|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|03 Jun 2008||kf||weither you want to believe it or not, i have had thoughts of dieing since the first grade. i remember spacificly what i had done one day in that class, till this day i strugle. I was looking up the easiest way to die, and i came across this site. I have attempted suicide a couple years ago, in ninth grade, although my parents still dont know, i still live with the consiquenses. Ive been picked on and assulted since elementery school for being overweight, in special education classes, and even just liking the things i like. Ive had technically two boyfriends both fucked up freaks, (trust me if you knew them you'd agree), in high school i had a crush on my friend who she constently had asked me out, saying she was by and leading me on, till the last day of school where she told me she was only playing around with me, she was never bi and that she could never date any one like me. I now have a fiance, who should be visiting from the uk on the 10th. but things have been going horribly wrong, I am not elligible for finacial aid, my job(now second for same reason) is basicly harrasing me yet not enough to go to corp. for,my mother is worse then ever now that shes collecting unemplyoment and staying home everyday for abount a monh and a half now(shes been with her company for 11 years and now all of assuden they "got rid" of her postion), my mother is bi polar and in denial and always blames me for things i havent done or for not getting straight A's and honor roll like her; My real father when i was an infent, had kidnapped me for about two months, (mom got me back, but weekend coustody with my father continued), he had basicly abandoned me for his girlfriend when i was 13. when my parents were together, it was an abusive relationship. Around 3 or so my mother was with my step-father. He is sometimes nice to me now. Hes angered easily, his cultural up bringing has brought him into believeing that women are low, bet their children and they tell the woman what to do. Although i have been around him since i was 3 i still feel uneasy and unconfertable with him. up until sixth grade i had no friends, literaly no one, my best friend was in eighth grade whilst i was in sixth. we're still friends. Ive been with my fiance about 1 year and four months now. i met him on xbox360 playing Phantasy Star. he lives in the uk as i had mentioned and i live in the us. I know what hes doing and where hes at pretty much all of the time. recently hes been kind of nitching at me, critising and useing fat jokes(ive told him not to on many occasions). Im also rather paranoid, to be honest i dont think anyone has acctualy read this far and im sorry if im have been annoying, and some what boring.
i had an episode that i have never encountered before a couple months ago, only my fiance and i know about it. he had started stating i was controling his life and that i was ruinging the night.aparently he didnt even relise what was happening until i had emailed him what he said a few nights later. I lost it i couldnt stop shaking all i could say was im sorry and rock back and forth. for maybe a hour to an hour and a half he had left video chat,thats when it all started to happen. i had gotten tremors which i couldnt tell if it was from stress or due to the complications from the ninth grade. i felt like i hurt him, i made him angery. after an hour and a half he had sent me a video chat invite, and then noticed what was happening, i started to be more responcive after he tried to help me. i couldnt stop saying sorry and i didint stop shaking until next day.
ever since i could rememeber i can here my mom yelling my name, its very clear, i would here it and then id ask her if she callled and she said no, theres been times where my ears would start ringing and id go blind for a moment. i dont understand anything anymore, ive just been getting more andmore depressed and i feel like i might do something.
|30 May 2008||Tim||Hi, I would like to tell you that suicide is not a good solution to resolve problems. I did feel like commiting suicide when I felt unloved, uncared for and its like nobody bothers to help me solve my problem, no one who cares to hear my sadness and burdens in my heart. I also tend to search for emo pictures to describe myself. But you see, the thing is that, if one keeps on telling himself/herself that he/she is no good, keep telling him/herself that is sick almost everyday, eventually, the person will become sick or emotional overtime.
As you know, we always think that no body cares or loves us, but we were wrong, there are people who does care for us and love us. But it is just that we refuse to believe that they care. I give you an example. Let's say a friend loves you alot and cares for you so much, but the problem is that we do not notice their love for us and take them for granted. Then you come to a point where you are upset and cannot find the meaning in life, the only thing you can think of is suicide. You try ways and means to make yourself happy but you end up in a much deeper pit and you will start to have stress accumulating. Then you will become depressed and the thing you can only think of is suicide. Well, let me tell you this. The people that you think do not care for you are actually the ones that care for you the most.
If you kill yourself, what do you think your friends and loved ones will feel? They will definately feel sad and will be feeling strange. They might ask, why did he/she die, was it my fault, so please think for others as well as think for yourself. Dont hurt yourself as it will definately hurt your loved ones ok?
