What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|17 Jan 2009||Jolo||I've been coming to this site for a little more than two years.
so, here it goes...
My life, I have a good life, Loving family, alot of loving friends. Do you think I'm happy? Do you?
No I'm not, after all the good things I've been through, I don't feel it. I HATE MYSELF! I'm just a small sack off shit wating to decompose. I haven't done anything right. Unless wrong is right, then Ive done alot of it! My life isn't fucked up, I AM! People around me love me, even if they tease me all the time I know they love me, or at least I think they do. I love them, especially my parents. Why am I here? That's because I don't deserve to live, my life is to good for me! They give me their best and I give them my worst. What kind of person am I! Oh yeah, I'm the sorry sack of shit! I hope I have some pills right now! To add to the dissapointment, It's our junior prom on Feb. I don't have a date! I'm a fucking loser! Why did I exist in the first place! I have no use in this world. I'm just another waste of resources.
When I was 7 I always wanted to take pictures, but at 9 something felt wrong, I felt that I was the only one different. Since then I avoided taking pictures, unless people force me. Now I'm 16, still a useless pile of shit! I cut myself, I burn myself, I started smoking just because of the fact that it could kill, I even drink this fuel for model cars, which kinda taste like 3 times the strongest tequila you've ever drunk, because it has the skull and crossbones logo, poison! can Kill! Yeah right I've been drinking it for a month and nothing happens.
What am I gonna do now? should I kill myself now and save the others? or should I just let life fuck me as it already does.
If there are an Christians out there Pls pray for me, so that I could have a date for the prom, maybe that's just the pathetic reason why I'm so depressed. Oh well, I doubt that even having my dream girl would put me out of this misery.
Pls help me. If it's death or a good life, you wish for me, thank you for your prayers
|16 Jan 2009||Dead meat||oh crap, i said my views out loud and now they're after me. they have no problem killing innocent kids... shit i am so dead. not gonna kill myslef, im just gonna run before they can find me.
i dont have any friends who can help, have to go it alone.
shit shit shit
im too young to die
im shit scared they are going to find me
or walk past me in the street and recognise me
|13 Jan 2009||kim||i tried to kill myself when i was 12 i first tried cutting my wrist it felt so good. then i tried to get hit by a car at 16 while driving my car it dint work at 21 i had a kid and got him taken only to find i had a mental illness that wont go away. i take my meds every day im tired because my son lives in a horrible environment with his dad who is a wife beating cop and i try to get better. i just recently went off all my meds and lost a good friend because he cant deal with me and my problems i have. he cant love me ans wont until i straighten out my life, like that will ever happen. i need to fill the void of my son and want to have another family i honestly believe it will help me in some way to love again if i had someone to love me so i could learn to love myself again. i got out of the hospital over the holidays and i wish today i could just check back in for a few more daysw just ot feel safe in my own skin. i want to sleep all the time and i dont eat some how i just manage to stay a the same weight i always am and not lose. i just want to die or to have some knight and shining man come save me. i would say the way to go is to kill your self is tot drink antifreeze. i havent tried it yet. scared to.|
|13 Jan 2009||Sarah||i am 17 and have thought of suicide since i was sexually assulted at 13, abused by my parents, and consistently put down by peers and teacher, over the past few years i have been to councelling, medicated, slit my wrist <-- waste of time, plonderd the thought of jumping in front of a train but seen the result of survival <-- scratched that idea, thought about making hydrogen sulphide but dont like the idea of my head in the toilet, .... although every night when i close my eyes i dream of killing myself iv'e learned to live everyday as it comes although life is shit, i look towards my future and making my life mine, having children and being proud of something for once in my life, giving them the gift of my love and understanding, giving them the affection and life that i have never managed to have... i also look forward to grandchildren and watching my children teach and love their children..... living life is honestly the worst but if you make a goal or dream and focus on it no-one puts you down nearly as much....life isnt worth living...you make it yours it is|
|09 Jan 2009||X||Im just 15 and I'm a complete pussy. If I can't do it then I should stop trying but I don't. I've never been abused except verbally by EVERYbody in my life from birth until now. IDONT have the balls to do it but I will soon and I'm sure of it. I just wanna say if uwanna do it, go ahead. I've been suicidal since 7 but somehong in me is finally broken...
The ship is sinking and I'm not gonna try and stop it.
