|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|11 May 2006||wyatt||i am 15 years old and tried to commit suicice multiple times by cutting my wrists. before i read the stuff on this site i felt like i was so fucked up and that i was the only one that can understand what im going through. even though my friends try to cheer me up and help me it only makes me feel worse and that im too much of a pussy to make things better for myself, and since i couldnt successfully kill myself i felt like even more of a pussy. I know that my life is pretty messed up at the moment but after reading this site i knew that i am nowhere close to as fucked up as i think i am, sure i am suicidal but i dont live with an abusive family or put up with nearly as much shit at school as some of u people do. i now know that if i really wanted to commit suicide i would have ended it a while ago, but now since i was lucky and didnt die i now know that i have to make the most of my life and see if it would really be worth throwing away all the good things i have in this world. Hopefully in the furure i make the right decision because i was so close to making the wrong one. I am so glad i found this site because when i found it i was searching to find out if overdosing on advil would kill me. I thank all of the people on this site for helping me realize what i have to do to resolve my problems and also realize that suicide is not what i need in my life right now.|
|11 May 2006||purpleflame||I knew a 14 year old who successfully hung himself. Around that time I wanted to die too, but seeing all his friends and family so hurt and confused made me not want to. If he'd had the chance to see the pain he caused by killing himself, I don't think he would have done it.|
|10 May 2006||sarah||what is going on??? Stop it. Live your life. Sooner or later it's over so just get out there and go for it. Suicide is simply an early answer. If you are willing to die then you must be willing to do anything else. So, get up and out and perhaps travel the world. I mean, in the end you would be dead anyway. So just go for it. Do things and live and do not get washed in and warped in. Try to step outside of any situation and detatch yourself from things taking up too many of your thoughts. I go to a boarding school and high school is hard here. I wanted to kill myself throughout my years here. But every time I got the courage to do it, I realized wait, there are so many things I might as well do. You will get over this. You will. Those who commit suicide simply haven't waited or weren't patient enough with themselves. PLEASE don't do it. PLEASE just don't.|
|04 May 2006||hollie||i really dont think that someone shuld try n kill dem selves especially cumone ov such a young age who has their whole life ahead of them i know that there are a lot of people that leave comments sayin this is a ridiculus website but it does help people in someways im 15 and when i was 13 my life was a reck! i had no loyal friends a family who didnt give a shit about me and no on in the world to talk to so obviously sucicide was a thing i thought about. i visited this site and looked @ ways to kill my self but when it came to actually doing it i just culdnt, i knew that i wuld eveuntually have something to live 4 and 2 years later i do! i found friends who liked me 4 who i am my family still dont give a shit about me n prosb neva will but that doesnt bother me bcuz wen i got out with my m8s dey dnt care wat time i cum back n who i bring back with me. i came back to the website to tell everyone thinking of commiting suicide to calm down and look @ what you have or what u may have soon or even acheive. sicuide is a one way streetn that has disaterous results and if you could see who you hurt aftaer you have killed yourself u wuld want to kill yourself agan! u dont relaise wat u had b4 u loose it and never frown bcuz dere is al;ways someone falling in love with your smile :) i want to help people who are feeling suicidal so please 4 the love of god just stop! its not a laffin matter and its very serious if you try and commit suicide and fail you could get jailed and then how are you goin to feel! even worse so please if u must commit suicide then i cant stop you but b4 u do take a long hard look at your life and think to yourself do i really want to lose whatever i have , that may not b a lot but one day it could be please look for helo in other people that you trust or callk a helpline or something dont look to the people tellin you how 2 commit suicide on this website bcuz once its done its done and you cant erase it 4 anything in th world thousands ov people a year kill themselves and thier fam and close friends end up devestated and feleing lost without them . . . dfont let your family go throught that PLEASE|
|04 May 2006||meliane smith||listen i no what you are alg oing threw because i used to want to kill myself i have took several overdoses and slit my wrists god knows how many times but you have got to believe people wen trhey say it will get better and you will get over it.
