE CUTTIGN MYSELF THING. I KNOW THAT LIFE CAN REALLY GET YOU DOWN SOMETIMES. I AM THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE THAT TRY TO HIDE THEIR PAIN. I ALWAYS WERAY BRACELETS TO HIDE AWAY THE SCARS. I HAVE TRIED SO MANY THINGS TO KILL MYSELF.. CUTTING MY WRITS AND I HAVE PROBABLY GONE MAYBE 95% TO DIEING BUT SOMEHOW SOMETHING KEEPS ME FROM DYING. IT KINDA SCARY ACTUALLY. I HAVE ALSO TRIED TAKING AN OVERDOSE OF PILLS. BUT THEY NEVER SEEM TO BE ENOUGH. I HAVE TRIED DROWNING MYSELF ONE TIME IN THE SCHOOL BATHROOM. BUT MY FRIEN CAUGHT ME JUST BROFRE I WAS 2 SECS AWAY FROM DYING. IT GETS ME CURIOUS HOW I HAVE TRIED SO MANY THINGS AND YET I AM STILL SITTING HERE TODAY ALIVE AS EVER. AND I NEVER DIED NOT EVEN FROM ALL THE BLOOD SHED, AND THE TEARS CRIED, I DONT KNOW HOW I DID IT. MAYBE I DO REALLY HAVE A REASON IN THIS WORLD BUT ALL I KNOW NOW IS THAT SUICIDE IS NOT THE WAY...|