|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|19 Nov 2001||john||This goes to the maker and the person who's picture and stuff is after the post. I don't want to know you, I am older and not a pervert anyway. But in all respect I mean to be nice and compliment you, in that you are a cute girl, as I could see from the picture. Also you are not alone, and you aren't weird or anything. My mood changes all the time too! My friend and I call it "modes", and we believe a human can only be truely understanding and human if they have them, as to understand what other people go thru. I liked your site, good luck and I wish the best for you.|
|19 Nov 2001||John||I'm 16, but I contemplated suicide from when I was 12. I haven't done it cause I love my family too much and even though I would be dead it still seems wrong. My life sucks though, well maybe in essence it does but I warp it in my head to suck, and can't help it. I even go to a psychiatrist and am on happy pills and lithium. They do shit, for me that is. I hate this world, it's evil, this is hell! I don't think I can be held responsible for suicide cause then fuck God for making me with screwed up biochemistry. Anyway, it's just our culture that condemns it, its social cultural conditioning, and in other places once someone is useless in society members are encouraged to kill themselves. But I want to do just the opposite, fuck this shit society that makes me a mere product of capital. The rest of society should go to hell, not me, if hell even existed. People have countlessly abused me for my generousity and niceness. This is a world were agressive fuck faces manipulate everyone and own the world. A world where once you become intelligent in an abstract and understanding way it hurts to live. Personally if I can get myself to do it, I am going to get drunk and jump in front of a high speed train. Or i'll get drunk and swim and swim and swim until I can swim no more and I am too far to get back. I just don't know if I can do it to my parents though. If I do, I am going to carry a large proclamation and statement in order to help the world realize some of its badness. But no one listens now, and I am not sure anyone would care. Peace, if you can be happy, go for it and tell me how you got there. Don't give up until all hope is lost. Also, "die" to your family in a better way before the actual act such as becoming very queer and distant, drive them nuts, make them not want you, so that you don't hurt them as much. Trust me, it really sux to loose a loved one and I wouldn't want to do it to those I loved. Existence does not only lie in ourselves but them too, they go on, and then they suffer as much or more as we did that made people to kill themselves.|
|16 Nov 2001||n3wdude||Only a handful of people here are here because they were thinking of suicide. I don't know what the rest were looking for when they found this site. The reason I'm here is because I've tried to kill myself about 12 times but it didn't work. I'm not 13 I'm 26 (just turned Nov. 10th) and have been in a bad marriage since I was 17. Most of the times that I have tried have been by overdosing, with the exception of once. I was going to shoot myself but could not. Idon't know why. No balls I guess. Pills are neater. But the problem with pills are I can't find anything that works, and believe me I have tried, taking hundreds and going off in the woods and going to sleep, just to wake up puking my guts out. What I'm here looking for is something that will work and can be gotten over the counter. Tylenol Benadril (both mixed) bottles of cough syrup and nameless others have not worked for me. I don't think I will ever be happy or even just not living in turmoil. See my problem is this: if I get divorced the bible say's I'm an adulterer to be with anybody else and for that I'm going to goto hell. But if I kill myself I am going out as a murderer and I go to hell. So I'm thinking what difference does it make? Why keep going through the shit just to go to hell. I hope nobody reads my fucked up logic and adopts it for their own. It's just that me and my spouse are playing the "let's see who can hurt the other the most" game again and I'm thinking about ending it all again. So anyway let's get some real suggestions in here so I can get on with my death. Oh and this could be a good room if we would put it to good use.|
|31 Oct 2001||James||I was quite fond of hanging when I was 13. I tried it once but my father came in and cut me down. I didn't do it right so rather than breaking my neck I just dangled there choking.
Falls from a great height are nice but often don't leave a body. Open casket funerals are nice because it allows your friends to say farewell.
|26 Oct 2001||Kid Ying||I would like to ask a question to all of the people who come here saying that people who are or were suicidal are "sick fucks" or "messed up in the head".
Do you think telling then that is actually going to KEEP them from commiting suicide and feel better about themselves?
If you have never been suicidal then what are you doing on a site like this in the first place? Are you in denial and want to look "cool". Do you think the whole thing is a joke since you have never been there? Or are you just prejudiced against people with emotional problems? Narrow mindedly thinking they are all psychos and murderers?
Offer help. Not a flame. I think you are pretty sick fucks myself to just lok up suicide and death for no reason at all. What the fuck in on your mind all day? Huh?
And no I do not think the Mouchette on this site in a real person. Just a creative webmaster seeking attention. But I don't blame him or her for anything. You can put anything you want on the net.
I bet I can look on this site next week and see some more "holier than thou" bullshit. If you hate this site guys then why do you look at porn? In SOME people's opinion it's sick. disgusting and uncalled for. And girls why do I see so many msg boards have strings of posts talking about their fantasies of what they would do with their favorite movie star?