at the time i wanted to kill my self i was overweight had no self esteem and thought i was ugly, i had never had a proper boyfriend but i had slept around because i used to think if they want to sleep with me they must like me. but i have changed no with the help of my friends and finally realising that i am worthy of being a love nomatter what anybody says i am supposed to be here for i reason i just wanted to tell you this because maybe you feel like suicide is your only option but it wouldnt it be better if you could go on and tell the people that are hurting you in your life that you are better and will be better than them.
so please listen to the people that care about and you dont need sucicide and for the girls out there that think they are ugly and will never have a boyfriend that isnt true you will find someone that will love you and treat you right and as an equal.
i no this because like i sed i used to be like that but thanks to my friends and my wonderful noyfriend who i have been with for the past 12month i now no that life can be good and worth living to the full.
|02 May 2006||steph||im not under 13. im 16 and have visited this site for over a year. this site is amazing. the last time i was on this site i wanted to die. i had the tablets ready and was going to take them and i was just saying goodbye to my friends. i started reading this site and got so interested in the posts that i was reading for over an hour. it makes it easier hearing other peoples problems because theyre always people who are worse off than you. i would love it if people from here who feel the same way as i once felt and still do sometimes would email me on email@example.com i would love to help. i used to cut myself and take small overdoses of paracetamols anf ibuprofen and anything i could get my hands on. i would love to hear from you because it might help us both. theres always help out there for you. even if it is by email. love steph xxx|
|01 May 2006||Jada||I can never say that I have tried to kill myself. I did have a friend that killed herself. I had to live life after my best friend died. She left behind a world but she caused more pain dead then she ever did alive. Her mother will never get over her child taking her life. The day my best friend took her life she took ours with her. Her mother goes to the grave and spends hours every single day. She will never let her go she feels that she is the one to blame.She stands at the grave as if she will one day find a answer to her pain. There is no answer there will never be a answer. I was so hurt by her leaving me. When she killed herself she felt all alone and no one could help her. I did learn one thing people dont try suicide they want one of two things attention or death.If you want to die you will do it and no one can stop you. If you want help then you will try but you will make a way so someone can help or stop you. We never knew she wanted to die. When we sat in the kitchen she went and took her fathers gun and placed it to her head and then pulled. We ran in her room to find her a breath away from death, there was nothing we could do. I held my best friend as she took her last breath.She told me she was sorry but her pain could and would not go away this was the only way. That day was almost the start of my world going down hill. I had to live to help other know what suicide could do to the ones that are left behind. If you want to die there is nothing anyone can do but if you want help there are people out here to help you.I wish I could have saved her I would have gave my life to save hers. I guess she did not know how much she was loved. I only go to her grave on special days the pain is still so real. I had to tell my best friend good bye a long time. The grave may hold her body but my heart holds her life. I keep the good ones close to my heart. I hope that if you do want to die you just think of the people you will leave behind. Some place some where someone loves you. But the first person who needs to love you is you. I wish you all well I would never want you to go where my best friend went. We dont know where that is. The one place you can never come back from is your grave.................................|
