|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|11 Jul 2002||mel||i wish it were that easy.... some days the pain is too fucking much to bear. people run around like rats in a ditch, scurrying over each other without the slightest concern.
honestly, suicide sucks. why? because my problem isn't with me. it's with everyone else. THEY'RE the nasty, greedy, cruel, selfish, disgusting, ignorant, pigheaded savages, not me... if i was alone on this planet... things would be much better
|11 Jul 2002||Mitzy Bitch (bak again)||Ecstacy. This is the most incredible chemical drug i have ever experienced. Go 2 ure friendly local dealer and he/she will b more than happy 2 supply u with wat u need 4 a reasonable price. Take 1, and after 1/2 an hour u will have a burst of energy and u will think u can fly. Go 2 a bridge and test out your new found 'power.' Thank u 4 ure time.
|11 Jul 2002||Jordan Reese||hell i'm the asshole who wants to die
seriously i'm thirteen and the best way to die is a gunshot
|11 Jul 2002||annette||billy it's just soo hard to try and keep myself alive. everyday is different. one day i am fine, the next day i wanna blow my brains out cause of something, i got into a fight with my friend or something... i think it'd make the world a MUCH better place w/o me. there would be much less problems. but i really apprieciate you trying to help me. thanx:)|
|11 Jul 2002||billy||mitzy, his birth name is kurt donald cobain. any real nirvana fan would know that kurt was a photographer and a painter. you know that picture on the back of the nevermind cover, the one of chim chim with the explosives strapped to his head, and the raw meat in the back round. that was a portrait he used to describe his first sexual experience when the credits came for cover art he told them to spell it kurdt kobain so that there would be some mystery about his name.if you read the liner notes in the cds you see he spells it many different ways, any one is acceptable. he even went to the point of saying ''i hope they think it was somebody else" to quote the great one. he didn't really like the spot light, we all saw how he handled fame.
annette, it is time to get real, it is a dog eat dog world. so they have no respect for you. they treat you like shit, don't give them the satisfaction of pissing on your grave. rise above it become something better. sure you will always have that weird feeling inside, but soon it will be squashed with better feelings. you should be on a platform touching the stars, not one fathom deep.
ps-anyone with tips on wiping the ass email me.
|10 Jul 2002||Mitzy Bitch||Hey, um Billy, hun, just thought id mention, its kurdt kobain, not curt cobain..... thanx.. oh and hahahaha i hav a very rare and very illegal recording of them live in japan hahahaha..... RIP Kurdt RIP Roy Rivers, and Kelly and Dona, all four of these xcept roy (my m8s brother) killed themselves, he crashed his car in2 a friggin lorry.... i knew dona, i luved her, my boyf knew kelly, he broke her heart wen she died.... i kno loads of ppl say this kinda stuff on this site, but ive seen it from all angles, all im sayin is think b4 u do it, i mean, once ure gone, ure fukin gone, and u leave lonely ppl behind, i know, im suicidal 2, as bad as it gets, i mean panic attacks in the street, paranoia, self harm, alcohol and drugs (hence the name, mitzy pills), it nums the pain but it never takes it away, fucked up shit ye, and i know wat dona was goin thru especially.... she died on the 26th Febuary 2002. think about how much it hurt me wen i found out, ha funny thing is, she only did it cos her mom topped herself. c how much destruction suicide causes? i know wat thats like in a way, my mom was suicidal wen i was 8yrs old, after my dad left. ye lifes not fair and it fuckin hurts, but every1 deserves help, so wake up kids dont b naive, grow up a little and c it from other ppls eyes, the ppl who ure gonna hurt, sad thing about suicide is, it hurts all the ppl u dont want 2 hurt, i learnt that the hard way... i know its hard 2 talk 2 ppl, so the way i do it is ova the web, its easier.... so u know, if u wanna talk, or just rant, email me, its firstname.lastname@example.org
***xxx cez xxx***
|10 Jul 2002||Annette||billy it's seriously the ONLY way out of all my problems. it's not fair that i'm 14 and have to live a life of miseries. and i think by killing myself it will show other people how important it is to treat people equally and with respect b/c i know i wasn't.|
|10 Jul 2002||billy||you know annette, being dead isn't very cool. killing yourself certainly doesn't make you popular. it doesn't make your parents love you anymore. it doesn't make that ex-boyfriend you thought you loved come back. it doesn't make anything better. you would probably get your name in the local paper under the obituaries. woop dee do. you wouldn't be alive to read it.
