|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|15 Jan 2002||black raven kempy||ok i am not under thirteen i am thirteen, i have been cutting for about three years. but everyone says it gets better blah blah blah.. it doesn't... believe me... it doesn't, your bullshitting yourself if you think it will because it won't. i also hate to pop all you shitheads bubbles but god isn't real and you are once again bullshitting yourself if you think he is. but as i was saying before, i do cut, i am not supposed to anymore because i made a promise to someone that i shouldn't have made. but i have tried to kill myself. and everyone always says "it hurts to much to slit your wrists" NO PAIN NO GAIN!! DEAL WITH IT!! it's supposed to hurt, DUH! But if you are really determined to kill yourself, think about it, you don't want to get hurt? you're a wimp! you gotta feel pain to make it better. duh|
|15 Jan 2002||MICHAEL JOSEPH SENNE, JR||DEAR WENDY, JEFF ,MOM ,DAD ,AND SISTERS,
BY THE TIME YOU ARE READING THIS I WILL BE SOMEWHERE ELSE I DON'T NOW IF IT WILL BE HELL OR IF IT WILL BE HEAVEN BUT MY SOUL WILL NOT BE ON EARTH ANY MORE. I AM VERY SORRY THAT IT CAME TO THIS . BUT ALL THE PAIN THAT I HAVE BEEN FEELING FOR AT LEAST SIX YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS NOW COME TO AN END. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH. I FEEL THAT I AM JUST HURTING MORE PEOPLE THAT I AM HELPING AND THAT HURTS ME THAT FOR EIGHT YEARS OF MY LIFE I HAVE HURT MANY PEOPLE IN CLUDING YOU ALL . AND I JUST CAN'T FIND A WAY TO HELP THAT. IT REALLY SUCKS WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO DO GOOD BUT YOU ALWAYS END UP DO THE WRONG THINGS. I KNOW THAT NONE OF YOU EVER THOUGHT IT WOULD COME TO THIS BUT IT FINALY HAS. JEFF, I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT WHEN YOU'RE DRUNK YOUR TRUE EMOTIONS COME OUT OF YOU. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT TIME WE WERE REALLY DRUNK WALKING ON THE WAY HOME FROM NICKS AND I TOLD YOU THAT ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS DIE WELL. THAT'S WHAT I HAVE BEEN FEELING FOR A WHILE NOW. IT REAYY HURTS WHEN YOU FINALLY REALIZE THAT ALL YOU HAVE DONE IN YOU LIFE IS TAKE DRUGS GET DRUNK EVERY NIGHT, BREAK THE LAW OVER AND OVER. THAT THERE IS NOW REASON FOR YOU ON THIS EARTH. I DON'T WANT EVERY ONE TO CRY AND MOURN OVER MY DEATH BUT TO BE HAPPY FOR ME THAT I AM NOT FEELING THIS PAIN ANY MORE. I AM SO SORRY IT HAD TO END THIS WAY.
I WOULD LIKE IT IF I WAS BURIED IN A CATHOLIC CEMETERY. AND IF YOU WOULD JEFF PLAY MY FAVORITE SONG AT MY FUNERAL. IT KINDA GOES GOOD WITH A FUNERAL WELL YOU KNOW THE SONG "IN THE END" BY LINKIN PARK. THANK YOU JEFF.
HERE IS MY WILL.
1.ALL OF MY CLOTHS GO TO JEFF HOLSCLAW
2.MY STEREO WILL GO TO WENDY CANNON
3.MY COUCH TO NICK GRIFFITH
4.MY KEG DEPOSTS TO JEFF HOLSCLAW
5.EVERY THING ELSE YOU MY PARENTS CAN DISPERSE
I SAY AGAIN I DO NOT WANT ANYONE CRYING OR MOURNING OVER MY DEATH. I AM SORRY IT CAME TO THIS BUT ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING IS GONE NOW.
SORRY, I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH,
MICHAEL JOSEPH SENNE, JR
|14 Jan 2002||Jason||I am not under 13, I am 20. It is 13-Jan-02 and in one month I will be dead. I plan to shoot myself with my 20-gauge shotgun thru the back of the head. I will cock the gun, place it against my soft palate in my mouth and pull the trigger. It will leave a somewhat ok sorpes and be sure to do the job.
Please wish me luck. May everyone who is reading this find the strength to have the courage to end their pain, and others as I have found.
|12 Jan 2002||I envy the ignorant, too blind to see.||I've been over and over this site, reading all the serious suggestions, childish comments and "dont do it" messages from people that just do not understand. I am 17, over the last couple of years i've been realising how pointless and painful life is. To begin with there are no goals except for what you set yourself, but then, why bother? Society expects everybody to eventually get married, hold a job, buy a house and have children. In this time we live in it is so simple to get divorced marriage is needless. The amount of work involved in most respectable jobs leaves very little time to actually do what you want to do. The typical day for the average man/woman...
