Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.

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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?

Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
25 Oct 2006 Chrissy I justed wanted to say dont give up.
I have felt really low of late and I know that I wont commit suicide it would be to devastating for my already long suffering family.

I for a long time saw myself as a joke, someone not worth two carrots.I wanted to prove something to the world and say that I had a right to be here and I left my home to go to university. It has been the hardest Thing I ever did. I become isolation cutting myself of from old friends who I saw as part of my problem of going nowhere in life.

Most of all I wanted respect but which could be gained in a way that made me something individual - I would join the un having been in a society at univeristy and wanting to help people I found the most pluristic and worldy body that could help me achieve this.

My lack of descent education has been my strongest barrier on this journey. My desire for the UN has waned as I believe I had recovered from my depression. However depression is an on going battle and can not be cured, that doenst mean to say you dont have a life it just means keeping an eye on things and getting to place where you can fucntion.

I found it very hard on my return to univeristy so many faces, so many opinions so many noises all out of my control, control had become a key word for me a key place to be to at least feel in control. Of course you cant control every utside influence the noisy drunks, the opinion of a rather annoying women in a lecture. Everthing seems to become subjective and if you find issue with someone or something which has seemingly no bearing on reality you are deemed to rude. However it does have a bearing on your reality and perhaps its impossible to friends or agree and have a nice day all the time thats for sure. What is important is the ability to get rid of yoru frustrations and feel like you are accept and at least ackoweledged within the working environment you dwell. I took lectures so serioulsy last year. I was competitive and wouldnt let soem things go, I felt intimidated by the younger members , the young bucks, ignored by the females and dealt with as a 'interesting case' by the lecturers.
I anaysled everything and everybody to even say hello became a life and death situation.The consequences of which could be catashopic to the world I was attempting to feel comfortable in.

And now I live with two guys, I dont know them and I feel unwilling to give enough of myself to ever feel comfortable with them. What happens if they something I dissaprove of ? what happens if they say something to offend me ? well they ahvent as of yet by I am obbessed about social dynamics and have been sicne sitting in my lecturers for the first time on this particular course.

Good luck and keep fighting
23 Oct 2006 nameless I was apprehensive of posting my opinion about anything at first because who wants to be responsible for someone else’s beliefs or actions, but then I stopped and thought about it, and I figure in the end, I'm not the one pushing the button, so I'll take a chance and voice what I'm thinking.

I find it interesting about how some people here are putting an age-limit to when a person should wait to commit suicide. I'm not going to say that younger people who want to commit suicide should wait or not, but it definitely seems like there's some level of maturity that a person should reach before they make such a huge decision. Then again, I'm 28 and I've wanted to die since I was 15. Waiting to live more life hasn't exactly changed my world perspective on things. So, now you're saying to yourself, "If you've been suicidal for so long, then why haven't you killed yourself at some point." Just to clarify, I said that I've wanted to die since I was 15, not that I've been suicidal since I was 15. Don't get me wrong. I've had plenty of suicidal bouts, but they tend to be short lived.

There’re two major reasons I don't off myself. One is the same reason a lot of the life-resenting people here haven't killed themselves yet either; this fear of hurting others. I know what it's like to pray to God that someone kills you or to die in some accident to alleviate yourself of responsibility of hurting those around you. Yeah, I hear ya. It’s a harsh thing to just wait to die. The second reason I’ll get to later. So, in the end, the reason I came across this site was because I’m finally getting to the point where I’m feeling real desperate. There’s this whole, “I really want to die,” thing going on, and this, “But I can’t hurt the people around me,” issue. So I’ll go ahead and explain my story (the religious ones will definitely love this story).

I don’t want to die because I’ve been abused. I don’t want to die because I’ve been hurt. I don’t want to die because I want to be with someone that’s passed on to the other side. I want to die because, like so many of you agree, life is meaningless. Here’s an interesting story; a true story. So it’s winter Feb. 18, 1988. I was nine years old, almost ten. I was getting ready to walk with my little sister to the bus stop to go to school, and I decide to slide on the ice at the end of my driveway. So, I slide on the ice, and meanwhile, the neighbor at the end of his street is driving his daughter to the bus stop. I look up and there’s the bumper of his Ford F150. At some point I blacked out, and I came to a minute later, and the front passenger tire of his truck is lying right along my rib-cage, but I’m not crushed. I think everyone has a single defining moment in their lives, and for me, it’s this, and I’ll explain why.

I’ve got a problem with surviving getting hit square-on by a truck like that and living. Hell, all I got was a scratch on my ankle. I remember later that year during the holiday season, my mom was like, “You should be thankful you’re alive.” I also remember not thinking much of it. I find it interesting how you’ll hear stories about how people will come close to dying, and they end up living and are like, “Thank God. I’m going to live every day to the fullest, I’m so thankful to be alive.” Not me. No. Five years later, I’m thinking about ways to kill myself and cutting myself up and shit like that. And so, I take a chance, and I swallow a bottle of sleeping pills, and I wake up eight hours later. And so, I take a gun, and point it at my head, and pull the trigger, but the damn thing misfires. (The second reason I don’t attempt suicide is because it seems like it just doesn’t work, at least for me). You see what I’m getting at here. I believe in God, but I’m not entirely happy with this situation, indeed I’m not.

