|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|10 Dec 2004||Ras||I feel no direction in my life, Everyone attributes qualities to me which I dont' see in myself. They think that I am smart which I am not. I am barely competent and barely able to survive in a college atmosphere. I am failing out of college, been molested by my cousin when I was seven or eight. Came to a foreign country with no friends and relative. picked on bullied and harassed. I am not mature people just think tha I am mature because I do not speak. I stutter and I rarely go outside. I want to live a normal life but I blame myself for every single thing that has gone wrong in my life. I haven't seriously thought about suicide, I have toyed with the idea but don't see it as a possibility because I am a coward. I have morbid fantasies about dying in an accident. Something swift and painless or never waking up. I have no purpose in life and I am just wasting space. I do not deserve to be here and I wish I was never born|
|09 Dec 2004||Martin||I'd like to start off by saying that I'm not here to judge anyone or try to save the world because you can't help all the people all of the time.
My best friend killed himself on friday, and im on here lookin for some kind of reason why because i dont understand why someone would take their own life. My wifes due to give birth to twin girls in a few weeks time and I really wanted tony to sit beside me in the waiting room and we could have went out to wet the babies heads and smoked big cigars like your meant to and do all the normal stuff that that goes with it......... that's not gonna happen now. Tony's gone and I'm burying my best friend tomorrow and then in a few weeks time the babies will be born and instead of being happy and instead of crying with joy, i'll be crying for my Tony and crying for my loss of MY FRIEND AND MY fuvking lifeline!!! what am I supposed to do now??? I will spend the rest of my life wishing I hadn't been busy with a stupid irrelevant and unimportant report on friday night when he called me at 8.10pm, I told tony I would give him a call back - the next thing I remember is Tony's dad calling me at 9pm and telling me that tony had been cut down from a tie, a tie that had dad written down the front of it, a tie that was a silly christmas present he had bought for me because we always joked about how naff things branded with the slogan DAD were. god i wish i had spoken to him and god I wish he was here with me now. I feel total despair and I feel angry with him. why did he do it? did he want me to talk him out of it or was he gonna say goodbye? I'll never know. What i do know is that so many lifes have been ruined, so many christmases have been spoilt and I miss him so much and wish he knew how much I loved him and how much I'm gonna miss him. Please just think of the ones u leave behind and how they are affected. Please don't be horrible to me because I just cant take it right now, please just spare a thought for your mum or dad or brother or sister or your best friend cause they're never gonna feel any better..........
|05 Dec 2004||amanda||I am 21 years old Ive had some bad experiences in my life that i try not to think about right now my life is okay. Meaning I can do it i get up everyday do the things i need to do and handle what needs to be done. There is just one thing I AM NOT HAPPY. I have never been happy as i should be in my life. I hate life and it seems no one likes me I have no friends or anyone to talk too. I have thought about suicide for years but i have never done anything once i was going to poison myself when i was 15 after being in a fight with my parents. But i am TOO SCARED I dont want to feel any pain and im also too afraid of making things worse what if i end up in a mental hospital or paralyzed or something. So I cant do nothing but just do what im doing now keep living and hoping things will get better. But im so miserable and i feel so miserable because it seems like theres something wrong with me. I feel like im the only one who cant handle life. Sometimes i cry for hours hating myself hating everything i have ever thought or done and all i feel is regret in my life. i dont know whats wrong with me and i wish i was stronger. I sometimes wish i would get in a car accident and just die. BUt i cant i dont want to go to hell. Sometimes i think maybe im just selfish and i think about myself too much but i cant help it. I just hate life and i hate this world and i hate myself. im just wondering if later on in life i will end up killing myself or if i somehow will find my happiness im just waiting to see whats going to happen in the future.|
