|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|14 Oct 2004||stuart creighton||the best way to kill yourself when you are under 13 is take a knife and slit your wrist in the bath!|
|14 Oct 2004||Donna Elder||I've taken 60 panadol and two bottles of vodka along with 21 sleeping pills. I'm very drowsy as I browse the net but still in my right mind. I have a blinding headache that makes me want to bang my head off the wall. I just felt the need to say bye somewhere and came across this site. So I'll just say Goodnight all. Love Donna xx|
|14 Oct 2004||?||I am 12
i tried to fucking kill myself with my samurai katana my parents got to decorate my room with. when we bought it it was sharp and i thought that it was still sharp. so i hung it from my ceiling in a way so that when i cut a string and i was laying down it would behead me. i cut the string and life slowed down, i realized that i didnt want to die. the next thing i knew i felt a thud against the lower part of my head and everything went black. i woke up in in what im guessing was a few hours later
i thought wow being dead is a lot like being alive but i then realized that i was alive and my katana was dull. luckily my parents were out so they never found out about it
|13 Oct 2004||Tamworth||get a bike and ride on the opposite side of the road into an oncoming truck|
|13 Oct 2004||idOcrEatING||go out with style! grab a knife (or any weapon) and hold your worse teacher hostage. when the negotiators think you are about to let the teacher go, slice (or shoot) (or cave in) their head. Then proceed to the school toilets and repeatedly flush the chain to help drown yourself|
|13 Oct 2004||Saffron||If you are going to kill yourself do it so that you manage it. I tried and failed. I am alive minus my legs.|
|12 Oct 2004||john||I think you just want some attention because if you are dead serious about killing yourself, you would have done it already without making a big fuss about it. I think you are a yellow belly coward of a person... why don't you go out there and enjoy life. Do something good to your neighbors and friends. That my friend, is what will make you truly happy.|
|12 Oct 2004||K||DRink alcohol... just drink and drink and drink even if you feel sick
you dont feel the pain if your 100,000,000 wasted out your brains
|12 Oct 2004||Abby||Swallow a leggo|
|11 Oct 2004||Jimmy||How To Commit Suicide
First let me say that death will achieve ultimate freedom from pain, fear, and depression. It is also the only way to experience complete peace. The hell of this pointless life and existence holds absolutely no meaning or reason to live. Nothing matters anymore because the deep pain is all that can be felt, and every day it only gets worse and worse. No one cares! They have proven it by how they hurt me. LOVE IS A LIE! The voice inside says freedom from the pain is to just end it, so get it over with. I know these things and I know how to commit suicide because I did it. Let me explain... My life really sucked and the deep black hole just kept getting deeper and darker. There was no way out, nothing anyone could say changed the fact that my life was hopeless and to die was the only answer. So I made a decision to end it all and I did it.
I killed myself, but didn't die completely. What actually died was my mind and all the pain in my heart. I was still physically alive, but everything else died and the whole world looked different to me afterwards. I escaped and the freedom from the pain was awesome. Let me tell you a secret. You don't have to physically die to end it all. This really works! You will be so glad when the old you is dead because you can't go on another day like this... Can you? If you are going to kill yourself, today or are thinking about it, call Toll Free: 800-784-2433 (answered 24 hours) to find out more about death. You don't want to make a mistake because you don't get a second chance after you do it. If you want to find out more on what to do to get free, continue reading and I will explain.
Death is the Only Option
It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.
Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.
The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard. Death is the only escape and love is a lie.
When you are at this point, there really was no other way out but to die. But most don't know that you can die without physically killing yourself. The answer is to be willing to give it all up. All your thoughts, wants, dreams, failures, hate, cares, fears, the past, future, and all painful relationships you have to let everything go. There is only one thing you can hang on to... God. If you do this, I promise you will end up dying to yourself and find total freedom and peace. But, there is no way you can do this on your own, you have to have others help you, but the choice is yours. You can believe the lie that killing yourself is the answer, or you can choose the only answer which is God.