You see, my perspective on all of this is that I’m cursed. I’ve come to the conclusion that God hates me, and that this “life” is punishment for some sin that I committed, but I have not idea what that sin was. I’ve come to the conclusion that I actually died that day I was hit by that truck. I’ve come to the conclusion that considering that fact that my attempts to end my own life have been futile, there’s no hope for escaping this “life”. And the thing that chaps my ass the most is that I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN, and that I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I DID to deserve this existence.

I live in this world where life is obviously worthless. I live in this world, where the fortunate piss away what advantages have been granted to them, and treat their own lives like they were meaningless by indulging in vice, “because they can,” and not doing anything to better themselves because, “they don’t need to.” I live in a world where people around me treat their neighbors’ lives as if they were worthless. People that have no problem threatening or hurting a person for their own gain. People that would lie cheat and steal with absolutely no regard for how it is that their actions affect the people around them. People who rape and abuse and kill. People who have no problem having prejudices against a certain demographic of people for whatever bullshit reason. People that are like, “I hate Jews,” or,”I hate blacks,” or, “I hate fags”, or,”I hate Muslims.” Kill’em all right? What horse-shit. And it’s these same fuckers that would dare to tell me that life is worth living. These ignorant, stupid sons o’ bitches that have the gall to treat each other and themselves the way they do, and to turn around and tell me that life is precious. Sorry, buddy, the way you lead your life reinforces the fact that life is worthless. And my punishment, MY PUSHISHMENT FROM GOD is to have to exist in this world with people like that.

And for all you God and Jesus fan-boys out there, I believe in God and Christ. Oh yeah. I believe. How could I not. Think about the ways that I’ve tried to kill myself and here I am. Oh yeah. It makes more sense to chalk it up to divine intervention than to sheer coincidence (that’s just my take on things). But you know that means. The worst part about living this life, the worst part about being “saved by God,” means only one thing. That God didn’t save me. Oh no. What it means is that God didn’t want me in His heaven. The perfect opportunity to die when I was an innocent nine year old and God didn’t want me then. And here I am, almost 20 years later, suffering this life (as a sinner no less) because I didn’t die that day. Here I am, having to witness this world, and having to know these people that live in it, and it’s definitely Hell. The reason I don’t attempt suicide is not because I’m afraid of eternal damnation, oh no. This is damnation. This is damnation because unlike most people, I KNOW God hates me. It’s the only thing that makes sense. And that’s the thing that hurts the worst. See, when I imagine a stereotypical Hell, I imagine these demons tearing at my flesh and burning my skin and the smell of sulfur. No. That’s nothing. That’s nothing compared to the hurt I feel believing in God, and knowing that the God that I love so very much will never reciprocate that love back to me, and in fact does quite the opposite.

Life is difficult to live. We have to work hard and be honest and make ends meet from day to day, and try to be good to others. It’s hard carrying that weight. And that’s how I try to live. But every time I try to have hope and every time I try to have dreams it’s quashed immediately. And I can’t help but think that this is all part of God’s punishment for me. I don’t pray anymore because I know that no matter how desperate I am for whatever it is that I’m asking God’s help with, it’ll never be answered. I’ve preyed too many times with the opposite thing of what I preyed for to have any faith in God answering my prayers in a positive way. In fact, I come to the conclusion that God answers my prayers by allowing things in my life to hurt me. So I’ve given up on praying because I think God’s getting tired of listening to my voice.

So frankly, I wish I would’ve died when I was a kid. I wish I didn’t believe in God. You see, if there was no God, I could die right now, and that’d be that. No heaven. No Hell. It wouldn’t matter. So don’t tell me that life’s precious. I have yet to meet someone the not only treats their own life as precious, but treats the lives of all those around them as precious too. Yeah, precious……bullshit. So don’t you tell me that all I have to do is find God. I already found God, and knowing God is the worst torture I’ll ever know. Honestly. All you non-believers have it pretty good. Frankly I’m jealous. I suppose that’s all I have to say about that. If you feel like emailing me, you’re more than welcome. Props to anyone that’d like to off my ass.
21 Oct 2006 Chris Jump off a building. Im going to do it in a couple of days.
21 Oct 2006 ben hey man i know this dont seem big but im a christian in a very very non-christian school im getting more depressed each day because its so hard i dont want to commit suicide but im just in a real tuff situation its not that big to some people but im just so depressed can u help me??
21 Oct 2006 one two mic checka the age old question:
what is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?

