|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|08 Sep 2004||Me||I am killing myself right now. I have drank enough alcohol and I have 24 Dilantin and a lot of other drugs. I am a social worker and have a Master's but it doesn't seem to matter. I am about to down to pills.|
|08 Sep 2004||Alicia||I can't believe that someone so sick and twisted had to come up with a website as sick as this!!
I am so sorry for anyone out there who is feeling so horrible that they feel that ending their life is the only way to make themselves feel better. Well, if you end your life, you won't feel better and get the experience the happiness that you truly deserve. I've been there and because I stuck it out and got the help that I needed, I am doing better than I ever thought I would. I didn't have a single person in my life. No parents, friends or school counselors and I still managed to make it through. God puts us all on this planet for a reason. And someday you will find that reason, but you must be patient so that it can get to you. You will deeply hurt many people if you do anything to yourself. Even if you don't have anyone in your life, someone is watching you and loving you this very moment. If you have absolutely no one in your life that is willing to listen, then please feel free to contact me. My email is email@example.com. I am willing to listen and I care. And remember, I have been there. It was horrible and I had to make many sacrifices to get where I am. But I have everything in my life that I have ever wanted. I love life, it's wonderful. You will one day feel the same way. It took me 4 years to get where I am. And to some that seems like an eternity and sometimes it felt that way. But if you just stick it out and please remember "Everything takes time!!!" Please email me anytime. Thanks!!
Also, here is a website that I think all of you should be reading instead of this one. So please take 5 minutes and read it. It will help. http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
|08 Sep 2004||Michael||hi well i've lost the will to live in a home of an angry mother who thinks i'm not good enough for anything and a father who is never home..... i thought about it and i realized it would be easier to just end it of course people would be sad but they would get over it and live the best life they could possibly leave. i've never done drugs or drank booze or anything i'm in the clean frame of mind i just give up i can never be good enough for my mother who threatens me by saying she'll hit me or kick me out i'm tired of my father never being around i'm tired of living in the god damn place i'm sick of living, period.
i dont think anyone can help me now
|07 Sep 2004||Flamer||HI!!!!!
Today I would like to say a friendly hello to "Sad" and "Deadlypudding". Hey guys!! How's it going!? Now, Mr. Sad, the reason your wife wants to leave you is because you are a pathetic fucking pussy piece of shit who can't even live his own life. What woman would want to be with a man who is such a pussy, and so dependant that he can't even go on and live his own got dang life without depending on someone? The answer is no woman in the right mind would want that. Now before you go do something fucked up and kill yourself, I'm actually trying to help you, you fucking pathetic loser. Don't be a fucking chump ass and go through with it because if you do, then you really are a pathetic son of a bitch, and your wife is right for leaving you. Instead, MOVE ON!!!!! Get over the bitch, you don't need that cunt! Go find some other bitch and doink her in the ass. Then tell her to get the fuck out of your house because you don't need nothin from nobody!!! You have a good life all on your own. Oh, the doinking of women is optional..... but you definitely need to get over your ex. You don't need her. Move on. Be happy with yourself, dependent on no one but YOU!!!!! Your life is worth more than anything your ex could give you.
And now, Mr. Deadlypudding, if you were serious with what you wrote, you are fucking stupid. If you were joking, you are a fucking comic genius! I can't even tell if you're serious, so you just might be the greatest comic genius of all time. You wrote,
"Everyone and I mean everyone at one point has wanted to die or kill themselves"
No I am afraid you are incorrect. Not everyone thinks about killing themselves, just fucked up mother fuckers like you.
"Now hurting yourself isn't being suicidal it's being sadomasochistic and that boils down to being sexually aroused by pain."
Oh really, is that what hurting yourself means? How about this.... FUCK YOU!!!!! I'm not going to try to make some joke about you because I don't feel like putting in the effort, so I'll just say FUCK YOU!!!! Sadomasochism has nothing to do with suicidal people you dumb shit face, and nothing to do with self mutilators, or self destructive people. Fuck, there's some amazing burn somewhere out there for you, but I couldn't come up with it fast enough so fuck yoU!! Well, I'll just let you make fun of yourself...
