|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|05 Nov 2003||peach||I decided if i was really determined which today im not then the best way is pills and alcohol. The other night I took a few pills about 7 and sum vodka and the come down from it was so awful so im guessing that the alcohol really helps so if pills arent working for u try adding a lil cocktail. im glad MAUVAIS is still here cos i dont wanna still be here 2 watch any1 else go. im selfish i know and eventually i will die because of the constant overdose i have been takin for 2 weeks so soon enuf it will take its toll and it will kill me. i wish so much it would just end now actually. i dont wanna go on anymore. i dont wanna grow up and have 2 work more. make it stop. plz. ppl talk 2 me
peach x x x
|04 Nov 2003||MauvaisSouhait||Chris, you'd be happy to know that what all those pills ended up doing to me is make me so sick i ended up throwing almost all of them up. Unfortunately i didn't die like i wished. But in those moments while i layed in my bed and prayed for the pills to take me quickly i thought of you and your caring towards me. After i'd thrown up a few times and there was nothing left in my stomach i fainted on the floor and im not sure for how long i was actually "out" but the moment i woke up i thought of you again chris and i was slightly glad to be alive because i want to be able to talk to you sometime. one on one. before i try again to kill myself. And about your dream. i would never make u leave, i would welcome u w/ open arms into my house and hope that you'd stay forever. I would never turn you away. I'd hope to be able to help you with w/e your problems were from now until our end. It is a shame tho that we didnt talk before i tried to kill myself just last week but maybe sometime soon before my next attempt. I love you chris and i'm glad for now that i didnt die. yet.
|04 Nov 2003||Bily||Tell your dad that you fucked your mom when he was nailin the chick that babysits you.|
|04 Nov 2003||Chris||Shit just piles up, it's stinking and I'm deep in it. I just did another major fuck up. I promised Mauvais that we would talk and that I would e-mail and I never fucking did it. It was hard to find what to say to this girl. I really loved her and I really cared and I assumed (wrongly) that she wouldn't go before we would have talked. After all she came here fairly recently and most of us who have been talking about suicide for much longer have still not done it. But, alas, what can I do now except wish her luck? Like a priest who prays on someone who's dead or dying I'm going to try and make our last (exclusively mouchette.org, suicidal) 'prayer', 'words', call them what you like...
'Suicide is a person's attempt to give final human meaning to a life which has become humanly meaningless... Love does not cling to the I in such a way as to have the You only for its 'content', its object; but love is between I and You. The person who does not know this, with his very being know this, does not know love; even though he ascribes to it the feelings he lives through, experiences, enjoys and expresses. Love ranges in its effect through the whole world. In the eyes of him who takes his stand in love, and gazes out of it, men are cut free from their entangelment in bustling activity. Good people and evil, wise and foolish, beautiful and ugly, become successively real to him; that is, set free they step forth in their singleness and confront him as You.
Suicide is an act of communication from the dead to the living. It is man's only means, at this early stage of his development, to establish the telepathic communion which will eventually end his loneliness and crash through the barriers of pain he has created between the living and the dying. Only those who have chosen to die can unite the living and those living must try to achieve what others achieved in death. (That is why a hunger strike or threatining to kill yourself in some other way is the most powerful weapon of a persecuted minority). Confrontation with the dreadful truth that a person might wisely choose death is (or I hope will be in your case) an experience more productive of pity and terror and more purifying than the cathartic experience in tragedy.'
Well, where did that put me? Back to square one, I'm still standing in deep shit and I will have to carry this burden (piled up on all the others) through the rest of my life. And despite of all this shit I don't seem to have the balls to commit suicide. I know that there are some (and I mean very few) people who will be hurt and I just keep hoping (wrongly) that I would manage to get a new life. I feel I'm really stuck in a rut but suicide will hurt myself too. How can I do it? Will Mauvais ever forgive me? I think she shouldn't! Well, I wish her best luck, wherever she is and whatever she's doing, and I believe (and hope) that she would be wishing us best luck too.
B.I.H Chris (I think that's more appropriate than R.I.P) For those who haven't got it it's Burn In Hell!
