|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|24 May 2010||j.||I've just turned 18. I have been thinking about suicide for many years now. In the past I could never bring myself to do it, but recently I've been considering this whole thing on a much more serious level, and I think I'll probably do it before the end of this year.
I'm hideous and useless and I always come across as being negative and depressing because I can't seem to find anything positive about myself. There really isn't. I'm just disgusting in every single way and I just hate myself so damn much. I want to make people happy but I can't. I have no worth and I don't deserve anything. It's not like I have the right to suffer, because I wasn't ever raped or abused, and I never experienced anything that justifies my depression. I'm just making a huge deal out of my crappy life because I'm useless and I can't do anything right. The world is just better off without me and my ugly mug.
The thing is, I don't really want to die. I want to live, but not as me; I want to be someone else. I just want to slip out of this disgusting body and become a new person. But since that's not possible, the next best thing is to kill myself and get this all over with.
I've thought about jumping off of my balcony. I live on the 10th floor so it should work. But I've heard so many horror stories about becoming nothing more than a bloody splat once you hit the ground that I'm having second thoughts about this. Maybe alcohol can do the trick too, who knows. Right now I'm still doing a lot of research on this. I want to die in peace. I don't want to burden anyone or disturb anyone by having them clean up after me.
|23 May 2010||cancerofthehead||it s a shitty sunday morning, nothing to do, no friends to meet, i m through my third beer it s 10:22 am but i don t care, alcohol doesnt work on me anymore, i still drink that s why i m probably an alcoholic. i used to be a severe drug addict and did amphetamines everyday for a year, now i m more quiet, i still smoke dope and do phets twice a month, cause my life sucks. i v beeen thinking of committting suicide for the past 4 month, since i stoped my medication, i overdosed twice on more than a hundred pills each in april, but it didn t work out, i m so scared of hanging, moreover of all it means, diying like a dog on a rope, overall failure not having achieved nothing, whether written a book, or having a career, or even friends or family who s regret me, seems so sad but i m not sure i want to live in those conditions. when i m on medication pills i m not that bad, i started doing them again a fortnight ago or so, now whether i m addicted or i m just too bad off without them, when i don t take them 2 days i m like a corpse waking up, feeling shit, no future, fucked up my entire life. i m pissed off i m not able to function without the pills, they turn me into a robot, i m no longer in touch with my emotions, even though they do nothing but hurt me, with my dreams, i m bored when i m on the pills, then i quit and i want to die. i m terrified of hanging and what awaites me, or train crash, i m convinced i ll survive and end up with amputated limbs, and pills don t work. i might take up my medical training again in october but that s not enough to cheer my up, even though it s nice to have something to do throughout the day i don t give a shit about the peaceful life that awaites me as a medic, i know i won t be happy that way, except i might get close to lethal drugs that s help me end my life. i ve goz at least 5 month to kill now sitting at home at my pc with my dog, listening to my stupid music, with 2 friends left, all psychiatric cases, my best s letting me down, i m growing old and nothing to do but drink more beer, it doesn t do anything to me, don t know why i keep drinking. you re suicidal, hate life, chat on.|
|22 May 2010||Chelsea||I myself have been considering it at 20. Live your life. I was molested at 12, raped and impregnated at 15, had a baby boy at 16, another baby at 19, then she died at 2 months old. Im on the brink of my life. How much more can i take? Dont short change yourself. Go to school, get a college degree and then pursue your dreams no matter what it may be. You will be happy, i promise. I live my life in pure regret. Not so cool.|