think about things that would make your life better. it does get better.
|10 Jul 2002||Annette||I've tried EVERYTHING!!!! i already have all my suicide letters ready and everything but i'm just not dying !!PLEEEEASE tell me what to do! i need a reeeally good way that's easy. i already lost track on how many times i OD and slit my writs! HELP!|
|10 Jul 2002||odd_orange||oh my billy, you have done it once again. u are hilarious! ..how do u do it? anyway, i just had to say that, u crack me up so much it's not even funny. lucy, too. *my stomach feels sort of upset tonight, things aren't digesting as usual... that damned hot salsa i had. but i took heed of the early warnings of it being spicier than my usual medium. (i asked my mom why she got hot instead of medium, and she said she bougth it for future use in some recipe, she later told me after i had opened the jar.) i wish i was informed of that information before i had a last-minute decision to open a new jar of salsa. although she said it was ok that i used some of it, knowing that she would use it later might have deterred me just enough to the point of deciding not to open the jar, therefore preventing any stomach discomfort from eating the my-head-is-going-to-explode-into-an-ooy-goooy-mess-intensely-hot salsa... so i didn't finish the portion i poured myself in the bowl, too hot for me to handle... i put it back into the jar. no worries for the rest of the family though, i do not double-dip my chips.|
|10 Jul 2002||Jimmy||Why don't you even want to believe in God?|
|10 Jul 2002||crackhead||overdose on crack or something like crystal or speed.|
|09 Jul 2002||billy||i bet you are wondering why i stopped calling myself billy is a freak? well, it seems there is a group of people who decides if you're a freak or not. they call themselves the freak recruiting association or f.r.a. for short. so get this, three people show up at my door, well.. .four if you count the siamese twins. they flash these badges at me. "what the hell is going on?" i ask. i guess the bearded lady was the brains of the outfit because she did most of the talking. "let me explain ourselve: since freakshows have been banned from circuses and carnivals we have formed an association which only purpose is to preserve the traditional nature of freakhood." in compleate awe of the situation i let her continue. "it is to our understanding that you claim to be a freak mr. billy". she sounded like joe friday from dragnet. "why yes" i said confidently. her mustache curved with the contour of her lip. i believe she was smiling, i'm not sure. "may we please step in mr. billy? if you cooperate this will only take a moment of your time." she still had that nasty smile. "come on in. i have nothing to hide. i am just as much a freak as any of you." that was the wrong thing to say. the bearded lady was obviously offended by that statement." listen here buddy if you were half the freak i am, i was headlining barnum and bailey's sideshow when you were still a glimmer in you dad's whisky glass!" i shut up. "we put up surveillance cameras all around your house and office. there is no apparent freakyness. tiny here, she points to a 20 inch man who was standing next to a relatively normal looking man, has been hiding in your laundry basket in attempts to find any hidden oddities that might be under your clothes. he reports none". okay i thought. "mr. billy we have reason to believe you're not a freak at all, and to pose as one would be fraudulent and punishable by a 15,000 dollar fine and/or five years in prison by f.r.a. law. as a last attempt to defend myself i pointed to my two front teeth. "look i have a slight overbite and i am fifteen pounds over weight". all four of them laughed at me. "that is hardly enough to classify yourself as a freak" she said as she sat an official looking envelope on my coffee table. "we will show ourselves to the door, good day mr. billy". they then turned and left. first the bearded lady, then the siamese twins, then tiny, then finally the normal looking man who shut the door behind him. which was odd because he shut it with the extra appendage growing out the small of his back. the envelope the freaks left simply said in writing that i will stop referring to myself as a freak or i will pay the consequences. so thought about it. billy the freak is no more. billy the odd, no. billy the imperfect it just doesn't have the same ring. billy will suffice.
|09 Jul 2002||billy||i am back !!! lucy, odd orange emailed me and told me she thought we were both funny. why don't you say something to her because you don't have an email address posted. you have a fan.
