|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|22 Feb 2008||Eden||I understand that when some people say and think that suicide is a selfish act that they mean it, i understand, I've been there...But also I think that they need to wake up. Suicide (for me) isn't about hurting any one else of making them feel guilty. suicide is a way for me to express emotions that are too dangerous to feel. Suicide is a way to get even in life. I'm 16 years old but i feel 82.
I don't blame anyone (maybe my "father") for my life, but there's no reason i still need to live in it when it tries to kill me everyday. This way i beat it to the punch.
|22 Feb 2008||sarah-lou||this site should be removed! my friend committed suicide last week, her parents found her hanging in the attic!! its awful but u guys dont understand what it does to everyone u know! she left no suicide note, she left nothing, no reason, i mean she was sooo happy, well seemed to be~! its a cowards way out!! u need to be strong!! love yourself!! dont just think about yourself! think about everyone else it will affect, gran , grandad, mum, dad, cousins, auntys, friends, everyooooone!!! its hard!! and dont ever use it to gain attention, people will just think u r crazzzy! just get a job and a life and u will be fine|
|20 Feb 2008||Dakota||dont kill ur self
i no this jus makes it sound lik a normal give advice but its not
i am 14 i actully jus turned 14 i cutt and cutt and cutt its the only pain i can control but its not the way i recomend to live out your life its miserable nd sad jus think if u grow out of it or things brighten up for u then ull b glad u didnt kill ur self
im your age i no how you feel but its only a way to run from ur problems wether your poor, rich, geeky, popular it doesnt matter everybody feels this way from time to time i mean im a cheerleader and i wanna kill my self every moment but its not something i want somebody else to go through because its jus a sad sad sad way to get out of ur trouble..... please please please dont kill urself please
|15 Feb 2008||lucy||my friend just the other day tried to stab himself to death - he was just depressed he is 12 and he survived some how. about a year ago my sisters friends sister hung herself. it was an accident. her mum wouldnt let her go to a sleep over so she mucked around with a rope on her bunk bed and killed herself|
|14 Feb 2008||Bob STROZEWSKI||LET ME TELL YOU ALL ALITTLE SOMETHING// SUICIDE IS FOR COWARDS. LET ME SHARE ALITTLE STORY.. REAL LIFE STORY..HOPE IT CHANGES YOUR MINDS.
FOR MANY YEARS MY TWIN BROTHER AND I WOULD GO FISHING TOGETHER, TALK EVERY DAY ECT WE WERE SO CLOSE..MY LIFE WAS HIS AND HIS LIFE WAS MINE.. I COULD NEVER HAVE IMAGINED WHAT LIFE WITHOUT HIM WOULD BE LIKE.. UNTIL 06/25/08 ..
THIS DAY I DIDN'T HEAR FROM HIM, I COUDNT GET AHOLD OF HIM.. THIS IS THE DAY THAT CHANGED
MY LIFE FOREVER..
MY TWIN BROTHER WAS FOUND AT HOME HE HAD TAKEN NUMEROUS TYLENOL PILLS, SLEEPING PILLS AND ALCOHOL.. HE WAS BARELY ALIVE WHEN THE AMBULANCE ARRIVED.. HE WAS TAKEN TO THE TRAUMA UNIT..FROM THE LOOKS OF HIS BEDROOM YOU COULD TELL THAT HE SUFFERED TREMENDIOUSLY.. BLOOD AND VOMIT ALL OVER THE ROOM. HE COULDN'T EVEN FIND THE STRENGTH TO REACH HIS PHONE 2 FEET AWAY FROM HIS HEAD.
THE AMOUNT OF SUFFERING IN THE TRAUMA UNIT SUPERCEDED HIS OWN PAIN. WITH THE AMOUNT OF THINGS THEY DID TO HIM TRYING TO SAVE HIM.. THE LAST THING HE SAID TO ME WAS I AM SOO SOOO SORRY. I SAID I LOVE YOU BILL.. HE WENT INTO A COMA. HE WAS AIRLIFTED TO THE BEST HOSPITAL 3 HOURS AWAY.ALL HIS ORGANS WERE SHUTTING DOWN..FOR 5 DAYS I WATCHED HIM LAY THERE AND SUFFER HORRIBLE PAIN. HE WENT THROUGH A LIVER TRANSPLANT. DIALYSIS AND SO MUCH MORE. FINALLY AFTER 5 DAYS, I TOOK HIM OFF LIFE SUPPORT. I HELD HIM SO CLOSE AND SO TIGHT FOR 5 DAYS. I TOLD HIM EVERYTHING I WANTED HIM TO KNOW, I PRAYED, I BEGGED, I PLEADED WITH GOD.. I EVEN TRIED TO SELL MY SOUL TO SAVE HIS.. THE TIME HAD COME I WATCHED HIS BADY OVER THE 5 DAYS FILL WITH FLUID, HE GAINED ABOUT 50 POUNDS. WHEN YOU HELD HIS HANDS OR RUBBED HIS ARM WATER PURED OUT OF HIS SKIN. THE WHITES OF HIS EYES FILLED WITH WATER.IT DISTOURTED HIS ENTIRE BODY. THE TIME HAD COME TO SAY GOOD-BYE.