Get up. Go to work. Come home. See husband/wife/kids. Indulge in hobbies, generally including tv, music, computer... little time for anything major... so, who wants to spend their life like that? like the rest of the world? I know i don't, but that's not the only thing that keeps me constantly feeling down.
It seems to me that the people who are happy in life are the selfish people that are totally fine with hurting others if it suits their personal gain. That applies in everything, work, relationships, even queueing in line for a fucking macdonalds. You can work it out.
ok, a little about me... I consider myself fairly intelligent, not a bad looking person but nothing special, i'm comfortable with that, Yet for a reason i'm not quite sure of, i have very low self esteem. Like many others i self harm, my left arm is coloured pale skin with patterns of cigarette burns and cuts. I know some people talk about self harm on here and they lie. They talk about blood flowing from the cuts, maybe if that is across the veins I dont know because i don't cut there, but I know that anywhere else you would have to cut pretty damn deep to make the blood actually flow out that way, and that would be incredibly painful, i have held a cigarette on my arm for over a minute, after about 15 seconds it goes numb, but it's very painful at first, and the strawberry gashes on my arm from the shallow knife cuts hurt more than the cigarette, I haven't had the guts to cut any deeper. My depression first began when i was 15, as with many others it was caused by a girlfriend. I don't want to go into that but it started me thinking. After we broke up I was incredibly depressed for a few months until I met a new girl. I was happy to begin with but still held fear of getting hurt, and she spotted it. Not long after she told me she loved me, I thought it was too soon and told her to think about it but she insisted and still told me over the next few months. A couple of months later I fell in love with her too and thought things were looking up. Until she suddenly realised she didn't actually like me anymore. Or love me in the first place. The reason i'm saying this is because its the sort of shit that happens all your life. Love is the best feeling in the world, at least from what I have personally experienced and others say the same. But it never lasts. Nothing lasts, and nothing is worth living for. From all this I have come to the decision to end my life, and I think im going to use the carbon monoxide method by the car with pipe from exhaust through window technique, 100% effective so long as you are not spotted doing it within about 15 minutes, but I have never driven before in my life, and stealing my parents car is very risky. All i need to do is actually learn to drive so I can get to the isolated place i have in mind. I may be getting anti-depressants soon, and would like to know if it is possible to overdose effectively with them (as in die from them, not just take more that the stated dose, so no cocky emails please). Or if anyone has any better suggestions please email me, I will most probably help you out too if you are looking for advice or feel the same way as me and want to talk. This is basically a big fucking rant I felt i had to get off my chest, and i i would apologise but hey, you didn't have to read it. Great website mouchette, it gave me a few ideas.
|22 Dec 2001||Mary||ok, here it goes. i am not a teenager but i will tell you my way of getting out. Today i'm ready, my life is over, it has been for a long time. I don't want to leave any kind of mess for anyone to have to clean up, well drastic messes that is, like what you get from blowing your brains out or slicing your wrist. I have had to tell my husband (who I am now divorcing so he and our kids can move on), and i had to tell my shrink (who is an idiot) i don't see him any more and although i had to give details, you can't tell me they believed me, jeez like they think people can't lie wihtout blinking an eye. Fools, all of them. Anyway, here is my plan.... and i believe it could work cause it would be days before anyone found me and by then... you guessed i'll be gone. I plan to find a place to hide my car (already have it picked out but if i give details and i'm discovered then SOMEONE might try to stop me, like why I don't know but i guess they feel that it would be the hero thing to do). So i get in my car, park it, leave the motor running, go to sleep. It would be at least 3-4 days before i'm discovered, and if it's cool outside, maybe longer, not sure how long it takes for the body to start to decompose. So you see, no mess really, cause they can just tow the car to a dump and burn it with me in it and that's it, all gone! :) no blood, no brains, maybe a few bugs but hey, they have to eat too.|