P.S. I wish Mauvais was still around just to read this at least! Bye luv xxxxxxxxx
See ya all in hell!
|04 Nov 2003||some one you will never know||as i close my eyes for one more blink i think the thoughts that i shouldnt think 1 min. from death i think about my life and the hopeless lover without his wife and i cant take it i want it to end my wounds will never mend will i say good bye to my best friend would the thoughts of me fade then sink i cant not think these thoughts as i finish my final blink i blink and my lifes not done i am still here yet again with blood still staind on my wrists..... i cant i wont this gun will help tape my heart back together but when i speak to you my mind goes bleak for you i hate this life i hate this life why wont it end the virginity i will never get back the pride i lost my sanity ive wasted the blood ive tasted for what for nothin im sad and mad you all know this now... what to do kiss this gun and say good night try with all my might to die this instant to stop the pain and will never be the same forever hurting and internally insane never what to do what to do.....
|03 Nov 2003||Johnny||There's never a situation that is bad enough to kill oneself. Move to a different city or something, get a dog, watch porn, smoke weed.|
|03 Nov 2003||lynette||questions questions hmmm... they should start with yourself. is there really nothing to live for? for some there isn't anything. cutting... hell i cut but does it solve problems? crying... does it really wash away your pain? the people who claim to care do they care or are they faking it? do you have faith? is there really someone out there some superior creature watching over you? i don't think so. does your life really suck that much that you want to hurt the people who care? do you want to stick it out and wait until your life is in the hands of another? do you want to end your life with a blade or a gun? these are a few of the questions i have but i think i should answer them.... and life does suck you just have to deal and when you can't find love and when that doesn't work death can be an option|
|02 Nov 2003||So What||Eat pills & drink your mum's bacardi till u pass out with a silly smile on your face! remember to do it gradually or your body might reject it then you have to start again.|
|02 Nov 2003||Claudia||I live in Los Angeles and I want to kill myself. I want to get a gun but I don't know where to get one. I want to shoot myself in the head. Can anyone help please... my back up plan is OD with my dad's diabetes pills. Thanks.|
|02 Nov 2003||Felicia was framed||To Just A Girl, The Folks, Lucy
My Personal Vendetta
Today I made my involuntary resignation at a cow ranch, totally against my will. Next week, this coming Friday, will be my last day.
Yes. From the sting of it, I had run into a dead end unfortunate situation. I was indeed the target of four toxic villains, so I thought. Okay, make it three, counting off Cowboy Bob, who I thought was a culprit at first. The rest of the three varmints, Stud Boy, Silent Bubba, and that fat bitch Prima Donna, made sure to it that they kept track of every single mistake I supposedly made.
And Stud Boy lied.
I kept account of all my task quotas, and they said I didnt brand enough cows. For the effort of saying that I was trying despite the brutal hoof kicks and burning cow hair, they wanted me out. It was obvious that they didnt want me. First tears came in my eyes, then resentment. Well? Wouldnt you feel the same if you had two mouths to feed, and a Ma who is about to fall off her rocker?
Afterwards at the end of the day I was plotting a form of revenge. To go postal by ordering a sawed off shot gun at the convenience store would be illegal. But to take revenge indirectly by advertising their competition would be the sweetest revenge. Word of mouth by rumor will kill the business. They happened to do it to me by dirtying my name for future employment, so its back to them publicly?
Yes, like a tabloid? Yes (Brief moment of silence.) Well? Shouldnt I?
Sigh . Only in a perfect world.