JULY 1.2006 HIS WISH CAME TO LIGHT. MY TWIN BROTHER WAS PRONOUNCED DEAD. I DONATED WHATEVER ORGAN COULD BE SAVED TOHELP SAVE THE LIFE OF SOMEONE THAT WANTED TO LIVE SOMEONE THAT WAS FIGHTING TO LIVE. MY TWIN LEFT BEHIND A 16YR AND A 3 YR OLD. NOT TO MENTION ME.
HIS SUFFERING NOW BECAME MY SUFFERING . FOR 19 MONTHS I HAVE SUFFERED SEVERELY. I ATE ,MYSELF SILLY GAINED MORE WEIGHT THAT I COULD HAVE IMAGINED. IM ON DEPRESSION PILLS, HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE PILLS, AND HAD A HEART ATTACK 9 MONTHS AGO..NOW TELL ME HE IS FREE OF PAIN AND MY HAD JUST BEGUN. I DIDN'T WANT TO DIE. I HAVE 5 KIDS.. I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS NOR IS IT FAIR THAT I HAVE TO SLOWLY DIE THIS WAY. PART OF ME DIED 07-01-06 BUT THE REST OF ME IS FAILING SLOWLY EACH DAY.
SO YOU ALL REALLY NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE ALSO KILLING OTHERS WHEN YOU TRY SUICIDE.. GO TO WWW.BILLSTROZEWSKI.COM OR TYPE IN BILL STROZEWSKI AND WITNESS THE SUFFERING OTHERS DEAL WITH WHEN U SUCCEED HOPE IT CHANGES YOUR MIND.
|11 Feb 2008||George greece||Hi again guys. This is the second time I am writting here. My last time was at november 2006. Remember myself reading for hours these posts to find comfort on them. My problem was a lot more lighter than others. Anyway, here I am now, enjoying life...|
|01 Feb 2008||I have a heart diesese, I know I will die eventually thanks to it... :(
I tried suicide... I failed at doing that...
Why I am here?
... Guys ...
... I realized in the months outside of the world, that a crush I had was the only thing I had left...
One day she called me... Curious, she was the only one there...
... Everyday I fell the pain, the lack of energy and my heart going crazy.
Being dizzy, hardly able to stand up...
I found love.
I live for her, and when she dumps me...
I will hug her and thanks her, I will let her go, I owe her so much...
But... Guys... Will I suicide then?
Damnit... Life is so great...
Don't take it away... you have the chance...
... You think your pain will go away?
There is no god, there is no hell.
We only have now.
So give yourself a chance.
PLEASE... someone will see it... that real you...
Love is stupid and it's great.
Find a crush, Find a dream...
Live for it, and then live for staying close to it.
When all it's lots don't give up hope!
|30 Jan 2008||MH Loves You||I met my best friend on this site almost a year ago to only recieve an email today while waiting for my class to start that said my best friend is dead!! im pretty sure it was not suicide but am waiting to hear from another friend to find out more info. we worked through her issues and i shared lots of my personal life with her. i helped her with many things. i do know that even if it was a suicide that she will be better off and that a piece of my life, heart and soul goes with her as she enters into a peaceful rest! RIP Hellen and may god be with you! Thank you for giving me your friendship and am so happy I was able to give you mine! People please understand and realize that death is permanent and that if you need help there is always someone waiting to listen and/or help you! Need to talk talk email please!|
|22 Jan 2008||Jen||I was suicidal at 13 - it was a horrid time. I am now 36 - three 13 year lifetimes have almost passed, and I am BLISSFULLY HAPPY with myself and my life. Life is very hard but we must be patient. The deeper our capacity and understanding of pain the deeper our capacity and undrstanding of joy. You can't even begin to imagine how amazing you will become and how much you can actually love yourself.|
|19 Jan 2008||Phillip||Well from what experience ive had its unclear whats the best way. When I was 13 I went through alot of shit with a girl who I loved (foolishly of course) and she lay ruin to my life, when I brought myself to it I tried slashing my wrists but stopped before I even bled. When I think about it I wish that maybe I had killed myself then, although I know now that wrists slashing has a 5% success rate... -_-
Ever since then I went very dark, everything was depressing, I did things intentialy which brought pain and suffering to myself. I became very paranoid where small things were suddenly attempts at making me sad and the thing is when your paranoid these things seem so realistic.
