|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Apr 2007||HansVonG.||i know a few folks that hung themselves. sad really. couple of years later LIFE is still moving foward without them. no one remembers them. and thier suicide solved nothing. we where just kids. i played with them. ate and drank with them. cheated on school tests with them. got in trouble with them.
whats really bad about the whole thing is the reason they commited suicide was serious at the time but several years down the road it would have been a mere bump, a pot hole. something trivial. something that wouldnt naturally stop life.
im not gonna tell you not to kill yourself. its your life. you have to make your own way.
what i will say to you is this is my LIFES experiences. maybe they will help you. maybe you have already made up your mind. but i wanted to die many times already. and im still here. living. surviving. and yes suffering.
the cold hard matter-in-factly truth about life is that it isnt fair. i didnt make the rules. and these rules cant be broken or bent. accept this and it will get easier.
you cant change the weather. storms happen. whatever your storm is you survive it. it will pass.
|25 Apr 2007||Ame||I have reasons to end this life. when I was around 8, my classmates picked on me about my weight, and when I was 10, I did something and they all hated me for it even though I have no consciousness about that incident,I didn't know what I was doing, and so I had no real friend up until elementary graduation, but I had one. Yet she turned back on me when I needed it most. When I was sick, i tried to overdose on different medicine but that only prolonged my hospital stay. I was really depressed that time. When I got out, I took an exam at a different school a long way away from them. I was happy that I passed. I thought I had a chance. And there's where I met my real friends. But on the next year, we were separated in different class. Call it shuffle system. And there's where my feel to end kicked back in me. I was in second year then, I have some of my old freshman students with me and others from different sections. I thought that they will be my friends but NO. I was happy that I could help them as much but one time, the entire class asked me for all the materials we needed. the materials can be easily bought. that's where I thought they abuse me. And so they did. I always do the hard work, and they dish out the credit. I only smiled at them but the pain and pressure severes me so. Then, when I visited my best friend, she called me by the name of her classmate. I was shocked, although I didn't show it. I just smiled at her and left. When there are events concerning our class, I get left out especially when it means pairs. I was the only one alone. I was always the one left out.But the face I show was not being pissed but a happy one, a fake one. To tell you the truth, all of my emotions are fake outside. Until someone realized it and has seen through me. During one of out camps, I tried to sleep face down on my pillow to stop breathing. Bad luck, that person was beside me. She tried to wake me up but no use. I passed out. Another time, when we were making bows and arrows, I pretended to practice shooting, the head facing me. Noone notices until blood spilled out. I missed by a few feet from the heart and shot my arm near the wrist instead. I felt alive.
They sent me to the clinic and left me there. No treatment. No first aid. Noone. I was alone. Again. I was muttering to myself,
I want to die
really, I do,
I can't live any further
It will only cause others pain,
If I die,
Then they won't be hurt,
because of me...
Now i'm 13 and about to enter third year high school( I knew you wouldn't believe me), the pain is only starting.
My list of reasons is a long way from what I have told. I hope that there can be a way to end everything, suicide is a permanent solution to an eternal problem.
|22 Apr 2007||HansVonG.||baffeling it is....
why people turn to people when they need help when people is the main problem.
healing is a process. i am working on my process. you could even say i am being processed.
my life is similar to drinking public toilet water in a gas station. i know about suffering so bad you just want it to end.
i also know that is not the answer.
i know that when all hope seems to be lost that if you just keep living that tommorow may bring something better.
i know this from living life.
in the gutter.
