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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|23 Mar 2004||Max||Hello.
I have read a lot of what people have said here and have wanted to add in and help, but did not know what to say. I am not a talented writer like Chris and many other people here, but I will try anyway. I am 17 and I have thought about suicide a lot. It may sound strange, but I am not really sure how suicidal I actually am or not. (Im moody person and today I woke up in a good mood. I might speak very differently about this if I woke up in bad one.)
So I guess the best I can do right now is say what has worked for me.
The one most important thing that, I think, has kept me alive this long has been painting. This, though, is just what I happened to be able to do, it is having a way to express yourself that is important. Painting, for me, is important because it makes me feel like I am at least doing something worthwhile in all the time I spend alone. It helps me deal with all the issues that bother me. I cant say exactly how it works, but once I express a thought that has been bothering me in a painting it then feels like I have come to different terms with it. Although it is still there, I am much better able to deal with it.
Drawing and later painting was just what I first turned to when I started feeling like I knew there was something different about me a few years back. It could be any number of different things that works for you, so it is a good idea to try a bunch of different art forms and find what feels the best. Writing, music, poetry... there are a ton of different ways! Although you cant expect to be very good at it right away, there is no way you will learn ant form better than if you have a suicidal dependency on it!
Also it should be known that anyone can learn to express themselves. It seems like sometimes people believe you are born an artist or you are not - this is not true in the least! Everyone has that part of the brain that you use to create art from in them. Some people just dont learn to use it. (If this interests you, read Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain by Betty Edwards. It is about how anyone can learn to draw, and the more psychological side of art, what is happening in the brain and all.)
Learning about psychology also, I think, has helped me begin to better understand myself.
So what I guess what is important here is to make some goals for yourself. I want always to be a better artist. Sometimes, when I am feeling really angry, my goal is only to show all the people I cant stand what an unpleasant place it is in my head in my paintings, in hope of making them feel a bit uncomfortable, or maybe even realize how little emotion they know. And that is ok! I dont succeed in that goal, but it's a goal so it is better than nothing.
I also like to know how there were many great people who dealt with depression and suicide. Do any of you have a favorite? Mine would have to be Van Gogh, although there are many of them. Maybe some of the writers like Sylvia Plath would be more appealing to the large writing community that seems to exist here.
Well this is all I can think of to say for right now, if it sounds like I may have something in common with you or you want to talk feel free to Email me. Maxk86@hotmail.com
|23 Mar 2004||Donnyman||Attach your friend's anus to your mouth with cement. Then, as the days and weeks go by, as they continue to eat, they'll just shit down your throat until you choke.|
|23 Mar 2004||Sadie||Hanging, drug o.d.-preferably heroin it kills the pain and you! Anyone need to know how to cook up smack and shoot it properly, I've been doing it since I was 16!|
|23 Mar 2004||lindesy||wat is da best way to kill ur self wythout getting hurt? is it pills? but will it realli work?? cuz i wanna to died..|
|22 Mar 2004||Kylie Minogue|| When you open yourself to another, be prepared to be challenged and even hear things that could to a pedestrian view - be interpreted as harsh, rude and even cruel. There are a couple of people now that i have allowed 'beyond the barricade'. One is an intellectual exchange with someone i have known off and on for several years and who came into my life on a professional basis but has now transcended that into someone who is always ready to exchange , challenge, and engage with me. There is also someone i have known for a couple of years whom i view as a partner. Sometimes this person is harsh in his commentary and i may instinctively want to hide and be alone, hold my head in my hands. And feel the weight of remembering just how alone i really am. And then with this inner heaviness, wearing my face and my demeanor like a mask and listening to the inner voice that reminds me who i am and of the loyalty i have to my own self, i know that nothing he or anyone says to me matters because they do not know my experience or what i feel or what i think. And i do not have an obligation to explain myself to them. And if i let outside forces decide my attitude-- like feeling that my feelings are hurt---, i will be nothing more than a puppet tossed about helplessly. And to do that gives importance to the unimportant.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR EMOTIONS.