|19 May 2010||Karen Gonzalez||I considered my mom my best friend. But now we're more like enemies competing against each other every single day. I'm tired of this... I have said things to her that i didnt even want to say and now i feel that she hates me... like if she doesnt care about me, like if im here only because she has the obligation to support me. When my dad left we promised that we were gonna help each other but that never happen...all i ever wanted was for her to be proud of me but seems that i let her down and the more i try to fixed things the more i fuck up. im getting tired of listen to her telling my little sisters that im a bad daughter, that im an example of how they're not suppose to behave, that shes tired of me and that she can't wait till i turn 18. When all i did my entire life was try to be the best in everything so she could be proud of me i even started to work when i was 14... my grades started 2 go down n i didnt care b/c i was helping my mom out. Now im not even goin to graduate because i didnt have time to do the senior project... all this just to help her... and what is it that she tells everyone??? That i never help her, that im mean to her, that i dont like my sisters, that im just like my dad,that im god's punishment, that im the worst daughter she could ever had. She hurts me everytime she talks to me... and im pretty sure i hurt her 2 (although i dont mean 2) she goes out with my sisters w/out me... i really wish 2 die... the 1 thing that i lov3 the most is my mom and i let her down, and i hurt her... plz some1 help me i think she would be a lot much better w/out me... what can i do to make her happy? should i just desapear?|
|13 May 2010||Penelope Olivia Donovan||I hate everything and everyone. Noone knows what i'm going through. They dont understand my pain. All this pressure I feel like I'm being crushed slowly. My parents set so high expectations, the other kids at school wont accept me unless im normal. I hate being fake. The others think I'm so happy and satisfied but its all a lie. I lie and tell them my parents are rich like theirs and my moms a doctor and my dad works for the government and I lie about my grades to them and my parents. Mom says I need to get good grades and go to college and not end up like her or dad but I cant. I dont have enough time. Im just so busy and all this weight on my shoulders and i hate it all. I hate everyone. They all want me to do something for them. "Take out the trash, go get the mail change Alexs diaper go to the store wash there clothes or these dishes" Why can't they do it? Why me? I hate them. I wish I was dead and they were dead. I want someone to help me. I need help. I don't want to live. I dont want to spend my life doing things. I want do what I want. I am being crushed by everyones wants and things. If I can't have my way I wish I was dead. I want to die. Life is only unfair because everyone makes it unfair. I hate everything everyone.|
|08 May 2010||gabriela||Nothing gets better. i kept telling myself since 2nd grade, it'd be better, i'd runaway one day,and im in 9th grade now. and my lonliness and closure from the world still seeks within me. keeping me away from all things once loved. this is not my fault. but what do you do, when circumstanses are unchangeable? i live in the middle of nowhere, i cant esacpe? how cani? help me love again. help us love again.|
|07 May 2010||Derek sa tx||basically my mom is a nut who calls the truancy court in advance and tells them I am a defiant child unwilling to any conformity , stays out till 1 am on school nights. does drugs and drinks with friends while skipping achool . and that i told her i did not want to go to school and that i wouldnt go no matter what.
all nonsense except for the use of marijuana for purposes of depression and coping with thoughts of suicide. I thought maybe this summer everything will allign ill get my license my car and live for once. FOR once i wont have to beg my neglectful mother for rides to places she wont take me reguardless of her priorities because her pre-k report cards are more important. but nope i have 500 dollars worth of fines and over 80 hours community service.
one day youll hear about the teen who overdosed on ambien . He was strong handsome. many girls liked him. made many laugh. and his mother was too busy to call that psycologist becuase she had so much school work
nothing quenches my depression like thoughts of suicide and the many knifes i've rubbed across my veins wishing i had the confidence to end it.
"grave digger. when you dig my grave. will you make it shallow. so that i can feel the rain........"