well probably the best way to kill yourself when under 13 is the same best way to kill yourself when over 13. now this is where we get down to brass tacks. when you are 13 years and one day old are you over 13 or just plain old 13. having established that, we have a third category. plain old 13 year olds. is it for just one day or a whole year? and what is the best way to kill yourself when you are just plain old 13 years old? because the number 13 has significance. it signifies several things. mattias, the 13th disciple of Jesus Christ. it signifies a day known as friday the 13th which is where people who were accused of witchcraft where burned at the stake and some might have been witches but some where not and so until now 13 has been considered unlucky. which brings me to another point. you either believe in luck or fate. now if you believe in luck many people have tured 13 and not killed themselves. however many people have killed themselves and been 13 so i am not sure that has any relevance except to obviously point to the fact i do not believe in luck. luck is a word that comes from another language that means lucifer. now i do believe he exists but i also believe he is a liar and wants to see you kill yourself. which brings me to fate. and you are either going to kill yourself or you arent. and if someone who cannot tell the truth wants you to kill yourself then he is lying which means that even the most evil being dosent want you to kill yourself. 13 is also a number used by some mexican gangs. they usually have 13 rules they go by.
16 Oct 2006 Chris Im feeling the same, if anyone wants to talk then my email is bugsy46@hotmail.co.uk. please add me

Thanks
14 Oct 2006 Kristen Well, since I'm a Christian I have to live through the pain. If you're a Christian and you kill yourself you will go to hell. If you are feeling really bad, masterbate. I think if I were to kill myself I take an overdose of coeide or something simple like a poison.
12 Oct 2006 Erik Hey A.L. I read about half the posts on this site during the past couple of hours but yours stood out to me. I am a 35-year-old white male whose life has sucked for the last 20 years. No, it never did "get better" as people told me it would when I was a teen-ager. I can't commit suicide because it would destroy the rest of my parents' lives. I always say to myself "no one deserves to live like this, not even a murderer", so certainly my parents don't. But that's what my suicide would do to them. So it's just living in this "Hellhole of a life", as A.L. put it, day after day, year after year. There's no other choice. The most twisted, ironic part of life for me is when someone tries to counsel me by saying "life is a gift". Heh, ain't that a kick in the arse! Who would want this gift? Another funny "joke on us" that is quite similar is in Christian scripture; it says if you ask your father for a piece of bread, will he give you a scorpion instead? (If that's not exactly right, the sentiment is still correct.) Well it's funny, my dad certainly would not hand me a scorpion, but that's what I got out of life! Another funny one that preachers tell is that "Jesus came to give us life in abundance". Yes! More please! Have you read all these posts? Yes, what we really all want is more of THIS. Something else that is funny: Dying quickly by jumping off a tall building is "selfish" but dying slowly, a little each day, during the course of 20 or 30 years, living a completely pointless, frustrating and miserable life, is acceptable and even honorable! Hey, and don't you just love those preachers who say "God wrote The Bible", or, "The Bible is God's letter to you." Heh. They are hilarious. Well, my dog wrote "God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater". You want to hear something even more hilarious? Once I was so desperate that I . . . Nope, no razor blade . . . Nope, no noose . . . Nope, no bottle of painkillers . . . Nope, not even my handgun . . . I was so desperate, I actually started giving money to one of those televangelists! Yes, it's true! I actually gave that son of a bitch more than $300 before I wised up. Now I can't even pay my rent! I have to borrow money from my parents to pay my rent! Talk about being a loser. The girls are all over my broke ass. Speaking of televangelists, they suck! Here is some news to some of you: human beings, imperfect just like you and me, wrote every book, including The Bible. Don't let some jerkoff tell you that if you pray for something and "believe" with all your might that it will happen for you. Odds are, it won't. The problem is, enough people will get lucky and then tell you about how their prayers were answered ("Oh God has blessed me SO MUCH") and it will just confuse you and make you wonder what you are doing wrong. (Why, you are sinning, of course! You idiot!) Do you know what it really means to "believe"? It means to take heed of a warning or follow some advice. For example, if someone says, don't walk on the subway rails or you'll be electrocuted, and you are a "believer", you won't walk on them. You won't need proof, you just won't walk on them for fear of being electrocuted. It's not some mental exercise, so stop "wishing" thinking that if you wish hard enough things will change. They probably won't. Here is something interesting. Have you ever read in the Christian scriptures about Jesus being "tempted in the woods"? Do you know what the writer meant when he said that "Satan" tempted Jesus by encouraging Jesus to hurl himself off a cliff? Bingo! It meant that the hero of the story was tempted with the very same horrible crap that is dragging us all down -- thoughts of ending the suffering of self. But trust me, there is no way of getting around the problem of hurting others with your suicide (I have studied on it a right good while), so it just won't work. We're stuck here in this "Hellhole of a life", as A.L. put it, and that's just the way it is. (The good news is, you don't have to worry about going to Hell, you're already here!) I guess, maybe, if your entire family and all your friends, if you all committed suicide together, and didn't leave anyone behind to suffer for it, then maybe it would work. But how can that work? There is always some friend somewhere who is going to be left out and left with the sadness that he or she doesn't deserve.