Everyone dies alone so if ur tired go ahead. FUCK THE LAWS FUCK THE WORLE AND FUCK IT BEING SELFISH UR RESPONSIBLE TO NOBODY BUT URSELF
I just wanna people to know what I think. If u think I'm dumb I don't really care. Do what u have to do. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT but u do have to deal with it. So go down the path nobody can follow you. Good luck friends I'm bailing
Email me at darkheart6@hotmail
Luv to hear what u think even if it doesn't bother me
Pcs and GL
|07 Jan 2009||Miss, Boo||I wish I was dead.
I have no point, my existance is shit to everyone else, so I self harm to feel alive, to punish myself for shit I regret, I do it for so many reasons.
I've tried to talk to friends about how I feel and they just pretend the problem doesn't exist.
People tell you not to do it.
People tell you to get help.
I've fucking tried and the world's not waiting to catch you when you're falling and so you keep falling. I'm scared of hitting the bottom.
I don't know what people think of me, I know that they don't want to be my friend. They avoid me for all it's worth.
It's not catching!
I want someone to notice.
I want someone to care about me.
I get nostalgic.
Before my dad left, before my next-door-neighbour moved.
I had stability and a good relationship with friends, and in particular, I was somebodys girl next door. That gave me some sort of confidence. and it sounds silly.
I do want to die, but also, I want to be saved. I hate my mother. I just hate her so much. and people will say, if you want to be saved, you don't actually want to die, well I do, because nobody will save me, so there's nobody to live for.
my self harm gets bad in little bursts. I'll be bad, then it'll all heal into scars and go a funny colour, then I'm pushed and I rip myself open again.
It makes me feel alive
It makes me feel that maybe, if someone could just notice, I could get past it.
I go through weird episodes,
my mother doesn't see it.
My friends pretend it's not happening.
I need a way out.
It's like the escape route and I think that I'd do it. I'd be dead by now if I weren't so scared that I'd wake up again afterwards.
If anyone wants to talk to me. Just get out some shit that's been bottled up, then do.
If anyone feels like they want to listen to me, then do it.
If you just want to be my friend. talk about pointless shit and pretend we're normal, please, do.
I'll be whoever you want me to be.
I just want to feel loved.
|04 Jan 2009||Jacob||Well, I really am depressed. I've been this way all my life. I figured I could write a book based on how I feel to let myself cool off. But, it's failure. The only goal in my life is to be a famose horror arthur,like Stephen King.
I really try to cut myself, but I'm chicken.
The best way to kill yourself when you're under 13 is probably..... Stealing a knife from the kitchin, and stabbing everything around you. After this, you cut off your nose, and stab your lungs, and just lay back. Well, I'm too chicken to do it.
Maybe because i'm only 11 YEARS OLD.
Yep, 11 years old. SHOCKER
|04 Jan 2009||did it||what about your poor loved ones? dont you think u should think about them?
fuck them they are the reason why im dying.
all i do is give love and what do u get i fucking kick in the throat.
nobody deserves that. my kids will grow up and never know about me so what i gave birth to them i loved them but they are better without me all there father was do is shit on me. all i ever wanted was to really loved what the fuck is love dont you tell me god loves you / whrere the hell was he when i really needed him?
have enough to slip away 2 day.
i know nobody knows me here but i just wanted to say something before i did it
|01 Jan 2009||cold hearted bitch!||well since i am a very fucking suicidle kid and i JUST turned 13 december 29th 2008 and it is now january 1st 2009 i still feel like a 12 year old but anyways! when ever i think about duin suicide and i think all us littler kids just want it to be over with already and dont really give a shit how it is done as long as it is fast offective and not alot of mega pain such as that wrist bull shit!
i tried suiside couple times.
the rope shit nahh done work 100% and the wrist cutting...HA i have been a fucking lil cutter since the third freakin grade! hell now that i think about it i remember doin it before the third grade! but the best thing for the scared lil ones is just go jump off a damned tall ass building for all we care! i mean if you are really thinking of the suiside shit nothing we say will help and us PRETENDING to give a flying fuck "waste of TIME!" so go jump or get a gun and pull the damn trigger! sorry but this cold hearted bitch hates the sorry little posser type like that rich bitch oh boo hoo your fam died and you had bad parents. shut the fuck up! the living hell other's like me and some of my friend go threw is more then that! these marks and cuts are still not healed up!
but hey do what my boyfriend tells me he is goin to do some day...that gothic bitch is just goin to get an overdose on crack or PCP. drugs drugs drugs dont ya love em? they make our fucking out of controll world go round and fucking round! got a prob with anything i fucking said fine! e mail me then and tell it to my fucking face! firstname.lastname@example.org..lets chat!
|29 Dec 2008||PMR||I think drug overdose would be the best. Triple C's help.