|17 Dec 2001||Sara||none of u ppl who r sayin dat u shouldn't try to kill ur self have any idea wha their talkin about the live their happy little lives sheltered from the hardships and shit lives the rest of us have to put up with u have parents who listen to you friends who care and are lookin forward to x mass i like a few of u other ppl agree that suicide is de only way to be happy. i'm headin toward x-mas knowin dat i'm gonna spend most of it slashing my arms for the third year in a row while listenin to my parents fight about how much my mothers had to drink and when de slashing doesn't work crying myself to sleep ye dont know jack so get a life|
|16 Dec 2001||slag bag||im serah, and i'm 14 years old i can get very suicidal at times. my life is fucked up and so am i, i am a slut i had sex when i was 12, i self-mutilate, i drink, i do every fucking
i'm now listening to papa roach-last resort, i just feel so suicidal i will find some drugs haha
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|11 Dec 2001||Quark||Your life is a valuable, precious thing. First and foremost, YOU must decide that for yourself. I tried to commit suicide when I was 16, and nobody really acted like they cared. It was awful but it taught me a few lessons--my situation must pretty bad if no one acted like they cared about my death--no wonder I wanted to escape it!--and that each man or woman is essentially alone in this world, and ultimately you alone create your own meaning for your existence. This realization can either be terrifying or very freeing. I eventually graduated, went to college, and had the freedom to choose my own friends and distance myself from my dysfunctional family. It turns out that they were all so wrapped up in their own painful problems, nobody really noticed any of mine. But I had to become an adult to realize these things, and so should you. The thought of a 13 year old committing suicide pains me.|
|10 Dec 2001||Jessica||i really need to know the answer. i'm not 13, more like 18. people keep saying that everything is going to get better? well, WHY THE FUCK HASN'T IT?! anyways, for the first time in my life i am not scared. i may feel empty, but certainly not scared. i've tried taking a bottle of my sisters seroque, but all that got me was 2 1/2 months in the psych ward. i've already disappointed my parents, unfortunately i was able to live and see the look on their face. hopefully next time will be better. what do you think slitting my wrists? i was thinking maybe to overdose on exstacy... would that be painful or pleasurable?|
|09 Dec 2001||Chump||I'm not under 13, in fact I am over 40. I've thought about suicide off and on since I was 10. Tried it a couple of times in my 20's but always chickened out. Now I am 42 with two kids, a shitty job and a piss poor attitude. My ex plays me for a chump all the time... last week I loaned her money to help her get a place, helped her move in to her new place and helped her get a phone and pay her deposit for electricity. My reward? I get to watch the kids all weekend while she goes out drinking, dancing and fucking with her boyfriend. The bitch can't even see how much she hurts me. I have had three long term relationships ove the last 22 years and they all treat me the same... like a chump. I don't remember the last time I was happy, I'm so sick of feeling like shit. Tomorrow is my day off, the kids will be in school, I'm going to clean my house then sit in the tub and slit my wrists. Fuck you all.|
|07 Dec 2001||Burns||I say that if you want to kill yourself go ahead. Once you're fucked up in the head, you're fucked for life. The mind is too strong and set in its ways to go through years of therapy. I've gotten worse over the last five years, and over the last year suicide has been on my mind all the time. Within two months there will be sweet relief, and I won't have to deal with all of this shit.|
|06 Dec 2001||ALL MOST DEAD||I've seriously tried killing myself several times. I've overdosed on over the counter medication on several occasions. I wouldn't suggest trying it unless you know it will work because it hasn't for me and It's just caused me a lot of pain.
Now I have to go through therapy and I hate the doctors. I wish they would really help me out and give me effective ideas on how to go about it. Hell they're getting paid, they might as well make the miserable happy! They've given me medication but it just elongates the pain I feel. I'm suffering and I want to find my way out. I wish I weren't typing this now because about half an hour ago I tried hanging myself for the third time. Damn't I have the worst luck nothing works . Slashing your wrists is to painful . All I know is that if you want to hang yourself because it's possibly the best way to kill yourself next to being shot through the temple or receving lethal injection from a dr. kavorcian. FIND A STRONG CEILING FIXTURE IN YOUR HOUSE OR GARAGE. FIND A VERY STRONG THIN AND TIGHT CORD. FASTEN IT TO THE FIXTURE (A CEILING BOARD ECT.)
