|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Jun 2007||E||Well, I just want to share my story here. I'm 13 and have been suicidal for two years now, since sixth grade. Last year I wanted to die because I felt like I had nothing to look forward to and that life is poinless and that I'm just a small, pathetic thing in this whole giagantic world and only a few people would care if I died. I felt so empty because I was so afraid to be myself. I was preppy and pretended to be someone else. At the beginning of seventh grade I turned goth or something and started telling everyone who I was and just being myself. I told people I'm an atheist and what music I listen to and my ideals and what I think about the world. They hated me. The whole middle school shit popped up and my own friends from last year started talking about me behind my back, saying I'm satanic and shit. Then there was this one kid, I'll call him R, who hurt me so badly. He tried converting me, he told be I was the antichrist and I was possessed and a load of bullshit to do with him and his love for freaking Christianity. He turned so many people against me. (I'm talking in past tense because its summer now and school is out, but it'll all start up again next year, if not worse.) I couldn't walk down the halls without people shouting emo and cutter at me. People would walk up to me and ask me if I was an atheist, and then laugh when I told them yes. I'm just so hurt. Nearly everyone I know goes out of their way to hurt me. And its all because of me and my stupid big mouth telling people about, well, me. There is only one person I have been able to turn to, I'll just call him C. I started becoming really close to C around February. I really love him and care about him. We are nearly the same exact person. He is also suicidal, if not more than me. His parents are putting him on medication. I'm so afraid for him, because you know how sometimes those things can just make people worse, and C is the kind of person who would get worse because of them. If he dies I won't be able to live. I'm just so hurt. I hurt all the time. I don't know what to do. I feel like starting all over. And its not like I want to die, I just wish I was never born. I don't want to hurt C or my mom or brother. I just want to disappear. Damn. Now I'm crying. Shit, at least everyone in my house is asleep by now. (12 midnight) Damn it all.|
|02 Jun 2007||The Bitter End||Chris - Yes, she is. Congratulations.|
|01 Jun 2007||Chris||are you kidding me?|
|23 May 2007||PLEASE CRY FOR ME!!||I don't know what to do I just want to give up, cry for me please. I'm so self centerd and emotional that I want to end my own life, not only to devastate my children, my parents and friends but to slap GOD in the face. I've had so much pain and tribulation in this life that I'm in a big fucking rush to get to Hell so I can suffer unimaginable grief and pain for all of eternity. See folks the problem is I just got this new computer. I really love this computer and now it has a virus and I had to disable my windows media player and man I really love music. So I give up I just can't take it anymore. And yes I realize that life goes on. People will grieve as long as they are at my funeral but as soon as it's over, outta sight outta mind. My wife will get a new husband, my children will get a new father and I will get a nice warm spot in HELL. But I sure showed them. But thats what I get for being a weak, self centered crybaby.|
|14 May 2007||angie.||this is awful. lets please stop encouraging someone taht young to take their life.
last year i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, OCD, tourettes, paranoia and insomnia.
my dad is 63 and on the verge of death, do to him being deaf, blind, bipolar, ADHD, narcaleptic and also suffers from post-traumatic stress due to an abusive father, and falling off a three story building while firefighting.
my mother is severely depressed and fights with me and my dad every single day.
i was raped less than a month ago by a man i had met taht same day.
i trusted him.
i started smoking a month ago and have suffered with alcoholism for nearly a year.
when i was younger whitnessed my best friend raped by her older brother and she whitnessed him shoving hangers up inside me.
i have attempted suicide 6 times.
pills, hanging myself, high jump, alcohol, cutting my wrists.
and every fucking time i got close enough until i knew i had to stop.
i knew that the only reason i was doing it was because i was crying out for help.
for someone to hold me and whisper in my ear to tell me everything is okay.
and 7 monhs later it came across to my mom that i needed someone.
i will be 15 next week.
i cant imagine if i had actually been gone from this earth.
now i have good friends, a wonderful thearpist and ive limited myself to a pack a WEEK and drinkning only on weekends.
and soon enough il realize i dont need any of that.
i dnot need to feel pathetic and feel worthless and afraid.
i have to love myself and all i have.
to all the kids under 13, and to everyone else in the world:
IT DOESNT MATTER HOW BAD THINGS ARE,
BECAUSE I PROMISE IT WILL GET BETTER.
just keep wishing on stars,
and think of a "better place and a better time".
its actually a song.
look on myspace or something.
