|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Feb 2003||Michael Mackellar||Kim might find the help that is needed by listening to SLEEPING PILLS by a band called LONDON SUEDE.|
|19 Feb 2003||Felicia - Your Guardian Angel in Disquise||Dear Suicide Note XXX,
I can relate to the pain you are going through when you feel life isn't worth living. Take for example my mother. She lives life everyday being feisty and old making everybody's life a living hell. Unable to take her med's and being incontinent doesn't help either. Anyways, when you don't know what is going on and have no clue why you are here, there are two things that you need to figure out. One, you are either losing your mind because of a handicap that you can't help, and two, you are pushing yourself to lose your mind by telling yourself that you are a failure. Number two is your category my dear and that you can help, and please forgive me if you feel that I am being judgemental. To be honest with you, you have too much time on your hands. Get busy and do something instead of wallowing about killing yourself. Have you ever thought of volunteering in helping those who are unfortunate? Believe me, these people have nothing to live for and need a helping hand. They have nobody... nobody at all. There are no family and friends visiting, except for the physical therapist, the occasional doctor, and the nurse. That is why I am visiting and taking care of my mother, because she has nobody to take care of her, except me, my brother, and my mother's brother. Through countless arguing and ranting and raving, we care about mom. Besides with all this talk about war, the world can end tomorrow. So you see, why kill yourself? Live everyday like it was the first day of the rest of your life, and if it is hard to bear then think about helping others. For this you reap tons of friends. Gosh, you got me and I haven't even met you yet. Okay, how about this, I am going to yell at you. STOP THINKING OF KILLING YOURSELF! YOU'RE NOT CRAZY! YOU HAVE FRIENDS!! STOP DRINKING SO MUCH, IT'S BAD FOR YOU!! DON'T KILL YOURSELF BECAUSE THERE IS A PURPOSE WHY YOU ARE HERE.... STOP IT!! Stop thinking of killing yourself... Stop it, stop it....Stop it!!!
I haven't met you, but you're well liked so get over it. Besides who am I going to write to?
|15 Jan 2003||Felica - The Guardian Angel||Though I've pointed out that committing suicide is stupid and tried convincing others that they would be missed would not apply to everybody, but I know for sure that killing oneself is a pseudo-solution and the effect of this action on others is a stark reality, as well as a fact.
As far as being different, whether it is a sexual preference, a lifestyle choice, or you committed a heinous crime, we all know that it is simply not right to be judged at all. Nevertheless, we have to think of the consequences, whether it'd be good or bad, and how it would effect whatever happens in the present. Since individuals like you take the time to look into this website for relief, you definitely know the difference between good and bad. We are old enough and intelligent to realize that whatever we choose or chose to do, we are held accountable and are indeed responsible for our own actions. Mostly, we can blame our parents for our downfalls and take it out on the injustices of this society by "doing away" with ourselves. But realize that being born into this "world of woes and the fear of the unknown" is not our fault. We are born and put in this world for a purpose, and whether or not you do not believe so, ACCEPT IT! You have every right to be here like everybody else!!!
In taking responsibility for the caring of others, whether it be sibling, parent, friend, relative, spouse, loved one, or even foe, it may seem that those who need us and who are supposedly "hanging from a thread , need our help. We cannot help those who are clinging to us for dear life if we are not emotionally healed ourselves. Our burdens on ourselves are way too big to handle and it is emotionally draining... especially, ESPECIALLY, if we live with unsupportive parents or families.