|07 May 2010||ana||im so empty. lonely. it seems as though half the people on here want to kill themselves cause of this. its like i cant even be fucked living. but i dont want to kill myself. i just want to dream all the time. be sleeping. i just dont wanna wake. why the fuck does shit like terrorist attacks and mass murders have to be real.. but santa clause and and fairies and fantasy is all a fucking lie? reality is fucking shit. i feel so disconnected. soooooooooooo lonely. ive only got like 2 friends. i need to get a fucking life. theres actually nothing wrong with me im fairly good looking im funny. i guess im a lil eccentric and weird but ehh so what.. i just cant relate to anyone i meet these days except my 2 best friends and they feel the same. people fucking suck. so let me tell you if you have someone special treasure that. cause its hard to find. i just feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fuckkkkennn lonely and empty its like slowly killing me. i dont know what i wana do with my life. i got no direction. i have adhd. i can never concentrate, im talented at a shitload and theres nothing i can do about it anyways cause i dont have the concentration span to stick anything thru ..NOTHING IS PERMANENT. nothing around you right now will last forever. everything you have ever seen or touched or thought about is impermanent even relationships thats why i think whats the point in doing anything. it means nothing cause its just gona end/break/die anyways...i think the world actually needs 2012 or something to happen.. cause most people aree just full of shit im so exassperated with everything. i just want to feel connected|
|07 May 2010||Anon||I don't know but I'm feeling so fucking low for the past 3 years I just want my life to be over|
|05 May 2010||jasmine||Hi everyone i am 13 and i am battling suicide. After reading all this it is helping. I know it is wrong to do it but somedays it just feels like thats he only way. I want to go to counsiling but idk how to tell my mom n dad. I told my big sister and she did help me for a while but im not going to throw my life away. I just want to thank all the people hear who are saying dont do it im goin to try to hang in there.|
|05 May 2010||yuvraj||i want sumbody's help plz i m getting depressed day by day|
|05 May 2010||Shanelle||I so agree with whoever's I just read. An alternative to killing yourself is to run away. You get to leave everyone and everything behind and start new. nobody around you would know a thing about you (as long as your not on Ameriica's most wanted) I have decided this is what I am going to do. It is too painful to stay here, and it will be really hard to leave some of the people, but I think it'll make me happier later on. :)|
|03 May 2010||yuvraj||i wanna urgent help, getting depression day by day|
|02 May 2010||Shanelle||I would say if you wanted a painless way to go, just swallow a bunch of pills and go to sleep, or I've heard drowning is peaceful. But the thing is, I want a painless way to go and that is why I haven't done it yet. I've tried the hole pill thing and strangling myself and even swallowing chemicals. Nothing has worked for me. When I tried to strangle myself my body just made me let go of the cord and I dont think I passed out but something happened. When I tried the chemicals my boyfriend came in and put his finger down my throat to spit them out. and the pills... I just dont think that method works because I've tried that twice and I must have a reeeallly strong stomach (lucky me.. rolls eyes) My boyfriend says it doesnt work because I don't truly want to die. He thinks I'm too scared of death. Which is sort of true. its like this, I love him more than I could ever love anyone (besides my brother but in a different way) I was a virgin before him and He was my first and only love. but now (I still love him the same) I hate him and I don't really think I want to be with him, but I dont want to live life without him because There is nothing for me here. So I am sad everyday. I also am scared because its like, what if there really is a hell? or what happens when you die???? If only I KNEW. and as a response to something someone else said on here... No, God doesn't give you whatever you ask for dumbass. I've prayed for a fatal disease, for him to take it away from someone who wanted life and give it to me, but no. I have to stay "alive"... >:(|
|30 Apr 2010||Marilyn||pardon me, but i've always felt that broken hearts are less painful than empty hearts.
pain... it's all the same at the end of the day, isn't it? contradictory as it may sound... but then again i am already used to contradicting myself. all my life, it's what i've constantly seem to be doing.
sometimes late at night, when everyone in the household is asleep, i like to climb over the gates and have a little walk. it's so peaceful, save for the occasional passing vehicle. but it's all good. sometimes i like to make believe potential rapists or vampires lurking by... waiting to devour me. my soul, perhaps. "carve the pain of my life, into my soul..."
i guess i just like to place myself in dangerous situations, because it sure beats being stuck in a rut, like i have been all my life. i never really belonged, but then again, we never really do, do we?
when i was 11 i saw a dead cat on my way home. i doubt i can ever forget how it looked like, and the odd, unfamiliar sound it gave off. it was dead, and there were flies surrounding it. and all i could ever think then was, "how lucky. even when it's dead, it is still of some use." i guess what i meant then was that in the very least, it was still of some use to those flies...
i am never useful and i know i never will be... but what i hate about it is that i don't think i will ever be able to change that fact. and then i hate myself for being so useless, so lifeless... now the hatred has faded, and my existence has since dulled a great deal.
the best way to kill yourself, regardless of your age, is to live. i am no counselor, but really, by living, it already is a torture which will kill you, perhaps even consume you, day by day...