So then what is left for us to do as we suffer through this crap-o-rama in this sewer we call Earth? Did you ever see the film "Sling Blade" with Billy Bob Thornton? Well there is a scene where Billy Bob's character (an ex-mental patient and killer) is discussing with his new friend (a boy of maybe 10 or 12) the experience he once had of witnessing the body of an aborted baby (it may even have been his little brother). And he said of the girl who destroyed the baby, "She ought not to have done that. He woulda had fun sometimes." There is your answer. Fun. Try to save up enough money (or time or whatever resource it takes) so that you can go and have fun sometimes. Whenever you have fun you can almost escape for a few moments. I'm not saying that I agree with Billy Bob's character that a few moments of fun make a lifetime of hell worth it. But since we're already here, it's different for us.

Good luck A.L.

Erik
29 Sep 2006 chris hey

i now some answers maybe...

ill try some out now if you want see which is most effective becuase if you were in my posistion you would want to.

the only reason i havent is because of one friend but tonight that friend left me even though i never mentioned anyhting about it.

they just turned round and insulted me the only friend i have had in about 3 years who actually cares is gone,

i want to try suicde again i have no family i havent had one in 10 years and i struggly to make friends becuase i dont trust new people i meet becuase of my childhood and never will.

and my only friend i could tlak to when i needed someone isnt there.

i have nothing left.

i have no family

no friends

and no one who cares.

i just want to go die now...

but im scared of what ill meet after death so i just curl up and sleep hoping to never wake up.

my grades have been slipping at school now.

i wont get any passes at college.

that wa shard enough anyhow being that my friend is 2 years below me in school.

in college no one talks to me.

i just sit there.

my life licks balls

i juust want to go hang myself or fall when i go bouldering next.

im hated by everyone now becuase i dont have any friends it wasnt my fault i kept moving place to place and fouind it harder to make friends each time.

i stayed here becuase of my one best friend and only friend but i dont have them now.

i want to go to a place where no one has to see, hear, smell or touch me.

i know one way to get there and ill try again.

yes ive tried before i spent 3 months in hospital after stabbing myself and cutting my wrist.

