|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Nov 2004||Jomie||3 years ago, my 16 year old son hung himself in his bedroom. The last site he visited was THIS ONE. For a lot of you suicide is like a game. The loss of a child is the worst thing that can happen in your life. I'm his mother: how do you think I feel? And what about his father, 2 brothers and sister? Life will never be the same without him. So stop joking about suicide.|
|24 Nov 2004||Jenn||Everything in my life is so perfect or thats what everyone thinks... I have a great family who gives me 5948941 times more then what i need.. i have loving friends and i great boyfriend... but for some reason i hate it all. And its not my life i hate, its me.|
|22 Nov 2004||NoName||I don't know what the best way to kill myself is. I don't want my family, girlfriend or friends to suffer because of my death so I was thinking maybe leaving a note as if I left the country and went somewhere else but not tell them where. I would probably go somewhere in Europe or Asia with some money, rent a boat go to the middle of the ocean and shoot myself as I fall to the water with bricks tide up to my feet. No one will probably find me there for a while. I don't know. I feel completely worthless and it seems to me that the whole world has passed me by and it's still passing me by. I suck at everything I do.... everything! Everything and everyone I touch I seem to mess up in some way shape or form. I can't seem to get myself straight though I have tried for years and years. I told myself that I would probably not live to 25... well Im starting to beleive that it will happen even before that. I dont really wish I was dead, I wish more that I had never been alive and maybe give my energy and space to someone who deserves it but whatever.. I'm here now in this hell hole, might as well end it soon... I wish the world would understand us... Not everyone was meant to be perfect in everything. I figured in life there is always a good and a bad, a black and white. We cant enjoy clear days without rainy ones. Well there cant be good people that live to 101 withouth people like us... in the end we are just another statistic... Good to know there are others like me in here... maybe ill see you all in that "better place" one day..|
|20 Nov 2004||Bob||I don't know the best way to kill yourself if you're under 13. I often wish I was dead. I'm 36 so the question doesn't really apply to me directly. I'm sure people who are over 13 have looked at this site though. My depression comes from not wanting to be alone, and feeling unworthy of being loved by someone that I find worthy of loving. Anyone really worthy of my affections could never love me. Hasn't happened yet. I've had lots of relationships, but only with people who I knew I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with. The women who I have thought I could marry have always back out just when I start to relax and think that maybe they will love me. Low self esteem plays a big part. I have lots of confidence in who I am and what I'm capable of, but when I'm start dating someone who I think I really like, I get overcome by self doubt- which comes out in my actions, and eventually turns off the person I'm seeing. I would have killed myself already if it wasn't for knowing how devistated my family and friends would be. So here I stay. Plus I promised myself that if I ever decided to reallly do it, that at the very least I should travel somewhere first. Some foreign country. Sell all my posessions and just go. Nothing to lose- might as well see another country first, I could always kill myself there, right? Might as well spend my money in some amazing hotel in France, or England or something, right? Depression is an awful wicked thing. You feel your worst, you want help but you know that no one could possibly understand, and you're tired of trying to explain it to the people who've already heard it and don't get it. Besides, even if they did- what could they do? This is where you need to get into counseling. Talking to someone you don't know about your problems is the quickest way to free yourself of them. It's different then talking to your friends or family- believe me. Find a therapist. They'll see you for free if need be, really. You don't like feeling this way, so what have you got to lose?|
|19 Nov 2004||...||ive been thinking bout suicide since i was 8 years old... it all started when my mom and dad got divorced... after they were divorced my dad started acting mean and controlling, he use to tell me not to eat because i would get fat when im older and guys dont like fat girls, so at age 8 i suffered from buliemia... i started then cutting myself and i have attempted suicide numerous of times... ive tried it so much that i cant even count how many times... i feel like a failure even more knowing that i have failed killing myself all those times...rite now in this stage of my life im going through alot... the love of my life has put me through so much sorrow... my eating disorder is gettin more worse each day... n i cut myself at least 5 times a day... cutting myself is a release from all the pain im going through...a huge part of me wants to die but therez still a small part of me that wants to live... if ne one knoz how i can get some help b4 i do something permanent please let me know|
|18 Nov 2004||Just someone||Do you know the feeling when nothing succeeds and when you have relatively no self-confidence ? In the recent months there have nothing worked. I failed school, I got beaten. And it was all my fault, I do not blame anyone. Only myself.