TIE A NOUSE IF YOU KNOW HOW IT IS VERY SIMPLE (I FOUND OUT HOW TO ON THE WEB MANY MONTHS AGO). TIGHTEN THE CORD AROUND YOUR NECK AND JUMP . DON'T PUSS OUT . I'VE FOUND THAT HEAT MAKES IT EASIER TO HAVE THE RIGHT MINDSET FOR SUICIDE. TURN UP YOUR FURNACE TO 80 DEGREES. TAKE A VERY HOT BATH AND BUNDLE UP (IF GOING OUTSIDE OR JUST DO IT FOR THE HECK OF IT) I hope this works. This is what i plan on doing when things work out for me. So far I've tried a shoe lace (on for boots) but it broke and left an embarassing rope burn around my neck for about a week. I've tried twice since. The second time i upgraded to a cable (from a nintendo). It also broke. Today. December 6 twenty day from my 18th birthday I used a extension cord. I'd suggest it because they are very strong. I think anyway. The fixture I'm using consists of about ten nails nailed to a board in my garage. But I need to come up with something better because today when I heroically thought I was jumping to my death and I would meet god and all his holy angels. du du du. The cord didn't have a good grip and came untied . F##! me slowly. All this means that I will have to try this again when no one but me is home and I can go through the sacred suicidal ritual again . The show will go on temporaraly. Folk, I don't, my family doesn't, and my doctors don't think I will last very long. I WON'T SEE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR. I'LL BE GRATEFULLY DEAD. I'LL BE SINGING IN THE BOTTOM OF THE GRAVE. AS HENDRIX SANG 'I DON'T LIVE TODAY! MAYBE TOMORROW BUT I JUST CAN'T SAY.' SO I THINK I'LL JUST FLOAT AWAY TO THAT BEAUTIFUL SONG.
GOOD NIGHT . SLEEP TIGHT
|05 Dec 2001||Jamie||I'm not really sure what a good way to kill yourself would be because that is an answer I would like to have and I'm 15. I've tried to kill myself numerous times by overdosing. It doesn't work. I have thought about running in front of a train, but I do want an open casket. Also, I'm am very scared to cut myself in any way. I don't really want to leave my mom too. I would miss her too much. And I also have so many things in life I want to do, but I don't want to go to school. I am fucked up and I'm just now realizing it.|
|02 Dec 2001||SUPER SLAG 666||GET URESELF SEXUALLY ABUSED, SMOKE WEED, BECOME ALCHOLIC, GET SUM PARENTS WHO NO U R SUICIDAL BUT DONT GIVE A FUCK LIKE MY MOM, MAKE SURE THEY R DIVORCED AND H8 EACH OTHER, TRY 2 RUN AWAY BUT GET CAUGHT, FLUNK URE EDUCATION, BECUM A GREEBO/GOTH,SELF MUTILATE, GET HOOKED ON SOLVENTS, LOSE URE VIRGINITY AT 12, DO ALL OF THESE THINGS AND SOON ULL DIE INSIDE AND SUICIDE WILL B EASY THEN. I HAV DUN THESE THINGS AND MORE I AM 13 AND IM THE LOCAL BICYCLE (EVERY1 GETS A RIDE) BUT IV GOT MY BOYFRIEND WE STILL LUV EACH OTHER HES 14 A TEENAGE FATHER AND A SUICIDAL JUNKY. IF U HAV NUTHIN LEFT URE BETTER OFF DED, JUST MAKE IT PEACEFUL AND HAPPY DYIN LUV THE WHORE
|30 Nov 2001||Himitsu||Listen, i actually want to kill myself but can't... literally.... I don't want to die in a painful way so i have tried drug overdoses or even drinking highly toxic chemicals... and nothing has happened. My first attempt was drinking hydrogen peroxide... you know, the stuff that is put on cuts to heal them faster and then it stings really bad.... after I did that... it had no affect on me.... My life started to get slightly better so I didn't try to kill myself but now.... it's worse than before. Just the other day I drank a half of a bottle of Nyquill and had 22 aspirin.... nothing. I woke up the next day fine (unfortunately). I don't know what else to do... i was thinking of trying to take some more overdoses but i'm wondering if anyone has anyother painless and non-stupid ways.... if you do please email them to me... don't post them. Also, i am putting a fake name so no one will really know that i'm suicidal. Also, I am unlike other people... I don't want to kill myself from depression or bad grades or no love... I want to kill myself because life is not worth living... it is too boring. If you think about it, on a general perspective you do the same thing for all of your life|
|19 Nov 2001||john||This goes to the maker and the person who's picture and stuff is after the post. I don't want to know you, I am older and not a pervert anyway. But in all respect I mean to be nice and compliment you, in that you are a cute girl, as I could see from the picture. Also you are not alone, and you aren't weird or anything. My mood changes all the time too! My friend and I call it "modes", and we believe a human can only be truely understanding and human if they have them, as to understand what other people go thru. I liked your site, good luck and I wish the best for you.|