They make the pain go away.
Overdose on them and everything will be good.
I want to kill myself but im scared of what people will think. I hurt so bad, and im sick of it. I was raped last year. I am not the same person anymore. My best friend is pregnant, has HIV, and got kicked out. so she had to move. my other best friend has an autoammune virus and she isnt suspose to live past 17. three years. i cant do this .goodbye world. you were cruel to me anyways. I am going to go now.
|27 Dec 2008||Courtney||I guess I'll write in this. Do you guy want me to talk about my life story, or something like that? Well, I'm just going to talk. So for the past few months or so, I've been really depressed...It's even ended the friendship with someone I really cared about, I practically loved them. I've lost a lot of people lately. Pretty much everyone I've ever been close to. And there was one person, my last chance of some sort of pathetic human connection. I told myself that they were the last time I would try to get close to someone. I trusted them, and they only pushed me away. Right now, I have no one. I'm not close with any of my family. In this world, I feel so alone. As if nobody cares. When I think about suicide, and if I leave a not saying why, it would read "Because I wouldn't be missed". I couldn't say that I would. So many people hate me, it seems as if I'd be doing them a favor. I could rant more, but I'd rather not. If anyone wants to talk (which I doubt) just e-mail me at AmmyLuvs@hotmail.com or add me on MSN or something. (Haha it's not like I'm worrying about being stalked and killed).|
|27 Dec 2008||Marissa||i know suicide seems like the best answer, but it isn't, i'm 10 and everyday of my life i'm thinking of killing myself. people around me love me, and i love them too. i don't hate the people around me, i just hate myself.|
|25 Dec 2008||Waiting||Do you know what I just realized today? I just come to the conclusion that the only time my "friends" give a shit about me is when they think I maybe dead. It just goes to show how empty and heartless people are nowadays. Oh, and happy christmas or whatever you celebrate this time of year Mouchette, I hope that you love life better than I do.|
|22 Dec 2008||jackie.||please help me|
|22 Dec 2008||jackie.||my name is jackie im 15 currently and i have nuthing positive to add..i recently got a criminal record and i have made lists after lsits of pros and cons of why i shouldnt end my life. my life is totaly ruined now with a criminal record no decent employer will hire me , so there is no great future for me except mmaybe behind a cash register at the supermarket. when i saw the embarressment in my parents faces at the police station... i just dont think i can live with myself anylonger, i have court in the new year and i really dont see my self there. at the moment i cant look into my parents faces. i cant answer them properly, i have unpluged my tv, i dont deserve anything, i dont even know why on on the computer, i think i just came on here to find the best way to kill myself, least messy way, least painfull way.(apparently its drowing..)
i dont want to die, i just hate myself sooo much, i can remember when i did stupid things and i promised my self that i would kill my self but i didnt end up doing it (obviously) and i was glad i didnt but i have been in depression for almost 6 years now and i dont think i can handle this anymore... i think i just went way over the top. i just keep replaying last night over in my head and the things i could have done, should have done, but i didnt. no point reminissing in the past i guess
im not a coward but im not strong enough to go through this. i cant stand up infront of a judge knowing my parents are behind me wanting me t o go to juvie and plead that i am guillty but i would love it oif he would find it in his heart to just not send me to kids jail ultimately.
i thought about running away, but what good is that going to do, i think this is just the best way.
my life is ruined and my parents...hate me.
i just love them so much.. i dont think its.. fair. for them. im so sorry i could even let anyone make me think of anything so stupid, i have digraced myself,but most important i embarressed my mom even more than i ever have i and can deal with that.