i didnt fidn it hard the ... i wont find it hard now.
19 Sep 2006 ImsuchanEmo There is no best way to kill yourself..Why? Because if there was then it would be part of nature it would common sense...but neway I'm here to tell you my personal experience please read cause im not gonna judge u or tell u its completely wrong because then i wouldnt be respecting peoples opinions. When I was 14 I attempted suicide for the third time and landed in the hospital. This resulted in so far 2 years of friggin unnecessary therapy bcuz now they think im psycho. Im always asked if im thinking about something (suicide they mean). But im not suicidal anymore in fact i feel better now. I noe pain is something u dnt wanna feel bcuz wen ur suicidal u dnt wanna feel nethin bcuz pain seems to be the only thing there and its nagging and u feel hopeless.but wut we dnt stop to think is that we're feeling bad for ourselves. we're feeling sorry for ourselves. And I dnt think we should b like dat. Yes the whole world might hate us and we might not b loved by people but first we need to love ourselves bcuz b4 nethin is us. we need to take care of ourselves b4 we think of gettin into a relationship for those who think a bf or gf is the solution its not trust me..the guy i "fell in love" with screwed me over and took advantage of me.. told me he loved me wen he didnt and he took my virginity away bcuz i trusted him bcuz i thought he cared..he just took advantage of my situation and made it seem like he was the only good thing going in my life..now it hurts me being so stupid like dat and it taught me a huge a lesson. I also wanna tell u guys that dnt always trust therapists or adult ppl..they'll go and tell sum1 that ur suicdal and u'll b stuck in the psych ward for God knows how long..trust me ive been there..they keep u in the psych ward they drug u to "numb" the pain wen theyre not doing nethin and they get more money out of u being there that long. if u dnt trust ne1 if u dnt have ne1 like my mother never did ( she was an abused child by her family) then take on a new hobbie like writing or drawning or photography bcuz wen u see ur pain on paper it feels so much better bcuz u read it and its just soo good..and yes i noe pain takes a long time to heal im sayin it cuz im living it rite now..my brother was raped for a yr by a "close friend" and a guy i considered to b my brother and u could possibly imagine the pain i felt wen my brother told me " u think u have bad but u dnt even noe" and then he told me the rest. it gets me angry and i cry bcuz its so horrible to imagine them raping my lil brother wen he was 8 years old so sometimes i have murder on my mind...u just have to give pain time and u also have to help urself..always remember yourself b4 anyone..and if u wanna noe wut i did to be better well i started going to a christian church and i fell in love with God..trust me God does do miracles even if u dnt believe..and its not completely a matter of fate many people have personal experiences like my mom.. i almost my mom 5 years ago she died during the surgery but ws revived after 2 mins and i thank God for that everyday... if u wanna noe da rest of the story or talk to me about absolutely nethin trust me i wnt judge u cuz thats not the way and im no one to judge ne1 bcuz im not perfect either so email me at yayyitzme@aim.com or instant message me at yayyitzme (aim) or ksexynena1023 youre never always alone u just have to look for sum1 God bless u and i hope u do start believing in urself to whoever here is planning suicide...
15 Sep 2006 selina that's a hard one, guess pills are da best way. my life sucks really, i'm my sister's shadow. she's perfect. beatiful, smart, she does ballet,has an amazing voice. everybody loves her at school. me? I'm just da "dumb blond", the village bike everybody had a ride on.i won't deny the fact thatt i am pretty, but brain wise. my mom hits me all the time.sometimes my dad joins in. i don't know why dey do it,i don't understand what i have done. my sister? she doesn't care, she told me to "forget about it", how can i forget? i'm sick of lying to my friends and teachers everytime they see me coming wt a black eye or a gash.i am tired of being picked on all the time, being called "brain dead" or "whore". i know i am a big disapointment to all my family. and i know i have made so many mistakes. but what is done cannot be undone. i'm christian, but deep inside i doubt there is a god. if there really was, why does it hurt so much? why can't he help me? all of us? why make a 13 year old like urself want to kill herself? but truth is i'm scared of dying. scared of what's in the "other side". I will follow some of the advices and wait a little. but it's getting harder as years go by. i am know grounded, havebeen for 2 years. i haven't gon out with my friends for years. just studied, when i finally got the grades, my mom told me to work harder. what's higher than an A? when pleaded to go ou, just one miserable night, she beat me up pretty bad, my dad even arrived at the wrong momment. i will never forget what happened. i know my english teacher suspects something, i wonder if i should tell her. i've neverbeen close to teachers, unless i had a detention that is. ( not in that sense). infact i've never been close to anyone. but please, if someone is reading this, please say something, anything. i figured i might as well talk to someone that doesn't know me, it's better for all of us.
06 Aug 2006 Faye I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M POSTING HERE AGAIN BUT LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT LIFE.
I'LL BE 18 NEXT MONTH (OLDER THAN MOST OF YA'LL) AND I'LL WILL BE GOING OFF TO COLLEGE IN ABOUT 2 WEEKS.(SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT) BUT THE ROAD TO GETTING TO THIS POINT WAS NOT EASY. MY PARENTS DIVORCED WHEN I WAS IN FIRST GRADE, I GREW ANGRY AND DEPRESSED. I WAS PICKED ON ALL THROUGH MY SCHOOL YEARS. AND EVEN MY ON FAMILY MEMBERS TOLD ME STUFF LIKE I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING WITH MY LIFE. AND EVEN LIKE SOME OF YA'LL CONTEMPLATED SUICIDE-BUT THAT'S NOT THE ANSWER. I DON'T KNOW YA'LL RELIGIOUS AFFILITATION, BUT I'M A CHRISTIAN AND I CAN TELL YOU GOD HAS BROUGHT ME THROUGH SOME TRYING TIMES. SO JUST LIKE I SAID BEFORE "BREATHE AND BE EASY".
23 Jul 2006 HATER FOREVER what i wrote before!

I will tell you my story!

people have screwed my life up! To a point where I wont get better ever again!
I have spent my whole life being scared of people and know i am scared shitless of the out side world!
I wish my family would move us to a different area!
I will tell you the way people have treated me!

WHERE i live i have no friends no realtionships there s nothing here for me!

I have gone completely mad because people wont leave me alone! And keep bullying me because i am not very good looking to a lot of people D:
I have done some things that would make your stomach crawl! well self harmed thats it!
I have been bullied here since i was 3 years old and other places not just where i live all because i am not vey good looking right!
Theres more to come!

Right now i have no one!
I have nothing to do here!
People dont understand me. My family dont understand me, I have a repuation for being someone i am not!
things have happened in my life that as made me angry!
Life is crap for somepeople and not crap for others!
Alll i would like to do is move away but that will never happen!

OH GOD WHAT CAN I DO!

all i get is " your an ugly freak and your ugly etc "

My family dont understand me!

I hope i find a job on line to do and keep it if not its the streets for me!

I am 25 years old and my family keep telling me to get lost but i can't i am too scared to be out there in the out side world!
I have spent most of my time doing things alone and housebound to!

My whole family have never got it easy and neither we wont and we are not close and i feel like i was never ment to be!

Oh christ what a sick uncaring world we all live in!

There are people who are ouitcasts you know the ones who don’t fit anywhere
The rejects the losers the outcasts etc!

Well I am one of them outcasts!

I have been called all sorts of things in my time, UGLY,FAT, FREAKY,WEIRDO, SMELLY, GREASY, STUPID and loads more!

I have had bullying which has scared the crap out of me!
I am no longer apart of people around where I live I am a outcast from them!