"I admit I like to be spanked or tied up sometimes when I do it but I don't slit my wrists and use the blood for lube."
|07 Sep 2004||no hands||shit, what a hilerious sight!
well, thanks Wil for your introduction into religion (if you were talking to me)
But I still reckon it is a load of steaming crap. Sure, some "virgin" may have had divine sex with some guy. But his FATHER and SON too??? (apparently it would be impossible not to, if they are all the same people)
|07 Sep 2004||WHY R GIRLS SO EVIL TO ME||IM 28 AND LIFE IS SHIT ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO SETTLE DOWN HAVE A FAMILY AND B HAPPY WELL WHEN I WAS 16 I MEET THIS GIRL FELL IN LOVE WITH HER SHE GOT PREGNANT I WATCHED THE BABY BORN AND EVERYTHIING THEN ON MY 21ST SHE TELLS ME HE AINT MINE, I WAS WORKING AWAY ALOT TO GIVE HER ALL SHE WANTED AND WHEN I WAS SHE WAS SHAGGING MY BEST MATE AND THAT WHO D BABY TURNED OUT TO B, IT WRECKED MY LIFE FROM HAVING ALL I EVER WANTED TO HAVING NOTHING I TRYED TO KILL MYSELF I TOOK 90 DG.S AND AFTER A WHILE I FELT THEM NOT WORKING SO I SLASHED MY WRISTS OPEN VERY DEEP AND MANY TIMES. MY MUM WHO WAS MENT TO B OUT ALL NIGHT AND SHE STILL DONT KNOW Y SHE CAME BACK, BUT SHE FOUND ME IN A BIG POOL OF BLOOD. I GOT RUSHED TO HOSPITAL WHERE I HAD TO BE BROUGHT BACK 3 TIMES. I HATED HER FOR SAVING ME STILL DO FOR D FIRST TIME I HAD NO PAIN OR HURT. I STARTED SELF HARMING QUITE BAD. ANYWAY WE MOVED AWAY FROM THE AREA TO GET ME AWAY. AFTER GETTING MY HEAD BACK TOGETHER I STARTED A NEW LIFE WELL I FOUND ANOTHER GIRL WE GOT ON GREAT. THEN I LOST MOST OF MY EYE SIGHT THROUGH NO FAULT OF MY OWN WELL SHE LEFT ME BECAUSE OF THAT. IM A REALLY LOVING KIND LAD NUT NOW IM SO LONELY I DONT WANT TO GO ON IM JUST LIVING TO DIE. I WASNT THE PRETTIEST OF LADS TO START WITH NOW IM REGISTERED BLIND NOBODY WILL WANT ME SO I JUST CANT SEE D POINT. ITS SO LONELY AND SCARY WITH MY EYES I LIVE ON MY OWN AND DONT SEE ANYONE, IVE ALWAYS TREATED FEMALES WITH RESPECT NEVER GONE TO HIT OR HURT THEM BUT YET THEY DESTROYED ME, SO WHAT IS THE POINT IM NEVER GOING TO B IN LOVE AGAIN AND THATS ALL IVE EVER WANTED, I CANT EVEN GET KILLING MYSELF RIGHT SO IF ANYONE AS GOT ANY GOOD IDEAS TO GET ME OUT OF THIS FUCKED UP WORLD PLZ TELL ME
|07 Sep 2004||Will Snow||Death is coming soon.............|
|07 Sep 2004||xxx||drowning i have set a date for three days from now|
|07 Sep 2004||Sad||Hi... I'm 27 and my wife is leaving me. I love her so much, and I have been faithful and will do anything for her but she is no longer in love with me.. I don't want to go on. I know this is sad, but I don't know how to end it. I am a peaceful person and would like to go peacefully without pain....|
|07 Sep 2004||Pat||Alright people- i have been replying to alot of you but i still have yet to receive feedback. So once again, CONTACT ME IF YOU NEED HELP IN ANY WAY! I have lost alot of friends due to suicide. And trust me, its no fun.