No one made any of you Judge jury and executioner, we all have our problem and this just happened to have been one of mine years ago. Call me crazy whatever the hell you want, but then look at yourself if you aren't the pinnacle of perfection, then all then shit you are talking is falling right back in your mouth. Eat it.
One more note to all the serious inquirers here. Respond to this:
A child molester who rapes little girls or boys in the United States gets 2-4 years in jail and a professional psychiatrist paid for by the goverment no matter how many times he/she has done it.
A suicidal person in the United States who tries to kill themselves on any more than one occcasion gets locked in a maximum security Mental Institution, for 3 years -LIFE, All depending if the Doctor feels you are ready to get out or not.
Do you think this is fair or not?
|20 Oct 2001||Sarah||I wanted some serious answers here but there's only people being dumb. We can't get guns here so it's a bit hard and the only form of drugs people can buy at my age are vitamin C and stuff. I don't have a life insurance i dont think so if i died now i'd feel like it was a waste for my family to spend money on me for 16 years. I don't know. I'm not angry at anyone. I wish there was an easy was to die. I came here for a real answer. I have a job now so i'm saving up enough money for a coffin and flowers and things so my parents won't have to fork out for them then I'll be able to do it without guilt. If anyone's in South Ganorville on 18-24 of october 2001, check in the paper for a Sarah W. Bye everyone!|
|20 Oct 2001||emily||I love to burn myself, and break a glass and slice open my legs so no one can see, that way people don't think I'm looking for pity. Fuck them all. I also use a razor, I've slit my wrists too. I've tried to kill myself twice. I overdosed on tylenol (which will intoxicate you liver and kill you) then I tried to hang myself, but I passed out and the cord broke. I carved a star on my stomach, all my friends from the hospital did. I went to the hospital twice. Fuck all those therapists and counselors, they don't know a fucking thing. Someday i will do it, and then everyone will be sorry. Everyone in the fucking messed up world. I AM GOING TO HELL, AND I'M SAVING ALL THOSE FUCKERS A SEAT!!!!
I have no one to talk to that knows what it's like. no one understands, they all think you need pills stuffed down your throat and everything will be fine. But it's not. I wanna die, I can't take this shit anymore, no one even cares i exist anymore.
|19 Oct 2001||Tanna||I dont know what the best way to kill yourself is, a gun i suppose but i live in the uk so it's a lot harder to get one. I'm 18, i tried to hang myself when i was about 9, and took an overdose about a month ago, swallowed a bottle of paracetamol but it didn't work, i'm still here and nobody even knows i tried. I don't condemn suicide or advise it, if you can fix it, fix it!
But my reasons are different to most. Not only has my life been more fucked up than any movie, i think i'm crazy and have been ever since i was born although nobody would know. I have two choices: admit myself to phychiatric hospital and destroy my family, or end my life and destroy my family, so i'm taking the best way for me. At least then they will all get over it and can move on. I don't want pain and i ain't got the guts to slit my wrists or anything like that so i went to the dr told him i haven't been able to sleep for 6 months and got some sleeping tablets, figured sleeping tablets and a bottle of vodka might work and shouldn't be too painful i hope. Well i ain't what you're thinking right now. I was one of the most popular people in the school had more friends than Richard Bransons got money, but what's the point, what can i do? I've never been truly happy except when i fell in love but I'm so messed up I slept with her best friend, then managed to fix it and did it again, i did this 4 times before she wouldn't take me back. So anyway, sorry to waffle the vodka is kickin in... Hopefully I wont be here to write again my theory. Life is long term pain - death is short term, i know what i choose! But again, if you people reading this are thinking of suicide try every option first, death is a last resort. And it hurts, trust me i can feel it now, feels like i've drunk acid and my insides are eating themselves i got to go lay down - god i'm having second thoughts... fuck it I'm gone, it's too late for me, someone give me a gun this is more painful than i expected.. fuck it, bye
|09 Oct 2001||Kid Ying|| Well, first of all I have been depressed since I was say....12 or pretty close to there, maybe 11. This site is neither funny nor shocking. it's just another site to me.
I would like to say that as a 13 year old I thought about suicide constantly but never did it. Now that i look back on my teenage years spent in hospitals and different treatment centers at least 9 months out of every year, i sort of wish i did kill myself instead of seeking help. They both come to the same end for an adolescent: no life at all.
Everyone of your friends turn on you and call you crazy for being in a mental hospital. No one understands at all, you never get a girlfriend. What girl do you know want to date the Sucidal guy who is always depressed??
Don't go making any judgements, no i can'thelp the way I am and yes I DO take medication for it. This is me. 19 years old with a family that is afraid I may turn on them at any moment and no social life at all. I was never a kid when I was supposed to be and when I try to relive those years now it doesn't happen.....