"better place, better time" by streetlight manifesto.
listen to the whole thing, its 6 minutes long.
whoevers out there who thinks their life is so awful that things can never get better......
dear jesus christ just give yourself one more chance...
you can do it.
i beleive in you.
and i know out there someone loves you and someone will always love you and beleive in you too.
the only thing you have to do now is beleive in yourself...
and love yourself...
because you only have one life.
live and love it.
ill do it if you do it.
|13 May 2007||Joe||Give up your life. Give it up to Christ.
And you will find you have realy found life.
Did Mother Teresa consider suicide?
No. But she gave up her life for love. And found life abundantly.
All who remember he call her blessed.
We are all here to love, and forgive.
That is life in a nutshell.
Give love to even they who do not deserve it. And you will find more love than you will know what to do with.
|15 Apr 2007||ironcrossofnyc||wil i have over dosed 3 times that i counted and cut my self for years i know ur pain but its not the answer......|
|04 Apr 2007||Springs selcourt hell||Ben u r a gud guy, i hear u out. Im a 15 yr old girl frm a christian home. I hav no reason 4 my twistd mind, iv neva been teasd abused nothin ppl used 2 lyk me i jst always hd a luv 4 hurtin myself i scratchd blud outa myself since da age of 5 de very 1st tym i tryd 2 kil myself was wen i was 7, nw 8yrs lata its stil in my mind. i rememba even beggin god 2 kill me im guna do it on sunday ben. Sory|
|18 Mar 2007||Christina||right noww i dont wanna kill myself i just wanna cut my wrist because i like this kid ryan but i think he is using me soo i just wanna cut my wrist to get the pain out because i love him soo muchh!!|
|18 Mar 2007||Hi everyone, if i tell you my age you might turn off, but don't it's not a lecture from your mum, it's from someone who's been there. At 4 i witnessed my little sister drown, then my dad nearly drowned trying to save her then mum went into hospital with shock. Next i was sexually abused by my teacher at 7-10 yrs, and my uncle. My brothers both had severe car accidents where my eldest brother killed his friend in one accident. Also my other brother lay in hosp in a coma for months due to a motorbike accident. I met a very depressed Bi-Pola man and had two children to him which was a very stressful relationship where i was threatened with guns to my head, knives to my throat, hunted and persued if i did leave him and threats to the children and he also kidnapped them at one stage. so many things happened this is just a summary, then i got involved with a church thinking this was the answer! no no oh noo no! in amongst all this my health did go down hill,wonder why! the body can only take so much!!! so i got diagnosed with Epilepsy and then had to deal with medication, teenage boys and their pain and hell on this planet. As my son said i'm not having a spastic for a mother, don't tell anyone will you! don't chuck a spas attack in front of me will ya! ma mm nice hey? he had his problems too taking dope, hating himself and all around him. My eldest son also went through things too but after he tried to strangle me once i told him he better go and live with his dad because we did eventually separate when i got the strength not to fear him anymore. So! what have i left out,,,,, yes, how to survive all this shit, and hell that will confront you until you have the guts to learn how to love yourself. Yes that's what i said. Learn to get ahead not drown yourself in all the shit that falls on ya!..... Religion is just another mind controlling smothering organisation that is based on myth not FACT! sorry all you Christians, but look at David Icke's books on the historical facts! not the Bible that was written by Governmental controlling bodies that wanted to put FEAR into people..... There is no HELL AND HEAVEN i have been ther myself, hell is on this earth, is you let it get to you. You are a unique person! we all have something to contribute to this planet. All of us can help each other. It is your choice, you can do it! if you want but if there is such a thing as re-incarnation, you will only have to come back again to learn all over again about the lessons that were flung your way again and again till you learn what the hell it is all about. so don't you want to learn now, from any lessons now and not go through it all again till you start to tune into your