If you try to go on and push through life out of your own strength, you will continue to fail and go deeper and deeper into despair. Or, you can find out who you really are and what you were created for. Did you know that you have a specific purpose and God created you for it. You have to get the lies out of your head and find out what your purpose is to pull out of the death trap. Don't be fooled! There is one that is trying to take your soul to hell and is constantly filling your thoughts with lies. Find out the truth, don't be taken. Let God remove all the lies in your head and all the pain in your heart. He is waiting for you to call out to Him. He is the only one that can take away the pain, but He uses certain people and special relationships to accomplish this. Again, if you feel there is nothing that can stop you from killing yourself, call right now Toll Free - 800-784-2433 to talk with someone. If you don't think you can talk to someone, go to the web site below for more information and answers to many suicide questions.
|11 Oct 2004||im4dogs||i need help PLEASE!!! i want to commit suicide and i need help but i just cant get myself to tell anyone. im afraid of what they will think of me. HELP PLEASE!|
|11 Oct 2004||ian||there is no easy way of killing urself iv tried hanging pils cutting and stabbing but it has not worked for me yet but i no one day it will, i keep trying yes i have s/w and under the doctor but they dont no what its like iv tried and failed up to now that does not mean theres hope for others out there x|
|11 Oct 2004||Man with a slightly demented brain.... possible dysfunction of..||I want to have a good life for myself, but I always waste my time. Ill waste my time in all kinds of ways..... like searching for pointless crap on the net, like rotten.com, and if I dont waste time on the net, then maybe Ill waste time by watching tv..... and if I dont waste time watching tv, Ill waste time by listening to the same songs over and over again, forcing myself to experience the same painful emotions over and over again, wishing that I could express myself and people could feel what is in me. If Im not doing that, you might catch me wasting time lying in my bed, staring at the wall, thinking about how lonely I am and how I wish I was with someone, how sad and pathetic I am, how much I hate myself and I hate my life, how much angst and anxiety there is within me, how I feel I am a failure, like I dont deserve and am not capable of having good things, or just thinking about confrontations with people that never even happened, and probably would never happen. Or you might find me wandering the streets in the middle of the night, thinking of things that never were, thinking of all that I am missing out on in this life, thinking about how I have nothing, that I am a victim, that there is no reason to live. It's like I am in some kind of never ending struggle that doesn't even exist except inside my head. Man, the hours can just drift by and you dont even know it. Ive got to stop this.
Watch your thoughts, they become your reality. My reality is a reality that no one else knows of or understands. I do not sleep, I cannot work because I am always fighting a dragon on the inside, which isn't even "real". The dragon is burning me and killing me. Life can be a dream or a nightmare. Right now my life is a nightmare and I can't wake up. If I won the lottery, had everything that a person could ever want, the dragon would still be in me and I could never be happy. JUST GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|11 Oct 2004||Scared and lost, but still here||So your 13 and want to die... Well, let me tell you a little something to think about before you put a shotgun to your chest and pull the trigger. On that note a friend of mine did that last year when he was drunk. Couldn't deal with life anymore. After going to his funeral I realized how this affected so many people. Especially since the thought of killing myself was in my mind as well. I dealt with it and went on. (trust me it wasn't easy)
Then about three months ago I got drunk with another friend of mine and on the way home, I passed out at the wheel on the road and my car slammed into a tree. My friend died instantly. I was pretty beaten up, but at least I didn't go through the windshield. Now I am awaiting trial for manslaughter of my best friend. At least I'm not in jail right now. I fear I won't make it to trial, and that I will kill myself, but at the same time I fear I will go to prison. I'm scared, but I'm afraid to commit suicide because I remember what happens at the funeral and the months after. It's hard. I can't picture my family and a few friends looking down at me in a casket.
By the way, I'm 20 years old... If you're 13 think about what you're doing. Seriously. I thought about killing myself at that age but I'm glad I didn't. I've learned so much since then. Life got better, then life got worse. Then it got better again.
"at the end of every dark hallway there's a light, what matters is whether or not that light is death or another great memory waiting to be made"
It's your choice, but I've been through so much and I'm still here.
I don't want to sound like a dad or something, I just want to let you know that there's always a better way to deal with everything.
Think about it....
|11 Oct 2004||Sarah||Try to get through it. If that's not possible, I'd suggest something quick, because otherwise you will probably get scared. If you guys think suicide is so beautiful, why haven't you killed yourselves?|
|11 Oct 2004||Felicia The Great||Dear Mouchette.Org and Friends,
On a mental note, one day I ran across a handwritten article that my deceased father left in a manilla folder. A month ago, I sufferred a nervous breakdown and cried my eyes out to two therapists. Oh.... the tissues were used up and I cried so hard, I swore I almost gagged out a lung. Till that one day, I read the article my father left me, it struck a chord for optimism. Now, I know it may not work for everybody. Some excepts may be confusing to some, but you will kind of get it. In other words, through conscience reading, you'll get the point. Unfortunately, some of the readers will think that this is some kind of bullshit, but to be honest, it is helping me.
