|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|01 Feb 2008||I have a heart diesese, I know I will die eventually thanks to it... :(
I tried suicide... I failed at doing that...
Why I am here?
... Guys ...
... I realized in the months outside of the world, that a crush I had was the only thing I had left...
One day she called me... Curious, she was the only one there...
... Everyday I fell the pain, the lack of energy and my heart going crazy.
Being dizzy, hardly able to stand up...
I found love.
I live for her, and when she dumps me...
I will hug her and thanks her, I will let her go, I owe her so much...
But... Guys... Will I suicide then?
Damnit... Life is so great...
Don't take it away... you have the chance...
... You think your pain will go away?
There is no god, there is no hell.
We only have now.
So give yourself a chance.
PLEASE... someone will see it... that real you...
Love is stupid and it's great.
Find a crush, Find a dream...
Live for it, and then live for staying close to it.
When all it's lots don't give up hope!
|30 Jan 2008||MH Loves You||I met my best friend on this site almost a year ago to only recieve an email today while waiting for my class to start that said my best friend is dead!! im pretty sure it was not suicide but am waiting to hear from another friend to find out more info. we worked through her issues and i shared lots of my personal life with her. i helped her with many things. i do know that even if it was a suicide that she will be better off and that a piece of my life, heart and soul goes with her as she enters into a peaceful rest! RIP Hellen and may god be with you! Thank you for giving me your friendship and am so happy I was able to give you mine! People please understand and realize that death is permanent and that if you need help there is always someone waiting to listen and/or help you! Need to talk talk email please!|
|22 Jan 2008||Jen||I was suicidal at 13 - it was a horrid time. I am now 36 - three 13 year lifetimes have almost passed, and I am BLISSFULLY HAPPY with myself and my life. Life is very hard but we must be patient. The deeper our capacity and understanding of pain the deeper our capacity and undrstanding of joy. You can't even begin to imagine how amazing you will become and how much you can actually love yourself.|
|19 Jan 2008||Phillip||Well from what experience ive had its unclear whats the best way. When I was 13 I went through alot of shit with a girl who I loved (foolishly of course) and she lay ruin to my life, when I brought myself to it I tried slashing my wrists but stopped before I even bled. When I think about it I wish that maybe I had killed myself then, although I know now that wrists slashing has a 5% success rate... -_-
Ever since then I went very dark, everything was depressing, I did things intentialy which brought pain and suffering to myself. I became very paranoid where small things were suddenly attempts at making me sad and the thing is when your paranoid these things seem so realistic.
I become much more emo/goth but it was all because of my emotions. After an incident at my school where I was bullied very badly alongside a friend I hated myself and had to get rid of the emotional pain, and the best way I found was through inflicting physical pain. Many people including my parents have asked me since I first started self-inflicting (after my suicide attempt, im 15 now) where I get some of my poorly covered injuries from and I manage to hide the truth although I suspect people back-chat me and reckon I do.
I thought I was alone for a long time and life seemed very down, as I didnt know what to do or what I was going to do or could do. Things seemed to brighten after I met a girl a few weeks back, who was my first girlfriend for 2 years, she was sado-masochistic and I found that I was too, although she dumped me 2 weeks in.
Since then I find even the most un-sexual pain stimulating, its gotten to the point where I dont know if im burning myself through depression or sexual release. I thought for sure that I was mentaly unstable and that I was so different from everyone. Then I met another girl, whom due to my "raging" hormones I become very strongley attracted to her.
When I told her she was very sorry because she didnt like me but she talked to me about stuff, and I found out that she too had tried commiting suiced on many occasions, and self-inflicted. Were friends now (not good friends because she avoids me so im not hurt so much cause I still like her) and I feel like there is some hope. Her life was pretty fucked up so she tried overdosing. It feels good to be able to tell someone how you feel and they've been through it all aswell. I realy love her and im so worried that she will kill herself.