|22 Apr 2007||megan||i tried to commit suicide when i was 15 because of some family problems and problems at school...and its not the right way i tried to over dose and then i tried to cut my wrist...my friends found out and went to the school counsler i missed 3 months of school becuase i was in a hospital.. im not 16 and i go to a new school my parents r devorced its still hard but i know im loved and cared about i still go to counciling 1 every 2 weeks...|
|22 Apr 2007||The Heart Broken lil sis||Please,dont anybody on here kill themselves.I havent tried it my ive lost many people due to it.My friend George Palladino,who was like my brother, jumped off the Walt Wjittman Bridge in Philly on Nov. 21,2006.I miss him so much. If your trying to kill yourself first stop and think about the people ur eafecting. i lost 3 people in the past 7 months due to suicide. Im begging u, PLEASE DONT KILL YOURSELF. It wont make the pain go away because the guilt of what u did and the memories of ur happy days will follow u and ull start to regret it. Dont hurt ur family and friends by doing some stupid shit like that.Im starting to cry just thinking about why my "big bro" jumped of the damn bridge. Please go and get help or whatever u need to do so ur not another precious life ruined.
Love u bro
R.I.P George Palladino
|18 Apr 2007||sara, the twin of ' a fool'.||i have copied and pasted a post from this site that was written in jan. my reason for this is the peroson who wrote the post was my twin sister, please read:
you all wana know about hopelessness? if i'm actually lucky enough that i get 2 fall asleep then when i wake up i think oh shit, here we go again. i dont often get to sleep though. when i was six my older brother devised a game called the list. it was basically his way of getting to molest his baby sister. my parents let him get away with it. i'm 19 now not far from being 20 and although it was 13 years ago i still remember, and of course have never had the chance to talk about it with any1. since then i become a very sick and twisted person, i dont blame my brother, i probably would have been this way anyway. first of all i lie, i mak stuff up for sympathy, i dnt like lying but i cant seem to stop myself, but i'm not lying now cos i dnt need 2. none of you will eva know who i am. second of all, i hurt myself, i'm a fool like that. i dont have any1 anymore, and i never will have. i've dreamt about killing myself for as long as i can remember, i've tried a few times 2. i plan 2 try again, and this time i will suceed. i am of no use to this world. i am of no use to any1. why am i writing all this crap on here? well because my life is that lonely that i have no1 else to tell. to all of you out there who do plan on killing yourself, think first, because if you suceed then there is no turning back, and if you fail your life will be even more fucked up than it is now because people will know and will always know that you're another kid that tried to kill themself. please think. dont end up like me.
she died on 5th jan 2007. i beg all of you reading the posts on this site. don't do it. my sister needed help and our parents ignored her every cry. she was a very unwell girl and felt she had nowhere else to turn. she would never have put the burden of her life onto anyone she loved but she should have done. she was my twin and the very moment she died i felt half my heart and half my soul slip away, never to be recovered. i myself have had the same suicidal thoughts as she did, even more so knowing that i now have to live my life without her. but i feel this intense need to live, to say fuck you to the rest of the world and live my life as i want it. i force myself to hold my head up high and live the life i am meant to, with all its ups and downs. i do this because i dont want to give any1 the satisfaction of thinking that i failed, and now i need to live life for my sister aswell. i need to make her look down on me and feel proud that i have carried on where she could not. please, i beg you all, do not give up hope. i know at times there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel but please believe me there is. just reach out to someone, anyone and they will help you cope, help you see. don't become another statistic, become a surviver and join me in saying fuck you to all those who put you down, make you feel bad, and use you in ways that are not meant to be. don't give up and let urself down as that is worse than death. there is always some1 who cares, even if they are a stranger. thank you for taking the time to read my message, i hope it may be of some help. my love goes out to you all.
|16 Apr 2007||emily||i have experience with a very close friend who i love with all my heart in the suicide department. she tried to kill herself by overdosing. when i heard the words come out of her mouth when she first got out of the hospital, she said "i tried...to kill myself" i will NEVER forget those words. they gave me the worst feeling i have ever felt. ever. to this day i have a huge fear that something will happen to her and i am constantly checking up on her. i do NOT suggest killing yourself. it will most deffinately cause pain in your friends, and family as well (even if you dont think so). i think her suicide attempt effected me more than it did her. i am still suffering from her attempt to kill herself and i thank God everyday that she did not succeed.|
|15 Apr 2007||Anonymous||For everyone on this page:
I found this site totally by accident. The irony is that I have also felt this. I, too, once thought things were so bad the only way I was going to feel better was to die. I was so wrong. Please don't act on what you are feeling right now. Talk to someone, anyone, about how you feel and what you are thinking of doing. If your parents are the problem, fuck 'em. Talk to somebody else. People who you don't even know yet want you to be well. While it seems like most people suck, some don't. Spend the rest of your life trying to find one. You will.
