|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|02 Nov 2009||ryan||there is no best way, I am 23 myself...tried to make myself overdose by snorting 4 8balls of cocaine..just got me all fucking high..tried cutting, not for me i hate blood and getting cut, hanging myself forget that, Im 24 i have no job and havent for a year, I am a 5 time college drop out, I have a criminal record, I cheated on my wife with a guy and than went and had sex with her 4 times, i smoke too many cigs and smoke weed when i shouldnt, i mean theres nothing wrong with smoking weed other than part of the reason i cant get a job..my wife is pregos and its prob not mine, i live with my mom, I steal, and lie..i wanna stop but i cant idk y, i gained weight and my face is breaking out, yet the only thing that keeps me going is how much i love my wife still and the biggest part..my 10 month old son...I look at his smiling face and just couldnt imagine what i would do without him, and that if i did it i wouldnt be any better than my dad when he killed himself in 2006 never once did he see me, he married my mom and took off when i was 2 months old, I cant be him, I refuse to...I will do whatever it takes to be the dad I always wanted..not the drunk step dad that used to hit me and yell at me all the time and say what a piece of shit i am...so all u guys and dolls that want to kill yourself, ive tried and tried but finally after what ive seen on here it made me think and take a glance at my life, its a journey u have to make it what you can...watch tyler perry movies hes a smart guy, on madea goes to jail she says, "your parents had ya, there job is done, you have to make your life it can either be good or bad you make the decision" i know its not exact but yea my life has been full of dissapointments and jail time and shitty situations but yet there are so many good times that i know there will be more idk i need to see a therapist I have some crazy issues but I guess we all do.....you guys please think about what you are doing life sucks but there are some good parts and who knows we could cross paths one day and have one of those good parts together? i know im weird and odd but who cares, im not here to please everyone, some will like me some will not but this is who i am.... possibly manic, possibly bi-polar, very depressed, adhd, bi-sexual native american lol and damnit i decided today that no matter how bad shit will get id rather stick it out than risk the chance of failing at suicide fuck it I love you all from all your different walks of life!!! poor/rich/lesbo/gay/black/white/mex/idc ur all perfectly imperfect and id have you no other way =) put it all down...smoke some weed or drink a couple beers and than play some video games ha ha thats how i made it through my teens lol smokin weed and playin playstation in my room remember someone will love you no matter what you do or say or how you are ugh i lost myself damn adhd i love you all take care|
|01 Nov 2009||a rose by any other name smells just as sweet||I am 13 years old. But I live a life that's painfull. no one understands me,I have no one to talk too about my problems, because no one is willing to listen.In my house I am a cinderella.I do simple tasks that can be done by everyone just because they don't feel like doing it. They say I have a life that every teenage girl dreams of. But, is it a life when your constantly expected to make others happy despite your costs? Is life important? I'm known as the good girl. I'm a straight A student who is a runway model. Isn't that what most girls dream for? I'm alone. I have no one but myself to hold when I'm sad. My mom takes nothing seriously and my step dad is just un sensitive.I don't know my biological dad. Its hard for me to express how I feel because I'm consantly putting on a smile to hide the fact I'm dieing on the inside. I'm afraid of the dark because the dark give to many answers. I lay there in my bed wondering why I was created, why can't I do anything right when I literally put my tears and blood into things that benifet others. I'm like an infant. I trust too much. And it always hurts me later. I recently came out of a 4day hospitialization for over dosing with more then 120 pills. I wanted to die and refused to tell doctors why. The entire time I was in that bed my intentions never changed. Then, I was put into a phyciatric center and lied to them making them belive I won't do it again. I've tried countless occasions on commiting suicide. None is easiest and non is best. Most say I'm a girl beyond my years. But when your alone, in the dark, your mind can be your worst nightmare. But you can't get rid of it, so your sitting there thinking. And suddenly you know more then you expected yourself to know. Death hurts, but no where as much as life does.|
|19 Oct 2009||Darkness||Actually i just want to cummit suicide because i have been getting i trouble alot. I feel so bad and depressed and either way im still gonna get killed by someone but oh well. i guess im still thinking about it even im only 12. I still dont know what is the real desicion|
|19 Oct 2009||lucy lo||my life is hell i need to be free so i must commit suicide
|18 Oct 2009||m.m.||please dont leave me like this again isf, i'm sorry for what i did, please let me explain to you what happened, please answer my calls, please isf, just once, i am so sorry for what i did, i am so sick with guilt right now, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i get sick all over the place, please just let me apologize to you, please isf please. i am so sorry for what i did, please give me one last chance please, i will never stress you out again, please, everything sucks without you, i have no will to live....please give a chance.|
|13 Oct 2009||i am a C**TOSAURUS.||I am sorry. I got kicked out of my house. They fired me at work. All in the same day. I panicked. I needed to talk to you. but you weren't there. I didn't know if I had to call more to get a hold o f you or call less. I just needed you, and I am sorry for that. Please forgive me. I never had any intention to hurt you. I am so sorry. I am sorry that I stress you out. The money doesn't matter to me, whether its used or not. I just miss you so much. I am so alone now. I am sorry that I keep calling, but you are the only one who ever answered, the only one who made me feel better, and now I fucked up and I don't even have you anymore. I am so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Please don't go, please, give me one more chance. I won't fuck up like this again. Please isf, I'm so sorry.|
|08 Oct 2009||Jason||I dont have a suggestion but if anybody has any idea if its possible to have a painless, quick death then please let me know. This is for real. Oh and im 21 not 13, like it makes a difference. To all of you making sick jokes about this issue then go and fuck yourselves. It nothing to joke about!!|
|27 Sep 2009||Kyle & Jackie-Boy||Life it seems will fade away, drifting further everyday, getting lost within' myself, nothing matters no one else. I have lost the will to live, simply nothing more to give, there is nothing more for me, need the end to set me free!