So realy, if your going to kill yourself, make sure you succeed because if you dont, its hard to hide the scars, both physical and emotional.
|15 Jan 2008||alexis||listen, im 13, i watched my best friend get shot in teh head when i was 10[homocide] let me tell you waking up everyday feeling like crap thinking you dont deserve to live bc it should have been you not him. is so hard. suicide. i think bout it aLL THE TIME. its bad i no, but do u ever just feel lik you have no other choice. i do. and no one can help how i feel. id rather end the pain goodbye|
|10 Jan 2008||Debbie||My brother commited suicide in febuary 07 me and my dad found him. it has ruined my family and my life evryday is a stuggle. Id like to urge ANY 1 who feels in that state of mind to stop and get help der is ALWAYS sum1 who cares even wen u feel theres not!also any1 whos loved 1s say der gna commit suicide get dem help straight away!!! u mite not have another day to help dem!|
|30 Dec 2007||for some troubled||i really really really really and truly need to state something for the record
some parents are actually truly evil
really and truly evil
and they dont deserve to be loved
by the children at least
they absolutely do not deserve to be loved
all these stars always thanking their parents is bullshit
it is mother fucking bullshit
they want to fool you, or me or whatever, into not separating from evil evil people
some parents hate their kids
and it is wrong
it is wrong
wrong wrong wrong
so utterly wrong
i have to say this
because it is true and if i dont say it now ill never have the chance
some parents hate their kids for not having sex with them
it is flat out true
some parents absolutely despise their kids for not having sex with them
they are as evil as anything
and they deserve absolutely no love
|23 Dec 2007||Rach||I tried killing myself when i was 13. Took pills and alchoal(sp) almost did the trick. I've cut my wrists so bad i had to go hospital. same with my boyfriend. suicide couple, eh? but like all of you have had. My life hasn't been great neither! My parents divoiced when i was about 6 Months, never have had a real family. My dad is currently commiting suicide, i don't know what im feeling about that right now. Hes kicked us out. my mum is away for christmas and i get to have it alone. true meaning of christmas dosn't exsist in our family. me and my brother age 20 have no happy memories of a happy christmas. Only my dad going physco. birthdays are crap Neil, brother gets all the family love, i get none. had nothing this year. mum screams at me every day, i can't stop and talk to her anymore. whatever i say is gonig to get her upset of frustrated and im the one she'll take it out on. well thats family life. school life is also shit! :) no friends. no teachers see me, hear me. all they see is the chavs behaving badly once again. i know it sounds pretty weird but i actually wont to learn to get a good job. if i don't get a good job, the whole of my life is going to be bad. my reports from school don't say much neither, mum gets angry.
so overall, i have no dad. Mum wishes she never had me and preferes one of my friends, neil family favioute. rest of my family. Dead. No one to talk to.
|20 Dec 2007||Michelle||First of all I have to say that for you to be younger than 13 and thinking suicide, what is the point.. I am 33, married and have in the past thought of suicide. My brother just 8 years ago did it, he shot himself in the head and it gave him brain damage and he was on a breathing tube until my parents decided to let him go.. Worst thing that could have ever happened to us and him.. Don't do it seek help now.. If you really cared about your family at all you would rethink this.. Trust me it will break an entire family apart fast.. So you think maybe if you are gone that life will go on as usuall, think again. If affects everyone.... Don't be stupid!!!!|
|20 Dec 2007||William||I don't have the answers to the pain that some people suffer, all I know is, suicide isn't the answer. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Get help, talk to somebody, life is great, it just takes a bit of work.
Try reading the lovely book 'A Long Way Down' by Nick Hornby, a group of would-be suicidees who find comfort in each other.
|12 Dec 2007||noone||Dont suicide...not because of hell or bullshit like that, its just an easy way out which has more bad sides than good. If you feel worthless, and scared and alone and not understood, that is because you havnt found the right person to talk to or to know. The fact that you decide to fight with unjustice makes you worthy, the fact that you choose to carry on in the search of a lighter future makes you strong and much more than others. You are mostly blessed if u find the power in your hearts to oppose the pain and to chalange it to the limit. yes it may sound absurd i know that when u are feeling on the edge of suicide...any word is an empty space and anyone is a invisible barrior, but before doing what you have decided, stop, turn arround,look towards the sun...and think, isnt it better just to escape this life to run far away somewere were i will be lost but safe,just to run...and then stop and become someone alse. My advise...use life use the world we live in,dont close in the small group you are in and realise it as everything. Just run far away and you will find happyness.|
|09 Dec 2007||Kimberly Trosvik||To answer the question, "What is a suicide kit?": Basically, it is the perfect storm. Any number of everyday items can become weapons, and these combined with depression are a suicide 'kit'.
How do i know this? My little brother, Tommy, killed himself at age 12 because of bullying. he never told anyone, least of all my parents. He was always such a happy, loving boy, always trying to put a smile on your face. He was smart, he got good grades, and was learning algebra in the sixth grade. Tommy's death shocked everyone who knew him. His whole grade showed up at his funeral. I will always wonder what he would look like, now.