|14 Apr 2007||scott||I'm not preaching and trust me i know the counsellors and shit don't know anything, but u should think about your families and your friends think about the fact that someone is always worse off than you are i tried to overdose repeatedly i tried cutting my wrists and i tried hanging myself.
When my mum found me in my room hanging by a school tie it cut her up so bad and thats whats made me want to say this to you all no one could change my opinion on suicide wen i woz trying for it but please consider your loved ones pick yourself up brush yourself off if anyone laughs at you or calls you names stick your middle finger up and say fuck you same if anyone tells you what to do find someone to love and that will love u back and shit will get better just hold on for a little longer please.
all my love and hopefully a little ray of hope scott peace xx
|14 Apr 2007||ihateme||well.. hi. Im a 15 year old girl from Australia who has so many depressing problems. I've considered suicide, but I really dont think its much of an option for me. I don't want to put my family or friends in any pain, and honestly, i dont think I would be able to pull it off..
Sigh. Does anybody else know what its like to be so painfully shy that its hard to live like a normal person? I find it so hard to socialise.. im always sad and lonely. I feel like such a freak.. Ive also got very low self esteem and I have recently lost about 15 kgs. Its not like im overly fat or anything.. its just.. im not skinny. All of my somewhat "friends" are very skinny.. and i try so hard to fit in. Most of the girls at my school are very pretty and skinny. No guys like me.. i feel so unloved. I've had SO many fights with my friends, when i was 12 (in 2004) i had to have counselling as i was bullied and got very depressed.. My whole class that year hated me.
But really, my biggest problem is that i keep embarrasing myself. Its driving me INSANE!! I feel like im really unlucky.. i get hit in the head with balls, i do stupid things in front of the guy i really like.. i know this doesnt seem like much to complain about. but when it happens so often, it seems like it cant all be a coincidence.
Theres hardly anything i enjoy anymore. Life is hard. I have severe anxiety attacks.
I think many people in the world are just plain mean. I have a boring life and i am so afraid of the future..
Good luck to anyone that feels the way i do..
|11 Apr 2007||flick||i passed out after slitting my wrists at school in the bathroom when i was 13.
but im 16 now.
AND WITH A VENGEANCE
trust me. dont get mad get even
|10 Apr 2007||HLM||OK, I was in a bad mood when I posted on 4-10-07 about the guy who said girls should just leave guys who are mean to them. I'm sorry especially for swearing and spilling my anger all over the place. It was hard to read all the depressed messages from unhappy children on the message board and know that so many kids are suffering and so many other kids have died b/c of their pain and seeing no way out. I think that pretending suicide is a game is a bad way to go, b/c it's so very real and so very bad when it really does happen. I have been suicidal on and off a lot in my life and I'm mostly VERY GLAD that I did NOT KILL MYSELF. Some days are hard and some days are good. But I have seen what suicide does to the survivors and I do not want to do that to my loved ones, especially the ones who have already suffered such losses before. If you are in a situation where you feel like killing yourself is the only option, please reach out to other people for help; find a safe adult to talk with, call a suicide hotline, write in a journal, go to sleep, play with your pet dog or cat, listen to music, write music, do any thing you can think of that is safe and keeps you from taking away your own life. I do not have the answers for why we are on the planet, but I do believe that each person is unique and special, but most of us think we are lower than dirt, just for things that other people also do or think or feel. We have these mean messages in our heads and these awful pains in our hearts that tell us LIES about ourselves and these feelings and thoughts are very powerful, but that does not make them accurate or correct or even "real" as in "true" so we have to find ways to dismantle their power, to build up friendships and good things to do and say and think and feel in our lives. If you cannot stay alive for a whole day, then break it down into little manageable pieces, like 1 hour or 1 minute, and just keep adding up the time until you get past the feeling and thinking of wanting to kill yourself. I think it's important not to "play" suicide, but