|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|26 Jun 2003||the gay punk||will, no... look at me in the eye... oh shit you can't do that...
you are NOT scum. people aren't divided in such a way. people aren't divided at all. that goes out to all of you... pls do not commit suicide for the fact that your parents or some hot blonde big titted chick or in my case blonde hunk has rejected you and put you down at a constant rate.
shit i am talking like a mother. i KNOW HOW YOU ALL FEEL. i took a knike out of the kitchen and thought about it before my mom walked in. there's too great of a chance that we will die if we choose to kill ourselves. fuck. think about this will, what if tomorrow it gets better. if it doesn't epp hoping anyways. ok, dear
|26 Jun 2003||just a girl||actually, you know what will, screw it, screw the fucking world and screw everyone in it, cos they dont give a fucking shit about me anymore and i cant fucking play this sick game anymore.. what is the point? there is none.. we are all just checkers on one big chess board, with god and the devil being the players.. making all the moves..
well screw their rules.. cos i dont fucking want to play anymore.
|26 Jun 2003||just a girl||will, babe.. please dont.. i know how much you just want to give into that feeling.. trust me i know.. i want to give in so bad, and just give up too...
but now isnt the time.. what will you be proving if you give up now? nothing.. who will you be hurting if you give up now? everyone..
at least allow more time, at least hang onto every little thing you have left, at least consider my feelings will.. and dont do this.. at least not now....
|26 Jun 2003||will||ummm, i was laying on the bed listening to my music with the earphones, & i started thinking about hanging myself again. im desperately trying to be really positive about life, but scum like me, just shouldnt exist. i was never planned. i believe that my sisters would never have been sexually abused by my dad if i hadnt been born. my dad had a disability which he passed on to me, so he took out his anger on them, although he did physically abuse and mentally abuse me. but that doesnt matter. perhaps he should have sexually abused me so as to protect them. i wanna cry. if you dont hear from me after friday, you know ive hung myself. im really really sorry :( love Will xx|
|25 Jun 2003||phil||pierre, good on you if u end up dead, im jealous. i wish i had the courage to go through with suicide. but no, i have to live in pain for many reasons. *sob sob*|
|25 Jun 2003||Zique||Well, my only five friends commit suicide last month, I think I missed the train or something. But now I am all alone! I am 13 years old, with no friends, no life, other than a shitty one. I am ugly, overweight, but I know I am destined to do great things. For you see, I am hundreds of years advanced in science in my room. I have harnessed pure energy in no physical form. I have an invention that can pull calcite right out of the ground through a mixture of magnentation and chemical attractants. I have a cup of pure calcite in liquid form, sitting in my room. So I know I could change the world. But I want to kill myself. Why? Oh, no good reason. Life is meaningless to me. I tell people over and over again the answer to their problems but they do not care. I actually do have a small problem other than that, I am fat and unpopular. Most of you don't care about my problem probably. GROW UP! I have had tons of people say to me. Go on and forget it, it will al l be over soon. There are a few particular people I want to kill at my school, and I almost did. I brought a combat knife to school, and was going to kill them, but seemed to forget. So if you can convince me not to, I am putting a large noose around my neck to hang from the pole in my closet, with long sharp rods shot through close together so that when I do jump off from the nice height, the rods go crisscross across my neck enough for a botched beheading at least, or massive blood flow. "Estimated Pain?: Massive Fire brurning in neck for three whole seconds."|
|25 Jun 2003||KRISTEN (KD)||WHY KEEP ALL THE FUN TO YOURSELF? GET A FRIEND TO MURDER YOU IF THEY WANT TO MURDER SOMEONE AND MAKE IT LOOK LIKE SUICIDE BY HIM HANGING YOU OR SOMETHING!!!!|
|25 Jun 2003||MR GRIM||Climb the biggest building you can find and take a nosedive off it and if you don't die on the way down you will die on the impact!!|
|25 Jun 2003||Mac||Depends on why you want to kill yourself.|
|24 Jun 2003||leanne||hey all.i woz listening 2 this the other nite,thought it applies 2 us in sum form.u may not agree.
this is where your sanity gives in/and love begins.
never lose your grip/dont trip/dont fall/you'll lose it all
the sweetest way to die
it lies deep inside/you can not hide/it's the meanest fire
oh it's a strange desire/you can not lie/that's a needless fight
this is where your sanity gives in/and love begins
never lose your grip/dont trip/dont fall/you'll lose it all
the sweetest way to die
when your blood runs dry/you're paralyzed/it will eat your mind
did you hold it back/it comes to you in slow attacks/it's the meanest fire.
|24 Jun 2003||just a girl||hmmm i do wonder why i read such comments as "just a girl, it seriously worries me wen u stay quiet 4 this long".. when my place here has quite obviously been pushed aside, taken over.. and thrown over the edge...
how i wish that next time someone wishes to push me aside and throw me over the edge that i am standing on the surface of non-the-less, my beautiful friend.. the bridge..
less effort, greater outcome.