To all of you pondering suicide: I'm sure you've heard this all before, "shoutouts" from other suicide survivors telling you not to do it. I'm not going to say that. Instead, think about this: The American Psychiatric Association ranks the trauma of losing a loved one to suicide as "catastrophic", as in, family members of suicide victims will go through the same psychological trauma as someone who survived a concentration camp.
There used to be "honorable" suicides in ancient Japan, but today, suicide is purely selfish. For those who think they hurt so bad that they can't keep living, I'd like to see you talk to someone who survived a concentration camp. Perhaps then, you might see that as much pain as you think you feel, if you kill yourself, your family and friends will go through ten times as much pain, and it will hurt every day for the rest of their lives.
So, if you are thinking about committing suicide, first think about how much pain you will inflict on the people who love you.
My father is a firefighter, and when he found my little brother, none of his training could bring him back. When i returned home for Tommy's funeral, I found my father, who used to joke that he was really Superman at his day job, laying on the floor next to his bed, sobbing, frail and broken because he couldn't save his own son. Even though I wasn't there the night Tommy died, every night I see the image of my mother at the hospital, holding my brother's body, rocking and crying, and I have to push that image out of my head so I can fall asleep.
the last time I saw my little brother was a month before he killed himself, while I was home for christmas break. Now the only time I can see him is when I'm lucky enough to see him in my dreams, where he is forever a 12 year old boy who likes to taunt me until I hold him down and tickle him until he can't take it anymore.
God I miss him.
|07 Dec 2007||Denise||Well here is what you and people like you need to know. Yes, you'll end your pain but you'll inflict pain on your parents, brothers and sisters, your friends and everyone around you. How do I know this? I'm a survivor of my son's Ron's suicide after he killed his self following a break up with his girl friend. Ron died in 1993 from a gunshot wound to the head from a .22 caliber rifle. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him and cry. My life has been completely torn up since that day on Feb. 1, 1993 and will never be the same till the day I die! There are days when I feel like joining him. Yes, life has dealt me a lot of crap also. My husband couldn't handle Ron's death either and he covered his pain by drinking his self stupid, to the point that we divorced. Ron's two sisters have lots of emotional problems and there was a period of time they had either attempted suicide but now they seem to be past it all after years of therapy. Their therapist said that most of their problems were caused from the grief caused by losing their brother from suicide and their in ability to handle it on their own. So don't end your life and go get help now! The life you will save will not only be yours but the ones around you.|
|04 Dec 2007||Rebeckah||Let me tell you all now... i used to hate my dad. he and mum were getting a divorce, he had a girlfriend who i didn't get on with and other STUPID reasons that dont mean shit now.
He killed himself on the 20th september 2007 and i have never forgiven myself. he didn't tell anyone he was going to do it and it came as a complete shock. i wish i could change the past and get to him a few hours before it happened and tell him how much i love him but i cant. i realise now that all the things i was angry with him for were ridiculous as i have learnt now he is the nicest man i will ever know. im 17 years old and for the rest of my life i will live in regret.
Joking about suicide in this way is sick it affects people in many different ways. If you guys are submitting blogs as jokes...you are sick and you need help. If you are serious about ending your life i hope my story will change your mind and i beg for you to get help in any way you can. TELL SOMEONE.
This is something that i think i could have changed and i will be eternally living in regret.
|03 Dec 2007||well whats the point in saying dont kill yourself please dont cause quite frankly ur not going to listen cause you want it so much, it is your day its your night u eat sleep n breath it so why dont you swallow around 60 paracetomol easy to do but fucking painful when your kidneys and liver begin to fail. try choacking yourself hey its not possible so you cant do it. try hanging but if you change your mind theres no way out. try jumping from large heights but its not fool proof you could end up living paralyzed really what im getting at is its not worth it it starts out at first as a suicide attempt and slowly you get addicted it becomes an impulsion like cutting your wrists ar taking drugs believe me i know i was firstly diagnosed at 9yrs old and im now 17 8 years on and its still hell but i have to face one thing alot dont i cant be cured my impulsions take over and theres nothing i can do its too late for me dont let it be for you|
|01 Dec 2007||in hell already||I wish i can tell what is the best way to kill oneself when you're under 13. I mean there are all these difficulties - parents, school, relatives and friends. They don't particularly understand you or care to, but they certainly care enough to take their precious time to say or do something hurtful to you. They don't think as far as wondering whether what they've said or done affected your emotions, or hurt your feelings. They don't have time to think of you as a human being like themselves. And parents only tell you to do what they don't do. Be good, strong, dont cry, complain. Don't have anything good to say, say nothing. Be smart, don't argue. God, does that piss me off. I tried to end my life a few times when i was 12-14. failed. Took some pills i didn't know what they were, ended up throwing up for the next day or so. Tried to slit my wrists, but couldn't cut deep enough. Something in me says no, i can't. I am 22 now and feel as horrible as ever! Talking about suicide pisses other people off. The few times i tried it ended up in having people get angry at me. Apparently that means that they care, but god does it make it worse in my head! they care about the other part of me, not the one that is in pain and needs help. Now that the suicide is the only thing on my mind i can't talk to people about other things. Keeping my head above the water is too much of an effort. My resourses are run out. I've done my part in fulfilling my duty as a daughter. I've finished education with satisfaction. Most people seem to respect me now. I'm independant. Nobody's bullying me. And i just want to dissapear. Walk out. I have looked and prayed and cried for life purpose, reason, and nothing. I got "adopted" and was loved and then got kicked out for being so depressive and miserable. It doesn't get better. I am waiting for time when there's not going to be anybody whom i could do anything for. When i can leave the fear that there may be something else i could do in my life which i would regret not doing had i walked out now.
