|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|24 Sep 2009||Mathew||It is amazing the amount of people that come online to complain about how awful their lives are. I wonder how many actually achieve their ambition to commit suicide?
I feel like a vent, I am 17, live in Australia and am in my final twelve months of highschool. After next year I was intending to study medicine at university although I feel I am not competent enough achieve the correct results in the marking criteria to gain the necessary marks to apply for medicine. What's worse is my parents almost insist that I go for this degree.
I despise talking about myself often, especially in company of others however this is online so no one is aware of who I am. The obsession of suicide is so consuming that I day dream about it as a method of relieving myself. I have attempted several times, asphyxiation, drug overdose, damage to arteries in the carpals. The other day i was contemplating just stepping out in front of a car. Maybe a bus as the probability would be greater...
Anyway, that's my rant, sincerely sorry if I sounded like a whiny bitch.
P.S, let's get some correct grammer on here!
|16 Sep 2009||Legs||Today, I had to drive my father to the old house we used to live in. She was there. They started fighting. Screaming. I had to hide at the foot of the driver's seat, under the stearing wheel so she wouldn't recognize me. The neighbors started turning on their lights and looking out the windows. Their words bounced off the walls. I hated it. Why couldn't she just disappear and never come back?
I had the flu. I was horribly sick. I missed three days of school, and I started wishing that death would come. I hate being sick every two weeks. I don't drown myself in junk food. I try to exercize. I try to be as hygenic as possible. But I keep getting the horrible throat sores.
I've had many thoughts of death. But somehow I just cannot find a way to do it. Is it even possible to kill myself?
|15 Sep 2009||Bobbin||So fucking depressed. I hate almost everyone, myself included. Stupid fucking world.
|15 Sep 2009||JAMES||I REALLY WANT TO DIE BUT IM SUCH A FU$KING COWARD THAT I WONT BECAUSE OF THE LITTLE BIT OF PAIN THAT MIGHT COME WITH IT.IF IT COULD BE PAINLESS SOMEHOW I WOULD DO IT.I HATE EVERYTHING ANYMORE.I HATE MYSELF.I HATE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS.I CAN NEVER BE AS SUCCESSFUL AS MY BROTHER WHO BYE THE WAY IS 2 YEARS YOUNGER.HIS ASS IS AT NC STATE ABOUT TO GRADUATE AND IM THE LITTLE FUCK UP RETARD AT HOME WHO WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING OR SO MY PARENTS KEEP TELLING ME.FUCK GOD ! I DIDNT ASK TO BE BORN.I DONT CARE IF I GO TO HELL.IM KINDA LOOKING FORWARD TO IT TO BE HONEST.I THINK A CHANGE OF SCENERY WOULD DO ME GOOD.IF GOD EVER GAVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME LIKE MY HYPOCRITE BITCH OF A MOTHER SAYS HE WOULD TAKE ME OUT OF THIS WORLD|
|13 Sep 2009||LM||I'm sick of the phoneys. The lies, deceptions, the FAKES. Pretending. You don't CARE, so make this easier for me. Stop trying to hold on because I know you find me revolting.|
|09 Sep 2009||Ryan||I hate my life right now. My best friend of 3 years let's his friends ridicule me. Im 14 years old. People always try to pick fights with me now. He now has a new best friend who wont even let me talk to my best friend of 3 years (connor). Today i had lunch by myself. All the popular kids came up to me today and said "you got alot of friends huh?" having fun by yourself?" i just want to get out of this mess. My dad wont even treat me like a boy and im annoyed with it. Today i got beat up.... by connors friend. Did connor tell him to stop? No. Im officialy known as a baby and a girl now at school. People wont even talk to me. I just want to leave it all and start over again. No one will be nice to me, ive never insulted anyone or hurt theyre feelings.
Connor- why cant you stand up for me? I thought we were friends.
Nate- you dont need to be mean and pick on everyone; be nice.
Michael- either you want to be my friend or you dont. Dont hurt my feelings then later try to start a conversation
derek- stop acting like you rule the school because youre strong.
Abe- just because your connors best friend now doesnt mean in not allowed to talk to him. Please stop telling me to fuck off. Stop making fun of the way i smile and whenever i say something.
Kevin- you were nice last year but now your mean to me. Ive never said a hurtful thing to you.
Jack- thanks for not having a negative attitude about me. Its nice when you talk to me.
Ben- you know i can kick your ass. Stop acting tough against me.
Josie- i like you alot. I know we never really talked but i like you. Youre extremely pretty and youre very nice. I want to ask you to homecoming but i know you dont like me.
Shelby- youre pretty but youre too quick to judge
lauren- it meant alot when i was talking with my friend and you came up to us and told me i should go away and die.
Shannon- youre way too hyper
marko- are we friends?