|29 Apr 2006||Laura||I don't know what is the best way? Maybe no one should die. Just think, If you die you're letting everyone else win! Why not stick around a few years longer and annoy the people who want you to go away? That would make me feel a lot better seeing them get so pissed off just because they are trying so hard to make me commit suicide and I won't. I carry on fighting knowing that one day I could end up being a lot better than them. Also, don't you want to see what tomorrow brings, or the day after that? Theres a wide range of opportunitys out their for you! Plus, theres people who care, who love you, who think you're incredible and would die just to know you and be you're friend and they would praise the ground you walk on. You're the one who needs to find them. You think no one likes you, I kno no one likes me but I kno why, because I'm not like everyone else. Im an outkast I'd rather be different and be laughed at all my school life then be someone who blends in. People look at me more often because I stand out. People pick on me, because there bothered about me, they make excuses to come near me, If they hated me they'd keep well away! I enjoy going to school everyday and standing out, one day people are going to love me for the way I don't care I have people who do now. I just think positive and listen to all the great things people say about me. You know like everyone thinks Im a good singer so I focus on that, Im going to make something out of that one day. Im going to fight untill I get there, I have felt suicidal but I now kno whats the point? Life is a gift that you might never get again, so make it as long as you possibly can! Lawz xx|
|28 Apr 2006||AZA||Hello everyone.! I hope you can read this.. I gues l have to say l've thought about suciding myself since i was 15, but the fact is that l never tried it, I'm so damn week to do it. All l know is that all the ways to commit suicide are really painful, ( If you really want to die just get a gun and shot yourself) that would be the easiest way.. BUT.. PLEASE MY FRIEND don't do it.. there is a lot of people out there waiting for you, THEY LOVE YOU..Belive me , they do love you..Your mother, your sister, your brother.. your uncle, your best friend even your father... They will suffer too much if you die.. Or if you don't have anyone to care about.. Fuck it. that's better.. just care about yourself and live life every day like the last, do some sports, walk around your towmn and see how wonderful life can be.. WELL this is my story, I'm 19 years old,, was born in Latin america, i came to Canada 7 months ago and l just learned to speak english (i still have some mistakes) I have dreams and one of them are to become a famouse Rapper,.. Right now all i know is that life is very complicated,, But that;s the beauty of it,(Let's Play with life and show that we can make it)Back again, i've been thru many problems, money, i'm here alone, no friends no family, when l need someone to talk to , nobody is there.. i'm getting kind of desperate, today l went to buy some beer to get so drunk and after that l was planing to get myself hit by a car.. ( They didn't sale been afeter 12:00 ) so l returned home so sad. and started reading some of this stuff, it really helped me a lot, now l am just writing this to let you know that you are not the only one feeling a pain.. We all feel pains.. We all think "fuck the world" we all want to die. but we are still alive.. so let's see what is coming for tomorrow.. the only person that can make our life happy is ourselfs, don't wait for soemone to do it for you... Well my Friend.. I gotta go.. But one more time " DON't KILL yourSELF" Please give you another change... GOD BLESS YOU...|
|26 Apr 2006||its strange like a year ago i was a normal horny teen hiting on girls people liked me i liked myself.
but now i never go out .i dont think about girls deprshon has taken over my life. not meny people hang out with me cuz im deprssing to be around. my school work is down i dont speak to my mum n dad most of the time im alone it feels like im emosheny numb and i want it to end good bi
|24 Apr 2006||Duane||Sometimes things happen to us which we can't explain. It just seems unfair that everybody is happy except you. No one feels your pain and no one cares. Its true, you are the only ones that understand yourselves that is why it is up to you to seek your own happiness. Do not die for other people, live for yourself. If you die today, you will no longer be hurt but you will never know what it is like to overcome and truly be happy.
When i was 12 I wanted to die. I was hospitalized many times, but i still made it out. I didn't care about anybody and i didnt think anybody cared about me. Then I realized that I am all I got. If I were to die i would never have the chance to live the life i dreamed. I would never be rich, I would never have a girlfriend, i would never see myself grow old. So i decided that death would be the only thing that would ever happen in my life that i could not control. I'll die when i am supposed to die but i won't have anything to do with it. As for everything else, I laugh it off. If somebody doesn't like me, i dont care. If somebody tries to bully me, i tell them off. and if somebody tries to fight me, i just kick them in the nuts (and run). ive been doing that since i was 12 and now that i'm 25 it gets funnier everyday! i found all kinds of ways to stand up for my self and brave the circumstance. i'm in charge of me, and i ain't goin nowhere!