Emotions come and emotions go. One day you are happy. The next you are sad. None of it is real. None of it is YOU. do not become a slave to your emotions.
The most efficient way i have found to balance is to go off on my own and run and walk and experience Hard vigorous exercise. Being in touch with the physical body and the connection your mental chemistry has with it. i cannot state that enough. The mental chemistry your thoughts and feelings/moods, have with your body's condition. Exercise is amazing 'therapy.'
|22 Mar 2004||mickey b||hey. im not actaually 13. im 14 but i thought that might as well count. ive been depressed for 4yrs now. and i hav cum 2 a decision. ive contemplated suicide. i hav decided to do it. probably something messy like a gun or somethin. gets the job done quickly. or a knife. i sorta did this 2 get advice. email me at firstname.lastname@example.org|
|22 Mar 2004||mel||If I were to commit suicide I would hang myself out my window. I wouldnt want the first time to be sucessful. But make sure someone's watching then jump. After you're saved, act like you're fine, you'll lots of things. Your parents and friend will pay more attention then when you go top or get out of the physc (however you spell it) ward shoot yourself in the head or take pills (about 20 30 or 40) only this time be sucessful.|
|21 Mar 2004||Mister K||"I am a suicide survivor"
Hah. Not THAT is a funny quote....
|21 Mar 2004||Christine||In the first place i would like to ask... Why do you want to do such a thing? I am a mother of a 7 yrs old boy who lost his father to suicide when he was only 18 months old. I to this day am in a new relationship but still suffer from this awful thing called suicide. My son to this day asks questions about his father and cries every night to have his father near him. You don't just hurt yourself doing this you also hurt many people who love you after you end your life. I till this day miss my son's father and have many unanswered questions that can never be answered. I am also depressed and is on antidepressants but that would never make me end my life. I have thought about it when i was younger but now i relieve how much it hurts the people you leave behind. So please don't ever commit suicide before you even think about it go get help please.. Do it for the ones who are left behind when you would be gone....|
|21 Mar 2004||sucide_Ryan17||why would you want to kill yourself if you were 13 anyway?! trust me until you get up to 14-15, thats when life becomes shite!! I have a crap maths GCSE and am failing it, I am ugly as fuck, no girl likes me, I have no friends, Ive been through 2 jobs already and lost them both, I know I'm going to do absolute shit in life, I just know I am! But Ive only got the guts to do a overdose on parecetamol, I haven't the guts to jump or do half the shit posted on here. But I do want to die and be relieved of this shite life of mine that I know is going to end badly and I am going to end up as a tramp on the street on something, I need to die, I just haven't got what it takes to be in this world, I just haven't, I'm going to overdose on Parecetamol though, that's the only way out of this stinking world, but I am still not 100% sure, I have my days where I want to, but then sometimes I dont, its crazy!! but to answer the question, there is no good way of killing yourself, its all painful and bad, its just down to what u got the guts to do|
|20 Mar 2004||*Mouchette*|| AhsirK~
The fragrance of blood
thick when we were near
i surrender my history
and all my memory of you
My grief has become
a nation of everyone
a land without intent
i find these comments endearing. They`re as inpredictable as my former species itself, and majoritorily just as lavishly inane. Certain rituals of yore recall my lower starter-life as little else here can.
*Mouchette* is catching on in certain circles. You`ll see them seated, knee to knee, salamander smooth backsides exposed. Quaint, foggy, primitive, hopeless, soporific, yet engaging as Death
|20 Mar 2004||Nina||An Ice cycle, for then there will always be the question of how you did it, but you must do it in a bathtub or the water will be odvious.|
|19 Mar 2004||brian||hy I am Brian, 16, and I am looking for a way to commit a painless suicide.