I feel like something terrible happened : the things aren't the same anymore, as if everything has changed, got a new form. I no longer feel the old harmony of things. All i can do is to escape into my childhood memories, the last time I was happy, felt comfortable.
The only thing that helps me going on is the thought of suicide. I've tried killing myself with a LAMPWIRE. I could feel my blood-pressure in my head, it was tender, gentle like a big drum drumming out my life.
I always stop at the wrong time, let the wire off and CRY.
The only reason I'm staying alive is my parents. I don't want them to suffer because of me.
That's the only thing keeping me alive.
My greatest fear is to be abandoned by loved ones. Wandering around in solitude and panic.
I'm not depressed. I've never been truly. I'd rather say it is PANIC that I'm feeling.
I don't know how to live.
I don't know how to survive.
I'm not made for this world.
Wish me happy suicide.
|17 Nov 2004||sharron chaffer||this site has really inspired me and now i want to inspire you. when i was 11 years old i found out my dad's mom was my mom. at the age of twelve my dad got me pregnant when he molested me. he forced me to have his child. the child died three days after it was born. he made me tell my friends and family that i snuck boys in my window at night and had sex with them. I am now 56 and i attempted suicide 4 times. the last time i almost died. i remember lying there helpless after taking 47 pills and drinking a bottle of gin. i was awake on the inside but i couldnt move. i was so afraid. i thought i was going to die, this is it. i then realized i didnt want to die. i woke up three days later in the hospital. as a result of this i had sever nerve damage and am paralized from the waist down. please think before you do something.|
|16 Nov 2004||R.J. Parsons||Easy.Have an "accident" falling down stairs with an extrodnarily large peice of glass or a knife.i know that cutting doesn't work all the time cuz i tried it and cut the wrong spot and i only bled a little.i'm kinda ok now but i'm actually haveing thoughts abvout killing my classmates and teachers in the most slow painfull ways possible,i want to get help but i'm too much of a pussy to.Sum1 plz tell me some good quick ways to kill urself,oh and by the way,i tried overdose to,it just made me puke.PLZ tell me ,i'm only 13.|
|15 Nov 2004||Dawid||All these people sharing their tales of depression pain and agony.
Never Have I read of so many people contemplating suicide in one place.
On the one hand, It comforts me to see that I am not alone.
On the the other, it sickens me that there are so many people out there that has no idea what I am going thru.
I'm 22 years of age, and have been depressed for a good 8 of those years. You could say I had a good life, two loving parents a sister and a cadre of friends around me.
Hell I was never popular, nor did I want to be. Everything was fine. Hell, everything thing still technichaly still is fine.
But I am empty inside.
And the worst thing is, I DON'T KNOW WHY?!!
I have backtracked thru my entire life to see what the catalist was, but it's nothing that I can clearly see!
At the age of twelve, my father died of brain cancer.But I have dealt with that. Sure the loss is great but I still got thru it.
Is it the fact that I am Adopted? Fuck no!
I got given away as a baby by people who didn't want me, to people who would sacrifice their very lives for me.
But still that emptiness grows inside me. Everyday getting bigger and bigger, threatening more and more to swallow me whole.
I have tried everything to make it go away: counciling, anti depressents, religion, alcohol abuse.
All except heavy drugs and suicide.
And I have seen what heavy drugs does to a person.
I have been seriously contemplating suicide for the last couple of years, but like a few others I have seen, I don't have the courage to pull it off.
Sure I've tried, but it was more a cry for help than anything else.
I have stumbled onto this site in search of a way to make the emptiness go away.
I have no where else to go.
I have no-one left to talk to.
I hurt everyone I talk to.
This is my last place to turn to: a Soulless colective of information.
And if this cannot help me, the emptyness will engulf me, and will no longer be able to live.