A suicidal 13 year-old may be better off just doing instead of living the life I have. Which is none at all.
|08 Oct 2001||Fucking shitty place this is huh?||Death comes to us all, so why not sooner and stop the shit?
I been slagged my whole life either about my size, or my build. Most would say i'm fat but in fact i got a fairly big waist size and my shoulders are like a brick shithouse. Well i've tried to ignore it, fight back and even tried killing one person for it. Very nearly succeeded too! But anyway, pain has become pleasure to me too and for some reason i bring on all the trouble i can. I been told the weed is making me talk, piss aobut whatever else. But weed is my substitute for heaven i guess. Never believed in god or any other religion coz the way i see it is we are a fucking disease on the planet earth! I got some cool theories but not worth living for nor family. I got one decent friend the rest i just associate with......... SOMEONE FUCKING KILL ME!!
|07 Oct 2001||Jean Osinski||Moi à dix ans, j'ai failli mourir. Je ne voulais pas me suicider mais quand j'y repense c'est un bon moyen. Il faut se rendre à la campagne, trouver une citerne d'eau vide (les petites sur roues que l'on voit près des fermes) et s'y glisser par l'ouverture du haut. Après on ferme le couvercle et on attend. On peu s'imaginer être dans un module spatial, une tourelle de char, un mini sous-marin. Doucement, l'air se raréfie. Devient inexistant. On s'endort. Pour longtemps.Très longtemps. Pour toujours.|
|05 Oct 2001||Brittni||I'm 17 and I use a razor blade to cut myself up with and hot stuff to burn myself with- I self-mutilate. I just got out of a 4 month stay in a state institution for attempting suicide, and I tried many methods while in the hospital. I snuck in a razor blade and tried to slit my wrists (my preferred way of dieing), but it is damn hard to die slowly when someone is always watching you. I also tried to strangle myself with anything I could find, when I finally got a minute alone in my OWN ROOM with NO VIDEO CAMERA or MOTION DETECTOR, but as soon as I passed out, the fucking knot would go loose. Then, when I finally got to go to the bathroom alone, I snuck in a walkman, and tried to electicute myself. I cheeked my meds, but when you are sent to isolation, they search your room and find them. I tried to lift up the bed and drop it down on my neck, but it was nailed to the floor, and they don't allow you to swallow game peices to choke yourself, or take silviware out of the cafeteria. Bummer. But I tell you now, that it is much harder to kill yourself when you have 3 younger siblings that look up to you and a fucking family that loves you. So someday, I will do it. Someday you will find Brittni Jones dead.|
|02 Oct 2001||Jeff||I've tried to kill myself a couple of time now. When life get to be too much and you have no hope left, and your future looks the same. I finally came to this decision, why not if it would stop the pain and depression. The first time I tried it was with Meth, I had been doing meth for a while, and was having trouble with my heart. This time it started hurting pretty good.... all I could do was lay in bed, because I got to dizzy and sick to stand or sit up. I learned a funny thing by this experience, the pain I was feeling started to turn into pleasure. I wanted to die so bad the pain felt so good, I was really a strang experience. I just figured that it hurt, give me a heart attack or something and I would die... each time the pain stopped I did wome more till I could feel the pain again... hoping that this time it would work, I tried all day and it didn't work... oh well... I had gained something from the experience I now have no fear of death. I crave it... I crave the release from life. The second time that I tried I decided that I would do it with pills. I had a wide assortment of different bottles of precription pills... I said a prayer before I started asking god (if there is a god) to take care of the people that I was leaving behind, just in case there is one... I took the first bottle, then the second and waited... not good I threw them up... really pissed me off... so I kept trying, I did it 5 more time throwing up each time.... (note to self: next time eat first) I decided that it wasn't going to work like this and stopped and eat.... it finaly stayed down. Yeah or so I thought... my parents found me and took me to the hosipital... I spent 5 days there and 9 days in the phyc part..... I really want to die with all my heart, I'm so tired of all the bs and nothing getting better, I hope to die everyday... but I'm still here... I have no fear of anything now NONE... in the next week or two I will be dead... i don't know which day, but it is very soon... I think that dying is better than living in a self imposed hell. the date is 10/1/2001...see you all on the other side if there is one|
|08 Sep 2001||Scar||just use lots of drugs like i do and then you will have no feelings and live in your room in the darkness and pray, but you will never feel good. so stay alive coz everyone's a joke.|
|05 Sep 2001||Raven||the best way to kill yourself when you are under thirteen is get advil or aspirin or some other pain killer. go in your room down the whole bottle. go out of your room go downstairs and down a bottle of your favorite alcohol (i prefer vodka, irish cream liqour, amaretto, or anything really) and go back into your room. lock the door lay on your bed and wait. and you will die hopefully. but if you really want to die. do what i said and then go to a place where people won't find you until you are officially dead (3 days i think). because if they find you and you are in a coma then they can still pump your stomach and save your life. another way i found easy is slitting your wrists. what i do is i cut them across severing the veins then cut them down follow the veins. then get in a bath tub and do not move your wrists out because the water will make it so the cuts cannot heal. then after a while you will die. another common way is if your dad is a cop or if your dad has pistols and stuff etcetera... take one load it put it to your head and shoot. survival chances are slim to none. i know because a friend of mine did it. OH BY THE WAY THE PEOPLE WHO ARE BULLSHIT AND SAY IT WILL GET BETTER YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG!! I AM 13 NOW AND I HAVE BEEN RAPED, STALKED, HAD TWO FRIENDS KILL THEMSELVES, MY GRANDAD DIE WHO I WAS REALLY CLOSE TO. IT DOESN'T GET BETTER!! FUCKING FACE IT!! I HAVE BEEN SUICIDAL EVER SINCE I CAN REMEMBER!|
|30 Aug 2001||Andrew Lyons||Yeah, but if you've actually read the comments I made, you'll realise that I really don't give a fuck.