|28 Apr 2010||no name!||Over the past 3 moths Ive been thinking about commiting suicide, the mere thought of it is present in my everyday routine. Btw, Im not 13, Im 21 and Chilean. During these last 4 years of my life Ive been through a lot of shit. My so called big family are all dead, some of my friends commited suicide or got killed while street racing. Of course that was a huge strike in my life, and I mourned their death for a long time, I even thought about killing myself too, but somehow I managed to overcome it. Then, I had a gf whom i spent 3 ½ years with, but we had to mutually break up cause she was moving to Argentina. In those times, we made the promise that we were going to move on and find someone else to love. She was lucky, and found a guy who treated her good enough, but after a while he was unfaithful and he would even emotionally/physically mistreat her. Of course we were bff by that time and I was worried about her. Then, some time later I received a call from her dad, he told me she had commited suicide because she fell deep in love with that argentinian bastard... but it was weird though, I cried all that night, and the next day I felt some kind of relief. Anyway, then after a year a pretty shy girl entered the college Im currently studying. I immediately thought she was the one. I was too scared that year so we would communicate by email or fotolog. Then the next year after that I finally made up my mind and asked her out; it took us some months but we ended up having a beautiful 5 months relationship. Then, the day she broke up with me, my world started to shatter again. She told me I was the perfect guy she always had wanted to have but somehow, and since I was her first bf ever she said she didnt love me and that she only loved me as a good friend. Reluctantly I had to accept her terms to be friends. We decided that we were gonna try it the next year and that we should take the 3 months summer breaks to think it over. Our friendship was fine til someday she stopepd answering my emails (we were at our respectives cities b4 coming back to college again) without apparent reason. We didnt talk for a long time and then when I finally got to see her again she had changed. She was colder and indifferent, I was debastated and pissed off at the same time so I behaved just like her. Then after a couple of fights we managed to keep the friendship but nothing was the same, she didnt feel like talking to me and recently I stop putting my endevours on the line. I just dont fucking get it, all i did was loving her and all i receive is indifference, she really doesnt seem to give a shit about me and even though she said she loved me (as a friend), she does nothing to prove it. Of course there are more details, but i wont tell them just not to bore u more. The fact is that we broke 3 months ago and the feeling is killing me inside. This time around I feel like Ive reached the bottom and that i can no longer reach out. Life sucks, I have no gf, no friends to rely on and the worst thing is that I have to fake and pretend that Im ok.... Then my parents, I always fight with them, they dont understand shit and they are not helping at all, they just want me to get good grades at college and stuff. If i commit suicide I wont give a shit about them or anyone, I mean i do love them, but they dont know the pain Ive endured these past 4 years of my fucking life! Im their son and they dont even know my true personality!!! I was always the strong guy who would overcome any shortcoming without even worry about it, like a happy-go-lucky person but since I met this gir Ive become weak. I have noone to talk to... besides nobody wants a friend who is always in pain, lets face it, ppl are so damn busy with their miserable lives living in their fantasy worlds that they dont have time for the others! I always have time to be there for someonw but all I receive is a cold treatment and ppl getting away from me coz I already helped them... Fuck, the society we live in nowadays sucks! The media seems more important, the vampire stuff, everything is more important than love! C´mon ppl!!!!! why is it that hard to find someone who cares about you, when its so easy to find someone who looks down on you?.... Oh, and let me tell you something about god.. Im a believer, but I give a shit about religion. Religion is just something the churches created to give ppl something to believe in. Theres nothing worst than a person praying to good to help them... cmon god is not gonna help! And if u asked good to be successful and u succeeded at that, its not because of god, its coz of ur personal motivation!!! god wont come down here and fix ur problems, so dont even mention that cruel bastard!... I would rely on music to reach out, but nothing seems to help, i dont enjoy doing anything and I hate my current situation... plz dont say everythings gonna be ok coz it wont... i dont really care if after my death ppl or my parents are gonna result hurt, I wish that happened so that way they could undergo what Ive been through my whole life. Why ppl have to w8 til some big shit happens to realize they could have done something?... probably they would say oh he was in pain, and I didnt realize it or shit, he is my ex bf and i screw up, I shoulnt have to stop talking to him or whatever!..... Im mature enough to know what the pros and cons of this action are, and I really hate the situation Im into right now. Theres no turn around here, i mean obviously noone