inner voice and listen to yourself. Yes others may say your weird, so what, they just don't understand you, just smile and find someone who does relate to you, we are out there. Taking your life isn't Cowardly so when you say those things,,, you are the coward, for not understanding how one feels when your at the end of your tether!!!!!!I have some websites that will help you get through the day, First "The great illusion" then, wildlywealthy.com get "the secret that this lady has made, she was a sole parent on her last penny too, or 5cents for those born recently! I am now writing a book to help others like myself and all of you reading this. I will be rich too one day,and you can be too. Look ahead with hope,be positive. Stay focused. Don't give up!. These five words will help,Honestly show, live and feel these words to all at all times, LOVE, PEACE, COMPASSION,FORGIVENESS & UNDERSTANDING. Forgive yourself, that is the hardest thing, my email is firstname.lastname@example.org if you need more support,,,,, live your worth it.|
|06 Mar 2007||cackelfrack||wtf? come on suicide ISNT the answer. Recently I lost my cousin, more like a brother, 5 days before christmas he shot himself, and yeah, thats not very pleasnt, why would some PIG make a website like this, like wtf?! this is so retarded, suicide sucks!! im only 13 years old, and yeah, i've hated my life at time expecially now!! so whatever if you cant get laid!! like come on, theres more important things in life, my cousin was only 16, and he just decided to blow his brains out, the thing is he lied to me, he told me that he was coming back here for christmas, but he didnt and he'll never be back here. I miss him like crazy and some nights i cant help but cry because he's gone, i get to thinking, why did he do it, and where will he end up? so anyway suicide sucks, and im not really willing to talk to anyone about this shit, but if there is a need to talk to someone, i'll read somthing.. man I feel like an idiot.|
|06 Mar 2007||Sam kurzman||there is no way of killing yourself before 13 wait until your 21 do good at school and your family and social life if your happy at 21 then keep living, im a new 22 year old and im in dept beyond the next 6 yaers through depts to friends and the banks/fines my job has gone nowhere and my social life has gone down to 3 people, my family does not talk to me although i live with my dad, i have no assets and now credit rating or trust from anyone to kickstart my life, i have never had a girlfrriend and have only paid for sex once, i have been told by women i am a really nice guy both nothing else, i am a big bloke but noone seems to enjoy my friendship except my 3 friends and somehow i think my dad respects me. i am sorry for my friends daniel, jayson and chris, you have been good to me and my dad ian thomasn kurzman you have tried to give me hop in the world but without the other family there is no hope. i hope you live your life to the fullest without me holding you back.|
|22 Feb 2007||Serena||Well im not under 13 no more. I am 15 now. I am hear to say that suicide is not the answer. I know someone that loves "YOU" so much. He died on the cross for "YOUR SINS". His name is "JESUS CHRIST". He can help you!! Dont kill yourself. Thats a lie that satan is telling you. I you do commit suicide(which i pray you dont) you will go to hell. Hell is not fun and games. You are tortured and mocked there. I cant stress this enough "GIVE YOUR HEART TO GOD". We were put here on earth to praise God. And thanks to God i am still here. Yes i once wanted to die so bad. I have cut myself in the past. The pain was unberable. almost killed myself over 30 times. I almost cut my wrist to die, I almost used a gun several times, I almost drowned myself so many times, I almost swallowed many different types of pills, I almost sufficated myself. I even almost jumped off roofs really high up. The last time i tried was at church. Yes at church!! I was going to swallowed many different types of pills!! Oh i was so sure i was going to end it forsure! But i thank GOD for my pastors! They cared so much!! I felt so convicted to try to kill myself at church. everytime i tried God sent different people in my path, so it was hard to try. So i walked back out and talked to my pastor.. I got help. So we prayed and he listend to what i had to say!! And sometime you begin to think how come these people care for me so much?? So now im fine and living my life for God... You cant tell me God cant deliver you from something.. He can!!!!! He delivered me from this!!! What he does for one he can do for another. Just put your faith in God!!! Never give up!!|