So fuck you.
Fuck you and your fucking idealistic attitude. Fuck you and your horses. Fuck you and your cheese. Can't you see that the whole of humanity is fucking pointless? Can't you see that one of the reasons I want to die is because I'm fed up of dealing with bullshit from fucking ignorant cunts?
Oh, never mind Andy, you're just feeling a bit miserable because of the weather, never mind, it's just a phase you're going through....
NO IT FUCKING ISN'T YOU STUPID BASTARDS!!!! I WANT TO DIE BECAUSE I AM SICK OF THE BULLSHIT!!! I AM SICK OF THE MEDIA!!!! I AM SICK OF THE WAY PEOPLE TREAT ME AND THE WAY I TREAT THEM!!!! I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT!!!! I AM SICK OF EVERYTHING!!!!!! I AM FUCKING SICK OF THE LIFE THAT HAS BEEN FORCED UPON ME!!!!!!! I WAS BORN, NEVER ASKED!!!!!!! LIFE IS ALL A FUCKING
JOKE!!!!!!!! YOU THINK I POSTED ON SOME SHITTY FUCKING WEBSITE SO THAT I COULD LAUGH AT PEOPLE???????? FUCK OFF. FUCK IT. FUCK YOU AND YOUR DONKEYS. I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCKING LET ME GET ON WITH IT!!!!!! WHY DO PEOPLE WANT TO STOP ME????????????? FUCKSAKE!!!!!!!!!
Although, that said, there's only one person who's REALLY stopping me from killing myself, and that's my mother, because she is the only person who would possibly lose something over my death - all other people I know wouldn't really give a fuck. Guess I'll have to wait for her to pop off... you never know... cars can move pretty quick these days...
Fucking leave me alone.
|26 Aug 2001||Andy||I don't think your age matters when it comes to the best way of killing yourself. The best way is surely to get drunk and drugged up, and then shoot yourself in the head with a shotgun. I only haven't done this myself because I haven't been able to get hold of the drugs I would like. The drink is easy to get hold of, although the shotgun proved a bit more difficult to get. I'm waiting for some drugs, and I expect to be killing myself within the next week. i would let you know how I get on, but hopefull, if it all works, I will be dead and unable to tell you.|
|15 Aug 2001||StormHeart||In search of happiness:
Happiness in like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but when you turn your attention to other things, it will come and safely sit on your shoulder.
|15 Aug 2001||chelle||pplz i have a psychotic mother and she has tried to kill herself many times! have u ever stopped to think about what u r gonna do to ur family! you may have problems but don't hurt your family coz u can't deal with them|
|13 Jul 2001||wolfheart||i'm not 13 anymore maybe i can be your grandfather if i say my age here hehe , but anyway yea i think in suicide everynight since I was 10 when a terrible thing happened to me. but i dont know, i see all this page full of little children asking for comprehension and say i'm god what the hell am i doing thinking those things? i know the world sucks and we have been really damaged from inside, but you see what? we are not guilty, and we are innocent about all we have done, we deserve to pardon ourselves .... maybe a little more, and could met another great person who can give us a smile again. i understand we are thinking in suicide cause we were hurt by the people we trust but believe me, there is a lot of good people who loves and cares about us, no matter what we have done. If you haven't met this person, it will come later but it will come. i'm still waiting for this person, it can be a girl, but for the moment i keep myself alive painting and expressing all the pain i have, all my desires to die are in a fucking canvas. music is sometimes a rest for my disturbed mind. i know i'm nothing to tell you what to do whith your freedom, even God respects your freedom when alive. you can be already dead withouth being if you are living a crazy life. Anyway, the reason of my message is a shout of help between the same suicidals.
Don't be afraid anymore.