|24 Jun 2003||Joe||Listen, everyone - I want you to know that what you're going through is NOT the end, and that you can overcome it. I am NOT a teen - I'm 39 years old, but for some weird reason I did a search for "I want to commit suicide" on Google tonight. I'm not sure why, but I was feeling odd. And yes, I did try to kill myself when I was a teen... it was January 4, 1977, to be exact... long before any of you were born. I took a bottle of aspirin (around 29 was all that was there), along with some medicine I had been prescribed for colidous (sp?). Why? Because my life sucked at the time, and I thought there was no way out. I had been depressed for months and had even been committed to a hospital mental ward for this. I was ready to go. But you know what? I woke up from my hopeful death sleep, with a ringing in my ears, and woke up my parents - afraid of what I'd done. To my surprise, they were not mad at me, but concerned and sincere. While they might not have been the greatest parents, they DID care about me, and loved me. This was something I never really believed before then. However, it was enough to get me through that night.
I can't say that life has been a bed of roses since then, but the good times have outweighed the bad by about 95 percent to 5 percent. However in the past 6 months, some of that 5 percent reared its ugly head, and last December I felt the same way I did in January of '77. I sat despondent in my house for a whole day staring at the fire in my fireplace and trying to find a reason why I shouldn't take my shotgun out and blow my head off.
Two things kept me from doing that:
1) the thought of what it would do to my loved ones - including my 4 kids... some of whom are now teenagers, and
2) praying to God to help me out. While I went through 12 years of Catholic school, I've never been what I considered a "holy" person, but I do believe that God cares, and helps us when we need it. If any of you have never seen the movie "It's a Wonderful Life" - with Jimmy Stewart - made in 1946, I think - you need to rent it and watch it. Maybe, just maybe, you'll see something in it that will hit home with you and help you make the right choice. And I can confidently say that the right choice is to CHOOSE LIFE!
Don't listen to the deepest, darkest feelings that are trying to command you now. I honestly believe those are influenced by the devil, who wants to have your soul for eternity in hell... and trust me, that's not where you or anyone else wants you or me to be. If you don't think anyone else cares, know this: I DO! I've never written anything like this to anyone else before, but I can't help but feel that all of you are going through the same (or similar) things that I went through 25 years ago... and in a different, though similar sense, 6 months ago, and I want you to know that someone DOES care about you, and that things WILL get better. It may seem silly and stupid, but if you just pray to God and ask for help - REGARDLESS of your religion, your prayers WILL be answered.
Sorry for the lengthy diatribe, but I really DO care, and hope that I've helped. If so, PLEASE send me an e-mail or respond in this forum. Hang in there.
|23 Jun 2003||pierre||I can't face it anymore, you just can read how pain grow up, I tried to go tchating with, but she did not write back and I kept waiting for a letter, I think I will use an empty needle,read in your site il less painful than hanging, this probably the last word you ever got from me, you know, life is a whore and i am a fuckin teen with no money to feed her, no weapon to face the difficulties i hope it is better upstairs, really hope i could see them crying over my grave, regreting what they have done to me. But it's too late now, too late to help me, cause now I don't need any help, just some mor courage to go trought.being a lonely people for the rest of my life no thank, I'd rather write a bye bye letter so they could understand how deep my pain was.|
|23 Jun 2003||pierre||just a few word to say that sometimes I just feel like crying, and knowing no one could help me is so sad.
In fact during three years i have been insulted, treated like shit by my classmates and that's why I ran away with a rope in my bag, just in case.
But I was too young and missing courage, so I waited during three years from 14 to 17 and know I am really ready for the great trip, ready to see if life exists after death.
I think suicide is the best way to finish your life when you know that those two fucking sister sadness and cries will be around you forever. I hope that life will be happier on the other side
|23 Jun 2003||pierre||I am just writing this mail because i feel so alone, and know it will be the same during my whole life, that's why I prefer to end up now and hang myself.
I really wanna die because it is the only courageous thing I could do.
In fact, no one really knows me and I don't trust people enough to talk to them, that 's why I prefer to die, to keep all the things that hurt inside of me and don't care for the others like they do to me. You know, suicide should be taken seriously, and not as a fuckin joke, death is important so don't make suicide a way to attract attention on you because after you may not be taken seriously and people would keep telling you: well she just wants to attract attention, he is very disturbed these days.That's why hanging yourself is one of the best way to die
|23 Jun 2003||tom||hey guys, im a 16 year old guy from england. im so depressed, i have been for a few years, and a couple months ago, i took an overdose. a big f*cking overdose.
but u know what?it didn't kill me. i'll tel u what it did do: it made me choke on my own sick, hallucinate, convulse, spasm-to the point where three of my fingers snapped- and made me go yellow for a month after.
all i can say is, please don't kill urself thru pill overdose. it's not a nice way to go.
i really want to die, and i've come to the conclusion that the best way is to take a coule sleeping pills to knock u out, but just before u fall asleep, tie a plastic bag round ur head so u suffocate, in peace.
