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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|22 Dec 2008||jackie.||please help me|
|22 Dec 2008||jackie.||my name is jackie im 15 currently and i have nuthing positive to add..i recently got a criminal record and i have made lists after lsits of pros and cons of why i shouldnt end my life. my life is totaly ruined now with a criminal record no decent employer will hire me , so there is no great future for me except mmaybe behind a cash register at the supermarket. when i saw the embarressment in my parents faces at the police station... i just dont think i can live with myself anylonger, i have court in the new year and i really dont see my self there. at the moment i cant look into my parents faces. i cant answer them properly, i have unpluged my tv, i dont deserve anything, i dont even know why on on the computer, i think i just came on here to find the best way to kill myself, least messy way, least painfull way.(apparently its drowing..)
i dont want to die, i just hate myself sooo much, i can remember when i did stupid things and i promised my self that i would kill my self but i didnt end up doing it (obviously) and i was glad i didnt but i have been in depression for almost 6 years now and i dont think i can handle this anymore... i think i just went way over the top. i just keep replaying last night over in my head and the things i could have done, should have done, but i didnt. no point reminissing in the past i guess
im not a coward but im not strong enough to go through this. i cant stand up infront of a judge knowing my parents are behind me wanting me t o go to juvie and plead that i am guillty but i would love it oif he would find it in his heart to just not send me to kids jail ultimately.
i thought about running away, but what good is that going to do, i think this is just the best way.
my life is ruined and my parents...hate me.
i just love them so much.. i dont think its.. fair. for them. im so sorry i could even let anyone make me think of anything so stupid, i have digraced myself,but most important i embarressed my mom even more than i ever have i and can deal with that.
|20 Dec 2008||JAMES||I THINK THE BETTER WAY TO HANDLE THINGS IS NOT TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN BY COMMITTING SUICIDE BUT INSTEAD TO BIDE YOUR TIME.TO WAIT TILL YOUR IN A POSITION TO GET REVENGE ON EVERYONE WHO EVER WRONGED YOU.THATS WHAT IM TRYING TO PREACH REVENGE NOT SUICIDE.WHY HURT YOURSELF? NO ONE WILL CARE.I USED TO BE A SUCKER LIKE MOST OF YOU UNTIL I REALIZED LIFE IS JUST A GAME.DO SOMETHING CRAZY.DONT GO OUT QUIETLY BY KILLING YOURSELF.IN STEAD WREAK SOME HAVOC.ROB A FUC#KN BANK.KILL SOMEBODY.YOU ONLY GET 1 CHANCE TO DO IT RIGHT SO DO IT BIG.UNLEASH ALL THE PAIN INSIDE OF YOU IN ONE VIOLENT BURST.YOU THINK I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO TELL U ANYTHING.THIS IS A KID WHO FUC#ED HIS STEPMOTHER TO HIS FATHERS OBVIOUS DISMAY AND THEN FUCKED HIS AUNT(NOT A BLOOD RELATIVE LOL) TO HIS UNCLES OBVIOUS DISMAY.WHY YOU ASK.TO CAUSE PAIN.TO MAKE THEM AS MISERABLE AS I AM.IAM THE EMBODIMENT OF PAIN.I AM THE KING OF PAIN|
|19 Dec 2008||JAMES||HOW ABOUT THIS FOR A REASON TO KILL MYSELF.I SLEPT WITH MY UNCLES WIFE A WHILE BACK AND MY FATHER DESPISES ME.I AM JOBLESS.IM 21 AND IM A FAILURE.IM WORTHLESS.IVE BEEN VERBALLY ABUSED BY MY MOTHER MY ENTIRE LIFE.SHE ALWAYS TOLD ME I WOULDNT BE ANYTHING,THAT I WAS A PIECE OF SHIT AND NOW LOOK AT ME.ITS JUST LIKE SHE SAID.I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS THEY ALL RAN OUT ON ME.IM DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME.I CUSSED GOD OUT LAST NIGHT HOPING HE WOULD PUNISH ME LIKE HE DID THE LAST TIME I MOCKED HIM.I PRAY FOR DEATH EVERYNIGHT BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE BALLS TO KILL MYSELF.IM A LOSER|
|18 Dec 2008||Tigger...||You Know Im 14 too.
And to tell you the truth life has been ruff My dad
Never believed i was his daughter.
&& My dad abused me when i was 6 But he stopped.
I don't live with Him no more because he && my mom fought And i cryed cause i saw them fight.
Then My dad would always say your mom is doing witch Craft.