So folks, if you dare to read, please keep this advise to yourselves and don't let any family member or friend of yours know what you are doing. (I am referring to people not reading this post site.) I have heard so many people promise that they would change themselves and fail. (I'm a good example.) But to someone who feels like a complete failure and to the next person, just realize that if you stumble and feel down, realize that you are not alone in this cruel, cruel world. And to Phil, my inspirational friend, and Billy The Freak, who is really the one eyed green monster with two legs, and to the frantic people hanging on a limb and trying to survive, before you contemplate suicide, even if you are an Athiest, read on and enjoy a nice cup of coffee.
Ready? Here is the article.
The Seven-Day Mental Diet
By Emmett Fox
"The subject of diet is one of the foremost topics of the present day in public interest. Newspapers, books, the Internet, and magazines teem with articles on the subject. The nutrition section of bookstores is filled with volumes unfolding the mysteries of proteins, starches, vitamins, carbohydrates, and so forth. The whole world is food-conscious. Experts on the subject are saying that physically you are what you eat. Your whole body is really composed of the food that you have eaten in the past. What you eat today, will be in your bloodstream after the lapse of so many hours, and it is your blood-stream that builds all the tissues composing your body - and there you are.
Of course, no sensible person has any quarrel with all this. It is perfectly true, as far as it goes, and the only surprising thing is that it has taken the world so long to find it out; but in this pamphlet I am going to deal with the subject of dieting at a level that is infinitely more profound and far reaching in its effects. I refer of course to mental dieting.
The most important of all factors in your life is the mental diet on which you live. It is the food, which you furnish to your mind that determines the whole character of your life. It is the thoughts you allow yourself to think, the subjects that you allow your mind to dwell upon, which make you and your surroundings what they are. As they days, so shall they strength be. Everything in your life today the state of your body, whether healthy or sick, the state of your fortune, whether prosperous or impoverished, the state of your home, whether happy or the reverse, the present condition of every phase of your life in fact-is entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you have entertained in the past, by the habitual tone of your past thinking. And the condition of your life tomorrow, and next week, and next year, will be entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you choose to entertain from now onwards.
In other words, you choose your life, that is to say, you choose all the conditions of your life, when you choose the thoughts upon which you allow your mind to dwell. Thought is the real causative force in life, and there is no other. You cannot have one kind of mind and another kind of environment. This means that you cannot change your environment while leaving your mind unchanged, nor-and this is the supreme key to life and the reason for this pamphlet -can you change your mind without your environment changing too.
This then is the real key to life: if you change your mind your conditions must change too- your body must change, your daily work or other activities must change; your home must change; the color-tone of your whole life must change-for whether you be habitually happy and cheerful, or low-spirited and fearful, depends entirely on the quality of the mental food upon which you diet yourself.
Please be very clear about this. If you change your mind your conditions must change too. We are transformed by the renewing of our minds. So now you will see that your mental diet is really the most important thing in your whole life.
This may be called the Great Cosmic Law, and its truth is seen to be perfectly obvious when once it is clearly stated in this way. In fact, I do not know of any thoughtful person who denies its essential truth. The practical difficulty in applying it, however, arises from the fact that our thoughts are so close to us that it is difficult, without a little practice, to stand back as it were and look at them objectively.
Yet that is just what you must learn to do. You must train yourself to choose the subject of your thinking at any given time, and also to choose the emotional tone, or what we call the mood that colors it. Yes, you can choose your moods. Indeed, if you could not you would have no real control over your life at all. Moods habitually entertained produce the characteristic disposition of the person concerned, and it is his disposition that finally makes or mars a person's happiness.
You cannot be healthy; you cannot be happy; you cannot be prosperous; if you have a bad disposition. If you are sulky, or surly, or cynical, or depressed, or superior, or frightened half out of your wits, your life cannot possibly be worth living. Unless you are determined to cultivate a good disposition, you may as well give up all hope of getting anything worthwhile out of life, and it is kinder to tell you very plainly that this is the case.
If you are not determined to start in now and carefully select all day the kind of thoughts that you are going to think, you may as well give up all hope of shaping your life into the kind of thing that you want it to be, because this is the only way.
In short, if you want to make your life happy and worth while, which is what God wishes you to make it, you must begin immediately to train yourself in the habit of thought selection and thought control. This will be exceedingly difficult for the first few days, but if you persevere you will find that it will become rapidly easier, and it is actually the most interesting experiment that you could possibly make. In fact, this thought control is the most thrillingly interesting hobby that anyone could take up. You will be amazed at the interesting things that you will learn about yourself, and you will get results almost from the beginning.