|03 Dec 2004||Pete||I had an aunt and uncle that commited suicide two years apart from one another. You must heed this advice, I too was repeatedly raped, my father died, and my brother was born mentally and physically disabled, all things were in line for me to follow in their footsteps. But I did not. Why you ask? because I realized that my life is worth living! my life is the universe's gift to me. I was endowed with the capacity to do anything. Just think about it, you can think, you can love, you can have sex, you can bring new life in this world! What more can any being ask for. I'm currently 19 and attending university. And i love my life. So before you think of taking your own life, just remmeber, that no matter how dark and desperate your life may seem, and how empty your world appears to be. There is someone out there that loves you, I know it sounds like sentimental crap, but believe me, they do. I am gay and when I came out my mother told me she would never accept it. Comming from and indian family that was the worst thing I could have heard, having my own mother reject me. ONce agian a clear cut oppertunity to take my life, I even had the pills on the counter, but then I remembered my aunt and uncle and the potential they had, and the unadulterated human potential that you and I have. Life is full of wonder, someone will ALWAYS love you. I have amazing friends, but once I did not, I have an amazing life, that i twice contemplated ending, but I now realize what I would miss if I did. Theres always a light at the end of the tunnel. Just find your tunnel and travel through it. It may be dark and full of hatred but always keep your eye on the light|
|29 Nov 2004||Michelle||So... I am not anywhere close to 13... I do remember it. I tried to kill myself many times from 10-21... I have been thinking about it a lot lately.... that is why I found this site. I recently moved to NYC my friends and family are 3,000 miles away and I am lonely, under employed, serious debt, nothing too horrible. Not really the things people kill themselves over. I have always wondered why I really haven't felt like living this life. I have alway imagined going out for lunch and being hit by a speeding car... falling off a ladder at work and breaking my neck... and every time I see a razor blade I want to slit my wrists... when I take my Zoloft at night I want to take the whole bottle... of course it probally won't kill me... I am not really looking for help though some time on the couch would probally benefit... I will look forward to new entries... I check it often.|
|29 Nov 2004||Jennie||Please don't do it. I was raped and abused between the ages of 7 and 10 and I wanteds to kill myself all through my youth until my late teens and even tried a couple of times. And I survived and my life now is better than I ever believed it could be then. You have so much to look forward to. I know it doesn't feel like that now and I know that suicide may seem like the easy way out but you will be cutting yourself off from so many opportunities and so much future. Talk to someone, get help, don't do it. Believe me you don't know whats round the corner.|
|27 Nov 2004||Jomie||3 years ago, my 16 year old son hung himself in his bedroom. The last site he visited was THIS ONE. For a lot of you suicide is like a game. The loss of a child is the worst thing that can happen in your life. I'm his mother: how do you think I feel? And what about his father, 2 brothers and sister? Life will never be the same without him. So stop joking about suicide.|
|24 Nov 2004||Jenn||Everything in my life is so perfect or thats what everyone thinks... I have a great family who gives me 5948941 times more then what i need.. i have loving friends and i great boyfriend... but for some reason i hate it all. And its not my life i hate, its me.|
|22 Nov 2004||NoName||I don't know what the best way to kill myself is. I don't want my family, girlfriend or friends to suffer because of my death so I was thinking maybe leaving a note as if I left the country and went somewhere else but not tell them where. I would probably go somewhere in Europe or Asia with some money, rent a boat go to the middle of the ocean and shoot myself as I fall to the water with bricks tide up to my feet. No one will probably find me there for a while. I don't know. I feel completely worthless and it seems to me that the whole world has passed me by and it's still passing me by. I suck at everything I do.... everything! Everything and everyone I touch I seem to mess up in some way shape or form. I can't seem to get myself straight though I have tried for years and years. I told myself that I would probably not live to 25... well Im starting to beleive that it will happen even before that. I dont really wish I was dead, I wish more that I had never been alive and maybe give my energy and space to someone who deserves it but whatever.. I'm here now in this hell hole, might as well end it soon... I wish the world would understand us... Not everyone was meant to be perfect in everything. I figured in life there is always a good and a bad, a black and white. We cant enjoy clear days without rainy ones. Well there cant be good people that live to 101 withouth people like us... in the end we are just another statistic... Good to know there are others like me in here... maybe ill see you all in that "better place" one day..|
