|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|07 Jan 2007||Christine Dobreva||I've already been here. Not once - explaining how my life is or something. Things change, boys and girls - tomorrow always comes - if you want it.
I was depressed, very down, very hurt.
I was out of order, I was slitting my wrists for months and months, over the healing scars, again and again. I was 17-18. 1,5 years later I am here - alive and partly happy. I say partly, just because getting rid of suicidal thoughts was VERY tough, very difficult. Now that almost everything is ok with me ( I am a student @ the University, I managed to somehow overcome my dad's death in 2006, I will get married soon ), I think that it's high time I offer my help to each one of you who feel they're stuck in the middle, that there's no way out. I can help those of you who feel lost and sad, depressed or want to attempt suicide. No matter how old you are. I am here to help you by making you believe that life is in front of you and that things do change - it's just a matter of time. I'm also working on a project in Social Psychology and my topic is: Suicidal actions by people aged 10-18.
Just click on my name and contact me. I will answer to each one of you.
Believe me, I've been through all this - I am ok and happy now. You can follow me, just have a little faith and trust those who have seen all this sadness and pain!
Bless you all!
|04 Jan 2007||Carrie||what the fuck! 13 year olds shuldnt even think about killing them selvs.thats so sad to me. breaks my heart when i found this site.no 13 yr old should be sad. no 13 yr old should think about such things. and if they do. theres something wrong. they need help. ya ive had a fucked up life and im soon to be 19. and thought manytimes i want to die. and still do. but at 13 i never did. and i dealed with so much shit by the time i was 13. i was born with aids.dad left my family when i was 6 months old.when i was 6 i had a bad heart problem.didnt think i would make it to christmas that year.when i was 12 i had cancer. and i was becoming a teenager at 13.and i never once thought about killing my self at that age or younger.deff been threw a lot of shit.and here i am 18. and i just feel like nothing ever goes rite.and i still cry. and im still hurt by my childhood and things that go on in my life. i started to do a little bit of drugs. lots and lots of pot smoking.dont some coke. took some pills. but never tired to kill my self with them.and still at my age i sit and cry in the shower.in my room.in my car. where ever i feel sad. and i just tell my self "I WISH I WAS DEAD" and im so sad and just hate my life and dont understand why everything goes wrong.this this the first time i have ever even wrote about things in my life. its probable because i dont know anyone whos reading this.but i dont think its ok for someone to kill them self. even tho i get these feelings that i want to be dead bc life is so fucked up. and i know some of its my fault life is fucked up for me.i still could never do it. and it breaks my heart when people do :( but thats just a little about my life. i know no one cares.but im just saying. thats so sad to kill your self.someone does love you even if you dont think it.thanks for taking your time and reading this if you do.|
|03 Jan 2007||Tonya||Accept Jesus Christ. When we die to our own selfish self, we can begin to live for Him. Get uncaught up in self and live to be a blessing to others.|
|25 Dec 2006||Tulani||i want to kill myself because when i was 12 i raped a baby, i am a girl and it was my baby brother actually. i know this is not a good defense, but i was sexually abused by my older brother, sister and cousin, i don't think that it is too bad, but, common on, it was a 9 month old baby, and i knew what i was doing was wrong. The baby is grown now and is a young boy, 10, and the other day i saw him looking at porn and i feel guilty , so i want to kill myself.|
|25 Dec 2006||Kelly Crutcher||I've never heard about a suicide kit before I found your page. I'm not really sure about a permanent way. I was born in 1981; I'm a member of the Latter-Day Saint (mormon) church, I grew up in this faith and I have a strong faith in God and Christ, but there's been times when I've gotten so depressed that I've seriously thought about taking *my* life. I attempted suicide once in 2005 (I locked the bathroom door when I was taking a shower; closed the drain in the bathtub, let the water get deep enough and tried to drown myself; Grandma picked the lock, panicked when she saw me trying to do this and pulled me out)and once in 2006 (took an overdose of my seizure medication and went to bed, praying that I wouldn't wake up)
Recently, I thought about hooking a garden hose to the exhaust of Grandma's car and running the other end through a back window, getting in the car, turning the ignition on and waiting.
I'm afraid to tell anyone I know about this problem because they'll think I'm crazy, stick me in Circles of Care and treat me like a loony. I don't know what to do.