&& i believed him .
WHen i was 12.
He kicked me out of my house.
So i went with my mom.
&& My mom dosnt appreciate what i do.
My step dad and her recently had a baby.
My ex Loves me.
But he always changes his attitude in front of his friends.
Me && my friend are planning suicide... On monday.
&& im really depressed because i cut myself it helps.
&& once you start you cant stop its like drugs.
Once you start you cant stop.
But sometimes i think about it.
And i hate it.
I have low self esteem too.
&& i hate life.
I really wanna die.
|16 Dec 2008||Micah Johnson||My Name is Micah Johnson and im 16..... My parents got divorced when i was 8 years old and thats when i got diagnosed woth a dpression order..I first tryed to commit suicide when i was 91/2(i tryed to hang myself) And at night i would rry and run away from home.. My mom started dateing and i hated every guy she was wit>> so i did my best to make therir life a living hell...when my mom got married for the 2nd time was when that ass hole tht i hated tlked her into sending me to a crazy house...my 9th grade yearwas when i tryed for the 2nd time i over dosed on my medication..and was in the hospital for 3 days.i threw my life away on drugs and skipping school and hanging out wit th wrong crowd. i was a cheerleader homecoming queen and everythin..BUT NOT ANYMORE..all i wan2 do is die and kill myself...but i always think about my friends and what they would do.. I just ant hanle the stress anymore... what do i do?? and suggestions email me at (email@example.com)|
|16 Dec 2008||Jackie||well i'm 19 but i have thought about killing myself a lot. i was suppost to be getting marriend in 5 days but it all starter back when this guy played me along just to get me awaay from the guy i was to marry now i have noone i miss my honey and i would do anything for him back. i know my family and friends hate him but idc i love him. this other guy ruined my life. i wanna kill myself|
|04 Dec 2008||Jess Neufeld||I am not 13, I don't have any problems, I drink when I go out with friends, I don't do drugs. My family is unreal and loving, I have lots of friends, I play a university sport, YET I still feel sad. I can't tell people whats wrong when they ask because I don't even know whats wrong. I just sometimes think that life is not worth it and life after death would be so much easier. I have so much going for me, but i just always feel the pressure, like maybe i dont want to be successful. Sometimes I feel myself wanting to have an abusive family or a drug problem or go to jail, just so I have something wrong with me! What is my problem?|
|02 Dec 2008||Help now||I just made the BIGGEST cuts ever on my left inside wrist. I am hurting and I don't really want to die but I still want to kill myself. What is going on here? things were so good a week ago. I miss someone and think I am in love with them. They are the most kindest, person I have ever met and I know if i lose them I will take pills to end the misery of the loss. I don't know but if someone can help me please DO.|
|23 Nov 2008||Bria||I hate my life... not that this is something new here... but its the truth... I hate what I am and who ive become.... nothing is right anymore... I miss my old friends... I love one to death and Im too scared to let the other one know that I am over her... yes I am bi but my parents are anti-gay so its hard around them.... they hate me... im bulemic... I cut...not as much as I used to... but there is this one guy....his name is Cam... he's sweet and he's helped me out when I feel dead... but lately he's been gone...just so far away....he doesn't say much anymore but assures me he's always there for me... I am too scared to call him because I don't know what is going through his head and that's a problem with me... im over analytical, over reactive and EXTREMELY paranoid... I think I love him... I'm not sure if this is the truth or if it's just me over reacting like normal... but ever since I started talking to him, I feel like there is something different about him... but again... I'm too scared to tell him this... I don't want to scare him... I don't want him to leave me completely... even though we're not dating... I want to date him... but he lives over 1,000 miles away... mostly I'm scared of what I will do to myself... part of me wants to kill myself SOOOOO badly... I can't stand the nights when I'm alone curled up into a little ball sobbing...it's like a battle going on in my head "cut....it will make you feel better....cut....its the only way" and "NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!! I DON'T NEED IT!!! I DON'T NEED IT!! I HAVE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME!!! I DON'T NEED IT!!!" then.... there's the other side of me that wants to live... to prove everyone wrong that I can live... that there IS something for me... mostly right now, I am living for Cam and my best friend, Halyn... if they both left my life right now, I know I would kill myself, there would be nothing left... I have dreams of becoming famous, an actress on Broadway, a famous novelist, going on tour with ppl like Dashboard Confessional, Sonny Moore and Alesana... but without Cam and Halyn I would be nothing and my dreams would be meaningless... I am just waiting for my purpose... if it doesn't show up soon, and I mean REALLY soon... hello razor blades and exsanguination, goodbye pain and suffering...|