Take care of yourself.
|11 May 2008||wickedest ruler ever.||i am finding everyday the world is a darker, greedy-er, more violent, coldd hearted place to live. especially america. president bush i just want to know, since you stated on telivision your deep concern for saudi arabia's freedom. however, genocide is much worse. and what aid did you send those people in africa? not enough oil in it mr. bush?
men like president bush make me want to kill myself. what kind of leader are you? selling out your own country men, sending them to fight a war for you and your peoples bank accounts to grow. do you realize mr. bush you have sold your nation out as whores?
i used to work in a homeless shelter mr. bush. you had a letter sent that was hanging on the wall. it said what an outstanding job this orginization was doing, yet you had never been there, and the signature that was yours was actually done by a printer. no money was given by you or your government agencies or in fact any government agencys. you send a letter you didnt even write or read or touch and many go hungry and homeless. yet you mr. bush own a company selling petrol prouducts to japan where it is then redistributed thru the world. i wonder where all that is originating from.
oh and you forgot to tell the world the truth about osama and sadam. that they wherent really close buddies like you made them out to be.
mr. bush i have heard countless lies spew from your mouth while you are in office. martha stewart went to prison for being a liar TO THE GOVERNMENT.
you lie to the people mr. bush. we the people. remember that?
you are the worst president the united states has ever seen mr. bush.
|10 May 2008||tired of diapers||I am in my mid20s an I have to wear diapers because of a injury that happened but not in a clinical way. because everything goes down bad in my life i am going to kill myself. i have had enough diaperwearing, and enough crap. bye|
|04 May 2008||notspookypenguin||Do not listen to any song written by Connor Oberst! In the last week it is all I've been listening to. Needless to to say all I've done in the last week is abuse prescription pain killers and chain smoke...
I fucking miss her so much.
|04 May 2008||rotting in hell||u guys shouldnt kill urself.....life is to valuable to waste time being depressed and killing urself is not the answer.......so please dont kill urself
if u wanna talk email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
|30 Apr 2008||Rico||I was there once, in that dark horrible lonely place, wishing every day was my last. I fantasied for years about how to kill my self from the age of about 8-13. I was bullied, teased, victimised and generally a figure of fun. I was in a school full of toffs where it was the norm to be good at everything and try your hardest. I however could not. I wanted to sometimes just to fit in a bit better, I was made to do some stuff to another kid in my first year aged 7 and this hauted me for the rest of my school life. I not only wanted to kill myself but also the S**T who was 13 who made me do it. I then went to another school aged 13 and life was better, I was still misbehaved but fitted in much better. I suppose what I'm trying to say is no matter how lonely you are feeling there is always some good just round the corner, so never give up because you will miss out on alot of good stuff ahead.|
|17 Apr 2008||never u mind lol||this is pathetic !! ive had people in my family who killed themsalves and i know wat its like to loose a loved one!!!people who kill themselves are sad because they dont think about their freinds or family and how much pain ure gonna put them through !!
i aint long lost a close one who killed himself and seeing the state of his mother was really bad !!
and not long ago his baby was born u lot r sad and pathetic imagine wat ure family and mates will be going through just talk to some one trust me it helps alot just take care of ure lifes at the end ov the day u r only young and ure life is only now starting TALK TO SUM1 AN THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE U LOVE AND WHO LOVE U !!!
take care xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
|16 Apr 2008||cant say||my girlfriend killed herself a few years ago there isnt a day i dont think of her it has ruined my life to the point of being suicidal myself i canot go on anymore i have tryed not to feel like this but i cant help myself i been to the doctors he said get over it . ive spoke to the samaratans and that didnt help ive tried no one can help me no one ime gona do it tonight|
|16 Apr 2008||jeni lou (18)||I wudnt no i tried at 14 and my way was a boz of asprin it wud have killed me but my mate fwd me and rushed me in to hopsical i was so dtermined i ran out and fwd my way home from thr eventaully i dont no how but i must have been fwd i woke up back in hospical but ive tried so many time when u can drive best way i no which ive planned and my sucide is set out readi date and notes and place ect is carbon monxide poisionising i had it as a child at bout 4 and well i choose that after years of planning and trying its my perfect and definate sucide so wait!!!!! enjoy teh next few eyars and plan it why u waiting so u get it rite when u do then get ur licence ect set it up date readi
tehn on teh day if u wnat to
do it if not
leave teh stuff in ur bott u can always do it tmz
|10 Apr 2008||dep||Best way to commit suicide? I wish I knew. Most of the time I try not to think about it, other times it overwhelms and I really wish I had the answer. Like today, when it seems to hard to manage alone but anyone I talk to doesn't make me feel better.