EMAIL ME! or CONTACT ME THRU AIM!
|07 Sep 2004||Deadlypudding||Now listen I think every suicidal person should really ask themselves "Why would things be better if I was dead?" I think you all should post why let us know why this is a such a "good" thing. Everyone and I mean everyone at one point has wanted to die or kill themselves it's human nature to fell unwanteed and unloved what's not normal is actually hurting yourself. Now hurting yourself isn't being suicidal it's being sadomasochistic and that boils down to being sexually aroused by pain. But you guys make it sound like you do it to ease your pain... so does that mean that being suicidal is a sexual turn on? I admit I like to be spanked or tied up sometimes when I do it but I don't slit my wrists and use the blood for lube. C'mon guys what's the deal? You can stop hurting yourself. If your so suicidal why don't you take up sky diving, bungee-jumping, have a lot of sex, or even do dangerous drugs? They all could kill you but
A.) It wouldn't be your fault and
B.) You would have fun doing it.
Just remember my words and the words of R.E.M. Everybody HUrts sometimes so hold on.
|06 Sep 2004||trinh||Reading these stories have put my life into perspective and that its like my life isnt worth ending compared to everyone else. But their stories have been told and so will mine. Im not going to say my age; its irrelevant right now.
Well, I have always been a happy kid, you know a person people would call normal, I guess I was average. But there was always a part of me that struggled to be part of society or to be normal like everyone else. I always tried so hard to be accepted but everywhere I went people would just judge me, and it made me feel so crap about myself. So finally I just gave up trying in everything. As I hit my 11th grade, I met a girl and she showed me it was okay to be myself, and being myself was cool enough. Things were getting better again. I had never been so happy in my life ever. The best of memories were made with her. I became her new closest friend; you know the kind of friend she was always afraid to have because of past experiences leaded her to believe otherwise. I wasnt religious but I finally found my new faith.
But as the friendship progressed I made mistakes, mistakes that she said was forgivable, but I never forgave myself and I knew deep down that she never had forgiven me even though she said she did. I always looked at these mistakes and allowed them to take over me and so the depression began here. Things werent the same anymore.
I was constantly jealous that she was talking to other people because she never wanted to be a best friend to me, the way I wanted her to be to me. She was a person who always wanted a lot of friends while I only wanted one friend; I guess thats where our opinions differed. I would try so hard to make her happy, though I did on countless occasions; I guess it just wasnt enough for her. She would treat me like any other person. Though Im sure she felt more than that, she was afraid to say anything, so I didnt want to make assumptions so I stuck to my initial thought: I was like everyone else to her. That is what ultimately brought me down. After that everything went downhill.
Friends were worried about me but I couldnt bare the thought that my new light in life rejected me. When school was bad and all.
I found myself crying myself to sleep each night because what was there never came back and Id keep thinking of how persistent I was being with making the same mistakes that I promised not to make. For attention Id threaten to kill myself. I also started to cut. Cutting always seemed to make it better, my tears would dry and I would smile knowing that I felt better. Again cry for forgiveness.
I didnt know what else to do to prove to her my worthiness and loyalty to her, nothing seemed enough for her.
The first time I tried to kill myself I told her and she sympathized with me begging me never to do it again. The second time was similar but she still did not feel the same way I did, wanting to be best friends, but she was strict on me not doing it again. But as the threats became repetitive she began to call me stupid and turn away. All of my friends started to become afraid of who I was or who Ive become. Though they did try to help me. Trying to get me some professional help. But nothing seemed to work, it was like they didnt understand me. I think by the end they just started to get annoyed with me.
Well, the cause of this all was ultimately me, I was jealous of who she talked to and what she did. Just because she didnt feel the same way. At one point she was depressed too because of the mistakes Id made that had disappointed her. She felt crappy due to her loss of her first close friend and so I, having the soft spot for her, always there for her when she needed a shoulder to cry on. It was hard because I knew deep down I was the cause of these problems, that didnt make me feel much better.
Grade 12 hit and so I was failing my courses. I mean the beginning was nice and all and then I hit a wall. My friends still watched out for me at this point. At a friends party she was talking to everyone but me and so to take care of this pain I over dosed on my anti depressants and ended up in a hospital ruining my friends birthday party. By the end I stopped attending all of my classes and failed my courses and by that time they had up and left me, and the girl I loved. They left me to deal with these problems on my own. What friends huh. When I needed them the most they left, all at the same time too. Now, I have no one.
In total I had tried to kill myself 3 times. Once trying to suffocate myself with a plastic bag. Another overdosing on antidepressants. Another over does which made me vomit for hours. Each time was a cry for forgiveness from her; that I knew deep down would never come. Why did I wake up each time!