I become much more emo/goth but it was all because of my emotions. After an incident at my school where I was bullied very badly alongside a friend I hated myself and had to get rid of the emotional pain, and the best way I found was through inflicting physical pain. Many people including my parents have asked me since I first started self-inflicting (after my suicide attempt, im 15 now) where I get some of my poorly covered injuries from and I manage to hide the truth although I suspect people back-chat me and reckon I do.
I thought I was alone for a long time and life seemed very down, as I didnt know what to do or what I was going to do or could do. Things seemed to brighten after I met a girl a few weeks back, who was my first girlfriend for 2 years, she was sado-masochistic and I found that I was too, although she dumped me 2 weeks in.
Since then I find even the most un-sexual pain stimulating, its gotten to the point where I dont know if im burning myself through depression or sexual release. I thought for sure that I was mentaly unstable and that I was so different from everyone. Then I met another girl, whom due to my "raging" hormones I become very strongley attracted to her.
When I told her she was very sorry because she didnt like me but she talked to me about stuff, and I found out that she too had tried commiting suiced on many occasions, and self-inflicted. Were friends now (not good friends because she avoids me so im not hurt so much cause I still like her) and I feel like there is some hope. Her life was pretty fucked up so she tried overdosing. It feels good to be able to tell someone how you feel and they've been through it all aswell. I realy love her and im so worried that she will kill herself.
So realy, if your going to kill yourself, make sure you succeed because if you dont, its hard to hide the scars, both physical and emotional.
|15 Jan 2008||alexis||listen, im 13, i watched my best friend get shot in teh head when i was 10[homocide] let me tell you waking up everyday feeling like crap thinking you dont deserve to live bc it should have been you not him. is so hard. suicide. i think bout it aLL THE TIME. its bad i no, but do u ever just feel lik you have no other choice. i do. and no one can help how i feel. id rather end the pain goodbye|
|10 Jan 2008||Debbie||My brother commited suicide in febuary 07 me and my dad found him. it has ruined my family and my life evryday is a stuggle. Id like to urge ANY 1 who feels in that state of mind to stop and get help der is ALWAYS sum1 who cares even wen u feel theres not!also any1 whos loved 1s say der gna commit suicide get dem help straight away!!! u mite not have another day to help dem!|
|30 Dec 2007||for some troubled||i really really really really and truly need to state something for the record
some parents are actually truly evil
really and truly evil
and they dont deserve to be loved
by the children at least
they absolutely do not deserve to be loved
all these stars always thanking their parents is bullshit
it is mother fucking bullshit
they want to fool you, or me or whatever, into not separating from evil evil people
some parents hate their kids
and it is wrong
it is wrong
wrong wrong wrong
so utterly wrong
i have to say this
because it is true and if i dont say it now ill never have the chance
some parents hate their kids for not having sex with them
it is flat out true
some parents absolutely despise their kids for not having sex with them
they are as evil as anything
and they deserve absolutely no love
|23 Dec 2007||Rach||I tried killing myself when i was 13. Took pills and alchoal(sp) almost did the trick. I've cut my wrists so bad i had to go hospital. same with my boyfriend. suicide couple, eh? but like all of you have had. My life hasn't been great neither! My parents divoiced when i was about 6 Months, never have had a real family. My dad is currently commiting suicide, i don't know what im feeling about that right now. Hes kicked us out. my mum is away for christmas and i get to have it alone. true meaning of christmas dosn't exsist in our family. me and my brother age 20 have no happy memories of a happy christmas. Only my dad going physco. birthdays are crap Neil, brother gets all the family love, i get none. had nothing this year. mum screams at me every day, i can't stop and talk to her anymore. whatever i say is gonig to get her upset of frustrated and im the one she'll take it out on. well thats family life. school life is also shit! :) no friends. no teachers see me, hear me. all they see is the chavs behaving badly once again. i know it sounds pretty weird but i actually wont to learn to get a good job. if i don't get a good job, the whole of my life is going to be bad. my reports from school don't say much neither, mum gets angry.
so overall, i have no dad. Mum wishes she never had me and preferes one of my friends, neil family favioute. rest of my family. Dead. No one to talk to.
|20 Dec 2007||Michelle||First of all I have to say that for you to be younger than 13 and thinking suicide, what is the point.. I am 33, married and have in the past thought of suicide. My brother just 8 years ago did it, he shot himself in the head and it gave him brain damage and he was on a breathing tube until my parents decided to let him go.. Worst thing that could have ever happened to us and him.. Don't do it seek help now.. If you really cared about your family at all you would rethink this.. Trust me it will break an entire family apart fast.. So you think maybe if you are gone that life will go on as usuall, think again. If affects everyone.... Don't be stupid!!!!|
|20 Dec 2007||William||I don't have the answers to the pain that some people suffer, all I know is, suicide isn't the answer. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Get help, talk to somebody, life is great, it just takes a bit of work.