|23 Jun 2003||Me (former suicidal teenager)||Forget yourself to live for the other ones. That is the best way to kill yourself.|
|23 Jun 2003||leanne||in the past 8 days my body has digested: 31 paracetamol 13 ibuprofen 10 aspirin 37 laxatives and 23 diet pills.. achievement: fuk all. last of my 4 most important ppl 2 me has jus exited 2day: best m8 (3yrs) jus moved 2 the other side of england. we were bulimics 2getha all throughout highskool, she kno's virtually my lifestory; recently made the mistake of tellin her of my suicide attempt (jus the 1) she cried 4 a wile, told me it was a big cop out & it wasnt the answer.. rite.. 'so wot, my dear friend, is the answer? told her i was ova it so she can move away feelin guilt-free & worry-less.t he biggest lie ive eva told! we1st met wen i noticed her sittin in the cafeteria wiv no tray. i approached her &found common ground. 2nd person.. nxt door neighbour who i really fell 4 & stil hav not gotton ova. we met wen i moved house a yr ago. sittin outside in my garden@1am, came&spoke 2 me. startd pissin down wiv rain. we stayd there drenched chattin nonstop. howeva, i made anotha mistake; opend up 2 him & poured my tales of woes. l8r he sed he cant b wiv me coz my mind is 'in a messd up place' & i 'need 2 sort myself out' .u c, poor old him couldnt cope wiv my probs! neva spoke 2 me again. he moved away 2 university.
3)my 3 big bros...1 moved 2 australia, otha 2 moved away & we hav v. lil contact.
4)my father. he neva wantd me as a daughter, wantd me 2 b sumfin else 2 him. visit him once a wile in his flat. hadnt seen me in ages (few months ago) & he made comments; how much ive grown in2 a 'sexy' young woman & i had a gorgeous body. jus bout 2 go bed wen he makes an offer 'leanne,wanna sleep wiv me 2nite?' dnt 4get i was alone wiv him & an 1hr's train journey from home. ofcourse i refused, lockd the door & went 2 bed-nite seemd 2 last 4 days. no longer speak 2 him. he tried 2 justify himself, using the excuse of lovin me 2 much. told me not 2 tel mum. wen she found out, he calld me a liar.
ur all probly wonderin y i seem upset bout no.4.well, the truth, i feel nothin but pure rejection. not only from the guy i liked whom i poured out my heart 2 & gave me nothin in return, but also that im not good enuff 2 b a daughter. feel cheap, dirty & no amount of showers will scrub it off.. worst part is a month ago, afta i'd lost contact wiv him & my bros were 1st 2 kno, my fav bro calls me up & nite, tells me all 3 hav been sexually abused by him yrs ago&.. so was i, wen i was 2 young 2 remember. mum knew xactly wot a sik bastard he was, yet she married &stayd wiv him 4 more yrs. she knew wot he dun 2 my bros, they knew wot he did 2 me, yet they wotched me go 2 his house alone 4 yrs wen i had no idea. it cld hav bin prevented, nun of them protected me & told me 2 stay away from him. howeva, mum has no idea i kno i was sexually abused by him: bro sed not 2 tel her. so im livin in anger 2wards mum & i cant even argue it out.
sory 4 typing 2 much. jus wana say 2 all ppl out there wiv abusiv ppl in their lives.. dont fall 4 their petty xcuses or u'l bcum a victim &a sucker 4 bullshit. nothin can justify wot they did & im sory it happend 2 u. keep tlkin through it ere wiv every1..so much eazier tlkin 2 a bunch of strangers.. we r the least likely group of ppl 2 past judgement & disgust unlike the rest of bastard society who r all livin in this fuckin fantasy world. love u. xx
|22 Jun 2003||VeryTired||I'm 32 and have learned enough about life. I've learned that most people are not good and lie with every breath. And the worst part is that they don't even realize it. The fact is that the more deluded a person is the easier it is for them to cope with reality. And why is that?... easy, because true reality sucks ass. No wonder religion and drugs are so popular. They are survival tools. But survive for what? Survive so that some other women (or guys if that's your thing) can rip your heart out by telling you what you want to hear. Words, words, words, but no meaning behind them. Most people do not mean what they say, but I do. I'm too good for this place. I always try to do the right thing, to always tell the truth, to be kind to everyone. And what does it get me but the worst pain I've ever experienced from the one person I love beyond all others. I still love her when I should really hate her. But I can't. Now isn't that ironic? If only I could be like most people and keep some for myself, but no, I gave her all I had and now there's nothing left for anything else. There is no joy. There is only "going through the motions", and acting like everyting is ok, when really all I want is peace. To stop thinking for just a little while. And if that means saying goodbye to this pathetic existence, then so be it. I only fear one thing. I can only pray that there isn't any reincarnation. I don't ever want to come back to this place ever again. Game over. End program. Remember that when you try to kill yourself, I suggest using a prescription drug. Mix it with a lot of Tylenol, or alchohol. And remember to crush the drugs and maybe mix them into a drink. Crushed drugs will enter the bloodstream much quicker. Good luck and hope I don't see anything on the other side. I'm not saying you should kill yourself, maybe you will have better luck than me. I wish you guys/gals the best. Or at least better than me.|
|22 Jun 2003||will||lol at the resource room lucy. i can just imagine it.....|