|13 Nov 2004||AngelEyes||If your thinking about killing yourself..... DON'T, Find a way to get over your depression or sadness, My sister commited suicide 3 years ago and I remember that day like it was yesterday and will for the rest of my life. When you do think about suicide all you think about is how you won't have to deal with anything anymore, but that's where your wrong because when you kill yourself you are also emotionally killing everyone you know and filling them with an undying sadness. If my sister would have thought about how we would feel before she killed herself she would have never done it, because when i wanna see her or tell her Happy Birthday or I Love You, I go to the graveyard to say it. If it's a guy or a girl that made you feel this way because you 2 were in love and now he or se doesn't feel the same, just think.... there will be better days, it will be hard at first but you'll get over it, You never know that them leaving made room for the right person in your life to move on in... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and nothing should kill you or make you think of killing yourself because there is always someone that has a life way worse than you.|
|13 Nov 2004||AngelEyes||If your thinking about killing yourself..... DON'T, Find a way to get over your depression or sadness, My sister commited suicide 3 years ago and I remember that day like it was yesterday and will for the rest of my life. When you do think about suicide all you think about is how you won't have to deal with anything anymore, but that's where your wrong because when you kill yourself you are also emotionally killing everyone you know and filling them with an undying sadness. If my sister would have thought about how we would feel before she killed herself she would have never done it, because when i wanna see her or tell her Happy Birthday or I Love You, I go to the graveyard to say it. If it's a guy or a girl that made you feel this way because you 2 were in love and now he or se doesn't feel the same, just think.... there will be better days, it will be hard at first but you'll get over it, You never know that them leaving made room for the right person in your life... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and nothing should kill you or make you think of killing yourself because there is always someone that has a life way worse than you.|
|11 Nov 2004||Laura||i am 13 now and i don't think there is a good way to kill yourself... because someone has to find you. there is only one thing holding me back from dying and that is my mum. i also cut my wrists and play with the blood that has come out but too many people now look at the scaires and i hate it. everyone laughs at me. i now cut undre my watch so no one can see it.i also have anxiety and i self mutilate myself during a attack... i peal a whole layer of skin off the backs of my hand and play with the blood my hand swells up like anything. i have tried sooo many ways to die but they all back fire and i hate that. i hate my black life and when people tell me that they know how i feel, yet none of them do it gets me soooo angry!.
i use to read a lot but all the perfict people in them upset me. i cry all the time and i don't know why. I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!
|10 Nov 2004||Anistasia||Hello everyone. My sister posted on this board. She posted about how our sisters have commited suicide and how she was going to commit suicide. I dont know if you guys have ever been a survivor of suicide. But let me tell you this... three of my sisters have killed themselfs. Its not funny and i am depressed about it. God will take you when you've served your purpose. Please email me if you have even the slightest thought of killing yourself. I love you all. YOUR ALL SPECIAL! I would never forgive myself if any of you died... please dont kill yourself. Your hurting more now. Pain passes. once your dead... your gone forever.
In loving Memory of Amanda
|06 Nov 2004||Sparky da Kat||Fact is this. If someone truly is going to do it, they will. There will be no note, no cry for help, no pity party or anything of the such. If your conviction is strong enough to kill yourself, why would you want anyone to know? I have attempted twice, and I told no one. I am the most unlucky man alive, I am convinced. First time, I severed an artery, but failed to bleed to death before I was accidently found in the dumpster by a stranger. Second time, the 1/4in. nylon rope broke and I broke my leg in the fall. When the hell does nylon rope break!!! Why don't you try to live with your life when you even fail at suicide. Help, forget it. Sad to say, I have sought help from friends, counselors, phychologists, family, strangers, whoever... Truth is, as much as I want this help, all that is offered is an explination/advice of what I already know. I am understood to a "T" by these so called helpers. The last time I tried (when the rope broke) I was so angry I called a suicide hotline and bitched them out for being nothing more than a feel-good-stopgap measure. (The poor girl on the other end of the line...but I did feel better.) If someone is going to do it they will and it is truly unfortunate to say, but there really is no one to stop them from doing it. Just like you can not spot a terrorist, you can not spot a suicide. If there are signs, they will not do it I have learned. Suicide is one of the most private acts anyone can think of. It is between you and your maker. Not the rest of the world, or your wife, or your friends, or the cute counselor or whoever. It is yours and yours alone. Don't laugh. Nothing is more private and personal. Look at those who have been successful. Did anyone know? Was it not a great suprise, even to those close to the person who took thier life? If you want to do it, do it quick. A shotgun blast to the head is quick and painless, but use a proper gauge please. We don't need to pay out our salary in taxes to keep you alive because you are a vegatable. A swan dive off a high bridge is another good one. No mess, and if its over the ocean, you will just "dissappear". (Be sure the tide is going out not in.) It saves others the pain of the truth, especially if you have children. Sadly, though I have talked people down from suicide, I can not take my own advice. I am just tired, emotionally. I'm 33 had one hell of an interesting life, and have nothing to show for it. When life deals you shit on a consistant basis (I mean I have bet and won money off this on 100 to 1 odds) that you can predict the outcome of even the most positive situations, what can you do? Self fulfilling prophecy? No. The shit in my life is a blindside attack from Mars. So out of the clear blue sky, it sickens me. So far that is all I know I am good at. Predicting that even the best laid goals will be dashed by no fault of my own. Maybe I am psychic? Who cares... Sometimes we just need to be held by someone so we can cry to ourselves. But good luck finding that, at least with my luck.|
|05 Nov 2004||T-Shaney||Hi, I am just writing in response to the guy to told everyone to write and tell him y the world would be better off if i or anyone else commited suicide. well ill tell you y i think my family and the world would be happier!