|20 Nov 2004||Bob||I don't know the best way to kill yourself if you're under 13. I often wish I was dead. I'm 36 so the question doesn't really apply to me directly. I'm sure people who are over 13 have looked at this site though. My depression comes from not wanting to be alone, and feeling unworthy of being loved by someone that I find worthy of loving. Anyone really worthy of my affections could never love me. Hasn't happened yet. I've had lots of relationships, but only with people who I knew I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with. The women who I have thought I could marry have always back out just when I start to relax and think that maybe they will love me. Low self esteem plays a big part. I have lots of confidence in who I am and what I'm capable of, but when I'm start dating someone who I think I really like, I get overcome by self doubt- which comes out in my actions, and eventually turns off the person I'm seeing. I would have killed myself already if it wasn't for knowing how devistated my family and friends would be. So here I stay. Plus I promised myself that if I ever decided to reallly do it, that at the very least I should travel somewhere first. Some foreign country. Sell all my posessions and just go. Nothing to lose- might as well see another country first, I could always kill myself there, right? Might as well spend my money in some amazing hotel in France, or England or something, right? Depression is an awful wicked thing. You feel your worst, you want help but you know that no one could possibly understand, and you're tired of trying to explain it to the people who've already heard it and don't get it. Besides, even if they did- what could they do? This is where you need to get into counseling. Talking to someone you don't know about your problems is the quickest way to free yourself of them. It's different then talking to your friends or family- believe me. Find a therapist. They'll see you for free if need be, really. You don't like feeling this way, so what have you got to lose?|
|19 Nov 2004||...||ive been thinking bout suicide since i was 8 years old... it all started when my mom and dad got divorced... after they were divorced my dad started acting mean and controlling, he use to tell me not to eat because i would get fat when im older and guys dont like fat girls, so at age 8 i suffered from buliemia... i started then cutting myself and i have attempted suicide numerous of times... ive tried it so much that i cant even count how many times... i feel like a failure even more knowing that i have failed killing myself all those times...rite now in this stage of my life im going through alot... the love of my life has put me through so much sorrow... my eating disorder is gettin more worse each day... n i cut myself at least 5 times a day... cutting myself is a release from all the pain im going through...a huge part of me wants to die but therez still a small part of me that wants to live... if ne one knoz how i can get some help b4 i do something permanent please let me know|
|18 Nov 2004||Just someone||Do you know the feeling when nothing succeeds and when you have relatively no self-confidence ? In the recent months there have nothing worked. I failed school, I got beaten. And it was all my fault, I do not blame anyone. Only myself.
I feel like something terrible happened : the things aren't the same anymore, as if everything has changed, got a new form. I no longer feel the old harmony of things. All i can do is to escape into my childhood memories, the last time I was happy, felt comfortable.
The only thing that helps me going on is the thought of suicide. I've tried killing myself with a LAMPWIRE. I could feel my blood-pressure in my head, it was tender, gentle like a big drum drumming out my life.
I always stop at the wrong time, let the wire off and CRY.
The only reason I'm staying alive is my parents. I don't want them to suffer because of me.
That's the only thing keeping me alive.
My greatest fear is to be abandoned by loved ones. Wandering around in solitude and panic.
I'm not depressed. I've never been truly. I'd rather say it is PANIC that I'm feeling.
I don't know how to live.
I don't know how to survive.
I'm not made for this world.