Please don't think I'm crazy; I'm just depressed over a lot of stuff in my life (my grandfather passed away in 2001; my parents got divorced, I suffer from grand-mal seizures and the medicine I'm currently taking for the seizures doesn't seem to be working; every time I have a seizure I chew my mouth and the side of my tongue and get bruised) and I don't know what to do about anything anymore.
|25 Dec 2006||oriana||umm i dont know the best way but if you dont want to hurt anyone else and you dont like pain you could simply drink shots of bleach or other poison mixed with alcohol or soft drink until you start to throw up then hope to god you dont survive cos if you do it will really suck by the way i might actually try this it sounds like sumthing worth doing but not tonight, tonight im going out with friends an getting drunk yay! im 14 and last nite i had sex with shaun then today is christmas and evry1 told me that shaun played me i really loved him this sux anyways if you must kill urself please dont kill sum1 else and then urself cos that is really mean ok luv ya xxx|
|23 Dec 2006||Kitty||Hey I've been reading the posts on this site for a while now and just felt the need to talk to you all. Well my names Kitty and I'm 16. In my 16 years of life I've been though a lot but have managed to deal with it until now. I was born to parents who were drug addicts. My dad was violent towards my mum, me and my little brother. When i was 6 my mum moved out. She is now an alcoholic and seems to spend more time worrying about my step brother and sister then she does about me. When i was 7 i was raped by my half brother i didn't tell anyone about it till i was 14. All through my live i was molested by my dads best mate. It is still happening but not to the same extent. I was bullied at school and has carried on in college. Since my mum left I've had to act as a mother to my little bro. My dads always to engrossed in his computer games to even remember he has kids. My brother is now 14 and thinks he can get away with anything. I try to help him but he just throws it back in my face. My friends are all leaving me and i'm too shy to make new ones. Last year i had to deal with my nan and grandad dying. I had no one to talk to which made it really hard for me. This year i fell in love. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. It lasted 2 weeks. He dumped me because I'm insecure and shy. he broke my heart but we were still friends till tonite. I told him all about my life everything I've had to deal with but he didn't care. he just told me to stop being childish and to grow up. that other people can deal with it so i should be able to. Now he never wants to speak to me again. the one man i ever loved and he hates me. A few days ago my best mate Will said he couldn't speak to me anymore. His girlfriend didn't like me and him talking to each other. Ive lost too many people to make my life worth living. All this is nothing compared to what is happening after Christmas. My dad has had enough of me and wants me out of the house after Christmas. I have nowhere to go. no one loves me all my friends have gone off with other people, i have no one to turn to. I know i cant survive by myself i need the comfort that can only be found in a hug. Like all of you the only way out i have is death. I just hope that other people are stronger then i am.
If you ever want to talk about anything please please email me or add me. My msn is Braintree_Babe@hotmail.co.uk
|21 Dec 2006||Morgan C. - the weird canadian||umm dont kill yourself, it'll get better.
i love you all
have a merry christmas :O)
|21 Dec 2006||Becky||I am having a hard time right now. My boyfriend just broke up with me 5 days before christmas because i cought him in a lie so he is angy with me. I loved this man more than anything in the world. I dont know what i am going to do without him. The only way i see to stop the pain that my heart feels and my head is to kill myself. There is no other way, i sit at home and dream about how i want to kill myself. I cant turn to any of my friends because we both have the same friends. I tried telling him we can work it out but he said its something that only He can think about. i can eat and all i want to do is die.
So to be honest with everyone i dont know what the best way of doing it is. I am trying to find out. I just thought about get drunk and driving my car into tree, maybe that way i wont kill myself just put myself in a coma.
All i wanted was to have someone love me for me, i give and give but no one will love me back. So the only way is to stop my brain and just end things...I just dont know how?