I am the youngest child of 4 kids. i am picked on everyday and blamed for all the things that go wrong or for the stuff that has been stolen or missing. but its not only the family that picks on me, i was picked on at school as well, made fun of because i was soo skinny, everyone thinking i was anerexic or boulimic. but school isnt even the worst of my problems. at home i dont even really have a room of my own, Of course i have a bed and all but my parents use my room as storage, all the things they dont want around the house but dont wanna throw out they put in my room. i guess thats y im in that room as well. the thing is that my oldest brother doesnt even live with us anymore and you woudl think that they would put all of the crap in my room in his. but no, his room is kept exactly the way it was from the day he left home! i have nothing as good as my brothers and sister have.They are praised and never yelled at or in trouble when they fight, if my sister screams, my parents automatically think it was me and yell at me and make me stay in my room without anything to eat for the night. maybe thats y im so skinny. when my brothers and sister turned 16, they got to go get their license and my parents took them driving everyday and helped them practice. when i turned 16, there was never a good time to go get my license, and when i finally did, my parents never took my out for a drive, they wouldnt help me practice, and now my license is expired and they wont take me or help me get it back. when my brothers and sister graduated all the family was at the house to see them and tell them how proud everyone was of them, but when i graduated, no one was home to tell me how beautiful i looked in my dress, how nice my hair looked, how proud they are that i finally passed school, nothin! my father went to an "important" hockey game that day, my brothers went out with friends, my sister worked, my grandparents didnt come to see me neither did my aunty or uncle, my mom was at home but only for 2 hours so she could drive me to get my hair and makeup done, then she was off to a party for her friend. i am always left out of things that my family is doing. my parents always wonder y im always crying or upset in any way, they think im just over reacting but they dont really kno how im feeling inside. so to answer your question about how my family would be better if i was dead... they wouldnt have to worry about me crying anymore over "nothing" they wouldnt have to waste their money anymore on clothes or "fixing" up my room. they would be happy with the other 3 kids that have done perfectly well in school and wouldnt have to compare me to them. i have tried suicide once, i overdosed on t-3's and many other pills that were lying around, i passed out but only to wake up the next morning vomiting and made to go to school because my parents thought i was faking it. i think i would do the family and the world a lot of good and just leave and never come back. dont you???
|04 Nov 2004||Crisis Counselor||Wow, I know I shouldn't take this site too seriously, but how do I do that when I'm a Crisis Counselor? I'm telling people not to kill themselves everyday, this web site is an abomination & is not helpful. Call your Crisis Line if you feel like hurting yourself or others. There are people who WILL HELP & who care! HOPLESSNESS IS A PRODUCT OF A LACK OF HOPE! PEOPLE CARE THEREFORE THERE IS HOPE!|
|03 Nov 2004||Andrew||It is true that there are many people who wouldn't think of commiting suicide, but that's because they haven't had to deal with the problems, mostly internally, that people like me have. I'm 29, to be 30 in June, and my life has been nothing but shit since I was born (since I can remember). My issues come from how I look at things and how I treat things and that people do not accept me for who I am and choose to give me a hard time and make life even harder to live. I also have a hard time with relationships and am usually alone, single. I do try to do good in my life, but many things end up blowing up in my face though started with good intentions. In all my life I've been given nothing but let down and regret. I know there are those out there that deal with far worse that probably don't think of commiting suicide, but I can't handle life. I don't blame others, just myself. I'm the one who sees things the way I do, and I can't change that. Medication would probably help, but no one is willing to hire me on a permanent basis, so I don't have medical insurance cuz meds are expensive not to mention the doctor office visits. Those of you who are sickened by people thinking about suicide can go fuck themselves as far as I'm concerned. Live a week with my brain and you'll see why some people so wish to commit suicide. Alot of times it seems like the only answer. Nobody cares and just think about themselves not willing to lend others a helping hand. I know 'nobody' might be too strong a word, but it seems pretty close to 'nobody'. My idea of commiting suicide has been jumping into a live volcano for the longest time. I'm not sure, but I think that would be the least painful way to go and the lava would probably engulf your body