I also think a lot more people under 13 are thinking about it than grown-ups want to recognize or let on, and we have to find ways to make it okay to talk about feeling that bad. Childhood is not all easy and happy and shiny and fun like some people pretend it is when they tell you it's the best time in your life, what are you complaining about. But suicide is not the answer, especially when you are still a kid and you haven't even gotten to live on your own yet, b/c sometimes that can make things a lot easier on your mind and heart, when you are no longer under the control of people who do not have your best interests as their goals. I have also read that most of the methods that people use to attempt suicide are (1) VERY PAINFUL, and (2) OFTEN UNSUCCESSFUL, so you should not risk it unless you are willing to end up paralyzed or with other problems b/c of brain damage and stuff from what you did to yourself. Again, it's not the best choice to make; you can find so many other things to do with your time and energy, including reaching out to other people who are hurting and helping them understand that they are not alone b/c you know what it's like to feel bad too. And you can play video games or read books or sleep or swim or make friends or go for walks or make art or poetry or sing or study or play sports or hang out with your siblings or meditate or pray or make jewelry or friendship bracelets or play frisbee or get a job and save up money to do something cool in the future. And you can ask for help from teachers, friends, parents, peers, hotlines, support groups. There is NOTHING wrong with needing help; I think that's why we are on this planet for one reason, is to be there for each other, b/c we are not meant to do it all alone. If you are hurting so much that you want to die, you probably have a good reason to feel that way, usually b/c of something bad that someone else did to you or that happened to you or that someone or something made you believe about yourself. Some people want to die b/c they masturbate a lot or are gay or lesbian or because they have been sexually abused or had someone break their heart. These are real reasons to feel really bad for a while, b/c they are hard things to cope with in this world, but they are survivable things too. No matter what you have done or had done to you, you can make a difference in your life right now by choosing not to hate and/or kill yourself, by choosing to believe that you really are already okay just who you are. That I can promise you. Life is hard, I won't lie; and it's not often "fair" either; but it's worth the risk to stay alive. Please have compassion for yourself and understand that you have are not crazy to feel pain or to think you want to die; and that you can choose not to die even when you feel like you want to die; you do not have to act on these feelings. You can find ways to stay alive for another hour or another day and you can find people and things that will help you heal whatever made you feel so awful. I am so amazed by the open and honest sharing of so many kids and adults about their suicidal feelings and the terrible pain of losing a sibling or friend to suicide. You all have inspired me to keep going and I hope I have helped you a little too.|
|07 Apr 2007||-----||best thing to do is find somebody who you love. doesnt have to be of opposite sex or sexual at all. just someone who wont judge you and you can talk to anytime. about an hour away from death mine started talking to me and i pulled through. i hope you ppl are as lucky as me|
|04 Apr 2007||Caitlyn||I'm 16 and I don't think suicide is the answer for anything. When I was 14 I felt like I had a bad life...I had 3 other siblings, Two brothers one was 23 and another who was 16 and a sister who was 25. That's not the part that I thought was bad. It was the fact that my 23 year old brother wanted nothing to do with me and my family. It took long enought to get my 25 year old sister to get involved. I found out that he wanted nothing to do with us which was one reason. I went to a different school than everyone else. I went to a catholic school. We had the same classmates every year and it didn't help when they all hated you. So I went through school being hated by other people for six years strike two. Then my aunt died from a fire in her house. She was of old age but she was one of my best friends. I would go and see her everyday after school and I really miss her still strike three. I had it with life and I though about suicide a lot. I was cutting myself a lot which I thought helped me but it didn't. I cut for about a year. No one could tell. My parents