I have always believed I am the only ugliest person about but I guess I am not really:
I am so starnge you know what I wish I could just get out of here but I am too scared to, plus people where I live are still noseing in my life! They don’t care about me..
Just talking about me and I tried to do my self once because of people hateing me for being ugly and they don’t care!

I HATE THOSE PEOPLE NOW I HATE THEM!

Plus this!


Why Are The Ugly People Rejects!

Why Is It that no one cares about ugly people!!
When A black person gets Discriminated Against there is a Law for something to be done about it..
But when it is a ugly person being Discriminated against no one cares!
I guess that’s what happens when you don’t have proper laws in a country to stop things from happening.
You never see an ugly woman with a boyfriend or husband at that.
But the woman do tend to go for the ugly men? Why is that ?
Also its so unfair that people have to end up in a shit life because there not very good looking!
Why are people strange with someone who is different?!
I want to get to the bottom of all this,
I think its about time this stupid behaviour stopped.!
Why is it that ugly people have hardly any life?
If you are ugly and you are a reject it lowers your IQ,
Yes Rejection Lowers IQ and makes people aggressive and that can’t be good!




Back to my topic also, I want to know is why people went out to hurt me for real that my life got screwed up over! People have tried to screw with my head growing up! JEZ


Well also I am so well I dunno really because I am just strange to a lot of people where I live.
No one here likes me and someone thinks I have boyfriends WELL A NEWS FLASH FOR THAT PERSON I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND DUH!

Anyway back to my topic¬


That’s all for now!

I am stuck at home where everything is controlled by my fucking parents and I want out but I see no hope or end to me ever leaving home,! Or findng friends or even getting married!

Plus I am so wrong in my head I am So depressed in my mind!!!
I want to get rid of it my depression!

I hope my life gets better!

But I bet it wont!


Fuck the whole screwed up fucked up planet we all live on!!

FUCK YOU EARTH!

FUCK YA!



PS: The best way to kill your self would be to Well check out the bloody stupid ways to go section morons!!


I HATE YOU ME AND EVERYONE ELSE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


FUCK YOU ALL!!! TOSSERS!!!

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now just to add some more:

Just to add Noone wants me around includeing my family think i am not goodlooking enough! for them , and no its NOT becasue of my selfish way of talking, i DO CARE about the world a FUCKING LOT! So kiss my arse, you tossers, and i think your all scum bags the lot of you!

SCUM!!!
AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THE WRITEING HERE, THIS IS MY ADDING TO THIS STUPID SHITTY CREATION OF MOUCHETTE'S WEBSITE!!!!


The One and Only Hater forever.



c.s.j@hotmail.co.uk


Post it all mouchette!