|19 Nov 2001||John||I'm 16, but I contemplated suicide from when I was 12. I haven't done it cause I love my family too much and even though I would be dead it still seems wrong. My life sucks though, well maybe in essence it does but I warp it in my head to suck, and can't help it. I even go to a psychiatrist and am on happy pills and lithium. They do shit, for me that is. I hate this world, it's evil, this is hell! I don't think I can be held responsible for suicide cause then fuck God for making me with screwed up biochemistry. Anyway, it's just our culture that condemns it, its social cultural conditioning, and in other places once someone is useless in society members are encouraged to kill themselves. But I want to do just the opposite, fuck this shit society that makes me a mere product of capital. The rest of society should go to hell, not me, if hell even existed. People have countlessly abused me for my generousity and niceness. This is a world were agressive fuck faces manipulate everyone and own the world. A world where once you become intelligent in an abstract and understanding way it hurts to live. Personally if I can get myself to do it, I am going to get drunk and jump in front of a high speed train. Or i'll get drunk and swim and swim and swim until I can swim no more and I am too far to get back. I just don't know if I can do it to my parents though. If I do, I am going to carry a large proclamation and statement in order to help the world realize some of its badness. But no one listens now, and I am not sure anyone would care. Peace, if you can be happy, go for it and tell me how you got there. Don't give up until all hope is lost. Also, "die" to your family in a better way before the actual act such as becoming very queer and distant, drive them nuts, make them not want you, so that you don't hurt them as much. Trust me, it really sux to loose a loved one and I wouldn't want to do it to those I loved. Existence does not only lie in ourselves but them too, they go on, and then they suffer as much or more as we did that made people to kill themselves.|
|16 Nov 2001||n3wdude||Only a handful of people here are here because they were thinking of suicide. I don't know what the rest were looking for when they found this site. The reason I'm here is because I've tried to kill myself about 12 times but it didn't work. I'm not 13 I'm 26 (just turned Nov. 10th) and have been in a bad marriage since I was 17. Most of the times that I have tried have been by overdosing, with the exception of once. I was going to shoot myself but could not. Idon't know why. No balls I guess. Pills are neater. But the problem with pills are I can't find anything that works, and believe me I have tried, taking hundreds and going off in the woods and going to sleep, just to wake up puking my guts out. What I'm here looking for is something that will work and can be gotten over the counter. Tylenol Benadril (both mixed) bottles of cough syrup and nameless others have not worked for me. I don't think I will ever be happy or even just not living in turmoil. See my problem is this: if I get divorced the bible say's I'm an adulterer to be with anybody else and for that I'm going to goto hell. But if I kill myself I am going out as a murderer and I go to hell. So I'm thinking what difference does it make? Why keep going through the shit just to go to hell. I hope nobody reads my fucked up logic and adopts it for their own. It's just that me and my spouse are playing the "let's see who can hurt the other the most" game again and I'm thinking about ending it all again. So anyway let's get some real suggestions in here so I can get on with my death. Oh and this could be a good room if we would put it to good use.|
|31 Oct 2001||James||I was quite fond of hanging when I was 13. I tried it once but my father came in and cut me down. I didn't do it right so rather than breaking my neck I just dangled there choking.
Falls from a great height are nice but often don't leave a body. Open casket funerals are nice because it allows your friends to say farewell.
|26 Oct 2001||Kid Ying||I would like to ask a question to all of the people who come here saying that people who are or were suicidal are "sick fucks" or "messed up in the head".
Do you think telling then that is actually going to KEEP them from commiting suicide and feel better about themselves?
If you have never been suicidal then what are you doing on a site like this in the first place? Are you in denial and want to look "cool". Do you think the whole thing is a joke since you have never been there? Or are you just prejudiced against people with emotional problems? Narrow mindedly thinking they are all psychos and murderers?
Offer help. Not a flame. I think you are pretty sick fucks myself to just lok up suicide and death for no reason at all. What the fuck in on your mind all day? Huh?
And no I do not think the Mouchette on this site in a real person. Just a creative webmaster seeking attention. But I don't blame him or her for anything. You can put anything you want on the net.
I bet I can look on this site next week and see some more "holier than thou" bullshit. If you hate this site guys then why do you look at porn? In SOME people's opinion it's sick. disgusting and uncalled for. And girls why do I see so many msg boards have strings of posts talking about their fantasies of what they would do with their favorite movie star?
No one made any of you Judge jury and executioner, we all have our problem and this just happened to have been one of mine years ago. Call me crazy whatever the hell you want, but then look at yourself if you aren't the pinnacle of perfection, then all then shit you are talking is falling right back in your mouth. Eat it.
One more note to all the serious inquirers here. Respond to this:
A child molester who rapes little girls or boys in the United States gets 2-4 years in jail and a professional psychiatrist paid for by the goverment no matter how many times he/she has done it.
A suicidal person in the United States who tries to kill themselves on any more than one occcasion gets locked in a maximum security Mental Institution, for 3 years -LIFE, All depending if the Doctor feels you are ready to get out or not.
Do you think this is fair or not?