- Yes, this is based on a true story.
|02 Nov 2003||ID 10 T Form||Buy an embalming video from http://bluelips.com/?source=sui , study the video and then embalm yourself. Nothing quite like self preservation.|
|01 Nov 2003||peach||when your 13 or 15 as i am your parents are part of your problem right? you dont really want to try and hang yourself or jump off of a bridge incase you survive and then you will have to face your family or the people who love you. however much you love them its not enough right? you want something more but you cant find it, everything is too hard at school and quite franckly you cant be fucked anymore. whats the point anyway?? im here becos of about 2 ppl but im sure i they leave my life then i will leave life. the best way in my oppinion is pills ibuprofen bein the strongest u can buy your safe with 70 i should say. that seems extreme but small amounts like 20 are only going to damage your liver and then you have parents to answer to about why you did it and then councelling bollox. i'v tried before but held back there are only a few things holding me back but right now they're strong enough i hope i can hold on to them.
|01 Nov 2003||mo||carbon mononxide|
|01 Nov 2003||Mustafa||ok, straight answer, if you really willing to commit suicide, you must be very determined so you will go to heights to achieve you goal, so the abosolute best way of commiting suicide is carbon monoxide, loads of it, just inhale and you're gone within 20 seconds, totally painless, you can get it from industiral stores, although you will need a licence to get some, but since you are very determined you will find a way round.
However, what happens after you die ? what if it's worse than now? what if there really is a god and hell, and all religious stuff (puts off most people)?
The other way to think of it is let this be a challenge and go through it, and by time you have completed this challenge, you will defiinitely have acquired groundbreaking problem solving skils which will help you out through life , and you will feel happy.
so your friends are fake and competitive, use them like they use you, and go beyond them , again think of this as a challeng, they don't know this is a challenge, so they won't be prepared but you will and hence you will beat them.
so your boyfriend's pretty , look beyond that, will take time, but once you have seen it, you will know what i am talking about , and trust me it will feel great.
Gangsters quote " when you become really scared of death , you will really start to appreciate life " , try ultra strong cannabis , will help you understand this quote.
But in the end Carbon Monoxide is the real deal , the best thing , when you are 13 and under
|01 Nov 2003||Nikki||To me the best way to kill yourself is to take pills and take a lot because if you dont your not going anywhere. I have been trying and thinking about suicide since i was 12 and i'm 15 now. i felt like i was alone in the world and nobody cared if i lived or died. i was in love with a 19 yr. old named Antwan (i was 12 at the time) and one day he asked could he come over and wait for my brother to come home and i said he could. He parked his car down to road at an old house. he came in and sat beside me and started to touch me. i mean i liked him, but, i was still ony 12 and he took my virginity, that night and i have never seen him since and felt broken inside like a play toy.|
|01 Nov 2003||marisa||slit ur wrist|
|01 Nov 2003||somebody heartbroken forever||hey this is not to anybody inparticular. im 13. ive slit my wrist 5 times since july 2003-august 2003. ive tryied to od but it doesnt seem to work. ive even jumped out in front of a car but the car swerved. FUCKERS, but i havent thought about suicide since august. it just recently came back this month and my life is a tormenting hell everyday is the same. i hate life. i wanna die. but i want it to be in a very easy painless way. other then the 2 ive tryied please anybody with suggestions email them to me at email@example.com. i would greatly appreciate it.
***the very miserable katie***
im not shooting myself or jumping off a bridge
|01 Nov 2003||just a girl||mmmm
i do wonder why i still visit this site.. although most of you would think i either died or just vanished.. i am still here.. (getting on with my life as a matter of fact) yet i do come by from time to time, just to check up on everyone..
this used to be my home.. this used to be my escape from reality.. this used to be all i had.. but things have changed.. although i can still read and understand just about every entry that comes before my eyes, they are no longer my thoughts..
but i know, one day again, they will be. for as i quote Felicia, or rather, blondey from The Long Kiss Goodnight.. "life is pain..." but i guess i got used to it...
i hope when i do find myself thinking of jumpin off the pretty steel bridge near my skool one day (i hope i never do again tho), i can come here again.. and be welcome again.. to be me, just a girl.....
life does go on guys...
|01 Nov 2003||MauvaisSouhait||oh mouchette, thankyou for being here and giving me a place to put my messages it was sweet, but now might be my end, i cant really feel too much right now, im only going to miss Chris, he was sweet tho i never knew him, and he never e-mailed me.. he was nice... i cared... i think im gonna be sick, i have to go now.
|01 Nov 2003||Steve||Wow, goodbye Mauvais, my thoughts are with you.|