21 Jul 2006 gina Please Kids I beg you as a person who is still suffering from the things I have done to my body don't do. I have try many different things from drugs, pills, and even poisons. I remember I time when somebody would hurt me and I would go somewhere, get a knife and cut myself and alot of you think I am stupid but it would make me feel relieved so kind of why. I was fat, ugly, I was told I was never amount to anything I father left me at the age of 7, sisters, mother,brother would beat me. when I turn 13 mother left me to live with her boyfriend. I was molested when I was 8, so I struggle with a homosexual desire. that was some more for kids in school to pick on me about. the reason they found out was because they caught me stare at a couple girl with short clothing on. I mean I thought I was these sick, monster. I the age of 15 I got into witchcraft thinking to myself this is where I belong. while I worked but it made me become evil. I started steal, and doing to people or their food or so on. I thought I had this great power. I ever got deep into sucide. I thought I was powerful than an God into one day when all the the pills, poison, and alcohol had taking its control of me and I was dying I knew I was going to Hell everything start happening so fast.I felt I didn't want to died. but any I will have to go into details for you another time but away I got saved. and now I am a mother with four kids in college and loving being a christian I know this is hard to believe but the people who knows me would say diffently
21 Jul 2006 chris dont go and fuckin kill your self ur jst a retard if u do so if ur 13 or younger and ur tryin 2 die already im 14 n im doin skunk and pot it feels good seein lil pink fairys and outher lil magical creatures fly round me wen i get high and i drink as well n ive neva tryed 2 kill myself but i one of those people who cheat death every day ive been cheating death for the passed year ive nearly died so many time but i keep fight even if i was up agenst a bunch of pikeys or pycos in shitty mobile homes chasin me with knifes and the outher day i got hit buy a van (truck) and i got a brouse it hit me at 30 miles an hour and i jst got up and went sk8in with my friends and i fell of my friends motor bike and broke a couple o ribs and my ankle got caught under the wheel and the tyre was still spinnin but i got up and went to da hospital im 14 and ive cheated death so much at my age n ill nearly made my x gf commit suicide cos i dumped her and she loved me so much so if u want some advice ask me or i can give u some 1 who relli understnds ....... so add gangsta_rebel@hotmail.co.uk and im not a gangsta i jst put it in there to be funny cos if u knoe me in real life ull understand y .... lol bye
15 Jul 2006 doctorevil007 I've been investigating ways to kill myself for sometime and it's a bitch. I was maimed by a black gang on Christmas Day in 1999 when I went out for a walk. I am a white male and I was mugged by three black males. One came up to me and pretended to know me. As I turned to leave he tackled me from behind and two of his buddies grinded my face into the pavement with their feet while they demanded money so they could go buy some crack. I gave them $20. Another black punk across the street who watched it happen followed me into a restaurant where I went to get help and he snuck up behind me and broke my jaw just for kicks. I have had three surgeries on my face and I can't eat, talk, or breathe properly anymore. I am in constant pain every second of my life. I have a pain specialist but no medication works. I want a quick painless death. I'm thinking of putting my neck on a train track. It sounds gruesome but actually it is the most humane way to die as consciousness is lost instantly.
15 Jul 2006 liz x When i was a teenager i tried to kill myself by slitting my wrists because i was an alcholic and i hated my life. I was sexually abused by my step father and made to believe it was my fault. I've never met my real dad which has flung me into depression like a yoyo all my life, and to top it off my boyfriend dumped me by txt msg! Looking back i cant believe i was so messed up that i was willing to let what other people have done to me make me risk my own life, to do so would be to let them win, but thats what drink does to you. when your drunk you become a different person and that person becomes addictive, you want to be that person all the time, so you drink some more.I was having suicidle thoughts anyway and i turned to drink to help me forget my tattered life, but it just made me dwell on my past and present situation even more. At my lowest ebb i also took an overdose as i felt i had nothing left to live for. But then one day i met my new boyfriend and he introduced me to Jesus. I know some of you are probably reading this and when you got to this part were realy dissapointed but please carry on reading, because for alot of us the thing we desire most that drives us to the brink of suicide is a desire and need for love. And i want to tell you about the greatest love there is. When i became a Christian my life was a huge mess but through prayer my heart has been healed. The self loathing i once felt for myself and the hate i felt for many others has gone and been replaced with a love that i have never experienced before. Its not just a family love though the church does become as a special family to you, its not a sexual love or any other kind of human love. Its a divine love that heals your mind body and soul and can pull you out of the deepest pitt in your life no matter what if you have faith that God loves you. Some of you might be sitting here thinking God could never love me because i'm a horrible person and not worthy of anyones love but your wrong! God loves you no matter what. God even loved adulf hitler! He hated what he did but as Robbie Williams says so wonderfully, "Hate the sin not the sinner" Please try and understand that Gods love is for everyone no matter what you've done, where you've been or who you are, and if you you want love and to be loved, then right now where your sitting look inside yourself and tell God what you see and what you dont want to see anymore. Ask him to show you his love for you, ask him to come into your life and heal it. I dont expect you to take my word for it so please ask God to prove it himself. Dont expect this to happen in a flash, for some it is a gradual process because you would'nt be able to handle the change in you that God will bring straight away and only God knows when you are ready and he will never rush you or speak angrilly to you. He is a God of love and only love.
If you want to know God tell him you are sorry for the bad things you have done and ask him to come into your life and help you change.When you pray ask of it in Jesus' name, and put amen at the end of course :o) Thankyou for reading my story if you let it i promise it will help.
07 Jul 2006 chris watts get a 150 watt bulb and but it between ur teeth and sick ur finger in an electrical socket to see if u can light it
03 Jul 2006 HATER FOREVER I will tell you my story!

people have screwed my life up! To a point where I wont get better ever again!
I have spent my whole life being scared of people and know i am scared shitless of the out side world!
I wish my family would move us to a different area!
I will tell you the way people have treated me!

WHERE i live i have no friends no realtionships there s nothing here for me!

I have gone completely mad because people wont leave me alone! And keep bullying me because i am not very good looking to a lot of people D:
I have done some things that would make your stomach crawl! well self harmed thats it!
I have been bullied here since i was 3 years old and other places not just where i live all because i am not vey good looking right!
Theres more to come!

Right now i have no one!
I have nothing to do here!
People dont understand me. My family dont understand me, I have a repuation for being someone i am not!
things have happened in my life that as made me angry!
Life is crap for somepeople and not crap for others!
Alll i would like to do is move away but that will never happen!

OH GOD WHAT CAN I DO!

all i get is " your an ugly freak and your ugly etc "

My family dont understand me!

I hope i find a job on line to do and keep it if not its the streets for me!

I am 25 years old and my family keep telling me to get lost but i can't i am too scared to be out there in the out side world!
I have spent most of my time doing things alone and housebound to!

My whole family have never got it easy and neither we wont and we are not close and i feel like i was never ment to be!

Oh christ what a sick uncaring world we all live in!

There are people who are ouitcasts you know the ones who don’t fit anywhere
The rejects the losers the outcasts etc!

Well I am one of them outcasts!

I have been called all sorts of things in my time, UGLY,FAT, FREAKY,WEIRDO, SMELLY, GREASY, STUPID and loads more!