|19 Dec 2006||the laughing cow||dress in fish net stocking high heels short skirt then buy a ticket to ipswich in uk, Tom Stephens will do the rest walla job done, ho ho ho Merry Christmas|
|17 Dec 2006||Stephanie||Kids...This is hard for me to talk about but I am 24 and I wish I was dead everyday. I ache inside myself. My once loving husband has just helped to literally egg my cronic depression on. I am not pretty, thin, and have no true friends. I suck at being a mom and wife.My dad went to prison when I was six for four counts of child molestation,and My mom left me for her child molesting husband when I was 14. I spent my teens in and out of mental wards. Because of that I now have a social anxiety disorder and absolutely no interpersonal skills. Oh, and to top it all off, i am so poor I can't afford a single gift or christmas tree for my babies. My husband is a drunk who vomits all over our bed and asks for "favors" even though he knows I was raped several times and molested my entire childhood. I was a heroin addict for 4 years and it gave me a cyst in my brain, and I have cervical cancer. Yeah, everyday I want to die. But as much as we can think it and want it we cant have it. GOD never gives us more than we can handle. This pain will only make us stronger. I have made it through 24 years of pain and terror. Things will get better if you let them. I was always bullied, I have a shitty life. But hey, I am still here and how will you know if it ever does get better if you off yourself? Give GOD a chance and I promise you won't regret it. Trust in him and it will all be okay. I honistly do promise. And one thing i've learned though my life, never make a promise you cant keep. And I don't, never will. I promise it will get better if you let it.|
|16 Dec 2006||Jeff||I am thirteen years old and cannot get a Nintendo Wii due to my fathers old boss who owes him over 5000 dollars. We are almost in debt now and I cant stand this anymore, he expects me to wait another week after christmas for a nintendo wii. I feel like just hanging myself or shooting myself in the face.
I will buy a 360 controller cord and strangle myself or hang myself with it.
|01 Dec 2006||ROBIN||I'VE JUST TURNED 17, HAVING THOUGHT OF TAKEN MY LIFE A GOOD FEW TIMES DURING THE FIRST 15 YEARS OF MY LIFE
I COULD GIVE YOU A SOB STORY OF MY LIFE AND WHY I WANTED TO END IT BUT ITS NOT IMPORTANT
SO YOU WANT TO KNOW THE BEST WAY TO KILL YOURSELF ? IF THINKING OF ENDING YOUR LIFE , MY FRIEND YOU'RE DEAD ALREADY.
MY BEST FRIEND WAS A STRONG BELIEVER IN THE LORD JESUS CHRIST AND HIS CONSTANT CHATS OF A BETTER LIFE , OF MY LIFE HAVING PURPOSE NEVER REALLY MADE SENSE, UNTIL I HELD HIS BLOODIED BODY IN MY HANDS. HE HAD BEEN A VICTIM OF A RANDOM NEIGHBOURHOOD SHOOTING .
THAT WAS IT FOR ME - THAT DAY I WAS DETERMINED TO END MY LIFE
BUT SOMETHING URGED ME TO WAIT - TO GO HIS FUNERAL - I THEN LEARN'T OF HIS ABUSIVE DAD ,OF HOW HIS MUM HAD DIED OF CANCER , OF HOW HE WORKED 3 JOBS TO SUPPORT HIMSELF AND HIS 2 YOUNGER SISTERS AND THE CONSTANT THREATS AND ASSUALTS HE FACED
I DID NOT KNOW MY BEST FRIEND AT ALL
ITS FUNNY BUT HIS DEATH TAUGHT ME TO LIVE
I'M NOT AFRAID OF DEATH - ITS THE LIVING THAT'S THE HARD PART
BUT I WILL NOT BE A COWARD, I WILL WAKE UP EACH DAY . I WILL RUN THIS RACE
|24 Nov 2006||Chris J. Hillier||When I was 13, alot of people(Doctors, parents, friends, etc)... believed that I had some sort of mental problem. And "beating everyone to the end" seemed to be one of the only fantasies on my mind... In 7th grade, I've had 3 different experiences that have ultimately changed my life forever..
I've drowned in my own 5 ft. deep pool and lived to tell everyone how its like to be dead for a few minutes.
The second attempt came from a number of pills...and alcohol, and even a plastic bag over my head... Unfortunetely, the door to my room wasn't locked, and if my Dad hadn't ironically got off early from work, I wouldnt be writing this..
And of course, the 3rd attempt came from a pistol... Except this experience was probably the scariest few moments of my life... It of course being an extremely unsuccesful attempt, left me with a bullet in the calf of my left leg...
I'm almost 19 years old now, and to this day, contemplating suicide is breakfast...lunch...and dinner... For my mind... My future, is the most depressing thought I could possibly imagine... Because the only thing I can see, is the same pain I have felt since that time when I was young.
I am not like others... but like many people who have tried to "free themselves".. I too am trying to seek an understanding to all of this shit, and for once, someone who can understand my own self...
My answer lies not with God, because I do not seek salvation, only to be rejected into the rest of all reality... Positive and negative aspects of ANYTHING, will compete with eachother... no matter what... and it's hard for me to accept something like that.
The story of my life might as well be a fuckin book up to this point. But all I have nowadays to defend myself from...myself... is to try and appreciate this one thing(life), to cherish and love it... To do what I love, to lift myself from the grave I've tripped and fell into countless times.