Before you decide in attempting your destiny and finding pseudo-solutions to kill yourself, stop first... On a clear night, go outside, don't forget to take a jacket, look up at the sky and stars, take a gulp of fresh air and exhale slowly. Remind yourself that you count just as much as those stars above you and again that you have every right to be here whether you believe it or not. If you are confined in a cell with no outlet of the sky whatesoever, think of the night sky and stars because they are still there. Even if you took a life of another or attempted murder, though I don't condone it (that's my opinion) you still matter. Though you feel as though you need to be punished for the injustices that you done, you still matter. Even if you chose a different mode of living and have a different lifestyle, you still matter. If anybody, friend, parent, foe, sibling, or loved one, thinks otherwise, and they verbally and physically abuse you, tune them out, BECAUSE, that's not what you are and that is their opinion, not yours. If you are entrapped by these people under violent conditions, take refuge immediately because that is not love. Report this to the authorities and ask to seek shelter in a safe place. I am not convincing you to be a runaway either, but if you are being verbally or physically abused and entrapped or confined, this is not a form of love, it is an act of manipulation and violent behavior. You shouldn't be harmed in any way or form and you shouldn't have to live in that hell hole. Don't have people tell you that you're hopeless and be subjective to hurtful words. Again, don't believe it, and understand it is not true. You are who you are, believe in you. Take that first step, rather than killing yourself. Save yourself first... Please!!! You only have one body in this lifetime and think of the opportunities and memories you would jeopardize if you do such an act. Your reaction is "Don't REACT so suddenly!" Think first! Ask yourself a question in why you are doing this, write or type it down, and again, think! Exhale, enhale... BREATH. Write or type down a list of "pros" and "cons". Find ways to resolve the "cons". Don't hyperventilate and dwell only on negativity. Get busy! Occupy your mind with other things that make you happy (I do not require drugs or booze, okay?!) rather than committing a selfish act.
And remember, whether you believe it or not... you are loved.
-Read below under Felicia - The Guardian Angel for more input.
|30 Dec 2002||Felicia - Your Guardian Angel||What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? What is the best way to kill yourself when you are 25, 35, or 59 years of age? My advice, don't try. I myself have tried to commit suicide with Geritol pills at age 14, but something was holding me back. In a span of five minutes, my parents knocked on the door to check up on me. Feeling foolish, I spat the pills out. Down the road of life, which was soon extended after I spat out the pills, I've seen people kill themselves for pure enjoyment to get back at the world, to die because life was an unjust cause and they rather not live in it. To be brutally honest, there was some people that I knew who were convinced to do themselves in, and I didn't care. I labeled them as messed up, drugged out, or "demonically possessed" to some degree, but after they attempted it, I felt lost. For some reason, these people did matter to me. The cause of them killing themselves was usually over the main reason, rejection over a guy or a girl, an abusive parent or sibling, drug usage, a lost loved one, or the worst enemy, money. In talking about this, lately I felt like doing myself almost a week ago over the rejection of two men. But I ask myself, "Why?" I keep telling myself this that no guy or girl is worth your time if they treat you like crap or never give you the time of day. Does it hurt them that they left you? Sometimes, but who cares what they think? We're focusing on you and me. Let's continue. I went back in time I witnessed my best friend's brother kill himself slowly with alcohol or distilled spirits over his ex-wife. I saw him lying on the hospital bed with his eyes open, laying dormant and stiff in a vegetative state. Surrounding him were his family and friends. My best friend told me "if only" she could have spent more time with her brother and shared her drawings of Palm Trees with him again. I'm not joking. They both loved Palm Trees and paintings of them, but unfortunately it was too late. I sat in the lobby seeing all the relatives cry and friends, true friends of him. Did I burst out in tears with the rest of them? No. I hardly knew the guy. But underneath, I felt the sufferring, the harshness of someone killing themself slowly. What was worst was seeing everybody, especially my best friend crying incessantly, and singing songs my best friend's brother wrote. Everybody was anticipating the outcome of this musician. There were incidences that I heard from the doctor that my best friend's brother was bleeding from the lungs and losing his liver. His inner organs were damaged. Did it bring satisfaction? No. It hurt knowing that someone I hardly knew was clinging on for dear life and I