Wish me happy suicide.
|17 Nov 2004||sharron chaffer||this site has really inspired me and now i want to inspire you. when i was 11 years old i found out my dad's mom was my mom. at the age of twelve my dad got me pregnant when he molested me. he forced me to have his child. the child died three days after it was born. he made me tell my friends and family that i snuck boys in my window at night and had sex with them. I am now 56 and i attempted suicide 4 times. the last time i almost died. i remember lying there helpless after taking 47 pills and drinking a bottle of gin. i was awake on the inside but i couldnt move. i was so afraid. i thought i was going to die, this is it. i then realized i didnt want to die. i woke up three days later in the hospital. as a result of this i had sever nerve damage and am paralized from the waist down. please think before you do something.|
|16 Nov 2004||R.J. Parsons||Easy.Have an "accident" falling down stairs with an extrodnarily large peice of glass or a knife.i know that cutting doesn't work all the time cuz i tried it and cut the wrong spot and i only bled a little.i'm kinda ok now but i'm actually haveing thoughts abvout killing my classmates and teachers in the most slow painfull ways possible,i want to get help but i'm too much of a pussy to.Sum1 plz tell me some good quick ways to kill urself,oh and by the way,i tried overdose to,it just made me puke.PLZ tell me ,i'm only 13.|
|15 Nov 2004||Dawid||All these people sharing their tales of depression pain and agony.
Never Have I read of so many people contemplating suicide in one place.
On the one hand, It comforts me to see that I am not alone.
On the the other, it sickens me that there are so many people out there that has no idea what I am going thru.
I'm 22 years of age, and have been depressed for a good 8 of those years. You could say I had a good life, two loving parents a sister and a cadre of friends around me.
Hell I was never popular, nor did I want to be. Everything was fine. Hell, everything thing still technichaly still is fine.
But I am empty inside.
And the worst thing is, I DON'T KNOW WHY?!!
I have backtracked thru my entire life to see what the catalist was, but it's nothing that I can clearly see!
At the age of twelve, my father died of brain cancer.But I have dealt with that. Sure the loss is great but I still got thru it.
Is it the fact that I am Adopted? Fuck no!
I got given away as a baby by people who didn't want me, to people who would sacrifice their very lives for me.
But still that emptiness grows inside me. Everyday getting bigger and bigger, threatening more and more to swallow me whole.
I have tried everything to make it go away: counciling, anti depressents, religion, alcohol abuse.
All except heavy drugs and suicide.
And I have seen what heavy drugs does to a person.
I have been seriously contemplating suicide for the last couple of years, but like a few others I have seen, I don't have the courage to pull it off.
Sure I've tried, but it was more a cry for help than anything else.
I have stumbled onto this site in search of a way to make the emptiness go away.
I have no where else to go.
I have no-one left to talk to.
I hurt everyone I talk to.
This is my last place to turn to: a Soulless colective of information.
And if this cannot help me, the emptyness will engulf me, and will no longer be able to live.
|13 Nov 2004||AngelEyes||If your thinking about killing yourself..... DON'T, Find a way to get over your depression or sadness, My sister commited suicide 3 years ago and I remember that day like it was yesterday and will for the rest of my life. When you do think about suicide all you think about is how you won't have to deal with anything anymore, but that's where your wrong because when you kill yourself you are also emotionally killing everyone you know and filling them with an undying sadness. If my sister would have thought about how we would feel before she killed herself she would have never done it, because when i wanna see her or tell her Happy Birthday or I Love You, I go to the graveyard to say it. If it's a guy or a girl that made you feel this way because you 2 were in love and now he or se doesn't feel the same, just think.... there will be better days, it will be hard at first but you'll get over it, You never know that them leaving made room for the right person in your life to move on in... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and nothing should kill you or make you think of killing yourself because there is always someone that has a life way worse than you.|
|13 Nov 2004||AngelEyes||If your thinking about killing yourself..... DON'T, Find a way to get over your depression or sadness, My sister commited suicide 3 years ago and I remember that day like it was yesterday and will for the rest of my life. When you do think about suicide all you think about is how you won't have to deal with anything anymore, but that's where your wrong because when you kill yourself you are also emotionally killing everyone you know and filling them with an undying sadness. If my sister would have thought about how we would feel before she killed herself she would have never done it, because when i wanna see her or tell her Happy Birthday or I Love You, I go to the graveyard to say it. If it's a guy or a girl that made you feel this way because you 2 were in love and now he or se doesn't feel the same, just think.... there will be better days, it will be hard at first but you'll get over it, You never know that them leaving made room for the right person in your life... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and nothing should kill you or make you think of killing yourself because there is always someone that has a life way worse than you.|
|11 Nov 2004||Laura||i am 13 now and i don't think there is a good way to kill yourself... because someone has to find you. there is only one thing holding me back from dying and that is my mum. i also cut my wrists and play with the blood that has come out but too many people now look at the scaires and i hate it. everyone laughs at me. i now cut undre my watch so no one can see it.i also have anxiety and i self mutilate myself during a attack... i peal a whole layer of skin off the backs of my hand and play with the blood my hand swells up like anything. i have tried sooo many ways to die but they all back fire and i hate that. i hate my black life and when people tell me that they know how i feel, yet none of them do it gets me soooo angry!.