If you want to contact me:
AIM (AOL): cryinryan2239
|05 Sep 2009||alejandro||well, i'm not under 13, does that matter? I want to say something to those @ssholes trolling evry suicide page or note on the news, etc. stop calling us selfish. all we want is to stop living and suffering, each to his own reason, each one worth of respect. why do you call me selfish? because i don't think of the pain i'm causing to others, because of the shock of killing myself. So if i understand correctly you people wants us to keep on suffering, to keep on being a nobody, to keep on being ignored by the people you sacrificed your whole life and moved to fucking israel because she kept crying on your shoulder for a year to convince you. the important thing here is not to cause any stress to anybody, you keep roting inside, you keep hating yourself...you just keep waiting for a slow death. My life is only mine, and nobody else's, i'm sick and tired of being called selfish, while nobody acknowledges my pain. I've begged for attention, and only gets silence. As for me, after attempting drowning myself and cutting myself, i'm confident that tomorrow i won't miss. I called a realtor and told him to show me some flats on high floors. First chance i'll have on any 10th floor or higher (hopefully higher) i'm jumping and ending my suffering for good. That's tomorrow starting at 2pm.|
|05 Sep 2009||Lennie M||I'm so desperately lonely. But it's got to the point where it has consummed me and I have become a rabid animal. Frothing at the mouth, terrible fantasys haunt me day and night. There are so many screams that have dried in my throat and I can hardly breathe.
And like the wild and raging animal I have turned on my human tormentors and given half the chance I would rip them to shreds. Oh it hurts so bad, a transformation like this is not easy. Clinging on to the last shreds of sanity and trying oh so desperately to escape.
Keep an animal chained and caged and it will be so very lonely, it needs to find it's own breed. I need to find someone. There must be someone out there who can and will understand.
I can phone all the helplines I want but how are they to help. How can they help when I can't help myself?
Oh God, help me please. I can't take the pain, I can stand it. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be this. Please help me.
|28 Aug 2009||Lennie Melvin||Haven't been around here for a while but the suicidalness has returned in full force. Oh joy. I could just fucking cry myself to death right now.
What the hell is wrong with me?
|21 Aug 2009||Jelly1234||My life is about to be ruined. I don't wanna live life anymore. I hate myself. I have two loving parents and brothers and I don't have problems with getting with any guy and I also have alot of friends but I am still unhappy. One day I met this boy then we decided to become a couple. Then I find out that he has a girlfriend. Ever since, I have been having weird symptoms and I went to the doctor and everything came back negative. I started having new symptoms again and I went to the doctor yesterday again. He told me that it could be herpes but he dubts it because im not itchy or going through pain. I'm waiting for the results now and I'm so scared. Right now I just wanna kill myself. I'm scared of what the results are gonna say and I think its gonna come out bad. Can someone tell me how I can kill myself painlessly. Life is full of cruel people and we are all gonna die anyways right? I just wanna get it over with and kill myself. I wanna die. I wanna be with my grandmother and my cousin. I wrote a suicide note and if the test comes back wrong then I am going to kill myself the next day. I love my parents and I am doing them a favor anyways. My father won't have to worry about my college tuition no more. After all, he would prefer a son instead of a daughter. I wanna die please give me ideas so I can end my life. Can anyone out there pleasee give me ideas to a painless death. I'm thinking about drowning my self in my pool but I want ther ideas.|
|20 Aug 2009||Sandra||If only therapy was free in the United States.|
|20 Aug 2009||Halo||I've never been sure of who I really am.
All i know is Im already dead
people see me . i have a boyfriend, a good life.
but something inside me
isn't .. here
If i was to kill my self i would want people to know
1: i loved him... my boyfriend.
2: I 've been this way since i was a child.
3: i deserve what i did.
i want it to be dramatic.. like in a movie. on the bath room floor
and a note covered in my blood
but thats if i was going to... im scared of living..
but to be honest im scared that there really is a god
who will judge and crucify me.
|18 Aug 2009||Kristin||don't want to do it but I am so depressed. Just to cut myself and get it over with.|
|13 Aug 2009||marlene||i just want someone to talk t someone i can tell things to i can tell my best friends but she just cracks a joke and blows it off. my parents don't even listen to me they'd rather listen to their idol child my brother!
can someone talk to me I'm lonely....
|08 Aug 2009||anna||i'm a liar, i'm a fake.
i've self harmed since i was 11, and the saddest thing is, i have the ideal life. sure, i don't always get on with my parents, but i generally have a good life. plenty of friends... yet i feel unkown. unwanted. I've attempted suicide, only to be found with a noose around my neck and saved by one of these so called friends.
I'm scared of life, I don't want to leave school, i never asked to be alive, i hate it so much. i am aware there are those who have a much worse than myself. I am 15, i should have my whole life to look forward to, but i don't. it was just a random combinations of events, statistics and chance that i came to be in the first place.
it's a gift i do not want.
i need to leave this, it's killing me as a person. I cannot laugh like i used to, i feel nothing, i want to be nothing.
|06 Aug 2009||Maggie||I don't know what to do. I'm going insane, and all I can do is continue this petty existence. I wish I could gouge my eyes out and fling myself infront of the next incoming truck that speeds down the highway.|
|03 Aug 2009||jen||So my mom doesn't give a sh*t about people pushing poison down other people's throats - this is crushing I not only came back for her but to some one I don't even know.