couldn't do anything about it. That's when I began to care. My best friend's brother died seven days later. That was a week after Thanksgiving in 1999. It didn't make me feel good. It haunts me to this day. Just last year again, my best friend's second brother committed suicide by hanging self by a noose over a girl. What's this? Another escape? No it's not. It leaves others like myself and my best friend wreathing in pain after a death was unnecessarily committed. While you sit there with that knife, that noose, or those pills, or even a razor blade, you're not only killing yourself. You are also killing everybody that you love or those that love you. That's why you and I need to think! Just think first! As we lay on our beds and start breathing, even though the pain in our chest and our body aches from the deep hurt we must live. Before you decide to take your life, come back to this website and send an email before contemplating your own destiny. The mouchette.org/suicide people will try their best to respond or give a few words. Or give someone you love a hug. If no one is around you to give you a hug, hug your lap top or computer, because the other person behind the wire that wrote this is me. I am real and I am not phony. If I feel a sudden force of warmnest, I know it is you. Just know that you are loved at this very moment.|
|28 Nov 2002||Rodrigo||Some things are beyond words, beyond comprehension, beyond forgiveness. I use to think that once i had succeeded in ending my life that no guilty conscious could possibly exist, so why not just do it and get it over with ??? I still mourn the random death of innocents; the death of innocents and the death of innocence. From the day i first drew breath, i stood alone, seperate, without love, without family, without hope. Nothing is more unpredictable as life, and change can strike like lightning. I always wonder about the life i've missed.... bravery just isn't enough is this world.
I'm not going to be the guy you blame for ruining your life, your choices are your own, the future is not fixed.
Things don't always turn out the way you plan, no matter how hard you try and it's sometimes for the best, even if it means sacrificing a little beauty, to safeguard the beauty that already exists.
It's so hard to find the strength to do what's right, but my resolve is greater then ever.
I find that u people have all the potential in the world and not the first idea how to use it
So go ahead and do whatever it is u want to do to yourselves, i can't stop you if that's what you really want.
"A LITTLE DARKNESS NEVER HURT ANYBODY"
It's funny how u can see someone everyday but not really see them
Dying is easy, Living is hard
Believe me, i wish i could just wish away my felings, but i can't. This is the only thing i can do for you people.
SO the question is how long are u people going to keep running away from ur problems ???????? email@example.com
|20 Nov 2002||Lori||You don't. Although things may seem very hopeless, because you either have fucked up parents, or you feel too much pressure to do well, or whatever your reason for asking such a question may be, You just don't. Even if your life is really, really bad, by taking your own life so early, you will be unable to live some of the greatest years of your life if you die now! Life is hard. Know that! And the older you get, the more responsibilites you have. It's not easy. If you are living in an environement that is abusive in any way, shape or form, tell someone. Because if someone is hurting you physically, sexually, or emotionally, they are very sick people who need help, or need to be punished (hopefully) by our judicial system. I know it seems hard to talk to your parents about things, but if you've tried, and for whatever reason they don't listen, you can e-mail me and I will try to help. I'm a 36 year old mother with a 9 year old son, and I won't judge you, or think you're weird or anything like that. But please don't kill yourself. Our youth is our future, and no matter who you are, if you want to change things bad enough, you can. Just don't give up!!|
|17 Nov 2002||Read before you act||Isn't this uplifting =D. I know what it feels like to be severely depressed, perhaps even suicidal. You loose interest in things that once interested you. No matter how much sleep you get it's never enough. You feel as though things will never get better, and you might as well end your life now. Suicide IS NOT the answer. If you ever need someone to chat with, someone who will not judge you but be open-minded to what you have to type, contact me. My screen name on AIM (AOL) is "Tormented Ivory" ...feel free to IM me at any point of the day. And remember, suicide is not the answer, there is hope for you.|
|06 Nov 2002||Just me||Justin, Believe it or not, I totaly know how you feel, I read it, and realised I could have written it, well except for the part about living on 17 ;) anyways, if you want, email me, so we can talk about the crappy shit, they tend to call life.|
|28 Oct 2002||FTS to N||Dear N,
I am sorry you are feeling suicidal. Unfortunately I cannot reveal my email, however if you would like to post why you are feeling suicidal I can respond here.