|21 Apr 2006||fresh start||i'm 23 and tried unsuccesfully to kill myself. i was the popular kid in high school, have a "great family" and everybody was envious of my car, clothes, family, house, you name it. I was also quite bright, even through university, named top leader and graduated quite early. So what was my problem??? It was all too good to be true. After one year of therapy, I've come to realize it was very selfish of me to have caused such a big pain to all those that i loved. My parents marriage has gone wreck, my friends had many difficult times, and all because i thought it was just too much to cope with. My point is that everybody suffers, wherever you want to see or not. Many thought i was just spoiled for doing what I did, how could somebody with everything want to die, right? Now i'm learning to take things one step at a time. I still struggle everymorning waking up, but everytime I do, and start observing the small wonders of the world, I'm very glad God gave me a good second chance. I'm not gonna spoil it this time.|
|14 Apr 2006||Devin Kydd||I am 20 years old and like a lot of people in the world, and everyone on this site I have thought of suicide. I have never tried and I never will try. This is because I know what life is. Life is a balance of good and bad. Everyone has good in their life and bad. If you focus on the bad you will only see what is wrong in your life. You can't live your life expecting others to give you a helping hand, they are also going through this delicate balance. If you want someone to talk to or to help you with your troubles you cannot just expect it, you have to ask for it. Hate is not something you use to inspire you, hope is. Hate breeds hate, if you focus on hate you will only find more to hate. Hope works the same way. If you have hope you will find more and more places to find hope and inspire you to live. I am not wanting to understand you or tell you that you have had a happy life, a vast majority of people have had a bad life, I have had a few years where I didn't want to live my life. That does not mean that I was wanting to commit suicide. Suicide is not the right answer for your problems. No matter what you are going through you get always get through it without wanting to commit. You are probably reading this thinking I am full of shit and don't know your story, and why you think it is okay for you to commit, but everyone has a sob story and if they choose something they can blame on someone else. How your lifes problems are not your own. Though it looks like a lot of you have had lives where your parents were not the most parental or loving that is not a reason to want to die. I don't know you, I am not going to say I do, but what I do know is that suicide and hate are never the best answer. You have to work through these problems just like everyone else would. Working through problems is hard, but that is life. And if you do work through these problems you will get a satisfaction that will only make you want to carry on. Life is like a game of golf, you may have a lot of bad shots but that one that is good makes you want to keep playing. Don't focus on the bad shots because as hard of a game life is it is worth playing.|
|12 Apr 2006||If you are under 13 and want to kill yourself you should definately make a big deal about it. Don't try and keep it to yourself and keep living with a shitty attitude. Once you hit 18 no one will want to help you since you are an adult now and just look pathetic complaining about having problems that everyone else has. Even if your parents threaten to put you in a mental institution you should make a big deal out of it, otherwise you will be like me in your twenties and still surfing sites like this every so often because you hate life but don't have health insurance and your family tells you to get lost since you are an adult now.|
|12 Apr 2006||Ger|| Suicide is a companion I live with everyday. We all live in a world filled with suffering. I have been sexually abused by my father since my earliest years, until about junior high. He punched me in my face with a closed fist during my freshman year in high school, reconstructing its bone structure. My mother lives in denialneglecting to protect the child. Being in an emotionally, psychologically, and physically damaging environment has its toll on the human spirit. Even today, affirmation of my experiences and what happened to me is unavailable.
One may ask, "What is worse than death?" My answer being, what is worse than physical death is being kept alive while dead inside (only to watch a body violated and tortured on a daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly basis).
I have attempted suicide three times; however, I have sabotaged my health passively through drugs, addictions, and sexual irresponsibility, hoping death will set me free from my memories, dysfunctions, and lack of motivation.
I am twenty-three years old now (HIV negative) and still alive; wondering what is the result of my survival and how can I give the wisdom I have gained through these experiences to humanity (to move towards world peace and to fight injustice). From living on the streets to turning tricks to pay rent and food I have thrived. Life has its setbacks, but, it has joyous moments which make it worthwhile. Among the hundreds of exploiters of victims and oppressors, to find one who cares, without price, has given me hope in humankind.
I have been reading a book called "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor Frankl. It is about a psychiatrist who survived the concentration camps in Germany.