Things not what they used to be, missing one inside of me, deathly loss this can't be real, cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me, to the point of agony, growing darkness taking dawn, I was me but now hes gone.
No one but me, can't save myself, but it's too late, now I can't think, think why I should even try. Yesterday seems, as though it never existed, death greets me warm, now I shall just say goodbye!
|24 Sep 2009||Mathew||It is amazing the amount of people that come online to complain about how awful their lives are. I wonder how many actually achieve their ambition to commit suicide?
I feel like a vent, I am 17, live in Australia and am in my final twelve months of highschool. After next year I was intending to study medicine at university although I feel I am not competent enough achieve the correct results in the marking criteria to gain the necessary marks to apply for medicine. What's worse is my parents almost insist that I go for this degree.
I despise talking about myself often, especially in company of others however this is online so no one is aware of who I am. The obsession of suicide is so consuming that I day dream about it as a method of relieving myself. I have attempted several times, asphyxiation, drug overdose, damage to arteries in the carpals. The other day i was contemplating just stepping out in front of a car. Maybe a bus as the probability would be greater...
Anyway, that's my rant, sincerely sorry if I sounded like a whiny bitch.
P.S, let's get some correct grammer on here!
|16 Sep 2009||Legs||Today, I had to drive my father to the old house we used to live in. She was there. They started fighting. Screaming. I had to hide at the foot of the driver's seat, under the stearing wheel so she wouldn't recognize me. The neighbors started turning on their lights and looking out the windows. Their words bounced off the walls. I hated it. Why couldn't she just disappear and never come back?
I had the flu. I was horribly sick. I missed three days of school, and I started wishing that death would come. I hate being sick every two weeks. I don't drown myself in junk food. I try to exercize. I try to be as hygenic as possible. But I keep getting the horrible throat sores.
I've had many thoughts of death. But somehow I just cannot find a way to do it. Is it even possible to kill myself?
|15 Sep 2009||Bobbin||So fucking depressed. I hate almost everyone, myself included. Stupid fucking world.
|15 Sep 2009||JAMES||I REALLY WANT TO DIE BUT IM SUCH A FU$KING COWARD THAT I WONT BECAUSE OF THE LITTLE BIT OF PAIN THAT MIGHT COME WITH IT.IF IT COULD BE PAINLESS SOMEHOW I WOULD DO IT.I HATE EVERYTHING ANYMORE.I HATE MYSELF.I HATE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS.I CAN NEVER BE AS SUCCESSFUL AS MY BROTHER WHO BYE THE WAY IS 2 YEARS YOUNGER.HIS ASS IS AT NC STATE ABOUT TO GRADUATE AND IM THE LITTLE FUCK UP RETARD AT HOME WHO WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING OR SO MY PARENTS KEEP TELLING ME.FUCK GOD ! I DIDNT ASK TO BE BORN.I DONT CARE IF I GO TO HELL.IM KINDA LOOKING FORWARD TO IT TO BE HONEST.I THINK A CHANGE OF SCENERY WOULD DO ME GOOD.IF GOD EVER GAVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME LIKE MY HYPOCRITE BITCH OF A MOTHER SAYS HE WOULD TAKE ME OUT OF THIS WORLD|
|13 Sep 2009||LM||I'm sick of the phoneys. The lies, deceptions, the FAKES. Pretending. You don't CARE, so make this easier for me. Stop trying to hold on because I know you find me revolting.|
|09 Sep 2009||Ryan||I hate my life right now. My best friend of 3 years let's his friends ridicule me. Im 14 years old. People always try to pick fights with me now. He now has a new best friend who wont even let me talk to my best friend of 3 years (connor). Today i had lunch by myself. All the popular kids came up to me today and said "you got alot of friends huh?" having fun by yourself?" i just want to get out of this mess. My dad wont even treat me like a boy and im annoyed with it. Today i got beat up.... by connors friend. Did connor tell him to stop? No. Im officialy known as a baby and a girl now at school. People wont even talk to me. I just want to leave it all and start over again. No one will be nice to me, ive never insulted anyone or hurt theyre feelings.