I can't give advise on suicide, but nor can i give advise on life. I can only say that if you are there, people for whom death is right there facing them, within a hand reach, then i am not alone and nor are you. Because we're on the same spot. Death is one but there's more than one of us.
Is this right?
|27 Nov 2007||combat barbie||hey all i never thought that i would have ever thought about taking my own life, but i did and the other night i almost went through with it. it was hard but i thought about all the accomplishments that i have made, i mean i have a daughter and a beautiful one at that, ive been to iraq and i made it back alive. i was a good soldier and a great mom and for a minute i almost let that all go. i want to thank everyone for their support, al the emails and the concer from people that i dont even know. it was amazing! a life changing experience. thank you all! if anyone is thinking about commiting suicide please dont its really not worth it! there are people to help!|
|27 Nov 2007||ian||I am 21, my first memories of feeling depressed date to the fifth grade. I had thoughts of hurting myself, and other schoolmates in the seventh grade. Since then, the only progress made is now I don't want to hurt anybody but myself, because it is not right or fair to hurt somebody else. The only happiness I found was a 2 year long relationship, I put so much into it that when I was dumped suddenly I never dated, or attempted to again. I have no desire for sex, children, love, relationships, companionship. I can have the greatest day, with everyone being nice, with me receiving positive reinforcement, love from others, money, whatever it may be. And I will still go home and feel empty, sad, unappreciated. I am too paranoid, others are not nice to me because they want to be, but because they feel they have to be, or don't want to directly insult me. I know I am smart, I have always been, and I have thought logically about life and death. Why go on when, even when I get exactly what I want, it is never enough? I can't help the greed I feel, I can't help the chemical imbalance that causes my depression and anxiety. Everytime I feel I do the right thing, I end up regretting it. I'm glad for the experiences I've had since my first suicide contemplation, and I know there will be many more good times to be had, but do I want to bother with them? Should I wait for them to happen? Are they worth experiencing when I'm just going to cry about it the first chance I get? I can be happy, with nothing going wrong, then a few minutes later, for no reason at all, I will want to hide myself away, in a small room alone, and cry. I sneak into the bathroom at work sometimes just so nobody will see me break apart. I've opened up to "good friends", I've been so psychiatrists, I've taken the meds, and nothing works. Nothing seems to free me of this. I'd rather not feel anything at all, than feel the feelings (good and bad) of life. I've been used by others to get closer to other people I know, for my material possessions, as a last resort, for comedic purposes, all unappreciated in the end. I will call or text friends who I see regularly, and not so regularly, just to ask how they are doing. I have never had anyone do that for me. I can't bear to be close with my family, I can't bear to have those connections. They have never expressed love for me, even if they do, I will never express love for them, even if I do. I know my suicide would hurt them, but, because of how I am, I somehow don't care. I have given and given, but never received. I only found happiness once, and now I can never trust enough to get into that situation again. I don't believe in religion, and if I'm wrong, oh well, I'll burn in Hell, but there's so many contradictions of the Bible, so many OTHER religions/societies with the exact same stories that the Bible stole (the story of Jesus has been told millions of times with other prophets), so no Bible quotes or religious reasoning will change me. I tried to accept Jesus once, and it was a complete joke. I am not sure if, or when I will kill myself, but I think about it daily. And a train seems to be the most sure way to do it, I've never heard of anyone surviving standing in the middle of an Amtrak's path.|