would worry about me when I was staying inside my room everyday. Constantly. Crying everynight. Thinking my life was horrible. I had to think of something to do. I would always try to keep myself busy and around other people because I knew that I wasn't going to be okay alone. The one day I told my mom how I felt and what I was doing. Then one day and she took me to the doctor to have a psych. eval. They found out I was bipolar and they put me on medication for it. Now that I am older I realize what a stupid idea it was, how I really didn't do anything but mess up my body, and how I effected everyone around me. But a couple weeks ago it hit me on what it would feel like to my friends and family if I tried to kill myself. My friend about two or three weeks ago I got a call from a hospital in the city. It was my friend. She was crying and she had told me she tried to kill herself. I started crying. She tried to hang herself. About a week and a half after being in there she finally came home. She came to visit me and she slept over my house two times in the four days that she was home because her and her mother didn't get along. She was home for three days and the fourth day she was at my house. She had slept over. She told me that she didn't feel good and that she wanted to stay home from school. I told my mom and my mom said that she had to talk to my friends mom to see what she says. My mom tried to get hold of her mom but it didn't work. So my mom told my friend to just go to school with me and go to the nurses if you don't feel well. She she went to school. The school had taken her out of class to the nurses and told them that she had to go home for "unsafe" reasons. She had called me that night and talked to me sounding fine. She said she would call me back. About an hour later she called me and said that she was at the hospital. I was like why and she said that she had tried to hang herself again. (her sister found her with the cord around her neck the first time, the next time it was her mom) I freaked out. I thought to myself, "Is she even thinking about how this would affect us, as her best friends, or her family?" I wanted to yell at her but I'm her best friend and I'm there to help her get through this. She didn't call me back that night like she promised and I haven't talked to her since. I am worried about her, and all this suicidal stuff that she's going through is all about a boy. Life's great, if your life is a mess, organize it, if you feel like you're going to hurt yourself, call someone to talk to, go to a friends house, go outside, do something to keep you busy. REMEMBER: If you're given something, cherish it. It's a gift and it's only given once. Love it.|
|31 Mar 2007||dead inside.||i don't want to be here anymore.
not without you.
i am so weak.
why do i need people so much?
everyone always leaves.
everyone that says they care leaves.
i just want someone to hold onto.
just one person.
it wouldn't matter if the whole world hated me...i just need one person's love...thats's all...am i asking for too much?
maybe i am.
i know, i suck.
i should just leave now.
i want to go so bad.
i want to fade away.
i want to disappear.
|30 Mar 2007||Nick||Okay. well. I am not sure the best way to kill yourself. But it looks like i can exchange a story.
I am on my bed right now with 100 pills of aspirin, 50 pills of Motrin. and 20 pills of IB. Then 5 sleeping pills. Im hoping the mix will do the trick.
See I enlisted in the Marine Corps and 3 weeks into basic training i said, "this isnt for me. " and wanted out and they wouldnt let me. So i ran. I got home and am fine. But i dont want to go back. They wouldnt discharge me and i had to do it again. the military is horrible.
Anyways...Thinking of suicide. With all these pills. But i am not gong to do it. Why? Because I think i just found out tht it wont kill me immediately. It will only fuck of my stomach lining and my liver ling term. That pisses me off. I dont have a gun. And I am not sure if a bag will work. If i am going to live i dont want to have a messed up stomach for ever.
So i guess i am sayiny that, if any one is thinking of trying it with aspirin, dont. It wont work. Well. Wish me luck with what ever happens.
|28 Mar 2007||Roxanne||DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE! IT SUCKS! MY SISTER COMMITED WHEN SHE WAS JUST 11 AS SHE WAS VICIOUSLY BULLIED ABOUT HER WEIGHT. I HAVE TRIED HANGING MYSELF AND CUTTING MYSELF, BUT IT DOESN'T GET RID OF THE PAIN, IT JUST NUMBS IT. I HOPE THIS HELPS, DON'T DO IT, MY COUSIN JUMPED OFF THE TOP OF A CAR-PARK ROOF, IT IS RIDICULOUS AND HELPS NO-ONE
ROXANNE X SAVE URSELF AND LIVE LIFE 2 THE FULL!