Try reading the lovely book 'A Long Way Down' by Nick Hornby, a group of would-be suicidees who find comfort in each other.
|12 Dec 2007||noone||Dont suicide...not because of hell or bullshit like that, its just an easy way out which has more bad sides than good. If you feel worthless, and scared and alone and not understood, that is because you havnt found the right person to talk to or to know. The fact that you decide to fight with unjustice makes you worthy, the fact that you choose to carry on in the search of a lighter future makes you strong and much more than others. You are mostly blessed if u find the power in your hearts to oppose the pain and to chalange it to the limit. yes it may sound absurd i know that when u are feeling on the edge of suicide...any word is an empty space and anyone is a invisible barrior, but before doing what you have decided, stop, turn arround,look towards the sun...and think, isnt it better just to escape this life to run far away somewere were i will be lost but safe,just to run...and then stop and become someone alse. My advise...use life use the world we live in,dont close in the small group you are in and realise it as everything. Just run far away and you will find happyness.|
|09 Dec 2007||Kimberly Trosvik||To answer the question, "What is a suicide kit?": Basically, it is the perfect storm. Any number of everyday items can become weapons, and these combined with depression are a suicide 'kit'.
How do i know this? My little brother, Tommy, killed himself at age 12 because of bullying. he never told anyone, least of all my parents. He was always such a happy, loving boy, always trying to put a smile on your face. He was smart, he got good grades, and was learning algebra in the sixth grade. Tommy's death shocked everyone who knew him. His whole grade showed up at his funeral. I will always wonder what he would look like, now.
To all of you pondering suicide: I'm sure you've heard this all before, "shoutouts" from other suicide survivors telling you not to do it. I'm not going to say that. Instead, think about this: The American Psychiatric Association ranks the trauma of losing a loved one to suicide as "catastrophic", as in, family members of suicide victims will go through the same psychological trauma as someone who survived a concentration camp.
There used to be "honorable" suicides in ancient Japan, but today, suicide is purely selfish. For those who think they hurt so bad that they can't keep living, I'd like to see you talk to someone who survived a concentration camp. Perhaps then, you might see that as much pain as you think you feel, if you kill yourself, your family and friends will go through ten times as much pain, and it will hurt every day for the rest of their lives.
So, if you are thinking about committing suicide, first think about how much pain you will inflict on the people who love you.
My father is a firefighter, and when he found my little brother, none of his training could bring him back. When i returned home for Tommy's funeral, I found my father, who used to joke that he was really Superman at his day job, laying on the floor next to his bed, sobbing, frail and broken because he couldn't save his own son. Even though I wasn't there the night Tommy died, every night I see the image of my mother at the hospital, holding my brother's body, rocking and crying, and I have to push that image out of my head so I can fall asleep.
the last time I saw my little brother was a month before he killed himself, while I was home for christmas break. Now the only time I can see him is when I'm lucky enough to see him in my dreams, where he is forever a 12 year old boy who likes to taunt me until I hold him down and tickle him until he can't take it anymore.
God I miss him.
|07 Dec 2007||Denise||Well here is what you and people like you need to know. Yes, you'll end your pain but you'll inflict pain on your parents, brothers and sisters, your friends and everyone around you. How do I know this? I'm a survivor of my son's Ron's suicide after he killed his self following a break up with his girl friend. Ron died in 1993 from a gunshot wound to the head from a .22 caliber rifle. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him and cry. My life has been completely torn up since that day on Feb. 1, 1993 and will never be the same till the day I die! There are days when I feel like joining him. Yes, life has dealt me a lot of crap also. My husband couldn't handle Ron's death either and he covered his pain by drinking his self stupid, to the point that we divorced. Ron's two sisters have lots of emotional problems and there was a period of time they had either attempted suicide but now they seem to be past it all after years of therapy. Their therapist said that most of their problems were caused from the grief caused by losing their brother from suicide and their in ability to handle it on their own. So don't end your life and go get help now! The life you will save will not only be yours but the ones around you.|
|04 Dec 2007||Rebeckah||Let me tell you all now... i used to hate my dad. he and mum were getting a divorce, he had a girlfriend who i didn't get on with and other STUPID reasons that dont mean shit now.
He killed himself on the 20th september 2007 and i have never forgiven myself. he didn't tell anyone he was going to do it and it came as a complete shock. i wish i could change the past and get to him a few hours before it happened and tell him how much i love him but i cant. i realise now that all the things i was angry with him for were ridiculous as i have learnt now he is the nicest man i will ever know. im 17 years old and for the rest of my life i will live in regret.
Joking about suicide in this way is sick it affects people in many different ways. If you guys are submitting blogs as jokes...you are sick and you need help. If you are serious about ending your life i hope my story will change your mind and i beg for you to get help in any way you can. TELL SOMEONE.
This is something that i think i could have changed and i will be eternally living in regret.