|23 Nov 2008||naomi||well i fell like i really cant talk to anyone so i guess i can write to you im 15 and i started to have these thought of suiside about 2 years ago when i get mad or something happens i just want to slit my wrist no one really knows that im depression they dont seem to care well sometimes i ask god to take my life away before i go to bed but then when i wake up for somereason im thankful taht he dint so this is for the people who feel like just giving up there is always another pririty that commiting suicide life is to golden|
|22 Nov 2008||Dakota||I have been through alot since the summer. Every thing about me has changed. I have fallen in love with the most beautifulest girl in the world. I love the way I can hold her at night and hold her hand. She is always happy, atleast when i am around. I have never been so happy, the only problem is I am still suicidal and she is always trying to help me stop cutting myself and breaking my bones. I was tempted to jump in front of the car, but she was there to stop me from doing it. I have finally found the one i want to be with for the rest of my life. See i am going going to go into the army as soon as i graduate highschool. I dont want to her hurt her, but i know that its for her own good and i can get myself killed over there when i go to war because it would be so much easier to let her go when i leave instead of making her live through tragedy. I LOVE HER with all of my heart just dont know where to begin a new life with her.|
|22 Nov 2008||Sherryl||I am not 13 but an adult that is even a gramma. I am seriously thinking of committing suicide but cant figure out how to do it without chickening out....and what is going to happen to my body afterwards? I was working at a place for about a year and it was a husband and wife place. I got involved with the husband and we had what I would call a "forced affair" (he wouldnt take no for an answer sometimes..even in the office!) Well, because of that, I started taking money (paying myself extra paychecks through ADP, paying my electric bills through online banking with their info) and the wife found out. Needless to say, I got caught by the wife and got fired. Now she is trying to collect almost 10,000 and threatening to go to the police. I have no job, no money, no family, just lost my car, getting ready to lose my house, so what do I have left???? I am not going to jail..I would rather die. I have emailed the
husband" asking for his help, but he just ignores me.
I just want to make sure I am cremated and I would like my ashes to be spread on my parents grave up in Indiana ( I am in Florida) but how do I make sure that will happen?????
|21 Nov 2008||John Doe||I am a high school boy. i am a nerd, have pletny of normal friends, get bullied by football players (these kids are rich so the admin and faculty let them be so their parents don't get mad) and am one of those kids that is completely anti drug/anti underage drinking. My problem is that I am unsure about my sexuality. My family is against gay people and doesn't understand what is happening to me, so I can't talk to them. I have tried twice, but it doesn't work and gets worse. My one and only best friend, my true best friend who I somewhat vent to is gay (its not like i am going out with him0. I have contemplated suicide for several months and have planned three plots. I'm not very religous. I won't go in for help, or talk to somebody due to the shame that I will feel. I don't know what to do.|
|21 Nov 2008||ema||im not going to say my life totally sux i have a few friends lifes not horrible right now but i still cant escape this hell its killing me i cant shut my head up sombody get me through this nightmare pleazzeeeee i cant thinkkkk these voices r tellin me to do things i dont want toooo hellllpppp meeeeeeeeee if u would like to help email me firstname.lastname@example.org|
|15 Nov 2008||xxxemogirlroxyxxx||I hate my life i mean really!
My best friend left and my mom hates me and i don't think my dad cares anymore
even though i have a boyfriend i don't really care i feel bad
i mean i know people with worse lives them me but what i have tried to explain is there strong and i'm not so yea ]=
i can't commit suicide because no gun of rat posin
but i do have lots of sleeping pill and depression pills
well there all my dads
do you think it would be a good way to kill myself with that
|14 Nov 2008||that girl whose mom just couldnt be proud||its me again, i hurt so bad inside, im still that girl people whisper about, and it hurts so bad. i have a new love, shes buetiful, and so sweet and kind, i think she might be it. it hurts so bad though, ppl are giving her "are you seirouly going out with herrr???" looks, it just hurts. my mom died and im living in my grandmas house. im not sad my mom died, messed up huh? oh well she never did love me|
|13 Nov 2008||THE X||I used to use this site as a place to get ideas but now i use it to write and share how i feel. im a fuckup, now u know, now the whole world knows. i dont care and no one deserves the thought of me being a nice person. as the shitheads in the world say im a retard and will not amount to anything. might as well just quit school ? WHAT U THINK? i loved mike w and in a way still do but its not worth the risk for him to get hurt but as everyone says im fucked up and yes i already know it is true. if u ever read this yes i do mean it and do miss u to this day. but it will never work out because everyone in this fucked up world does not want me to be happy. i was happy with u but everyone else is part of the reason why we are not togther still. i did and still do in a way still love u.|
|11 Nov 2008||Liz Monroe||This is no suicide rave. i'm not suicidal, REALLY. it's just a pointless vent by an angsty philosophical 17 year old in an odd situation...