By reading this book, I have learned how one found a reason to live even through an imposed sense of hopelessness and the threat of extinction on routine. It has taught me that one's search for meaning in life is a purpose in itself. Giving back a talent that one possesses to the world is a reason to go on. Also, that suffering has meaning. Are we worthy of our suffering? How one views their suffering and life makes a world of difference.
Although, life is challenging and lonely, I have come to the frame of mind that, "If I am unwilling to live for myself...then for other people." I have been volunteering in a kitchen for a homeless shelter once a week for the past three weeks and it has given me a sense of contribution. To step out of my self-absorbed nature has given me freedom that I desire (even for a moment). My life is still daunting at times, like today, but realizing how life can be so much worse has given me a sense of humility (realizing the selfishness in my ideologies). Others live with disabilities, deformities, cancer, venereal diseases, and still carry a reason to meaning; thus, so can anyone.
I desire to feel and have love in my life. From my traumas, I feel a sense of isolation and self-imposed exile from a world which will likely unknowingly understand my experiences, truly. Some of my faults are an inability to trust others, sexual neurosis, and an ingrained feeling of being unlovable. I have been through countless therapy sessions, medication changes, and lack of emotional stability and belonging. If I have made it this far, I believe almost anyone can and will make it farther.
I have written these thoughts, not to tell others what to do or to think, but to expose the visitors of this website to another's frame of mind. I have read many of the comments on this webpage and I empathize with the numerous thoughts of ending this life. I will like to complete by saying, "There are no guarantees that life will become a fairy tale and all our problems and issues will dissolve; however, our possibilities for growth are endless, for we have embraced death and the depths of despair (which many others utterly fear and may be unprivileged to feel)." Are we worthy of this gift of insight?
|10 Apr 2006||sammy||hi as many people say life is a gift... fuck that shit. life is a game of give and take if u want to de to make it shorter than do so. i have been clinicly provin dead 4 times. 3 attempts. cutting isnt the best way to go neither is jumping or odin. the best way is to hang youself. that is wat worked for me but they still brought me back. ill explain why i tried. my dad was a pill popper. he was allways high so i felt like i didnt have a dad but some crazy guy walkin around my house. my mom beat me since i was 3 (btw im 13 now) i lost my home, my dog my dad gave away, my other dog which i saw get runed over, i lost the love of my life to one of my best friends, then another best friend hated me, my uncle died, my boyfriend was murdered and then i had to move back to the naborhood i was raped in... ive gone through hell and back and im not afraid to do it again. im 13 years old and have died already but im still kickin and ready to fight. as i say wat id the point of life if u die ayways? where u even alive if 20 years later no one knew u existed? whats the point of doing anything for life is al u expect is to die later?dont tell people what to do and dont let others tell you wat to do. it is your life. come and go as you please but no one lives forever... oh n to all yall christain bitches if u aint trien to help others find their way to death then get the fuck off the road n back in your god damn church cuz it aint your job to tell people how to live or die.|
|10 Apr 2006||Bryan||Ya know what... You all make me sick.
I grew up in Downtown detroit. I was a skinny white kid that got my ass kicked every fucking day by black peices of shit just cause I am white. Then at school when I was in 6th grade, this peice of shit stabbed me in the leg with a ball point pen because I tackled him in a football game. Then after that, my best friend killed him self when I was in 8th grade, he left a note saying it was because his friends didn't like him. At his funeral his mom yelled at me while sobbing and told me it was my fault. That I killed her son. When i was a sophomore in Highschool I walked into my kitchen and found my mom fucking some dude I didn't even know. I told my dad and he beat the shit out of her, and when I tried to stop him he beat the shit out of me too. I graduated highschool early, with a low GPA, just so i could get away from the city and all the bullshit.