But there doesn't seem to be a best way. There isn't an easy way. Wouldn't it be nice if we could just choose to go to sleep and not wake up the next day, if that's what we really wanted?
|08 Apr 2008||hat||HOLD ON!!!!
I have been a teenager, I still Am (19) and i know how hard it can be growing up... NO ONE can understand you because you are young and do NOT understand YOURSELF YET...YET...YET !!!! Life is a discovery of this!!!!!!
i am still figuring it out... with many ups and downs but focusing on the ups when im down and KNOWING that an up will come around eventually!!!!
ALSO that someONE loves you... you may not even be aware of this because you feel so TERRIBLE about yourself....
but they do!
so hang in there in those delicate teenage years!
|07 Apr 2008||SANGVINA /Just another looser /||I posted here about a year ago, nothing changed, things got worse, I don't live, I'm surviving from one day to another, fuck it all!!! and you know what? nothing will ever gonna be the way before, I wanna vomit, I'm sick of myself, of my alcoholic parents, I'm sick of my life it's living hell...and for you, lost soul one good advice in the end never mess with occlutism and heroine it'll destroy u peace with u|
|05 Apr 2008||Archy||I'm 19 and have been suicidal since I was 13 or 14. Not allot has changed.
I have allot of reasons, I was raised in a house with a mother who was severly ill and constantly in and out of the hospital. Taking all kinds of drugs that made her spew blood. She died when I was eight and left our household in massive debt. My perectly normal, happy friend alex hung himself in grade 10, only 16 years old. No note. I've been seriously bullied for most of my life and have even had my entire hand fractured... I made up a lie saying I had done it. But even all these seemingly good reasons arent the reason why I'm suicidal.
I can't get a job no matter how hard I try so I attempt to make up for it by working twice as hard at home. Basically renovating the place alone.
And although these do make me sad, its not the reason i'm suicidal. I can put up with it, i was raised to.
The truth is sometimes their is no reason for it. and yes, it means I keep to myself and my only friend and loved one is a 14 year old cat. I'm still alive. and that has to count for something. I'm not telling you what to do or what not to do. I'm not that kind of person. The only thing I know is that I'm still alive and surviving.
|05 Apr 2008||DeNae|| LOOK RIGHT IVE HAD A FUCKED UP LIFE,,,MY DAD BEAT ME AGE 7-12.I HAD NO LOVE.I MOVED TO BALTIMORE N MY MOMMY WAS A CRACK HEAD...MY UNCLE LOOKS AT ME LIKE IM A PEICE OF MEAT OR SOMTHING.I HAVE NO BOYFREIND. IVE HAD PROBLEM WITH FREINDS OFTEN..IVE KICKED A COUPLA ASSES JUS TO MAKE MY STRESS LEAVE.I DONT HAVE sEVEN BRAND JEANS IM NOT RICH.
BUT IDIDNT KILL MY SELF N LOOK WAT HAPPENED- I LET GO OF THOSE FAKE ASS FREINDS AND HAVE 5 BEST FREINDS.