if you can help me please contact me on this email adress
|19 Mar 2004||JENNY||THIS SITE IS SIK U SHUD NOT COMMIT SUICIDE IT IS SO NOT COOL AND WOMEVA STARTED THIS SITE IS A SIK MUTHA FUKA I PRAY TO OUR GOD THAT KNOW1 WIL TAKE ADVICE FROM THIS SITE AND THEY SHUD LIVE FOR EVE AMENX X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X|
|19 Mar 2004||JENNY||PILLS. ONCE U HAVE TOOK THEM THERE IS NO GOING BAC PERSONLY I DONT WANT TO DIE AND I DONT WANT OTHER PPL TO DIE BUT IF U HANG YOURSELF U CAN CUT THE ROPE IF U STAB YOURSELF U GET HELP IF U JUMP OFF A BUILDING U MIGHT BREAK EVERY BONE IN YOUR BODY AND NOT DIE IF IF U SHOOT YOURSELF U FEEL PAIN PILLS 1MINUTE UR ALIVE NEXT UR DEAD X X X|
|19 Mar 2004||emma||Hang yourself.|
|19 Mar 2004||fiona||i cant believe those bastards who try to shut this site down. my mate was suicidal but when she read all the stories on this site she sorted herself out. im still suicidal but this site is a place where u can express ur feelings on how u feel and u dont get this piss taken out of u by some idiot who thinks the worlds perfect
email me at email@example.com if u have a good way to kill myself
|19 Mar 2004||You people are a bunch of pathetic losers just looking for someone to feel sorry for you. Everyone has a fucked up life, you just have to deal with it. Everyones parents mess them up in some way but that is no reason to want to end you life. If you are under 13 and want to kill yourself i strongly urge you to think about what you really want. Yeah school sucks, people may make fun of you, your parents may fight all the time, or even beat you; but it WILL get better. You are not going to live with them forever. Eventually you will be out on your own and you will not have to deal with them anymore. I think that you people who sit there and threaten suicide and try retarded things that never work like taking a bottle of asprin and drinking are just a bunch of weak losers who are looking for attention. Everyone knows that the people who really go through with it don't whine and cry about it, they don't threaten it, they do it. On second thought take back everything i said before, get a gun drive to a field and shoot yourself in the head. The world doesn't need anymore pathetic excuses of life.|
|19 Mar 2004||sadie harrington||SI. hanging, shooting yourself|
|18 Mar 2004||Rachel||hello Ive posted my thoughts on this be4
I tried killing myself yesterday, I toulk 40 pillz and and I woke up, Now Im just in hell Ive locked myself in my room Im not coming out I wanto DIE and Im not coming out till I do. I still have 100 pillz left should I take them???
Im in my room right now wtf should I do.
Im only 12. I cant take living enymore.
My life is 10 timez worse then eny1 elsez
I can promise U. This is my story
when I was 5 years old my mom thrue a glass cup at my dad until he started running away as he started bleeding and he saw me watching and so did my mom , I dunt kno wut exactlly happend but they went mad they started chasing me with a knife. and they got me , they got me rite inda arm. my mom was puton restraing order but only 4 a year. at that time I was put into a home and it was really bad ther I would cry myself evry night to bed and I had nothing to rely on I had nobody to love or nobody who loved me. then when I got bak I went bak wif my mom and dad but then they got a devorce evry night my mom said I was an accident and that it is all y fault they devorced. I wouldent stop crying. unitl I got this diary I wrote out my heart and wut it felt and it was my only friend. but then more shit started happening. My mom was getting madder and madder evry day. she started chasing me alot wif a knife and I have all these bruises. My dad callz me some timez to tell me how much he hatez me and how much he wantz to kill me.
and when I started getting some friendz at skool my mom went and put a restraining order on dem and its the worst feeling inda world having no friendz or your friend ahte u and I just cant take it enymore I feel like this world is leening on my and my back is about to break, I just cant lift it enymore. Having to know taht if u die and have no1 care hurts me alot.
I started cutting myself last moth and I liked watching the blud drip down, it made me feel better. I think its gonna make me feel better when I die.
BUT I NEED SOME1 TO TELL ME HOW ICANT TAKE THIS ENYMORE.