But the scar reminds us.
All I can say... is that if you attempt to free your soul... make sure it makes it all way out of your body, Because there is a long unpredictable life ahead of you.
|24 Nov 2006||Legna||Jump! Take some poison! Go to Iraq! Before you know it, it will be over, but why would anyone kill themselves? This is a very interesting philosophical question and it may vary from person to person with no agreement. Life is beautiful. Struggles are part of life. As we toil on this beautiful Earth of ours, we sometimes wonder why there are struggles, but it is on fact these struggles that create life. You may wonder where all of these struggles will lead humanity, but there is a product in the end. if you struggle with out Lord Jesus Christ, your life will end with sucess. Even if you struggled with an addiction, starvation, povertyof any kind, the Lord is powerful and will save humanity in the end if it stays anchored to Him. If you want to commit suicide, I don't blame you, but there is more than one way to do this. Destroy your present life, and find one in Jesus. This is the best way to help heal the world and free it from its struggles. You want a suicide kit eh? Put the Holy Bible in a beautiful box and shut it.|
|16 Nov 2006||Chrismas Jones||Okay. I have to be really carefull in the way I word this.( I want it to sound perfect ) ..but acualy, I don't even know what i'm writing. mouchette, your a fucking mystery. but simply i am atracted to this place... This website is NOT normal.(infact theres no other website that even compares to the things you find here.) the reason this website gets so many hits is because it is one of the first results you get on google, the worlds main search engine, for "suicide." this made the suicide kit the bigest peice of the huge puzzle witch is mouchette.org. Also something i just wanted to add is how god damn hard it is to get into the section for your favorite posts, theres things from many months ago still on the front page.
I, myself have even had a couple in the favorites section, one of them is still on the front page is you scroll down enough. Yes, i used to be a frequint poster on this site,(seems nerdy huh?) but i never was put under the famous persons section, since i think you no longer update. i have been ecnolegedy by your mouchette, though, whitch is an honor. Mouchette i think after awhile you'll figure out who i am. But i must say i signed off, and i might never be here again but i felt the urge to make a late but final mark mouchette. I hope we meet some day. <3
p.s. Dear old readers, If you think you know who i am, (an x mouchette'r) look up my old posts and send me an email. I'd like to see what you people think. And i also would love ot get hate mail on how much you hate me! :D
A once spooky poster.
(Okay that was a big hint xD shit.)
|15 Nov 2006||christehh||UMM..yeahh..imm 12 && imm retardedd :D well not mentally..I JUST CALL MYSELF A RETARD. =] so the best way to kill yourself depends on the situation..0.0. for example, if u have insurance and your parents dont care about you, your best bet is to ask someone who is as depressed as you to kill each other =D , your parents get the money and you die and you help someone else die..doesnt get much fucking better than that. BUT, if money isnt a problem, you just cut your wrist .. i tried that once.. and i took morphine before i did it and i saw the actual vien thingyy but i got FUCKING CAUGHT BY MY FCKING MAID..so i dropped the knife..BUT THE BEST WAY IS TO TAKE ALOT OF SLEEPING PILLS(FALL INTO DEEP SLEEP)BUT U FIRST BUILD A FIRE AND THEN YOU FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO THE FIRE. SECOND WAY IS TO JUMP OUT THE WINDOW CUZ NOBODY CAN STOP YOU AND YOU DONT FEEL MUCH PAIN CUZ URE DEAD BEFORE YOU KNOW IT. =) STAY SWEET PEOPLE.|
|10 Nov 2006||Chris||I tried killing myself 2 times, first time with 300mg muscle relaxors, that didn't work, so I kicked it up a notch, I tried killing myself with 1360mg of oxycotton, my point is, don't use pills, they don't fucking work!|
|09 Nov 2006||chris||I want to die my life is crazy my teachers ate me and they want me to fail my mom is nice but she gets really strict sometimes i've tried jumping out my window choking myself and holding my breath with and without water. I just can't do it I even pray to God to just take me home i am crying as i write this but i guess i'll have to suffer all my life. The only people that care about me is my friends, I am an a low budget actor and I've always wwanted to be a star I've tried killing myself today but i heard a voice so f anyone reads this just tell me what you think I should do.|
|04 Nov 2006||Amy||This is to Chris,
I understand what your talking about...especially about the whole college thing and not having anyone to talk to or trust. It really is hard. Sometimes I find myself wishing I could just sleep forever.
For what it's worth Chris, I care.