i use to read a lot but all the perfict people in them upset me. i cry all the time and i don't know why. I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!
|10 Nov 2004||Anistasia||Hello everyone. My sister posted on this board. She posted about how our sisters have commited suicide and how she was going to commit suicide. I dont know if you guys have ever been a survivor of suicide. But let me tell you this... three of my sisters have killed themselfs. Its not funny and i am depressed about it. God will take you when you've served your purpose. Please email me if you have even the slightest thought of killing yourself. I love you all. YOUR ALL SPECIAL! I would never forgive myself if any of you died... please dont kill yourself. Your hurting more now. Pain passes. once your dead... your gone forever.
In loving Memory of Amanda
|06 Nov 2004||Sparky da Kat||Fact is this. If someone truly is going to do it, they will. There will be no note, no cry for help, no pity party or anything of the such. If your conviction is strong enough to kill yourself, why would you want anyone to know? I have attempted twice, and I told no one. I am the most unlucky man alive, I am convinced. First time, I severed an artery, but failed to bleed to death before I was accidently found in the dumpster by a stranger. Second time, the 1/4in. nylon rope broke and I broke my leg in the fall. When the hell does nylon rope break!!! Why don't you try to live with your life when you even fail at suicide. Help, forget it. Sad to say, I have sought help from friends, counselors, phychologists, family, strangers, whoever... Truth is, as much as I want this help, all that is offered is an explination/advice of what I already know. I am understood to a "T" by these so called helpers. The last time I tried (when the rope broke) I was so angry I called a suicide hotline and bitched them out for being nothing more than a feel-good-stopgap measure. (The poor girl on the other end of the line...but I did feel better.) If someone is going to do it they will and it is truly unfortunate to say, but there really is no one to stop them from doing it. Just like you can not spot a terrorist, you can not spot a suicide. If there are signs, they will not do it I have learned. Suicide is one of the most private acts anyone can think of. It is between you and your maker. Not the rest of the world, or your wife, or your friends, or the cute counselor or whoever. It is yours and yours alone. Don't laugh. Nothing is more private and personal. Look at those who have been successful. Did anyone know? Was it not a great suprise, even to those close to the person who took thier life? If you want to do it, do it quick. A shotgun blast to the head is quick and painless, but use a proper gauge please. We don't need to pay out our salary in taxes to keep you alive because you are a vegatable. A swan dive off a high bridge is another good one. No mess, and if its over the ocean, you will just "dissappear". (Be sure the tide is going out not in.) It saves others the pain of the truth, especially if you have children. Sadly, though I have talked people down from suicide, I can not take my own advice. I am just tired, emotionally. I'm 33 had one hell of an interesting life, and have nothing to show for it. When life deals you shit on a consistant basis (I mean I have bet and won money off this on 100 to 1 odds) that you can predict the outcome of even the most positive situations, what can you do? Self fulfilling prophecy? No. The shit in my life is a blindside attack from Mars. So out of the clear blue sky, it sickens me. So far that is all I know I am good at. Predicting that even the best laid goals will be dashed by no fault of my own. Maybe I am psychic? Who cares... Sometimes we just need to be held by someone so we can cry to ourselves. But good luck finding that, at least with my luck.|