Now many people knowing this truth, make sporadic efforts from time to time to control their thoughts, but the thought stream being so close as I have pointed out and the impacts from outside so constant and varied, they do not make very much progress. That is not the way to work. Your only chance is definitely to form a new habit of thought which will carry you through when you are preoccupied or off your guard as well as when you are consciously attending to the business. This new thought habit must be definitely acquired, and the foundation of it can be laid within a few days, and the way to do it is this: Make up your mind to devote one week solely to the task of building a new habit of thought, and during that week let everything in life be unimportant as compared with that. If you will do so, then that week will be the most significant week in your whole life. It will literally be the turning point for you. If you will do so, it is safe to say that your whole life will change for the better. In fact, nothing can possibly remain the same. This does not simply mean that you will be able to face your present difficulties in a better spirit; it means that the difficulties will go. This is the scientific way to Alter Your Life, and being in accordance with the Great Law it cannot fail. Now do you realize that by working in this way you do not have to change conditions? What happens is that you apply the Law, and then the conditions change spontaneously. You cannot change conditions directly you have often tried to do so and failed but go on the seven day mental diet and conditions must change for you.
This then is your prescription. For seven days you must not allow yourself to dwell for a single moment on any kind of negative thought. You must watch yourself for a whole week as a cat watches a mouse, and you must not under any pretense allow your mind to dwell on any thought that is not positive, constructive, optimistic, kind. This discipline will be so strenuous that you could not maintain it consciously for much more than a week, but I do not ask you to do so. A week will be enough, because by that time the habit of positive thinking will begin to be established. Some extraordinary changes for the better will have come into your life, encouraging you enormously, and then the future will take care of itself. The new way of life will be so attractive and so much easier than the old way that you will find your mentality aligning itself almost automatically.
But the seven days are going to be strenuous. I would not have you enter upon this without counting the cost. Mere physical fasting would be child's play in comparison, even if you have a very good appetite. The most exhausting form of army gymnastics, combined with thirty-mile route marches, would be mild in comparison with this undertaking. But it is only for one week in your life, and it will definitely alter everything for the better. For the rest of your life here, for all eternity in fact, things will be utterly different and inconceivably better than if you had not carried through this undertaking.
Do not start it lightly. Think about it for a day or two before you begin. Then start in, and the grace of God go with you. You may start it any day in the week, and at any time in the day, first thing in the morning, or after breakfast, or after lunch, it does not matter, but once you do start you must go right through for the seven days. That is essential. The whole idea is to have seven days of-unbroken mental discipline in order to get the mind definitely bent in a new direction once and for all.
If you make a false start, or even if you go in well for two or three days and then for any reason "fall off" the diet, the thing to do is to drop the scheme altogether for several days, and then to start again afresh. There must be no jumping on and off, as it were. You remember that Rip Van Winkle in the play would take a solemn vow of teetotalism, and then promptly accept a drink from the first neighbor who offered him one, saying calmly: "I won't count this one." Well, on the seven-day mental diet this sort of thing simply will not do. You must positively count every lapse, and whether you do or not, nature will. Where there is a lapse you must go off the diet altogether and then start again.
Now, in order, if possible, to forestall difficulties, I will consider them in a little detail.
First of all, what do I mean by negative thinking? Well, a negative thought is any thought of failure, disappointment, or trouble; any thought of criticism, or spite, or jealousy, or condemnation of others, or self-condemnation; any thought of sickness or accident; or, in short, any kind of limitation or pessimistic thinking. Any thought that is not positive and constructive in character, whether it concerns you yourself or anyone else, is a negative thought. Do not bother too much about the question of classification, however; in practice you will never have any trouble in knowing whether a given thought is positive or negative. Even if your brain tries to deceive you, your heart will whisper the truth.
Second, you must be quite clear that what this scheme calls for is that you shall not entertain, or dwell upon negative things. Note this carefully. It is not the thought that come to you that matter, but only such of them as you choose to entertain and dwell upon. It does not matter what thoughts may come to you provided you do not entertain them. It is the entertaining or dwelling upon them that matters. Of course, many negative thoughts will come to you all day long. Some of them will just drift into your mind of their own accord seemingly, and these come to you out of the race mind. Other negative thoughts will be given to you by other people, either in conversation or by their conduct, or you will hear disagreeable news perhaps by letter or telephone, or you will see crimes and disasters announced in the newspaper headings. These things, however, do not matter as long as you do not entertain them. In fact, it is these very things that provide the discipline that is going to transform you during this epoch making week. The thing to do is, directly the negative thought presents itself - turn it out. Turn away from the newspaper; turn out the thought of the unkind letter, or stupid remark, or what not. When the negative thought floats into your mind, immediately turn it out and think of something else. Best of all, think of God as explained in The Golden Key perfect analogy is furnished by the case of a man who is sitting by an open fire when a red hot cinder flies out and falls on his sleeve. If he knocks that cinder off at once, without a moment's delay to think about it, no harm is done. But if he allows it to rest on him for a single moment, under any pretense, the mischief is done, and it will be a troublesome task to repair that sleeve. So it is with a negative thought.