If you are 13 or under in most circumstances it would be a good idea to wait unitl you are 15 or 16 before making a final decision about suicide. Because we grow quickly mentally and physically during the teenage years your perspective and sense of self can change rapidly during this time. In other words who you are at 17 is close to who you are at 18 or 19 but who you are at 16 can be a lot different than who you are at 13.
Mouchette has provided an entry in the box above the posts (which I didn't notice before) for people offering their help. Here is an impressive list of recent people and emails offering to talk with people feeling suicidal. One (lain M) apparently is an organization which will try to respond to you within 24 hours.
Most problems do have a solution so feel free to post your situation (remember no one will no who you are)
|25 Oct 2002||josh||guess this falls under offering help:
if anyone wants to talk they can just email me because there are reasons to live
most of you i guess have nothing better to do with your time than post on this site. some may call it sick, but what is sick, our own morality decides what is sick. this morality is flawed.
|21 Oct 2002||Vanessa||hmm... intersting interesting answers here... yes yes good answers indeed... yet only the dead know the TRUE answers to being dead, seeing as they are dead! myself, i am not new to this site... i have been checking back every other week or so, and Lucy Cortina's and Mouchette's and Billy's dialogues and conversations seem to be getting more amusing every time... you three seem to have great lives.... anyway, on we go, i live in Texas in the U.S., but are we really united? i think not... actually i think that christianity is a cult, and the government is after me, and yes life seems to always be in shambles... by the way i'm being totally serious... but here's a question for the people who ARE thinking of "offing yourself"... what is there to look forward to when gone? no, i'm not any kind of savior, i promise this, seeing as i have a bad sort of behiavor, but really is Death actually THAT exciting to look forward to? unless you believe in reincarnation (in that case i would love to come back as a guy) then what really is to come in dying? it will be pitch black, incredibly boring, nothing to do, nowhere to go, nobody to see... i would rather duke it out in the tough life than be bored for the rest of eternity. think about it, and please feel free to email me with your thoughts, i'll respond personally Crying_black_tears@hotmail.com
|18 Sep 2002||Eva||Ok ya'll Do not get me wrong I have wanted to commit sucide very many times!!! I don't blame you!! LIFE IS SOOOO HARD!!! But... I got to thinking why should I kill myself??? I could be something great when I get older. Why not live and find out first? I have sworn no matter what I WILL NOT commit suicide. I might run away but I WOULD NEVER COMMIT SUICIDE!!! Please if you are thinking about committing suicide email me at EandKJONES@aol.com or IM me at PrincessArwen000
I will listen to you and help you solve your problems. Please don't kill yourself because someone on this earth loves you, even if u don't know it. And i am one of them.
|12 Aug 2002||Mike||For Shonice who has written in 27 July 2002 in 'seeking help' page:
well, it's not easy to answer to your add with a sentence however it'd be better - e-mail me, plz. If u don't have any e-mail just make any at http://mail.yahoo.com and we can have a serious talk.
Wish you all the best
|09 Aug 2002||sarah lapierre||Dear Mouchette, I wrote what it did because i have tried to kill myself by sliting my wrists and it didn't work otherwise i wouldn't be here typin to you. my family and friends helped me get better and i wrote that if you're not sure about it that you should take a look at your life to see if it's worth killing yourself over. Please write back if i can be of any help other people or if you just want to talk.|
|08 Aug 2002||Mike||For Orgy (with e-mail >Orgy21f@cs.com but it doesn't work)
I've read your opinion at the site - http://www.mouchette.org/suicide/answers.php3?cat=experience
and I'd like to "talk" to you, a bit at least althoug it'll be kinda monologue when just e-mailing... ;-))
Simply, I'd rather listen to feelings as for your pain and reason why do you have such suicidal feelings...