AND YA KNOW WHAT MY ADVICE TO YOU ALL IS????? HATE FUCKING HATE!!!! YOU DON"T REALIZE HOW WONDERFUL A MOTIVATER HATE IS. FIND SOMETHING AND HATE IT. IF YOU HAVE TO, HATE LIFE... AND DO DRUGS TO SPITE LIFE. IF YOU HAVE TO HATE EVERYONE ELSE WHO WANTS YOU TO BE SAD AND BE HAPPY TO SPITE THEM. IF YOU HAVE TO HATE YOUR PARENTS AND DO BETTER THEN THEM AND RUB IT IN THEIR FACE TO HATE THEM!!
YOU WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING??? FEEL HATE FUCKIN' A DOES HATE FEEL GOOD.
|07 Apr 2006||ummm.....i dont wanna say||i'm 14 and i know what its like to be suicidal. i attempted when i was 12 or 13 and i remember EVERYTHING about that night. i overdosed (about 40 advil). someone told me that it would work for sure, but they didnt know y i wanted to know if it would work. so i popped pills all night. and when i reached about 25, i started feeling soooooo sick. the worst sharp stomach pains hit. but i was determined to keep going, driven by the shit i went through. the thoughts of y i was doing this ran through my mind, which was what kept me going. i woke up 1 hour later on the floor. and i have to say that waking up to a failed suicide attempt was the most heartbreaking thing ive ever experienced. i go to an all girls school so the drama level is ridiculous. which is what drove me to do this, along with hating my parents. i had friends, but no one that i really could talk to. no one i really trusted. im not against suicide & anyone who thinks its selfish is full of shit. cuz its a selfish thought to think that. & if ur contemplating it, first of all, dont OD.....cuz it doesnt work!!!! there are better ways. the only problem is finding one. but whoever you r, i know what ur going through & i can live to say that it is NOT FAIR AT ALL. i really wish u would rethink ur decision, but if ur sure u wanna do this, THINK FIRST! god bless you all.|
|07 Apr 2006||in memory of our dear friend, Jeff, who ended it all on December||i personally dont know the best way to end your life.but i do known that if you want to cut yourself, the best thing to do is take to blade out of an eyeliner sharpener(or pencil sharpener)i had a close fried commit suicide on December.17th,2005. he used very strong anti-depressants, and alcolhal, mixed with heroin, crack, and meth. he was an alcolholic with alot of problems, and if he were to be alive today, he would be in jail. ive wanted to end my life since i was in grade.4 im still alive now but still wanna die. i cut almost everyday, and smoke weed. the weed does help. i know how it feels to be hopeless. kind-of like all you want is a big hug and sum1 to talk to. a close friend knows im suicidal, and he said "you know how you felt when jeff killed himself, and just think of this: if you kill yourself think of how your loved ones would have to deal with the pain for the rest of their lives". that brought tears in my eyes.(thats not exactly how he said it, but something along those lines.) ive tryed to overdose, and it didnt work. i tryed to bleed to death, didnt work. good luck with what you chose to do...if you need sum1 to talk to, email me @ firstname.lastname@example.org thx. take care.|
|06 Apr 2006||no Gutts to die||I dunno weather I am Depressed or not. I feel lyke telling all my problems and everythng to some person whoem I can trust. Since abt 4yrs I am searching for a date...when I'll commit suicide. I dun wanna live. I want death now at this particular time...may be within 2-3 days i'll commit. Just waiting for an opportunity. May b a love/girl can stop me. May be some particular girl whoem i love. Ppple arround me think bad abt me. And now i know I am hopeless. Pple aaround my home dun talk to me thinking this person is hopeless. I wanna die before I get burdon on my Parents. Every Munite of my life if getting difficult for me. I wanted to do somethng gr8 in computer world...but my parents see no hope. and they want me to get away from computer world. I had no girl frndz. When i tried to propose some one the girl was already a love of one of my frnd. I dun wanna live. The reason I dunno....itz not becoz of love only....but itz becoz of also that I am hopeless. May be these are my last words i have typed here....from now...i too dun say gudbye...I dun care if pple read this or understand me. Yeah....no on understands me.|