|19 Feb 2007||chris||choke on legos|
|18 Feb 2007||Aaron Ross||Hello my name is Aaron and i am 19 years old. just like everyone were, ive screwed up my life. but you see its not because of a girl or my parents or becuase nobody likes me, its because ive made so mad choices and just becuase im mentally younger then i really am, the law doesnt care. and now since im the type of guy who allows takes the easy way out i can either take my punishment like a man, which involves YEARS in prison, or take the easy way out. see you have to understand, im adopted and ive been growning myself up all my life. a parents job is to care for a childed and teach him wrong from right, right? well some times that doesn't happen, sometimes you do get parents and u get to teach ur self things. ive taught myself to always take the easy way out and its not my fault...what do u do when ur left to teach yourself right from wrong-you get my life. i do have a dad, he's not my real day and believe you me, he gave up on my four years ago, so whatever im so use to being along. today is Sunday Feb, 18 2007 the cops will be at my door Monday 19 2007 and im sacred to death. I'm looking for hope, i am a christian and i know what this would mean-i just don't know what else to do, ive always taken the easy way out but this time there is not a real logical easy way out, so i figured my own way out. ive narrowed it down to two choices, i have a bathroom and tube and a blow drayer...='s death or a needle filled with bleath and amonia, straight into my blood. i tried killing myself before...i was bad, i drink some cleaning stuff. i think the worst think in my life was living alone, no the worst thing is dieing alone. i lied on my bed as everything slowly started to get darker and darker and my heart beat started to get slowler and slowler until i just closed my eyes. you might think im carzy but im pretty sure i saw heaven too. would you all like to know were heaven is? Have you ever closed your eyes and within the darkness, past your eyelids you just saw weird things. i think thats heaven cause i remember as i layed there everything just got really black, i mean a black you've never saw before then it got really light and i saw all of these weird things. the poisin in me made me want to puke, but i couldnt puke because if i did i would have lived and i though that was not an option. but i did live. and now its geting down to that time. i have chosen to kill my self on Monday at 3pm- thats when they will come for me and thats when they will find my dead body. If you want to know more about me go to my Myspace its www.Myspace.com/Aaronr4ever
|17 Feb 2007||Jaci|| 1As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air (Satan), the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. 4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressionsit is by grace you have been saved. 6And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faithand this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
May you find freedom in a loving, personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Christ said "I did not come to judge the world, but to save it." (John 12:47). Struggle, despair, depression are all what Satan desires for you, but God has so many wonderful things he wants to give you because he loves you. Before i discovered what it meant to find my worth in God's gift of Jesus dying on the cross, i was also suicidal. The only reason i didn't try anything was because i was afraid if i failed that the pain i was in would become visible and i would have to explain what i was going through. Satan thrives on us feeling this way. There is a battle over your soul --- and it's because you are worth SO INCREDIBLY MUCH to God!!! You can have hope, though, because God has all the power, and if you claim Jesus' death as your only reason to live above Satan's attacks and as your ticket into Heaven, God will provide you with an abundant life on earth and an eternal life in Heaven, a paradise he created to share with you. God calls you is child, and that's exactly what you are! Let him be your perfect, loving father. Let your love, hope, and peace come raining down from him to wash away all of the weight put in your lives by Satan.