so let me tell you where i've been. i unfortunately have a dial up modem, anybody who knows anything about mp3s knows it takes forever for a song to download when you are on dial up. well anyway nirvana is my favorite band. i check the listings for what nirvana songs come on everyday. i get lucky sometimes and get a demo song or a rare live song and that only makes my nirvana collection more complete. happy happy happy. so of course when saw (NIRVANA: METALLICA ENTER SANDMAN COVER <<VERY FUCKING RARE!!!!!!>>) i got steamy in my loins. i attemped to download it. at first it kept saying user not on line. unhappy unhappy unhappy. i kept at it and finally it started to download. i did not move for the whole three hours it took to download. it excited me to think i would be listening to a song i never heard before by nirvana. at last it said download complete. i played the song, it wasn't a nirvana song at all. it was this song about guys having sex with other guys. i was so disgusted. i slammed my keyboard off my desk and broke it. i finally got a new keyboard. that was a rotten joke to play. that wasn't only disrespecting me, but disrespecting nirvana and curt cobain. i have anger problems.
RIP: curt cobain
|09 Jul 2002||Madame Blousson||I came to this site so I could find peace,
but ever since that day I've become obese.
For I stay here all day, laughing all the way,
Mouchette - won't you service me?
|09 Jul 2002||Mathieu||Charmante jeune fille, tu as toute la vie pour mourrir. Alors profites de la vie, teste de nouvelles options, et tu ne verras pas le temps passer...
Si tu es malade, c'est parce que la société t'as rendue malade. A toi de ne pas te laisser piéger par ce monde de merde.
|09 Jul 2002||Hopeless||Get a gun and put it to your head, pull the trigger. That's what i think im going to do. all these people ever do is bitch and tell me what to do and suicide is the only way out. my dad always bitches about things not being done even when they are. that ******* is so abusive orally and physically|
|09 Jul 2002||odd_orange||hey mouchette, why didn't u post my writings from yesterday? maybe it just hasn't got to it yet, but i hope it shows up soon|
|09 Jul 2002||Lauren||Question: Why would you make a site like this?? i mean i know it's good to have people talk about their problems and shit like that but i think maybe this site should be about how to SAVE urself because you only live ONCE so why would u wanna take that away... i mean ive been suicidal... i probably will have times where i'm suicidal after i write this... i'm 13 now and i have cuts all over my legs [i picked my best feature to screw up] because my parents treated me like shit so i wanted to hurt myself on the outside so i could kill the pain i was feeling on the inside... it's true... i know... my parents thought i was crazy but then just so they wouldn't send me to the mental institute i said it was for attention and boy o boy did they feel like shit.... after that they treated me good until several months later.... it went back to the same old thing.... "im a selfish bitch who thinks about nothing but myself" was probably the one they'd say the most [mostly my dad would say that to me but my mom just agrees and doesn't say anything...] i've also been through a lot of crazy shit in my life but believe me.. .NOTHING and i mean NOTHING is worth taking the one chance you have to LIVE.... think about it... when ur dead that's it.... no more chances to live or anything... the one chance u had is gone.. i know this site is asking ways to kill urself but please think about what i'm trying to say.... seriously think about it.... it might just make u change ur mind slightly.... Talk to someone u trust about it... believe me it helps... well i need to be going now so i hope u people THINK about what ur doing to urself [and the people YOU love and/or love you] before actually doing it because theres always a reason to live... think about it...|
|09 Jul 2002||Danie||once upon a time, a couple years ago, i filled out this form. what a naive little bitch i was.
once upon a time, a couple days ago, someone e-mailed me reminding me of when i filled out this form and just how pathetic i was.
once upon a time, every day of my 'life', i realize that living is the worst death anyone could ever experience.
living is being suicidal.
i remember once upon a time, many years ago, my dad saying that if there was a hell than this is it.
i then didn't understand. completely disagreed. thought he was crazy. the thought unthinkable. i wanted to belong. i thought i was unique. just like everyone else. i had all of the answers. a couple years ago.
i didn't commit suicide, because i wasn't suicidal, not really, it was all just a fake, all in my head.
i now agree completely with him. i suppose i'm already dead.
i've since discovered that when you pour alcohol on cuts it makes them hurt more. peroxide here i come!