-MY MOMMYS IN REHAB
- I GOTTA LIL BOYFREIND
-I HAVE A 3.0 GPA
- IM SEMI HAPPY
IM 17 YEARS OLD
EMAIL ME IF U WANNA EXPRESS YOUR SELF OR A SITUATION THAT NEEDS HELP
|03 Apr 2008||Karliee||People Call Me Stupid For What I Am Doing I Slit My Wrists Cause Wnt To Die I Read On The web sliting yur wrists is number "8" in he asyest ways to comit suiside :D when i foundout i got exited cause it sed "it is ping and will happen slowly as your are losing loads of blood and is making it diffecult for your heart to cntinue " .. once i ead ths i was sliting my wrists a while befor and i fort "ive been sliting for ages naw if i continue it wont be long" then a mounth went past .. teo mounths .. three mounth nuthin was happening .. four mounths .. five mounths i sarted to feel faint all te time adhad a lot ofblank outs.. six mounts .. Seven mounths.. i got rushed into hospital .. but for some resson i was exited . i wanted to die :D i ovesit soo MUCH UNTIL !! I Found outid befine i cryed and cryed and cryed fort why did they have to sve me they ruiened my dream of being deadd !!!:'(|
|01 Apr 2008||Marc||Everybody stop! I posted on this website years ago when I was depressed. I didn't know what to do, I hated my life, and I wanted to kill myself. I even got kicked out of school because somebody found my post on this website. four years later I've learned something about life that I would like to share with you suicidals. First things first, for those of you who think that there might be one last chance for someone before you kill yourself. I'm not a self righteous guy, but I believe that me and you should talk. Email me. I'll tell you my life story, and trust me, you'll want to have tissues present. And if your comfortable, you tell me your life story. Tell me whats wrong and I promise I won't just judge you because four years ago I was slicing my wrists with a razor blade. I just never cut deep enough. I have the scars to prove it if you want to see them. My AIM screen name is fatherxix and my email Is Fatherxix@gmail.com I don't want you to kill yourself, however if you need help to slice deeper or pull the trigger, or jump or something to chase all those pills you swallowed, Alcohol. Lots of it. It isn't called liquid courage for marketing reasons. Seriously though for everyone ewlse that would like to talk, Fatherxix is my AIM. Fatherxix@gmail.com is my email, Marc B. Anthony is my facebook, Myspace.com/gotohellguys is my myspace. Unfortunately there is no other way to contact me via the internet. However if are a genuine person and can contact me any other way and are serious about killing yourself we can talk via phone|
|01 Apr 2008||bRIAN||The best way I have figured out as far as painless goes is to don't include blood. At least for me, ending my life is as a relief that I can't wait to experience. There is nothing that i can say to change anybodys mind. LOTS of Xnx, Dixopn, and alcohol. That will do it. I don't want any person to to do it, but if your gonna do it might as well to it right the first time. Who ever reads this i plead not to follow through with it. It's not worth it. Especially when they are sticking that huge tube down your throat and it hurts like hell. iT GETS BETTER.|
|01 Apr 2008||Megan.||I'm only 14 and you probebly wont believe me when I say it but, I would say the best way to kill yourself is to not. Trust me, its better. I've attempted suicide 13 times and for some reason I'm still alive. When I think about it, I realize what I'm leaving behind me, my friends, and the people who love me. Sometimes I feel like they dont love me, and I often feel that way all the time. I dont want to whine about whats happened to me, whats happened, happened, its how I feel now that makes it worse. I hate waking up every day and seeing the smiling faces of everyone, you see how they really feel, you can see if there hurt, or if there happy, but for some reason, my best friend cant understand how i feel. I told her how I was feeling, she cant tell I feel it now. Its not even been a year since I told her. She doesnt understand that I'm asking for her help. Now I know killing myself cant help, but just thinking about how nice it would be to not feel any of this. I still stand by my statement, just dont, just imagine how you will leave your family. Like some people stories tell of how bad there family life it, imagine how they would take it, your family would go deeper into there bad habits. I find it would be horrible to leave my family in a worse state than now, but anyways, just think about it.|
|21 Mar 2008||Javier Duran||Well, the last time I posted on Mouchette, I was pretty much an asshole.
I have a beautiful girlfriend now.
And I'm turning 14 in June.
Life got much better for me.
Much, much better.
Then, I got arrested for Possession of Marijuana.
I still felt life was boring.
I have all these girls that love me.
I have my whole family that love me.
I have all my friends that love me.
And I let them all down...
I just wanted to try it out, 1 joint cant hurt?
I got caught by miracle, long story, don't worry about it.
But I qualified for Civil Sitation and I'm doing my hours as we speak.
Life got really bad after that, again.
Everyone thinks differently of me now, as if I'm the worlds biggest pothead..
None of my teachers trust me now..
I still have all the girls in love with me..
But I can't do anything about them because I have a girlfriend and I love her to Death.
And, idk, life seems pretty empty now.
I look back in life and I remember seeing myself in the future being something.
And now I can't see that anymore..
I feel like I'm going to fail in life.
Thats not what I want....
I'm pretty suicidal now
Really really suicidal...
I just need someone to talk to besides my girlfriend, or my family and friends.
Someone who might understand what type of mind fuck I'm going through in my life right now...
Please, talk to me
MSN : Ultimatesin380@hotmail.com
AIM : Purplesinmonkey
In all that is good, grand, and peace,