and burn it up pretty quick. If I do happen to go that way, I'll have to do a little more research cuz I don't want to sit there roasting for several minutes. That would really suck. If only there was a program out there to help people get through their lives, a program that really worked, that would be key. But as far as I know, something like that doesn't exist. It would be nice to have a loved one, significant other, that cared about you too, but that seems to be something that will never be in my reality. Again, by my brain thinking and looking at life like it does, there is nothing that can be done to save me really. I'm just grateful that I would never harm others, like murder, rape, and such. Life has been very unfair to me, and I know it's because of the way I think. Oh well. What can one do but commit suicide or just grin and bear a fucked up life for a time longer... nothing in my case.|
|02 Nov 2004||Mini||There is no best way to kill yourself. And if there was one, I'm not saying. What I am going to say is that I have been there. I took the bottle of pills and drank and still woke up the next morning. I had my baby in a crib right beside me and I didn't care when I swallowed those pills. I was like, fuck it all. I don't want to feel pain anymore. But I still woke up, looked over at my now crying baby and hated myself for thinking what I did the night before. That was 16 years ago. I had nothing, lost my husband, had really nowhere to live and had to use t shirts for changing the baby. I could go on and on and say all the reasons why I thought I should off myself. Today I can tell you why I'm glad it didn't work. You see I have now 2 beautiful daughters. One of their friends tried to take her life. I got her help. She is better now and she knows that I love her very much. Maybe my life is crap. Maybe it will never change but I know I'm here for a reason. Sixteen years ago, I didn't know what that reason was. Now I do. My future isn't perfect for me. But I have a purpose, just like everyone else out there. You aren't always put on this earth for you. Sometimes you are put on this earth to help someone else. I'd love to have more. Great job, a good man, skinny body. But I have something that maybe no one else has. The ability to save someone else.What keeps me going is that I know in my heart that if I died that night, there would have been no one to save that little girl. No one cared for her at the time. I did. So the next time you want to end it all, THINK! Maybe your time isn't now. Maybe you feel the world is against you. Maybe your HAPPY is coming later. You're the one that's going to make a difference...|
|01 Nov 2004||Megan||Someone always has it worse than you... remember that. ALWAYS. I watched my best friend committ suicide.. I watched the life drain from her body. There I was thinking Im helping my best friend. I regret many things to this day but that was the # 1 thing. Why give up everything to go to nothing? Why work so hard to wake up every morning and give up. Things can always get worse.. ALWAYS..|
|21 Oct 2004||Hayley||Shit, just reading about all this makes me feel like my problems are minimal... just a few hours ago i was looking in the garage wondering if the metal bar at the top would support my weight or would it be another failed attempt like the rest of you seem to be doing.... my friend went to a funeral today and a young girl similar to the age of you commited suicide... she said there were hundreds of people and everyone was so sad... i know right now this is what you all want, this is the sympathy and pity you so desperately want to feel because you think your life is so fucked up you want people to feel the same pain you have felt for years... and they will trust me but what a waste.. honestly... do you want people feeling guilty about how they could of helped you... for the rest of their life... do you want them to feel the pain that you feel right now... of course you don't... we cant help it that were depressed we've had fucked up lives but why drain all the pain onto some other human... it's not worth it... i am currently 17 and depressed... i left high school, go to uni and feel like i have nothing in my life... my parents recently split up and my mum is depressed because she lives on her own... my dad and my brother cant stand me and every one of my friends has a boyfriend who loves them dearly.. i feel like i have nothing.. i have nobody... every guy fucks me over.. i hate myself so much i sometimes think whats wrong with me???.. i don't understand... why doesn't anyone love me the way their boyfriends do... i feel so lost and alone.. i have no direction in my life... and nobody.. i sometimes just want to run away from it all.... i no life can seem fucking hard but this i think reading these stories puts perspective into your life... i feel a little happier.. you've got to seriously look at your life and think is it worth it??... we only live once.. once thats it your never going to live again... after this.. life.. why not make the most of it and try to move forward... it's the only chance you'll ever get to live... why throw that away now???... think about it|