It'd be also really good to read this :
By the way I'm not a pastor, not as old as I could be your parents, I'm just Mike from Czechoslovakia and if you'd like to have a talk, just let me know. Mostly I check my e-mail in the evening about 7 or 8 p.m. (Central Europe Time) or in in the morning about 5 a.m. (CET).
And I'd like also to express my opinion to your arguments in the add on that page:
"...No one will come up to you and tell you that you did a good job resisting ..."
From your whole add I can suppose you've met just such people as you described it there but be sure there are also some stupid ones here, in Czechoslovakia - but there are also very fine people too who became my friends as well...
Most best friends I have among buddhists, not only for I like His Holiness Dalai Lama (try to have a look at the film "7 years in Tibet" with that actor - hhm, I can't remember his name but he's married with Ms Atkonson, hmm, I'm sure you'll remember his name ;-)
Also another cool film is "NELL" with Jodie Foster or some of Steven Seagal...
I hope to listen from you yet and soon ;-)
Have faith that you will eventually move past feeling stunned and emotionally wounded. It takes time to heal and reach a place where you can begin to feel whole again. Over time, as difficult as it is to believe, the raging storm and hurricane winds you feel will gradually subside and become the gentle warm summer rain.
With best wishes
|31 Jul 2002||Jeanie||I told myself that I wasn't going to post on this site, because I am really disturbed by some people that wrote on here. Most of the people that posted see some humor in some of it, but what about the people that have been seriously considering killing themselves?
I know what it's like hating the world and just wanting to die. I was having trouble gathering up the balls to kill myself, but I'm glad now because it seems to be getting better and better day by day when I'm around the people that TRUELY care about me. Not just the sick religious fucks that tell me that I shouldn't kill myself cause I'd go to hell, or the people that say that have no idea what having a fucked up life is really like (you know... the ones with the fancy cars and parents that don't beat the shit out of them), or the "friends" that told me not to just because they would feel guilty. I'm talking about the people that really care that would really miss me if I was gone. They kept me going, and now the thought of killng myself makes me crenge. There are always better ways to deal with your problems. If you kill yourself you are just putting the people you love in pain and killing yourself has to be painful especially if you don't do it right... :|.
For you people that are truely thinking about killing yourself don't listen to some of the sick fucks on this website. The ones giving ideas or the ones telling you that you are a bad person for even thinking of it. It's just nature to want to get out of a bad situation. But please think it through from all angles. If you want any type of "non-professional" help you can always email me. (I went to a shrink once. they are cool for some people... but this one just made me want to kill myself more to get the fuck outta his office!!... so I think talking to someone that has been through the same thing and around the same age could help more.) Nothing can be solved by killing yourself, and it is never the only way to get out of a aweful situation.
Thanks for listening... People that did anyway.
|25 Jul 2002||Alicja||This is sad.... literally. I'm a 17 yr old female who's been there. Anyone wanna talk e-mail me or I have Instant Messenger (BondGirlNo7). I'm working my way out of depression and think I could help =*)|
|31 May 2002||Ellie||Yeah ok, I know there's about 100 of these letters on here, but I'm going to add to it, if you need to talk to someone email me anytime - firstname.lastname@example.org
I may not be able to help, but I'll try, I've been there, I am there, I have friends who are there. But I'm still here. Talking about it does help. Please email me before you try it
|17 May 2002||Taylor||Anybody who need's help e-Mail me please I'd like to help you out as much as i can. don't kill yourself there's so much to live for so think about it!!!|
|16 May 2002||Iain M||Hi there all, if anybody feels they really need to talk to somebody about how bad/suicidal they feel, then feel free to email email@example.com anytime. Befrienders will try and reply within 24hours to your email, but it may take a little longer, they are all volunteers and have many people to talk to.