Feel free to email me if you have any questions, if you need to let some things off your chest, or if you would like to hear more about the love and hope God longs to give to you!
|01 Feb 2007||alayah 10||i think you shouldnt kill your self i think that you should think about ur family and start to think how god will feel (SORRY 2 ALL DA PEEPS WHO ARE DIS BELIVAS OF GOD, JESUS CHRIST) AND TRY YOUR BEST not 2 kill your self you could end up in the job u always wanted 2 do|
|25 Jan 2007||Monica||Here are some things to think about:
For the reader does not consider themselves a Christian and is having suicidal thoughts:
Give God a chance! Bottom line - if you have tried everything but God, try God! I know this might sound foolish in the midst of the despair and hopelessness you must feel to consider ending the life that God has given you, but God says Himself that He is the only source of true hope. God tells us in the Bible that as a Christ-follower you can live by faith that rests on "the hope of eternal life, which God, who does not lie, promised before the beginning of time " (Titus 1:2) If you don't yet have a relationship in Jesus then you have been living without a hope that can sustain you through the worst of life's circumstances! You can start a relationship with Jesus right now really! One of the best explanations of how to start a relationship with God is found at the following link - http://www.bgea.com/SH_StepsToPeace.asp. I sincerely hope you'll consider putting your faith in God through His Son, Jesus Christ. You were born into this world for one eternal purpose to know God personally and enjoy Him forever.
Isaiah 43:2-3a says, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior". No matter how big the problem, God is bigger. Amen
|23 Jan 2007||Monica||Please, don't do it. Please take this website down. You have no idea how much damage you are doing in people's young lives! This is horrible!
Suicide is never the answer. I know that we all go through trials in our lives where we feel hopeless, unloved and unwanted. But, believe me (from experience) there is more to life if you just live it. But especially if you PRAY and ask God to help you! Ask God to help you with your pain, with your problems, for Him to give you guidance in your life. That's the only reason why I was saved, b/c there was a time in my life where I thought that I could not go on, that I could not endure the pain and suffering and emptiness, and that if I was no longer here, that it would not make a difference. You see those are all LIES! They are lies that the devil wants you to think and believe so that you can fall into the hole of emptiness and desperate attempts to end it all But there is a light at the end of the tunnel in this world, there are solutions to problems and there is love. God loves us all, that is the reason that He created us, that is the reason why He sent his only son, Jesus Christ to pay for our sins! That is the good news, if you believe in Him, and pray, you will live such a wonderful life, full of love, b/c God loves you! He loves each and every one of us. When we need someone to talk to, He is there, weather you believe that he is or isnt (just try, pray and talk to Him) Sometimes people just choose to ignore Him But God has a plan for each and every one of us, a beautiful plan with great meaning. So you do mean a lot to Him, our Heavenly Father and creator, and you do have a purpose in life, just pray and ask God what it is. Dont get tricked by the devil otherwise, b/c he wants you to fail, he wants you to end it all..that is just what he does. You are a very special person, you are loved by the most important being in this world, God the all mighty himself. I know if you are not a believer, that this many sound a bit weird, but believe me, if it were not for God, I would not be here. He helped me be strong (I prayed for that) He helped me regain my confidence and strength (I prayed) He helped to guide me in being a better person, in being a better daughter, in feeling better about myself (I prayed for that too) and I know if you speak to Him, He will listen! And He will guide you to where you need to be and give you the strength to endure whatever situation that you may be in. Please, pray, I will pray for you too. And if for any reason you need to talk to me, please email me and I will try my hardest to email back soon (email@example.com)
Remember that God loves you! May God Bless you!
|21 Jan 2007||Mien Jr||its me again on my psp im probably posting on the wrong place but i might be dead in a few..... people who live on will die eventually but worst then suicide all you cowards who say your fine now i bet its just an excuse to avoid pain i can forgive u all since u dont know my story but for those who r sad for those africans dying its their own fault their own stupidity like every other race wat u can blame is religion because of it the world became corrupt fear developed espectially any form of christiani|