|27 Mar 2007||DL||I have no clue how I would kill myself or how anyone else would go about it either, but I do know that life can be horrendously unbearable. It can be fun at times as well but that doesn't cut it for me, because I want to find a point or reason to life and self pleasure doesn't justify living for me. Helping others is a good point of life but I still have the problem of my own happiness. It is very hard to help people when you pretty much despise them. I can't stand how people treat each other, which is a hypocrisy in itself. People make me sick and instill huge resevoirs of rage in me. I am not happy most of the time and certain times, I am extremely unhappy and really question why I would still be alive if there is a God. I would think he would either take me out of this misery- or end it somehow at some point, but it seems day after day I am still here and unhappy. I do not get it. I first started flirting with the idea of suicide when I changed high schools in Freshman year because my family and I moved to a different area. This was part of the reason I am sure, as I had the same friends for over 9 years in the same elementary school. I'm sure part of it was hormones which instigated another part of it - bad acne. It sounds stupid but I was horribly ugly in my eyes. I couldn't see how any girl would like me, bottom line. It really affected me because I had always wanted a girlfriend since I was about 10. I've lived my life doing what I wanted in terms of self-pleasure(masterbation) since I was 11 years old. I've probably masterbated well over 5000 times and have only had sexual contact with women around 10 times total to this day. To me that is a really depressing point. Around the time of high school I really started to kinda blame myself and my masterbation and introversion (on top of my ugly outward appearance)for not having a girlfriend. But I figured if I couldn't do what I wanted and have the simple bodily pleasures of life - then life was truly pointless and I may as well commit suicide anyways. Unfortunately I am still living my life this way, and no surprise- nothing has changed. There are a few things that have changed though...I am 24 now with no acne and people tell me I am very handsome at 6'3" and about 190 pounds, although I probably look closer to 28. In my mind I truly am still the 15 year old ugly masterbating-no girlfriend introvert. This fact alone makes me sad. Not to mention it has been more than a year since I have had sexual contact with a woman. I don't know how to change this, and I am pretty sure it is what keeps happiness away from me. All I have really wanted to do is what was right,and to be rightfully rewarded for it. Of course I have messed up along the way, so maybe I just need to get it right. I just don't know but I really don't feel like having to deal with this life and every single piece of shit person in it I encounter virtually everyday. On top of that I don't want to deal with all this mental turmoil and strife anymore. There is tons of good in the world, but I can't seem to touch it. My one saving grace is my friends and family which are the reasons why I could never go through with suicide. Every time I think about it all I see are their faces.
In closing, I probably wrote this to help myself in some way, but I wouldn't mind talking with anyone else about their problems either. Email me if you do want to get something off your chest and think you have no one else to turn to because that is how I was feeling as I wrote this. email@example.com I check this all the time so I will try and respond very quickly.
|27 Mar 2007||lalala||hey im 12 years old and I've tried to end it about 5 times. Everyone hates me all my friends are traitors and my family doesnt care about me. I always make mistakes and end up in shit.
but I learned from everything that things will get better some day , and you'll have to wait , but in the end it will come.
whoever sees this please don't do it.
It makes me so sad to read everything. just hang on , there is someone out there that really cares for you and you are his world.
|25 Mar 2007||Ben||You shouldnt take your life because you are the most important person to you!
Ignor the cunts who mock you, they are beneath you!
Don't give in to you self!
At times your dead, at others you hate all.
Then you get the bastards who shoud be shot telling you how much your not worth!
Now, im 15, and Ive been around suicude twice now... I lost my Little brother to suicide and my best friend ever also killed himself.
You can turn to god for help, just pray to him, talk to him...
If you dont belive in god or that crap,
seek help, tell someone.
People are not all the same!
There's a better world for you if you help yourself to it...