I have had bullying which has scared the crap out of me!
I am no longer apart of people around where I live I am a outcast from them!

I have always believed I am the only ugliest person about but I guess I am not really:
I am so starnge you know what I wish I could just get out of here but I am too scared to, plus people where I live are still noseing in my life! They don’t care about me..
Just talking about me and I tried to do my self once because of people hateing me for being ugly and they don’t care!

I HATE THOSE PEOPLE NOW I HATE THEM!

Plus this!


Why Are The Ugly People Rejects!

Why Is It that no one cares about ugly people!!
When A black person gets Discriminated Against there is a Law for something to be done about it..
But when it is a ugly person being Discriminated against no one cares!
I guess that’s what happens when you don’t have proper laws in a country to stop things from happening.
You never see an ugly woman with a boyfriend or husband at that.
But the woman do tend to go for the ugly men? Why is that ?
Also its so unfair that people have to end up in a shit life because there not very good looking!
Why are people strange with someone who is different?!
I want to get to the bottom of all this,
I think its about time this stupid behaviour stopped.!
Why is it that ugly people have hardly any life?
If you are ugly and you are a reject it lowers your IQ,
Yes Rejection Lowers IQ and makes people aggressive and that can’t be good!




Back to my topic also, I want to know is why people went out to hurt me for real that my life got screwed up over! People have tried to screw with my head growing up! JEZ


Well also I am so well I dunno really because I am just strange to a lot of people where I live.
No one here likes me and someone thinks I have boyfriends WELL A NEWS FLASH FOR THAT PERSON I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND DUH!

Anyway back to my topic¬


That’s all for now!

I am stuck at home where everything is controlled by my fucking parents and I want out but I see no hope or end to me ever leaving home,! Or findng friends or even getting married!

Plus I am so wrong in my head I am So depressed in my mind!!!
I want to get rid of it my depression!

I hope my life gets better!

But I bet it wont!


Fuck the whole screwed up fucked up planet we all live on!!

FUCK YOU EARTH!

FUCK YA!



PS: The best way to kill your sekf would be to Well check out the bloody stupid ways to go section morons!!


I HATE YOU ME AND EVERYONE ELSE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


FUCK YOU ALL!!! TOSSERS!!!
29 Jun 2006 Felicia The Great The Anecdote To Suicide For All Who Want To Kill Themselves

There is not a single moment that you have no option but to kill yourself. You live with a bunch of idiots who are family, friends, co-workers, or significant others. GET OUT OF THERE!! Find refuge. It’s demoralizing enough when you see a whole bunch of television shows that exploit children and teenagers encouraging shallowness, greed, sex, and bathroom humor jokes. If it bugs you and makes you depressed, change the station.

I’ve mentioned before that there is the brighter side of things, but it’s easier to say it than do it. I myself have shared the grief of a world too corrupt beyond belief. I live in it everyday and try to adapt whenever possible to a healthy life, even if it is impossible.

If you kill yourself, nothing will change. The world will still be spinning. There are others out there who don’t even care what you do or if you exist. It’s hopeless you keep telling yourself and more and more as the day progresses it gets worst.

Suicide is a cop out. IT’S CHICKEN SHIT!!! You are stronger than you really are. If you kill yourself, the next life you will do it again, and the next life you will do it again. It’s repetitive, I know. A soul never dies-- better believe it? I don’t care if you are atheist, Buddhist, Christian or some other person who believes in religion or no religion. The Universe is unexplainable. Also depression is treatable. You don’t need drugs. Just eat well, exercise, and get off you skinny or fat ass.

So why not better yourself right now and get rid of the hopelessness of “woe is me—my boyfriend/girlfriend left me or doesn’t like me and I am going to kill myself—my family hates me so I am going to kill myself—I lost my job so I am going to kill myself—or in Japan, I didn’t pass the exam and I am unworthy, so I’ll kill myself. Dammit! You are killing yourself over money, which is an object, how lame is that? There are a million people out there for the picking, couples who want children but can’t have kids, jobs by the truckload to find, and money getting printed everyday on paper. It’s because you didn’t take the initiative to do anything about it. In life also people die—the one’s who don’t commit suicide—and life has to move on. If we live in a world of people who live forever, then we are in for a horrible problem of over overpopulation. If you kill yourself, you are killing yourself and killing the times you are going to miss out. It is best to die naturally by nature than doing it by planning to kill yourself. Why? Because there is a purpose you are here. If you are reading this, you have a purpose here. I have no time in explaining it to you; you have to figure it out for yourself!

An example, “I see an innocent mouse getting attacked in a cage by an aggressive mouse. I took the initiative to take the aggressive mouse out of the cage and you know what happened? The innocent mouse was again, able to run free and relax.” So as a favor to yourself, take that aggressive mouse out of your life and live in harmony. Life is too short for negativity. What are the things you always wanted to do, besides killing yourself?

Suicide does not exist anymore to you. It is only a word. Life begins today.

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