Now what of those negative thoughts and conditions which it is impossible to avoid at the point where you are today? What of the ordinary troubles that you will have to meet in the office or a home? The answer is, that such things will not affect your diet provided that you do not accept them, by fearing them, by believing them, by being indignant or sad about them, or by giving them any power at all. Any negative condition that duty compels you to handle will not affect your diet. Go to the office, or meet the cares at home, without allowing them to affect you. (None of these things move me) and all will be well. Suppose that you are lunching with a friend who talks negatively-Do not try to shut him up or otherwise snub him. Let him talk, but do not accept what he says, and your diet will not be affected. Suppose that on coming home you are greeted with a lot of negative conversation-do not preach a sermon, but simply do not accept it. It is your mental consent, remember, that constitutes your diet. Suppose you witness an accident or an act of injustice let us say Instead of reacting with pity or indignation, refuse to accept the appearance at its face value; do anything that you can to right matters, give it the right thought and let it go at that. You will still be on the diet.
Of course, it will be very helpful if you can take steps to avoid meeting during this week anyone who seems particularly likely to arouse the devil in you. People who get on your nerves, or rub you up the wrong way, or bore you, are better avoided while you are on the diet; but if it is not possible to avoid them, then you must take a little extra discipline that is all.
Suppose that you have a particularly trying ordeal before you next week. Well, if you have enough spiritual understanding you will know how to meet that in the spiritual way; but for our present purpose, I think I would wait and start the diet as soon as the ordeal is over. As I said before, do not take up the diet lightly, but think it over well first.
In closing, I want to tell you that people often find that the starting of this diet seems to stir up all sorts of difficulties. It seen is as though everything begins to go wrong at once. This may be disconcerting, but it is really a good sign. It means that things are moving; and is not that the very object we have in view? Suppose your whole world seems to rock on its foundations. Hold on steadily; let it rock, and when the rocking is over. the picture will have reassembled itself into something much nearer to your heart's desire.
The above point is vitally important and rather subtle. Do you not see that the very dwelling upon these difficulties is in itself a negative thought, which has probably thrown you off the diet? The remedy is not, of course, to deny that your world is rocking in appearance, but to refuse to take the appearance for the reality (Judge not according to appearances but judge righteous judgment).
Closing words of caution-Do not tell anyone else that you are on the diet, or that you intend to go on it. Keep this tremendous project strictly to yourself. Remember that your soul should be the Secret Place of the Most High. When you have come through the seven days successfully, and secured your demonstration, allow a reasonable time to elapse to establish the new mentality, and then tell the story to anyone else who you think is likely to be helped by it.
And, finally, remember that nothing said or done by anyone else can possibly throw you off the diet. Only your own reaction to the other person's conduct can do that. "
|10 Oct 2004||Neniu||Probably get some barbiturates or benzodiazepines from your parents. These sleeping pills usually go by a different name. There are different kinds of benzodiazepines such as lormetazepam, cloxazolam. Usually lormetazepam is shipped in 2 mg pills. You have to take a few and store them away. Just a small amount so that your parents won't notice. Next you need alcohol, since the lormetazepam do not dissolve in water but do in alcohol. This will help you absorb the dosis more quickly. I don't know about the quantity that must be taken, but they don't put enough pills in one box to cause serious harm. 8 mg renders you dissy and causes you to vomit after one hour. You can still see things sharply but you can't focus both your eyes at the same object, which means you have double vision. You will need way more than 8 mg. Death is caused because you stop breathing. Anyways, not being 13 I can't really give you any information about the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13 since I have not done it myself, and I have no intention of killing myself.
Warning: lormetazepam should not be used on patients with suicidal tendencies. There are other more therapeutic drugs that can be used.
Anyways if you feel like killing yourself and there is nobody around, just go to the movies. They are usually made to entertain people. It will put you in a different state of mind. In a totally different world, just like the real world does matter no more. (Incorrect English, yep I suck at it.)
You've been living in a dreamworld Neo.
|08 Oct 2004||Will||Hey, yippee!! I dunno what happened but I can read again. Perhaps the marshall got shot.|
|08 Oct 2004||Justin||I'm with Jessica just shut up and do it already!!|
|08 Oct 2004||alice||manger des ours en sucre en révant sur un pokémon|