Is this the power I was given? To realize how f*cked up everything is? I would rather truly be ...well I cannot even say it that is how paranoid I am now
I said it before and it got me locked up..
so tell me how does one survive if they have no where to go - no food stamps - nothing?
I am supposed to just leave and go die apparently.
any advice would be helpful just e-mail me at kirbystarstacker@Hotmail.com
|29 Jul 2009||brettskibeat||The best way to kill your self if you are young is to simply let it roll on until you arn't...that self at any age is moving right along...this way or that, all the time....there is no funeral for the kid body,it just transforms slowly into a taller thang, and yeah you guessed it so is that depressed gooey grey fucken thing in your head. I'M not 13 man i'm fourty five and i have the priveledge to be any age i've already been...wait a bit , pick one you think is groovy and just be that....today i'm eleventy two, that is... the eleven year old in me thinks the twenty two year old is really groovy and worth looking up to and hanging out with...the forty five year old guy is saying...oh not this shit again, but in the spirit of looking out for his imaginary children he plays the game and everyone is happy...except for the twenty three year old who saw his father die, or the twenty eight year old when his mother died, or 31 34 25 16 19 when 'a' either his girl friend fucked off with a christian dork or 'b' had his friends suicide on him, leaving him with a strange sense of abstract humour for the departed....if your thinking about a life with jesus just remember there is no exit plan from christianity so if you dont like it and want to leave as far as they are concerned you can go to hell, thats why they dreamed it up like that, trust me it doesnt matter how many souls you bring their way...when you leave they have no appreciation for it at all, i bought about 15 people to the lord and they bought others and so on,but as i left i was accused of fucking the pastors wife, not being a real man because i wouldnt get married, any amount of shit they can dream up because you arn;t a part of their club...even the bible says something about you being a thousand times worse of something....they'll sit around in cell groups praying for what they wanted for your life for years after because they have nothing better to do, its like some strange christian voodoo that they have over you because you were once theirs. i placed my ass behind a drum kit and turned depression into aggresion and went and gave over thirteen thousand lessons to a bunch of kids at a music school in rural nsw australia, i didnt tell them 'this will help with your suicidal inevitabilities' but i know some of them will be able to rise above the fucked existance that every male living in this country experiences....i'm sick to fucken death of poverty and bullshit prompting about how you can achieve the unachievable, the unachievable here is longevity and it might turn out to be the only card i hold on this so called judgement day awaiting us all,,get fucked big fella i didn't pussy out on your shit planet...now up grade me to to a planet closer to the metropolos of the rest of the universe instead of this place way out to the left of nowhere,13 year olds are too sexy and cute to be dead, they just need to learn how to take advantage of that situation, if your a boy and you are starting to grow little boobies and having nuaghty dreams...dig it dig it dig it|
|25 Jul 2009||Bella||My life is completely crazy! People always say do this go there take that and so on. They never bother trying to understand and only care for themselfes.
When i talk to other peole about htis either it is online or just strangers all they say is that one day it will get better and things will be fine. However for the past 15 years(i am 15 now) my life has been a dark black hole and it hasn't gotten better. People say that it's just bloody teenage years which is a load of bullshit. I hate people teling me that. They just don't get it until they are in it themselfes. Its like people who have mental illnesses. WTF? how on earth can anybody proove that it isn't true. Its so stupid. maybe itis true but some are just to blind to see it. My parents only care for me to get into uni ad nothing else while the worship my older sister.
It pisses me off big time. I have thought about suicide but i have no idea how to do it. I admit i might have hope somewhere ndeep down because at times i think i am being stupid and start blaiming myself for all this shit in my life ending up in tears with things all over the room.
Its tough and the worst part is that no onE,L NOT ONE BLOODY PERSON can see through my fake happiness. They think i am a great happy girl who has no problems. At this i hate readng things like talk to someone. Its also bullshit. you cant talk to someone who isnt in your condition and since no one in my life is in my condition i dont talk to anyone about it.
I dont have friends. at all my last friend ditched me and now hates me for no reason.
They say it will be easier that someone will come and safe you but it just wont happen. The pain that rips me inside wont allow it.
oh have i forgot to mention i dont beleive in love. iTS JUST FAIRY TALES AND ONLY THEY HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS. no life has a happy ending. I dont beleive in any type of love. weather its love to family friends or your "souldmates". it just always ends the same way. marrige ends with divorce or abuse or pain, friends end with enemies, family ends with betrayal. its all the same...
i bloody hate it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|24 Jul 2009||Anna b.||I keep bleeding but nothing... I took a box cutter and cut. I love watching it fall on the floor. I can't take this bullshit life anymore. I just need a new way of ending it, cause cutting just ain't cutting it no pun intended...|