Well, my baby's gone. It's been a year since our first kiss- our first "more than friends" moment. it's been 6 moths since i first realised how much i loved him. 4 months since I first fucked him. and 2 months since we made it official. slow paced, huh?
And now my babys gone to the far ends of asia with his best friend and lead guitarist. "see you in a month" he told me halloween (night of his departure). I didn't believe him. I have 2 & half weeks till his supposed arrival back to melbourne. Time coulnd't be going slower, and yet i feel as though i'll never speak to him again, unless it's to say goodbye. Strange world we live in. I've always said: if there is a god, he really has a fucked up sense of humour. I should have been born earlier. 1941, preferably. anytime then on in. I should have been a baby boomer: teenager of the 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, or 90's. Life would have been a hell of alot easier then. I can't describe it, and you can't understand it unless you've met me. SO take my word on it. And i missed generation X by a butt hair! thanks, man. timming's never been my best point, always too late. I can hear god laughing at me when he pulls something like that. Crazy kidder.
And, y'know, I remember my #1 fella tellin' me (or attempting to tell me) his feelings. How he thought i was perfect, how he thought we could never be. He was right. I love him, and i've waited my whole life to say those words to someone. And i'm not saying it's something it's not. I don't expect to marry the guy, or to have his kids and live together forever. I'm not asking him to pull some big 'sleepless in seattle' gesture- scream my name from the top of a building, send me 100 roses for valentines. Hell, I didn't even believe in teenage love before him. The truth is: he has an entire life of his own, with a whole bunch of people that just arn't me. His got his quirky fashion and bizzar industrial metal and his ultra-futuristic ways. I have me rockabilly, my creepers, my nostalgia and my smoking, drinking, riot grrl existance. I just don't fit into his life. He has no room for me, and truth be told I doubt it's effect him if i were to dissapear. It'd bug him to see me with another guy, but for me to just go? nah.
And it hurts, and i'm lonely. Dude, you've gotta listen to the lyrics of Gary Numan's "are friends electric?" to get it. hehe, he kinda looks like Gary Numan.
I try to distance myself. When we're together it's a rule never to show any true emotions. We're both too cool for that, or atleast we act it. He can be so warm, and then so cold. And me, i'd just rather turn him on and not get my hopes up for anything. He'll break my heart, men always do. I'm no fool, i've seen it happen. I wish I could say he's different, but i'm not sure of that yet. When he's there and i'm here, and I expect him to cheat on me and he probably thinks the same. We can't go on together with suspicious minds, hehe. The truth: sometimes i think his too good for me. All the girls want him, to be honest i'm not sure what they see in him. I'm not sure what i see in him. But whatever it is it's something they can't see. And all the boys want me. I think it upsets him, he doesn't know how repulsed those other men make me. But like I said, I just don't fit into his life. I don't match his outfit. And it hurts, because I want him so bad. I want him to come back from hong kong. I want to be waiting at the airport for him. And i secretly want him to marry me and give me the happy ever after ending i never really thought i'd get. I wish we could drop the act just for a few minutes, and I wish he would tell me what he really thoght of me. And i wish i could drop my guard and tell him. We havn't even sad we loved eachother. It's just how we are.
But i see his pictures of his adventures throughout chine: hair dyed green, smiling that smile, being that quirky self that only he can pull off. He looks so happy, i don't think i've ever seen him that happy, not even with me. I'm not sure if i make him truly happy. he makes me happy. I've never told him. But he looks like he fits over there. I'm envious, i've wanted all my life to get out of australia and 'fit'. I've wanted out of here, over to california, over to real people who get me. And his there in hong kong, looking the happiest and most content i've ever seen him. His just so happy there... without me. It hurts. I'm scared, and yet i'm smiling and god and his odd sense of humour. Fucker.
|06 Nov 2008||Anonymous||Hey, I'm in a pretty bad spot, and if anyone is willing to give a few words of advice, go right ahead...oh, and I'm sick of the 'permanent solution' crap, honestly, who isn't?|