Connor- why cant you stand up for me? I thought we were friends.
Nate- you dont need to be mean and pick on everyone; be nice.
Michael- either you want to be my friend or you dont. Dont hurt my feelings then later try to start a conversation
derek- stop acting like you rule the school because youre strong.
Abe- just because your connors best friend now doesnt mean in not allowed to talk to him. Please stop telling me to fuck off. Stop making fun of the way i smile and whenever i say something.
Kevin- you were nice last year but now your mean to me. Ive never said a hurtful thing to you.
Jack- thanks for not having a negative attitude about me. Its nice when you talk to me.
Ben- you know i can kick your ass. Stop acting tough against me.
Josie- i like you alot. I know we never really talked but i like you. Youre extremely pretty and youre very nice. I want to ask you to homecoming but i know you dont like me.
Shelby- youre pretty but youre too quick to judge
lauren- it meant alot when i was talking with my friend and you came up to us and told me i should go away and die.
Shannon- youre way too hyper
marko- are we friends?
If you want to contact me:
AIM (AOL): cryinryan2239
|05 Sep 2009||alejandro||well, i'm not under 13, does that matter? I want to say something to those @ssholes trolling evry suicide page or note on the news, etc. stop calling us selfish. all we want is to stop living and suffering, each to his own reason, each one worth of respect. why do you call me selfish? because i don't think of the pain i'm causing to others, because of the shock of killing myself. So if i understand correctly you people wants us to keep on suffering, to keep on being a nobody, to keep on being ignored by the people you sacrificed your whole life and moved to fucking israel because she kept crying on your shoulder for a year to convince you. the important thing here is not to cause any stress to anybody, you keep roting inside, you keep hating yourself...you just keep waiting for a slow death. My life is only mine, and nobody else's, i'm sick and tired of being called selfish, while nobody acknowledges my pain. I've begged for attention, and only gets silence. As for me, after attempting drowning myself and cutting myself, i'm confident that tomorrow i won't miss. I called a realtor and told him to show me some flats on high floors. First chance i'll have on any 10th floor or higher (hopefully higher) i'm jumping and ending my suffering for good. That's tomorrow starting at 2pm.|
|05 Sep 2009||Lennie M||I'm so desperately lonely. But it's got to the point where it has consummed me and I have become a rabid animal. Frothing at the mouth, terrible fantasys haunt me day and night. There are so many screams that have dried in my throat and I can hardly breathe.
And like the wild and raging animal I have turned on my human tormentors and given half the chance I would rip them to shreds. Oh it hurts so bad, a transformation like this is not easy. Clinging on to the last shreds of sanity and trying oh so desperately to escape.
Keep an animal chained and caged and it will be so very lonely, it needs to find it's own breed. I need to find someone. There must be someone out there who can and will understand.
I can phone all the helplines I want but how are they to help. How can they help when I can't help myself?
Oh God, help me please. I can't take the pain, I can stand it. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be this. Please help me.
|28 Aug 2009||Lennie Melvin||Haven't been around here for a while but the suicidalness has returned in full force. Oh joy. I could just fucking cry myself to death right now.
What the hell is wrong with me?
|21 Aug 2009||Jelly1234||My life is about to be ruined. I don't wanna live life anymore. I hate myself. I have two loving parents and brothers and I don't have problems with getting with any guy and I also have alot of friends but I am still unhappy. One day I met this boy then we decided to become a couple. Then I find out that he has a girlfriend. Ever since, I have been having weird symptoms and I went to the doctor and everything came back negative. I started having new symptoms again and I went to the doctor yesterday again. He told me that it could be herpes but he dubts it because im not itchy or going through pain. I'm waiting for the results now and I'm so scared. Right now I just wanna kill myself. I'm scared of what the results are gonna say and I think its gonna come out bad. Can someone tell me how I can kill myself painlessly. Life is full of cruel people and we are all gonna die anyways right? I just wanna get it over with and kill myself. I wanna die. I wanna be with my grandmother and my cousin. I wrote a suicide note and if the test comes back wrong then I am going to kill myself the next day. I love my parents and I am doing them a favor anyways. My father won't have to worry about my college tuition no more. After all, he would prefer a son instead of a daughter. I wanna die please give me ideas so I can end my life. Can anyone out there pleasee give me ideas to a painless death. I'm thinking about drowning my self in my pool but I want ther ideas.|
|20 Aug 2009||Sandra||If only therapy was free in the United States.|
|20 Aug 2009||Halo||I've never been sure of who I really am.
All i know is Im already dead
people see me . i have a boyfriend, a good life.
but something inside me
isn't .. here
If i was to kill my self i would want people to know
1: i loved him... my boyfriend.
2: I 've been this way since i was a child.
3: i deserve what i did.
i want it to be dramatic.. like in a movie. on the bath room floor
and a note covered in my blood
but thats if i was going to... im scared of living..
but to be honest im scared that there really is a god
who will judge and crucify me.