|20 Dec 2008||JAMES||I THINK THE BETTER WAY TO HANDLE THINGS IS NOT TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN BY COMMITTING SUICIDE BUT INSTEAD TO BIDE YOUR TIME.TO WAIT TILL YOUR IN A POSITION TO GET REVENGE ON EVERYONE WHO EVER WRONGED YOU.THATS WHAT IM TRYING TO PREACH REVENGE NOT SUICIDE.WHY HURT YOURSELF? NO ONE WILL CARE.I USED TO BE A SUCKER LIKE MOST OF YOU UNTIL I REALIZED LIFE IS JUST A GAME.DO SOMETHING CRAZY.DONT GO OUT QUIETLY BY KILLING YOURSELF.IN STEAD WREAK SOME HAVOC.ROB A FUC#KN BANK.KILL SOMEBODY.YOU ONLY GET 1 CHANCE TO DO IT RIGHT SO DO IT BIG.UNLEASH ALL THE PAIN INSIDE OF YOU IN ONE VIOLENT BURST.YOU THINK I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO TELL U ANYTHING.THIS IS A KID WHO FUC#ED HIS STEPMOTHER TO HIS FATHERS OBVIOUS DISMAY AND THEN FUCKED HIS AUNT(NOT A BLOOD RELATIVE LOL) TO HIS UNCLES OBVIOUS DISMAY.WHY YOU ASK.TO CAUSE PAIN.TO MAKE THEM AS MISERABLE AS I AM.IAM THE EMBODIMENT OF PAIN.I AM THE KING OF PAIN|
|19 Dec 2008||JAMES||HOW ABOUT THIS FOR A REASON TO KILL MYSELF.I SLEPT WITH MY UNCLES WIFE A WHILE BACK AND MY FATHER DESPISES ME.I AM JOBLESS.IM 21 AND IM A FAILURE.IM WORTHLESS.IVE BEEN VERBALLY ABUSED BY MY MOTHER MY ENTIRE LIFE.SHE ALWAYS TOLD ME I WOULDNT BE ANYTHING,THAT I WAS A PIECE OF SHIT AND NOW LOOK AT ME.ITS JUST LIKE SHE SAID.I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS THEY ALL RAN OUT ON ME.IM DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME.I CUSSED GOD OUT LAST NIGHT HOPING HE WOULD PUNISH ME LIKE HE DID THE LAST TIME I MOCKED HIM.I PRAY FOR DEATH EVERYNIGHT BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE BALLS TO KILL MYSELF.IM A LOSER|
|18 Dec 2008||Tigger...||You Know Im 14 too.
And to tell you the truth life has been ruff My dad
Never believed i was his daughter.
&& My dad abused me when i was 6 But he stopped.
I don't live with Him no more because he && my mom fought And i cryed cause i saw them fight.
Then My dad would always say your mom is doing witch Craft.
&& i believed him .
WHen i was 12.
He kicked me out of my house.
So i went with my mom.
&& My mom dosnt appreciate what i do.
My step dad and her recently had a baby.
My ex Loves me.
But he always changes his attitude in front of his friends.
Me && my friend are planning suicide... On monday.
&& im really depressed because i cut myself it helps.
&& once you start you cant stop its like drugs.
Once you start you cant stop.
But sometimes i think about it.
And i hate it.
I have low self esteem too.
&& i hate life.
I really wanna die.
|16 Dec 2008||Micah Johnson||My Name is Micah Johnson and im 16..... My parents got divorced when i was 8 years old and thats when i got diagnosed woth a dpression order..I first tryed to commit suicide when i was 91/2(i tryed to hang myself) And at night i would rry and run away from home.. My mom started dateing and i hated every guy she was wit>> so i did my best to make therir life a living hell...when my mom got married for the 2nd time was when that ass hole tht i hated tlked her into sending me to a crazy house...my 9th grade yearwas when i tryed for the 2nd time i over dosed on my medication..and was in the hospital for 3 days.i threw my life away on drugs and skipping school and hanging out wit th wrong crowd. i was a cheerleader homecoming queen and everythin..BUT NOT ANYMORE..all i wan2 do is die and kill myself...but i always think about my friends and what they would do.. I just ant hanle the stress anymore... what do i do?? and suggestions email me at (email@example.com)|
|16 Dec 2008||Jackie||well i'm 19 but i have thought about killing myself a lot. i was suppost to be getting marriend in 5 days but it all starter back when this guy played me along just to get me awaay from the guy i was to marry now i have noone i miss my honey and i would do anything for him back. i know my family and friends hate him but idc i love him. this other guy ruined my life. i wanna kill myself|