Apologies wont even cut it for them, they would tell me to get over it. And Im sure a lot of you have heard the same thing. Im sure its crap. I was just a memory to them and they dont even miss me. I guess I am that worthless as I thought since I was little. I dont think Ill be happy ever again. Was it them or me?
Now the only thoughts that get me happy or even a bit excited are thoughts of suicide. They are what make my day. My moods change, there are times when I am in need and want her there with me, or there are times I sit there and think about how I can get revenge on them for leaving me. There are problems everywhere I look, at home, at school, and I would look to the friends side, but I dont even have any that understand me. Everyone and everything I look at now has a flaw, its all just not worth living for I finally realized. Part of me sees the reality, the ugliness of mankind, the stinks of this city of this planet, wishing the world be destroyed hundred times and cast into the sun. Wishing People stop pretending that their life has a purpose, hoping people remember from the time when we are born, we are waiting to die. ...How many justifications do you see per day? How many lies do you hear per week? Layer upon layer, I wanted to fucking uncover all your layers. I want to expose all of you liars out there. I hate this fucking planet. I hate all of you. People are the worst thing that happened on this earth; theyll let you down. Your dreams will be crushed. Never dream, never have faith.
School starts again, and Im not grade 12 but grade going back. And school is the place where it all went wrong, how can I deal with this, I think it will drive me to my death. All of it, the rejection and the memories.
I know, I have a family that loves me, but sometimes its not enough. I want to die, but Im afraid of the pain. I do want to just die in a car accident or whatever because Im too cowardly to kill myself. But no matter how I die, I want them to be responsible for what happened to me, because in the end it was them who couldve helped me. It was them who could have brought happiness back to my life. They will regret. They will.
This is whom I am, because of the girl and friends who had left me in my times of desperate need.
If you guys are reading this and Im dead, my final words are: its your fault. Live with the guilt.
Ill die soon.
|06 Sep 2004||john||a how do you leave my probs on here and do u have to b under 13|
|06 Sep 2004||aneglgurl||oh mouchette you think this is a joke, putting my post in your favourite section. it fucking well isnt you know, I am only 15 and imagine the horror and embarasment of what you did caused to me. what next, will you put farting sound effects onto your site for unsuspecting suicidal people? I had to get here via google this time as I did not dare enter the main area of your site.|
|06 Sep 2004||Will Snow||For a start 'God' and 'Jesus' and the 'Holy Spirit' are the Holy trinity. So God and Jesus are the same even though Jesus is Gods son. I know its terribly confusing. Even i get confused sometimes by that. Well, I thought of hanging many times, particularly in my B+B bedroom. It would be easy to do as i have washing line with me. ummm.... perhaps one day.|
|06 Sep 2004||kay||hey well my life is soo fucked and has always been fucked and im only 16! ive tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrist untill the blood started clotting and i passed out...the next thing i know im in a fucking mental ward....i want to die so bad but i want the attempt to fucking work i was thinking about stabbing myself with a kitchen knife...does anyone know where i have to stab in order for death to be effective??? please help thanx.....feel free to email me to read my morbid thoughts and poetry|
|06 Sep 2004||Candy||sneek out get drunk and high FEEL NO PAIN and slit ya god damn wrist and neck i've try'ed it but one of my god damn friends called 911 so make sure your alone or put the toster on the eage of the bathtub and fill the bitch up get in with the toster in hand or my FAV. slit ya wrist but i only say slit your wrist to those who love knives like i do mmmmm mmmmmmm|
|05 Sep 2004||Stephanie||An opera singer, Sarah Brightman said in one of her songs "Why deny yourself, don't just let life pass you by like Winter in July." Don't let life pass you by, don't say that life isn't worth living because it is. If you feel the need to talk to some one my E-mail address is RisingStar485@netscape.net, I will be more than happy to talk to you.|
|05 Sep 2004||child of god||there isnt and to the makers of this web site for every action is a reaction so you may not see it now but youll get whats comming to you when someone you love kills them selfs there is always away in jesus he is the truth and walking with him makes everything better so instead of yelling bad things like everyone does to you im going to pray for you you do help and i hope you get it|
|05 Sep 2004||fuck you||your a fucking dumbshit if you think that life isn't worth living then you need to get high and get laid. Dont be a fucking pussy and talk about it though - either get on with life or just kill yourself but dont bitch about it like this. what a fucking loser|