|26 Nov 2007||seasha2003||Sometimes life sucks, but whether you relize it or not there is always someone who cares or you taking your own life will affect someone. It may not seem like it but there is. It could be friend, a teacher, co-worker, a class mate that you did not know that they even knew you. Believe it or not there are always people worse off then you are. I had a friend that tried to commit suicde because her husband left her for something she did wrong in their marriage that was bad enough for her to try and leave her ex-husband and her 2 kids behind. Personally I have had a lot worse happen to me. I was rapped,I had my jaw broken, a knife to my throat and lived in an abusive relationship for 5 yrs. On top of that the guy I was in an abusive relationship with was abusive to one of our kids. I have been away from my kids for about 5 months do to my job. I dont know when the next time I will to get to see them. Bottom Line someone always has it worse, you may not think so. The one thing that got me through and still gets me through is knowing that one person cares. You may not know them, but someone does and if they didn't you wouldn't have people on here saying it's not worth it. People care.|
|25 Nov 2007||MOM SNOW||you precious tormented children ....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH IN LIFE ...THE HURTS TEARS AND SUFFERING BUT ALSO THE HAPPINESS OF RAISING CHILDREN ..AND KNOWING HOW TO LOVE AND FORGIVE THINGS PEOPLE DO AT TIMES TO HURT YOU...LIFE HAS ITS GOOD AND BAD THINGS .IT TAKES GUTS TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD ..BUT AS YOU GET OLDER YOU LOOK BACK AND REMEMBER YOUR THOUGHTS OF WANTING TO TAKE YOUR LIFE..AND THEN THANK GOD YOU DIDN'T ..YOUR SPECIAL AND YOUR LOVED ...NO MATTER WHAT ..GOD LOVES YOU ...BELIEVE IT OR NOT.....I GREW UP BEING AN UNWANTED CHILD..BUT I DIDN'T SIT IN A CORNER AND COMPLAIN OR EVEN THINK OF KILLING MYSELF...I WAS PUT IN ONE FOSTER HOME AFTER ANOTHER...BUT KIDS , I MADE I BY KEEPING BUSY ..HAVING GOOD FRIENDS THEN CHILDREN OF MY OUN....MUCH TO MY SHOCK AND SURPRISE MY OLDEST SON SHOT AND KILLED HIMSELF...HE WAS SPERATED FORM HIS WIFE AND KEPT TRYING TO MAKE UP.....HIS HURT WAS SO BAD HE TOOK THIS WAY OUT TO HEAL HIS PAIN..BUT HE WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE LOVED AND CARED FOR HIM ...BROKEN HEARTS DO MAKE PEOPLE DO THINGS LIKE THIS..(KILLING THEMSELVES) BUT ITS NOT THE ANSWER FOR PROBLEMS...GETTIING HELP AND TALKING TO SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP YOU IS THE BEST THING....THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE YOU CAN TALK TO..GO TO YOUR PRIEST OT PASTOR ..BUT PUT THOUGHTS OUT OF YOUR MIND OF KILLING YOURSELF AS ITS NOT THE ANSWER...LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS ....GOD DOSEN'T MAKE JUNK AND WHEN HE MADE YOU HE MADE SOMEBODY SPECIAL..THERES NOONE JUST LIKE YOU...AND YOU WILL LIVE FOREVER ..IT DEPENDS ON YOUR CHOISES HERE ON EARTH..AND YES MY DEAR CHILDREN OF ANY AGE , YOU WILL LIVE IN HEAVEN OR HELL....GOD IS REAL .....WHEN I HEAR SOME OF YOU CURSING ..I SEE AN ANGRY HURTING PERSON.....THIS IS HOW MY SON GOT...HE WAS ANGRY AT EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY...GOD DIDN'T PROMICE US A ROSE GARDEN HERE ..BUT HE DID GIVE US STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH THE BAD TIMES ...I WILL PRAY FOR YOU ALL AND WISH I WAS THERE TO HUG EACH ONE OF YOU TO GIVE YOU COURAGE TO FACE YOUR HURT AND NOT GIVE UP....YEAH LIFE DOSEN'T SEEM FAIR AS I LEARNED THIS PAST WEEK LOOSING MY SON IN SUCH AN AWFUL WAY...BUT NOW I HAVE TO TRY GO ON WITHOUT THAT BEAUTIFUL MAN....MY PRECIOUS SON) SO BE BRAVE NOW AND P[ICK YOURSELF UP ,WIPE THE TEARS FROM YOU EYES AND BE BRAVE TO FACE TOMORROW...GOD BLESS YOU AND HOPE YOUR GOING TO BE OK ..I May not know you but i will still pray for you....mom snow|