cares, I can see that everyday!!! my mail is now empty, during classes nobody notices me, thats shit!!!!! Ive overcome this suicidal feeling b4, but now its the bottom line, the point where theres no return! Im just waiting for the right time to do it while I continue suffering because of everyone elses behaviour towards me..... The method Ill use is drinking paint thinner (diluyente in spanish), I once heard that an old retired man would drink a small amount of that mixed with lemon, he said it was good for ur health but if u put more paint thinner than a little bit u would die; some day he had a habg over and he miscalculated the amount of paint thiner and eventually died... Fuck life ppl!!!! I dont really want to keep on living like this, suffering and death surround me everywhere I go! Fuck off, if nobody cares, then Ill just take the ticket to nowhere and get the fuck out of this miserable life!|
|21 Apr 2010||brnt||I have tried to kill myself before. Cutting, and mainly burning. I used to lock myself after having a shower. Turn off the lights and cry.I had and still have uncontrollable emotions. When i didnt want to cry i'd ball my eyes out. When I wanted to cut so badly because honestly its indescribable to amount of times i wants to put a massivly deep cut in my left arm. but I havent. Not that often anyway. When I didnt want to cut I just did it. I cant get help I live in a shitty town my sister whos now seeing a coucellor - for attension like she likes. And Im the one who needs help. As much as Id like to say some of these comments sound like u dont know how the fuck it feels like tht. And saying that there are people worse off. HELLO> that doesnt change the fact u want to to die so bad. Its not omg. I hate maths i want to die. Its omg I cant live this life anymore. I need help. alot. get help. try. because you'd have a better chance of finding help. 3 weekends from now. Im going to book a ticket to go to somewhere bigger and im going to see the one I love the most(family) and im getting his help becuse he understands. So jus try. even if u have to run away, do it for urself. If ur like me and ur mum says ur a drama queen. Killing urself. I just wanna cut. But i think hanging urself is pretty wik....... HELP ME PLEASE IM GOING INSANE WITH. The only way I show it is through alone by myself(self harm) drawings or just full on squriming around ccrying feeling like ive just been shot hiding in my room, Help.|
|18 Apr 2010||ditsy||After reading everything Im thinking of driving off a bridge.
Im not 13 Im 53. Im tired - so damn tired. My son has no time for me and my brother, after screwing my mother out of money and breaking his promise to my father on his deathbed, doesn't talk to me anymore. I got sick with bowel infections - had a collostomy, and then a reversal....and then got cancer. Went through chemo and lost my job - im "overqualified" for everything I apply for and so Im broke.
I would love the answer - I love going to sleep at night and so often wish I could just keep sleeping and not wake up
|16 Apr 2010||Charlotte||I dont even know what to say my heads a complete mess im 18 (turn 19 in may) and my life....well i wouldnt even call it a life is a constant nightmare. I suffer from depression and anxiety to the MAX i have Madd mixed anxiety depressive disorder,im on medication for this im sick of life everyday is pain pain pain felt like this since 12yrs old i didnt finish school due to this i dropped out of college due to this and i cant get a job because this i have EXTREME social anxiety when im around people i get chronic stomach aches and sometimes puke up because of my nerves i also slur my words and get severe sweaty palms around people i dont know why me? Why am i like this? I dont have a friend in the world if i died tomorrow id have about 4 people at my funeral and thats family i have cut my arms i now have scars up my left arm i mean why am i alive whats the point my father has bi polar disorder so to add to my crap life i live with somebody who has more ups and downs than a yo yo god i just wish i get the nerve i need to end my pain...|
|14 Apr 2010||Katiee||Im Katiee Miller i am 14 years old and i have tryed killing my slef many times!
i have tryed and thought about killing my self since i was 12 years old! pretty young.
i have never really tolled anyone in my family that i have wanted to do this.
because they may think that i am fucking crazi!
i have asked my mom what she would do is i tryed to kill her and she freaks the fuck out,its pretty funny i think!(:
i tell her how i i will kill her and where i will put her body and every thing! But like i can see in my mind waht im going to do to her and where im going to put her body and shit!
i have asked my mom and dad and my boyfriend if they have ever thought about killing them self or other people my mom and dad said hell no,but my boyfriend said that he has!
so i know i am not alone,and after i found this web sight i was like oh shit there are other people like me to.
I have cut my self for ever i have always coverd it up and no one on my family has ever seen it bt people at school have and i try very ard to hide it bt its really hard when it bleeds alot!
people have goon down to the school people and tell them that i cut my self and shit and that just pisses me off even more!
i have had to go to the ER for shaking and panic atacks and shit like that!
i dont know it i am like depressed or what.
well here is my story. email me is u can help hee please!